#tortie does poetry 📜

[tortiespaw]

treacherous

your words are treacherous,

laced with venom and spite,

words so forceful you can rock a boat,

am i just some punching bag to you?

you may never physically hit me,

but the emotional and mental reckoning has long been orchestrated,

it’s amusing really,

the way you speak to me,

i’m not lesser than you,

not like you think,

so stop with your words,

stop with the anger,

i am not your punching bag that you can let steam off on,

i am a human being,

i am more than this name,

more than this body,

more than this family,

i have a family,

one you aren’t apart of,

one with people online,

one with people nearby,

one with those faraway,

because these treacherous words,

will work on me no more,

i am done,

with all you represent,

and of the pain you’ve brought upon me.

#poetry #poem #tortie does poetry 📜 #just need to let off steam

[tortiespaw]

mist

the mist beckons me,

swirls around and strangles me,

there is no comfort,

no peace,

only screams,

only chaos,

what does it want?

it’s too loud to hear,

with all that’s happening inside this mist,

but it doesn’t seem like mist,

maybe it isn’t?

i can’t tell,

because it yanks me away from the truth,

the density smothering me,

maybe that’s just my own mind playing tricks on me once again,

but who’s to say the mist can’t take shape?

and come reveal my darkest fears,

and twisted esteem,

in the real world?

where i try to be free,

and run away from this disheveled place i call a brain.

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[tortiespaw]

Night

o mysteries,

in the deep,

with every dive into the depths you reveal more and more,

so demanding,

with what you hold,

but oh how splendid you are,

you can be so gentle and kind,

letting worries drift away,

and letting the day fade away,

how is it you’ve gotten to be this way?

is this just a barrier to ward off others?

or is it to protect something more?

there must be a reason.

so here i lay in the dark,

with baited breath,

what lurks i wonder?

is it the demanding side of you?

or is it the soft and kind side?

i would love to find out,

if you let me,

let me welcome you with open arms,

and see what you do,

whatever you choose,

i know there’s a reason,

there has to be a reason,

and if it’s no trouble at all,

i would like to thank thee with all my heart,

even if it’s the dark side,

i know there’s more to you,

deep down,

tucked away in the night,

time will be an ally,

when it comes to finding out more,

and being able to crack the code,

of what wanders in the night.

#i’m not sure how i feel about this #this is one of my more unsteady poems #dnsnsmsk #tortie does poetry 📜 #poetry #poems #daily poem

[tortiespaw]

love

o my love,

what you do to me,

your words of affection affect me so,

it’s no wonder i can never hold it together,

my heart races with every message sent,

and every word spoken,

and yet you’re so far away,

closer than the others,

yet so far,

it is ok though,

that’s what happens,

when you long for something you can’t reach,

so here i’ll stay,

until i can run away,

and be with you someday.

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[tortiespaw]

mirrors and taunts

the mirrors taunt me with the image of me,

my own mind taunts me of everything i see,

‘you aren’t worthy’

‘you aren’t beautiful’

‘you’re too emotional’

‘gods, you don’t show enough emotion’

it says these things so often,

i have no choice but to believe it,

to believe it’s twisted words like a dagger in a wound,

a wound so deep there's so little chance of being saved,

even the world taunts me so,

it isn’t all in my mind,

all these emotions,

that never get to see the light of day,

always masked behind a façade,

a façade so perfectly crafted since 2010,

that no one can tell there's anything wrong,

but there’s so much wrong,

i hate my body,

i hate my mind,

i hate everything but my eyes,

and even then,

they mock me too,

just like the eyes in the mirror,

who look back at me,

with disdain and a sneer,

i just want this to end.

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[tortiespaw]

would you..... maybe....write me a poem? no pressure if you're busy!! but if you wanna :)

i would love to 🥺

like a warm spring breeze,

your presence wraps around us,

brings us warmth and cools us down,

so elegant and graceful you are,

like daisies dancing in the wind,

so soft and so gentle,

always encompassing,

always leaving us wondering,

just when the next spring breeze will blow,

with a tender embrace,

how we love you so.

i hope you like it <3 it was made up on the spot 🥺

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[tortiespaw]

spiraling

spiraling,

falling,

warping,

deforming,

i can’t seem to stand still,

i can’t seem to break free,

help me,

someone

anyone,

help,

i’ve been maimed,

time and time again,

so how do i remain?

how do i get out of this hellish loop,

i just want out,

letmeout,

letme out,

let me out,

l e t m e o u t,

let me go,

i promise not to tell,

not a single soul!

and as i lay here,

even death pities me,

i can see it as their eyes gleam,

always pitying the living,

i need to get out,

i just want out,

tumbling,

scraping,

running,

falling,

spiraling.

