#yeahhhhh that's just the way

[birdricks]

the final phrase of my last sentence / hangs in the air, sounding stupider and stupider

#THE LINK IS MY BIRDRICK PLAYLIST. LISTEN TO IT PLEASEEEEE #rick and morty #birdrick #rick sanchez #rick c137 #oh my GOD i struggled w the colours on this one. im SOOOO bad at colours man 😭😭😭😭😭 bane of my life #idgaf if this isnt how it happened in the actual scene. imagery over truth #if it bothers u ummm imagine its a dream or smth. #had to take dreadful reference pics of myslef for this. worth it #i might change the playlist art at some point to smth more fitting but idgaf i just want to show ppl now #and ive wanted to draw this for a whileee now lol #BUT YEAHHHHH. LISTEN TO MY PLAYLIST BOY #artsbotz #oh my god ok im not makinga ny more tiny edits. POST #COMPLETELY FORGOT TO TALK ABT THE PLAYLIST LOL #urmm hopefully its kinda clear which pov each song is. except a few kinda mixed ones #it goesssss all the way from them meeting up until like. s5 ending kinda #apologies again for all the csh. youll have to cope im afraid #its vital listening. listen to twin fantasy btw. btw

[whiskeyswifty]

i think clara bow is my favorite right now. god it's so good, its so smart and so beautifully produced. it SOUNDS fatalist, like it's the lyrics yes but how it's just her voice and a guitar at the beginning, how her start began. the violins coming in and the way it builds and builds it's sound like her career built over time and how she gets closer and closer to making it, bigger and bigger as a star. and then when she's at the top, she has it all, finally what she wanted, the instrumental falls away as it's quiet at the top, lonely but peaceful because she did it. she can rest now, right? well, then she says "thems the breaks they don't come gently" to transition as on the horizon she sees the new her, just starting out and shiny and new. her tower has already begun to crack and crumble. Finally, the song ends with the same instrumental that it started with, that guitar strums up again just as hers did once, as a new girl, the new her, begins her rise. the one who will take her place has already been born.

it's so poignant to hear her depict it this way, so matter of factly and without any pain or any vindictiveness. having broached this topic before many times before, she's feared it for so long. how her star will one day wane and it won't be her fault. It's just the way of things. but this is a glimpse into how she really feels about it now that its finally happening. what it feels like to see her destroyer in her infancy, knowing who she will grow to be. and what is she to do? smother the infant in it's sleep? another will come, and another and another. the song feels mournful but with resignation that she was once that person to usurp own heroes, and those who idolize her will tear her statue down one day to erect their own in it's place, and that's the way of things. should she prepare this girl, or warn this girl? should she tell her everything that is to come? the song really just takes more of a stance of remove like she'll learn, but she will learn when she faces it, and that's the only way to understand it. growing older and losing that sparkle and shine, which she was still chasing for a while but perhaps has realized there's no use. in all the iterations of this confrontation with her fate before, she's beat back against it, wallowed in deep sadness over it in Nothing New, how she white knuckle held onto it in YOYOK because she's different and special, and even how she quite naively assures her predecessor that she understands, or she thinks she does, but she will not give it away so easily, because not now, not yet, maybe the ones who came before her gave it up so easily but not her, she won't, not ever. but here, it's not a "they WILL say" or a "one day", she says "You look like Taylor Swift" presently, now. she's looking her destroyer in the face. or someone is saying it to her destroyer now. Her statement of it feels like a concession and maybe a recognition, finally, without the anger and without the desperation to hold on. a nod maybe from across the room. as if to say "yes, it's you, it'll be you, if you do it right. I know because you are like me, and I was like the one who came before who were like the one who came before, and on and on it went and on and on it will go. i would say congrats, but one day you'll understand why that isn't quite fitting and why i'm not putting up as much of a fight anymore. and i know now it's not mine to give, but it is yours to take." because maybe it's because she see's with a bit more clarity, finally, that her predecessors might not have left it all behind, bowed out, because they wanted to. perhaps they all felt like her, they were all just like her, never wanting to let go. while the first parts of the song feel like what's happening to her is so singular, what are the odds! perhaps she's never been that special in the grand scheme of things, each of them always like someone else that came before her and there will always be someone like them to come. they all only ever left it because they had to, the writing was on the wall, and they knew that the only choice they had was whether or not they'd bow out gracefully. Retain a piece of dignity and take their place among the stars to shine down on the next pretty, sparkly thing.

