#ugh it's so far away

[bookofmirth]

Elain will likely form her own found family some day. I find it hard to believe that it’s the shadow twins or that she’ll even find it in the Night Court. Let me explain:

My theory is that Elain’s book will revolve around the Koschei plot. (Assuming Elain’s book is last) it’s only natural the big baddie of the spinoffs gets taken down in the final book. Elain has had visions of Koschei and that onyx box, which I think will play a viral role in destroying him (perhaps it’s where he hid his soul?) When the time finally comes to take Koschei down I think Elain will either step up and ask to help since she can identify that onyx box and maybe even the precise location/layout of Koschei’s swamp if she gets more visions surrounding him, OR Rhysand will send her, along with Lucien, to the continent. Vassa will definitely join since I’m sure she’d love to be a part of Koschei’s demise (if she isn’t back at the lake at this point yet) and perhaps Jurian will too. If this happens, this will not only give Elain and Lucien the chance to finally confront and get to know each other without running out of the room, it’ll give Elain the opportunity to explore the continent like she’s wanted to and do some self discover and healing. On top of that there’s a chance she’ll bond with the band of exiles and form her found family with them. Just a theory.

Anyway, whether it’s the band of exiles or some other characters, if they happen to be the people she forms that special bond with I hope parts of the fandom won’t pit them against the ic or compare them like they’re doing with the Valkyries. I’m desperately hoping that by the time the final book comes out the fandom wars will have died down.

I can see it happening like this! Elain is most clearly tied to Koschei in terms of villains and plots, so... it makes sense for her book to end out the series that way.

I would like to see Vassa free herself. And I can see Vassa being a good mentor/role model type person for Elain in the sense that Vassa won't just accept her fate, but fights for what she wants, which is exactly what Elain needs to do. Elain has been accepting for far too long and I think she needs to see someone who is unafraid of not only saying "no", but of expressing their wants as well. Elain doesn't really do either, she just accepts. It helped her survive for a long time but she doesn't need to just survive anymore.

I'll be glad when the ship war is over so we can get back having fights *just* about the characters themselves 🤣

#elain #acotar #ask #anon #ugh it's so far away

[puppetmaster13u]

Prompt 138

Danny squints up at the blurry form cradling him, brain trying to catch up with his situation. He can feel the pulse of his siblings’ cores nearby, gently pulsing contentedly despite the chaos of his last memories. His limbs feel too small and pudgy, too-small fingers gripping onto something as his vision started to clear. 

There was a man, holding him? Cradling his too-small form like he was an infant- was he an infant? He was pretty sure he wasn’t supposed to be, he had been older but now he wasn’t. He squinted up at the stranger, green eyes meeting green. Huh. They kind of looked like he could be their dad or something. 

#dcxdp #dpxdc #prompts #league of shadows #Ras gets a trio of infants the first/second time he exits the Lazarus Pits #So very early Ras who semi recently lost his first wife #Phantom siblings are his first kids who keep him semi-sane #As far as Ras is concerned the Pits blessed him with his firstborn sons and daughter #Dusan Nyssa & Talia are grumbling whenever the trio come back home #”Ugh we don’t Want to do Family Time” #”Too bad it’s family time c’mon we brought you all presents” #Danny when Talia brings Jason home: Did you steal a child #Talia: Of course not brother but by chance would you convince Father to let the child stay #Bruce doesn't know about the trio because they were away while he was training with the league #They do know about him though- baby sisters first crush how cute! #Talia where did you get that test tube baby have you informed the other donor- TALIA #“We all know you three are the favorite children” #“No we aren't” #"Danyal you Daig & Eva can literally leave whenever you want as long as you call every week w can barely leave without him being overbearin #Daig means fire/flame #Eva means living & breathing

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

everybody stay with me im shifting back into speculation & analyzing mode, this time about everybody's favorite pair of besties. ill put this under the cut for everyone's sakes

and please, take all of this with a Hefty grain of salt.

so ive been... thinking about a thing. a maybe-possibility. which if this has some merit, the part of me that loves characters having a good time and feeling good feels is screaming in fear. but the louder part of me that loves angst and hurting characters is rubbing its little fly hands together.