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[tortiespaw]

dying light

hello?

are you out there?

i miss you so,

your tender embrace,

your darling voice,

the way my heart skips a beat,

whenever you’re near,

but like a crow to a flock,

the ending is near,

i feel so cold,

i can’t feel the shivering,

and the way my lips turn blue,

my fingers frozen stiff,

as i try so desperately to move,

and even now, i can’t hear your voice,

your darling voice,

i see your tears,

it isn’t your fault my dear,

so please don’t fret,

do not cry,

it was my time,

i just wish there was more,

more of us,

more than just this,

more time,

but alas,

i have to admit,

i’m not scared,

i’m welcoming it’s embrace,

like i welcomed yours,

all those years ago.

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[tortiespaw]

a compilation of the poems i’ve written for @sweatyteeth <33

spectacular

how spectacular you are,

grazing this earth,

like a shooting star,

shining among us,

blessed to be near,

you’ve made the darkness better,

more palatable,

for you shine so brightly,

that the sun can’t even beat you,

not even on its best days,

not even a cloud can dim you,

thank you,

for being a luminous outlet,

for a spectacular ending.

cottage

the cottage awaits,

a simple life and a simple path,

one of love and companionship,

one of beauty and grace,

a good life,

peace and tranquility,

with you by my side,

all will be grand,

for you make my heart flutter,

like no one else can.

yearning

my heart yearns for you,

with every word,

you type to me,

a soft melody plays,

and my heart beats,

more and more,

for it is you i adore,

and the words you speak,

i thank thee,

kindly and gently,

i will forevermore,

love you tenderly and deeply,

as you have done to me.

ripest of fruit

how can thee be so sweet?

you are the ripest of fruits,

not known to all of man,

but known to a few,

you have layers,

hard to peel,

but easy to heal,

beyond all those layers,

lies something dormant,

tender and sweet,

to hold you,

would be like heaven on earth,

alas,

distance and screens,

keep thee away,

out of my reach,

but forever in my heart,

as my heart beats for you,

and only you.

lover

you are absolutely exquisite,

a divine being,

who’s touched my heart,

makes my heart race,

from every message you send,

the feelings will not end,

they will not go away,

but i’m not sure i want them to go away,

it’s exciting,

and thrilling,

knowing you’ve been made happy,

by these sappy love poems,

of a lovesick fool,

I just hope,

there is a forevermore.

the falling

i’ve fallen for you,

it’s true,

my heart beats for you,

it races with every text you send,

and every poem you’ve written,

you’ve made my heart so happy,

so full of love and joy,

if only i could put into words,

just how much i love you.

lovesick fool

o to be a lovesick fool,

how timid one can be,

it is quite hard,

to place the pieces together,

to allow them to fit and mold,

when nothing ever seems to fit,

but when you came into my life,

in happenstance,

i just knew you were the one,

a missing puzzle piece,

to this elaborate puzzle,

i never wish to scare you,

i could never forgive myself if i did,

my heart skips a beat,

from every word that drips from your tongue,

like warm honey on a summers day,

a chilly breeze,

in the midst of autumn,

i adore you dear,

always have and always will.

screens

behind these screens,

i don’t know you,

but i want to,

i want to get to know you,

to learn about you,

what makes you smile,

what makes you sad,

what your favorite flower is,

and things you can’t live without,

i want to cherish and hold,

the person behind these barriers,

to make them feel loved,

as all things should be,

for it human nature,

to want to care for another living being,

and you’re that being,

that otherworldly being,

that comes from the cosmos,

and makes the sun shine on a cloudy day,

for it is you that i adore,

behind these screens.

shaking

my hands shake,

my heart beats faster,

with every poem you send,

every word that is written,

the words that i’ll forevermore hold near and dear,

thank you for being a blinding light,

in the darkness around me,

for i am infinitely grateful,

of the love you’ve shown me my dear,

i hope these moments are never fleeting,

within your mind,

like they are in mine.

world

all the people in the world,

all the choices you could have had,

and yet you settle for me,

and my cheesy and sappy love poems,

there’s so many people out there,

and i can't imagine a world without you,

thank you my dear.

electric

my body feels electric,

all tingly and shaky,

it’s exciting,

thrilling,

every message i receive,

makes me fall deeper for you,

you live so far away,

and i can only wonder,

what it would be like to hold your hand,

and send you a text everyday,

telling you good morning and to have a good day,

i am completely enamoured by you,

you and only you.

