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#unless im faking it :(((
kristiliqua · 7 months
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baeshijima · 3 months
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happy lunar new year everyone 🫶🫶
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magicaldreamfox1 · 3 months
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dreamy drabbles
— prompt: caught
"What if we get caught?"
"I have a backup plan, can you fucking relax?"
Pete glares at Vegas as he continues picking the lock.
How anyone bought their fake relationship is a mystery to him — they can't ever seem to get along.
"And what would that be?"
"You'll find out–" Pete watches Vegas' fingers work; mesmerising somehow. "–if we need it."
Just then, echoing footsteps start approaching them.
"Vegas!" Pete hisses. "We need it now."
Vegas quickly straightens up to his full height and with a swift movement, Pete is slammed into the wall and pulled into a passionate kiss.
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kaus-quietis · 10 months
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Lav's All-smiles Problem-solving Roooooundtable ch108 edition!
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Welcome, welcome! To Lav's BSD ch108 discussion! Delivered to you via my funky dove Eliott, acting as my mystic messenger. These are random thoughts I had after reading this brilliant chapter, which, writing-wise, made the best possible use of Fedya's character, expanding it even more without even betraying his backstory. Maybe a backstory isn't needed after all, just look at how much FUN he is right now. I am in BLISS
Putting aside the fact that he is literally carrying the plot at this point, come sit with me, I make you a delicious Chinese black tea with rose petals and casually share my thoughts. Hello there, dearest Kat, yes, "where is Lav when you need her?", I am here, I offer you a hug, and to all my friends here who share the sentiment, I hug you too.
A. Before you say ANYTHING about "oh but? maybe Fedya is telling the half-truth? or a half-lie? what if his ability really is the evil one?", my brothers and sisters in Christ, listen to yourself. This man functions almost on a meta-level of character consciousness: he changed his facial expression and aura so convincingly, his tone, his speech, his posture, even the shade of his eyes, fooling not only Sigma, but the readers as well. We are used to characters changing the shade of their eyes when they change mental states or have certain (new) decisions in mind, we as a community are so used to this, all it took was one panel from the Conjurer doing this trick for so many of us to actually believe him and start, yet again, to spiral down the "what if he is good but his ability is evil? what if he is two entities? what if?" rollercoaster. This is so amusing to me, and in a meta-sense must be amusing to Fedya too. While speculation can bloom again based on this, I wouldn't be putting too much effort into reading into his lines here. I take it as a trick. It worked splendidly, almost like it attacked the fandom's major concerns and theories about his character and weaponized them against everyone. That's a meta-kind of tomfoolery. Trolling, if you will. I LOVE that Asagiri made him bamboozle every reader like this. His character so far goes into the best direction, it cultivates and expands his traits and skills in the best way. But let's pretend Fedya really is telling a half-truth there, which is there being an opposition between him and his ability. I talked about this in my essay (see pinned post), there really seems to be a divergence at the core of his character, but it manifests subtly, not like what we saw in ch108. Then again, not even on that can we arrive at any conclusive statements, because if we remember that, of course, "crime and punishment are close friends", it could well be that he and his ability are partners, and you bet I imagine they would BOTH indulge in peak tomfoolery like this together, if that meant one of them switching in and the other out for a sec. Remember, dear souls: aside from his "higher mission", abstract as it still is lore-wise, Fedya's keyword is "fun" or "entertainment", repeatedly. And oh he himself is even more fun now~
B. if Fedya would have wanted to mortally wound Sigma, he'd have chosen a more suitable place to stab him; it looks like a abdominal, lower quadrant, lateral stab, a deliberate choice, I would say, that technically avoids critical, most vascular organs (kidney and spleen for example) and main veins/arteries. I am no doctor, but from what I gathered, Sigma won't bleed out fast at all, and if untreated might get a deadly infection in a longer time (not counting the possibility of septic shock if we assume the knife penetrated and heavily opened an intestine). Sigma needs a medic asap (our queen Yosano when?), but will likely be conscious and quite able to move around and whatnot. Like I argued in my essay, Fedya most likely does not want to kill Sigma, or anybody for that matter, because keeping everyone alive to fulfill various roles and see how their will tosses them in all kinds of directions is more fun for him, more entertaining, but also more useful. He is a long-term strategist, like Dazai. "Our beloved monsters" ❤
C. Fedya evidently exerts some serious mental torment on Sigma, by making him stand by his choices, his will, just like he always desired. The flip side is that Fedya takes his time, or should I say gifts Sigma his time, in which he teaches him the full lesson of what Sigma wants. The responsibility that comes with acting on your own, the terror of facing the consequences when choosing on your own: right now, to Sigma, this freedom is terror. But Fedya is never a one-dimensional character. It's most probable he calculated and devised strategies for both possibilities (a. Sigma with rekindled determination touches him; b. Sigma backpedals on what he decided and does not touch him). The irony is that both scenarios are an affirmation of Sigma's will, because, while the first decision can be seen like foolish bravery, the second one can also be seen as wise self-preservation, if the circumstances so demand it. BSD is not a black-and-white series, diving head-first into danger is not its definition of bravery or heroism. BSD was always about measured decisions, ones the characters take upon themselves willingly. It may be time Sigma does that too, in his own way, and Fedya wants to see that. Why? Well, my guess is because it's fascinating to watch humans grow, and Fedya lives for the entertainment that comes with it. It is actually more interesting if we remember his line from ch42 (“People can be so simple… They truly believe they are thinking for themselves. (…) They don’t want to think they’re being led by the nose”): the pattern is, Fedya puts others under harsh circumstances, and then, under pressure, lets go of them, waiting for their free decision, the true test and expression of their hearts, so to say (which could make a superb discussion if we make a parallel between Kunikida and Sigma, since essentially what happened to Kunikida is happening now to Sigma, except Kunikida did indeed break down, but thanks to healthy support from his comrades he slowly regained his sense of self, and stronger than ever at that time, however… Sigma is alone, isn't he? but what if he needs to be in order to finally get a hold of his own self?). Anyway, how much of that expression is free, or how much is guided or manipulated, is a debate in itself, since it implies relating the freedom to the individual vs relating the freedom to the external factors and possibilites.