short version: i think Barnaby is going to emotionally distance from Wally, if not outright grow to resent him. maybe temporarily, maybe not.

full version: *cracks knuckles* strap in folks. so.

first of all, an entire chunk of Barnaby's bio is dedicated to his character relation to Wally. everyone else only has one-off lines dedicated to their relationships to other neighbors - even Frank & Julie just have single sentences about each other (note that they're described as "partnered with" and "depicted with" respectively. more on that soon). even Wally's bio has his Barnaby mention tacked onto the end of his first paragraph instead of being its own dedicated section

and then there's their character designs - their bios explicitly point out that they share characteristics; color schemes, hearts on their soles, similar outfits.

they were made to be best friends. literally. this quote is what made me start turning this theory over in my mind (sourced from @ /theneighborhoodwatch's collected & absolutely fascinating livestream trivia)

it appears that Barnaby literally did not have a say in whether or not he and Wally are friends. their bios even say "illustrated pages note that they were best friends multiple times." they have to be best friends.

which brings us back to Frank & Julie. they briefly reference each other in their bios, but they aren't described as best friends. it's incredibly likely that they were meant to be a romantic couple - i briefly covered that theory in this post (dont read the first one i was going insane) but they managed to avoid that. Frank and Julie defied the script and chose to be best friends instead.

and then in the trivia document a few more character relationships are briefly touched on, like how Howdy considers Barnaby a close friend, and Sally considers either Barnaby or Poppy as her closest friend, etc.

everyone else seems to be choosing who they're close with. they're forming their own opinions and dynamics and relationships. & its interesting that Barnaby is stated for both of these - as if implying that he may return the friendship feelings, or at the very least he's developed enough of a relationship with them to earn their affection

Barnaby and Wally... i doubt they ever got that. they were best friends from the start, no development, no choice. it's written into them.

and then there's how their relationship has been portrayed so far. i believe i saw an ask where Clown stated that Barnaby is very polite to Wally, which struck me as odd. have you ever had a polite relationship to your best friend? have you ever seen best friends be polite? i'd be surprised!

best friends mess with each other! they tease and rib and roast! what is a best friend for if not mutual tomfuckery?! jesting around? playfully pushing boundaries? a Polite best friendship... that's a straight up oxymoron. no such thing. that sounds boring and exhausting.

not only that, but the fact that Barnaby is often used for Wally's painting segments, and is the go-to guy for teaching Wally something new, is kind of concerning. it gives me the vibe that a big part of Barnaby's literal reason for existing is to be Wally's friend & guide.

which would make the fact of him being described as polite to Wally make sense. of course he's not going to push their relationship or try to deepen it - he's forming his own dynamics with the other neighbors. with Wally... it's already established. that is how they are with each other. that is what they are to each other.

and it's not like Wally can be the one to introduce nuances. i don't mean that as a slight or anything - he's just the way he's been described and the things stated about him that make me think that he wouldn't really... know how to? it just wouldn't occur to him. he probably thinks his and Barnaby's relationship is what a best friendship is and is how it should be.

but they have to hang out. they have to refer to each other as best friends. and while i believe that Wally does wholeheartedly think that they're best friends, close as can be... i doubt Barnaby feels the same. like - yes, he probably does care about Wally. everybody likes Wally.

but it's gotta be frustrating for Barnaby, especially as time goes on and he becomes more himself as a person over just being a character playing a part. it probably stunts his relationship growth with others, since his ~best friend spot~ is already taken and who would want to encroach on that? especially since its taken by Wally mcfuckin Darling?

their friendship might become less of a role and more of a responsibility. Barnaby might grow to feel obligated to stick with Wally as his "best friend". someone invites Barnaby to hang out and/or help with something? sorry, he has to pose for Wally's painting. Barnaby is trying to do his own thing? sorry, Wally is knocking on the door and asking for help with something.

i wonder if Barnaby ever hopes that Wally will go to someone else, or feels relief when he does. and then does he feel irritation/guilt over that denied hope or that granted relief? then does he get angry at himself for those emotions?

how would this effect how he treats Wally and acts around him? this confusing muddle of emotions and this strange growing resentment for his painfully earnest friend who only ever means well, if he means at all.

it makes me curious whether or not this theory has merit. and how this could come to a head. what would Barnaby, in this situation, do if/when he discovers that they're puppets on a set, and he's literally written to be Wally's bestie while everyone else changed their scripts and chose their own relationships.

personally, i don't think he'd be happy, and i doubt he'd handle it well.

