thelittlestcheshire

[thelittlestcheshire]

Luxor Academy’s Superlatives, 2021. @thelittlestcheshire

#not me logging into my luxor account to reblog this because Mimi let me know yearbook was coming up today #also I LOVE AND MISS YOU GUYS SO MUCH AND I HOPE YOU ARE DOING WELL #all of my heroes died all alone ( musings ) #I mean Ches prides herself on the gift giving though so... !!!!! anyway I'm sorry I'm all :D in my corner

[thelittlestcheshire]

Self Para 008: I Don’t Pretend to Know the Challenges You’re Facing Word Count: 2024 words When: July 2020, in the early hours of July 19th during Ches’s birthday trip Note: I decided I’m going to queue up and post one of the old self paras I never posted, Feel free to skip it, since it’s a past event and stuff. TWs: Rape (mentioned / discussed), Anxiety Attacks, Alcoholism / Drinking, Hangovers, Vomitting, Death, suicide (not exactly but there’s a definite apathy towards the idea of death this as well so better safe than sorry), murder (her mother)

There was a loud thud as a purse landed on the suite’s floor as Ches stumbled through the front door. She knew she shouldn’t have gone to galaxy edge before closing for drinks, but she was desperate to feel good. Yet, no matter how much she drank today, she didn’t feel the happiness that tended to run through her veins. She felt worse and worse. Even the sight of the balloons in the living room from Emmett and his girlfriend didn’t bring any sort of joy.

It was her fault her mother died; she should have been here instead of Ches. And the more gifts she received, the more she thought back to why her mother was dead. If she hadn’t gone to get gifts for Jonah... it felt like the room was spinning as the thought came back. Wait, no, the room was definitely spinning.

“Hey Ches, sorry I needed to- fuck.” Zander had just come out from the living room, likely taking her up on his offer to hide, but his attempt to avoid people is forgotten by the time he reaches her. “Come on, let’s get you to bed.” There were two of him by the time he wraps an arm around her to support her. “It’s been a long night.” He starts to lead her to her bedroom, and it’s hard to keep her feet under her as they walk. But he saves her from crashing to the floor and manages to get her on the bed.

“It wasn’t a night.” She slurs at him as she rests her head against her pillow. “Sky and I, you know. Club 33.” She knew the look on his faces even through the intoxicated haze. She knew he wasn’t happy about this. “I’m okay.” She informs him, starting to sit up. The room begins to move again, and for a moment, she feels like she might just be sick. She moves quickly, barely making it to the toilet before she vomits. Zander quickly behind her to hold back her hair. “See, fine.” She gets out weakly as she flushes the toilet.

“Definitely not fine.” He disagrees as he smooths out her hair. “I’m staying with you tonight, at least until you feel better.” It’s obvious she had no say in the matter, and she doesn’t waste the energy to protest. She slowly gets up, nearly falling face-first as she attempts to reach the bathroom sink to brush her teeth. He’s there in an instant to keep her from tumbling. Perhaps he had a point. She accepts the assistance as she brushes her teeth and doesn’t fight him as he leads her back to the bed and messes with all her pillows to ensure she’s propped up on her side.

“I hate you.”  

The words just slip off her tongue. Not how she genuinely felt in the slightest. Zander doesn’t seem to take offense. However, he just runs his fingers through her hair. “I know, I know. I’m the worst. Time for you to sleep.” He whispers back to her. She frowns, but she shuts her eyes, anyway. She’s not sure how long it takes: perhaps it’s minutes, maybe it was hours, but eventually she falls asleep.

—

Opening her eyes felt like literally crawling out of a grave when she finally does wake up, the only light shining was from a phone beside her. “Turn that damn thing off. It hurts,” Ches grumbles, the man beside her laying on top of her blankets complies. “What time is it anyway?”

“4 am, give or take.”

Zander’s answer only causes her to groan as she fixes her pillows the way she likes them. “Shit. No wonder I feel like I was run over by a freight train.” She continues to adjust her pillows, settling into a comfortable spot as she rolls over onto her back.

“No, I think that’s thanks to Club 33.” Zander gives her a pointed look. How did he even know she’d gone drinking there? That she had a membership at all for that matter. “I could pay for the entirety of my college tuition with how much you’ve spent on this trip. Couldn’t I?” There was something about his tone that feels off, that despite his words, it wasn’t the Disneyland trip he was frustrated with at the moment. “You’re spiraling again. The fancy trip, the mass text about Leo, the drinking. Fuck, everything that’s occurred since you came back to Luxor. Spring break, prom, open house. What’s going on?” Of course, he’d notice things weren’t right. Her luck couldn’t get any worse, could it?

“It’s the tenth anniversary of my mother’s death.” The excuse slides off her tongue quickly. But even in the dark, she could make out the look on his face. He knew she was lying, and yet she didn’t change her tune. She couldn’t. After what happened with Lucy, she wasn’t going to tell anyone about that ever again. “Zander, that’s all there is to everything. Drop it.”

He opens his mouth as if he had something to say, but he quickly shuts up. After a few seconds where it looks like he’s not going to push, she takes a breath. But her relief is short-lived when he finally speaks. “Has anyone ever mentioned you crinkle your nose when you lie?”

“I do not!” She protests immediately. Did she really have such an obvious tell? “I’m not lying. That’s really all there is to it. Please.” The word sounds like a plea, and as she hears it, she can’t help but dread him picking up on it. She didn’t need to give him more to question when he was already treading into territory she couldn’t stand to think about. How could she discuss it again? She barely got through it with Lucy.

“Okay, I just have one more question then. Why is your father spending so much money on you lately? Taking the entire school to Disneyland, a suite just for you to hide in, him showing up to graduation. Your Club 33 membership cost could be a household’s entire annual salary, There has to be a reason he’s tossing money at you so aggressively.”

The question causes her blood to run cold. What was she supposed to say? That his father suddenly saw the error of his ways became invested in her life. The lie didn’t even seem plausible, let alone believable. The entire truth hurt too much to think about; she didn’t want to get into the reasons. The best she could offer was the truth, without any details. “He feels guilty.”

“About your mom?” Zander’s voice is so soft, and as the slight hint of guilt starts to leak into it, she can feel her heart starting to break. He was too good to her, too safe, and he doesn’t even hesitate as she moves closer to him on the bed and tries to crawl into his arms. As she starts to sob, he just accepts that right now she needed someone to hold her. “I’m sorry, Chessie. I-”

“It’s not about maman, Zan. When I was home I had to attend his dinner parties, and his VP, he-” She can’t even finish getting the words out as she starts to sob, as the panic sets in and she clings tighter to him. The thought of that evening made her wish she could carve off her skin as if it’d erase the memories of that night from her mind. The more she remembers, the harder it feels to gasp for air, and the faster she breathes as her eyes rapidly search for the nearest escape route.