D. I do need to underline, just like Fedya also underlined it: Sigma already made his decision, right there when he still tried to get the gun before getting kicked in the face. Fedya moved on to the next step: testing how strong Sigma's will is when an actual chance to act appears. Sigma already accepted the physical pain, but how will he face the mental anguish? That is more Fedya's territory, a "specialist" of breaking people by simply knowing them thoroughly and choosing the right words. But now we gained new info: even in close combat, apparently, Fedya is not to be underestimated. That was a rather strong kick, anyway. But more importantly, he completely turned the tables in a situation where he would be in a total disadvantage. * chef's kiss * that was very bungou stray dogs of him.
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thestarseersystem · 1 year
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Tiktok videos on DID are usually dramatized because it's much more entertaining that way. And most people who make them, UNDERSTAND THAT. So why is it that viewers, don't seem to understand???
Have you ever actually dressed up for when an alter fronted? It's always been intentional, because they want that, they wanted to dress up, or show who they are because of their clothes.
Or like, making a skit on how it feels like to have DID, or anything. SKITS ARE INTENTIONAL, THEY'RE SCRIPTED.
This makes me so mad that people treat DID tiktok videos like they're the epitome of the reality of living with DID, and it's so dumb, and it makes me incredibly furious and triggered and upset.
Living with DID is boring and if people actually showed on what goes on day to day, no one would click on your videos, so no one does that. Even "switches caught on camera" is a clickbait-y title to get you to watch that video.
Everyone who makes DID videos understands and knows that they are making something intentional. You can't accidentally make a video on DID. You don't trip and fall and edit something, you don't roll into your clothes, it's not a mistake when you have a skit about your disorder.
So I don't know why it's so hard to understand for those who are watching, that most of it is a dramatic recreation. Its like watching a movie, you suspend your disbelief for a little while and you go back to daily life. You know those are just movies.
People aren't faking for clout, they're just intentionally recreating something or catching something on camera so they can post it online. Unless the user has a security camera in their house or recorded without their consent, every video you see made by someone with DID was, in some way, something that didn't just happen by accident.
DID is visually boring, its time viewers learn the truth.
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the-meme-monarch · 1 year
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reasons why poor boy could have a fake body, like his dad:
it'd be funny
reasons poor boy could have a real body, unlike his dad:
It'd be funny he doesn't know his dad's body is fake
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nailgunstigmata · 4 months
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truly embracing the poppins parallels and making dennis run out into the street in the last chapter of dd where he gets hit by a car and dies on impact
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jacqcrisis · 2 months
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Another little bg3 scene idea:
When they get to the shadow cursed lands, Astarion nervously remarks that it feels like they're being hunted, and he doesn't enjoy not being the one doing the stalking. Ronan offers him his arm silently, clearly for Astarion to take to keep him close if he wanted.
It gets batted away, Astarion stating he's doesnt need to be led around like a frightened animal. Ronan shrugs, offers it to Gale instead who takes his arm as he informs them of the Shar-influenced origin of this curse. Even with the holy light streaming from the mace in Ronan's hand, torches still need to be lit, the darkness oppressive and impenetrable to even elven eyes.
After aiding the Harpers and getting directions to the inn, Ronan is examining the cursed man they put down. Squats down, touches his face, opens his mouth, pulls back an eyelid. A strange affliction, one he's never seen; is there anyway to stop it if it happens to one of his own?
