ivan sat at the top of the killcount for a long time due to the whole carp conquerer endeavor on top of his regular metahuman kills. it was a well known joke to call him "employee of the month" for a while, until he caught on and put the kibbash on that.
at the Christmas party after the Wrexwren invasion, one final shot graces the highlight reel.
It's so funny that everyone's inner thoughts in the invitation are related to the game while I-don't-wake-up-before-nine Vyn is like "why are y'all frolicking on the STAIRS this early........"
If there's one thing you HAVE to change about Jumin, what would it be?
SO here's the thing. There are absolutely things about Jumin that would make me keep my distance if he were real. I hate people assuming they know what's best for me better than I do. I hate people making decisions for or about me without bringing them to me first. Jumin naturally takes to hoarding things precious to him with reckless abandon as if they are his and his alone, and it could quickly become suffocating if he were stubborn enough. I could say I just want to erase all of that. But, while I don't think he would ever not be at least a little bit possessive, he is explicitly working on it as the game progresses. He wants you to be involved, he wants you to be secure and happy, he tells you he will discuss everything with you from now on. And of course it'd take him some time, but I don't think it's something I would have to choose to click my fingers and get rid of rather than trusting him with it.
I could say that I wish he had normal, kind, considerate parents who didn't put him through several layers of hell. And I do, in a way, but also that's boring (sorry Jumin) because we're talking about fiction here, and his worse traits and his past are also what make him an interesting and complex character. I like them being there and I like seeing his development and I actually don't think I would like him as much without them. His flaws make him feel realer, and oddly more endearing.
So here's my actual answer, and I don't know if it's a change in the way you're looking for, because I do think it's something he would be open to after some time and conversation. However. I don't like that he is so aware of—purposeful about—his repression yet doesn't seek to do anything proper about it. He seems stuck in this mindset that just because MC understands him and cares to see him as more than what's on the surface his threads are untangled, and that's that. When I first saw this ask I wanted to playfully answer just put him in therapy, but after thinking about it more I sort of cycled back around to getting him therapy. I cannot heal him, love cannot heal him, and it would become so tiring for both him and his partner if he continued to think that way. When it comes down to it he is traumatised and he needs to understand that's not just something that goes away when you open your heart to someone.
I'm not gonna lie Xela, this last week has been ROUGH. The group I was teaching this week was very difficult - loud, disruptive, destructive, you name it. That being said, I'm really enjoying the actual teaching part. It's satisfying and can be fun at times (when it's not immensely frustrating).
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[It creates a cardboard box with many smaller cardboard boxes inside of it. The boxes go all the way down to nearly imperceptibly tiny, though not any farther. It also makes two extra sets, just in case.]
Save Seven but kill Saeran and having to live with Seven witnessing what you've done, or save Saeran but kill Seven which is what the latter would want but he's the love of your life? (I'm not really sorry I'm doing this to you and Lola💞)
Xela you CANNOT do this to me😭
You've given me a lose lose situation here. Let's see...
If I pick option one, no matter what reason I had for killing Saeran (for my sake, let's say self defense or something Mint Eye related), I lose Saeyoung. No matter how much he loved me before, I will always be the person who killed his brother. There is no coming back from that, I've basically put him in his nightmare scenario.
(Not to bring my other favourite franchise into this, but it's very Katniss and Gale at the end of Mockingjay)
We've seen what he was like during V's ending. Drinking to cope, mask all the way up, attempted murder as revenge. Hanging on for any chance that Saeran is still alive. For better or for worse, Saeyoung has tied his worth to Saeran and his safety, and having 'failed' at his only task, he will become a shell of himself. Imagine him in that situation, now also with the knowledge that the person he loves did that. There's no way he doesn't hold it against me, even subconsciously.
The worst case scenario is...not good. We'd never see each other again and I'd lose him even after saving him (that is if he doesn't try to avenge Saeran first). At best, our relationship is very strained. There is this unsaid baggage between us and our relationship is never the same again. We wouldn't last.
Otherwise, I kill Saeyoung to save Saeran. I can all but hear him yelling at me to choose this one (self sacrificing bastard).
It's the short way around to getting mostly the same effect as option one. I lose the love of my life and am left with nothing but heartbreak and trauma.
The only upside is that he dies on his own terms, and with the knowledge that the two people he loves the most are still alive. This is literally his life's purpose, if you ask him. (though I have a lot to say about that)
If Saeran ever forgives me, we might try and recover from that trauma together and then try to live life? But it's not going to be fun. If he doesn't, I probably would have to leave and try to move on from this event alone.
Hm... (I'm desperately looking for an option three right about now)
From the outside, it's easier to say that I'd choose option two because it's the one that he wants. But realistically, could I look the love of my life in the eye and kill him? Probably not.
So I guess that's my answer. I kill Saeran and have to live with Saeyoung's hurt and the what ifs of it for the rest of my life. We do NOT live happily ever after.
(currently wishing I had two faves you could have pitted against each other instead of this 💔)