#who gives a fuck about the company

[serialunaliver]

"before you stop a customer from shoplifting, consider they may really need the item and can't afford it"

#those posts confuse me because why would you stop anyone in the first place #who gives a fuck about the company

[goldenpinof]

i read a biography about jim henson and there was a part that talked about him feeling kinda burned out with the muppets and also not wanting do commercials to promote things for other brands but changed his mind when he realized he could use that money to fund his other non muppet related projects like dark crystal. labyrinth, etc. and this has been my analogy for dnp lately. muppets were a fan favorite and the vehicle to keep henson relevant with reliable money to live off of like the gaming channel is for them, and the sponsorships that come with it are to fund things like wad, dinok etc. so i think you're right about their motivations. i can just see phil pitching all this to dan to drag him back online. i'm okay with all the sponsorships especially if like every tenth one we get an amazing one where dan puts his whole ass into it like this latest dragon city video. (sorry this turned out to be longer than i intended)

this is a good analogy. i just wish they were choosing sponsorships wiser.

#i wonder if Dan took a loan to fund wad tour. i know i talked about who the fuck was giving him money... #and this new company with his accountants is a bit sus. but is it them or is it a loan #or did he spend his 6 figures on everything. i doubt that #answered #sponsors

[mctreeleth]

They have this annual award at my work that is some corporate bullshit about recognising the employee who has made a significant contribution to the company and it's usually won by someone who is moving into a management role after being there for like a decade BUT while the winner is decided by the bosses the nominations are made by people working there and even though I have only been there 18 months and am decidedly not managing anything at all I found out today that apparently I got a half dozen different nominations so while I am almost certainly not going to win the actual award I have to imagine this means they will instead crown me Miss Congeniality and give me a tiara for being the friendliest most specialest girl in the factory.

#I got told like a week ago that I was nominated but there's usually like 40 people on the list #a lot of the time people make pacts to nominate each other #I assume for like resume reasons or something #I was not particularly invested in it on account of the aforementioned winner history #but today I actually asked who it was that nominated me #and it was apparently people from all over #am I making a significant contribution to the company? #no I don't give a fuck about the company #but I give a fuck about making cool things and being nice to people and helping people make cool things #I think that that is a lot more important than coming up with strategies to save the company $10k a year #oh and when I get back from holidays I am going to start agitating for them to start paying us the right amount of long service leave #so they are really going to love that #whoops I guess I COST you $100k a year by talking to the lawyers at the union and proving that you're not giving us our benefits #whoopsie daisy!

[presiding]

What is your favourite thing about Billie Lurk?

(Answers are obvious possibly but i love when people talk about her👍)

thanks for the ask!! YEAH ME TOO I love when people talk about Billie! I can't say I have a favourite thing specifically, but I can explain why she's my fav. apologies for not taking this qn literally, but -

short answer: she’s really cool

& you can stop reading there, or, for the maybe 2 mutuals who might have time to read this my thoughts on her as a character, her meta, and her character as raw potential...

long answer:

i considered making this entire thing a gush so you could read a gush about Billie. but, part of what draws me to her is that she’s not always well written, and in fandom she’s underrated for a literal protagonist.

since you ask...

billie is a cool character

when I played Dh2 (hadn't played Dh1), I was excited to see a black woman with disabilities who was captaining a massive ship by herself. wow.

then I discovered Billie’s backstory with Deirdre, the way she responded to that, then having to survive while living on the run, and her bisexuality. as well as her history with daud & delilah. fascinating!

she’s an outsider who has so much to lose, and knows what it's like to lose everything - having lost everything not once but three times - but nevertheless speaks truth to power. she's so brave! she went and helped Emily & Corvo and she must have known they might kill her! plus, she’s smart, she’s funny, she gets shit done, she’s gorgeous.

but... the meta

mild critique of fandom & arkane incoming.

skip this bit if you want - you've been warned twice now - jump to tired Hayao Miyazaki and read from there if you'd like my thoughts on writing her.

i thought Death of the Outsider was going to be amazing and then... well. *sad trombone* i've written about that before so i won't keep banging on. i figured others must be disappointed too, so I joined a few fandom spaces in hopes of finding camaraderie.

