#today is the oversharing day

[nucifraga]

big day for my thoughts of things other than mike crew.

only listened to his statement 3 times today. as a treat i'm going to ramble on about his cadence; it's one of the reasons i've been able to listen to it *checks notes* at least 30 times in the last week.

it always catches me off-guard, because he makes pauses at places i don't expect him to. normally, when people speak, they pause at joining or connecting words, but mike constantly, throughout his statement, stops at odd places, like:

"exists in my mind... completely detached"

"dreamed that night of... shifting, branching"

they're not indicated in the transcript, because they're too short to really count, but it happens multiple times throughout his statement, like he's struggling for words, having difficulty either recalling or articulating what had happened. i adore either possibility, or both at the same time, because for the former you have his self-admitted "sometimes it's hard to keep track" & for the latter you have the obviously traumatic childhood and his "i'm not usually the sort for speeches".

i think when i first listened to his statement back in 2020, it kind of annoyed? me? because i was so used to mr. j. sims, oxford graduate, and his smooth posh voice, but now that my eyes have been opened it's just part of his charm.

it's got to be something about the dopamine expectation vs. actuality thing; if you know something too well it gets tiring, which is how i get sick of songs when i loop them. but even though i know basically every word of those 14 mins where mike crew speaks, i don't know the way he says it with 100% certainty, so each time i listen i'm treated to several surprises along the way and my brain loves it!!

(also tangentially related -- i always expect him to say 'decade' when he talks about the first 'real' storm in 10 years, because of course 10 years is a decade,, but maybe that's my literature-brain speaking? which is interesting because i'd thought with the amount of book-hunting mike's done he'd be more used to fancier terminology. or maybe he's just more utilitarian in his speech. or i'm just reading too much into a single word choice in a 1.5k+ word statement, which is far more likely)

#only listened 3x today which is an improvement from 5x yest #8x the day before #& 10-15x on sunday #mikecrew #oversharing rambles #im going to listen to it again before bed but-- #mike crew #tma #the magnus archives #thinking of telling my new friend to her face that i'd win in an autism-off (for some reason she isn't sure i have it yet) #ok actually i lied ive just relistened twice while typing this post up lmao #i have so many thoughts about the complexity and dichotomy of mike's emotions when he talks about fear desperation fright

[malhare]

Thank you so so much to everyone who has donated and reblogged my post, it means the world to me!! It's a massive psychological weight off my shoulders to be able to buy medicine or groceries without obsessively budgeting to the cent to ensure that I'll make rent

#Update for anyone who is wondering: My mom is out of the ICU and back in the regular wing of the hospital which is a good sign #She's fatigued; uncoordinated; and a bit confused but otherwise so far it seems like she doesn't have any super serious side effects #I've been with her at the hospital today and I've had to tell them THREE separate times not to give her fent. Tiring day. But Im home now #Hopefully she'll be able to come home in a few days because I loathe being in the hospital it's kind of triggering #As soon as I was like 'I need to stop oversharing online' I was like 'jk I just had a major family emergency let's tell the internet' #It's not easy for me to be vulnerable so thank you to everyone who has been so kind to me during this #malhare.txt

[emometalhead]

Every Esther Day video makes me cry, but this one was especially emotional. Thank you, John for the vulnerability. Happy Esther Day, everyone. To my mutuals, fellow Nerdfighters, and everyone else that sees this, I love you. Spread the love today. Make sure the people you love know you love them. ❤️

#I reread Esther's book This Star Won't Go Out occasionally #this year I couldn't due to my own experience with a family member battling cancer #Esther's impact will go on and her legacy is beautiful #share the love today you guys #esther day #nerdfighteria #john green #coffee company #ashley overshares #Youtube

[haruchiyos]

Guyyyyyyyyys so many nice things have / are happening. I’m gonna cry

#I’m two days away from my festival debut!!! so many loved ones are traveling for it #and I’m in a ‘probation period’ with a film prod company that’s considering bringing me on as a producer #we had a big work outing and everyone seemed to really like me #the owner has also praised me a lot so hopefully things work out #oh and the eclipse is today and I’m traveling to film it and do a small ritual #and I have a date tonight !!! #🖤.az overshares #eeeeeeeeeee<333

[just-another-bored-killjoy]

i would like to announce that yesterday was the first time ever my parent gendered me correctly that too in public that too in two different languages. yesterday was a great day.

