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hungerofhadarr · 11 months

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Hi, Julek! For the character ask meme: Geralt of Rivia? 👀

Ohhh I would LOVE any excuse to talk about Geralt thank you Steph

First impression: I saw Geralt a lot before I got into the Witcher, no big surprise there . Usually just in passing glances , seeing a piece of fanart there and having him passively mentioned there . When I actually started to grow a want to get into the Witcher, I already knew he was a leading character and that he seemed interesting enough . I thought he looked cool , I thought he seemed like an enjoyable fella . My first actual proper introduction was the first Witcher game , in all its 2007 graphics glory . And I felt sorry for the poor sucker . He still seemed cool and interesting but now I also just felt bad for him . Like damn …. We not letting him rest a SECOND

Impression now : oooooooohh he’ s just so . I believe indigenous men can do no wrong and Geralt is the poster child for this belief . He’ s so incredibly strong , in all definitions of the word . He’ s building his own future and building futures worth living in . His growth is for himself and for his daughter . He made sure Ciri grew up surrounded by a diverse and loving community . He’ s one of the most important characters to me . My top dog . My big cheese . My pookie . My blorbo even . All aspects of who he is and why he is the way he is ….. wagh . Enough to bring me to my knees . He is the Character Ever .

Favorite moment : JUST ONE ? Ok whatever I Guess . One of the scenes I mention often to my friends is in The Witcher 3 when Geralt returns to Kaer Morhen and has a night of drinking with Lambert and Eskel . Goes as smoothly as you’d imagine it would . They play never have I ever btw . If you even care . It is genuinely a scene I look forward to playing through even if I’ ve seen it a million times before . Makes me laugh and smile and it’ s a nice break from the Everything Else .

Idea for a story : Ok um there are Many . One I’ ve been planning to write is Geralt + co fixing and rebuilding Kaer Morhen and the land around it so that they can have a safe location to fall back on and also so that all Witchers actually have a proper Keep again to be safe in . We got Geralt in the back mixing up cement

Unpopular opinion : I do not care at all I hate the Netflix Geralt I hate that so much . Every day I am exposed to the Netflix adaptation and it causes my life expectancy to tank . As a serious criticism of the adaptation it feels like the Netflix team fell for the in universe anti Witcher propaganda when writing for Geralt . So his characterization becomes a caricature instantly . It is just very poor understanding of the source material being presented as a new and improved adaptation . This feels unpopular but idk maybe I am wrong

Favourite relationship : Stop making me choose . All of the relationships Geralt has with the people close to him are so sweet and beautiful . But for this I will list the family unit of Geralt , Yennefer , Ciri and Dandelion . A small girl and her two weird dads and her weird mom . They learn how to heal through each other and make sure nothing trickles down to Ciri . He genuinely loves them and they all love him and both Yennefer and Dandelion would do anything to keep him and Ciri safe and he do the exact same thing for them … wah

Favourite headcanon : his autism bewitched me . Also as a fun Julek Witcher Rewrite Lore teaser ; He has an arm sleeve tattoo dedicated to the Leshen . He regularly touches it up himself , and carried the needed materials on his person at all times . This also means he has given some of his closest companions small tattoos and has touched up other Witchers tattoos that art dedicate to their keep specific monster

#OHHH STEPH THANK YOU #I rotated this while i was out and about …. very happy to answer < 33

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faenyxx · 2 years

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I’m Rewatching She-Ra currently, and I have to be honest:

I Don’t Like Entrapta

And I know for many people that sentence right there is a reason to crucify me but hear me out.

My reasons for disliking Entrapta aren’t as small as “She betrayed the princesses! Wah!!” although that is part of it that I will dive into later.

My main issues can be summed up as such:

Entrapta is the perfect “Autistic Savant” stereotype that autistic people have been fighting against as negative, and she shows autism as something that makes you incapable of having basic morals and understanding right from wrong - Another negative autistic stereotype.

For me, Entrapta represents the stereotype of the unfeeling, uncaring, morally bankrupt “Autistic Robot” (Pun Intended) and its made me sad to see that rep in one of my favourite shows.