sneak away

we can sneak away,

make it to the hills,

live in our own little world,

no one has to know,

where we’ve gone,

we just need a place,

to call home,

and darling,

you are my home.

hearts

the beating of my heart

is never calm,

it only races,

when you’re here,

so come darling,

lay in my arms,

forget your worries,

and tell me about your day,

we’ll have all of eternity,

to just lay here in the sun,

maybe even by the fireplace,

or if that’s not what you prefer,

we can stargaze when our picnic is done,

for all i want is to be here with you,

so darling tell me,

can you feel my heart?

surrounded

you are a warmth that surrounds me on a chilly day,

a soft breeze that blows me away in the midsts of spring,

someone who’s so tender and kind,

i’m so happy to call you mine,

you bring so much out of me,

so many smiles,

so many jitters,

so many racing thoughts,

and all because of you,

here’s to a happily ever after.

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[tortiespaw]

serpent’s tongue

o life,

o valiant life,

you speak with a serpent's tongue,

so sharp and daring,

cunning yet wise,

it is not wasted,

not baited,

not bruised,

but almost…. caring,

how your sharp words cut daggers into my soul,

leave wounds that may never heal,

leave wounds just beyond the surface,

leave wounds where no man or woman can see,

unless i let them gaze upon the scars,

that mars my skin,

tarnishes my being,

and yet… i continue to listen,

to these daring words,

these stupid daring words,

they continue to drip from your tongue,

slicing every bit of flesh away,

every bit of emotion,

every bit of pain,

and yet…. i remain,

remain in the clutches of your arms,

almost tormenting me,

with your passion and strife,

you wish for me to get away,

‘you are no good for me’,

you always say,

and yet, you always draw me in again,

so how do i get away?

these sharp words cut me down,

leave me to rot,

i know i should go,

and yet…. i stay,

i just can't seem to let go,

let go of you and the edge of your words,

witnessing your serpent tongue in the day,

only to fall into your not-so-tender embrace when twilight breaks,

when the days bleed their crimson red blood,

when the sky paints its darkest shade of blue,

and yet….it’s refreshing,

in a way,

i wish not to escape,

to lay and take this feral beating,

to allow the serpent’s tongue to say what it needs to say,

should i stay?

or should i run for the hills,

bunker down and hide away?

i just can’t decide,

i can’t decide,

for the serpent’s tongue is a fickle thing,

always knows what to say,

calculated, mysterious, icy, collected,

keeps its distance,

unless it knows when to strike,

strike with no hesitation,

strike where it counts,

strike where it leaves you feeling numb and tattered,

cold and damned,

withering and still,

and yet… i beg for it,

life is a serpent’s tongue,

always repeating,

never retreating,

never the same way twice,

but ever present,

ever growing and knowing,

ever changing and showing,

it isn’t an easy escape,

a dagger may be all you need,

alas, the companions know,

they know what’s to go down,

what’s about to be shown,

and yet…. here i lay,

lay in your arms,

and wait for another day.

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[tortiespaw]

call

here i’ll sit,

in these desolate halls,

waiting for your calls,

calls that will never come,

my voice will be the only thing to ring out,

in the silence of it all,

and like crumpled paper,

i’ll throw it all away,

keep it at bay,

and miss my aim,

because what is life,

if not ever tormenting,

ever cold,

and never more,

these feelings fleeting,

like the light in these halls,

can you hear my call?

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[tortiespaw]

reason

i just needed a reason,

to hold on to these feelings,

to never let go,

because i can’t let go,

if it means letting you go,

you were taken so quickly,

is that why it’s so hard to love?

because i know the reality,

of what can happen in the blink of an eye,

to someone you love.

and to whatever high power,

why?

why do you do these things?

and forsake me even now?

these constant hollow moments,

filled by a short and brief happiness,

only to be plagued by more lows,

was the past not enough?

was it not enough to satisfy you?

did you have to add more on top of that?

to make me feel like i’m going to crumble and collapse,

i resent myself more than anyone will see,

because of these thoughts that ring out from me in my past,

to them i say fuck you,

and every bad thought you put me through.

these lows do not define me,

they shouldn’t define me,

i’m trying my best,

with whatever life throws my way,

if i can’t see it,

then who else can?

i just need to see,

please?

just give me a reason,

why you wish to damn me,

just one reason,

and i’ll go on my merry way,

on the road to where i can be condemned,

and like any good actor would do,

i’ll put on an act,

worthy of anyone’s gaze,

only to fall into myself later,

and give no reason,

no reason at all.

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