And i love it as a closing track because it while her romantic life may be in turmoil, while she may have lost herself completely as her life imploded, this is one thing she found surprising clarity about. this has been the way of things for a century plus. she can wave away all that frivolity and finally have a real conversation with herself about something real and true, something only time could tell her. admit to herself that the new sparkle, that dazzle, I'm not chasing it anymore, it's futile and i don't need it as much as i used to. and anyway my destroyer is already here. but when she finally arrives that fateful day to break down my door, i'll be sure to leave it unlocked for her.

#it's just sooooooo gorgeous and stunning and i LOVE a quiet closer #a meditative closer #god AARON I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU #i wanna cry but also hug her but also smile proudly at her like yeahhhhh #it's one of the only songs on her that sounds like it came from a 34 year old woman aldkfjsdlfkjsdkflj #which you can say that's mean but it's just true! #she's a mess in many ways but this is something she cannot run from

[arthrobug]

Holy fuck it's the Mistah Rayman the Legend woah

He's so totally fun to draw and I can't wait to see if he's going to just be a major red herring and be the sweetest lil' guy ever, the most dastardly guy that's 100% going to shoot someone in the face in existence, is just being threatened into submission by Eden, is being puppeteered/brainwashed by something or other, WHATEVA it's going to be so cool anyway cuz it's THE RAYMAN

#anyway I'm super hungry and it's 10:50 ima go eat somethin #captain lazerhawk blood dragon #captain lazerhawk #rayman #rayman captain lazerhawk #art #bugbrain #arthrobug #by the way that watch is just something I searched up #it apparently is an apple watch that came out in 1995 and guess what else came out in 1995 yeahhhhh #the first rayman gameee lmao #I LOVE THIS GUY SO MUCH I CAN'T DESCRIBE IT HE IS SORT OF MY CHILDHOOD #anyway sorry utmv people just give me a bit to obsess over something new after over a decade of not obsessing over anything else asdfghjkl #the theories before the show is even out makes me even more feral RAHHHHH

[coconut530]

LEARN WHEN TO QUIT MAN

(the last pic of Pluto was me watching him try to keep this going)

#Nevermore #Nevermore Webtoon #Webtoon #Wow what an ep #First scene was just Monty getting OWNED which after the hell Duke went through he deserves to do to him #The second panel I thought Duke broke his neck then he broke his LEG #Get roasted idiot #How does it feel being on your knees for once #Duke asking him for one reason (for the love of god in French! Like the EAP story and also like 77!) to kill him #And then he allllllmmmmmoooosssstttt does it #Then *BAM* LENORE #I WAS SO BRACED FOR SPECTRE FIGHT then Duke just went invisible #Glad you could make it Duke!!! She’s so proud of him I just know it #Pluke moment! MAZE TRIO REUNION YEAHHHHH #Monty you look so not good just call it quits buddy #He’s like genuinely shooketh which is unusual like Prospero but Monty’s so shooketh bc like he’s used to having control and it’s being #taken away from him atm which he is REALLY not used to #Pluto’s face 😂 it’s hilarious #I mean Monty is not a great person but the way Flynn drew him in this ep is spectacular #Side profilessssssssss and yes it is a bluff #LIKE LOOK AT HOW CRAZED HE LOOKS IT’S SO COOL #OH NO ADA FEARSCAPE EPISODE NEXT WEEK OH NOOOOOOOOOOO

[agelenopsis-potteri]

i gotta be honest i am stoked to be a janitor. i see mops and i get excited

#guys i have opinions on mops now #why does anyone use string mops. for instance. #they suck. they're heavy. use a flat mop for heaven's sake they're so much better and you can actually launder them??? #i think janitor is the perfect job for me i fucking hate being looked at when i'm doing things #i loved working at the greenhouse where i could just do repetitive tasks all day and then go home and #shake the cuttings out of my boots & pockets and then go and immmmmmmmediatelly buy candy #it got mind numbing but it was NOT that bad. and with janitorial work the tasks are always getting switched up #you're mopping or you're vacuuming or you're wiping something up and there's always a different tool to learn how to use #i am NOT excited about the swing machine but apparently people don't use it much anymore anyways? so. yeah :3 #gonna work for the school district. gonna make friends with all the teachers who stay late after school. fuck yeahhhhh #maybe they'll tell me about school drama shit and i'll be like *leans on mop* oh yeah? :3c tell me more #i'm a simple animal with simple animal dreams #i DO dream of labour actually i love doing things #and actually since this is being treated like an actual profession these days you get treated way better #there's workplace safety and focus on ergonomics and proper training #i'm just really excited to get out there and do stuff