“Ches, hey. It’s okay, you’re okay.” His voice is gentle as he starts stroking her hair again. For a moment, she goes completely still as she tries to remind herself this was Zander. “You’re safe, I promise. Nobody’s going to hurt you here.” She focuses on the sound of his voice as he tries to comfort her, and slowly, but surely, oxygen is easier to catch. The fear was still lingering; the urge to flee and never look back was overwhelming. “You don’t have to say anything, okay.”

“Look where not saying anything got me, Zander.” She snaps at him, the words just coming out suddenly. “He fucking raped me, and I have to- no, I’m expected to just stay quiet and move past it. Sometimes I’m not sure if the money is because my dad is upset it happened or to keep my mouth shut. You know, he was the one who made me drop the charges.” She still could remember that talk with her father. She could shut her eyes and picture it as if it was five minutes ago still, her father pacing around the living room in their penthouse looking almost as disheveled as he had at her mother’s funeral, practically begging her to let him handle this behind closed doors because he didn’t think she’d survive a trial. “Said he thought I’d kill myself if we went to trials, he handled it behind the scenes.”

“It’s out of love, either way, I think,” Zander says gently as if he’s not sure he’s supposed to speak at all. Honestly, Ches isn’t sure she wants him to talk either. The last time she’d discussed it, she hadn’t felt any better. In ways, she felt worse - guilty for burdening Lucy with something so heavy she couldn’t explain to anyone else.

“I know.”

The words are hard for her to get out, even if it’s the truth. She knew that her father loved her, even when it sometimes felt like he didn’t care nearly enough. Perhaps, in its own fucked up way, this was his way of showing he cared. Her father’s actions weren’t out of ill intent.

“I’m sorry that you’re going through this, you had a horrible year.” He wasn’t wrong about that, the more she thought about it, the more she realized seventeen had truly sucked. “But, you can’t destroy yourself in your attempts to cope. I can’t figure out how you got back without hurting yourself. That’s an issue.”

“It’s not a deal-breaker.” As Ches continues to calm down slowly, the realization she’s trembling begins to dawn on her. “I don’t care if I die, you know.”

“Well I do. Lucy and Avery do, and Elliot would be devastated, so that’s not an option, for starters. So this shit needs to stop.” Zander’s voice is firm, almost like when Logan had no other choice but to scold them. “I can’t imagine what you’re going through, but this isn’t the answer, Hailey.”

For a brief moment, she considers saying something about her first name, but she doesn’t. She was too drained to fight with him over it. The use could be tolerated for one night. “You can’t tell anyone, Zander. The only person who knows is Lucy.” She says instead as she pulls herself out of his arms to lay in bed again.

“And your therapist?”

“Doesn’t know anything either.” She shuts her eyes as she says the word. Of course, she didn’t go to her therapist about this; it felt too painful to revisit, too heavy to bring words to at times. “Just promise me, Zander.”

“I promise I won’t tell anyone.” She can feel him moving on the bed beside her to start to get up as he says the words, her arm quickly reaching out to stop him. “But, I think you need to talk to your therapist. And-”

“Okay.” She agrees. “But, can you stay? I don’t want- I can’t be alone right now. Please?” The boy stops trying to move at her confession, the admittance she needed someone there. “I think being alone is a bad idea, and I don’t think I can ask Elli to-”

“I’ll stay, as long you need me to.”

She doesn’t say anything as she moves her arm back to her side of the bed. For a moment, she wonders if he’ll question it, but soon the only noise is the sound of his phone unlocking as the two settle into a comfortable silence.

#you know i adore queue #all of my heroes died all alone ( musings ) #a hundred thrown out speeches i almost said to you ( self paras ) #events ( ches's birthday 2020 ) #rape tw #vomiting tw #vomit tw #anxiety tw #anxiety attack tw #alcoholism tw #alcohol tw #drinking tw #all you cool people better leave now 'cause it's about to happen ( balo | zander ) #death tw #suicide tw #murder tw

[thelittlestcheshire]

even if you have to cry, don't let your crown fall

a love letter to luxor’s ches elswood

Well, it’s finally time that I feel ready to post this, and while I’m aware it may be bittersweet with my upcoming departure, I hope you enjoy it nonetheless. Today I present to you a three hour Ches playlist, divided into sections and covering her entire time at Luxor, from when I first picked her up in June of 2019 all the way to now. There’s quite a few plot references, and small (and not as small) references to other muses throughout, especially when it comes to Elliot, so keep an eye out for those as well!

I’d like to thank Lex for giving me the idea to make these, and her support throughout the process because without her, these playlists wouldn’t even exist. And thank you to everyone who has gone on this journey with us, while I’m sorry I need to dip out early after this event to focus on my health, I love y’all so much.

The standard Ches tws apply (poor mental health, alcoholism, etc etc), and anything I think may be a bit abnormal / section exclusive is noted on the sections.

twist me like a key, then you open the lock | pre-luxor:

the section of time before I played Ches at Luxor, very James heavy. additional tws: Death (Sign of the Times), Toxic relationships (nothing explicit tho)

Sign of the Times (Jasmine Thompson) [ Remember everything will be alright. We can meet again somewhere, somewhere far away from here. ] // Sweet Ophelia (Zella Day) [ Singing like it's a full moon, careless now that he has you. Turns you on to the right songs, promises that you're hooked on. ] // Couple of Kids (Maggie Lindemann) [ Now I'm fallin' heavily, recklessly, trying not to lose my sensibility; but gravity, it pulls me into you. ] // Glowstick (Sofia Karlberg) [ You play me like a line-up; long con, you make me wise up. ] // Crying in the Club (Camila Cabello) [ Ain't no crying in the club, hey, hey, let the beat carry away, your tears as they fall, baby. Ain't no crying in the club, hey, hey, with a little faith, your tears turn to ecstasy. ] // Ember (Katherine McNamara) [ Reignite; you lost your grip on me, and now I blaze wild and free. ]

nobody shows up unless i'm paying, have a drink on me cheers to the failing | summer & fall 2019:

the first time I was at Luxor playing ches, from June - October 2019

7 rings (Ariana Grande) [ Been through some bad shit, I should be a sad bitch. Who woulda thought it'd turn me to a savage? ] // I'm a Mess (Bebe Rexha) [ “It's gonna be a good, good life;” that's what my therapists say. ] // OMG (Little Mix) [ Oh my gosh, I did it again. He said I broke his heart, it keeps happening. ] // Only Angel (Harry Styles) [ Couldn't take you home to mother in a skirt that short, but I think that's what I like about it. ] // LA Devotee (Panic! At The Disco) [ Drinking white wine in the blushing light, just another LA Devotee. ] // Woman Like Me (Little Mix feat. Nicki Minaj) [ I made a few mistakes, I regret it nightly. I broke a couple hearts that I wear on my sleeve. ]

all of this emptiness i've been sharing, it never comes when i want it to | winter 2019:

the period of time Ches went home to be with her family and was away from luxor additional tws: vomiting (Habits (Stay High))

