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Beautiful Spouse’s Rewatch Thoughts SPN 04x20
The Rapture
“420 huh?” “we’r already off to a good start. His fkn face every time. Some angel you are.” “What did he do with you Dean that made him not an angel anymore? Hmmmmm. HMMMMM????”
You don’t even see destiel dude “I can see a little bit of it now” Jensen and Misha like to share clothes. 
“It’s rare that 2 dudes wear the same size. I mean, I’m super tall so I haven’t shared clothes with anyone, but why does it matter?” We have watched the some angel you are recap about 6 times because “his face is great”
“Downstairs on who, Dean?” “His balls are floating in the water. Is that what you’re saying ooooo about?” “Sunglasses are a good thing. You should wear them.” “What if you wake up before you can read it?” “I wouldn’t walk around there if I were you. There’s shorting electrical shit. I mean if the breakers are down then that’s industrial electrical that just isn’t safe” “I forgot that we ever interacted with Jimmy” “Is this Misha trying to act straight or something?” “Who wears a tie to dinner? Are you FKN SERIOUS?” “Why is it all fuzzy? The whole episode has been that way” “That’s what your parents thought too much TV would do to you” “Is that how Misha actually talks?” “Yeah, you can tell he’s from Boston area-ish” “Is he short? 5’11? Eh” Spouse is 6’6” so everyone is short to him
Girl you wore your suit to bed? “You don’t?” “At least he unbuttoned the top button but still has the tie on” “Your tie is a mess. Your top button is undone, and you’re sneaking out of a motel at god knows when” “Yeah that’s not fucking weird behavior”
“Just dump it into your mouth you weirdo. MMM. I gotta aerate that shit just right for the flavor profile” “That was some really generic royalty free music” “Yeah that’s normal” “They really gotta steam out his jacket or use some fabric softener or something” “Is this the red pill v blue pill moment?” daddyissuesnatural
“Why does Sam have to be such a bitch?” Because he has an addiction
“Spoken like a true addict” “Doesn’t dinner get interrupted? Its kinda weird that he went straight back to his family; I’d give it like 24 hours to make sure we’re good” “Idk. Idk what I would do” “Is his best friend fucking his wife now? Isn’t that how it works?” i don’t think I’d have intercourse with Peter if you got possessed by an angel for a year “Jesus Christ dude. Wtf”
“Ok”
“Isn’t he low on juice? Just knife the bitch” “deep throating a demon” “sure. Seems fine” “it’s funny as fuck how this works out in the show, because IRL people don’t believe you. But demons huh?” “So when Jimmy went back to eat dinner was it supper-natural?” “Dean’s got a point, but I think he’s compartmentalized it so much that he doesn’t realize Sam is in withdrawals” “This episode is kinda weird. I feel like a fan could rewrite it better” A casgirl wrote this episode though (Jeremy Carver) “That’s a good look for you, Sam” “How many vampire things did this spawn?” “Is that the first time Dean saw it happen like that?” “So is Jimmy dead? But what if Cas leaves him?” “shag ass, huh?”
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thewinshitters · 2 years
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Beautiful Spouse Watches The Winchesters 01x01: Pilot
So I think how we're going to do this - we're going to watch the show live when it airs on TV (when we can) to clown around on the internet then rewatch the show later in the week to actually absorb the story. Spouse had a really hard time following the story with the commercials, etc., and this way, we can join in the chaos and then fuck off in our own time.
On the rewatch stream:
“This looks like ass, but it looks much better than it did live” “I wish the streaming app was a higher quality stream.” “that’s a weird riff for the opening John scene. It felt like a time transition riff from sun” I like John’s hair. 
“It feels like Jensen is trying too hard with Dean’s voice. Or he sat too close to his microphone or something” “Mary’s hair is throwing me off” I explained that the besties said it’s like the Brady Bunch but Spouse doesn’t know really know what the Brady Bunch is
Explained the soldier boy reference
“I don’t feel like the music matches as well as it could have? It’s not bad” “I love the mom’s hair. Holy shit. The right amount of air flow in the fan or whatever too” I appreciate how much of a badass Mary is
“Why the gag?” 
Early seasons spn was gaggy Spouse
“I guess it feels a little OOT for the pilot. Idk” “I mean with John’s recent military experience - maybe that’s keep him more calm, but I would expect somewhat to be more animated or expressive when first introduced to that. I mean, none of them can be as expressive as Jensen so I guess I gotta lower my expectations right off the bat lol” “the…demon? Wtf dude?” “I hope they get more actor chemistry soon. It feels like they’re just reading lines right now. I think it’ll get better though” “I’m gonna need to use those balls your cupping John”
“Yeah Johnny boy. Grow a pair”
“She could put more pauses and stuff in her lines.” I’m pointing out that Mary’s just like Dean and that Spouse is dumb
“What a weird thing to say. They could have used his birthday quote as a statement later in the episode. It plays a little too linear” It’s a pilot. It has to be linear, Spouse.
“I hope John gets a better cadence in his line delivery” “I like the dynamic range from a technical perspective, but they all sound different in this one. I think they’re all micked differently in this show than in Supernatural.”
Pointed out the Dean thing about staying out of hunting
Pointed out Slaughter House 5
“Someone needs to make a deepfake over Mary’s face and lower her voice” “Dean always says snarky shit too” Fkn Lubbock TX “Has anything that close happened in supernatural? Like how she was so close to having the anti-possession charm?” “That’s a Sam thing to say” “Sam also makes shitty jokes like that.” “Mary is also wearing a leather jacket like Dean did” “HOT” Spouse really likes Lata
Spouse poked me and said I have an ancient box 🙄
“The reactions in this scene felt more comfortable” “Would LEDs have been that readily acceptable in the 70s? They existed but idk if they would have been available like that” “That’s a Dean thing to say, but Sam was also a sadgirl about not saving everyone” “Tree covered road!!!!!” I LOVE CARLOSSSS
“This whole scene is campy.” “The bell bottoms are pretty good” “It’s divine” “That’s fkn great” the Jimi, Janis, Jim Morrison genuflection
“Fuck. Carlos is funny” “That’s a Sam thing to say about the secrets.” “They aren’t leaving a lot of space to let things have suspense. I think it’s ok to have everything happen fast in a pilot, but for the interpersonal scenes, we need more air. It makes the feeling difference between reading lines and watching the show, but I’m not an actor so idk how to describe it” “like in supernatural, there would have been like a 1 second pause between all those phrases between John and Carlos” JESUS CHRIST SPOUSE IT”S A PILOT. CALM YOUR FKN TITS
“Weird” “Asking about the cousin should have been a different episode.” 
“Was that a star on top of the church thing? Its like two lawn chairs sitting back-to-back” “it’s stuff like this scene with the clues that’s making the pilot feel really fast” “I feel like that would have bounced way more than that” “She’s trying to hold back her nervousness, and he’s trying to impress her. It’s weird” “yeah just dump that on the ground. No big deal” “this whole silver cross thing is weird. I feel like it would be a much bigger deal since its a piece of his dead friend. Now he’s just bleeding out of his wherever” “Wow. The whole family sucks with the whole sacrificial thing” “I feel like you’re not going to run after some monster just getting home from the war” “see that’s a proper bounce!” “idk if you’d get through his spine that easily but sure” “there’s only so many gags you can fit into a pilot. Idk”
“This is good lighting in the garage office” “almost looks like how John is wearing his shirt inside-out. Was that the style?” “So is Henry not dead?” Reminded Spouse about what happened in SPN with Henry
“Why is Daddy gone in this one too?????” “If Dean delivered that smile, he’d have that dumb smirk at the end” “Here’s a latte for Lata. And a coffee with cream for Carlos” “demons. Angels. Acreeda” “So with spn the shit got bigger every season. We’re already starting off big here”
“The Men of Lawn Chairs” “Ok. So is Dean in heaven doing all this shit? Because is he only happy hunting with Sam?” Us talking Destiel
“Even if Dean were a straight dude, he can’t be happy without Cas in his life.”
“He still looks like Dean.” “Of course that bitch would write this shit down. Sam was always the one with the computer. This bitch doesn’t even own a real phone” We watched the Dean scene like 5 times analyzing it “I think Dean is in heaven, but he looks pissed.” I agree. Dean is on a case. I don’t care how much I’m a clown, but I’m also going full Destiel here too. 🎶the boys are back in town🎶
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kyrrahbird · 3 years
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Ky’s 琅琊榜 Nirvana in Fire/Lang Ya Bang liveblog experience
EPISODE 3
OKAY EP 3 THE ONE YOU REALLY NEED TO STICK IT OUT TO
if u havent watched this show *please do*!! And maybe dont read this liveblog lmaoo
i forget entirely how much goes into each ep. but anyways to get this show on the road: this one starts with the child being beaten :( ...
Education in your serf class is bad obviously
I admire the gall of the eunuch to say “Prince Jing cant help you now” when Prince Jing is Right There
poetic justice
this is ALSO
dun dun
the first meeting of the DREAM TEAM 
!!