most people with complaints about DotO didn’t like how the Outsider and Daud were handled. which is valid & I agree. but it seemed like most paid no attention to Billie; when people talk about her it’s with respect to Daud, as opposed to in her own right. you could argue for fandom misogyny because people don’t talk about adult Emily Kaldwin that much either, but in Billie's case, it’s misogynoir (compare & contrast with the popularity of thomas, particularly the popularity of thomas portrayed as a white man for no particular reason that i've been able to discern - i keep asking around, is it in the books???).

i think this is a LOT better now than it used to be, which is fantastic. or perhaps i have found the correct echo-chamber? ha.

ultimately, The Fandom is a fraction of the entire picture, and not even the important bit since The Fandom is not who these games are made for. you can't make money relying on only your hardcore fans even if all of them spent a fortune on merch, this is true for any AAA game.

while it's true that Billie is underrated from a fandom perspective - but Billie as an underwritten protagonist is squarely Arkane’s fault.

it was reasonable when she was a side character - the lack of info in Dh2 makes perfect sense (if anything there was more lore in Dh2 which is kind of wild)-

- but as a protagonist in Death of the Outsider?

.... there’s lousy writing, and there’s whatever is going on with Billie Lurk, a black woman who mostly exists as a foil or saviour for light-skinned characters. In her own game there’s barely any of her own lore except where it's relevant to saving two dudes.

lore hints at, but barely touches on what race means in the Dh universe (xenophobia is stronger in Dh1; separate essay i guess), but Arkane has patted themselves on the back for portraying non-white characters, which feels like the same thing as the aesthetic of diversity we're seeing in advertising currently because it’s in marketing trend guides. it's self-congratulatory and it's a missed opportunity for deeper storytelling.

you can see an example of diversity at its most shallow in the way that Billie’s written: there’s little engagement with her as an entire person with history & wants & preferences, and the world she walks through in that game feels like it has nothing to do with her. you could make a case for alienation as a theme, but then, how do you handle the titular premise of 'Dishonored' without ever letting Billie make changes in an environment without a chaos system? it's disappointing from that angle too.

in my opinion, whatever it's worth, it was an accident Arkane created such an awesome character - they needed someone to betray daud. congrats billie.

all this said, it makes her an underdog as far as characters to enjoy & create art & stories for. it's nice to find so many like-minded, switched on people! <3

billie's character potential

she’s got a wealth of unexplored lore, being deeply intertwined with both Karnaca & Dunwall’s fates & criminal underbellies, as well as her connections to the witches & whalers, and three Empresses.

she’s lived a few distinct lifetimes and in the games we get to meet her at two peaks (KoD & DotO) & a low (Dh2 as Meagan).

her voice is very distinct, her dry & often dark humour is entertaining & fun to write. her perspective is really interesting - she’s had the widest variety of void-powers of anyone canonically, and she’s also lived through the highest highs and lowest lows.

she's got everything going for her :) i couldn't really pick a fav thing!

#i assume my followers are cool enough to let me give a brief measured critique on fandom trends and DotO #thanks for the anon question!! what fun! #i love billie lurk <333 #jumped on the opportunity to rant n rave #what part of billie isn't my fav! (im a guy who likes the bad stuff too. mmm interesting meta) #trying to be not unfair or mean- i'm not targeting anyone but rather trends. and it's ok to be disappointed with something you love #fuck it. make it part of the appeal! her writing sucks! plenty of room for me & other creators! #its easier for me to indulge my billie brainworms when it sorta feels like she's not getting as much love as she deserves #you know? i want stories where her history is explored and her agency is important so i guess i'll roll up my sleeves #tumblr is a terrible place for this sort of critique IMO- lots of nuanceless empathy-free guilt-trip-ish rhetoric #so i hope i avoided that. but not so much that i seem forgiving. #that said i'm not tagging this one with fandom tags! no thank you. #i am blaming arkane yes. but that is also not without games industry context #i could complain about amateurish writing but that also never happens in a vacuum. industry problem(s) for sure. #people love to blame writers for things #and yeah a couple really fucking good writers can push a boulder uphill #but its usually a company problem #hire lots of diverse people in your company. give them authority and respect and reasonable workloads. and no crunch. #ah fuck this is a separate essay in tags. again #THIS WAS A SIMPLE QUESTION #*clutches head in hands* #uh if you're still reading at this point im SO sorry and thank you and i love you