Carmen (Lana Del Rey) [ Darlin’, darlin’, doesn't have a problem lyin’ to herself ‘cause her liquor’s top shelf ] // How You Remind Me (Avril Lavigne) [ And I've been wrong, I've been down, been to the bottom of every bottle. These five words in my head scream, "Are we havin' fun yet?" ] // Playing God (Paramore) [ This is the last second chance (I'll point you to the mirror). I'm half as good as it gets (I'll point you to the mirror). I'm on both sides of the fence (I'll point you to the mirror). Without a hint of regret, I'll hold you to it ] // Habits {Stay High} (Tove Lo) [ Staying in my play pretend, where the fun ain't got no end. Oh, can't go home alone again, need someone to numb the pain. ] // Bedroom Window (The Pretty Reckless) [ As I look out of my bedroom window; is it all real or just fantasy? I have lost touch with what makes me human, I have lost touch with reality. ] // Impossible Year (Panic! At The Disco) [ There's no sunshine, this impossible year; only black days and sky grey and clouds full of fear. ]

i wouldn't say you got the best of me, i'd say you got me somewhere in between | spring 2020:

Ches’s return to Luxor, and the months following leading up to her mass text about Leo’s dad following the Lake Bash

3 O'Clock Things (AJR) [ Would you go running if you saw the real me? Maybe you'd love 'em, yeah, maybe you'd feel me. ] // Wild Heart (Bleachers) [ Well, everything has changed and now I can't tell what matters. I will find any way to your wild heart. ] // Rise (Katy Perry) [ When the fire's at my feet again and the vultures all start circling. They're whispering, “you're out of time.” But still, I rise. ] // Don't Stop Me Now (Queen) [ I'm a rocket ship on my way to Mars on a collision course. I am a satellite, I'm out of control. ] // Princesses Don't Cry (CARYS) [ Girls, so pretty and poised and soft to the touch, but God made me rough. Girls, so heavy the crown, they carry it tall, but it's weighing me down. ] // Save Rock And Roll (Fall Out Boy feat. Elton John) [ You are what you love, not who loves you. In a world full of the word 'yes', I'm here to scream... no, no (no, no). ] // Making a Monster out of Me (Katherine McNamara) [ And I don't know how to recollect the morals that I always did possess. Don't know where its leading me. ] // We Don't Have To Dance (Andy Black) [ You're never gonna get it, I'm a hazard to myself. I'll break it to you easy. This is hell, this is hell. ]

tonight it's alright, i can see the tunnel at the end of these lights | summer 2020:

summer camp and the months leading up to a new school year

Night Owls Early Birds (Foxes) [ A wild fire inside me burns. Why do I look like I'm wear for worse? Save me, save me, go underneath the ground. ] // Too Much (Carly Rae Jepsen) [ When I party, then I party too much. When I feel it, then I feel it too much. When I'm thinking, then I'm thinking too much. When I'm drinking, then I'm drinking too much. ] // Royal Blue (Alberto Rosende) [ My regrets are a shade around my neck I know. It's torturous, and there's a burden that I can't let go. ] // Who You Selling For (The Pretty Reckless) [ And when Roger showed me I was building a wall. I've been waiting a long time, waiting a long time, waiting a long time, waiting for it to fall. ] // Heavy (Linkin Park feat. Kiiara) [ You say that I'm paranoid, but I’m pretty sure the world is out to get me. It’s not like I make the choice to let my mind stay so fucking messy. ] // The Archer (Taylor Swift) [ I've been the archer, I've been the prey; screaming, “who could ever leave me,” darling. But who could stay? ] // Everybody Lost Somebody (Bleachers) [ And there's a reason I wake up alone in strange places, a reason I see myself in a million faces, a reason I can't stop it all from changing. So come on, motherfucker, you survive, you gotta give yourself a break. ]

no cameras catch my muffled cries. i counted days, i counted miles | fall and winter 2020(/21):

a new school year, from the start of the semester right until the aftermath of the kings’ party

So It Goes (Guards) [ I don't know who I am but I do know who I'm not. I'm just looking for a friend, I'm still searching for the plot. ] // Wasabi (Little Mix) [ Love to hate me, praise me, shame me; either way, you talk about me. ] // Think Before I Talk (Astrid S) [ Maybe I should think before I talk; I get emotional and words come out all wrong. Sometimes I'm more honest than I want. ] // Miss Americana & The Heartbreak Prince (Taylor Swift) [ No cameras catch my muffled cries. I counted days, I counted miles to see you there, to see you there. And now the storm is coming, but... ] // Sober Up (AJR feat. Rivers Cuomo) [ Won't you help me sober up? Growin' up, it made me numb, and I wanna feel somethin' again. ] // The Show Must Go On (Queen) [ Empty spaces, what are we living for? Abandoned places, I guess we know the score, on and on. Does anybody know what we are looking for? ] // Waiting For A Friend (The Pretty Reckless) [ My head is like a prison cell, I'm all by myself. I'm waiting for my friend to come and break me out. ] // Sober (Demi Lovato) [ I'm sorry that I'm here again, I promise I'll get help. It wasn't my intention, I'm sorry to myself. ] // Eight (Sleeping At Last) [ I'm just a kid who grew up scared enough to hold the door shut, and bury my innocence. But here's a map, here's a shovel, here's my Achilles' heel. ]

i got this handled, i don't need rescuing | spring and early summer 2021:

