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bondew · 3 months

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I got bored- I love my freckled, fluffy red head! (Oh Cade, u and ur neatly brushed hair are loved too)

Two Bathroom Stalls.

Cadence Lane.

The piercing sound of my alarm rings in my ear the next morning. It’s around 6am and I’ve only slept for 4 hours. I stumble to the mirror and I flip it back to face me. As the sun peeks from under the curtains I brush my hair so it doesn’t reflect my mind. My room is completely clean, well excluding my desk drawers. I shove on a tight black turtle neck and white dress pants. I don’t change my black stud earrings, I don’t really have any other pairs anyway. I swing my bag onto one shoulder and slide on my loafers as I step out.

Tossing a mint into my mouth a sudden hoard of people pile into the hallway. They sound like squawking vultures as they push past me. I run my hand through my hair and make my way downstairs. My first class is at 8, I was meant to finish my project last night but because of the situation I have to do it this morning. I skip breakfast and end up in the library. Without saying a word I sit down and open up my laptop. Skimming through the essay I quickly edit it, I’m confident that I won’t miss any mistakes. There is hardly ever any, I am the top of the class for a reason.

I put my earbuds in and open up my notebook. My peace doesn’t last long, the stampede of boys stride into library. I notice one of them sneak away from the group as they wander around and talk to girls. He heads to the non-fiction section and grabs a thick, hard covered book about bugs. My computer is still open so when he decides to ignore all the other free tables and sit in front of me he is partly blocked out. I can see his freckled forehead and fluffy orange hair over the top of my screen but this decreases as he slumps down and starts to read. Shaking my head back to reality I tap on my page with a pen and start to write. My playlist is open on my screen and every time a song changes I glance up.

I’ve basically fallen asleep but when a book slams closed I suddenly jolt up.

“Sorry I didn’t mean to wake you! U-uh I have to get to class!” The orange-haired boy says as he runs out of the room. Glancing at my watch I gather my stuff and sprint out just behind him. I arrive in the lecture room just before the clock hits 8, I’m panting and all eyes are on me. Fixing my hair I stand up straight and rush to a seat before anyone says anything.

Dazz Shawn.

It was probably a mistake choosing to study literature and theatre. I basically have no free time. I’m only a couple minutes late and luckily the director doesn’t seem to care. Dropping a heavy book about bugs and my tote bag on the floor I head backstage where I’m warmly welcomed.

We do a lot of theory in theatre obviously, I mean it is still a university class but today we have prac, the best part. For some weird reason the teacher randomly decided this year was the year we were going to do a performance! I mean I’m not unhappy, I love plays! But it was kinda out of the blue. I landed the male lead somehow so.. um yeah. I can’t really afford to be late to class anymore. The stage has been prepped with half-painted sets and random boxes since somebody lost the proper ones.

I washed my hair this morning so it’s all kinda fluffy and sticking out weirdly, nobody has really noticed. Not like I expect them to anyway! Like it’s just washing my hair.. haha. Um.. thankfully all my friends are studying things like, physics, sports science and mathematics so I don’t have to embarrass myself in-front of them when I’m horribly acting.

“Oh, by the way Dazz! You obviously know that we are doing Romeo and Juliet but just confirming you’re all good for the kiss?” My teacher interrupts my train of thought while I’m sitting on the edge of the stage. My legs instantly stop swinging and I go bright red.

“Yeahhh.. wait who’s Juliet again..” I struggle out.

“Right!” He flips his clipboard, “Hmm.. oh right of course! It’s Olivia Irwin!” He looks at me and smiles innocently.

“Yep! Ok all good!” I say quickly. Like obviously I knew I was going to have to kiss someone like it’s Romeo and Juliet for gods sake! But Olivia?! She’s like the prettiest, most talented person ever! Well atleast in this school!

Now don’t get the wrong idea I definitely don’t have a crush on her! Like I don’t really have a type but I just can’t date or crush on someone who has seen me trip into like three paint buckets!

#lgbtq #mental health #lgbtq community #young writer #writing #begging u to read my writing

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jungnoir · 6 years

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are you accepting requests? if you are, please write fluff for jaemin or jisung from nct!! idc what but i noticed they don’t have anything and i love them uwu thanks

friends to lovers!jaemin and jisung

a/n: I’m not accepting requests but… I’m also bored and stuck on everything else so here’s this tiny thing