#holy Shit this was tough to translate from my brain #i literally wrote it all out in my head while in the shower #and then i went to get it down on 'paper' and it was Tangled To Hell And Back #*taking a break from art* #brain: soooooo we're bored now. lets overthink and share these thinkings #welcome home theory #welcome home speculation #SERIOUSLY THOUGH IM SCARED FOR BARNABY AND WALLY #mainly for wally bc Ouch it would hurt him to have their relationship sour #barnaby getting resentful and wally not understanding why his best friend is acting differently towards him #and PLEASE keep in mind that im mostly talking outta my ass here #but like.... ugh #barnaby looking at wally walking over one day and feeling the urge to turn away or groan in irritation/exasperation #him posing for a painting and wishing he were anywhere else. #him wanting to be closer with other puppets but unable to bring himself to try bc of the Guilt #everywhere he turns hes called 'wallys best friend' and asked 'wheres wally? hes usually with you' when hes alone #and hearing 'if you want to find wally/barnaby go look for barnaby/wally. if you see one the other isnt far away' #that has GOT to get on his nerves over time #this constant stagnation of their relationship while everyone else is evolving and growing. hes Stuck. #even julie & frank who were written to be together find a way to circumvent that and add so much depth and uniqueness to their relationship #if you want a happy side of this. it could lead to barnaby & wally being really truly besties #barnaby could have an arc about thinking 'holy shit it was all fabricated. Fuck that and Fuck you[wally]' #and then going 'holy shit i Do actually love and care about him[wally] and i want us to develop a real meaningful friendship' #BUT WHO KNOWS who knows not me! #also it must be tiring to constantly have to explain his jokes and so many other things #bc wally Is a curious guy! he wants to learn! #but maybe barnaby just wants to have an uninterrupted conversation but he Cant bc wallys just built different #not said as a bad thing At All. #just... people are complicated. sometimes we have mean thoughts/emotions that conflict with what we really think/feel and our morals #we're only human. everyone is mean sometimes if only in our heads.& yeah theyre technically Puppets but lets not get caught up on semantics

[thatgirl4815]

Forget Joker and Harley Quinn, this is my villain origin story.

#Ray looks so happy to have finally gotten what he wanted #but has he ever thought that it's just going to hurt THAT MUCH HARDER when it all falls apart? #And when it inevitably does he'll expect to turn back to Sand like before...only to realize that he's gone too far #*cue the trailer “I won't let you walk away” scene #ajfjjjsjskjaskj I won't survive this wait ugh #only friends #only friends the series #ofts #sandray #raysand #sanray #raysan #raymew #topmew

[kinos-fortress-2]

does this even looks like a tf2 fanart anymore

#just experimenting! #i was gonna say im gonna delete this later bc i will ofc change the colouring here but just wanted to show bc i think is pretty #ONLY THIS ONE DRAWING bc is more... pretty me thinks but totally not from the way i wanted to go #but yeah little spoiler for something im doing bc i am so drunk and in love with them i cry a little bit but im fine now #i just love love #kino art #piss mauling #this looks very far away from my art style... but it reminded of my older style too... and like those 2016 shipp art if ykwim #this looks so personal im sorry i promise i will draw funny gore tf2 ugly art back again dont unfollow me bc im happy tonight is 1am buak #- i just wanna feel... happy and pretty and being in love space thats. how im feeling right now... dont drink wine guys my last words #watercolors dont go w my style i just realized that... but this looks pretty for me imo i feel kinda happy with this but is not the idea tb #ughhhh that sniperpauling playlist got me in the feels #really. this doesnt even looks like tf2 art anymore literally like. what tf2 game did yall play?? #this two are basically my ocs atp #im so annoying with them ugh

