#wth how do u

[cccotard]

alright gonna be so ill about this scene rq and why its so incredibly amazing for Kanna’s character

Kanna understands the power of emotions and how it can drive people to do things they normally wouldn't, while other characters cannot quite grasp the concept. She's the only one confirmed going through it with hallucinations, (Sara, Keiji, and arguably Shin,) but isn't letting them deter her in any way, and in fact accepts the people who died trying to protect her and is living for her; which is obviously not the case with the other three.

Sara lets the memory of Joe completely consume her in chapter 2, and in the emotions route, while she no longer struggles with hallucinations of Joe, it's still evident that his death changed her motivations. This is different from Kanna, who already learned this lesson with her sister’s death in chapter 1-2; she learned from Reko and Sara to not let her sister’s death completely consume her and then learned from Shin's death how to recognize what compelled them to sacrifice themselves for her

The difference doesn't seem like a lot but it’s 'living for yourself, learning your strength from the people who loved you and could see it when you couldn't' vs 'living to not have someone's sacrifice in vain' y’know? It says a lot about Sara and Kanna's self worth in relation to the deaths of their loved ones.

Looking at Shin, while his hallucinations are more implied, I think it's fair to believe that at the Very Least he would struggle with delusions revolving Kanna's death.

^This scene specifically showcasing how if its not struggling with the reality of Kanna’s death, he’s ignoring it to cope. It’s easier to pretend the people he has to be allies with didn’t have as big of a role in her death as they did. - (this dialogue from Shin and Keiji is some of my favorite but that’s for another day)

Back to the topic at hand, after Kanna's death, Shin's motivations completely shift. One of my favorite scenes in 3A is when the gang uses the elevator for the first time and whichever one Sara decides to use, Shin uses the opposite. Of course, this can read as him just being petty, but before this, Shin typically followed people with high percentages- he usually wouldn't go somewhere for the first time by himself unless he goes with someone with a high percentage, or at least scoped out by someone with a higher percentage. This is such a character defining moment because this illustrates  he is no longer desperate for his own survival. 

Chapter 3 and on, Shin is only motivated by revenge. Revenge for Kanna, revenge for everything he's lost. His motivations went from 'cheat the death game, beat the odds. just survive, fuck everyone else' to 'revenge for Kanna, I don’t care if I die anymore, just as long as these people go down with me, how dare these people kill someone innocent' (how logical of him to throw his own survival....) 

And finally Keiji- Keiji, like Kanna, went into the introduction scene already struggling with the death of a loved one, but he went into it knowing how to suppress his emotions way better. He, of course, lost Mr Policeman a while before the death game and is not a 14 yr kid who just lost her sister. Arguably, Keiji is one of the most, if not is the, most logical character in the game. He does a lot of cruel things for the sake of his, or someone he care's abouts’ survival - which is why he is able to vote for Kanna, or go behind Saras back for all the card trading in mg 2. Both cruel, but both helped him and Sara's chances of survival.

Keiji lost a kind part of himself after Mr. Policeman’s death. I'm not saying he’s evil, or cant feel emotions, but he is kind of .. empty. He’s been going through this death game motivated by his primal urge to survive. The only times his emotional side comes out is when his grief is pulled out and is used against him, like with Everything with Midori in 3A or all the gun discussions. Which due to the suppression of this grief and him not healing from Mr. Policeman’s death, it completely overwhelms and consumes him.

Joe, Kanna, and Mr.Policeman's deaths all communicated to the people that wanted to save them that they were Too Weak to save them. Something they did, or failed to do, caused their death. It is Sara/Shin/Keiji’s fault. 

And now why Kanna's 'Kind Hallucinations' are amazing - she's the only character to willing to accept her weakness, and realize that she is surviving because the people before her saw her strength. Kanna knows she’s stuck in a death game and has little-to-no control over almost everything around her. But despite that, she stands up to characters like Midori in chapter three, not because of Shin or Kugie, but because she is strong; she is doing it for herself, and of course she has the world's best cheerleaders behind her, if only in spirit.