ches’s progress from the end of march until now

The Man (Taylor Swift) [ I’m so sick of running as fast as I can, wondering if I'd get there quicker if I was a man. And I'm so sick of them coming at me again, 'cause if I was a man, then I'd be the man. ] // Princess (FLETCHER) [ But we're all going through it, so why do we do it? Why do we hide? ] // Humpty Dumpty (AJR) [ If I can't breathe, then you can't see, but aren't you excited that I'm giving you the best me? ] // My Mistake (Gabrielle Aplin) [ Am I jaded? Am I meant to feel this way?  I'm a loser, getting beat by my own game. But if I falter, well, at least it was my mistake. ] // The Climb (Miley Cyrus) [ The struggles I'm facing, the chances I'm taking; sometimes might knock me down, but no, I'm not breaking. ] // breathin (Ariana Grande) [ Some days, things just take way too much of my energy. I look up and the whole room's spinning. You take my cares away. ] // Clean (Taylor Swift) [ Ten months sober, I must admit just because you're clean, don't mean you don't miss it. Ten months older, I won't give in, now that I'm clean, I'm never gonna risk it. ] // Not a Pop Song (Little Mix) [ A hamster on a wheel that's how it feels tryna be real. These unrealistic expectations said we'll make it if we fake it. ] // Queen (Loren Gray) [ Eyes on me like I'm a prize but you better recognize I'm not your angel 'cause I belong to me. ] // The Cure (Little Mix) [ This happiness was always inside me but Lord, it took a minute to find me. ]

#musings ( playlists ) #all of my heroes died all alone ( musings ) #death tw #abuse tw #alcoholism tw #alcohol tw #vomit tw #vomiting tw #vomit mention tw

[thelittlestcheshire]

xsorakim​:

“That doesn’t sound like a bad idea. I mean, anything that could potentially lead to Hwi Chul feeling a single bit of irritation sounds delightful to me. Since he is notorious for irritating the hell out of me whenever I’m around and I still haven’t forgiven him for earlier with Marcello’s family. Forcing me to play nice is where I draw the line.” She scoffed, though part of her was aware that she was being a brat. However, being aware of her behavior had never stopped her before and it certainly wasn’t going to stop her now. Sora’s eyes widened a bit at Ches’ following words and it was obvious that she was disgusted by the mere thought that Ches’ brother had cheated with one of her boyfriends. “A picture would work, yeah, but you might have to stop me from smacking him because what the actual fuck. I swear, I would literally go apeshit on Ian or Jiho if they ever did that, which obviously they wouldn’t, for several reasons.” The main one being that Sora ever having a boyfriend was not likely to be a thing. “I’m glad you know Eli wouldn’t humor him because that boy is madly in love with you– it’s kind of gross in a really cute way.” She was smiling as she said the words, because she was obviously only teasing Ches. “But seriously, I don’t think you have anything to worry about on Eli’s end, but I also get wanting to save him from potentially being traumatized because ew.” 

“He made you play nice with Marcello’s family? Maybe we should set Rebekah on him then, the ultimate punishment. Her breathing is even annoying.” Ches’s disdain for her step-mother was clear, and while she knew she was being unjustly harsh towards the woman, what did anyone expect from her? Of course, she wasn’t excited about her father getting remarried. And while she personally didn’t have an issue with Marchello, it was no secret Sora did. Her father clearly should have just let the two be, family dinner or not. “Don’t bother with hitting him, he’s not worth the risk of breaking a nail. But he looks like this…” She pulls out her phone to open up to his Instagram, because she didn’t have any pictures of him on her camera roll. “But yeah, I know Elliot would have no interest. He’s moving in with me, you know, after all of this. For the summer, at least. But that doesn't mean he should have to put up with my brother though, so I like keeping them separate. Plus, I’m sure Elliot would have plenty to say if they ever met. I’ve told him, what happened.” And she knew that Elliot would defend her if he felt a need to step in, especially if she wasn’t around and Jamie started his shit.

#xsorakim #replies:sora #the queen of hearts ( sora ) #location ( lake george ) #events ( graduation 2021 )

[thelittlestcheshire]

parkmin--seo​:

Minnie’s smile softened a bit more at Ches’ explanation. “Really? That’s so wonderful! I mean, I get being attached already because that face is too cute not to get attached to,” she said, before her smile morphed into what she hoped was more of a reassuring one. “I’ll keep my fingers crossed that she won’t wash and that you’ll get to keep her. I’ve only just met her and I already have nothing but the utmost faith in her.” And she hoped that it would work out, for Ches.  It was difficult for her smile not to slip as Ches mentioned that Chris hadn’t been back to his dorm at all, and after a moment, it disappeared altogether. She’d already been concerned, but now she was thinking of worse case scenarios and trying to prevent her mind from going there. Just because The Crusade had been messing with them a lot lately didn’t mean that they were the reason Chris was gone… at least she really, truly hoped not. “Both him and Alek are gone?” That was something she hadn’t known and she clung to the part of the statement, hoping that they truly were off on some adventure together. “I thought about calling or texting him, but I… Well, frankly, I don’t think that he’ll respond, which again, I totally get, I just… I know I was stupid and I know that he thinks I should be mad at him a little but I still care and I want him to be okay.” She really, truly hoped that he was okay. Both him and Alek, for that matter. “That actually doesn’t sound like a horrible idea. I mean, if they actually are missing, which I honestly hope is not the case, but yeah, probably best not to do that because that would undoubtedly not end well if they have just run away and don’t want to be found.” 

“Yeah, my doctors have been discussing it for a while, especially after I started filling out my DBT sheets every time I’m supposed to with the appropriate amount of seriousness. I regret not doing it sooner. Honestly, the crisis sheets really help me process shit.” And Ches had done quite a few of them since she’d sobered up and started to actually put the care and effort into her therapy that she should have been for years. “But thank you! She’s been doing really well on house breaking so far too, not that I’m giving her much chances to have an accident with how often I’ve been walking her just in case, but, so far she’s a really clever girl.” She gushes eagerly, glancing down at the sleeping puppy. “It’s a lot easier to get out of bed when I have her to wake up for, too. I can’t lay there staring at my ceiling if she’s depending on me to take care of her.” She wished she could just keep rambling about her dog, not think about what was going on with Chris and Alek, the fact they still weren’t back. “Yeah, neither of them are answering their phones, either. I’ve been blowing them both up. Alek left me her favorite earrings though, after game night...” She explains, twirling a strand of red hair as she explains. “So either they don’t want to be found, or someone doesn’t want them to be found, and either way, I just hope they’re okay and they come home soon. Running away isn’t exactly safe.”