[selenealwayscries]

Red (Tayngo's Version)

also my commissions are open haha

#mcyt #hermitcraft #hermitblr #tangotek #the pop star alter ego saga #yeahhhhh betcha didnt expect me to post this now aha #tayngo swift ..... such a shitty pun ..... #its barely even a pun what am i on #we have like a really specfic way of saying it in empiressona vc like #we pronounce it like taaaaaaaayn-go . just drag out the first bit for as long as you can before moving on #its so stupid but its also really funny #i actually looked up so many actual tylr swft red era outfits (not tagging cuz even tho i love her music i dont wanna get killed yet) #like all of her red era stage outfits just . screamed tango like . does that make sense #also i literally just put the album title track on loop when i worked on this one no joke #anyways this has been Selenes Bullshit thanks for coming to my ted talk #catgirl supreme

[morgynemberisagenderfluiddaddy]

Me, randomly catching a supernatural rerun: huh...

My supernatural hyperfixation:

#i both live and hate this show #its like the characters are great but everything they do is in writing is questionable #okay this might sound a little arrogant but do you ever see something and youre like i have an idea how to make this better #i feel like a kid watching my barbies being played with in the wrong way and i just want to grab them and be like #no this Barbie is NOT a human sacrifice this one is HUMAN BAIT #anyway this is me being delusional and wanting to write fics but like I'm so anxious about it???? #part of me is like who cares practice is practice and another is like what if people find it in the future and won't take me seriously #😤😮‍💨 #so yeahhhhh #how are you guys?

[byanyan]

to whom does your heart belong?

your heart belongs to the sun

ㅤyou are a wildfire waiting to happen. one lit cigarette away from catastrophe. you are passion itself, full of rage and joy and love and pain. you are the driving force behind change, so why are you afraid of it? not all that is new will hurt you. let others into your life. you will not burn them. you do not cause harm inherently, you are wounded. you will heal. i promise you will heal.

tagged by:ㅤ@gnarledbite ♡♡

#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ dash meme. #YEAHHHHH this is so REAL #byan as passion in both positive and negative ways is one of my favourite metaphors oml #bc it's so!! accurate!!! everything they feel... they feel it with such intensity #love might be one of those things that doesn't come easily to them bc they don't trust it to last and expect it to only result in hurt #but when they do finally let it in they embrace it with that same intensity they do rage #and oh boy will they let their rage destroy them and everything around them #they don't do things half-ass; it's all or nothing #...which i guess kind of explains how they're either 'abandonment' or 'co-dependency' with no in between :/ #anyway. 'grey don't take quiz results so seriously' challenge failed yet again #not pictured is me giggling bc of how much moon & i (and even byan tbh) tie sol to the sun #that just adds a bit of extra fun to this already v fitting result

[jlf23tumble]

there was a time when i claimed i was never gonna read het smut but now i’ve read ‘boom, boom, don't you wanna go’ and jesus christ, i need to know who the author is because i want to kiss them!

I'm editing this to reveal, with the author's permission! That's quickedween, bb, @becomeawendybird !!!

