#we're talking generational trauma

[tarosucheon]

(TW: blood)

An reflection of teachings passed down and the destruction it brings, of those in the crossfire and blood-stained legacies

Poem is written by me, transcribed under cut below

Gilded Hearts

We carry the pride of our clan

Embroidered in our chests

Where the heart should be 

It is threaded on like an medallion

With an needle 

Leaving raised felted scars 

Where the heart should be

Discipline are our veins 

Ambition as our blood

All going to 

Where the heart should be 

I asked my father, once

Why we were always taught to 

Keep those things in the heart 

He had laughed and said

“Where else would we keep

Our pride

If not

Where the heart should be?”

note I am by no means an poet. I did the equivalent of smashing words together and thinking "yeah. this is good." even so, hope you still enjoy it

#eleceed #eleceed fanart #kang sucheon #poetry #art poetry #kang supil #kang suman #anyways in layman's terms #we're talking generational trauma #and the whole traditional view of family pride that is so prominent in some places #like to the point of destruction yknow?? #art

[notmoreflippingelves]

I need to ramble more about Esteban Flores, because everything about this character and his arc seem as though it was tailor-made for me and specifically designed to make me absolutely feral.

This going below the cut, both because I do not want to spoil the entire show for my friend who is think of watching Elena of Avalor and because I go full-on apologist here and I feel like that will annoy some people.

Imagine making the absolute worst mistake than anyone could possibly make, because you are 18 and scared and stupid and tired of being ignored. And it results in you losing your family and your freedom and what little self-respect you had left because you know all of this is very much your own fault.

 And so you proceed to spend the next 41(!) years eking out a miserable existence in an oppressive state. Upon fear for your life, you are forced to be the reluctant right-hand of the evil witch-queen who conquered your country, killed your aunt and uncle and trapped your cousin in magical prison. In spite of this, you nevertheless do everything within your limited power trying to hold the kingdom together and make sure the people don't starve, because the queen certainly doesn't care about anything except greedily bleeding your country dry.

And no exaggeration, this is just what canon explicitly gives us outright in the pilot. Like that's not even getting into head canons/interpretations/common sense of what exactly this sort of life entailed for you. Because this is a children's show so there's only so much they will let us imply about living under that kind of system. Especially as a young, attractive, terrified person who is the last living member of the previous royal family who is likely being kept alive partly as a combination trophy/punching bag for the evil queen (even if the show never actually states this outright).

And then by some miracle, what's left of your family comes back after all this time. The evil queen is overthrown, partly because you yourself finally stood up to her at a critical moment. You and your country are finally free again, and what's more, you and your family are finally together again after over 4 decades. But you still feel like an outsider--partly because you always were an outsider in your family even in the better times and partly because  over the past 41(!) years, time stood still for all of them except you.

And as a result, no one ever cares to ask what those 41 years were like for you or even just if you’re doing okay. Not only because your family can’t even begin to comprehend what it must have been like, but also because they don’t care to even *try* to understand. Because the narrative has decided that everyone else’s respective traumas is worth way more than your own.  (Though tbf the narrative really doesn’t dwell much on anyone’s trauma in general but yours gets especially neglected , except to briefly play it for laughs or to remind you that your trauma is *your own fault and only your own*).

For a little while, life is pretty okay. It’s weird not having to watch your step every instant to make sure you’re not putting a toe out of line. And so you never really fully break out of your “survival mode” conditioning, making sure that you are still considered important and valuable enough to keep around.

But all the while, you know that your past—and especially your terrible little secret—is eventually going to come back to haunt you. And it does. First via blackmail and then via the return  of the evil witch-queen herself. Fortunately, she is defeated for good before she can take avenge your “betrayal of her” but you still have to deal with seeing the ghost from the past who terrorized you for 41(!) years.