#replies:Minnie #minnie mouse ( minnie ) #parkmin seo #location ( lake george )

[thelittlestcheshire]

Ches during the Graduation Ceremony && Ches during the Father’s Day Brunch

#can you see right through me? ( visage ) #all of my heroes died all alone ( musings ) #events ( graduation 2021 ) #her just showing up in Alek's earrings what did we expect #also I'm not saying look at Balo's graduation heels too but I am sayin look at those too #luxorevent

[thelittlestcheshire]

On her bed in a little black box, Alek left Ches her favourite Ramage 18-karat white gold diamond, Buccellati earrings. Layed carefully over top of the earrings was a tiny note which read:

“For that time me, you and Lulu played dress-up, I always thought these looked better on you. Some diamonds for a diamond. I’m sorry for upsetting you.”

Received: Wednesday, May 26th

The closer to finals they got, the more stressed Ches became, and the more she’d hid with Elliot. Perhaps that only made it easier for people to leave things in her room without her noticing until she arrived back, either to stay in her room for a time or to restock her overnight bag. At first, she’s too busy trying to ditch her textbooks on her desk to even notice there’s a new addition on her bed, but after she has a moment to breathe, she notices the black box and the note on top, and she smiles a little as she reads the note, the memory, a reminder of a simpler time.

But when she opens the box, her jaw drops. These were one of Alek’s favorite pieces, and she knew it. Why was she trying to part with them? Sure, she appreciated them, and the thought, but she needed to make sure that Alek knew that they were good. This was too rich for an apology in general, but especially over something she’d already forgiven her friend over. Immediately she’s reaching for her phone to call Alek, frowning as she hits voicemail.

“Hey babe, can you give me a call when you have a moment? I still owe a truckload of brie, plus I need some time with my favorite goddess. Anyway, I found what you left for me in my room, and they’re absolutely gorgeous. Thank you. I love you so much, and you have nothing to apologize for.”

It wouldn’t be until later when Ches understood why Alek had given her the earrings when she couldn’t find her friend anywhere, and Christopher was mysteriously missing. When Alek wouldn’t pick up her phone, no matter how many times she’d called her friend and texted her. When she wasn’t back in time for prom, and Isaac had to attend alone. Even after it was determined they went willingly, she doesn’t stop trying to reach out just in case at some point she’d get ahold of them. Sometimes when she missed Alek, she rereads the note, thankful she hadn’t thrown it away and stares at the earrings. A small piece of her friend that had seemed to become more cherished and precious as the days went by. No matter how much she wished for her friend back, it’s not her when her phone buzzes, or when someone knocks on Ches’s day.

While the jewelry couldn’t fill the Alek-shaped hole that seemed to hurt the more the days went by, the longer that Ches’s prayers for her friends’ safe return seemed to fall on deaf ears. But it was something she was holding onto in the meantime, an object that brought her peace in the same way that the necklace from Zander, and the ring on her finger that paired Elliot’s did. Alek had known what she was doing when she’d given Ches something to wear, with how much she’d clung to her sentimental jewelry.

Maybe she’d trade them for Alek to just come home safely, but in the meantime, she was thankful she had them.

#is this actual footage of me retconning Ches's ears not being pierced though because she's 100% going to wear them during graduation? YES #like she needs a piece of Alek with her during all of this hell okay #submission #the goddess of all ( alek ) #all of my heroes died all alone ( musings ) #a hundred thrown out speeches i almost said to you ( self paras )

[thelittlestcheshire]

sav-grey​:

Sav knew that Ches was probably biting her tongue, wanting to make some sort of comment to her father, but it was really the last thing Sav needed. Ches had been none to shy with her opinion’s of what Savannah’s father had done, and Sav knew that. She didn’t necessarily disagree with her, though for different reasons, but Sav felt like she was trying to dodge too many things already. The fact that the entire school knew about what had happened now, not to mention the fact that her father was still on the rampage about the pregnancy scare, despite Sav insisting that had just been a rumor, and now with all the prom shit? Yeah, the fact that he was even here was raising her blood pressure by the minute.  “Lovely to see you again, Ches,” Sav’s mother greeted warmly, though Sav would’ve bet one hundred bucks she had no idea if she had ever me the girl before or not. “You look stunning in that dress,” she added. Sav glanced around briefly as her mother spoke, hoping that Sierra or Sedona would be making their way back to the table and throw in some distraction. 

“Drive up was fine. You know how it is getting out of Manhattan, I’m sure,” Richard answered smoothly, before motioning towards one of the abandoned seats of Sav’s sisters. “Do you want to join us for a bit? We always love hearing more from Savannah’s friends. I’m sure some of those hikes you went on were absolutely amazing compared to what you got here, but I’m surprised you ever got Sav out of the water. I’m still pretty sure her grades are suffering from all the time spent surfing,” he added, glancing at Sav with a raise of one eyebrow. 

Sav let out a sigh, knowing that comments like that were only going to fire Ches up more, meeting Richard’s gaze with an unimpressed one of her own. “My grades are fine. I’m graduating, aren’t I?” she pointed out. “Ches, I’m sure you have your own family to get back to, don’t feel like you need to join us if you don’t want to,” she added quickly. 

“Thank you, Mrs. Grey! One of my best friends, Balo, made it for me.” Ches’s smile is a bit more genuine with the compliment, the chance to brag about her friend’s talents. “It can be a nightmare sometimes to get out, I used to make the trip back home a lot.” She needed to make the trip more often, come to think of it, spend more time with her sisters. Maybe it’d calm Ella’s ire towards her if she visited more often. That, or it’d make it worse. At this point there was no telling when it came to the youngest Elswood girl. She glances over to Sav for a moment that the invitation to join them, knowing full well that she wouldn’t want her to say yes, but, she couldn’t help herself. “I can spare a few minutes, my father and Rebekah have their hands full tonight so I’ll be able to get back before they notice I’m missing. Thank you for the invitation, Mr. Grey.” 

She sits down, fiddling with her ring under the table for a few minutes and wishing she’d just stuck close to Elliot. “It wasn’t too impossible to get her out of the water, though, but I can understand her love of it, I didn’t want to leave the beach in New Zealand either, and as long as a work and fun balance is maintained, it’s a suitable way to relieve stress and release pent up energy. We had some nice hikes though, there was this one trail in Japan that was absolutely gorgeous. Although I’ll admit I didn’t get to hike nearly as much as I would have loved to, work comes first, I’m afraid. Thankfully my father understands, although he was a bit disappointed I was too focused on my studies to fly in for Christmas.”  Well, more like too busy going through withdrawal, but she was trying to study through it so close enough.