That’s not to say that other autistic people can’t relate to her, or that some autistic people don’t have a harder time with emotions, grasping right from wrong in the societal standard of things or reading peoples intentions - My issue is that Entrapta is lorded as this Incredible Autistic Representation, when really she’s just the same ableist recipe in a different shape.

I’ve also seen a lot of people say that the Princesses were bullies to Entrapta, when thats simply not true within the context of the show.

From their perspective, Entrapta (who is a whole ass Adult, to their squad of child princesses, by the way) was trapped in a room that filled with fire and died, behind enemy lines. Despite having the ability to, she never sent a distress call, or message to her teammates (and it is very obvious that she could have used the materials around her to make a beacon or distress call device, if Emily is anything to go by) - and never stopped to think “Hey!! I was trapped in a sealed room with seemingly no way out that filled with fire, maybe they didn’t think I’d survive?” Then, when presented with technology, she immediately began making weapons despite knowing that the Horde was pillaging, killing and destroying kingdoms (Her FRIEND’S kingdoms) across Etheria.

Now, from the Princesses perspective??

A dear friend died during a rescue mission, that they barely survived, and so they mourned.

Later they discover “Oh shit! She’s not dead!” before realising that She has been making the weapons of mass destruction that have been hunting and destroying them and The Rebellion.

So, they ask her why she betrayed them, and helped the Horde, only to be told “They gave me great technology!”

Which to them is a stab to the heart. The Horde providing her with better tech and access to research was enough for her to *checks notes*

Justify betraying them and creating weapons that the Horde then used to conquer Etheria.

Now, in Entrapta’s defence I often see people latching onto Mermista’s line of

“You only care about Tech”

and framing that as bashing her Special Interest, when really she’s saying to Entrapta is:

“You care about technology and science Above Human Safety And Life, and then put us in danger because of that”

And whilst we - the audience - witness Entrapta’s pain and sadness at being “abandoned” (Read: presumed dead, and then manipulated by Catra) the Princesses don’t see that, and have no way of knowing what went on in Entrapta’s mind, and she makes no move to explain that from her side. And even then, she showed them no loyalty at all, whilst giving her all to the Horde - So why should they listen anyways?

From their perspective, she just jumped into bed with the first people to offer her First One’s tech and a lab.

Because let’s be honest? Without Entrapta’s help, the Horde wouldn’t have gotten half as far as they did and it was Entrapta’s work that led to the portal, and eventual demise of Angella.

(Not saying she directly killed Angella, however her actions weakened The Rebellion, cost many Rebel lives, and helped open the portal that Angella sacrificed herself to close).

Taking all that into account, no WONDER the Princesses were angry with her - She almost singlehandedly destroyed them!

…

Now for my issues with her as autistic representation as a character.

If I were to list her qualities on paper, Entrapta would read similarly, almost identically to characters such as Sheldon Cooper and Walter O’Brian, who are both terrible autistic rep and are criticised often for the harm those stereotypes have caused to the autistic community.

- Unable To Read Social Cues

- Often lacks empathy for other humans when it doesn’t directly affect them

- Is obsessed with science/maths to the extent of hurting other people to per-sue it

- Ignore’s or doesn’t understand boundaries and hurts people because of it

- Will leave friends in the name of following their passion for science

I also take issue with her immediately switching sides to the Evil Horde so suddenly as a queer disabled autistic - As for me, it feels like a slap in the face that a character’s reasons for switching to the oppressors were essentially

“They will fuel my special interest, and I can’t tell that that would be bad because I would hurt people and become the oppressor!”

Especially because as a black, queer, disabled, neurodivergent autistic who can’t switch sides to those who would want to oppress me because they would harm me, it felt not only unrealistic but insulting that Entrapta took all of One Conversation to Uno Reverse Card her morals.

These are my main issues, and I could expand more, but to save people reading my endless ramblings, my conclusion always ends in the same place:

I dislike Entrapta and think that she fulfils negative autistic stereotypes, that cause more harm than good, and yet people have tried to glorify her as autistic representation because She-Ra is one of the more progressive piece of media that we have seen in recent years.