And then, your secret finally comes out in the open and you are disowned by your family—the family you *just* got back a few years ago—for an admittedly super bad decision that you made over four decades ago and have regretted ever since.  Rather than face the rest of your life in isolation (as though you didn’t already have enough of that during the previous regime), you escape before you can be sent into exile. This puts you directly in the path of *another* terrifying, evil magical milf who you are forced to ally yourself with. Because you have 40+ years of conditioning that when a woman like that says “jump,” you say “how high?” if you are to have any hope of survival.  Especially given that the only people who could’ve protected you from her are the family and friends who have just definitively washed their hands of you.

Despite this, you are still trying to seek your cousin’s forgiveness and to protect her in the little ways that you can. But you are constantly getting rebuffed over and over again, and if anything, your attempts at reconciliation only seem to make your cousin angrier, and she now hates you just as much as—if not MORE than—the woman who actually murdered her parents.

Your cousin is so angry at you specifically that she actively ignores the greater threat of Witchy Milf 2.0, because she happens to see your face and is enraged. This ends up backfiring spectacularly for you both, though it does indirectly lead to the defeat of said Witchy Milf 2.0.

But guess what?  There’s no time to breathe or celebrate, because her defeat occurred during the successful summoning of a third power-mad, feminine-presenting magical humanoid and her allies. At least, this one treats you with some initial respect and actually gives you outright what you-think-you’ve-thought-you-always wanted. But she also turns your family and friends to stone in front of you as a warning of what’s to come if you dare to defy her.

But this time, you are finally done with this, have finally lost enough that you have paradoxically found your courage. You sacrifice yourself to save your cousin, and she is finally able to accept that you’ve sacrificed and changed enough that she can forgive you. And her forgiveness is so powerful and pure that it not only restores you to life but also undoes all the other evil magic. Together, you defeat this final enemy, paradoxically by banishing her to the same Underworld where your mistakes accidentally sent your aunt and uncle and her parents long ago.  Peace has been restored. You have returned for good and are finally secure in your family’s love.

And after all that, there are *still* people (both presumably in universe and in the fandom outside of it) who say it's too little, too late and that it would've been better for everyone if you'd simply stayed dead.

Like I'm just... are we really victim-blaming the character who has 45 years of unprocessed trauma and guilt (both survivor's guilt and guilt in general) because of a decision he made when his brain was still developing and he was being manipulated by an older, much more powerful person?

#elena of avalor #elena of avalor meta #esteban flores #chancellor esteban #like how do you do this to me--an english major-- #and not expect me to be completely unhinged about it? #like the parallelism. the THEMES. #the fact that having to abide by established sofia the first canon #meant that the writers had to significantly prolong the length of both esteban's and elena's respective traumas #i get that they had to but like 41 years? they still did THAT #and they expect me to be normal about it #don't get me wrong; i am not blaming elena for her response #it was normal and understandable and given her position; i may have acted the same #but at the same time; 41(!) years of trauma that the narrative just assumes esteban did and should've gotten over by now #even though they are not expecting elena to have gotten over the same 41-years of trauma? #and not just little trauma with a little “t”; we're talking TRAUMA™ #someone get this man to the Ever Realm equivalent of therapy #like i'm not totally wild about s3 in general (we should've had an final season to deal with the coronation day aftermath) #but like the finale still hit all the right narrative beats that i needed so I'm okay-ish #and it still handled esteban's final arc much better than the similar final cassandra arc from tangled the series #imo at least

[lunapwrites]

Generational trauma is weird sometimes.

Like, I have never in my life seen let alone experienced a tornado. But both of my parents lived through a nasty one, and so now any time we get so much as a watch, I've got leashes and collars on the dogs and my bag strapped on with my ID and sturdy shoes (even if I'm otherwise still in my pj's) and my water bottle refilled and I am READY. All because I grew up on the story of my mom having to walk barefoot to the red cross station after her house got blown away around her.

Anyway, this comes up now because last week was the 50th anniversary of the inciting event, as it were, and my mom actually told her story straight for once instead of roundabouting it.

Pictures/info/TLDR version of the stories below in case you were curious.

Clocked in at half-mile wide. Multiple vortices. Wind speeds estimated between 250-305mph. 32 killed (plus two firefighters due to a subsequent fire) and 1,150 injured.