⎡JAEMIN⎦

the annoying spicy best friend and boy next door until senior year

you guys lived right next to each other so of course you always hung out!! despite going to the same school and spending the whole day together already, you spend even more time with each other when you get home

you’d beg your parents to allow you both to play in the front yard and kick balls around or play hide and seek in jaemin’s huge backyard until dinner time and even sometimes past that

as you both got older, you’d get to hang out later, so you’d both chill in jaemin’s hammock in the late evening because you both were small enough to fit and tell each other funny or scary stories while the bugs left bites littered over your arms and legs (not that you really cared until you went home and couldn’t stop scratching)

you never thought of jaemin in a different way, though everyone else thought you did

play fights were commonplace between you two so whenever you’d get particularly rough with each other ur friends would be like “lol there go the lovebirds

and it was gross

it was…

gross

it was gross up until high school when your hormones kicked in and hey. jaemin is kinda gross. you still remember when he used to plant boogers on your locker handle or tackle you in sweaty arms if he lost to you in a game of kiddy basketball

but now jaemin doesn’t look like scrawny, stinky little jaemin anymore

no, now he can pick you up off the ground with two arms around your waist and laugh in your ear about how you should be more aware of your surroundings

now when he ruffles your hair he follows up with gently patting down the stray hairs, both hands smoothing down from the crown of your hair to the tops of your ears to the curve of your neck

now when he gives you those dark, mischievous eyes and asks “can I stay over tonight?” you can’t say you don’t shiver

you remember a time when you both were so young and so close that your parents would give you baths together for pete’s sake

and now you can’t even stand in your bedroom, ten feet away from each other, and look each other in the eye

he sits on your bed, slouched and flipping through channels on your tv

but when he sees you enter in just a pair of shorts and a giant shirt (his, though it’s been years since he’d last seen it)… he doesn’t quite remember what he was so focused on doing a few seconds ago

“…did you find a movie?” you ask softly, padding over to the other side of your bed as he immediately sits up and draws his long limbs to his sides

“oh! uh… no dice. maybe we should just rewatch something you have here?”

you shrug, point to the popcorn he’s got on your nightstand, and allow yourself a silent heave of air when he’s not looking your way anymore

he retrieves a movie you two have watched so many times before that you can recite the words together and not miss a beat

so it. it feels different tonight. somehow

there’s just a bowl of popcorn separating your hands from finding the other’s and this odd tension in the air that was birthed the minute you walked into your room after telling jaemin you were just gonna “change into something movie night-worthy”

you two don’t end up throwing yourselves over each other like usual, being deliberately annoying and clingy just to make the other person laugh

the movie is about halfway through when jaemin suddenly moves the popcorn to the floor and rolls onto his side, resting his head on his fist as he stares at you

“what?” you ask, v aware of the warmth he’s giving off now that there’s no barrier between you

“nothing”

“it’s gotta be something if you’re just staring at me for no reason” you drag your knees up to your chest to somehow make yourself smaller under his gaze, even to bury your cheeks between your knees so that you could make sure he didn’t see the little twitch in your lip, the want to laugh nervously or spout out some ridiculousness to get him to stop looking at you building up in your tummy

“can’t I just look at you for no reason?” he scoots a little closer, maybe attempting to look funny to you as he says this but,,, he’s doing a really bad job of it

because he doesn’t look funny. if anything, he looks kind of… what is the word?

you bite your lip, “sorry, gotta pay to look”

“what’s your preferred currency, honey?”

oh my GOD shut up jaemin

you push at his chest, trying to ignore how your hand annoyingly remembers the mold of it even after you’d touched him

“silence” you joke, watching as he licks his lips and sits up so that he’s level with you

he reaches forward and cups your chin, glancing between your eyes and your lips

he isn’t even subtle about it

your mouth parts unconsciously, a sudden understanding to this tension you’ve both been feeling hitting you hard

jaemin resists the urge to run his thumb over your bottom lip when it gets released from you teeth, if only to spend this next moment looking at your face

and he’s not even surprised that you can feel it too

“you’ll have to be specific, there’s all kinds of silence”

you don’t know what this is

no, scratch that, you know exactly what it is, but you don’t know if you want to admit it to yourself yet

maybe you could get away with that for now

neither of you would hold it against the other if you just. tried it out once, right?

and so you lean in that much closer, breaths mingling unavoidably now

“getting specific enough for you?”

of course not

⎡JISUNG⎦

idk why i’m so obsessed with this visual of gamer!jisung but hear me out

gamer!jisung, best friends with your best friends aka the other dreamies, but probably the only one you can never get close to

besides the fact he’s a certified bully to the boys, you’re the only one that he isn’t… silly with

like he’ll have renjun in a headlock and then make eye contact with you and the mood immediately dies

you’ve asked each of the boys what the problem might be

are u scary? are u not his type of person to hang around? was he still put off by that time you body slammed mark into a wall?