(Jingyan, Mei Changsu and Nihuang)
OOOH BOY THE UNDERCURRENTS
MCS goes straight to comforting the slave boy and i just feel,,, its sincere but there are,,, SO MANY layers of machinations going on here
like its manipulation of Every Person in this scene and i both hate and admire that cold blooded calculation
ESPECIALLY WHEN HE’S MEETING JINGYAN FOR THE FIRST TIME IN TWELVE YEARS ;A;
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Just an update: this man is still Dead Inside™. And so distrustful i die too
Quick aside to the terrible princes:
I would also like to note, and its been said before but
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Prince Yu is NOT SUBTLE in his aspirations. if i had to say who was the crown prince i might be confused??
and back-
Nihuang and MCS just pulled a mean pincer maneuver on Jingyan and hes being equally pointy back. Stop being mean to my prince :(((
i do wonder if nihuang is clued in, bc if she is, she puts a hell of a lot of trust in mcs. or maybe its all just subconscious, and they’re falling back into their old dynamic 
this scene KILLS ME
bc Prince Jing is trying so hard to protect tingsheng but he really has such limited power and he knows it
(i should read the book)
The first time i watched i did not realise HOW YOUNG mu qing is supposed to be. i love a protective younger bro ;;n;;
I also appreciate the flashbacks to relevant information. just so we know whats important to mcs
MENG DA-GE
-just saved that dude’s ass
Fei Liu was ready to wreck him
This didnt need to be so ominous but i appreciate their dedication to the Melodrama™
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EVEN THE TALKING WHILE NOT LOOKING AT EACH OTHER
Nothing sus going on here. look they’re even facing different directions
MENG DA-GE LITERALLY SAID MOVE INTO MY HOUSE
bless
He’s worried!!! His mother hen tendencies are coming out!!
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No he doesnt. No thoughts, only protecc
like a puppy
I also love the fact that despite all her fancy headdresses and pretty outfits, we never forget Nihuang is a martial general. Its the way she holds herself and moves i think
“This person is a mystery” > cut to sir su napping in a chair
Theres definitely comedy here. quite a lot of it!!! and i adore it
Never fear, Meng da-ge is here to join the “Force Mei Changsu to look after himself” gang
Side note - I kind of take it for granted as the kind of person Meng da-ge is, but i do think its symptomatic of the empire that one guy can just rock up and basically suborn the entire royal guard. like. your majesty. u done fucked.
70,000 is a staggering number of your own people to kill in one go. Like. I can’t actually wrap my head around it.
And all those people would have had families and friends and sure, they’re mostly just common but. most likely a bunch of the prominent families were killed too. im just wondering if there were like. riots? Or everyone just kept their head down and were like “guess it must be treachery”  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Consort Yue is so goddamn transparent in her manipulation but also like - there’s layers there
Because I feel like the emperor sees through the first layer (having an interest in who Nihuang marries) but is completely incapable of seeing beyond that
Or he doesnt want to. I mean the man does encourage competition in his court
Anyways we find out that he’s going to choose Sir Su to judge the written part of the challenge
This is great because it means Su-xiansheng is going to COURT :D
why do i keep changing how i refer to him? its whatever fits the vibe baby
Man’s got too many names anyways
gotta keep them in rotation
Oh we just found out Baili Qi might be top of the Langya list. good to know the system isnt infallible
I love everyones reactions like
what
the fuck
SOMEBODY FIX THIS
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LMAO
Yujin is here to drop Jingrui’s badass backstory
And why he has the name and surname of a prince
I do wonder what its like, for jingrui. Like sure, hes son of two families... but heir of neither? He’s the oldest child but hes also known his whole life that he wont inherit the title. 
idk must be weird
hes incredibly good natured given all that shit
Lin Shu gege just humouring them by listening to a story that hes totally never head before /s
if only they had a dna test
Who’s My Daddy™ ancient fantasy china
ghufdghuisrgu Mu Qing u cant just SAY that
Update: Mu Qing has kidnapped sir Su
OMG
HES ENTERING THE ROYAL COURT
I REPEAT LIN SHU/MEI CHANGSU IS ENTERING THE COURT
i need to just-
the fkn music man
i die
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Like i said the first time, i didnt know the full scope of the big deal but i KNEW. that this was it
These were the stakes. All the way up to the emperor
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theres gon be some PARALLELS
“You no longer need to refer to yourself as a commoner”
oof
(i would like to say now that i love Liyang
like, A Lot
Second only to Nihuang)
LMAO mcs giving the crown prince a subtle head shake
His POWER
This ep ends on Baili Qi beating the absolute fuck out of Jingrui while Su-xiansheng just peels and eats an orange smirks like the absolute shit he is
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like a beyblade
I’m going to stop putting links in these bc i know tumblr doesnt like them, but ill keep up the tagging. I might not get to one ep a day, but every couple of days or so seems doable! i just love dumping my train of thoughts into walls of text :D
TTFN
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Ep. #2 - “Shit ain’t over till the fat lady sings and I didn’t warm my pipes.” (Cameron)
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Day 4: Well. I survived my first tribal council of the season, and even though it went exactly according to plan, while I slept my entire day away, I'm still really hesitant to tell myself that I'm doing well on my tribe. I'm really nervous that my tribe mates are playing me, and that I'm really boo boo tha fool here. I called Megan post-tribal, and I was finally able to get some closure on something that happened between us in our personal lives, which felt really good. After that, she asked me about the idol, to which I had responded "Wait, Julian didn't tell you?", which hopefully sows some seeds of doubt in Megan about Julian. Ideally, if the Enlil tribe has to go back to tribal council, the four of us can bear witness to a Megan vs. Julian war. Because unfortunately, the connections I have outside Enlil, are shared with either Julian or Megan. If Megan and Julian are going after each other pre-merge, or during a swap scenario, I don't have to share those connections anymore. After that, Megan and I just talked about the nudes we received during quarantine ~ I then promptly ran to Will to tell him about the potential crack I just formed between Julian and Megan, which was met with genuine excitement. I think I'm really gaining Will's trust, and I think we vibe so well together. Love that guy! Overall, it wasn't a very productive day because I woke up at 4:30p PST. Love that for me, thanks for shading me @ Tribal Bodhi.
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going into this scavenger hunt as the tribe that went to tribal last is worrysome. It's a challenge that's fully dependent on our activity, so we are at a serious disadvantage against the other two tribes that get to choose someone less active to sit out. We don't have that luxury. The point/life system eases the blow, however, since we can get less active players 1 life while more active players can get 3. In case we lose, I'm trying to connect with everyone on the tribe. I really don't want to vote anyone out though. I have an alliance with Julian and JJ, and one with Will on the side. Chrissa wants to work with Julian, JJ and myself, and I think Megan and JJ have something on the side. I'm nervous for who would be the target in the vote, and any vote would hurt all of our games collectively. Hopefully we win because the next vote will not be easy AT ALL.
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Done w typing this sheet
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jj and zachary are so fucking annoying to this challenge and if i vote for you first at the swap, its probably because youre typing too much during this challenge sorry not sorry xoxo - sincerely johnny a month from now
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let me be clear with andrew I was not calling his hosting unfair i was calling the fact that a majority green item giving him a point unfair not the hosting but lack of yellow, also i have a headache i don't feel that good. and I just don't think zach should have had a point for it nothing against hosting obviously i watch a movie trivia thing where literally they have a challenge to challenge any questions that are unfair, that doesn't mean they are calling the question writers or the answer writers unfair. 
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Zach just won the tribal challenge for us which is fantastic. We can maintain the illusion of a unified tribe longer, which keeps us together in a swap situation, and Zach has clearly painted a challenge target on himself over the last two challenges which will make him go before me if our Triforce ever becomes the minority. I'm really happy with my position in the game right now
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me and monty trying to find the idol and decode this annoying ass video https://imgur.com/a/lu7sbMu
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Forgive me father for I have sinned it's been approximately three days since my last confession so far can't complain really we be winning they hating we be riding pretty damn clean I've got a majoritu alliance I didn't start so odds of it falling around me and being the first voted out slim to none thank the sweet baby jesis and all that good shit. Oh well that's all for now
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JULIAN’S HOST CHAT GUEST, ZEE:
I am filling in a confessional because you told me to. I am in front of my fan because it's hot. I'm thinking that it seems pretty stupid to ask me for a confessional. Julian's prod chat isn't very interesting because he's distracted.
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also just threw out madison's name to johnny. if this shit backfires on me ill be ):
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https://youtu.be/Pqck1gayfJU
https://youtu.be/FMay7NycsPw
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yo yo yo homies!!! fuck the scavenger hunt and the mobile Skype app !! Lowkey scared but I think I’m close with everyone on the tribe except madi soooooooooo that’s probably who will go tonight. I’ve connected a lot with Monty and am hoping we can work together closely moving forward 💕not sure how useful my relationship with Zach is going to be come swap/merge bc it seems like he’s ALREADY making himself a target like the big doof he is. More later 💋
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https://youtu.be/Qg47yupj1bQ
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https://youtu.be/vUK8A1qWVoA
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Hello tumblr survivor world! Sorry I didnt confess for episode 1, I was going to but i accidentally exited out of the page when i almost finished writing it. Anyways, it was just a cast assessment for my tribe so tl;dr everyone on my tribe is great and its really sad that we have to vote someone out now. So this whole weekend I was away so I was REALLY worried that I would be voted out since I sat out of the challenge. But after talking to Johnny and Isabelle, it seems like Madison will be voted out tonight. Which is so bad bc this her first game in a year, but hey it's our first vote and it's not me so it's not really the time to make a stand. _________________________________________________________________________________________ Okay I took a break from writing this confessional and there's moreeeeeeeee so part 2 I guess. So I had a call with Johnny and we came up with an alliance of me, him, Isabelle, and Benji. What an iconic alliance, right? But also while Johnny and I talked we got onto the topic of idols and why it is that there hasn't been an idol post yet. I brought up that wayyyyyy back when in Malaysia and some other games around that time, some of the idol hunts were less clear cut. We ended up looking at the blog and clicking the "idol system" tab and it brought us to some weird crab video with audio that sounds like a pokemon cry? Idk part of me thinks its just a joke but I also have to consider that it might be SOMETHING. It said remember to like and subscribe so I sent a screenshot of me liking and subscribing to see if that would do anything but nope. Johnny said he'd do some thinking about it and get back to me later if he figures something out. Also tribal seems super clear cut so I'm a bit less worried now but y'know how it is I can't not worry about tribal.