On the ground for 39 minutes, traveling about 32 miles. Downtown Xenia pictured at center, Arrowhead subdivision on the far left at point of touchdown.

The Arrowhead subdivision was the first hit - my mother's neighborhood. All that was left of her house was the hallway she was sheltering in with her younger brothers, and the closet where she'd stashed the family cat. They were home alone at the time. She was 14.

Image of the damage in downtown Xenia, where my dad was. He survived thanks to a passing couple who dragged him off his bike and to the nearest cover - the stairwell of an elementary school. It was partially destroyed, and he almost lost a finger to a flying brick, but he lived to tell about it. He was 16.

#generational trauma #tornados #family history #natural disasters #genuinely though this was horrific #they both have ptsd from it #so I'm not surprised i ended up with anxiety about it lol #but still. interesting to look at it in action like this. #i also have this funny little obsession with natural disasters #because my reaction to fear is to throw science at it #i break the thing down until i understand how it works and why #because if i can understand it i can predict it #and if i can predict it then it won't catch me unprepared #i should probably talk about this with my therapist at some point actually haha #there's intellectualizing your emotions #and then there's this lol #it's fine we're fine #lp talks

[hypermascbishounen]

I love my uncle for many reasons, but it's especially good to have someone in the family who went through all the same family problems, so you don't feel completely gaslit about them.

#We're both the oldest child of our respective generations and have the same demonized gifted kid problem #And we both have a younger sibling that idolizes and resents us over the attention we got and sides with our abusive parents #But his resentful sibling is MY abusive parent #So we can actually acknowledge the generational pattern and how my mom neglects my brother the same way she was neglected #And treated me as an extension of herself that's also a potentially superior version of her brother that she can fix #Sorry for generational trauma dumping ig but every time I talk to my uncle we give each other free therapy lol

[hearts-hunger]

i'm extremely good at hiding when the conversation of my coworkers triggers me but i don't know if that's a good thing

#this is to do with all the disordered eating stuff that my coworkers in general bring up all the time #but also this is to do with when i'm with the work besties #and like usually i love talking to them and being with them #but we're all going through some heavy stuff in our daily lives and i try to be careful not to just........ trauma dump #for lack of a better word #it feels like they do sometimes #like of course i want to hear about their lives and try to help and listen and be a good friend #but some of this stuff is. like. a lot. and to be bombarded by it all the time with no warning is triggering #so i don't know what to say and i don't want them to think i don't care and i don't want them to feel bad about needing to talk about it #but it makes me all tense and nervous to hear it sometimes #anyways. they're talking about this heavy stuff now and i'm on here talking to you guys <33

[gracien-system]

Reading through notes on posts we disagree with and getting increasingly frustrated by them is. A bad habit. That we really need to try and break.

#we saw a post talking about discord vent channels #and like #yes we get the sentiment #but also #please don't generalize for fuck's sake #because gods dammit for a LONG time they were the only place we had to actually fucking talk about and externalize shit #and while public servers having them can be a bad sign #they are not universally bad. #And neither is asking friends for emotional support. #EVEN IF TEENS ARE THE ONES DOING IT #Y'ALL PUT SO MANY GODDAMN EXPECTATIONS ON US #WE'RE EXPECTED TO BE AS MATURE AS ADULTS AND YET HAVE ACCESS TO SO FEW ADULT RESOURCES IT'S LAUGHABLE #WE'RE EXPECTED TO DEAL WITH ACTIVE ABUSE OR TRAUMA ON OUR OWN #AND IF WE DARE TRY AND ASK FOR HELP FROM PEERS #IT'S CALLED VARIOUS DEGREES OF “CRINGE” OR “PROBLEMATIC” #I swear to the gods y'all just don't want to fucking think about teens Existing #y'all fucking treat us like we're zoo animals sometimes #“let's gawk at the human with half as much life experience as me for being immature and not knowing how to deal with their feelings!” #Adults get to have fucking peer support groups. #Adults get to have spaces where they can vent about their problems #but the moment teens try to do the same? #It's suddenly a huge fucking deal #this got really venty #because this is something we care a lot about #teens shouldn't have to lie about their age to get help for shit #teens shouldn't have to lie about their age fucking PERIOD. #We shouldn't have to pretend to be an adult to have our opinions and feelings taken seriously #fucking block us if you think otherwise #because we don't respect you as a person if you disagree with that