ok you didn’t actually body slam him but he swears he felt his feet leave the ground for a moment

not your fault he has the weight of a singular macaroni noodle

jisung always talks to you respectfully and if he can, talks to you through the others

it wasn’t… fun… having jisung treat you this way

he was always your favorite not that you have favorites *ahem* forgive me, donghyuck *ahem* so it was v :///// u know

you really wanted him to be able to treat you like he treated the other boys!! because you’d gladly treat him the way you treat the others if only you had the CHANCE

or at least you’d like to know why he didn’t so you could have some kind of closure

jisung happens to run a gaming club at school, and with permission, the “club” (which mainly consisted of all of you) would stay behind after classes and play together in one of the abandoned classrooms

you always had to play against the others bc jisung never wanted to give anyone (you) the floor to challenge him

so one day, you just decide that you’ll sit in and observe jisung play against donghyuck in overwatch

and donghyuck is obliterating jisung

you’ve never seen donghyuck this good, getting excited enough to run over to donghyuck’s side and cheer him on

you place your hand on donghyuck’s shoulder

and jisung looks away from the screen for just one second to see it

right then, donghyuck destroys jisung with a victorious yell

of course, you’re both caught up in the excitement of the moment so the first person he hugs is you

and this is pretty normal for you guys; between wrestling around and being affectionate, it was never weird to receive a hug from anyone except jisung

then you hear a controller clatter to the floor and by the time you’ve peeled away from donghyuck at the loud sound, you see jisung storming out of the classroom

the other boys looked shocked, some even looking between each other, unsure what to do

you notice chenle about to offer to go after him when you stop him, “i’ll go calm him down… he’s probably just upset about the match, you know how he gets”

chenle nods for you to go, gnawing lightly on his bottom lip

you find jisung sitting on the stairs outside the school exit, his head resting in his hands as the evening grows later

the sun nearly blinds you as you move to sit next to him, mulling over what to say

after all, you two weren’t that close in the first place. surely you were the last person he wanted to see right now

without looking up, jisung begins grumbling, “I know, okay? you don’t have to lecture me about it”

you blink

you weren’t planning to lecture him at all!

“I know that it’s stupid to get upset but the game was getting to me and-”

you’re about to cut him off, tell him it’s okay, that it’s just a game and some people get upset about those things but that you all knew it wasn’t that deep

“-you know how much I’m crushing on (y/n)… when I saw them cheering for hyuck, I just lost all focus. it’s pathetic. I wish I could just man up and tell them instead of avoiding them all the time”

jisung… didn’t know it was you

he sounds so distraught too, like he was upset he let himself get angry, upset he let you see him show emotion

you place a hand on jisung’s shoulder and instantly he tenses. you think it’s because he wasn’t expecting a touch but it’s because he knows this hand doesn’t belong to the others

so it had to be…

“it’s not pathetic. if anything is pathetic, it’s that it’s taken donghyuck this long to finally win against you in a game, and even then, you were distracted so it technically doesn’t count”

jisung raises his head and his eyes look rimmed red, frustrated

but his expression is gentle when he sees the caring look on your face

“…hyuck would kill you if he heard that” he mumbles, looking down at his hands

you just giggle and bump his shoulder with yours, “ah, I know. but he also knows you’re my favorite so…”

jisung looks back up at you in shock. “f-favorite?”

you hum, moving your hand from his shoulder to the one furthest from you, wrapping an arm around him so that he has to lean into you. he’s never been so close but it’s. nice. your shampoo smells. nice

“you don’t think it’s weird? what I said?” jisung looks a little mortified when he remembers that he’d just confessed to you, albeit unknowingly, and you were acting like everything was ok

you look back over to him and shake your head, “not at all… I hope this means you’ll stop avoiding me, though”

jisung doesn’t know how to feel at first; he had always assumed that telling you about his crush would either result in you returning his feelings or cutting off all contact with him

but instead, you don’t do either. you just watch the sunset with him, holding onto him

he also sees that you’re just as wonderful as he thought you’d be. you haven’t told him that you return his feelings but he doesn’t feel terrible at all. if anything, he feels ten times lighter after realizing he never had to hide from you in the first place

he checks to see that you’ll let him before wrapping his arm around your waist and offering you a sheepish smile, “sounds good to me”

besides, he may think you don’t return his feelings, but it’s just a matter of time until he realizes the truth about that too