[neverevan]

Snippet Sunday 🎿

I was tagged by @jamespearce9-1-1 @disasterbuckdiaz and @malewifediaz thank you lovelies 💛

So I thought I'd give you the opening of the fic I have planned for Christmas~ (It's meant to be a sweet oneshot, but the research going into it is already getting out of hand lmao)

The whole thing started with Youtube — as most things do when 12-year-olds are concerned. Christopher shuffled into the living room with determination where Eddie was trying to figure out the settings of his new smart TV and Buck was folding and flipping the instruction manual back and forth, trying to find the beginning of it when Chris shoved his phone under his nose. “Look.” Buck frowned at the screen with intrigue. It was a video of people skiing; more precisely it was a prelude montage shot for an interview with a ski instructor who had Cerebral Palsy. “I wanna go skiing.” Chris announced without leaving much room for argument. Eddie looked back at them, momentarily forgetting the TV and straining his neck to see the video. Christopher, ever the sweetheart, put the video back to its beginning and held it out high enough for Eddie to see. “Huh.” “I wanna go skiing.” Christopher repeated and Eddie looked at Buck and Buck looked at Eddie — and the near silent conversation went as so: “You think this is a good idea?” Eddie hissed, keeping his lips as flat as possible, distorting the words to near incomprehension. “Well, it’s clearly something he wants to try.” Buck followed his lead and tipped his head into Chris’ direction by his side. “But what if he won’t like it? Maybe it’s not worth the risk…” “He loved skateboarding, would this be all that different?” Eddie just stared at him, chewing on his lips thoughtfully. “Come on, Eddie. Did he even see snow before?” “I can hear you, you know.” Chris chimed in with an exasperated huff and Eddie’s shoulders sagged in defeat.

✨no pressure tagging: @spagheddiediaz @daffi-990 @jesuisici33 @jeeyuns @ladydorian05 @steadfastsaturnsrings @eowon @heartshapedvows @nmcggg @rainbow-nerdss @evanbegins

#okay so most of this fic actually takes place before christmas but meh #it's gonna be super domestic and fluffy because I am TRYINGGG okay? #also I just recently realised that everything I posted so far had Chris being absent #though I love writing the little fella I need him away when the boys get nasty #which won't be the case for this one #also my youtube feed will be filled with bloody skiing vids for a month ugh #buddie #911 #wip #the ski fic

[rosaacicularis]

“how did the guy with no friends win?” yet so many people wanted to be his friends but the watchers forced him to betray any ally he’d made and deter any other potential allies. the watchers isolated him…. and rewarded him for playing along with it

#oh hi! i’m back! i got really into dimension 20/dropout that mcyt took a bit of a back seat buty babygirl scar winning secret life has #put me in a chokehold and i was dragged back kicking and screaming #btw i’m still chipping away at the merlin au #it’s about 8k words so far <3 #but anyways you know?? like pearl and the mounders and scott and grian and lizzie and joel and EVERYONE #and he was forced to hurt them or make them hate him and UGH #sl!scar my blorbo #secret life #gtws #gtwscar #life series smp #life series

[nicos-robin]

i physically need sabo to see what the rest of the straw hats have now witnessed

g5

i need at least one of the asl brothers to see their whiny, cry baby younger brother at his absolute peak

#i know it has to happen at some point but UGH it feels so far away and i want it now !!!!! #ange rambles

[mister13eyond]

🍦

name three good things about a character you hate

oh god when thinking "characters I hate" i can only think of ONE example: this motherfucker

i so rarely hate characters, even ones that are meant to be disliked, because i usually appreciate their presence in the story and how fun it is to dislike them, but joshu.... joshu is another story entirely. so uh, challenge mode, here we go:

i think nut king call genuinely has a really interesting power and design

the way he's written makes it really clear just how much of him being Like That is a result of his messy family situation and intergenerational trauma, and i really appreciate the nuance to show that sometimes well-intentioned families can fuck their kids up

[PART 8 SPOILER] giving yasuho his arm was nice i guess, shame about the Entire Rest of that scene