As he straightens, there's a touch to his elbow, Astarion sliding up next to him and telling him in that fawning affectation that he shouldn't be touching that, what if it spreads that way 'darling'? That gets Ronan's attention, looking over the vampire looping an arm around his like they mean take a jaunt through a garden.
"Where's your torch?"
Astarion gestures vaguely behind them, saying he dropped it, of course, you can't expect him to do much holding one. Besides, he doesn't really need it, does he? The light coming off the mace is enough for the both of them.
Ronan asks if he is to lead him then and Astarion scoffs. No, it's more like Ronan is holding the light and Astarion is...keeping a lookout. There could be anything out there; wouldn't it be better if they were at the ready for it instead of having him juggling a torch?
He's squeezing Ronan's arm, eyes darting to the cursed body at their feet as he makes his case. Ronan hums, doesn't bother to argue, just tells them all its time to move out. Astarion doesn't let go of him until they've made it to the bridge leading to Last Light Inn and Ronan is more than fine with that.
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rambunctioustoons · 8 months
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looking at the DCA's gender is the same way I felt about Toy Bonnie and Mangles gender.
Who fucking cares.
I want to look like YOU !!!!
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silverfilledstars · 5 months
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why are you interacting with that gen freak
I interact with whoever the distortion I feel like. Doesn't matter what they look like, as long as they're strong, I'll talk to them. And besides .. he's saved me from starving more than once. I think that warrants a little hospitality.
And you're one to call people a freak, hiding behind an apps anonymous function. People like you aren't even worth the air I breathe.
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marblerose-rue · 2 years
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click for better quality!!
clawface/nightpelt / request
I NEED TO READ SOME OF THESE SHADOWCLAN CENTERED BOOKS SO BAD
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birdantlers · 2 years
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I understand how Captain Ahab felt actually
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Harry Potter twitter is fucking mental. I mean anything twitter is absolutely fucking mental, it's twitter, but people out here ready to kill each other over headcannons could we all please just calm down 💀
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opens-up-4-nobody · 6 months
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#its crazy how much easier it is to do things when youre not completely miserable lol#this past week has been weird bc ive felt really really good and like normal in a way thats kinds unfathomable#im hoping its the medication but my mood was already on an upward tilt and i was told it would take like 6 weeks for the meds to work#property but like ive been sleeping way more than usual. and by that i literally just mean 8hrs a night lol which is weird for me#like that never ever ever happens multiple days in a row. so idk. when i feel better it makes the 0cd way easier to manage as well#and im just generally not as anxious. on the more worrisome side i kinda just give less of a fuck so like i have an exam im not ready for#Tuesday and im just kinda like hm fuck that lol. ill go thru lil fluctuations of having a lot of energy too#like: i could run around in circles rn. i dont have to but i could. like yesterday i was out with friends and i was like bouncing up and#down while standing and rocking from side to side while sitting. which i kinda do anyway while in crowds but it was more to expend energy#last night i also got like 5hrs of sleep. so like maaaaybe ive been on the bleeding edge of mood elevation but for the most part it just#feels good and not destructive. like if i felt like this all the time that would b fantastic. its like oh so this is y ppl dont long to b#put out of their misery lol. depression? who? i dont kno her. sounds fake. but as soon as i fucking say that ill b fucking slapped back#down to earth. ugh. annoying. no emotional object permanence. i hope its the meds. if this is the person i am under layers of misery then#that is fucking so insane. we shall see. im curious to hear what the psychiatrist thinks of my brain when i follow up with her#i gave her my full dys1exia assessment which gives a pretty good picture of how my head functions. oh fuck i bet i would do waaaayyy better#on thise test if i took it in this state of mind. but anyway she has that on top of like 3 assessment sheets i filled out#dispite everything i still want someone to categorize me into a discreet box. tell me doc. am i really bip0lar? really really?#ur sure??? like 1000% sure bc my brain wont let me accept that unless its beyond a reasonable doubt. i just doesn't seem that serious.#i mean. it is but like ya kno. its not that bad. ay. this glob of mush behind my eyes runs me in circles#but for now thats ok bc i feel like i could run up a mountain or punch someone in the face lol#unrelated
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cryptidofthekeys · 1 year
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not me
about to
try making my own lil pattern
for a fake peppino plush...
will I fail?
...probably...
will i give a shit?
...n o
bc I will have a fake peppino plush
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shadyhouse · 2 years
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freaking people out when theyre on drugs as a meme on the internet is funny but lately its been becoming a little too prevalent to the point where im starting to get concerned?? i think this needs to be said, please dont do that in real life to a person who is literally tripping. its really not anything to joke about in a real life situation, you can fuck someone up really badly from scaring someone whos high on psychedelics especially. its one of the easiest ways to trigger long-time psychosis, not to mention said person losing their trust for you, and no one deserves any of that.
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