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theday · 6 years

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mx in sg: the experience

FHJGDGHSHGFGGHD as usual starting off with the keyboard smash anyway! ill be talking about my experience seeing mx live yesterday (3/3) second part is abt when mx were on stage but its quite dry bc i dont remember much

ill be going in chronological order so [jooheon voice] lets get it

i was gonna meet my friend (karissa) at 3:30 because we were going to meet the person selling us our tickets at 4pm but that got delayed until like 5pm which was fine though

anyway i met her and we started queueing because although official queuing was supposed to start at 6pm they pushed it forward to 3pm (which was unfortunate for those who were busy and couldnt come until much later - the organizer never released an official statement saying the queuing started earlier)

so as soon as karissa and i arrived at like. the place (near the venue) we got lost for about a whole 5 minutes lmao so i texted james asking him where the hell . they were and we made it and joined the queue immediately (we were the last few people of the second batch)

we just sat there and. collected freebies and our banners (for the fan events) while we waited for the seller to come give us our tickets

when they came i was like . fucking screaming because one of the seller was someone i knew from primary school (4 years ago) and i was likeudghdgghdhsh??????? that was the highlight of the daydhfhs

after we bought the tickets and shit we were slightly concerned they wouldnt work lmao but they did god bless

while we waited for the doors to open and stuff a group of people did dance covers of mx songs and later other groups too everyone was cheering for them which was nice fgfghdgh

the hype died down and we just waited quietly until it hit 6pm and i started listening to the day6 stream LMAO but after 4 songs i had to stop because suddenly everyone was standing up??

for nothing though because we sat down like 30 minutes later at around 7? 7:30? everyone stood up again and this time people were given wrist tag things u kno.. ya there were three (?) kinds i think gold for those who held a superfan ticket, pink for general admission and some other colour for those who got tickets for free and could sit on chairs dhdghs

it was a free standing event in an outdoor space so superfan ticket holders got to stand closer to the stage? and those with general admission had to stand behind us and it was separated by a barricade

we entered at like 8pm because we were the second batch (there was a third batch behind us) and it was already filled?? not exactly but from where we were standing we couldn’t really see the stage

in the end we were in the middle which wasnt exactly the best but its definitely better than those standing all the way at the back rip

i think at like 7:45 they started playing the music videos and everyone was shouting the lyrics it was cute i loved it but my throat told me to die after i yelled for like all of their mvsjhdgdghd

also when all in played u bet my ass i jumped up and downdhg

also water wasnt allowed inside which i think is normal so i chugged mine down as fast as i could before entering (i had a little left and the lady let me in with it thanks queen) (i drank it all before they even came on stage)

the hype was real though and it was great

when it hit 8:30pm the introduction video started and suddenly i was getting pushed forward and wow . dont go if ur not a fan of people invading your personal bubble. i wish fans had more sense to Not push around and stuff but what can we do rip

other than that when they came out oh gOD when they came out i was likebfhgddgs??!?!??!?! i had to stand on my tip toes to see them

they started with beautiful and i was liek. dissociating i jsut sang along and shit it was amazing??????

the first person i saw was kihyun and then minhyuk?? i dont remember who else i saw but iw ss losing my fucking mind over how good everyone looked

anyway after that was um.............. fuck. .... i dont know..........

IFMFHGHSGF IM CRYING MY BRAIN TOLD ME TO DIE

white love maybe? i think they did like an introduction of themselves ??

anyway ill figure the songs out later they started playing games i think or was that another time im bad at this clearly

ask james for the details of the songs i dont remember shit from that i just remember singing along to the songs badly and moving my arm back and forthhfgsgh

also team work makes the dream work because karissa was recording and i helped her to zoom in and ensure they looked human with the brightness and stuff fhjdgsgh

but !! everyone did the fanchants really well it was so heartworming

also during white love they made us do that one part u know the one and it was awesome!!!!! during white sugar they threw m&m’s and i got to get a good look at their faces without having to look at the screen!!

honestly was good too god im so happie

hm. they did a mon-story time and showed us pics from previous eras (trespass > i dnt remmeber fuck > beautiful world tour > mxray > first win) ?? might be wrong dghdgs and they talked about stuff that happened i blanked out though so i dont know what they said

also when they flashed the first win part they started throwing hands @ each other usual mx shit dhjgsgd

we chanted monsta x and they chanted monbebe back at us :-( i love them

i think changkyun said he doesnt wnat to do another season of mxray LMAODHFGHHGS fucking loser

the translator made me laugh he was super monotone fhgdghfsh

then they played mon-ccaso dghghfsh and drew what they wanted to eat with singaporean mbb!!

there was a bug in front of wonho and he got !!!! fhdgh cute .

shownu: ????? what was it ?? a drink it looked like a cocktail and kihyun was like “non alcoholic” dghffsgs

wonho: ice cream!!! hes so cute his drawing was so cute also he wrote monbebe before they announced the game his handwriting is so pretty tf

minhyuk: ramyeon lmao (in his words: traditional korean noodles)

kihyun: uh oH HE DREW A CRABFGHGSHS and said chili and pepper crab!!!