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i just spent $8 on a spectogram and STILL cant find this fucking idol im gonna kms... monty im sorry im steam rolling ahead looking for this thing without telling you, but thank you for the first clue xoxo... if i get stumped in the future ill reach out for SURE (but idt you trust me that much so this seems kinda valid to me) ((FOUR HOURS LATER: i told monty lololol)) ALSO FOR FUCKS SAKE I think madison is gonna go, and truthfully, im fine with it because it's the easiest thing to do due to her poor performance in the past few challenges and just being the least AROUND the tribe, but i know that it'd probably be better for me long term to get rid of abby because i just dont see her as a long term ally for me. i think she's close to JJ and Megan on the other tribe, and she's becoming much more acclimated to the tumblr survivor community that i just BET that she maybe has an additional connection on the rookie tribe. If I can attempt to break that up before we get to a swap, I think that's what im going to have to do figure out if we lose another challenge before a swap... i dont really want to see ANYBODY else go besides abby if im thinking about a second boot. i bet it wont be easy to take her out tho also, if madison goes, this is like...... lowkey vindication for game changers???? last night i talked about this with monty and i was like hmmmm "is it ugly to bring up past game history?" and his response was "not if it's within the same series" .... so. vindication
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omg i just told madison how to find the idol system thing i hope she doesnt tell anyone i told her about it LMAO........ this almost seems too easy.i got added to two alliances today. why do i not feel safe? is it me going? WTF IS GOING ON
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excited to be first boot because no one will TALK TO ME! 
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Things haven’t changed much since my last confessional! As far as I know the tribe hasn’t started into alliances and we’re all riding some excitement at having so far avoided tribal. I think the rest of the tribe and I are all feeling good and just focusing on making the tribe switch without losing any members.
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from round 2 https://youtu.be/fk002uG2HoI
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Hi sorry I forgot to do a confessional this round so this will be short imma just say a few things 1. I don’t trust julian one bit he can stop being shady to me 2. I can’t believe we aren’t going to tribal I’m so fkn happy i was able to pull out the win for our tribe because I didn’t want to lose anybody else 3. I love and adore will with all of my being and he’s my number 1 ally right now 4. I find it highly doubtful that there’s only one idol in this game and that you can’t find it until merge but that’s as far as I can get in the idol search for now so I guess there’s nothing I can do about it 5. I’m still having fun can’t wait to fuck up another flash game yay!!!
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My Purple edit is amazing right now. But having played more games than most of these newbies, I have decided to take on the role of teacher and becoming more of a "role model" for these newbies. I feel like I have the closest bond with Zach, and I need to get a little closer with Collin. I have Grace from past games, and then there are the others who I do not really have any strong bonds with at the moment. I guess I need to start going to them more and show that I want to work with them.
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https://youtu.be/yhwXzqrTcsA Confessional 2 for round 2
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Madison voted out 6-1
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adamantinetower · 7 years
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TES Music Headcanons
@maalacath‘s tes music headcanon post inspired me to make one abt some of my own so!!! here i go!!!
ngl a LOT of my dunmer, ashlander, and dwemer music headcanons are ripped straight outta things from the ancient near east. because i love it. I also think their styles blended together a lot? Cultural exchange via trade during the times when they weren't at each others throats.
 Some examples of wot I think ashlander music would sound like are this, this, and this
They travel a lot, so their instruments have to be portable and light. I image they’d have lots of lyres and stringed instruments, but also percussive instruments. bones are especially common and popular given the ease of acquisition, portability, and also are relatively simple to learn. Also a tons of different kinds of shakers! not to forget flutes and drums.
i image they’d perform/recite lots of their poetry and oral traditions with instruments. This also helps pass on and preserve their rich oral history. i think it would sound smthn like this! or this! I have a weakness for this one song so hell yes its ashlander music in my eyes. you cant stop me. its my c0da. (if you cant access it, its Cheshmeh from the ensemble Constantinople, off the album Passages. its also on spotify!)
the ashlanders have some downtime between their duties, so I am 100% sure that they do have their own complex musical compositions and traditions, but are also constantly composing new pieces. They gotta do SOMETHING to entertain themselves!
that said, given their love of tradition, I also believe that they’d preserve ancient melodies and songs from waaaaaaaaay back when. ashlander musicians probably know a great deal of tunes from the days of Nerevar. Each tribe also has its own repertoire of fkn OLD tunes, along with slight variations on the same piece from tribe to tribe. 
they sing a lot. folk songs, histories put into songs, poems. lots of singing while out traveling and herding. They have “songs” which are entirely comprised of vocables(nonsense sounds/words) set to a melody, much like lilting. Often times, they are improvised on the spot.
this ended up being mostly about ashlanders sorry. TIME FOR SOME DWEMER HCs
 i do have one dwemer music HC: theremins. they have theremins. many theremins. those examples arent exactly what i’d imagine their theremin compositions sounding like, they are good examples of theremins. why theremins? because theremins produce weird, unique sounds. the dwemer are weird lil bastards and i love them. also i love theremins.
given how much we hear about tonal architects and tonal whatevers blah blah its prrrrobably safe to say that music was a big part of dwemeri life n culture. Everyone was expected to have some sort of musical aptitude, no matter what they did. (maybe they developed written music? dunno if i wanna make that a headcanon.) 
many dwemer musicians and inventors probably went out of their way to create weird instruments like this, this, this masterpiece, and all of these. some, like the wheelharp, might be picked up by multiple musicians, but almost none of them would ever actually enter widespread dwemer music tradition. The glass armonica maybe. (there were probably elitist dwemer music snobs who considered the wheelharp an acquired taste. Dwemer hipster wheelharp culture.)
most dwemer folk music played and enjoyed by the common folk had a lot in common with chimer music. many of the same instruments were used, the dwemer would probably employ instruments with more moving parts. literally. like the hurdy-gurdy. hurdy-gurdy and theremin duets are popular. also hang drums. hang drums are cool. 
the dwemer enjoyed music that has that sort of resonance found in hang drums, xylophones, mbiras, and kalimbas. that sort of echoing, resonance shared w/ windchimes. They also enjoyed instruments that made weird, novel sounds. many profession dwemer musicians often experimented with musical composition. (hell, maybe they also developed music theory. idk. another lil thought nugget.)
kalimbas are often used as a learners instrument. kinda like how we use the recorder, except it doesnt suck.
my hand is gettin tired and now i wanna play my kalimba I HOPE YOU LIKED MY LONG RAMBLING THO! me n @maalacath both love TES music headcanons. If you feel inspired to make a post to share your own, please let us know! ppl gotta talk about music in the TES world tbh.
also @house-redoran i feel like the discussion of “did dwemer pioneer the earliest forms of music theory/ written music?” is smthn you’d enjoy. Just A Feelin.
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The same to you - all of them 🎃
200: My crush’s name is: Ryan, Eli, Claire, several others I cant name for complicated reasons 
199: I was born in: 1997/a hospital 
198: I am really: Intense weather in my calmness or excitement 
197: My cellphone company is: T-Mobile
196: My eye color is: Light green
195: My shoe size is: 9 1/2 wide (i usually have to do like a 11 for high heals)
194: My ring size is: ??????? probably big I have chubby fingers
193: My height is: 5′ 6″
192: I am allergic to: nothing unless you count idiocy 
191: My 1st car was: A blue 2007 Ford Focus and I LOVED her
190: My 1st job was: A server for Cheddar’s Casual Cafe 
189: Last book you read: How to Ruin Everything by George Watsky 10/10
188: My bed is: A king with lots o’ pillows and blankets and is very comfy
187: My pet: 2 cats, 5 kittens, 6 dogs, 2 snakes, 1 bearded dragon, 1 leopard gecko, 4 turtles, 1 bullfrog tadpole, and bunches of fish
186: My best friend: is a boy i met a month ago because i have intimacy issues
185: My favorite shampoo is: Dead Sea’s Argon oil shampoo is so good to my poor dry curls
184: Xbox or ps3: I use an Xbox to watch Netflix but I don’t play video games
183: Piggy banks are: Cute decorations but go unused
182: In my pockets: $2, some lint, a rubber band, and something weird i took out of my dog’s mouth earlier
181: On my calendar: I have nothing written in it but it has cool pictures of bears
180: Marriage is: Cool because of the financial benefits but other than that unnecessary to prove one’s love. I want a wedding though because I want a pretty dress
179: Spongebob can: Make me hate my life a 3am
178: My mom: Died of breast cancer and smoked a lot of pot
177: The last three songs I bought were? I can’t remember ever paying for music but the last three i listened to are: Cherry Wine by Hozier, Strong As An Oak by Watsky, and San Cristobal by Mal Blum
176: Last YouTube video watched: A slam poem by Neil Hilborn called Liminality
175: How many cousins do you have? I have no clue? At least 10 on each side, but i’m sure there’s way more than that
174: Do you have any siblings? 2 older brothers, 2 older sisters, ans one younger sister 
173: Are your parents divorced? They were never married
172: Are you taller than your mom? Nope! She was like 5′10′
171: Do you play an instrument? I can play hot cross buns on the recorder and thats the best i can do
170: What did you do yesterday? I slept and ate beef jerky[ I Believe In ]169: Love at first sight: No, but i do believe in lust and infatuation at first site. I think  love takes time to grow.