#i posted this on twt but i thought i should share here because it was fun to write #i was going through the wiki and saw this cg labeled smth like 'kanna and her kind hallucinations' and i was like REAL? #i remembered the cg but like . i thought shin and kugie were there for like artsy fartsy reasons #not that they were hallucinations r u kiddin me !!!!! #insanity #i used to do a lot of yttd analysis dunno if i posted them here or not but wth y not post this here #lemme know if u want more or analysis on specific characters or scenes because im insane #i used to be smart about these things but i took a year and a half break when i didnt know how to read but i am back #yttd #your turn to die #kimi ga shine #yttd analysis #your turn to die analysis #kanna kizuchi #shin tsukimi #kanna yttd #Sara Chidouin #keiji shinogi

[skz-maybe-incorrects]

giffing is so hard. i get it now

#w #everytime im giffing smth mildly difficult like a stage #im just here going like wtf. how do u gif. wth #esp for having 0 fucking patience. doomed

[avianii]

me chilling:

a migraine:

link to the best vid ever made

#I HAVE WORK TO DO RN U A HOLE WTH #anger noises #anyways #eurofighter typhoon #how to navigate a roundabout while keeping yourself safe from supermaneuverable aircraft #anii's random thoughts

[hauntedtotem]

one of my favorite childhood games got a ""remaster"" for the switch but they replaced the music (arguably best part) and it looks so. So much worse than the original, and they want 30 dollars :/

Unrelated, now accepting eShop gift cards 🤲

#/Jk.....unless? 👀 #No but it's worth maybe half that because they butchered it so bad. I'd pay the 30 if they kept the original music tbh bc idc about graphic #But I'm salty removed literally one of my favorite most nostalgic OSTs..... I cannot bring myself to pay for that lmao #I'd still genuinely enjoy the gameplay no matter how shitty because I miss the original so so so #so much and modern computers can't install it anymore for whatever reason. I keep getting errors when trying to reinstall #Very sad #Switch moots if you see me playing a shitty horse game eventually no u didn't #Also I promise the original 2008 pc game was amazing pls do not judge it on the shitty switch remake #RIP The music....... 🥺🥺 Genuinely devastated #I could still pull up the original soundtrack on YouTube and play with that on I guess #I'm just mad bc they knew the OG was a bop- they used it in the eShop trailer. They. used the original music in the remake trailer 😭😭 #But cut it out of the game itself?? (Looked up gameplay to confirm) Wth #The only reason I found out they remade the game was bc I was looking for the music on YouTube and found a review calling it #''The worst game available on the switch'' #Anyways. I'm too angry about the injustice done to my silly little horse game I spent hundreds of hours on as a kid #I do like the new outfits and coat patterns available tho bc the original had a total of 4 options lmao #man. I miss this game so much

[technicolorxsn]

sometimes u get context to things you've overheard months ago and then u realize the randos you overheard talking were also totally and completely wrong

#how do u even come to that conclusion?? #ofc accidentally eavesdropping only gives a little sliver so i have no idea wth was going on but yknow #wild to think about #i like living under a rock i think

[benetnvsch]

genuinely baffling to me how much of a victim complex some skk shippers have

YEAH yeah aouhghh-

like,, its one thing if people were actively harassing/bothering them but there is no reason for Those Types of skk-ers to be So Upset about other ships just existing (and to just,,doing the same things that they do in terms of relating/redrawing other ships moments to theirs)

I mean come on,, just look the other way,, no need to cry cuz someone chose to make Dazai to kiss different colored pile of pixels today