[illputdownmyrootswhenimdead]

no body part is evil btw

#blocking terfs and so many of them are convinced that penises are evil and bad #if you feel that way you need therapy and i mean that. it isn’t normal to think a body part that half the people on the planet have is evil #if that belief is from trauma you need to handle it. #trust me! i have also had fears like that due to trauma! but those are things that therapy can help with #you shouldn’t normalize it and act like that’s a fine basis for your belief system because it’s so fucking unhealthy and unhelpful #having a penis doesn’t make you evil having a vagina doesn’t make you good you people are so weird #dove talks #generally the level of fear a lot of terfs (and radfems in general) just live with that they think is just normal is really sad #yes misogyny is something to be scared of. yes you can be scared of bad things happening to you because you're a woman. #but turning those fears into a deep-seated paranoia to the point you cant interact with men at all? #to the point you think everyone with a penis wants to harm you? to the point that you think all men are evil? #thats not healthy or something to normalize or encourage #ive seen some of the people really far down the radfem rabbit hole who believe in the idea of female separatism #actually say you should be scared of male children. *children* #not even teenagers. we're talking younger than 5 years old. #ive seen several people who believe in that say that even as toddlers. boys are dangerous to girls and they should be separated. #how can you think thats a normal thing to believe??? #if youre so afraid of men (or those you see as men) that youre scared of male toddlers you need help full stop #also that can lead into very unsavory territory like not having sympathy for young boys who get sexually abused #ive SEEN people say that its not bad if a male child gets sexually abused because all males are violent and want sex always #i dont say this lightly but thats fucking insane logic. youre unwell if you think that. sorry #sorry for posting so many text posts with long rambling tags i have so many thoughts and opinions

[moss-deity]

be the haggard and reluctant father figure you want to see in the world

#bitch heal that generational trauma #we're not doing this again #moss talks

[carbonateddelusion]

I will forever hold L is Real close to my heart

#that was a big thing with me and my bro growing up #since we were poor we always got the consoles about 2 generations late #meaning we had an n64 to play with #and i remember him and me arguing over what the fountain plaque said... #that's also one of my first exposures to non-familial childhood trauma #as in whenever ivy would climb the endless staircase i would run and hide it scared the shit out of lil rox #and one time when we were playing with a gamegenie (gameshark?) mario turned pitch black and the whole thing got corrupted #now THAT'S a real life creepypasta #so with all of that you can imagine how happy i was to see the gigaleak luigi dumps... <3 #my brother and i used to argue over who was mario and who was luigi... we both wanted to be mario! #we had their caps and would fight over who gets to be first player (mario) in all of the games #i miss him a lot. a lot a lot #everything around me reminds me of him #AGH. sorry. getting rambly #i try to avoid talking about myself #it's just getting hard bc my birthday is coming up soon #and that'll be the first birthday we have without him to share it with... bc. we're twins #i miss him a lot. #rox rumblings #me things #cas don't look

[jewishvitya]

A pro-Palestine Jew on tiktok asked those of us who were raised pro-Israel, what got us to change our minds on Palestine. I made a video to answer (with my voice, not my face), and a few people watched it and found some value in it. I'm putting this here too. I communicate through text better than voice.

So I feel repetitive for saying this at this point, but I grew up in the West Bank settlements. I wrote this post to give an example of the extent to which Palestinians are dehumanized there.

Where I live now, I meet Palestinians in day to day life. Israeli Arab citizens living their lives. In the West Bank, it was nothing like that. Over there, I only saw them through the electric fence, and the hostility between us and Palestinians was tangible.