168: Luck: Yes like, as in karma
167: Fate: Catch me in the right mood and i do
166: Yourself: NOOOOOPE
165: Aliens: Yes
164: Heaven: No
163: Hell: Yes, it’s called Texas
162: God: Naaaaah
161: Horoscopes: I think they’re accurate generalizations
160: Soul mates: Yeah but not like the traditional; kind of way, i think we have lots of people we’re meant to be with in various ways
159: Ghosts: Yes and No i go back and forth
158: Gay Marriage: 100%
157: War:0%
156: Orbs: Idk what this is talking about but sure, ill root for them
155: Magic: No, Im a science gal[ This or That ]154: Hugs or Kisses: Hugs
153: Drunk or High: High, drinking gives me a tummy ache
152: Phone or Online: Online
151: Red heads or Black haired: Red heads
150: Blondes or Brunettes: Brunettes
149: Hot or cold: Cold
148: Summer or winter: Winter
147: Autumn or Spring: Autumn
146: Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla
145: Night or Day: Night
144: Oranges or Apples: Apples
143: Curly or Straight hair: Curly
142: McDonalds or Burger King: Mcdonald’s
141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: White Chocolate is the key to my heart
140: Mac or PC: PC
139: Flip flops or high heels: HIgh heels even though i cant walk in them
138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: Sweet and poor
137: Coke or Pepsi: Coke
136: Hillary or Obama: Obama
135: Burried or cremated: Cremated, the idea of rotting creeps me out
134: Singing or Dancing: Dancing but im bad at both
133: Coach or Chanel: Idgaf
132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: ??????
131: Small town or Big city: Big city
130: Wal-Mart or Target: Wal-Mart
129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: I hate Adam Sandler
128: Manicure or Pedicure: Manicure
127: East Coast or West Coast: West Coast
126: Your Birthday or Christmas: Christmas all the waaaaaay
125: Chocolate or Flowers: Flowers, preferably potted
124: Disney or Six Flags: Disney i’m scared of roller coasters
123: Yankees or Red Sox: I dont sports[ Here’s What I Think About ]122: War: Its stupid and bad and i hate violence 
121: George W. Bush: Okay, looook, i dig his paintings, okay???
120: Gay Marriage: gimme that shit i want that shit
119: The presidential election: I could be down for violence against trump
118: Abortion: everyone should have safe access to abortions, they save lives
117: MySpace: I never had one? Does it still exist? I may make one for fun? 
116: Reality TV: i dont ever watch it, i avoid it like the plauge
115: Parents: Mine were grade A shit
114: Back stabbers: What goes around comes around
113: Ebay: I use Amazon
112: Facebook: Its filled with my racist family, i avoid it 
111: Work: I watch my niece and nephew (twins) and i love it
110: My Neighbors: I don’t interact with them ever
109: Gas Prices: why so expensive pls give me break
108: Designer Clothes: catch me in wal-mart clothes i bough 4 years ago
107: College: I want but cant afford halp
106: Sports: no
105: My family: I love them but they fkn annoy the shit out of me with their political views
104: The future: stop.[ Last time I ]103: Hugged someone: My niece yesterday
102: Last time you ate: I am eating a bowl of mac n’ cheese right now
101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: I saw my sister’s in-laws last week and i loooooove them! I made slime with the kids
100: Cried in front of someone: When i found out my ex was cheating on me like two months ago
99: Went to a movie theater: Went on a date with a cute boi like a month ago and w saw Baby Driver it was so good
98: Took a vacation: The only vacation ive ever took in my life was with my ex and his family to Florida last summer
97: Swam in a pool: Less than a week ago
96: Changed a diaper: Yesterday, i change them for a living
95: Got my nails done:last summer
94: Went to a wedding: My oldest sister got married last week!
93: Broke a bone: when i was like 3????
92: Got a peircing: two weeks ago i got my nipples done
91: Broke the law: this morning when i got high
90: Texted: Im texting cute bbs  right now[ MISC ]89: Who makes you laugh the most: My boi Ryan who is a fkn idiot i love him
88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: I already left home and only miss having someone else cook and clean because my roomates are hopeless
87: The last movie I saw: The Last Five Years
86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: When i can move far north and start a loving and respectful communist sex cult
85: The thing im not looking forward to: Getting up for work at 5 in the morning
84: People call me: lame
83: The most difficult thing to do is: exist
82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: i sure haven’t i’m Safe
81: My zodiac sign is: Libra
80: The first person i talked to today was: Ryan
79: First time you had a crush: i liked a boy named Antonio in second grade
78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: no one? 
77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: Ryan last night when we said a stupid Ricks and Morty quote at the same time
76: Right now I am talking to: my cat Beatrice 
75: What are you going to do when you grow up: probably cry a lot
74: I have/will get a job: working with kids!
73: Tomorrow: I will be very tired
72: Today: I am very tired
71: Next Summer: I will be very hot
70: Next Weekend: Im going to tie ppl up with rope
69: I have these pets: see 187
68: The worst sound in the world: A baby crying because they’re hurt or sad
67: The person that makes me cry the most is: my ex inbox me for his url so you can tell him hes a meanie
66: People that make you happy: My nieces and nephews and also my bff
65: Last time I cried: last night because the damn dog was so cute
64: My friends are: amazing and deserve the world
63: My computer is: slow and bad but i still love her
62: My School: was down the road from a prison, which my mom was in years ago
61: My Car: is old and smells like my mom’s cigarettes 
60: I lose all respect for people who: are racist, homophobic, sexist, trans-phobic, Islamophobic, anti-semetic, ect. 
59: The movie I cried at was: the beginning of Guardians of the Galaxy
58: Your hair color is: Auburn
57: TV shows you watch: Game of Thrones, Criminal Minds, Sense 8
56: Favorite web site: tumblr.com
55: Your dream vacation: stargazing in Alaska 
54: The worst pain I was ever in was: when i fucked up my siatic nerve in a car wreck in January 
53: How do you like your steak cooked: medium-well
52: My room is: cold and messy and covered in kittens
51: My favorite celebrity is: Harry Styles
50: Where would you like to be: on a beach in Iceland with a person playing a ukulele 
49: Do you want children: Only if i have more than one long term partner living with me 
48: Ever been in love: Yes 
47: Who’s your best friend: see 186 its Ryan
46: More guy friends or girl friends: no
45: One thing that makes you feel great is: when my cat comes to me and just lays where shes barely touching me 
44: One person that you wish you could see right now: My best friend from high school who committed suicide 
43: Do you have a 5 year plan: no
42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: no
41: Have you pre-named your children: I want to name my kid Coraline but id also like to do something not defined by a single gender?
40: Last person I got mad at: My sister because she left the dogs inside all day while i was at work even though shes a stay at home mom and so the poor things had accidents and no one was happy
39: I would like to move to: Canada
38: I wish I was a professional: mom[ My Favorites ]37: Candy: white chocolate truffles 
36: Vehicle: vintage beatles 
35: President: Alexander Hamilton
34: State visited: Florida
33: Cellphone provider: ?????
32: Athlete: ?????
31: Actor: Nat Wolf
30: Actress: Maise willams
29: Singer: Radical Face/Hozier
28: Band: Bad Books
27: Clothing store: Wal-mart
26: Grocery store: Joe-V’s Smart Shop
25: TV show: Game of Thrones
24: Movie: Swiss Army Man
23: Website: see 56
22: Animal:  Monitors 
21: Theme park: i dont do theme parks
20: Holiday: Halloween
19: Sport to watch: does Yuri on Ice count?
18: Sport to play: no
17: Magazine: i don’t read magazines but i heard Teen Vogue is doing wonders
16: Book: The Kite Runner
15: Day of the week: Wednesday’s Child is Full of Woe
14: Beach: wherever i was in Florida 
13: Concert attended: Warped Tour 2015 there was a band called Onwards ect. it was so good
12: Thing to cook: homemade flour tortillas 
11: Food: Cheese enchiladas
10: Restaurant: This cute little place named Marianne’s thats down the road from my house she makes the best tamales 
9: Radio station: 94.5 The Buzz
8: Yankee candle scent: Clean Linen 
7: Perfume: i dont
6: Flower: Lilies 
5: Color: pink
4: Talk show host: Steve Harvey
3: Comedian: John Mulaney
2: Dog breed: Pit Bulls
1: Did you answer all these truthfully? 100%
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☼☼☼☼☼ also think tank a white lecturer using the n-word when quoting literature in a lecture? I think she used it once outside of quotation as well certainly not meant in a disrespectful way, just seems unnecessary
☐☐☐☐☐ better have a justification at least but if you just use it out of the blue it always seems like some attempt at provocation 'i can say this because my interests are purely academic'
☼☼☼☼☼ mmmmm we're reading uncle tom's cabin, so it's hard to avoid
☐☐☐☐☐ should only be quoted verbatim if absolutely necessary, if there's no alternative I think
☼☼☼☼☼ yeah seems like she could have avoided it pretty easily
☐☐☐☐☐ if she's making no acknowledgement of the word's relationship to her privilege, that's rly not good
☼☼☼☼☼ yeah she's older so there might just be an outdated perspective there 'I'm just quoting the text, it was anti-slavery so I'm fine' sort of mentality maybe?
☐☐☐☐☐ still she would know about the contemporary attitude to the word and she should at least mention that! ugh like it doesn't sound malicious or super super racist, but eh
☼☼☼☼☼ Yeah I feel iffffy about it
☐☐☐☐☐ should mention it!
☼☼☼☼☼ Trying to work out if I should send email and if so how to word it
☐☐☐☐☐ mm
☍☍☍☍☍ be interesting to actually properly discuss it
☐☐☐☐☐ yep
☍☍☍☍☍ heck I’d be interested to know more of a history of the word basically teach properly why its offensive
☼☼☼☼☼ Yeah, I might bring it up in the tutorial different teacher, but maybe good discussion
☐☐☐☐☐ mm that seems appropriate i'd love to hear how that goes
☍☍☍☍☍ uhhh there was someone who used it at Bar Oussou  the host reallllly should’ve said something and I normally would but just too tired for confrontation
☼☼☼☼☼ Yeah ☐☐☐☐☐ was telling me Sounded very cringe
☐☐☐☐☐ v unfortunate most disappointed in yhe host tbh
☐☐☐☐☐ he maybe had a old-worldy attitude to it and didn't mind or was too cowardly lol which do u think?