hyungwon: he drew a shrimpfhggdgs fucking . it was so cute

jooheon: mandu!! or dumplings :D

changkyun: water. JHDHGDGSG KING HONESTLY IW AS LIKE JUMPING UP AND DOWN IN EXCITEMENT!! love me a water stan

anyway they talked about what they drew and when it came to minhyuk’s turn he was like guess and everyone just shit on him DHJDHSHG

some examples: “hair” Gghdhg and some fans (including me) screamed cucumberhjfghgs let this man live

minhyuk also tried to make fun of jooheons drawing but it failed bc none of us understood his joke

so they made us vote by screaming and they each stood up while holding their sketchbooks and we’d scream

winner was changkyun (i yelled my heart out and jumped bitch)

FHGSGG W INNER HAD TO DO AEGYO THOUGHDG played urself

they did oppaya and i think there are fancams somewhere

then they made wonho do it hhdggs best 1 minute of my life

after that was uhh??????? brain machine broke i dont know im not even going in order anymore

they either did from zero first or the fan videos were shown first

if so the fan videos were of fans talking about how much they love/appreciate mx and it was sweet after that we raised our banners for the fan vid

and then the CAKE came for wonho and we sang happy birthday to wonho (kihyun asked us to sing once too at the start hjdghgsg we did that in english this time it was in korean)

also funny hfgdhgs thing... they talked in korean and a lot of people replied in korean so they got shockedhfgh FUCJ DAY6 ok safe im listening now

i think they (minhyuk?) asked who thought/if he was handsome and got rly happie when we said yea

after him someone asked too LOLJHDGSG

back 2 whatever fdsh um oh yeah the cake was done to look like ramyeon in a pot :D ill add a link

wonho cut himself with the knife D-: babie

he kept wanting to eat it though so hopefully he liked it

maybe after that they did from zero???? ufhffghsgghdg idk

after that was hero!!!!!!! god we were all so pumped

shine forever next

and then they stopped to take a break i thinkfhgshgd

at some point they asked fans (a jooheon stan and a wonho one) what songs they liked :-D the jooheon one said beautiful and the other said ill be there if im not wrong

they also made the rappers sing bits from some songs hfgsg i dont remember which songs tho hdhs

changkyun tried his besthjdg

they did their ending ment and went to dramarama!!

after that it was silent for like 5 minutes max as we chanted mx and for encore

they came out and did ill be there (?) (first verse to chorus) and talked again before doing 5:14!

they were dressed in casual tshirts which was a relief hjghgdh because it was reallly fuckng hot hdh changkyun mentioned the weather too sorry dude thats life

they waved at fans and played amongst themselves kihyun dumped water on jooheon LMAO i got a clear view of that

stay hydrated !

they just kept dumping water on each other i love a family :-D

and then they said bye and left

jooheon kept going byEE though dhgdhs hes so cute :-(

ok heres what i thought abt the monstas themselves

kihyun looked especially good with that tie by the way

jesus i got to see wonho with dark hair i truly. died

ALSO SHOWNU LOOKS SO HANDSOME IRL!!!! MY WIG WAS SNATCHED!!!!!!!!!!!

hyungwon was rly cute too when he interacted with the fans :-(

there was one time wonho smiled and it was caught on the screen i . felt my heart burst in that moment

alsowwhen minhyuk took center position for their choreos he has this ?? charisma ??? its amazong like the one smirk/grin he does u know that? yeah i saw it in beautoful and died

joohoen and changkyun also did their best hyping mbbs up by yelling to sing along and stuff ihdjgf i love them

this is just mx loving hours

also kihyun did the DHDHHSH EYE SMILE!!! HE DID IT SO MANY TIMES HE WAS SO HAPPIE I LOVE HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!

i didnt get to see jooheon much but he was so playful with minhyuk it was so cute!!!!!!!

they all look so good and sound even better live!!! kihyuns adlibs god help me.

i love them so much. i really do fhhdghghs im happy i went no more regrets and no more telling myself i didnt have a blast because i!!!! i loved every second of it even when i got someones hair stuck to my arm LMAO

after it ended we immediately left for the exit andggdghs WOW standing up i was fine but moving?? moving was HELL my legs hurt so bad

ok so we got home and thats that but like.... heres where my self reflection comes in

so you dont have to read this part

i think. the reason i dont remember much is because.. i dont want to? like. at some point i got a clear view of wonho in the Flesh and i was thinkng about how i was really seeing them? for real????? and i got. really sad i think??