#she ra netflix #she ra entrapta #entrapta #she ra discussion #rants and ramblings #discussion #autism #disablitity #chaos void

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anne-white-star · 3 years

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Band queen x autistic/anxious!reader : no worries

Notes : reader gets overwelmed during a queen concert and Freddie takes notice of that during the performance reader has a combination of anxiety and autism and gets overwelmed a lot. Takes place at Hyde Park (1976). Please excuse me for any inaccuracies. The songs that were sung at the concert back in 1976 are noted as wel . I wright this as somone with autism and how it afects me from time to time

I also have dyslexia so im trying my best to write as corectly as posible

Words : 1240

Warnings: cursing

"Come on Alice tell me where we are going its 6 am in the morning and honestly im tired"

"No y/n that will ruin the suprise"

"But i don't like surprises you know that, it makes me stand on edge"

"It be fine i promice im here alright"

*sigh* "fine just bring me there safely first"

Alice giggled "dont worry y/n we get there savely"

About an hour later y/n and Alice arived at their destination

"NO fucking way are you serious!!" Y/n turned around to face her best friend "Hyde Park for real?!"

"Now calm down y/n please" she grind

"Are we seriously going to see queen?!"

"Yes 100% dear"

"Omg please don't tell me its a dream "

"Its not I also got us special tickets"

"You din't have to"

"But i wanted to we have been best friends for years and you helped me trough a lot of stuff and now i want to do something for you"

"Thank you" she huged Alice

"Its nothig, now come on lets go we are extremly early and i want to try and get to the front"

"Alright lets go"

That same afternoon everything was pact a lot of people came to see queen and y/n started to get nervous

"Hey are you alright y/n?"

"Um yeah a bit just nervous there are a lot of people and you know how i am with crowds"

"Im next to you alright don't worry"

She gave a nervous laugh "easy for you said than done dear"

"Did you take your meds this morning?"

"Oh shit i forgot that"

"It won't be bad will it?"

"Its suposed to help reduce incoming stimulus"

"Oh i get it now, good thing that we are in the front so that if you get overwelmed we can get out of here alright?"

She gave a nod "Alright now lets enjoy the concert they are going to start in 30 minuts"

About 30 minuts later the guys came on stage, John had his bass Brian his guitar roger sat behind his drums and Freddie stood in the middel of the stage dressed in a white outfit he looked absolutly amazing in it and so did the others.

The first tunes of Brian his guitar rang trough the air, a day at the races next up came bohemain rhapsody y/n sang along with the song as best as she could.

When the 7th song was played you're my best friend tears sprang in y/n her eyes and she started to cry softly, Freddie looked acros the crowd when his eyes fell on her and he stoped singing and people groaned in anoiance.

"Excuse me miss" he crouched down infront of her on the stage "are you alright dear?"

She gasped "Oh y.. Yes im sorry please do continue don't be bothered by me"

" Alright " he wisspred he stood up again "Sorry lovelys lets continue"

Once the song 39 was playing y/n grabed Alice her hand and sang along with Brian and Freddie

🎶Don't you hear my call though you're many years away

Don't you hear me calling you

Write your letters in the sand for the day I take your hand

In the land that our grandchildren knew🎶

🎶Don't you hear my call though you're many years away

Don't you hear me calling you

All your letters in the sand cannot heal me like your hand

For my life

Still ahead

Pity me🎶

Once the song was over people cheerd

"Omg Alice im so happy you took me here this is amazing"

"Its really nothig dear, and i still can't believe Freddie noticed you"

"Yeah me neiter"

The last song was in the lap of the gods Revisited so it ment the concert was comming to an end

🎶It's in the lap of the Gods

Whoa, whoa, la-la-la, whoa

I can see what you want me to be

But I'm no fool

It's in the lap of the Gods🎶

🎶Whoa, whoa, la-la-la, whoa

Whoa, whoa, la-la, wah, wah, ooh

But that's not true

It's in the lap of the Gods

Whoa, whoa, la-la-la, whoa

Whoa, whoa, la-la, wah, wah, ooh

But I'm no fool

It's in the lap of the Gods

Whoa, whoa, la-la-la, whoa

Whoa, whoa, la-la, wah, wah, ooh

It's in the lap of the Gods

Whoa, whoa, la-la-la, whoa

Whoa, whoa, la-la, wah, wah, ooh

But I'm no fool

It's in the lap of the Gods

Whoa, whoa, la-la-la, whoa

Whoa, whoa, la-la, wah, wah, ooh🎶

The last notes rang out and when it was over people cheerd, Freddie once again stood in the middel of the stage and bowed and so did the others