☍☍☍☍☍ I think he thought it was in the context of the poem she didn’t use it to degrade someone directly, but the word itself is degrading
☐☐☐☐☐ ugh but the poem is in the context of fuckin oussou yep ppl need to have a think before using words
☍☍☍☍☍ I just think its great to have a stage to do emotional work, but it can cross a line into normalising shitty white behaviour
☐☐☐☐☐ mm
☍☍☍☍☍ I went to a coloured school so I can’t b racist wah wah wah
☐☐☐☐☐ and you have to consider your audience if your rant is dehumanising or brushes aside/causes suffering u gotta reconsider felt pretty ashamed on behalf of bartender/various black audience members not saying that dumb white shit would be acceptable with a different audience, but her obliviousness was kinda astounding
☼☼☼☼☼ wow yeah cringefest
☍☍☍☍☍ lol spoken word scene as a whole can b so lame haha rings true to why I/we left
☐☐☐☐☐ mm so macho! that's what I liked about talkbox some sensitivity there, gentleness
☍☍☍☍☍ still, I just wish people read more lok *lol
☐☐☐☐☐ yep I wish I read more
☍☍☍☍☍ like the stylistic range is generally pretty lame
☐☐☐☐☐ I guess that's why anyone reads mmm
☍☍☍☍☍ I wish I read more too
☐☐☐☐☐ hahahaha
☼☼☼☼☼ :')
☍☍☍☍☍ don’t mean to shit on everyon, I just think the scene as a whole and the conception of poetry is lacklustre - it doesn’t seem like the time for poetry, sometimes
☐☐☐☐☐ mm
☍☍☍☍☍ ppl too distracted by netflix uwu sounds like phones but too much
☐☐☐☐☐ doesn't seem like the time for art, sometimes! hahhh
☍☍☍☍☍ its definitely a time for music
☼☼☼☼☼ I think there's a place for poetry It's just raps and memes
☍☍☍☍☍ yeh but I play dat long game there might not b a place now but I’mma fkn make one whether you like it or not lol
☼☼☼☼☼ Oh yeah fair go 4 it
☐☐☐☐☐ loll
☍☍☍☍☍ I just mean that I think 'poetry' has evolved into other forms, and now the traditional form is struggling to find a place I mean does anyone pay attention to Victorian satirical cartoons? I don’t I think it’s also tho that the low brow is more apparent in the moment, the high brow more apparent from a distance the shit sinks, basically
☼☼☼☼☼ elaborate?
☍☍☍☍☍ time brings forward higher brow material while a lot of lower brow stuff falls back or like there’s an art for getting through your days, and there’s an art for elaborate long form spiritual liberation
☼☼☼☼☼ so u don't mind about a lack of audience now if your work has staying power?
☍☍☍☍☍ different works have different digestion time and yes that is what I’m saying
☼☼☼☼☼ hmmmmmmm
☍☍☍☍☍ hmmmmmmmm?
☐☐☐☐☐ personally I don't know whether I'm prioritising the reception of my work or its value to me right now i feel poetry/art in general are useful tools for thinking about the world useful philosophical tools i guess and idk whether i'm learning for the sake of my own knowledge/making 'better' art or learning so what I put out into the world is better received I suppose the two aren't mutually exclusive but yeah - feeling fairly indifferent to the idea of creating work that will persist right now part of me feels more comfortable with being lost forever lol or at least that I should become comfortable with that, bc that is what will happen inevitably
☍☍☍☍☍ I just think in this atmosphere of complete denial of the arts as an important component of society, as well as the stigmatisation of ritual and other mystical practices that used to house what we now might describe as an artist, its important that we follow our intuition rather than give in to a system that routinely prevents us having access to basic resources like I want to be there for whoever is there when this period comes to end and those peoples are looking for anything to rudder them, whether or not I’m alive
☐☐☐☐☐ you want to add to the cultural record?
☍☍☍☍☍ I want provide a map for future generations is how I would put it
☐☐☐☐☐ mm how do you feel one can ensure the persistence of their own work? or are you just hoping it'll be around for others I suppose whether or not anything lasts is out of ur control past a certain point
☍☍☍☍☍ for one I make an effort to give away a lot of work
☐☐☐☐☐ mm
☍☍☍☍☍ I also store it all and make sure that that stockpile is kept w care but I also think there’s something to be said that I try and operate within many pre-existing canons I also it’s important to use the more meme-y, short stay work to bring attention to the slower works yeah, re: canons, like tanka and before that wakka as poetic forms stem back as far as a thousand years - perhaps more by putting myself in conversation with the ancients... idk it feels a bit like entering a cultural refrigerator haha
☐☐☐☐☐ mm
☍☍☍☍☍ sometimes I find it better to see my individual works as modules that make up a whole more prescient than its parts (Morton lolz) soo... maybe my work won’t carry the same weight until I finish, so to speak who knowsss but this how I think about it lol
☐☐☐☐☐ best to try and contribute something I spose rather than do nothing w ur resources
☍☍☍☍☍ I’m weird with this shit u don’t have to be
☐☐☐☐☐ mm it seems fairly simple to me and not that weird
☍☍☍☍☍ not everyone should spend their life tending their gravestone it’s a job for a particular type of person, and I am it
☐☐☐☐☐ but in a sense everyone does anyway everyone does things with the future in mind or without it in mind I suppose
☐☐☐☐☐ and i guess that influences what you leave when you die eheh, whether you do it consciously or unconsciously
☍☍☍☍☍ I just am particularly stubborn that I have something to offer - I think its partially a result of being denied that a lot in school, I found other ways to have social bonds that were more... non linear bonds with past peoples, and inadvertently bonds with future people
☐☐☐☐☐ mm
☍☍☍☍☍ I find it frustrating that its seen as arrogant to suggest your work should be read after you die - if anything its remarkably humble as I'm acknowledging that I will never properly see the fruits of my labour it's a ridiculously isolating position to find oneself in, where your best friends - books, music, content - have no form of human intimacy with you and completely defy all survivalistic, lizard-brain humanity plus you're just on a total different dimension from most people you meet
☐☐☐☐☐ mm you're in a very specific position here
☍☍☍☍☍ lol goodluck catching up ☼☼☼☼☼
☼☼☼☼☼ unrelated btw
(☼☼☼☼☼ posts a meme in chat)
☍☍☍☍☍ see y'all @ da rally (in reference to the meme)
☐☐☐☐☐ where and when is this? oh oops thought you meant a real one
☼☼☼☼☼ hahaha
☍☍☍☍☍ xD
☼☼☼☼☼ structurally is the meme ok ? took the photo the other day, and just added the text.
☍☍☍☍☍ yes are u going to weigh in on the conversation tho lol
☼☼☼☼☼ nah not really
☍☍☍☍☍ meme fine
☼☼☼☼☼ I have so little to add
☍☍☍☍☍ well hm why make memes? why not write novel? do memes have staying power?
☐☐☐☐☐ it's a question of what timescale is important to you at any given time maybe
☍☍☍☍☍ oh absolutely - not trying to infer a hierarchy here, I just think there are different approaches for different problems
☐☐☐☐☐ sometimes I'll say something to someone so they'll remember it for tomorrow, sometimes I'll say something to someone and hope they'll remember forever lol mm I don't think I care about staying power that much
☐☐☐☐☐ memes have such a short lifetime, they're like cultural mayflies haha
☼☼☼☼☼ Yeah defs
☍☍☍☍☍ why tho lol
☼☼☼☼☼ Because the art itself can date while still inspiring change
☍☍☍☍☍ yeah so using it pragmatically like a single use tissue
☼☼☼☼☼ If you create something short lived, it (with the help of other artists producing similar work) is able to push art and society in a specific direction The butterfly effect I guess
☍☍☍☍☍ it's true that you have more effect in the current conversation
☐☐☐☐☐ mm
☍☍☍☍☍ but that conversation draws intensively on a language formed by the ancients so the two are dependent on each other, a back and forth
☐☐☐☐☐ and that's dependent on their work's longevity?
☍☍☍☍☍ not following ur question
☐☐☐☐☐ not following your point haha hmm
☼☼☼☼☼ so you're suggesting a works longevity is crucial in that it helps reinforce and update the ancient language in which short term work of the future will be influenced by?
☐☐☐☐☐ mm also - what if of all the work you make, it's only a meme that survives the passage of time?
☍☍☍☍☍ basically... like you're just reiterating points that have been made more in depth in 'higher' brow culture - that's definitely how I feel when writing raps
☐☐☐☐☐ like Roman graffiti surviving on the walls or whatever
☍☍☍☍☍ did you a hear copy of the I Ching, the Chinese numerology classic more than a thousand years old, was found in the 70s and had a heap more sections and a different order? effectively completely changing the understanding of the I Ching gotta get those nice lead storage chambers ayyyyy ahahaha it was found buried in a coffin, obvs haha
☐☐☐☐☐ mm
☍☍☍☍☍ a lot of Chinese philosophers only exist in so much as someone else described them
☼☼☼☼☼ But what does that changing of contexts of that piece actually mean for us? Is updated Ching from the coffin helping us in any way?