#oversharing on tumblr part unknown #at first i got shocked hearing ''him'' then he repeated the same sentence in hindi with ''ga'' and my face went :3 #he was here for only one hour took the train back yesterday itself #either a) didnt want to make things uncomfortable because it was a brief meeting #or b) bengali man speaks different languages #perhaps the second one but still hard to believe it happened twice #yesterday was a nice day #today not so nice #yesterday's that lunch made me sick</3

[americanrecord]

Good morning, Kelsey!! How was yesterday? I hope today is wonderful!!

hi, ashley!! happy thursday!!

yesterday was fine, i just made my job spreadsheet and had some time to myself because everybody else was at work!! anyway, tmi warning for sickness?? day was going really nice….until….like midnight-ish, in which case i got theeeee worst stomach ache of my LIFE. i eventually fell asleep around 1-something & woke up at like 3 because my stomach still hurt. i ended up laying on the bathroom floor because i was so dizzy i almost passed out (this has never happened from a stomach ache like …ever. i don’t get dizzy often). anyway, so i then crawled back into bed, and somehow the worst part hasn’t even started yet, because then i got nauseous. and you know me, and u know my biggest fear (besides spiders) is throwing up 😭 literally haven’t thrown up since i was 7.

(well, actually, back to 0 days since i last threw up) but anyway, i called my aunt who was somehow already awake at 3:30 and then i just proceeded to want to KILL MYSELF for the next like 2.5 hours. literally as terrible as i remember it being. and the worst part?? i’m not sick 😭 it’s the food issues!!! i think it was the coffee i had coming back to haunt because it was just like acid & mostly dry-heaving. idk why i’m telling u all this but ummm, it was so so terrible. i will now NOT be playfully trying any of the foods i’m not supposed to eat because legitimately top 3 worst experiences of my life.

anyway…now i’m laying in bed. i was up from like 3-6 and had to fall asleep sitting up, which was…weird and kinda impossible, so i’m just chilling. idk what i’m gonna get up to today.

how are you? how was yesterday? hopefully, better than my night!!

#on today’s episode of kelsey overshares #it doesn’t help that my cousin made a soup with dairy in it that same coffee day that i just tried to skirt by with by only eating the #gnocchi #in short — DO NOT BREAK THE RULES!!!! #i’ve learned my lesson so hard it’s actually not one bit funny #ashley ❤︎ #✉︎ — confessions. #cw vomit mention

[go-to-the-mirror]

everyone be proud of me i came up with a headcanon for jon that’s actively me noticing something about him that isn’t like me, i am anti-projecting, this is so hard for me

#jonathan sims #tma #landscaping your mind chapter one #if you want to know the headcanon i can tell you but like it means i have to be Vunerable on the Internet and doing that is awkward #but yknow. i’ll do it if there’s a demand #sorry i can only be vunerable through Characters or if i’m deciding today’s the day for oversharing #today is not that day #not to me not if it's queue

[wigglesforsquiggles]

i love how inclusive my building is! making sure i sympathise with ppl who have tinnitus by providing a constant low ringing noise free of charge! coming from seemingly nowhere and everywhere at the same time, they truly went all out for realism ^_^

#wiggles overshares #i’m going to stab something it has been THREE DAYS #i thought i was hallucinating at first genuinely #i took videos to see if it was irl and i couldn’t hear it #only today i heard ppl discuss it in the corridor #and i punched the air like ‘IM NOT CRAZY LETS GO’

[desperatepleasures]

i am so stupidly hungry today idk what's wrong with me. it's like the kind of hunger I'd jack off to if it were happening in erotica but it's happening to me so it's just pissing me off lol

#doth oversharing hour #some kinda divine punishment like oh you think this is cool? HUNGER CURSE!!! #i have eaten Plenty so I'm just gonna drink some more water and see if that helps #i think i need caffeine too so I'm less cranky lol...today is a Bad day at work for me to be compromised

[suratan-zir]

Youtube keeps recommending these "relationships expert" shorts to me about narcissists and it reminds me of a conversation I had years ago.

Me: My therapist says that you're manipulative, you're manipulating me. Man from my past: People manipulate when they want to get some benefit from you, I'm not benefiting off of you in any way, therefore I have no reason to be manipulative. So this is nonsence.

What would a normal, non-manipulative person respond? "What? No I'm not. Why?" or something similar, right?

If something looks like crap, smells like crap and acts like crap, that's probably a bunch of crap.