"Thank you all for coming my dears have a wonderfull evening" (No idea if he did an outro just wanted to Wright that)

"I have an other suprise for you"

"Oh please Alice stop" She laught

"Alright i'll tell you what it is, its VIP tickets for backstage"

"No fucking way are you serious?! First a queen concert and then an VIP ticket to get backstage" she huged Alice "thank you so mutch i cant thank you enough"

"Its really nothing"

"Is there Anyway i can repay you"

"Just your friendship is enough, now come one lets go"

Once they arived the bouncer stood infront of a door "tickets please?"

"Here they are" Alice gave the man the tickets

"Everything seems in order, you may enter"

"Im so nervous"

"Dont worry it be fine im not going to leave you alone"

"I know"

"Y/n look thats Brian may"

"Omg hes even taller up close"

"Hello ladys welcome backstage I hope you enjoyed the concert"

"Oh yes we really did"

"Hello lovelys" y/n turned to the voice, it was Freddie Mercury

"Hi"

"You are the girl in the front who started to cry, is everything alright?"

"Oh yes am doing fine now, i forgot my meds today and thats why i started to cry i just was really anxious"

"Wel you made it through the concert" Freddie pulled her in for a big hug " now come you must be hungry you and your friend have been here very long i asume " Freddie gestured to a large couch "you two already met Brian, this is roger and John but you already know that " he laught " now please sit down"

"Well hello beautyfull"

"Roger no flirting they are guests"

"Hey you are that girl Freddie stoped for"

"That i am yes John" she smiled shyly

"Everything alright I hope?"

"Oh yes i am"

About an hour or so later y/n and Alice started to make them self ready to go home

"Y/n?"

"Yes Freddie?"

"I was wondering if i could get your number? I'll be giving a party in a few weeks and i want you and your friend Alice to come by"

"Oh sure here it is" she grabed a pen and a piece of paper "is it alright if i ask yours in return?"

"No not at al here"

"Thank you all so mutch this was an amazing experience "

"Glad you did dear, have a save drive home, i'll call you later"

"Alright," she huged him goodbye and waved to the others

"I can't beliefe it we met queen aaahhh" she gave a tiny yell of happiness

"Cant believe it eiter, now lets go home its an other hour driving"

"Alright lets go"

The end

I hope you enjoyed reading😊 please let me know what you think

#band queen #band queen x reader #queen x reader #platonic #Freddie Mercury x reader #brian may x reader #roger taylor x reader #john deacon x reader #actually autistic

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thoughtsandeverythingelse · 4 years

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my 10 year series

in light of everyone doing their reflection of the past 10 years, i think joining the bandwagon would help me look back on the past decade - if anything to make me think of things that i can be (extra) grateful for, so here goes;

2010; primary school happened. tbh i cant remember much, (lol i actl went on a fb hunt but its taking forever to scroll everything, so im just going to write everything by my own memory and whatever it deems important haha) had my psle, felt disappointed bc i didnt do well enough for my math (got like a C instead of a B that i thought i worked hard for), thankfully there’s a secondary school that allows me to be in express. confessed to this boy i liked in case i regret, but hey at least i had the guts to tell him ok! 2011; start of secondary school, met different people from all kinds of backgrounds - the broken, the privileged, etc. also increase weight gain bc of puberty + lack of self control. started learning a new instrument (the saxophone). start of bullying all over again bc of the weight, but also liked this boy for treating me like a human - turns out i can like someone for a very long time. also crucial time for me of getting to know jw, probably was the first few contacts we had.