#the way i just edited this entirely #but yeahhhhh #GREAT FIC

[celestial-sapphicss]

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#so i just finished s1ep2 of the bear (i don't really get it so far but ok) #and there's this scene where the main character calls up his sister and tells her about the mental shit that has been happening with him uk #and like even though this feeling is always there but lile i can't help but feel like my life would have been so much better with a sibling? #like one id have good relationships with uk??? #and ik ik found family and forming meaningful relationships outside is an option but like in this capitalistic individualist society? is it? #anyways that's not the point it's that there's always stuff no body in the world would get except people who grow up with you innit? #be it school or hometowns or families and it would have been nice to have someone help me not feel this complete overwhelmness all the time #and without me feeling like im exaggerating or thinking that the person would judge me or having to keep telling everything repeatedly #but then i think would that even matter when I am the one who's the problem and like can't work to form that connection with anyone????? #like i for the life of me cannot share anything beyond the surface level or without making a joke out of it #and it seems funny but i trivialise so much of the fucking shit that happens so obviously no one takes it seriously not their fault right? #and like how fair to my friends that i literally almost always been superficial and lowkey untrue with them in exchange for their honesty??? #at this point i feel like i don't even know what i truly feel or truly am because whenever i look back at my past self im like wtf #idk most of the times it just feels like being 'stuck' in a glass container and me not 'letting' anyone in if that makes sense? #ik im being very annoying about it but im just so tierd of feeling like this its been a decade & its way too long to constantly feeling dead #and im so fucking stubborn in my sadness that i won't even go get help after years of crying about wanting it & now finally having resources #it's like this mental block which i can't seem to remove and i feel like even if i do get help ill still be untrue so what's the point!??? #yeahhhhh anyways i'll delete this later i don't journal so tumblr will have to make do #vi.txt

[miss-mossball]

Looking at art makes me want to make art.. the Intention.. the Expertise… I am no longer (quite as) dead inside

#‘ x ‘ <( #basically i scrolled my tumblr for you dash and its full of pretty princess tutu and hnk art #just the way i like it 👍 #just seeing other ppl make art makes me go #YEAHHHHH ARTTT BABEYYYY

[imaginethathaikyuu]

Anon is onto something with shirabu, especially because he's in med school

AHHHHHAHSHHHHHGGGGGGHH!!!!!!!!!

ITS EVEN BETTER NOW

#UR LYING UR LYINGGGG THE YELL I JUST YELLED!!!!!!!! #I FORGOT ABOUT THAT!!!!!! #OHHHHHH IT MAKES IT SO MUCH BETTER OOKFRKRKFJDJDJDJJRDJDK #THE WORLD WORKS SPECIFICALLY FOR ME AND MY DESIRES #oh my god. this med school shithead ohhhhhhhh #med school shirabu with waitress reader or something #she just has A Job. always feels a little bit below him because he is doing something Big. #and now hes angry and doesnt want to be tied down to her? he has dreams to follow and big things to do in life? #he cant do this and hes not going to? hes going ghost for 2 weeks #yeahhhhh haha yep. yepppp that settles it #and then he has a slight change of heart and hes like sowwy i was mean or whatever :( #get a LIFE DUDE!!!! #the way hes not real and im screaming at him #tw abortion

[justablah56]

HEIAEIIAE9WUEIA9EAIR DID YOU LIKE MY FIRST DEMON CASS AU FIC

YEAH (<- actively sobbing)

#just blahs #ok going to be serious in the tags now bajsns #bUT YEAHHHHH ITS SO GOOD #THE WAY YOU WRITE TAYLOR IS IMMACULATE I NEED TO GIVE HIM KISSYS ON THE FOREHEAD AND TELL HIM THE NAME OF THIS AU SO HE KNOWS HIS MOM IS OK #ITS INCREDIBLE AND THE WAY YOU WRITE HIM IS EXACTLY HOW I IMAGINE HED ACT AND WISHFJSNDN IT'S AMAZING

[void-tiger]

Sometimes I feel like I keep having to prove my age. “No really, I really am 29. I really did start college 10 years ago (just…couldn’t finish). No I’m Not actually 15-21. YES really. It’s okay to talk to me. (But please don’t ask me what I’m doing instead of what I like to do…it’s a sore subject I can’t find a Small Talk TM response to. Especially with my age. Legit health shit has taken SOME of the embarrassment out of this…but that’s it’s own set of landmines. Can we please talk about you instead??)”