[girlwiththegreenhat]

a dude my ma works with at amazon died of a stroke on the job because they force them to work in hot conditions and they refused him water. they bring in modified temperature readers so they can say "see, it's a safe temperature in here, all up to code uwu" but someone snuck in their own temp reader and it was much hotter than they claim it is.

it was ninety degrees Fahrenheit. heavy lifting for several hours at a time, no water, in 90 degree loading docks.

stop fucking using amazon. or at the very least, fucking unionize.

#amazon #anti capitalism #fuck amazon #liz blogs #i am so relentlessly pissed off #stop accepting corporate nihilism. stop letting them get away with it. stop prioritizing convenience over human fucking decency #i have so many horror stories about amazon i am not fucking shopping there anymore #i mean i already have hardly shopped at amazon for years. i only buy a couple things there because i can't find them anywhere else #i am done. i am over it. no fucking more. amazon can eat my fucking ass #things aren't going to get better if people don't start giving a shit. i am giving a shit. #they treat my mom bad. they treat their workers bad. people are dying. #people are striking left and right. shitty unregulated chinese companies are stealing from people who can't fight back en-mass. #can't fucking do it anymore man. i am so mad. #on that note if you shop on temu/wish/shein/etc fucking block me.

[snailienz]

me: no one: not a soul: me, inconsolable: does the tv man know he deserves better?

#hazbin vox #valentino #hazbin hotel #i am inconsolable about this man giving that roach ass garbage can a pent house in his fucking super tech company tower #only to have him bring another man into HIS DAMN HOUSE and not even one who wants to be there?!?! #when this mans is out here holding his hand like he'd burn hell for him and dancing with him excitedly #clown ass behavior #if someone held my hand the way vox holds val's i would think about it for DAYS #how is he with this dude #make it make sense vivien

[mangoofthesea]

How many things do you think need to be set on fire to disrupt capitalism enough to create a livable society? Asking for a friend

#mango rambles #capitalism #watcher #dystopian society #just watched a speech about how terrible the overturn of roe v wade is #keep hearing how companies are canning movies as tax right offs or strangling the life out of diverse content before it gets made #fucking governments fucking everything up #looking at uk and us #fucking joke on the tv tonight about how nhs staff shouldn't be bothering with making 'signs showing 23 genders' because cancer isn’t cured #was a sign with pride flags on #some of them genders some sexualities #i hate the british media #feel bad for not donating to causes because i could but where am i supposed to draw the line? #is this the right one to donate to? #i don't feel comfortable donating to multiple because I'm trying to cling desperately to my money and any little advantage or safety i have #but im not giving other people that same courtesy #because which one do i donate to? #the person who can't afford food? #the family getting out of a warzone? #the family trying to get their son or daughter or father or aunt or sibling out of a warzone #the person who needs their cancer stricken cat to get surgery #the homeless content creator #the homeless single parent trying to be a content creator to gain any money #the people trying to raise money for dying relatives they adore #its not even doomscrolling its because i watch one video of people suffering to hear them out #give them time to speak so their video gets views #read their post becuase there are capitals and red letters and begging and i don't want to reblog or repost something that spreads misinform #ion #nothjng is nice nothing is pleasant #everyone is mean

[drumlincountry]

#Eefa sells her labour #Look I am PRO CRIMES AND PRO SCAMS #but the guy who has scammed himself into the social media manager job at my work is a fucking nightmare #If he would sit in a corner and quietly scam the company out of a salary for a position we DO NOT NEED #I would respect him #However he keeps making it harder for me to to my job #And physically taking things i'm working on away from me to butcher #Like I don't want to brag but i'm a trained and experienced facilitator. I was a university lecturer #Do you really think itms your job to add more animations into my slide shows??? Social media man??? #He is also clearly like. Using Google to search for images because he keeps adding incorrectly id'd species #I will find a nice creative commons pic of a plant i'm talking about and he will be like #:) I have my sources *changes it to something that lives in new zealand* :) #Like dude u don't need to be an expert but you have to understand that there are things you don't know. That I DO. #I have been trying to avoid him as much as possible but occasionally I'll be like. OK I am going to give him a chance #Maybe he's not that bad #And i'll let him look at an Instagram post or something #And then he RUINS EVERYTHING AGAIN #Me Fein