2012; increased weight gain, increased bullying as well. i remember (for the drama), i ran out of class crying and went into the arms of a friend, just because the hurtful things i’ve heard the boys said. also streaming year, but not sure what i was doing half the time, but had to make important decisions (subject choices). weight gain was really bad here. trip to china with the school was great though! probably one of the highlights of school.

2013; best year of my secondary school life; probably bc i dont remember studying much bc of my sinful ways lol, but also bc i had so much fun in school and barely scrapped through my results. couldnt stand the bullying so started the herbalife diet and lost the weight subsequently, but took a hell lot of time. started running a lot! i think this is also the year i started serving in camy, but also dont remember what i was doing half the time ahahha. by the grace of God, i think i rly barely passed to even go into secondary 4 lol. also the year i fell into the radio world, and found my love for mass comm. got my piercings here in the midst of the recalcitrant self, hated my math teacher to the guts and didnt know how to treat people right in the midst of the ‘identity confusion lol’ got drunk for the first time with friends drinking at the beach, partying in our minor years hahahha. 2014; O levels year. didnt hang out much with the bad company, and i think this was when i studied the hardest. i actually started catching up and getting serious, (and did well for the first time in my education woohoo!) but in the midst of the pride, my results dropped for O levels but all’s good. applied for dpa but failed, but went applied for JPSAE and really by the grace of God, i got into mass comm (after my results). ran my first few marathons here too! my secondary school friends settled down here - besides the insane brain study cramp, i think sec 4 was something i really appreciated, being able to study and kinda not hating myself, but learning how to trust God too. 2015; good 8 months of working part time! wow this is actually a pretty good year. had blue hair, (woohoo!) then got into the school of my dreams by the hand of God (this one rly wah.) first backpacking trip of my life (which made me love life so much more), struggled through the first year of school too. tbh this makes me think of my poly life - and all i can remember it to be would be just ‘BUSY’ and ‘CHINA’. lol how ironic??? considering this place was a dream for me, but i turned out to leave feeling to bleh about it. (but ok not true, i think it was an experience i am willing to take, looking back). understood the pain of the evil media/coporate world haha. the lack of sleep was real, but i actl started the year quite skinny leh!!! then the subsequent weight gain was very real hahahaha. joined ambassadors, started ‘dating’, the idea of having the social life was very real too 2016; BUSY BUSY BUSY. not sure what i was doing with my life tbh, but ok it was more media stuff, perhaps my brain does not want to revisit the joy bc it is attached with the pain and bitter side of things, but i know i have to let these go too. ‘broke up’! learnt about love and confrontation. WOW OK this is also the year i had my really really short hair!!!! wow i have no idea where i got the guts to do it, but i did it anyway HAHAHA. also the year ah ma passed away, then i ran my own comm (and saw people grow so well :’) ), kinda reaffirmed me of why im doing what im doing, and being able to groom people was such a privilege. also the year i hated running RC bc camp finale, but also the year i discovered my r/s with k and the love i had for him. 2017; the birth of beyond. i cant believe it feels so foreign to me now, but man it wasnt just the boy from beyond, but the joy from the relationships i had because of it. OIC HK was an experience, then it was also Y3 and i cant believe it was a painful year bc of school (like the heck its alr 3 years still want to torture me leh!!!!). my first refugee trip whcih broke my heart, found myself crying over the issues of the world then realising i might not even have an answer for everything. falling in love with beyond, then realising our overseas internship was happening - one of the best things that happened to me for someone that’s 19 (young and free lol) also the loudest thought from jesus came in as i was entering the shower; “how can you love someone else, when you have yet to love me?” 2018; interned, met Jesus then decided to take a gap year. best of ministry bc of the partnership i had, but also the growth for the love for people. ran the next trip for the refugee kids, (even brought our graduation gowns lol) learnt how to cut hair!!! had the mass realisation that the world is VERY big. too big for my little brain to comprehend. started working with geylang adventures, then as the year transited into 2019, i got the job offer for st andrews autism school. 2019; realisation about the relationship i have with k - literally non-exsistant anymore. this one broke my heart quite a bit. (still trying to cope with it i guess.) went back to china on my own to surprise visit my friends woohoo. worked for st andrews + geylang adventures/backalleybarbers. tbh now that i look back into my gap year, im not sure what i was doing, but at the same time - it was something that i think my soul needed. not to rush just because the world is, but understanding so much of who God is, decerning the peace and learning so much about life. after many tears, many questions, i got into university. not my first choice, (not even in my life of choices tbh) but....;