#Susanne Grey #sav grey #Richard Grey #events ( graduation 2021 ) #replies:savannah #savannah #location ( lake george ) #alcoholism tw #withdrawal tw

[thelittlestcheshire]

xsorakim​:

Sora ducked when she heard her name, briefly hiding herself when she noticed that her father’s head had turned at her name being called, but she quickly moved from her hiding spot when he looked away. “The one time that I don’t want attention, my father decides he wants to give me all of his,” she groaned, like she had anything to even complain about because at least she had a dad to speak of, but she was a brat so it was hardly surprising. She raised a brow at Ches’ description of her brother. “I mean, I have seen several people who fit that description at least a little because most of the guys here have extremely punchable faces, like to the point I don’t get how any of the people here find them attractive, but anyway, none of them are blonde… I don’t think.” Okay, so, perhaps she hadn’t been paying much attention to any of the guys in attendance, but that was also not surprising. “Well, we can go check the bathrooms if you want. I’ll go in of course because I wouldn’t want to traumatize you if he is doing that with someone in one of them, but… why don’t you want him to meet Elliot? Not that you have to tell me, obviously, but is your brother that bad?” 

“We could set him on my father and his wife if you’d like, see how long until they drive each other nuts bragging about their children and pretending like they actually know them.” Maybe Ches was being unfairly harsh, and she didn’t completely mean to direct her current ire towards her father in the form of a petty comment, but it wasn’t really her day at all. Especially since she couldn’t find Jamie. “I could show you a picture of him, if it’ll help? But don’t worry about the the bathrooms, I’ve already walked in on him fucking one of my boyfriends before - his sex life isn’t anything I haven’t already been traumatized by.” That answered two questions in one go, she supposed, was her brother that bad? Yes. “I know Elliot wouldn’t humor him, but that doesn’t mean I want him in a position where he has to shut him down either. I don’t even want to imagine how uncomfortable Jamie would make him if he ever got near him.”

#replies:sora #the queen of hearts ( sora ) #xsorakim #events ( graduation 2021 ) #nsfw ish #nsfw tw #just in case still but whelp

[thelittlestcheshire]

parkmin--seo​:

Minnie managed a small smile at the familiar nickname, but it had been difficult to muster and even that tiny action made her feel tired. When Ches’ words filled her ears, she realized precisely how out of it she had been because she hadn’t even noticed the dog curled up next to the redhead on the couch. “Thank you! And no, of course not! I didn’t know you had a dog!” She gushed, her mood brightening the slightest bit because it was impossible to be in a sour mood around puppies, though the brief distraction from her thoughts didn’t last long as she took a seat. “When did you get a puppy?” she asked, mostly as a way to avoid asking what was really on her mind and also because she was genuinely curious. She managed another smile when Ches said that she was never too busy for her, but it slipped almost instantly when she was asked if she was okay. “I’m fine,” was her immediate response, but even she could hear how not true that was. Still, this wasn’t about her or how she was feeling– or rather, how she was not allowing herself to feel because the thought of dealing with her emotions horrified her. “I just, um… Maybe I don’t have a right to ask because we aren’t, well, anything to each other anymore, but… I was just wondering if you had heard from Chris? Or seen him? I know you guys are friends so I figured it would be safe to ask you. I was just worried, you know, after the kidnapping and at first I thought he was just avoiding me which I completely get, but I haven’t even passed him anywhere in the school which is weird, so…” She let the sentence trail off, as she realized she was rambling. “Anyway, I was just curious.” 

“Right after prom, this is Clover, my service dog in training but right now… well, it’s gonna be a long time until she’s working.” Ches explains, smiling fondly as she glances over to the sleeping puppy. “I just hope she won’t wash, because I’m already attached, and I’m sure I’ll be even more attached in two year’s time.” But, that was a concern better saved  for whispering under the covers in the dark with Elliot, so, she didn’t really want to get into her fears and concerns about ruining this with Minnie. Especially when she seemed to have something a lot more pressing on her mind. And when the girl brings up Chris, her smile immediately vanished as she’d reminded of how many frantic attempts to reach out had been for naught already. “He hadn’t been home, Minnie. I.. sleep in Elliot’s dorm pretty much every time he says I can, and I haven’t heard him coming or going. Both him and Alek are gone, so I'm hoping they just went on an adventure together and they’ll be home soon.” She explains, “I haven’t gotten ahold of them yet, but I’ll let you know if I hear from them. I’m sorry I don’t have a better answer, Minnie.”  She wanted to assume they ran off together, that this wasn’t something as drastic as a kidnapping or something considering how weird Alek had been acting up to her disappearance. She’d given Ches pieces from her prized wardrobe, items that were all the more special now. But her anxiety kept screaming that something was seriously wrong the longer she didn’t hear from either of them. Hopefully wherever they were, they were safe, but she was worried about both of them. “I’ve been debating posting a missing person thing on my Instagram, offering a reward for information, but if they went willingly they’ll kill me if I do that.”

#minnie mouse ( minnie ) #replies:Minnie #location ( lake george ) #parkmin seo

[thelittlestcheshire]

elliotgdi​:

“Likewise! Alexander is a cool name! I have a friend- or well I guess he’s not really a friend, he doesn’t like me that much? But I think he’s cool, and I think that’s his name? But he goes by Zander which - also is pretty cool. But anyway, no I’d never! It’s always so crazy here, I totally get being a little frazzled.” Elliot quickly assured. “I kept going back and forth, honestly… I could run up and get the yellow ones though! If you think they’d be better?” Was Elliot really asking for a stranger’s approval and validation? It was moments like these where he’d hope to never hear any sort of recording played back to him so he could hear how ridiculous some of the things that he said without thinking were. He furrowed his brows just a bit as he heard that Alexander was looking for the Elswoods… And suddenly he was mentally kicking himself for being so scatterbrained to forget exactly who he was looking for. “Wait, are you – meeting Ches?” Why would he be so nervous about meeting her? Although…. if he was only going off of what Jamie said as a point of reference…. Actually, yeah - from what Elliot has heard, that sounded about right.

Of course Elliot mentions another person James was hoping to avoid, his ex’s other attack dog, and it’s hard not to drop the act with just how intense his disdain to being compared to him was. Although, what had Elliot done to upset Zander? “I can’t imagine anyone disliking you, especially with those sunglasses. You can tell a lot about a person from the way they dress, you know.” Well, he was getting longer with Elliot then he’d expected. He’d expected Jamie would have found Ches by now and let it slip that he was here, maybe it was a slow day for the Elswoods? “Nah, you don’t have to do that. You can always wear the yellow ones tomorrow if you want to. Taking turns is important, right?” Did he really ask James what he’d thought and considered going to change? Maybe he didn’t even need the act, the boy seemed awfully weak-willed. “Yeah, Jamie says she’s terrifying when she’s angry, and the last thing I want to do is make a bad first impression.” Well, speak of the devil, and he appears. He can’t help the smirk when he notices Ches coming towards them with Jamie right behind her. “Well, well, well, look what the cat dragged in. Took you two long enough.�� The act is immediately dropped.

