im sick of being sick. stop it. no more. cut it out.
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Biting chewing frothing at the mouth at a vn artist my sister found who i think i can trust with getting a comm of honey with all my childhood viet foods i just have to wait for them to OPEN 😭
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Can you draw 008 oiled up twerking please please please please please please please please please please please pleasep please please
Pretty please 👁️\__/👁️
Pls. 👉👈
Vile.
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i think i have some kind of vomiting disorder cause i'm just chilling after waking up and my body's like SINK. NOW
cyclic vomiting syndrome is my best guess which is basically just "throws up unexplainably disorder" anyways but idk what causes it..... maybe weed? sometimes i cough too hard and start dry heaving but holy shit i cannot be doing that at the function. i actually gave up alcohol (not "sober" so i still occasionally indulge) back in like march because i took ONE shot at someone's house and threw up all over their bathroom (which i cleaned and sanitized alone and the owner was super understanding) but that was enough for me to be like um clearly this is something i can't engage in easily and reasonably.
also you know who should actually not be allowed to drink? runners. most god awful people on the planet to drink with. my ex roommate LOVED literally just getting up and running away after we'd all been drinking, it was the saddest excuse for wanting to be chased ever, fuck off. i should've seen that insecurity red flag from a mile away.
ok post over
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after being in an echo chamber for so long (being told i am completely crazy insane for pestering my mother to take me to the pain clinic i was referred to months ago to get diagnosed), having multiple people say Hey What The Fuck Eight Months? Its Been Eight Fucking Months Since Then? has been the wildest shit. this is great. one of those people actually had the power to give her a deadline for when to schedule it by and like. wow. someday soon i may not be confined to my bed almost all day every day. i may get to go back to volunteering at my job i love
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vent post under the cut, feel free to keep scrolling lol
(tw for mentions of… eating disorders I guess. Just to be safe)
I’ve spent so much of my life pretending to be confident and comfortable with my body but the truth is I hate literally everything about myself and I don’t know how to admit that any way but through writing it like this where no one I know in my daily life will see it lol
I hate that I’m hungry all the fucking time. I love all of my irl friends so fucking much but they are all so small and half of them complain about it and I’m like?? Do you have any idea how much I would give to look like you? The others complain about being too big and I’m just standing there, like twice their size. I go without eating hardly anything for days to feel some sort of control and then when I do eat it’s like this shameful thing.
And it’s all very complicated and it overlaps with so many other things, like how all of my self-worth is based on how much I can give people. Because if I can make things even a little easier for someone then at least I’m not completely worthless, you know? Like sure I hate my body but it means I’m good at comforting the people I love when they need it. But that’s it.
Idk I’m just very tired of trying to be so strong and confident for everyone all the fucking time and I don’t know how much longer I can keep doing it, because I’m not either of those at all
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Thank you guys sm for giving all those kit adopts a home!! :D
If you guys liked the base, a version of the base is up on my gumroad!
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