so to prevent myself from getting sad i probably tried to forget? everything?? theres also my bad memory of course but i cant even remember their faces i feel like its because im trying to forget or some deep shit

anyway i think im also makig myself not be happy??? this is phrased v bad but its like im trying to kill the fun and only think abt the negatives of the whole event

which wasnt even much so its like. my minds blankfhjfhd

talking about it here helps though like i get to. share and actually talk about what happened so yeah i can say that i had fun even though i couldnt see them i had a blast singing along it was awesome

the only bad part was how i didnt like watching from the screens because it felt like i wasnt seeing them live?? ooMGHDDS DAY6 ARE DOING BETTTER BTTER

tldr; im not that upset over it now thank god and i can proudly say i had fun and although i cant remember much it was a great experience

thank you for coming to my tedtalk if you did <3

#180303 #moon texts #NOW #i can reblog pics #sorry i dont have any vidoes/pics i mean i do but theyre potato quality ill see if i can post some when karissa sends them

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charsimatic · 7 years

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Therapy

Faye picked up the brochure Freeman had set down on the table, looking at the bright lettering paired with pictures of clients sitting on a couch, smiling. Some pictures had children looking apprehensively at the therapist, then smiling wide in the adjacent picture. Faye remembered being just like the kid in the first one. Scared, apprehensive, and angry. She hadn’t wanted to talk about her experience, but they didn’t let her stop seeing the therapist until she talked.

Why did they make her relive that night again? She had put all of her energy into repressing it. The song that was on the radio still gave her chills to this day. She remembered her mother’s scream, mixing with her own, and the sight of trees rushing up to meet the windshield as they went flying off of a cliff.

She still had nightmares about it sometimes.

“I don’t know, Freeman. What makes you think Sophia and Amora will want to talk to someone about this? They sure aren’t telling us anything.” Freeman stared at her, sitting on the opposite couch with his elbows resting against his knees.

“We aren’t professionally trained to get kids to tell us things. These people are.” He motioned towards the paper in her hand. He then got up and sat back down next to Faye, grabbing her hand.

“I know you had a bad experience with it. But we have to at least try.” Faye turned to look at him.

“It’s awful, Freeman. It’s like they’re poking around in your mind trying to turn every single word you say into some suppressed emotion. I felt like I was in a petri dish.” Freeman kissed the side of her head.

“That was twenty years ago. Who knows what advancements they’ve made since then.” Faye looked towards the girls room, where they were taking a nap. She did hate seeing them both so scared, even though they tried to hide it. They both woke up screaming most of the time, Amora still hadn’t said a word to them. Both of them limited their time outside of the apartment, when they used to love playing in the garden and walking to Jaymie’s house whenever they could.

“I miss Amora’s voice.”

“Is that a yes?” Freeman smiled at her, and she playfully shoved him.

“Don’t let it inflate your ego. I’m doing it for the girls.”

“And that’s exactly why you should be doing it, Babe.”

A week later, the entire family was bundled up, due to a cold front sweeping through, and loaded into the car. Amora quietly looked out the window while Sophia grabbed her tablet and turned on an education game. Freeman grabbed Faye’s hand and squeezed it tightly, bringing it up to his lips.

“This is the right thing.” Faye sighed, rolling her eyes.

“I know it is. I just know how much I disliked it.” She shifted uncomfortably in her seat, then pulled out her phone. She scrolled through a few things when a text message popped up.

Hey

Eli.

I know ur going thru a lot rn, but can I ask u something?

Sure?

I rly want to meet her.

Eli…

Just like, at lunch or something. Idc, I just need to see her.

Faye glanced at Freeman, who was humming along with the song on the radio. He HAD given her permission. So why did she feel so guilty about it?

Because you almost kissed him.

She shook the thought from her head, mentally cursing at herself. Having Eli meet Sophia wouldn’t be a bad thing. She didn’t even have to tell Sophia who he was, just a friend. They could work out the details later.

Fine. But on my terms.

Of course.

I’ll let you know. We are going through a lot. I want to make sure Sophia is okay.

I understand. Thank u.

She immediately deleted the conversation. She felt guilt wash over her again, but she pushed it aside. She wasn’t doing anything wrong. She’d tell Freeman once the plans were more concrete, she told herself.

“You okay?” He asked her, looking at her for a moment.

“Yeah, just...nervous. For them.” She looked at the girls in the rearview mirror. Amora was still staring out the window. Sophia was chewing on her thumbnail, watching something on the screen. Her face was scrunched up in concentration, and then she reached out and tapped something on the screen.

“They’ll be fine, Faye. No one is going to push them into anything they don’t want to do. We told them what’s going on, and why they’re coming here. No secrets.”

No secrets. Faye bit her lip to keep from crying. She felt awful, but she couldn’t bring herself to say anything. What was wrong with her? It wasn’t as if Freeman didn’t understand. He was a very compassionate person. Again, she resolved to tell him when she got the chance. For now, it was time to focus on the girls.