☍☍☍☍☍ I think for me finding the I Ching and looking over it is like a person in a thousand years finding a functional iPhone it gives great insight into human impulses regardless of time and offers a way of writing the past a new, which in turn presents a new future (thinking of the cowboy article you sent me) reconceptualizing the past IS the future look at 'Make America Great Again' or calls to restore the caliphate both are founded on histories that have more to do with our current state than the actual happenings of the past
☼☼☼☼☼ I do see where you're coming from I like the idea that it's important to preserve our work for understand the past better And I hope that someone in the future will have a clearer understanding of our time through your well preserved works But what fucking future is it
☍☍☍☍☍ haha but like looking back we see people been asking that for a veeery long time I get it seems on a new scale but we're on a new scale too
☼☼☼☼☼ It does seem that yes Also if we do survive and keep on teching on
☍☍☍☍☍ I'm for an integration of the human/natural binary where we properly acknowledge our mutual codependency, the earth and humanity that is
☼☼☼☼☼ Are we even going to be translatable? Is the functioning iPhone found by the future person going to even be able to be translated? Or will it be meaningless because everyone is already part of the grid
☍☍☍☍☍ where artificially effecting the climate for the benefit of 'nature' isn't seen as strange but completely akin to Aboriginal burn back practices
☐☐☐☐☐ i guess it's productive to hope that it will be translatable
☍☍☍☍☍ we've always interfered in the running of nature
☐☐☐☐☐ mm
☍☍☍☍☍ ehhh idk we translated fucking hieroglyphics
☼☼☼☼☼ Or future tech can look into the past and someone is watching our lives as we type this now, constantly being understood through our context in a way we can't comprehend through our recording processes shrugs
☍☍☍☍☍ I mean yeah, imagine if the internet was even vaguely archived
☼☼☼☼☼ You probably have a better understanding of how the future will pan out than I do tho
☍☍☍☍☍ even if 0.1 % was kept, it would be a massive resource
☼☼☼☼☼ No sass intended there, I'm sincere
☍☍☍☍☍ lol idk I just try to see a bigger picture and it keeps me calm remember me old saying? we survived the plague and nukes lol
☼☼☼☼☼ I just don't see the issue with creating short term work, especially if it is preserved
☍☍☍☍☍ oh neither do I
☼☼☼☼☼ Like a meme may have more impact than a novel rn
☐☐☐☐☐ well it could be argued that we're yet to survive nukes but I see your point impact on various timescales
☼☼☼☼☼ I've heard the plague make be thinking of making a comeback too haha
☐☐☐☐☐ mm
☍☍☍☍☍ oh duh peasantry is fully hip rn
☐☐☐☐☐ but like
☍☍☍☍☍ bring back the boils, they look great with my Balenciaga sneakers
☐☐☐☐☐ lol bubonic chic
☼☼☼☼☼ Pretty close to heroin chic tbh haha
☍☍☍☍☍ not jking that was tb
☐☐☐☐☐ but like, I don't find a huge amount of solace in the fact that we survived the plague
☍☍☍☍☍ "The Victorians romanticized the disease and the effects it caused in the gradual build to death. For decades, many beauty standards emulated or highlighted these effects. And as scientists gained greater understanding of the disease and how it was spread, the disease continued to keep its hold on fashion. and the severity of the corsets was known to harm the lungs in such a way that would increase the likelihood of transmission LOOOL
☐☐☐☐☐ mm Balenciaga look out idk it's a question of what capacity we survive in
☼☼☼☼☼ lollllll
☐☐☐☐☐ quite depressing to think about
☍☍☍☍☍ eating disorders have a pretense
☐☐☐☐☐ what if ecocide leaves a few insular eco fascist regimes who gradually diminish over centuries always engaged in pointless wars of attrition with one another lol
☍☍☍☍☍ I mean you could probably say the same thing of colonial regimes now
☐☐☐☐☐ just because we can survive, doesn't mean my outlook should b at all rosy :((
☍☍☍☍☍ point is its a big ol' world that has plenty of room for pain AND love any future pain you think is imminent probably already is happening, and nonetheless breakfast tasted good this morning
☼☼☼☼☼ 'The hipster middle class would dress with raggedy beards and large jackets and refuse to use deodorant, perhaps to reflect the look of people suffering from homelessness at the time. It is suspected that this made them less likely to be hired, and therefore more likely to become homeless themselves.'  ☍☍☍☍☍ ahahaha
☐☐☐☐☐ mm that's true hahhh
☼☼☼☼☼ Planning on making this into a full essay. Might not be popular now, but I think it has staying power? Soz for shitposting haha
☍☍☍☍☍ I was talking with ☲☲☲☲☲ a while back, and something struck me - she said, "I never thought this age would have its own fleet of particular medical conditions." (or something like that lol, translated via my nerd brain)
☼☼☼☼☼ Yeah that didn't quite sound like her But that sentiment is great
☍☍☍☍☍ 'fleet'
☼☼☼☼☼ In that ofc there is, but also wow yeah ofc!
☐☐☐☐☐ mmm hahh these conversations should be recorded so we can all think about em without scrolling up endlessly
☼☼☼☼☼ I do like the idea of people reading these works in the future tho
☐☐☐☐☐ and also so that they can be preserved for 10,000+ years of course
☼☼☼☼☼ In the same way we read the letters sent between dead artists now
☐☐☐☐☐ mm very true
☍☍☍☍☍ mmm
☐☐☐☐☐ messenger is not a particularly stable storage medium and also is more vulnerable to third party scrutiny although the fact we're reading artists letters now means that medium is also pretty fucking vulnerable to scrutiny lol
☍☍☍☍☍ I fucking found the word! (sorry was searching for it so hard) Neurasthenia https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Neurasthenia
☼☼☼☼☼ Americanitis lol
☍☍☍☍☍ uhh the page doesn't rly talk about this, but its like a condition of over-working effectively, and people would try and get prescribed the pills to treat it as a way of signalling they were a dedicated worker its total hokey
☐☐☐☐☐ wow yeah you mentioned this a while back
☼☼☼☼☼ oh I've heard a similar thing in Japan were workers will pretend to fall asleep at their desks to show how hard they're working No idea the trust behind it tho
☍☍☍☍☍ to this day, "In Japan, shinkei-suijaku is treated with Morita therapy involving mandatory rest and isolation, followed by progressively more difficult work, and a resumption of a previous social role. The diagnosis is sometimes used as a disguise for serious mental illnesses such as schizophrenia and mood disorders." a dignified mental illness uwu none of that lower class shit I'm a classy fuck with money, I don't get the same mental conditions as the poor lolol reminds me of now: I don't have shitty parents, I just have adhd (not to deligitimise all uses of adhd, just over diagnosed)
☼☼☼☼☼ mmmmm i feel u yes this has been a wild ride
☍☍☍☍☍ yes I’m leaving to get late lunch uwu have a good day in this cosmic spider web lololol
☼☼��☼☼ :')
☍☍☍☍☍ Like the burning of this charcoal fire, our years too will soon expire Kobayashi Issa listening to Krista Tippet talk with Maria Popova, this particular phrase resonated with our conversation: we live in a world where disruption over-fetishised; we need cultural stewardship to help along new waves of disruption
☼☼☼☼☼ How would u define cultural stewardship in a practical sense?
☍☍☍☍☍ caring for the legacy of those past as a means of refreshing their insight for a new age a very straightforward example would b the importance of new translations, in this regard - as our understanding and depth of connection to Japanese society has deepened, so too have our translations dusting off the books so to speak in some sense I see that in our music too or reappropriating to a new context
☼☼☼☼☼ Well remasters are a time terry literal example Fuck
☍☍☍☍☍ time terry
☼☼☼☼☼ Pretty* not time terry lol
☼☼☼☼☼ lime berry yeah exactly
☼☼☼☼☼ Slime Jerry
☍☍☍☍☍ I mean rereleasing is an obvs example mhm but more abstract examples are how I’ve exported into both your brains Bridle/Steyerl/Haraway via conversation and art lolol I’m helping it move from one place to another same w Zappa lol
☐☐☐☐☐ also - looking after artist friends being generous I feel these are acts of pre-emptive cultural stewardship
☍☍☍☍☍ haha yeah definitely different time scales it could function on
☐☐☐☐☐ looking after and maintain communities
☍☍☍☍☍ hosting open mics lol helping teach ppl poetry lollll
☐☐☐☐☐ not allowing hate speech to creep into open mics lol
☼☼☼☼☼ Truuuuu Or anywhere for that matter
☐☐☐☐☐ not becoming so dusty that you actually have a detrimental impact on cultural progression
☍☍☍☍☍ I think religions only exist in so far as they have active practitioners
☐☐☐☐☐ mm
☼☼☼☼☼ Tru
☍☍☍☍☍ I think my sense is, in religion, this same argument plays out with orthodoxy versus mysticism Maintenance of buildings is in there too for religion People being assigned paid positions as the keepers and givers of religious knowledge oh yeah thinking a lot here of Shanzai, ☐☐☐☐☐, and the idea of an object as a lived practice
☐☐☐☐☐ when home I'm gonna do my best to archive this conversation mmm
☍☍☍☍☍ you’re going to steward our conversation bout stewardship ...
☐☐☐☐☐ this is all going in
☍☍☍☍☍ ...the tv where I am says “The comedian getting behind ‘Know Thy Nuts’” and there are big walnuts on the screen
☐☐☐☐☐ ???????
☍☍☍☍☍ “I didn’t realise chemotherapy would be such great comedic material!”