[todayisafridaynight]

HONESTLY. i agree with prev anon minedai community rlly feels like it’s own separate thing a lot of the time i get so shocked when people who aren’t mainly minedai posters acknowledge it LMFAO it’s pretty rare. we’re kind of in our own stuck in yakuza 3 bubble if that makes sense while everyone’s moving on with the newer games

real tbh. i get jumpscared when people mention it outta no where like how did you know this existed..... can i help you... its like when you lift up a rock and theres a bunch of bugs underneath

#snap chats #like recently that one artist featured daigo and mine in a comic of theirs and i had to blink twice #like oh my god thats right they dont just exist in mine and five other people's heads thats fucked up #WELCOMED but woah .. #its just funnier to follow the games through daigo tbh. thats my fave things about these games #just wondering wtf daigos up to since he's- ironically- the Straightest man in that he's so . Guy. #like he's Just A Guy amongst these people and i love him so much and i like how he looks concerned 90% of the time #yes he's the chairman of the tojo but it's also really easy to imagine him working at like. a printer company. or a library #whenever chairman daigo takes his shirt off i get jumpscared cause its like Oh Right He Does Fight Sometimes #i love his fight style cause its so fucking. he really just swinging who give a fuck his strength is shooting people not this #he can still kick ass Allegedly tho i wont discredit wtf the game told me but still its funny how rough his style is. i love him #the fuck am i waffling on about. idk we're talking about the stanley prison experiment for the ninety millionth time in my academic career

[cornerful]

Sméagol and the Gift

'Now!' said Sam. 'At last I can deal with you!' He leaped forward with drawn blade ready for battle. But Gollum did not spring. He fell flat upon the ground and whimpered.

'Don't kill us,' he wept. 'Don't hurt us with nassty cruel steel! Let us live, yes, live just a little longer. Lost lost! We're lost. And when Precious goes we'll die, yes, die into the dust.'

Devastated by this. Just a little longer, he begs. Even though his existence is a torment. Even though the will that holds him to life is barely his own anymore. He has long outlived his time but it's such a cruelty that now the only freedom for him is in death. I'm glad Sam didn't kill him but the whole scenario is awful.

When a mortal keeps a ring of power he does not gain more life, he continues, denied natural mortality as the fear of death is amplified and twisted into fear of separation, nothing matters anymore but the keeping, the continuing. In that miserable existence there is no peace, and at its end there is no graceful goodbye to life, there is only dust. Sudden, empty, and final.

It would take murder to spare him that. Or falling with the ring into the fire.

Bilbo let it go in time (did he feel anything when it was destroyed?) Frodo is freed of it now, though the toll it extracted for the separation was at very least a finger. It was too late for Gollum for the price to be anything other than it was, and that's brutal.

If you live long enough, death is no longer the enemy. What Sauron did to Gollum ensured that it would always be the enemy, to be feared and avoided for ever, once time and the ring had fashioned it into the only escape left. Evil.