When you're a child being brought into the situation, you don't experience the context, you don't experience the history, you don't know why they're hostile to you. You just feel "these people hate me, they don't want me to exist." And that bubble was my reality. So when I was taught in school that everything we did was in self defense, that our military is special and uniquely ethical because it's the only defensive military in the world - that made sense to me. It slotted neatly into the reality I knew.

One of the first things to burst the bubble for me was when I spoke to an old Israeli man and he was talking about his trauma from battle. I don't remember what he said, but it hit me wrong. It conflicted with the history as I understood it. So I was a bit desperate to make it make sense again, and I said, "But everything we did was in self defense, right?"

He kinda looked at me, couldn't understand at all why I was upset, and he went, "We destroyed whole villages. Of course we did. It was war, that's what you do."

And that casual "of course" stuck with me. I had to look into it more.

I couldn't look at more accurate history, and not at accounts by Palestinians, I was too primed against these sources to trust them. The community I grew up in had an anti-intellectual element to it where scholars weren't trusted about things like this.

So what really solidified this for me, was seeing Palestinian culture.

Because part of the story that Israel tells us to justify everything, is that Palestinians are not a distinct group of people, they're just Arabs. They belong to the nations around us. They insist on being here because they want to deny us a homeland. The Palestinian identity exists to hurt us. This, because the idea of displacing them and taking over their lands doesn't sound like stealing, if this was never theirs and they're only pretending because they want to deprive us.

But then foods, dances, clothing, embroidery, the Palestinian dialect. These things are history. They don't pop into existence just because you hate Jews and they're trying to move here. How gorgeous is the Palestinian thobe? How stunning is tatreez in general? And when I saw specific patterns belonging to different regions of Palestine?

All of these painted for me a rich shared life of a group of people, and countered the narrative that the Palestininian identity was fabricated to hurt us. It taught me that, whatever we call them, whatever they call themselves, they have a history in this land, they have a right to it, they have a connection to it that we can't override with our own.

I started having conversations with leftist friends. Confronting the fact that the borders of the occupied territories are arbitrary and every Israeli city was taken from them. In one of those conversations, I was encouraged to rethink how I imagine peace.

This also goes back to schooling. Because they drilled into us, we're the ones who want peace, they're the ones who keep fighting, they're just so dedicated to death and killing and they won't leave us alone.

In high school, we had a stadium event with a speaker who was telling us about a person who defected from Hamas, converted to Christianity and became a Shin Bet agent. Pretty sure you can read this in the book "Son of Hamas." A lot of my friends read the book, I didn't read it, I only know what I was told in that lecture. I guess they couldn't risk us missing out on the indoctrination if we chose not to read it.

One of the things they told us was how he thought, we've been fighting with them for so long, Israelis must have a culture around the glorification of violence. And he looked for that in music. He looked for songs about war. And for a while he just couldn't find any, but when he did, he translated it more fully, and he found out the song was about an end to wars. And this, according to the story as I was told it, was one of the things that convinced him. If you know know the current trending Israeli "war anthem," you know this flimsy reasoning doesn't work.

Back then, my friend encouraged me to think more critically about how we as Israelis envision peace, as the absence of resistance. And how self-centered it is. They can be suffering under our occupation, but as long as it doesn't reach us, that's called peace. So of course we want it and they don't.

Unless we're willing to work to change the situation entirely, our calls for peace are just "please stop fighting back against the harm we cause you."

In this video, Shlomo Yitzchak shares how he changed his mind. His story is much more interesting than mine, and he's much more eloquent telling it. He mentions how he was taught to fear Palestinians. An automatic thought, "If I go with you, you'll kill me." I was taught this too. I was taught that, if I'm in a taxi, I should be looking at the driver's name. And if that name is Arab, I should watch the road and the route he's taking, to be prepared in case he wants to take me somewhere to kill me. Just a random person trying to work. For years it stayed a habit, I'd automatically look at the driver's name. Even after knowing that I want to align myself with liberation, justice, and equality. It was a process of unlearning.