#to me his crime is worse than just Being Unlikeable: #his crime is that i Don't Want To Read About Him #and therefore every minute he spends on screen is agonizing time i could be spending with any of the other far more fun characters #he commits the sin of Being A Bad Character In A Structural Sense #which is 10x worse than any morally reprehensible actions #like shut up joshu the adults are talking and im trying to follow the plot #you have nothing to contribute #go away #literally the ONLY character i can think of that i've Hated in a long time #anyways i tried very hard to be nice #like i Understand why he's like that and i think it's a well written choice #it's very clear araki knew what he was doing and both wrote him to be unlikeable On Purpose #and also showed that he's the result of the whole mess of his family situation #so he's not entirely unsympathetic #just. ugh.

[inkykeiji]

Dabi is here to CHEW ON UR FACE because u are SO CUTE, and he's MAD about it!! (And yes! I live in Canada, the big ol' rectangle 😂😂 easy to draw... hard to spell 🤣🤣)

NOOOOOO HE IS SO CUTE ACTUALLY oh my godddd oh my god oh my god stop it this brought actual tears to my eyes!!! (*ﾉ∀`*) he is absolutely precious i love him so so so much <333 he can chew on my face whenever he wants to (*´ρ｀*)

AH YES!!! okay you are quite far from me i am in ontarioooo

#because *of course* i’m an ontarian #like i feeeeel like that is unsurprising LMAO #but wow!!! omg ur far away!!! #fuckin canada is so big it’s insane #don’t get me started on our housing market vs the amount of fucking SPACE we have #ugh 🙄🙄🙄 #anyway little dabi is sooooo so so incredibly cute <333 #sending him all of my love oh my gosh #and sending u all of my love too!!! #i hope you’re having an awesome thursday and that you have a great weekend!! <33 #as always keep safe out there n stay hydrated <3 #clari gets mail

[skrunksthatwunk]

have just been introduced to a kitten named rascal who lives on my floor and whose babysitters (who are not his owner?) were trying Really hard to goad me into adopting which like. he's a little baby and he's so so so silly and he barely even bit me but like also. this cat isn't yours???? anyway if the owner's giving him up then I might finally have a cat which like AHHHHHG

#i wanna cat SO BADD #but also i dont think this is the best environment to have ANY non-tank pet tbqh #and i dont wanna have to give him away if my housing situation changes bc my parents house wouldnt work #(one of our dogs has a pretty strong prey drive and i dont wanna risk it) #also the poor guy seems a bit skittish and i think the 2 big dogs would scare him #and then there's the 'is he my cat or your cat' thing w my roommate #i think the answer would be hes my cat bc shes more ambivalent but she can actually take him home so like #and ive pretty much been banking on going home after college anyway so like??? in the long term where would he go??? #but also my dogs are getting older.. maybe by then they'll be gone and that problem'll go away #but hell my room there's bigger than my dorm room so even if we kept him in there it'd be a better space than here #it'd be a step up #ugh idk. i think it's a bad idea to have a cat in rooms this small in general. but i don't wanna see him go to a shelter either #like he's young and cute so maybe it'll be easier for him but he's also not super cuddly with strangers as far as i can tell #idk... im worried about him.... poor little rascal #like one of the girls mentioned being mean to him and i dont want him to be mistreated #like shining lights in his face and stuff #idk... sigh...... #im considering transferring schools at some point. worst case scenario is i go somewhere they dont allow pets and i have to #either find a foster parent or give him away completely #but i really dont wanna have to do that if i can help it. i never want to put a pet that loves and depends on me in a situation like that #much less me like id bawl my ass off #but if theyre treating him bad then even if my situation isnt perfect wouldnt taking him in be in the right anyway? #but how long does that stand for? until i can find him a better home? ughh

[angel-blitz]

Very excited to see what the digital art book has 👀 I'm sure once the game comes out the ppl that got the deluxe version will post pics

#also 2 more food related suits will be coming it out looks like?? probably for chubby and shorty ugh june is so far away #wait the game comes out during PRIDE MONTH😭 gay ppl win again #kkfos #killer klowns from outer space

[bakerstmel]

Fall Favorite Fic Festival, Entry 3

I’m not putting any pressure on myself to post these daily, just as the spirit moves. In case you’ve been keeping score or something.