#the hypocrisy again just really gets me like- WHY ARE U SO upset abt other shippers relating their ship to ur ship's quotes/scenes #when you guys MANY TIMES have done those exact things yourself :'') like yeah im sure it's annoying for both sides but glass houses y know #idk I just ?? it's just wild to me. #they dominate the fandom in such a WILD way I've never seen for how much content they have in proportion to other ships KFJHKF #and it would be fine if they were like... just normal about it but why do so many treat it like it's an entire fucking war KFHFK #u don't need to comment 'I don't ship this cuz I ship x but its cute too ig' on every post u see wth a non x ship just IGNORE IT #u don't see any other ship doing that with their ship regularly like they do (at all personally but don't wonna say it never has happened) #and before anyone gets upset and is like 'oh kite but aren't u actively doing that rn?' #no cuz i only complain abt them when they're actively harassing/bothering other shippers for NO REASON </3 if I was doing the same thing I- #-would want people to call me out too but im not cuz idc who u ship characters with if i don't like it'll ill just block/mute and move on - #cuz im a big fucking kid with grown up feelings and adult levels of empathy and know how to Not invade their spaces just cuz I ship someth

[captain-noir]

iwtv twitter: "we care very deeply about louis as a victim of abuse, which is why we react with fury to any suggestion that he might have agency over his own life or choices. we wish to keep him swaddled away from the rest of the world where lestat, I mean we, can make sure he's safe. this is praxis."

asdnajsndasjnda the irony of getting a multifaceted black gay lead in a prestige show and the fandom working overtime to strip him of all nuance in an attempt to fight against antiblackness in fandom spaces!? like truly baffling how they reverse engineered the black fan experience and misapplied it to their own detriment. they're the opps! instead of producing art and fic and meta and fanvids they are too busy tilting at windmills and accusing the creators who crafted the definitive ldpdl and arguably one of the best protagonist of '22 of not liking/knowing the character like they do. the self-importance! the arrogance! say what you want about louis fans on this hellsite but they are CARRYING the fandom hard. those iwtv twitter girlies need to step away from their devices and relearn how to engange with stories without projecting onto them. theyre out here giving louis fans a bad rep omg its so embarrassing

#yaz replies #do you want a milquetoast of a historically boring and underserved character or do you want an actually compelling lead #cos you wont get the first one since these writers arent the type of hacks who sacrifice their vision to appease #others like this isnt the cw or whatever #but with the way theyre carrying on...they will alienate everyone else and then cry about how there's a dearth of #fancontent for louis in comparison to lestat a fucking icon of the genre #dumb bitches syndrome is something else #like i get having trepidation but how are you watching this show and seeing how much love and effort has been put into louis #far more than anne ever did btw and then fix your hands to type at the writers that THEY dont understand what THEY have written #that jacobs the only one opinion they trust #while simultaneously hoping he leaves after s2 #asdbhsadbas im realizing just how much i hate fandom and this one isnt even that big like wth #sorry for talking at u but i think im currently hangry and this is a good outlet

[cherrystrawberrie]

Horrible horrible "how do you get paid what you get paid and not save your money?" Do you realize there's only 2 people working full time in my house filled with 8 people and a dog

#why does my mom ask me that and tHEN ask for money in the worst ever possible way i am KILLING AND BITING #im dead #also wth how do you save enough when you pay shit and end uo with half of your salary and THEN #you end up loaning her a month worth of salary #u tell me #how im supposed to buy a car according to you #i work 9 hours im desd

[wingedshoes]

missing talking to @bookishjules everyday what's going on with you babe

#fuck college #wth was i excited for #its been a month for me and midterms are fucking me over #i just wanted a cute college romance and effortlessly get into an ivy #do u know how deranged i have to do to not have time for tumblr #mecore #anusha if you're reading this no you're not #*deranged i have to be