#personal #don't know why i want to post this #just feel like being oversharing today #any day really

[viatrix-glow]

happy almost end of pride month i threw together somethin about my aroace thoughts (it’s only really about aro thoughts) . featuring my catsona . sorry it’s basically a storytime

#rambling #my art #personal #uhhhhhhh yea idk if anyone else will rlly find this relatable i just wanted to get my feelings out #i hope it doesn’t seem like i have held onto a part of my life from so long ago it’s literally just the only base point i have #btw i don’t want this to come off like . ohh i had one bad experience and swore off love forever cause that’s not what happened #i have had more thoughts abt all this this year than i have in a while and i really don’t like it! #pair that w the realization that i may not be as neurotypical as i thought has made for some interesting thoughts #one day i’ll figure it out better . probably . not today tho #life is confusing sometimes ✌🏽 #hope this isn’t too much oversharing i’m bad at writing concisely

[allylikethecat]

The way I just almost posted the new All the King’s Horses chapter before realizing it is Thursday not Friday 🫠

#allylikethecat #ally's thoughts #ally oversharing on the internet #the conference i went to started on Sunday #so in my brain ive already worked 4 days this week #so obviously today must be friday and the last one #why didnt anyone tell me it was wednesday last night when i was formatting the chapter in ao3 #in preperation for what i thought was today lol #i think im just fried mentally #the sessions were 7am-10pm every day #i would sneak out to answer wor emails and tumblr asks though

[lavenderselkie]

I will catch up on all my messages lol but my order came in to the women's bookstore for my birthday and I got LESBIAN BOOKS including one about a SELKIE. I gotta reread Daughters of Izdihar for the bookclub before Weavers but also definitely reading this selkie book first.

#selkie overshares #one day i will have a book tag but today is not that day #lesbian books #a day of fallen night #the weavers of alamaxa #a sweet sting of salt #lesbian selkies #i know i know i think nehal is bi but i put in my lesbian book pile if she has a gf. don't let me down malak mamdouh

[haruchiyos]

Hi hi little personal celebration in tags

#today was the first day I’ve felt good both mentally and physically since before October #light empty mind #no anxiety #and no chronic pain flair up today #it’s cathartic and I honestly feel like I may cry #🖤.az overshares #tw health mention #tw mental health #tw chronic pain

[victoryrifle]

btw why does skin absorb latex smell so easily like my bf wore my Micheal Myers mask yesterday and we cuddled and we both still smell like walking condoms even after washing tf agsbfn

#whatever you're thinking we did in the mask we didn't. I mean we did but not with the mask #been getting railed for the past 4 days I am SORE #why am I oversharing on this fine morning. may be the hangover #ya girl is an alcoholic after all. can't belive I have to get out of the house today too. I need more coffee #anna talks #delete later

[pallases]

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#i am feeling so ill rn for no reason and i need to shower and wash my hair so bad but i can tell if i do it rn it’ll make the #lightheadedness ten times worse and there is a nonzero chance i will just pass out in there 😭 #best guess is bc my period started today and yeah the first two days suck but they’re not usually This bad #personal #also this is the last thing i need rn it’s tech week and all rehearsals lately have been going/are going to go till 10 pm and i have no tim #to do all my assignments and my probability prof assigned a lab today that’s due TMRW AT MIDNIGHT? <- we usually get a class period btwn #it being assigned and the deadline and he’s not even giving us until the next class period to do it now like why is it due at midnight #instead of noon the next day… also i have not one but two exams immediately following this weekend and i really want to see my family for #easter but that sounds like such a bad idea im so unproductive at home and i’ll be busier than usual when i go home on top of that bc easte #and one of the exams is circuits for which exams are worth 90% of our grade and im averaging a 74% at the moment which is NOT #promising and. AAAAA #also have an exam this thursday which imnot nearly as worried abt but still. and i have to meet w someone abt a scholarship tmrw during my #free period so i Still can’t work on that stupid lab due tmrw night like. this sucks okay ‼️ #the engineering chronicles #the music chronicles #i know it was only a matter of time before musical started stressing me out but 😭 please give me back the joys of saturday’s rehearsal… #oh also there’s ANOTHER probability lab due day after easter and same day as circuits exam and the prof is the same so he knows full well #what he’s doing like. why are you not giving us the usual period in btwn for these anymore fuck you <3 #OH ALSO soldering qualification i need to do for like 3 hours wednesday the night before my thursday exam. nearly forgot abt that one i hat #it hereeee #soldering i could reschedule tho which i might do. but ive already pushed it back once so im like :/ do i really wanna do that #idk. still feel sick as fuck and still need to do physics prelab tonight 😭 it shouldn’t take long but i really don’t want to get up and #stare at my computer even more ifeel so awful rn #ANYWAY. sorry that was oversharing even for me i am just 😐 you know.