#tiger’s musings #socializing crap #baby face #aaaaand then prolly ‘cause of the connective tissue disorder…I have MASSIVE dimples that make me feel like a gargoyle #not age wrinkles forming. but huuuuge folds of skin on a thin face making ridges #because…stretchy skin. yeah. I feel like that snake in that one webcomic trying to Yawn Cute #and…it’s most obvious if I’m delighted or teasing. #…why can’t I just have smile lines. #but…yeah. I almost can’t complain I never have any decent adults act friendly or flirt in a way that’s Not Creepy #when even YOUNG children forget that I’m ‘not a kid’ #(ooooor it’s some fertility culture or ‘wants an Exotic TM girlfriend’ asshole. for fuck’s sake… #(yes I’d rather be harassed than an actual teenager or ethnic/racial minority. but it’s still deeply uncomfortable) #…there may be SOME progress with ‘YES I’m a late 20s ADULT prioritizing FRIENDSHIP I am SAFE’ #but also…it is irritating to have questions about something 10 yrs ago instead of what I like to do NOW #or that it took a year to be spoken to. and going pspspspsps! for a quarter of that because Enough. #…the ONLY time I /almost/ don’t mind someone assuming I’m nearly half my actual age #is when I’m out in public with my parents around strangers #despite it’s becoming more common for MY gen to still live with fam because late capitalism vs merican social values #buuuuuuuuut yeahhhhh… still living with family past 25 is still treated as Shameful as a cultural norm

[bladeofthestars]

when i was younger, sometimes i'd go to relay something i'd learned to my dad and he'd start up his news reporter bit.

"we go now live to dr. <our last name>. doctor, what can you tell us about <whatever topic>?"

and sometimes i'd just laugh, sometimes i would elaborate with delight, and sometimes i'd be annoyed. i think 95% or more of the time he really did want me to "teach" him. even later in life, early adulthood for me, we'd still call each other just to tell each other something cool we'd learned recently. he usually didn't do the dr. lastname bit any more because it feels somewhat condescending to do that to a person working through undergrad, but he would prompt me for more details and always had great questions.

the bit has always stuck with me fondly. now, years since he's passed, it's even been making me think of going back to school. i think he would have liked that. i think dr. lastname was an attempt at subliminal messaging and maybe even a challenge. i think he wanted me to get used to the idea of my opinion being valued and my expertise being sought. i think from the time i was five he could see that graduation crystal clear in his mind's eye.

i've been yearning to go back to school again (though i think going for grad school won't scratch the itch that living on campus for undergrad left behind) and thinking on the bit. i almost want to go back just to honor him, just to introduce myself as dr. lastname and hear his voice in mine every time. haha, i almost want to go back just to avoid mr/ms questions by responding with dr.

#personal #i miss him. he'd have been an excellent grandpa. #as i've gotten older i've wondered frequently if i'm actually autistic because it would explain so many things. #so not only is this my dad encouraging his at the time *girl* to be her best in the way that many girls are discouraged from #this also hits me as him encouraging my nerdy little ass to infodump with no judging and no annoyance ToT #for every time my aunt called me smart ass/wise ass my dad asked for my expert opinion ten times #it's still so hard to believe he's gone sometimes. i keep having the dream with this ongoing continuity that he faked his death #and is actually still alive and i've just been forgetting to visit/call him like i should #and the dreams are so convincing. i suddenly remember every time that he's still around and i arrange a visit. sometimes i make it to him #in that dream and sometimes i don't. but it's not a reality that my brain wants to easily shake off when i wake. i usually wake up like #'oh yeahhhhh i SHOULD call him- oh.' #anyway. fuck that dream but also goddamnit bless it #at least i get to see him sometimes #grief #loss #parent death

[truthundressing]

unintentionally made my mum redecorate my childhood bedroom with trans colours😎

#its mainly blue and grey which i loooooove but my desk chair is a pale pink and theres a couple like pink and white accents about #looks sooooo cute tho like a proper youngadults bedroom rather than the kiddy furniture and decor that just made me depressed whenever id #visit before lmao #ALSO I HAVE AN ORB LAMP HELL YEAHHHHH #i begged my mum for it and she was like fine but its coming out of ur pocket so i paid for it skdjsj #tbh im just grateful she offered to do the rest bc i did nawt realise how expensive like paint and furniture is🧍 #perks of being a student in shitty accommodation i guess😭😭 one less thing to worry abt #but damn it actually makes me excited abt being home bc staying in my childhood room the way it used to be just felt so suffocating and sad #with memories #and my orb lamp fucking rules like i might actually take it w me when i get my own place after uni #(unless i move back home which i reallt do nawt want to do but :/ we'll see)