Freeman pulled into the parking lot and parked the car, turning around to face the girls.

“We’re here kiddos. You ready?” Sophia put her tablet down and nodded, unbuckling herself from her carseat. Amora shook her head.

“Amora, we talked about this, remember? Can you at least try?” She shook her head again. Both Freeman and Faye looked at each other.

“Take Sophie. I’ll stay here with Amora.” Freeman nodded, giving her a quick kiss and then getting out of the car.

“Come on, bug. Let’s go.” Sophia looked at Amora, then climbed out of the car, grabbing a hold of Freeman’s hand. Faye unbuckled herself and climbed into the backseat, helping Amora out of her own car seat and pulling her into her lap.

“It’s okay, baby. We can stay right here until you’re ready, okay?” Amora nodded, wrapping her arms around Faye’s neck. Faye hummed their favorite bedtime song and rocked Amora back and forth, playing with her hair.

“Sophia and Amora?” The therapist, Dr. Jody, had come out of her room and was smiling at different clients in the waiting room. Freeman stood, pulling Sophia up with him.

“It’s just Sophia today.” Freeman smiled.

“Oh, okay! That’s perfectly fine. We’ll have fun, won’t we, Sophia?” Sophia looked up at Freeman with a “do I have to?” look. Freeman smoothed back her hair and nodded.

“You can do it kiddo.”

“Can you go in with me?”

“I can walk you in, but I can’t stay. But I’ll be right here in this room, okay? You call me, I’ll come running.” Sophia nodded, a look of determination on her face. She walked with Freeman and Dr. Jody into the room, glancing around.

Sophia didn’t quite know what to think of the room, only that it was small and boring. Everything was brown. Brown walls, brown carpet, brown chairs. The only colorful things in the office were the toys that were against one of the walls. The windows even had brown window coverings. How boring.

She turned behind her, looking at the door. It was the only one. No surprise entrances, she noted. And no way to get out. But the bad man and bad woman couldn’t get her here. Her daddy was here, and Dr. Jody seemed pretty nice.

“I’m okay, Daddy.” She looked up at Freeman with a smile. Freeman winked at her, then left, closing the door behind him. Sophia stared at it for a moment, trying to be brave. She wanted him with her. Or Momo. Or her mommy. Anyone who could keep her safe.

“Okay, Sophia, would you like to sit down?” Dr. Jody gestured towards the big brown chair. It did look comfy, so Sophia climbed up and turned around, facing the room. Dr. Jody sat down in the other chair.

“So, what would you like to talk about today, Sophia?” Sophie looked at Dr. Jody skeptically. Her mommy had told her exactly what the therapist was going to want to talk about. She wanted to talk about them. The bad man and the bad woman. The people who had taken her and Momo. She didn’t want to talk about them, so she shrugged instead.

“Don’t know? That’s okay, we don’t have to talk about anything you don’t want to. How about your haircut?” Was this lady serious? Her haircut had scared her, and she didn’t know why. She only remembered crying and being really, really scared, and she didn’t want to talk about that either.

“No thank you.” Sophia said politely. Dr. Jody smiled at her.

“Okay. Well, let’s talk about you a little bit then. How old are you?”

“Four and a half. I’m almost five.”

“That’s so cool! Are you starting school this fall Sophia?”

“I’m already in school. I’m in pre-kindergarten.”

“Do you like it?”

“Uh huh.”

“What’s your favorite thing to do there?” Sophia thought for a moment.

“Paint.”

“Would you like to paint here?” Dr. Jody pointed to a table that had some painting supplies on it.

“Okay.” Sophia slid off the couch and followed Dr. Jody to the table. She grabbed a paintbrush, and was surprised when Dr. Jody did too.

“I’ll paint with you! What are you going to paint?” Sophia thought for a moment.

“Mama and Daddy and Momo. And me.”

“That sounds lovely.” Dr. Jody started painting what Sophia thought was a flower, so Sophia started painting her family.

“What’s on her arm?” Dr. Jody pointed to Amora on the paper, and Sophia looked up at her.

“Her splint. Her arm got hurt.” Dr. Jody raised an eyebrow.

“How did her arm get hurt?” Sophia hung her head, remembering.

“I can’t believe you brought her. You weren’t supposed to grab her. Do you know how hard it’s going to be now? Two kids?”

“What? I’ll cut and dye her hair. Who gives a shit?”

“I do! You ruined the plan, you dumbass!” The man grabbed Sophia and forced her down onto the bed. He then grabbed a knife, held Sophia in place, and chopped off some of her hair.

“No!” Sophia screamed, but the mean lady put a hand over her mouth.

“Shut up! You’re going to get us in trouble. See? I told you!”