On October, not long after the current escalation of violence, I had to take a taxi again. A Jewish driver stopped and told me he'll take me, "so an Arab doesn't get you." Israeli Jews are so comfortable saying things like this to each other. My neighbors discussed a Palestinian employee, with one saying "We should tell him not to come anymore, that we want to hire a Jew." The second answered, "No, he'll say it's discrimination," like it would be so ridiculous of him. And the first just shrugged, "So we don't have to tell him why." They didn't go through with it, but they were so casual about this conversation.

In the Torah, we're told to treat those who are foreign to us well, because we know what it's like to be the foreigner. Fighting back against oppression is the natural human thing to do. We know it because we lived it. And as soon as I looked at things from this angle, it wasn't really a choice of what to support.

#riki babbles #I had this in my drafts for ages and I was like 'not the time' but a friend encouraged me to share so here it is #palestine

[kindacreepy-kindaugly]

For the rare coherent, rational thought: it's pretty unlikely this is actually about him or even me. He's sure as fuck not helpin but it's just a smokescreen.

#i started spiralin pretty suddenly at almost two weeks since any interaction w/ him & w/ seemingly no trigger #unless we look outside the system. cause it woulda been a couple of days after we broached some things in therapy #n i don't know what it means but i don't like it #was just the general topic too close n triggered some kinda emergency protocols? we've mentioned it before w/ no issues #or was it that what we've assumed to be basically just speculation w/ nothing tangible is closer to the truth than we think #we can't assume anything til we have either smth tangible or actually remember things but #it's all blocked away #what changed? would pointing fingers at the wrong person have caused this too? #is someone tryin to tell us smth or is this a sign to back off? #we can't keep backin off forever we can't fucking live like this but idk what we need to do to get past that block #n i know we can't go digging it just triggers more defenses n doesn't even work #but it's driving me fucking insane #i keep wanting to watch some specific movies or shows to see if it'd trigger a memory but i know that's not even remotely safe #i don't know what to fucking do #do i ignore it? obsessing over the same things over n over helps no one but i got nothin else to go on from #some things in val that we don't.....recognize. it's not rly source him it's none of the other people he introjected things from #it's no one we remember. who is it? do we even wanna remember? #cause sometimes i look at the shit i say n see the trauma holder who Knows the one who can't tell n only talked about it once #something we're replaying just w/ a different cast #who's feelings are these? whose words is he repeating? #n then we have the fucking dreams we never talk about but idk if that's just cause we think about it so much #is it just all of the shit mashed together or is it a memory #or more just fragments of one anyway #spdrvent

[femvaylin]

I'm so fucking sad about the A*tra Z*neca thing I'm actually crying. Like we KNEW about this all of this was ENTIRELY preventable but like MILLIONS of people have been harmed because somebody was too fucking proud to admit we were making a mistake this is fucking horrifying

#the moment we stopped doing covid in 2022 people just clamped up about it and never mentioned it again #we as a society have a gigantic unresolved trauma about this that's arguably the biggest event in any young person's life so far #and we're COMPLETELY ignoring it and refusing to talk about it #because every single one of us fucked up #we fucked up so fucking bad #one day we're gonna have to deal with the ramifications of what we did #one day we're gonna be called out by the generations to come and we're gonna have to justify the shit we did 2020-2023 #i'm gonna throw up #and they're literally saying there was public backlash against AZ in 2021?? what are you TALKING ABOUT #i shouldn't be surprised at being gaslit like this but i'm LITERALLY being made to feel insane #if i wasn't insane before i'm certainly being driven to it smh

[rottentarsoul]

This is a distracting ask

What’s your least favorite movie/book/game genre?

- @andrews-graves

Ah, thanks!

Well, thinking about it- on a personal level I don't really? Engage much with hobbies outside of art. So like on a personal level I guess It's hard to say???

Though because this brain has like -500 braincells puzzle games tend to be pretty challenging.

...Also whatever you classify your dorky little poems as.