This entry includes my absolute favorite love declaration of all time in any media of any kind anywhere. It also gives me an excuse to talk about narrative distance, so a double win for me!

the thunder beneath his ribs, by darcylindbergh

Darcylindbergh writes lyrically, as in their works are word music. They play with language to great effect, and as someone who pathetically paws at that kind of thing from time to time, I have the greatest respect for their efforts.

(This one got long, so I'm getting all fancy and installing a cut. The love declaration is at the bottom of the post.)

I'm talking about this kind of thing, the opening paragraph (blue text is darcylindbergh throughout this post):

The slap of feet echoes against the pavement, nearly drowned out by the crash of thunder and heavy rainfall. Neon lights glint off wet concrete, turn the night into a kaleidoscopic circus of noise and heat and confusion, and John twists into it, gets lost in it, running fast, breathing hard, elbows in, focus.

And just like that, we are running, and we are in the rain, and more than that, we are running in the city in the rain, and more than that, we are in John's head like we have a regular table there. We are agitated, anxious, scared- we know John is a veteran, and if we don't, that's about to become clear in other ways-and it's all via rhythm and word choice.

You can do that sort of thing directly, and it can also work:

It was a thousand year rain, the kind of rain London hadn't seen since six months prior. John had always thought of rain as cold, growing up in the council flats, but this was hot, steamy, the kind of rain that felt like a hiss, like a slap, like a bullet. It was hard to breathe in rain like this, hard to keep his terror under control, but it didn't matter; he had to keep moving, keep running, keep up.

That's just me screwing around, but I hope you can see the difference--Darcy leans into the rhythm of the running, TWISTS into it, GETS LOST in it, running FAST, breathing HARD. It's elevated language. This can cause issues, in that artistry can feel more formal. I would argue that's likely intentional here, because darcylindbergh is a master of narrative distance. In this case, we are swept along in this steamy rain, physically close to the characters and in John's head but lacking the full access pass. Part of this is that John is fully in this moment and not thinking about anything else, and Darcy is using the rhythm of this language to tell us that without having to tell us that. This kind of attention to detail allows a good writer to craft a world in 5,700 words and have it ring true.

Anyone who talks writing with me ends up hearing a rant about POV. First person, third person, third person close, it all has to do with how much we know. Right? And I feel as though it's pretty standard in fic to write a close third, since fic is above all a character driven genre, but in general, the best writing swoops in and out. You pull back and get the lay of the land, dive in to feel the tension and see the eye twitches, and then pull back up to learn the history of why the land matters in the first place. Like so:

Around them, London carries on, oblivious: the rush of steam from cheap late-night restaurants, the splash of cabs through puddles growing in the streets, the smell of soaked skips and dirty bodies infiltrating the labyrinthine alleys Sherlock leads them through.

A bit later:

John had walked these streets once and thought nothing of it. He’d been to the pubs and the post offices, the Tescos and the Bootses, in the backs of cabs and on the Tube, and scarcely gave it any consideration.

Now he’s constantly looking over his shoulder, skin crawling and mind prickling with the possibility of being watched or followed. Dangerous has lost its slick attraction.

If this were a screenplay, and that was camera direction, we'd start from an overhead shot and then draw in down a city street, Baker Street maybe, with the tube station and that Boots right there by Marylebone, and then settle on John's anxious face as he glances behind him. Likely, then, we'd pull back a bit to show John behind Sherlock, closing the distance, getting ready for what happens next.

OK, I know no one is reading all this. I've gone a bit meta-mad. I just like writing that makes me smarter, and this fic does that. Even after all this time, the breadth and quality of the writing of this fandom in general just knocks me out.

Anyway, I promised a love declaration.

"I’m going to love you now,” John says. “I’m going to love you the way I’ve tried not to since the very beginning. I’m going to love with you every single cell of me and every single breath, and I will follow you until you tell me to stop and then wait for you to come back, and when I die I’m going to die with your name imprinted on my very bones with how much and how hard and how long I’ve loved you.”