☐☐☐☐☐ ¿¿¿¿¿¿
☼☼☼☼☼ Huhhhh
☍☍☍☍☍ lol highly recommend https://itunes.apple.com/au/podcast/on-being-with-krista-tippett/id150892556?mt=2&i=1000429408054https://itunes.apple.com/au/podcast/on-being-with-krista-tippett/id150892556?mt=2&i=1000429408054
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that-one-violist · 5 years
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aaaaa!!! im sorry im just confused i went in circles like 5000 times i just want advice but if not yelling into the void is also helpful so either way dont feel obligated this is long and a mess and makes no sense im just oof
i have this weird fear that because (as far as im aware.. im still horridly confused) im ace i wont find anyone or notice anyone in "that way" enough to seek them out.. and as a result im never going to catch anybody's attention because i figure im the type that has to flirt for someone to be interested rather than someone could ever just.. be interested in me...?
but i just cant seem to find an instance where it feels natural / advantageous to flirt..? i want to date and i do want to marry and have a family... i just never with anyone find it worth risking the great friendship i may end up having only to force myself to "flirt" or attempt anything and have lost a possible friend as a result..?
i dont mind the idea of dating.. i want to date its just im terrified im going to end up just being alone because
1 its obscenely rare for me to take any interest in someone and by that point im usually too close to justify destroying a growing friendship
2 im just not a noticable person so the only way anyone would see me as attractive as a date would be if i worked my ass off to catch their attention in a flirty way which i just cant force myself to do
idk its 330am im stressed i dont want to die alone and i really want to just have a romantic close relationship but for all i know i might also be aro but idk because i get "crushes" but they ALWAYS end up being turned into "oh im chill just being friends.. why risk a friendship if im cool just being friends..? id say yes if they asked me outbut othwrwise why risk it" which apparently isnt a crush because im not heartbroken at the thought of not dating them...???? but i want to date and i crave a romantic relationship a lot...??????
im just so confused and lost because i really cant pin down whether i feel romantic attraction or if its just very strong.. "platonic?" attraction...???
and if i dont feel romantic attraction im gonna end up alone because again im the kind thatd have to work for someones interest very very very hard whcih i just cant if im not interested by default..?? but i want the relationship as an idea ??
i dont mean to suggest aros and aces are going to die alone im just worried that because im just kind of.. average and just kind of... exist among the crowd im never going to catch anyones attention so the only outcome is that im just going to end up partnerless unless i actively find someone and work really hard to catch their attention which would all be fake because im not really attracted at all in that way...?
and once im out of college im kind of screwed because tinder has that expectation of hooking up fairly soon it seems and its just kind of terrifying to meet with someone idk past a phone screen regardless but it seems like everyone kind of moves towards online dating once they hit the end of college because its just "easier" i guess...?
eugh im fkn hopeless yikes
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skiasurveys · 7 years
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sex sex sex sex.
1. What’s your favorite position and why? i like doggy style a lot because i dont know it just feels really great and its pretty dominating..but i also like missionary but its boring but i like it when i want to feel “romantic”. lmao.
2. How did you lose your virginity? If you’re still a virgin, is there any specific reason?  I lost my virginity at 19. Basically I was preparing to bang my boyfriend ( my current one!) but I was super nervous ( I already had some trauma from the past). I was scared and stuff and so we tried and I was like Idk man im scared. Then later that night we just started to kiss and make out and he asked if I wanted to try again and I said sure so I got naked blah blah, I was sitting on him kissing hm and then bam he fucked me but it felt really awesome and nice, didn’t hurt because he was slow at it and then he fucked me from behind after i got used to it lol. Great times. That was like a year ago!
3. If you could have sex with any porn star or model, who would it be?  i dont know any porn stars and im not attracted to any models either.
4. What’s one thing in particular that makes you want to tear off your lover’s clothes? Sometimes if he looks at me a certain way or if were doing something . Or if he starts touching my thighs and/or kissing my neck 
5. Five turn ons. 1. Strong looking/masculine 2.Taller than me but no taller than 6′3 3. kissing my neck. 4. man handeling me (without being too aggressive).5. showing me off ( Not like “OH LOOK WHAT I HAVE” but being proud you have me. 6. Five turn offs. 1. Being an asshole. 2.Acting like you don’t care about me when youre around others. 3.Racist/sexist/etc 4.Creepy. 5.Hating my friends
7. Have you had any embarrassing sexual experiences?   its so embarrassing.. so I had just finished my period ( OR so i thought) and we started to fuck and it was going well.. after we finished he was like “Um i think you still have your period.” and Im like “what?” and yeah there was blood on his dick and I legit ran and cried in the bathroom like a little bitch LOL. He came after me and said it was fine and that hes done more awkward shit but DUDE...
8. Do you have a fetish? not really. I like calling my boyfriend daddy in the bedroom but i dont like the ddlg fetish at all. 
9. Have you experimented with anyone of the same sex?  no 10. What’s “out of bounds” for you during sex?  Choking, or tying me up, or like bondage stuff. I just have a severe panic attack if that happens and I dont like it and I had trauma so its actually triggering.
11. What’s the best sexual unsolicited advice you can give?  Just dont fuck them if youre not ready. 
12. Hickies - get ‘em or give ‘em? both
13. Do you like giving head? im that weird girl who actually enjoys sucking cock
14. Do you like getting head? yes 
15. What’s one thing you look for in a partner?  loyalty and companionship. 
16. How many partners have you had?  1 and im still with him :)
17. What’s your sexual orientation? Straight
18. If you’re bi/pansexual, what gender do you tend to prefer? n/a
19. Describe the best sex you’ve ever had.  Theres a few. It usually is when he goes hardcore with teasing me and kissing me. One time he was kissing me and teasing me. He ate me out for a bit which was amazing, and the he kissed me from my tummy to my lips, and he fucked me hard but slow and said I love you which was awesome. But i also had one where He was teasing me and doing lots of foreplay and he told me he owned me and that he wanted all of me and then he fucked me so good. especially when he cums inside me. MMMMM.
20. Describe the worst sex you’ve ever had. It wasnt bad but I just have depression and sometimes it hits me when were fucking and  i lost my sex drive and just didnt care and it didnt last that long but i lied i orgasmed so he could finish because i wasnt feeling it lol
21. Have you ever had a funny sexual experience? What was it? i dont know. Im sure. 22. Are you okay with rough sex?  Yess just not too rough ok!
23. How big was the biggest dick you’ve ever seen? Was it in a porn or in real life? well i mean guys in porn always have huge dicks but my boyfriend is the only one Ive had and he is pretty big.
24. Boobs or ass - which is better? ass. 25. Do you prefer sex or masturbation? sex i hate masturbating.
26. Describe how you usually masturbate. ill leave that for your imagination. 
27. Do you like tattoos on a partner or do you like them to have a clean slate, skin wise?  i dont care. either or.
28. How do you feel about daddy dom/little girl roleplaying? some people go a little too far with it. Like for example actually acting like they are 4 years old in public. You can leave it to the bedroom, please.
29. What’s your fantasy?  pay off my student loans.
30. Do you have any sexual regrets? no
31. When did you last have sex? april 1st before Connor moved! He will be back in the end of May or start of June so it will be a while before we have sex again :(
32. When did you last masturbate? last night
33. Have you had anal? yeah. Its ‘ight. 
34. Do you like to spank/be spanked?  i like to be spanked.
35. What do you want done to you right now?  well since  I havent seen my boyfriend in like a month i would love it for him to just push me against a wall. mmm.
36. Are you comfortable with getting tied up? no
37. Did you have sex in high school? nope. No one really liked me back then. I had like 2 boyfriends then and it was shitty then. I met Connor the fall after i graduated. Hilarious.
38. How old were you when you lost your virginity? How long has it been? 19 years old and its been a year now.
39. Do you like teasing or would you rather get straight to the point? teasing.
40. Sexting or phone sex?  ive done both. sexting is fun but phone sex can be pretty hot. I just dont like phone sex..i rather sext tbh
41. Have you had sex in any interesting places? One time we were hanging at our friends place and everyone had gone to bed and Connor was cuddling me on their couch and he said , “ I bet its just bothering you that you cant touch me” and im like whatever idc and then hes like “lets lowkey fuck” so we fucked on their couch while they were sleeping! It was pretty fun but nervous cus if someone walked out. oh god..and then we fucked behind a couch like 3 times while there was a party going on. cool.
42. Are you sexually active?  i guess so. since he moved its hard to say but its only for short time.
43. Have you had car sex? no our car is too small for that. but i want to.
44. Have you ever had sex with anyone else in the location you were at? (i.e., while your sister was in the other room) yes..see above
45. Why aren’t you fucking anyone right now? well the only person i would fuck is in a nother city obvs so thats why.
46. Are you able to have emotionless sex? not rly
47. Does penis size really matter? yes
48. What has been your most memorable experience sexually? theres a lot
49. If male, are you well endowed? n/a
50. If female, what’s your breast size?  34 B cup.
51. Have you ever been the other person? no
52. Have you ever cheated on anyone?  no!
53. Describe an orgasm.  i just felt really weird and shakey but it felt so good.
54. What’s the longest time you’ve had sex for? I dont really keep count.
55. What’s the shortest time you’ve had sex for?  like 5 minutes. -___-
56. If you could change the person you lost your virginity to, would you?  no
57. Have you had any pregnancy scares? Yeah kinda. my one period didnt come once and i was so scared. I bought like 3  sticks.
58. Are you comfortable naked?  kinda. Ive been with Connor for a year now and I still feel awkward naked. lol
59. Are you comfortable sending pictures of yourself to others? depends.
60. What’s your sexual comfort zone like?just dont do rape play.
61. What’s something sexual that you thought you wouldn’t like, but ended up liking?  i cant think of anything
62. Do you have any piercings in fun places? (i.e., clit, nipples, dick) no
63. Would you say you’re good in bed?  i think so.
64. How do you get sex tips? internet or i ask him how he wants me to do something. like i ask him if he likes what im doing and he will tell me how he wants it.
65. Have you ever had sex with anyone while they were on their period? Have you ever had sex while on your period?  no except that one time when i thought i was fkn done but i wasnt. kill myself.
66. If you could be the other sex for a day, would you and what would you do first? idk.
67. What’s your favorite part about being the gender you are? I dont know really. I can buy cute drinks without looking dumb?
68. Slow but passionate, or fast, furious, and kinky? slow but passionate. But also depends on the mood or whatever because sometimes i want rough, sometimes i don’t.
69. Have you ever 69’d? Did you enjoy it?  yes but it feels too good to suck him while hes eating me out.
70. Have you ever done drugs and then had sex?  weed
71. Have you ever had sex with someone you’re in love with? yes
72. How are you with BDSM? Would you ever engage in it?  nope.
73. Do you like gagging on cock/having someone gag on your cock? Why?  i love gagging on his cock.
74. When it comes to oral, are you gentle? Do you use your hands too? gentle. i dont want to hurt him but if i do go hard kinda. and yeah i used my hands.