[nomaishuttle]

ohh butter lass i do wanna play sdv

#I got a thang for taking notes IN THE GAME ! im rly liking jt.. its helping me cut down on paper #bc everytime i play sdv i end up making 5 lists every season #but now i only need likee 1 piece of paper.. si that i cn plan out my planting + harvest schedules #i like t decide th layout of my plots before i even start itis fun.. ive never done one in th formation im using rn :DD #i think i stopped on umm spring 15.. and everything wsngoing awwsome :DD #I RLY SRSLY CANT PLAY I HAVE WORK TMRW. BUT OGIGKHKH #its my first time Actually playing with mods.. i like dabbled a couple years ago but i got overwhelmed #n i have a Pretty good amt but theyre modtly judt little tweaks . AND SEASONAL OUTFITS :DD #its also my first time using a recolor and i rly like it :] im using vibrant pastoral recolor #but im using umm. the daisynikos eartly recolor for ui #i ws using it 4 everything Buttt i didnt rly like how much th interiors + houses got dulled down... #i am a little bummed bc i did love the idea of the map changing based on season.. BUT that wouldnt have worked anyway bc i have the umm #th one where it shows ppl on the map so u cn find them.. so th map is changed anyway #bummer tho. BUT i do love the vibrant pastoral bc it adds little seasonal decorations which i find saurr cute #n then im using seasonal outfits - slightly cuter aesthetic... i rly rly like it :]] #i like how umm. bc some seasonal outfits mods that ive seen just completely get rid of the villagers og outfit #and i dont rly like that sobsob.. so i like that th one i use keeps their ogs but just has them wear it during 1 specific season if that #makes sense :DD #basically mods mods mods i love mods...if anybody has any recs lmk :] #i lot of th mods r likee. for late game.. i got one t go on dates wth yr spouse which i think is so cute . n 1 to help customize the kids #I RLY WANTED th one that allows yr kids t Actually grow up n go t school #but th portraits that come with it r not at allll vanilla styled. so i couldnt... super upset abt it #but also well. it wouldve annoyed me if my kid grew up to be vincent and jas age while nobody else aged #i rly rly rly would love if somebody would add in like.. an aging mechanic #I GET WHY NOT BC THATD ACTUALLY BE SOOO MUCH. BUT YK.. #i havent ever actually gotten too far last year 3 bc it just gets so stagnant... #i also got umm. 2600 canon friendly dialogue expansion.. whatever that mods called #so im excited abt that :DD

[cinna-bunnie]

being an it manager for 4 offices is emailing someone less than 5 very specific, short, straightforward steps on how to do something trivial on a computer and sitting there in bewilderment when u get a response with them at an inconceivably different outcome like?? 😭 if u were in my office i could just walk over n show u but also WHAT are u talking about.

#I'm telling someone how to extract a zip file and like. #w windows it's LITERALLY just right click » extract all » extract. and u r done #wth do u mean u don't have a zip account or subscription skdkf #anyways.. i shared more specific simple step by step instructions for how to do That. #but also how to do it in powershell without needing to know anything abt powershell #and said if they need more help then open a ticket.. which at that point imma remote into ur computer n see WHAT ur dealing with #i try to not b that person ppl r afraid to ask a question to bc it'll feel like a dumb question 🫠 #and while i strongly believe there is no such thing as a dumb question. i DO believe there is wasting someone's time #if u made it this deep pls provide ur local IT support person with SPECIFICS. details! something they can use to investigate n help #screenshots even.. u can copy part of ur screen to ur clipboard by pressing alt+win+s and paste into an email #anyways sry im just venting bc good lord 😭 sometimes i feel like im going crazy. #but also a lil pissy im in person today n forgot my backpack which also includes my glasses so im a lil nauseous from the screen #but i also installed a night mode extension that makes Everything dark so hopefully that helps #along w.. not doing stuff on the computer as much as possible today #also jk the key combo is win+shift+s. i always forget it from memory but have it memorized by muscle memory when im at a keyboard lol

[confusedsiewmai]