2020;

it is day 4 of 2020, and i love what im studying. i love the friends that i’ve met in school bc they are easy to love, i love the nature of what im studying bc of the sheer contact of humanity it has. truth be told, none of us are going to become social workers. not at least those in my social circle. but at the same time, we are here studying in our best abilities, understanding who God is, through each other, through the course of study, through the people we meet. i love what im studying, but i got my first F in school, but yet i didn’t even panic (not like in mass comm leh!!!) and i could literally laugh it off. that’s how much i love what im doing.

and for that, as i’m writing this, i feel the need to scream at the top of the mountains that i’m thankful. the heart of gratitude is so real, the hand of God in my life is so real - you can argue that it is by sheer coincidence. i dont disagree, perhaps. but the peace - this immense peace, this joy, the intensity of this joy, cannot be explained, nor contained. i feel this need to shout across to the people i love and say HELLO THIS IS THE GOD I LOVE!!!! LISTEN TO ME!!!!!! HOW AM I SO SPECIAL!!!!! so thank you Jesus, for loving me. for the past 10 years. and for the many years to come. with a heart of gratitude, thank you for everything. perhaps this is not enough as a thank you message. perhaps only my life in return can translate my act of gratitude. until then, JESUS YOU ARE SO COOL and i think im starting to fall in love with you again. help me fall in love with you because you are you, and not because the things you have done for me. not because of how everything ‘seems so smooth’, but bc of who you are, your goodness, your grace, your mercy, your character, your nature, every bit of who you are!!!!

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kurokosvanillabean · 7 years

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If it's still open, Platonic relationship with Kise and his best friend having a movie night and just pigging out :)

I recently watched this brilliant movie with a young man who has autism and learned to live again, how to talk again, through Disney movie. Life, Animated is the name of it and so that is why Disney movies will be used. Watch It!! Also I tend to be pretty affectionate with my friends like tons of hugs and stuff ~Admin Asami

Kise: Tonights theme is Disney movies. Kise had a particularly odd encounter with his former teammates at a takoyaki stand and felt as though childhood comforts would ease the tension that remained in his muscles.

You had rounded up a collection of movies from the local thrift store as well as contributed some of your own. Kise was tasked with buying the multitudes of sugary, fattening snacks that were to be consumed beyond indulgence; he insisted that he knew your favourites as well which was an intriguing notion.

Best friends find knocking on the door a trivial and useless gesture and so you bursted through his door, beaming with excitement. “Kiiiisseeeee-kuuuuuun!” He turned from the doorway to his bedroom, his eyes widened and his lips parted enough to shove a whole slice of cake in his mouth as you pounced on him with cat like reflexes. You held up the bag with the DVDs, “I have a ton. Hope you got us some good snacks to.”

Kise nodded and shoved you off of him. “I do. Go put a movie in and I will show you what I got.”

You strutted over to the television, feeling quite happy the two of you got to hang out tonight. The contents of your bag were strewn about the floor in front of you. “Hmmmm………Ah! Mulan.” You placed the DVD in and jumped back onto the couch awaiting the arrival of Kise. He was taking to long, “Oi! Get a move on!” you shouted.

He waved his hand in the air, back turned away, “I will get there when I get there ___-cchi. Just wait a little longer.”

“But Kiiiseee its starting already.” He sighed and rushed over with a complete bag full of fatty, sugary, ultimately satisfying goodies and a glass of milk for you, soda for himself. He handed you your favorite chocolate, Cadbury creme eggs. (Lovely easter candy) “Wah! Nice job, nice job. You even remembered the milk.” you unwrapped the candy, pleased that he knew your affliction for milk. He’s truly one of your best friends. “Now shhhh ___, I want to watch it.” Kise placed his hand over your mouth to restrict your ability to interfere with his viewing pleasure.

#kuroko no basket #Kise Ryouta #knb imagines #anime #sports anime #movie night

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