#[ Ashley's Responses ] #[ Lemon Muffin ] #[ 🍃 ]: If we're talking as a system on the other hand... #[ 🍃 ]: Generally any nonfiction stuff they're not a fan of. Also again: Puzzles and strategy games just aren't our forte. #[ 🍃 ]: Though movie wise...Whatever you classify those movies that just. Have car accidents at the start of them. #[ 🍃 ]: Swear to Pale Mother that gave us trauma like nothing else--

[fantastic-nonsense]

My hottake is that people are trying to fit Lockwood into character archetypes he doesn't fit, because they see "traumatized teen boy with a big ego and a passive death wish" and go "oh. emotionally unavailable asshole character" when that's.....not actually the character we're shown.

He's constantly praising Lucy and George. He's often the first one to try and apologize when he gets into a fight with them. The second he clocks Lucy as a "safe person" he becomes super touchy and holds her hand constantly. He compliments George's cooking. He's visibly proud of the people he cares about and publicly defends them on multiple occasions. He repeatedly asks his team if they're okay and tries to get them to open up when they're having issues. He makes an obvious, conscious effort to repeatedly tell Lucy he believes in her and wants her to stay at Portland Row. He smiles and jokes and laughs around with them on a pretty regular basis. He's also emotionally aware enough to tell Lucy "the reason I haven't talked about this subject with you is because it's relevant my childhood, which I don't like to talk about because it's pretty traumatic" when she questions him ahout Jessica's door, and he's kind of astonishingly open about his trauma with Lucy and George despite generally being unwilling to actually talk about the details.

And this applies to characters other than Lucy and George, too. He compliments Kipps' team during the graveyard fight and clearly respects Flo, for example. He's kind to Winkman's son, is generally polite to his clients, and is affected by the death of the undercover agent to the point of having a panic attack. It's pretty clear he cares deeply about the people around him even as he tries to push those closest to him away so they won't mourn him if (when) he dies.

Like yeah, Lockwood has an ego the size of Manhattan, has enough trauma to fill a boat, and is worryingly flippant about the worth of his own life, but he's not the Asshole With a Heart of Gold archetype. He's not cruel or deliberately mean (at least, not to anyone who's not Kipps). He's friendly and pretty kind to most people most of the time, and he openly cares about his team. And it's a little weird that I'm seeing so many people talk about him like he's not.

#lockwood and co #lockwood meta #anthony lockwood #lucy carlyle #george karim #hashtag not all egotistical and emotionally constipated teenage boys are the same!

[xjulixred45x]

OKAY MY LAST INVINCIBLE POST BEFORE DEDICATING TO REQUESTS FOR THE REST OF THE MONTH DON'T KILL ME! THIS TIME IT'S FLUFF!

Mark Grayson/Invincible x Starfire!Reader

Imagine being an alien similar to DC's Starfire, you can follow the original line of the character (I follow more than anything the one from the comics or the 2003 series) where your planet was conquered by another race (thanks to your sister) Or you can go the more "family friendly" line, which is that you decided to explore the world outside your home planet but ended up in the hands of some kind of intergalactic trafficking network.

I imagine that if it is the first case, it is most likely that your race has been conquered by the Viltrumite themselves, which caused a MASSACRE to occur from which you and your sister were miraculously able to escape.

Regardless of what you choose, you ended up on Earth, although having gone through great traumatic events, so when you see this new world, with a strange species, you begin to attack by mere instinct (like what Starfire did in the first chapter of Teen Titans)

That's when Mark or rather INVINCIBLE appears.

He tries to fight you at first, get you away from the civilians, that is until he realizes how scared you are (especially if we're talking about the case of the Viltrumite invasion and you realize that Mark IS a Viltrumite). So he tries to change his strategy and try to calm you down as much as he can.

When he succeeds, he ends up taking you to the Globe's guardians to see what to do. I imagine that you are a little different than the original Starfire, you are more scared and defensive in this situation, at first you only trusted Mark.

For this reason, Cecil decides that you will stay in the Pentagon until they know what to do with you. Mark helps you learn the "normal" things of the Earth and show Cecil that you are not a threat.

(if you had to learn the human language by "lip contact" the whole team definitely makes fun of Mark a little for being in love now).

Imagine Mark and Eve bringing you clothes to try on!🥺Eve probably just created it out of nowhere, but she also brings clothes that her parents give her that she doesn't want and for some reason you like.