“James Alexander Ruth, if you don’t get the fuck away from my boyfriend right this second, I swear to god....” Ches is immediately trying to get in between James and Elliot, turning to glare at Jamie. “And you! You should have never brought him here to start with, let alone took your eyes off of him for a second. I don’t know what fucked up game you two are trying to play, but leave Elliot out of it. You wanted my attention? You have it. Now give me one good reason not to get Emmett.”

“You won’t let him hurt me, Ches. We’ve played this game before, remember?” James points out, and she hates that she’s so angry her entire body is starting to tremble. Maybe it wasn’t completely anger that was causing her hands to shake. But before she can call Emmett, Jamie is interrupting. “James, shut the fuck up. Ches, I swear I was trying to keep Elliot out of this. I just thought maybe if we all sit down, we could talk stuff out...”

“So you didn’t think at all. God, who’d you fuck to get into Yale because clearly you didn’t get in because you were smart.” She snaps at her brother, “but fine. I suppose I’ll wait to get Emmett involved, but you’re on very thin ice.” But now she’d determined she could wait a few minutes to grab her brother, she had a moment to turn her attention to Elliot. “Are you okay, Elli? Did he...” He didn’t seem injured, but she wouldn’t have put it past James to try something, yeah, it definitely wasn’t just anger that had Ches trembling at the moment. “I’m so sorry, I had no idea... I wouldn’t have left you alone if I knew he was here. Please tell me you’re okay?”

“Oh come on, I didn’t hurt your naïve idiot. Although, I really don’t get what you see in him, talk about a major downgrade...”

#in our darkest hours we’re not invincible but we're both stronger than we know ( elliot ) #replies:elliot #elliot #events ( graduation 2021 ) #location ( lake george ) #jamie elswood #james ruth #can I just say yikes? #nsfw ish #nsfw tw

[thelittlestcheshire]

sav-grey​:

Sav just looked at Ches, her gaze steady. Marcello had tried to say the same, and Sav had shut him down too. She certainly didn’t agree. She actually felt like she deserved everything that had happened, but she didn’t really want to unpack that fully, especially not with Ches, who somehow always knew which spots to poke at. “I did, though. And I have to deal with it,” Sav replied with a shrug, shutting the door behind Ches as she walked over to sit on her couch, tucking her legs up beneath her. There were a lot of reasons why people had been upset, and Sav understood all of them. Including her own, as much as she was trying to ignore those. “Clover is absolutely adorable though,” Sav said with a small smile, unable to help it at the sight of the puppy. “I adore Balo too. How could you not?” she added, glancing down as she fiddled with her phone, spinning it between her fingers before the smallest smirk crossed her face. “I mean, I haven’t been alone in my room. But you didn’t hear that from me, if the gossip hungry people start wondering about it,” she said, her tone ever so sly as she spoke, the first person she had semi-admitted to that her and Marcello certainly weren’t done hooking up despite being caught. “But getting off campus…might be nice. Provided I can find a good enough concealer.” 

“You didn’t, people don’t have claims on their exes. Plus, Axel’s fucking half the school and she doesn’t seem to care about that, it’s a bit hypocritical if the current boyfriend is allowed to fuck other people but her ex isn’t. I love Mads, but I really don’t get where she’s coming from this time.” Ches points out, maybe that wasn’t what Sav wanted to hear, but that was her current take on the situation. Although, as far as she was aware, this was the only issue Sav and Maddie actually had at the moment, so the fact that it’d became such a huge blow up was hard to wrap her head around in general. “But, that’s just my view on exes, I suppose everyone has their own takes.” She shrugs, setting the puppy down on the floor now that they are in Sav’s room. It wasn’t like Clover could go far, she was leashed, and the leash was snuggly tied around Ches’s wrist just in case. She’d just have to keep an eye on her to make sure she wasn’t getting into any trouble, not a big deal. “Oh?” She raises an eyebrow when Sav mentions that she hadn’t been alone in her room, a grin quickly forming on her lips. “Well, if the gossip hungry people start wondering about it, they can fuck off. It’s none of their business. I’m glad you’ve been preoccupied though, rather than wallowing.” That certainly was better than what she’d thought Sav had been doing, honestly, “it’d be a nice break from all of this craziness. I swear, having a place off campus I can go any time I need to get away is the best thing in the world. Sometimes it helps, just knowing you can get away - even if it’s just for a few hours.”

#nsfw tw #nsfw ish #just in case because better safe than sorry <3 #sav grey #replies:savannah #savannah #location ( lake george )

[thelittlestcheshire]

elliotgdi​:

Elliot jumped a bit at the sudden voice behind him, but tried to mask any nerves with his signature ear-to-ear smile. Family weekends in general made everything far more tense than thy already were, which only resulted in his guard being even more up. However, once he listened to the other, and realized he wasn’t in immediate danger, Elliot tried to relax and focus on helping him. “Hey! I am! Elliot Mills, an absolute pleasure to be of service,” he said theatrically, going as far as taking a bow  before letting out a laugh and standing back up straight. “Aw– Shucks, I thought these were cool too! I thought about wearing my yellow ones, but, I dunno, I think these ones are pretty darn snazzy too! Like-” he ran his finger along the sides of the glasses, genuine excitement growing from the fun textures of the patterns. “I thought I’d spice it up a little. Anyway, sorry- you don’t need to know about my sunglasses. Sometimes I just- talk, feel free to, I dunno, pinch me if I’m getting too off track or something,” he said, laughing again. It didn’t help that his nerves made him even more of a chatterbox sometimes.