“She’s fine.” He chopped off more of her hair. Amora watched in horror, but knew better than to do anything. Once he was done, he moved Sophia off the bed and began cleaning up the extra hair. Sophia and Amora sat on a chair, and Sophia couldn’t stop herself from crying. He had just chopped off all of her hair. Where was her mommy? Where was her daddy?

“Stop crying, for fuck’s sake.” The mean lady rolled her eyes. “No one’s coming to find you, so you can just knock it off.”

“Our mommy and daddy are looking for us.” Amora said quietly.

“Look. Your ‘mommy’” she made quotation marks with her fingers. “And your ‘daddy’ aren’t coming to get you. And by the way, Faye isn’t your mother, Amora. I am.”

“No you aren’t.” Amora raised her chin in defiance.

“Yes, I am. And Freeman isn’t your father, Sophia.”

“He is.” Sophia sobbed.

“Stop CRYING.” The lady raised her hand, but Amora blocked Sophia out of harm’s way.

“Little brat.” she violently grabbed Amora’s arm and pulled her off the chair with tremendous force. Amora instantly screamed, holding her arm.

“Shut the fuck up!” The lady hissed.

“Stop it. They’re probably hungry. I’ll go get them food.” The man said, getting up off the bed and putting a coat on.

“Just lay low, okay? These girls’ faces are everywhere.”

“The mean lady grabbed it.” Sophia whispered, shuddering. “She was trying to help me, because I was crying after the bad man cut my hair.” Dr. Jody was silent. When Sophia didn’t elaborate, she took Sophia’s picture and examined it more.

“Both you and Amora aren’t smiling in this, Sophia. Is there a reason why?” Sophia looked up.

“Momo doesn’t talk anymore. It makes me sad.”

“I’m sure it does.”

“Momo won’t tell me what happened after they left.”

“After who left, Sophia?”

“I have to go potty.” Amora said quietly. The mean lady rolled her eyes.

“Then GO. Just...don’t try anything, understand?” Amora nodded, grabbing Sophia with her good hand.

“Why are you taking her?”

“My arm hurts. I need help.” The mean lady stared at them, then shrugged.

“Quickly. We have to go.” Amora nodded, pulling Sophia into the bathroom and shutting the door.

“Sophie, get in the bathtub.” She whispered.

“Why?”

“Just do it. And don’t say anything. At all.”

“Momo?”

“Did you hear her? She wants me. She doesn’t want you. Mommy and daddy will find you. And then they’ll find me. Aunt Mads will find me.”

“Momo!”

“Shhh! Don’t say anything!” Amora gently pushed Sophia to get into the bathtub, then closed the curtain right before the mean lady opened the door.

“What is taking you so long?”

“My arm hurts!” Amora screamed.

“Fucking kid, knock it off!” Sophia heard Amora yelp, and then someone banging on the door.

“Hey, what’s going on in there? We had a noise complaint. Open the door.”

“Fuck.” The mean lady slammed the bathroom door, and she could hear her saying stuff to Amora. The back door opened and closed, and then there was silence. Sophia was alone.

A few minutes later, the door opened again.

“I have food!” The mean man called out. “Aida?” He called again. She heard the bathroom door open, then slam shut. “AIDA.” The mean man called one more time, then the front door opened and slammed shut again. Sophia didn’t dare to move. She was paralyzed with fear. It was a long time before she heard her Aunt Madlaina’s voice in the room, and that was when she decided it was okay to say something.

“I don’t wanna talk anymore.” Sophia said quietly, tears slipping down her cheeks.

“That’s okay. We can be done for today. Do you want to be done for today?” Sophia nodded. Dr. Jody stood up, holding out her hand for Sophia to take. She then lead Sophia to the door, and when she opened it, Sophia ran to her daddy.

“What’s wrong bug?”

“I don’t wanna go anymore.”

“Okay, baby. Let’s go home.”

Faye woke up when the door opened. Freeman stood holding a crying Sophia in his arms.

“Sophie! What’s wrong sweetheart?” Amora woke up at the sound of Faye’s voice, jumping slightly. She scooted over as Freeman placed Sophia in Faye’s lap, then shut the door and got into the driver’s seat. Faye could see his jaw clenched.

“I don’t wanna go anymore, mommy.” Sophia said, burying her face in Faye’s neck. Faye held both girls tightly, unsure what to do. She knew how rough therapy was, especially when the therapist pulled the painful memories out of you without you even realizing it. But the girls needed something. Something neither her nor Freeman could provide.

@nonsimsical

#Faye Ross #Sophia Ross #Freeman Rodriguez #Amora Rodriguez #Ross Family #sims 3 writing #nonsimsical #tw: death #tw: anxiety #tw: fear #tw: abuse

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