#lotr newsletter #suicide mention in tags #haunted by the au in which gollum goes into the fire with the ring On Purpose #bc he still couldnt separate himself from it but frodo's compassion had somewhat released him from its evil #in a way an honor to frodo's quest and in a way an act of mercy to be able to give up the self-torment #which gives me shrimp feelings bc of the everything but also back to the original point that it is so tragic that death is all that awaits #bc death is natural and that was taken from him. what is the will to live in the absence of natural death? #smth deeply horrible about that #matt bugg screaming we'll be dust. so famous and rent free #lotrn325 #damn it im having more thoughts #wraiths vs gollum: discuss #the nature of the ring kept affects the nature of its possession no? those rings were made FOR thralldom #sauron has power over gollum but not That Much and his own ring is all abt the domination #what would a 2000 year old gollum even be like ._. #the wraiths are probably even more tragic bc at this point they're like...undead. even death isn't freedom #on that topic what happened to the witch-king's spirit fr #I'm pretty sure he isn't ever actually called that in the book but it's epic and gender and way snappier than lord of the nazgul #anyway shoutout to i think yambits for breaking the lore and giving them peace that was sick #where's my gollum rehab fic #i know he's a horrible little man who is constantly trying to murder my boys but i love him so #the au...gollum gaining the willpower to destroy himself because he was given trust and kindness and companionship for once. FUCKED UP. #fucked up horrible i need a minute. being shown compassion and then becoming more self-compassionate. epic #that compassion entailing seeking the freedom of death your soul was denied bc this is fantasy and somehow the exact #arc that usually leads to fighting to live is now flipped. HUH. #yeah jirt alluded to his motivation being For Frodo but i maintain that the willingness to die is HUGE there and extremely relevant #me and my red string keeping me company #ugh tag championships i win i think but at what cost #who wants to spin around miserably in a pool like franknfurter with me as we listen to gollum's song #tam you're already invited i have a floaty for u

[trainingdummyrabbit]

Uhh angela 2 and 3

ive already answered this one but i NEED to emphasize so so badly the way she is written kills me so so badly. positive. shes messy and complicated and genuine and loud and Everything. she is Everything to me. im not allowing myself to get too specific bc if uve been here you Know how it gets w her. with me w her. but the fact that shes allowed to stumble through everything and learn and change and still have hope. still keep going. an angela is something that is so full of love. i would kill for her. in a fuckig heartbeat.

THAT SHE DIDNT GET A FUCKING HUG

#pikasks #projmoon #ask game #HALFJOKING i cant think of anything else rn (if there is anything) but its. complicated. #shes been denied closeness her whole entire life and her being revolves around dancing around her true feelings n holding a front #my girl is out here dancing like shes completely on her own; desperately wishing to connect to people who r RIGHT THERE.... #but at the same time she so. flighty. it takes her so much to even muster admitting that she Wanted that company. it was exhausting. #it Literally took her going a step Beyond having a breakdown about it. #i dont think shes had any physical contact in her life that wasnt Being Attacked. ithink she would just short circuit. #itd take fucking forever to give her a pat on th shoulder without her slipping around it like a cat. u get me? #but god. girlie. shaking her. girlie.....

[tired-and-unjellied]

"If you go work at an interim agency, they will put you in a company for 3 weeks to one month, then you might get a permanent contract from the company"

#I'm going to candidate just so she shuts the fuck up about interim jobs #especially since I applied at two Digital Services Company which kind of are the interim agencies for IT and software dev #but I'm really starting to think someone who didn't jobhunt for more than 24 years has any valid opinion about jobhunting #especially not someone that works to work in HR and still thinks it's the era of careers (it's the era of employability) #(making sure your employees are employable and skilled enough for your company; because you're not giving promotions #so you at least gotta give training programs) #💡 not-so-original-posts

[transpanda-1]

🌓Like we know this is gonna be the theme of the video but holy shit does this constant need to produce leave the most sickening feeling in our stomach. It's something that, like, this bitch has worried endlessly if she's a plagiarist from the characters she creates inspired by others and these people are doing it boldly like no one has before. Oh my fucking god.

#chirps #Like do you know how many nights we stress about the fact that Yuni or Kokoro #draw heavily from source material #even though part of their deal is they're attempting to build further onto it #and making commentary on specific tropes or consistencies in media #(i.e. Yuni with genderbend media just. ending on status quo; Kokoro with how series will introduce filler that. Is insane in context) #but other creators are so incentivized to just... pump shit out!! that who cares!! #who gives a shit!!! nordvpn get their ass in here!!!!! #don't think about it just go go go!!! #we can't keep up with actual companies and corporations dedicated to churning out a mass of content so we have to pretend to!!! #fuck dude! #👑Pandora💔

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

Nothing pisses me off more than when people talk about my friendships with mid-support needs autistics and other people with differently-wired brains as if I am descending to help them because I’ve taken them on as a charity case. That is NOT true. Oh they’re a burden because they’re neurodivergent? WELL GUESS FUCKING WHAT: SO AM I! THE REASON I HAVE SO MANY FRIENDS WITH SO MUCH SHIT WRONG WITH THEM IS BECAUSE I HAVE A LOT OF SHIT WRONG WITH ME. WE ATTRACT EACH OTHER! WE LIKE EACH OTHER! IT’S NOT THAT FUCKING HARD TO UNDERSTAND!