75. Okay, how do you feel about handjobs?  sometimes i do hand jobs but its only when im making him hard. Lol.
76. Have you had any unwanted pain during sex? yeah.
77. What is something that’s not sexual that can turn you on more than anything sexual?  arms? 78. Can your sexual partners be categorized by their zodiac signs? no
79. Have you had sex to music? What’s your favorite sex song? we fucked to Wish you were here by Pink Floyd.
80. What’s something you want to try in bed?  i dont know.
81. Has anyone drew blood from you during sex, whether it was by cutting, biting, or scratching? How did you feel about that? no. if there was blood from biting/scratching/etc i would feel awful.
82. Have you ever fucked someone who was sad? Did it help them emotionally or make it worse? I have fucked him when he was sad and it helped and same for me sometimes it makes me feel way better.
83. Do you like sexual anons? no
84. What’s your ideal round of sex?  i dont know.
85. Do you like the use of whipped cream, handcuffs, chocolate, and cherries?  nope.
86. Have you ever been walked in on or caught?  almost got caught.
87. Have you ever had sex in public? Would you? yes and i would.
88. What’s a good sex joke?  i dont know. 89. Do you like to be called a dirty slut or would you rather be treated like royalty?  i love it when he calls me a slut but theres a time and place during sex when i want to be slutty and then loved LMAO.
90. Are you more submissive or dominant? sub 91. What’s your naughtiest secret? i almost fucked a 33 year old when i was 18.
92. What’s the weirdest thing you’ve encountered sexually?  i cant think of anyting
93. Have you ever “stuck your dick in crazy”? Was there a lesson learned?
94. Do you like playing with balls/having someone play with yours? i like playing with them because he loves it. 
95. What’s the best nonsexual feeling?  feeling safe and loved by them.
96. Do you like feet? ew 97. Do you look at rule 34/hentai? ew....
98. Pick a random question off this survey for yourself. N/A 99. Who’s your ideal sexual partner? MY BOYFRIEND.
100. Do you have a partner right now? Would you like one? have my boyfriend :) 101. Are you accepting “applications” for a partner?  um no
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skiasurveys · 7 years
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im fkn bored man
1: Do you have a crush at the moment? well im dating someone :3
2: Have you ever been deeply in love? yes just once and that is now
3: Longest relationship you’ve ever been in? the one i am in right now which is 1 year as of may 10th
4: Have you ever changed for someone? yeah a few people
5: How is your relationship with your ex? well  i just deleted my one ex off fb because his posts annoy the fuck outta me and i didnt need him on there! My other ex sometimes tries to talk to me but thats really it. im not friends with any of my exes.
6: Have you ever been cheated on? not that i know of
7: Have you ever cheated? no 
8: Would you date someone who’s well known for cheating? idk thats hard because i dont like to believe rumors and so i would have to know him i guess. If i was told by everyone he was a cheater then i would probably not date him. 
9: What’s the most important part of a relationship? companionship, trust, honesty, affection, happiness, empathy 
10: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings? serious. flings are pointless. 
11: When you are dating someone do you believe in going on “breaks”? no because i think breaks are basically just where youre not dating but you guys arent completely broken up yet.
12: How many people have you ever hooked up with?   by hook up you mean fucka  random stranger? none. 
13: What’s one thing you regret saying/doing in a previous relationship?  saying i love you way too soon especially when i didnt mean it, dating someone because everyone else thinks i should. I regret doing things because i thought i knew everyone wanted too. example was my one ex i didnt like really and i only dated him because eveyrone thought he was great..
14: What age do you think is appropriate for kids to start having sex?  kids?...KIDS???
15: Do you believe in the phrase “age is just a number”?  im bias because my bf is 6 years older than me but i do believe it is just a number UNLESS the person is like 15 dating a 22 yr old then thats fucking weird. But if youre both consenting adults then whatever. except for dudes who are like 35 dating 18 year olds thas just fucking weird to me.
16: Do you believe in “love at first sight”?  no. not love thats lust. 
17: Do you believe it’s possible to fall in love on the internet? I mean yeah, if you talk all the time, everyday, share your secrets, then yeah. some of my greasts friendships were online, but i cant do online dating because i need to be with them. I did date someone online once and that was just pointless. Unless you meet from online and then can see them every couplemonths ( like ldr). but yeah idk i understand i over answered the question lmao
18: What do you consider a deal breaker?  Lying to me, cheating, doing illegal shit ( like hardcore stuff...), if you hit me..and if you hate my friends for no reason..
19: How do you know it’s time to end a relationship? you just know. Usually if you lose feelings, or they just keep fucking up your life and or if you know youre just not compatible anymore..
20: Are you currently in a relationship? yeah! its our one year in may! 05.10.16
21: Do you think people who have dated can stay friends? some can, if you can be mature adults. Unless you were super serious and then something happened! It all really depends on the relationship. I was friends with some of my exes but they turned to shit when i started to date Connor they got all jealous and some got super creepy wanting to know about our sexual life..like wtf..
22: Do you think people should date their friends? yeah but make sure they are on the same page.. but i also believe your significant other should be your best friend ^_^ 
23: How many relationships have you had? 4 including the one I am in now.
24: Do you think love can last forever?it can if you can work at it. 
25: Do you believe love can conquer all things? not everything.
26: Would you break up with someone your parents didn’t approve of? no because my sister doesnt like my bf but i honestly dont care. Unless they had like actual valid reasons like if he were to abuse me which he obvs isnt.
27: If you could go back in time and give yourself one piece of advice about dating what would it be? Dont date someone because they like you. Dont date someone because they “look” nice. Dont date them because everyone else thinks they are awesome. and finally dont say I love you until you mean it!
28: Do you think long distance relationships can work? yeah. I did one once, andit took lots of trust but in the long run was pointless. I am in one now but its temporary hes back next month!
29: What do you notice first about another person? Hair and teeth. and for dudes it can be also if they have facial hair and have nice arms lmaoooo.
30: Are you straight, bi, gay or pansexual? Straight as fuck
31: Would it bother you if your partner suffered from any mental illness? No because I already do and I know my bf has depression even tho he tries to self medicate with weed smh.
32: Have you ever been in an abusive relationship? verbally.
33: Do you want to get married one day? Yeah. One day.
34: What do you think about getting your partner’s name tattooed? I just think it is dumb because one i dont need his name tattooed on me..two..like you never know they could not work out and then its awkward.
35: Could you be in a relationship without sex?  not rly i need that physical touch BUT i will respect their wishes if theyre not ready, theyre not ready.
36: Are you still a virgin? Nope
37: What’s more important: Looks or personality? BOTH. 
38: Do you enjoy love films? yes but i dont watch them with my bf
39: Have you ever given anyone/received roses? yes
40: Have you ever had a valentine? yes
41: What’s your imagination of a “perfect date”?   where we both are connecting well and having fun. I dont need a fancy ass dinner.I rather have fun and connect well than have a sit down dinner and it be awkward.
42: Have you ever read “Romeo & Juliet”? yeah
43: What’s more important: Your partner or your friends? Both. My boyfriend is my friend too so cmon. I would never ditch my bf for my friends and i wouldnt ditch my friends for my bf. Unless there was a legit reason
44: Would you consider yourself “romantic”? i try to be
45: Could you imagine to date one of your current friends?  my bf is my friend so
46: Have you ever been “friendzoned”? no
47: Which “famous couple” is your favorite?  dont know. dont care.
48: What’s your favorite love song?  I can’t help falling in love with you
49: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? Yes. It sucks but sometimes you have too. I broke up with my ex like 2 years ago because he wasnt rly a good bf and I know he loved me a lot but He just wasnt what I want. He also was very bad at communication! He didnt talk to me for also 2 months LMAO so I was like bye bitch and Yeah he was out working but i dont know it was pointless. Ldr, and i didnt rly find him that attractive anymore and we didnt conenct. He tries to still talk but its like no honey..lmao
50: If you’re single, why do you think you are?  n/a
51: Would you rather date someone who’s rich but a douchebag or someone who’s poor but a nice guy? poor but nice.
52: Are you good at giving other people advices regarding dating/ relationships?  I try to 
53: Are you jealous of couples when you’re single?  I do when im single cus you want to be with someone.
54: How important is it to make a relationship official (p.e. on facebook)? i like it but connor doesnt rly use fb so were not rly facebook offical, and i mean that doesnt mean shit. I do say im in a relatonship tho, I aint gonna lie. But he doesnt rly use fb except for messaging.
55: Would you consider yourself “clingy”, “overly attached” or “jealous”? Clingy I think. its my anxiety disorder, i get nervous they dont want me around and so i get so clingy and I also love them alot..
56: Have you ever “destroyed” a relationship? no but if i did i would feel awful. Unless I was doing it out of good heart ( like if someone was being abused).
57: Do you think it’s silly to consider suicide because of a broken heart?   no suicide is never silly.
58: Are you the “dominant” or the “submissive” part in a relationship?  submissive.
59: Have you ever forgotten important dates like your partner’s birthday or your anniversary?  no
60: What’s your opinion on open relationships?  i just think theyre stupid. But if you both into that, whatever.. but i just dont see that as a relationship..thats jsut me tho.. 
61: Who’s more important: Your partner or your family?  stop asking this shit. Makes me guilty. 
62: How do you define “cheating”?  If you have to hide it.. if youre kissing..flirting..touching..
63: Is watching porn while being in a relationship inappropriate? No just dont rly tell me about it, because i dont care. but i watch porn too. it would jsut annoy me if he was like swooning over porn stars or watching it more than fucking me.
64: Do you think Valentine’s Day is overrated?  yes. its kinda stupid. you dont need ONE day to show you care.
65: Would you consider yourself a “cuddler”?  hard core
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