Mark offers to help you train! At first he tries to go easy on you, but when you almost knock him out with your laser beams, he learns his lesson.

He definitely takes you out to eat junk food! More when he realizes that the Pentagon's food doesn't help you much because of your big appetite. Mark was surprised at how much food you could eat but luckily Cecil pays for it (just don't tell him yet🤫)

Definitely one of Mark's favorite things about you, when you're over the trauma, is your innocent attitude, even after all, you're very bubbly and friendly. which is at least difficult to find in your line of work, so he wants to keep that part of yourself as much as possible.

Mark definitely took you to meet his mother, at first he was a little nervous that she wouldn't accept you after what happened with his father, but surprisingly Debbie took it very well.

Thanks to this you were able to learn more about the culture of the Earth, you constantly asked Debbie about the places she had seen, what they were like and their culture (even some anecdotes about Mark when he was a child), and with your bubbly and youthful attitude she did not It was difficult for Debbie to warm to you easily.

Apart from that it helped you fall in love with the Earth quite quickly, see its beauty for yourself, which encouraged you to be your own version of a hero.

When you want to become a heroine, Mark enters into an internal conflict. On the one hand, he KNOWS very well that you don't want someone to make decisions for you, he respects that, but on the other hand, he is TERRIFIED by the possibility that you will get hurt, captured, or lose COMPLETLY your being or worse, DIE.

It is probably thanks to this conversation that you two become a couple.

In general, at first Mark tries to do your first patrols with you to teach you the basics, then he lets you do whatever you want, and he is SO PROUD when you beat someone.

"THAT IS MY GIRL!" kind of proud.

He definitely really likes flying with you and just wandering, at least he feels like there you two have more privacy. Apart from that he likes how you look in your element. according to him.

If you talk about the first case of origin that I mentioned at the beginning and your sister comes back, Mark sees through ALL the red flags and will be the first to warn you about her, since he went through something similar with his family, you don't want to go through that.

If both fight together, POWER COUPLE. LITERAL. You have certain skills that Mark doesn't, so they complement each other very well.

If Mark gets hurt, you go into RAMPAGE MODE and honestly? Mark doesn't know if he should be scared or more in love. or excited.

If YOU get hurt GOD HELP US, MARK IS ANGRY---someone is going to have a bad time. And You a Lot of cuddles.

Overall, both of them are like two Golden Retrievers being happy together.

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Aziraphale Does Not Have Religious Trauma

We talk a lot about Aziraphale's trauma when we discuss his motivations and choices, particularly the ones we don't like. But what we don't talk enough about is the KIND of trauma he has, and it's not what we think of when we think of religious trauma. We have to remember that everything that Aziraphale has been threatened with and terrified by in his existence. It's REAL.

When a human has religious trauma it's generally because they've been abused and conditioned by threats of hell and damnation and judgement and so forth, and part of the healing process is realizing that it's a bunch of bullshit from an abuser with a power trip. That's not the case with Aziraphale. The angels are mostly bastards, but I'm willing to bet most of them believe in the Great Plan and genuinely believe in what they're doing. Because God is real, hell is real, and you really can be tortured for eternity if you step out of line. Aziraphale saw it happen. I can't even imagine what that must have been like.

When he tries to stop Elspeth from digging up bodies, it's not from some vague moral qualm; it's very practical concern for her future. He knows hell is real and doesn't want this young woman to suffer. And the excitement in his face when he realizes that it's more complicated than that and there are moral justifications for it. "Good news, I've found a work around!" Aziraphale the rules lawyer my beloved. He's managed to survive all this time by finding justifications for evading the rules, but when the most powerful angel in heaven drops in for coffee and a chin wag, that's not an option anymore.

I just really feel like we need to have this in the front of our minds when we're answering every Why? with "Trauma." I mean, yes he has trauma, but it won't be cured by developing stronger self esteem and giving heaven the finger. (Satisfying as that would be.) It will be cured by tackling the source and ending the very real physical threat that heaven poses to himself and Crowley.

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