#How about I just start strangling ableists from now on? #Would THAT convince them I’m actually this person’s real friend? #Literally nothing I say to them is able to get through their dense fucking skulls— #as if it’s sooooo hard for them to believe I actually enjoy their company #Also (halfway unrelated): if I hear “It takes a special person to work with special children” one more time I am going to SCREAM #Tell me I’m calm; tell me I’m patient; tell me I’m creative— do NOT tell me I’m “special” for doing a job I LOVE #Can you imagine telling a quantum physics major “It takes a special person to solve special math problems?” #😂💀 WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK. I’m gonna start saying that to people from other professions. To see how they like it. #The children are not a burden to me; the children are very enjoyable to be around #and I enjoy troubleshooting what is preventing them from learning and coming up with workarounds for them #I made a glued roll of paper for a kid who constantly peels their skin because I saw them peeling crayons #It works! #I made math problems into a Skibidi Toilet role playing game for another kid who hides under tables when it’s time to work. It works! #You know why I was able to come up with either of these inventions? Huh? You wanna fucking know? #1.) I peel my lips and mouth and palms of my hands and calluses and cuticles and scabs; and #2.) I have awful executive dysfunction and have to do weird stuff to engage myself #People talk to me like I’m one of the “normal” ones; little do they know I’m getting assessed for ADHD and score 142 on the RAADS-R #and I essentially self-destruct when I get mad so I don’t break valuable items or punch through drywall and oak doors #I give myself bruises that swell a half inch high and form hematomas under the skin #I think I’ve permanently weakened the blood vessels and a vein in my right thigh from beating it so much #because it only takes one well-placed blow on my right; but several blows to my left #And I can see the bruise pooling towards my heart along the path of that vein from day to day after the initial beating #and sometimes it just randomly aches when it’s not injured; so I have to shift my weight when the kids sit in my lap wrong #so with that and something else I did to it not super recently that I should have gone to urgent care for… I probably have nerve damage lol #so it’s gross when people say such things about other NDs to me as if I am above them #Just fuck off already

[stillcominback]

𝚆𝙴𝙻𝙻, 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝚅𝙴𝚁𝙳𝙸𝙲𝚃'𝚂 𝙸𝙽: as a lot of you may know by know [ if you've caught any of my previous posts about it ], i'm moving with my parents back to california from texas -- where i've been for about 30 years -- because overall? it'll be good for me. i'm sick of texas for the most part, i literally can't afford to live on my own [ and honestly? i like being near my parents and would just have more security and better quality of life in CA ], and i just think sometimes a change is good!

i've been waiting to see if my job will let me keep my job [ and continue to pay me dirt, even! ] ... all i was asking is that i can live in california and work remote. well, the owner has decided he will not allow me to do that. is there a good reason? in my opinion: no. he's framing it [ in his conservative white man rich business owner brain ] that I'M the one making the choice to move because i could apparently just as easily stay in texas and get my own place etc etc etc. so it's on me! unfortunately, it's just not that simple, but i guess from a guy who runs a family business and has multiple homes, it's just hard to really grasp that concept.

i'm literally so furious and so heartbroken at the same time. i know it's not the best company, and yeah i guess, we can say this is for the best in the end? but that doesn't make it hurt less. i've been there for almost 11 fucking years. my ENTIRE career out of college. through ups and downs, i was always working my ass off and being a great employee ... shining reviews and reputation with literally everyone. it just hurts that that ultimately means nothing when i'm finally asking for something in return. i take the poverty wages, take the working in the office when i hate it for the most part, i've taken having to hear misogynistic, homophobic, transphobic, every-phobic thing over the years ... then i ask for ONE thing in 11 years [ that's literally not even a big ask ] and it's a ✨no✨.