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#vent #i hate having parents that shit talk my friends #no info about my friends in unweaponisable #idk why the fuck i still say anything #i mean... for the most part. if theres a friend i feel is particularly vulnerable i wont utter A WORD of their existence #but then... a friend's parents were supportive of them taking a gap year because they saw her hardwork and exhaustion in school #meanwhile my parents were just..... shit talking her decision........ #and im breaking down on the daily. and im fucking TERRIFIED of taking a break #because if i so much as stay at home for more than a month #my parents would just...... idk. take the opportunity to ruin my self esteem #it wouldnt even be a proper break #i dont think i can ever take a break in my life and sometimes i think the only way i can do that is by dying #which is...... hm. not great. #can u tell im slowly slowly sliding back into dark places? #its 5.30am at my side of the world. im srsly not okay. my sleep schedule is awful bc idk wth to do other than break down at night #i feel like i want tobjust destroy myself #i think the only thing stopping me is the fact that i want to complete school #what happens after? idk. maybe if i dun get a job.... #sometimes i get the feeling like if i actually attempted. maybe then. people will finally see how distressed i am #maybe then ppl will take me seriously #negativity #suicide tw

[max-the-mouse]

WOW OKAY ANOTHER WPISODE OF: "Experiencing Indoctrination/Thought Control for the majority of your life was Bad for you"

i do not feel like my mind is my own sometimes!!!! always beating away cult thoughts™️

having the fundmental beliefs of my brain put there by ppl that wanted me to be afraid of the world and not think for myself has DEFINITELY affected me

okay well if anyone is writing a cult survivor character for any purpose i think you could add a lot of flavor if u included this:

the constant battle between the thoughts programmed into their head vs. what they know is true. this becomes more difficult if the truth they are trying to combat the thoughts with is a more subjective thing or if it has to do with what the character wants.

also just generally struggling to know what they want, from simple things to what they want in life.

sometimes i wish i could rip my brain out of my head and throw it in a bath of URNEX urn and brewer cleaner (iykyk ;3)

i still cant fight away the sinking pit of unease when i do something that goes against my churches beliefs (smoking, anything gay, anything trans (yeah thats an everyday one), watching/reading media that would have been restricted from me, learning a lot of science etc.). it doesnt happen every time!!! but it does happen a lot. esp the more anxious i am about the situation in the first place!!!!

i have to desensitize my brain like its a fucking horse and im the girl running around the arena waving a blankie or w/e

#personal #vent #cult stuff #do u wver wake up and realize that some ppl just got a normal childhold #where they could grow and develop normally #i feel like i have to tear my brian apart and stitch it back together!!!!! #wth!!!! #at least i have flavor text #adds a lot of zest #get u a guy who can name all the books of the bible #a king who knows the books of the bible song and also how to pack a mean bowl #holds up veggie tales flash cards

[genderjester]

Hm

#listening to linkin park one step closer how are yall doing #i cant even tell u whats wrong or what is bothering me. all i know is that just existing is taking up so much energy rn #sometimes im like wth do i even got to be depressed abt #and then i remember the list of mental health issues that run in my family esp on my mom's side #and it makes more sense again #also need to stop minimizing the things im upset abt tbh. im allowed to be upset #anyways i need to do something abt this #sel talks

[kof-xiii]

theyre playing and bonding ^_^

#el.doc #im tryin ti fuckin see how long i can keep doingthis i think so far ive beenable to do 7 bc my fuckig slow ass fingers #kyo keeps getting my ass bro let me play wth u :((( CMON man #flashing

[duoduotian]

the way i burnt through my july pay fml 😭

#mel 废话时刻 #overall my hair removal will cost 6k bc of 'admin fees' for the stupid app #the funniest thing is that the ppl going through the payment w me don't even know how the app splits the payment #safe to say i'll never go back! #like how do you make ur customers pay on a goofy ahh app if u can't explain how the system works smh #why can't i just pay directly through my card... COME ON #oh yeah they let this customer who suddenly walked in to get their laser done before me like... BRUHHHH #i had to wait almost half an hour 🗿 #next time i got to karen my way bc like wth 🤣🤣