Across the pillows, Sherlock blinks. He takes a tiny breath that doesn’t seem to make it past his lips and blinks again.

Then he takes John’s hands in his own and studies them, as though looking for some proof written in John’s lifelines, and he presses a kiss down into John’s palm. “Okay,” he breathes, damp and warm. He kisses John’s other palm. “Okay.”

And you know what's crazy? Those aren't even the best lines in this fucking thing. This is the best line:

Sherlock offers John his cuffs.

I mean, for fuck's sake (in the best possible way).

#fall favorite fic festival #the thunder beneath his ribs #darcylindbergh #FFFF3 #Ugh I'm not even getting into all the imagery with the water and the cold #Or the whole part where john hides sherlock's body against the wall with his own because half of his brain is in afghanistan #and the way the author throws away a comment about a wartime romance bc we're so far in john's head at that point we don't need details #and the fact that this is tagged as PWP

[llycaons]

okay I thought about the similarities between jfm and jc's unrequited crushes who prefer their 'servant's' company to their own and it looped around from being tragic to being really funny again. jc pined after wq so clumsily and unsuccessfully with the stupid fucking comb she didn't care about because SHE AND HER FAMILY WERE POLITICAL TARGETS AT THE TIME and HE DIDN'T EVEN KNOW HER AT ALL and she 100% always preferred the company of wwx, who was genuinely fun to be around, as intelligent and selfless as she was, understood and respected the delicate political position she was in, treated her like an individual, knew what was important to her, helped her family, and sacrificed everything for her safety. wq literally would rather have lived a doomed life in a starving refugee camp with wwx and her family than accept a marriage proposal from jc, jc wq shippers how does it feel to be fucking clowns

#you can say that decision was just for her family. but you could tell how much she loved wwx too and how little she cared about jc #he sucks to be around and whoever is in his life just needs to be someone who's inexplicably into that and it is NOT wq #she has her own shit she can't be babying him and soothing his self-esteem issues!!! the cultivation world had her family in a death camp #like WHAT would be the appeal here???? 'he cares about his family like she does' actually he publicly denounced his brother who is her #really good friend so...????? no?????? do they think she thinks he's hot??? isn't that a little superficial??? #his sarcasm and prickliness don't gel with her sincerity and guardedness. she wouldn't like his joking roughhousing and she's more mature #than all that anyway....also I can't think of a single time he even looked wen ning's way pre-ss and wn is THE most important person to her #and its actually disgustingly ooc to see how jc wq shippers just act like he doesn't exist. bc what they can't pretend he'd get along with #wn effectively? but that's wen ning!!!! how is she married to someone who doesn't care about him or even hates him! #WHERE'S THAT POST LIKE #jc: lady wen may I rub thine feet? feed you grapes? #wq: uhhhh #wwx: hey wq! #wq: wei wuxian! *they do a 15 step handshake* #jc: okay guys I'll just be uhh. over here #wwx and wq: laughing together #UGH she was so great. travesty of the century that she died like that for the emotional development of a male character!!! #I really do like wq tho I don't really know what to say about her. she was a solemn character who knew her ending far before anyone else di #and didn't fight it for her own sake only for her family's #I just hope she was able to be at peace in the end. it seems so cruel that she was ripped away from the only person she truly wanted #to be with forever #ALSO her entire thing is repaying debts!!! which he categorically FAILED to do!!! she wouldn't respect that or find it admirable/attractive #he probably looked like a fucking impotent self-centered coward. which he WAS! SHE SAVED HIS LIFE!!!! #cql txp

[pangzi]

I had such a good day today, why does my brain have to ruin it now... Petition to stop having a brain.

#i had such a good day #i went out shopping on my own #i had such a good time i loved it i loved that i was alone #and afterwards i was feeling inspired for my fic and actually working on it #then i eat dinner and now i just feel awful #i'm trying to distract myself and just read one of the books i bought #but i'm crumbling as my brain keeps reminding me of how lonely i'm feeling and how all my friends are so far away #doesn't help that i also often feel far away from them not just in distance but connection too now #and it's worse now and just everything i thought i was over is setting me off bad ugh.... #negative