i feel so lost. like i don't even know how to be without this job, and as much as people tell me YOU'RE SO TALENTED! YOU'RE SO GREAT! YOU'LL FIND SOMETHING SOOOO MUCH BETTER! i wanna believe it, but my brain just ... doesn't. maybe it's imposter syndrome or just how fucking down on myself i feel right now. i still appreciate it because i literally don't know what i would do without my friends and family's support right now like ... even if i can't see it for myself, it means the literal world to me.

plus sides [ i guess ]: i should be able to keep my laptop [ but i'll lose adobe cc so ... i may need some recs or help on how to at least get photoshop cause idk how i'll carry on without it lmao ]; my manager who is a literal saint and one of the best people i know [ she actually pissed the owner off going to the mat for me lmao "he doesn't like to be questioned" ... insert the biggest eye-roll of my life ] ... but she said she would help me with literally everything from linkedin to my resume to a portfolio, and i know that'll be like everything to me while i just .... try to navigate all of this ON TOP OF trying to move.

ALSO: i think i can work until i leave, if that's what i want to do ... i'm still trying to figure all of this out because honestly? even though it's not much? i need the money. but then i'm also like i don't wanna do the owner any favors by having me work while they maybe start putting out feelers to replace me, yknow? BUT THEN AGAIN, i'm hurting my boss more than him [ and that's the twisted, frustrated thing about all of this ... it hurts us way more than it does anything to him but he still gets to make the choice for us ]. SO! i dunno! i may just use all my PTO and see how far that gets me lmao but i feel like at the end of the day, i have to look out for myself and maybe just trying to pull in as many paychecks as i can [ since we also don't have a hard 'we're moving!' date at the moment ] is the best idea ... even if the idea of going into the office and acting normal like literally makes me so ... 😤 but i dunno! my brain is a mess! afjhksdfda

SO YEAH. i just wanted to update you guys because i do consider you friends. whether we talk a little or a lot, i appreciate all of you so much and just wanted to keep folks in the loop with where my life and my head's at right now. not the best but ... just trying to keep it moving. honestly nooooo clue when writing is gonna happen here again??? i do miss / enjoy the distraction of plotting and talking about all this stuff so don't be shy, i just don't know when i'll have the time or capacity to just write here [ maybe once we move and stuff settles a little bit? ] -- but yeah, in the meantime, please come chat with me, let's plot dynamics and all that shit because it still makes me so happy and lets me take my mind on a little vacation lmao love you all, truly! ❤️

#** reblogging on some of my blogs to pass it around but! applies across the board: you can find most of my blogs in my pinned post here! ** #been on and off crying since like 4PM yesterday so it's been a ride lemme tell ya! #nothing like feeling like you wasted over a decade of your life at a job that never really cared about you #like MY boss does but stupidly she doesn't get to make all the decisions for HER own team #even though the owner is barely present and doesn't really know anything about us or the day to day so ... very cool of him #to make big decisions that can hurt a lot of people (and don't affect him one bit either way) #he just really doesn't seem to give a shit at all that it makes our lives so much harder for NO reason #it's just that he literally doesn't “like” remote working and doesn't want to set some kind of company-wide precedent #even tho i'm like moving isn't THAT easy lmao people aren't all just gonna mass exodus out my guy #(also we have a C-level employee who lives / works from new york but ... apparently that's SUUUUPER different because she lived there when #she was hired ........ *stares into camera*) #anyway!!! i'm just really frustrated and hurt and fucking terrified #and i appreciate literally anyone who bothered to read all this! lmao #i'll be around on mobile as per usual ❤️❤️❤️ #00. // OUT OF AMMO ( OOC POST. )

[hero-king-baybe]

i need him to butcher me tenderly-violently and sell my various cuts at his shop and maybe take home a nice steak or two to pan sear until the exterior is a rich golden brown and the interior is a perfect rare to medium rare and he smiles so sweetly as he takes the first bite 🔪💖 kyauuuuuuuurrrrrr~ 🔪💖🥩💘😭💖🔪💘🥩😭💘💖💖🥩🔪🍖💘🥩

#im so very very normal about this i promise #FUCK GW MAN WHO GIVES A RATS ASS ABOUT TOP 2K I NEED HIM TO GUT AND FILLET ME LIKE A FISH TOUTE SUITE #you knows its bad when im busting out the FRENCH #limco #limbus company