“But yes-” he clapped his hands together, determined to help, thankfully while the strap of his cane was around his wrist so it didn’t drop to the ground. “First of all, worry not, anyone can understand you getting turned around. I mean, this place is literally a labyrinth, I got lost like- a bazillion gillion million… trillion times…. I still get turned around from time to time, too. So- all good there… But uh– were they going to meet you somewhere, or? Like, do you know if you’re looking for a specific room? If they’re just… somewhere, I don’t know how much help I would be able to be…”

God, he was like if you gave the energizer bunny speed, wasn’t he? That was unexpected, and James is thankful Elliot can’t see the surprise that briefly crosses his features as he realizes just how unlike anyone Ches had ever dated this boy actually was. Sure, the physical characteristics seemed to line up, dark hair, tall, but he seemed a bit too eager to help, and ramble about his sunglasses for that matter. “Alexander, pleasure to meet you! I was worried you’d tell me to fuck off.” He chuckles, although there was plenty of time for that yet, it was only a matter of time until Jamie found Ches, and he already knew this was going to get ugly when she found out he was here. Especially if she caught him near Elliot, but that only made this all the more fun to him. “I’m sure the yellow ones would have been cool too, although I’d love to know where you got the ones you’re wearing. They’re cool.” The yellow ones certainly would have matched Ches’s dress, but, he was supposed to be playing dumb pretending he didn’t know who the girl who’d been around him tonight was so he keeps that comment to himself.

“Honestly, one minute he was here and the next he wandered off. I think if you could point me in the direction of any of the Elswoods, that’d help. He’ll make his way back over to his family eventually, I’m sure.” Okay, maybe not his smartest idea, because it’s only after the words leave his mouth that he realizes how much worse it’d be if Emmett got a hold of him, rather than Ches. Ches would yell, Emmett would pull out a knife, and this time she wasn’t here to pull off her dog. Fuck. “I’ve been really nervous about meeting her, honestly. The whole meeting the family thing is terrifying, and from what Jamie’s said... I do not want to make a bad impression. Shit, now look who’s rambling, sorry. If you’ve got a guess on which direction to go even, that’s more than I’ve got at the moment.”

#i'll bring the gifs back when Jamie or Ches comes back around... leaning towards next reply tbh #in our darkest hours we’re not invincible but we're both stronger than we know ( elliot ) #events ( graduation 2021 ) #replies:elliot #elliotgdi #location ( lake george ) #james ruth #drugs tw

[thelittlestcheshire]

sav-grey​:

who: @thelittlestcheshire​ when/where: sometime during the convocation dinner

Sav was sitting with her parents, Sierra and Sedona having disappeared off at some point, much to her chagrin - the last thing she wanted was to be sitting with just her parents and the potential of a lecture or whatever. There was way too much for them to even get into. Luckily, her bruises had faded enough she was able to cover them completely with make-up, so she was avoiding that potential conversation. Argument. Whatever. One she wouldn’t be able to avoid was when she saw Ches approaching them, eyes practically glaring daggers. Sav knew that Ches…..had some issues with mostly her father, but she didn’t expect the other girl to actually act on them. But her approach didn’t make Sav feel all too confident for that, meeting Ches’s eyes with a warning glare, before pasting a smile across her face. “Mom, Dad, you know Ches, right?” she said smoothly once the girl got close enough, both of her parents offering Ches a greeting in return. 

Ches was supposed to be avoiding causing a scene. How many times this evening had she reminded herself of just that every time she wanted to snap at her step-mother, or her father for that matter? Although, she still wasn’t certain how she felt about him being in attendance. Yes, he made a clear interest in wanting to try to repair their relationship the last time they’d seen one another face to face, their feet swinging off the dock of the lake house. But people always said things they didn’t mean in the late hours of the evening, promises that would be broken with the rising sun.

This time was different, and that fact was was giving Ches a run for her money before one even accounted for the awkward Driskell family meetings, step-mothers she couldn’t stand, a brother probably five seconds away from doing drugs in the bathroom, an ex she really didn’t want to see, and seemingly more stuff piling up by the minute. She was pretty sure she’d seen Leo and Balo’s mothers talking too, and despite how much she loved Elizabeth, she had an extremely bad feeling about that. So, maybe it wasn’t fair for her to turn her sights on the Greys, but, the second she saw Sav’s father, the rage flared up in her veins again, and it was increasingly more difficult to just hold her tongue.

Why did Sav have to give her a warning glare though? Fine, faux smiles it was. “Hello Mr. Grey, Hello Mrs. Grey. It’s a pleasure to see you again.” She glances over to Sav, hoping she realized the only reason she was putting any effort into behaving was for her benefit, and hers alone. “How was the drive up? Not too bad, I hope.” Why was it always easier to play nice when the parents said something. Who knew, but despite just how much she wanted to call them out on everything right about now, she was trying. “Although, I’m sure it’s more than worth it to see Sav here. We started going hiking together while we were abroad and I’m so glad we did, although I’m sure you don’t need me to tell you how amazing she is.”

#no worries you're good I understand the feeling <3 #events ( graduation 2021 ) #sav grey #savannah #replies:savannah #Richard Grey #Susanne Grey #location ( lake george ) #drugs tw

[thelittlestcheshire]

OOC: So, as a heads up with how my health has been lately I’m not planning on doing open starters / a starter call (I will be jumping on all the opens I see though), however, if anyone needs my muses for any plots or just really want to interact with any of the Driskells / Elswoods during the event (or in general), please feel free to dm me and let me know!

#like I do love you guys and I feel really guilty I haven't been doing calls / opens lately it's just... the fatigue has been extremely bad #I have more days where I'm bed bound / cannot function then I don't at this point blank #so it's kinda like I don't want to do a call and get everyone excited and crash on y'all so it's just kinda like... in general at any point #if anyone wants a thread just dm me I will happily give you one just please be patient with me #luxorooc #ooc

[thelittlestcheshire]

Ches at the 2021 Convocation Dinner

#you cannot tell she got her dress from Balo at all /s #tbh it's been kinda nice to find a designer and have a uniform style for Balo's designs tho #also there may be some symbolism here what do y'all think? XD <3 <3 #can you see right through me? ( visage ) #all of my heroes died all alone ( musings ) #luxorevent #events ( graduation 2021 )

[thelittlestcheshire]

Who: Mass Chaos and Elliot ( @elliotgdi​ ) Where: The Grand Hall When: At some point during The Convocation Dinner

God, Ches and Elliot were joined at the hip, weren’t they? Every time Jamie was about ready to try to bring up a discussion with Ches, the moment he found her, she was with him,  and the thought of bringing up something so sensitive in front of her boyfriend felt like it was crossing a line. He’d put her through more than enough already, and he wasn’t sure how she’d react to the idea of talking to him and James in an attempt to move past everything. But this had been going on too long, the awkwardness, the hostility towards him (which was deserved, he’d admit), and he needed to fix this. If they all sat down and discussed everything maybe they’d finally find a solution. This time when Ches goes to try to find food, or a drink, he follows after her.

Maybe he should have been keeping a closer eye on James.

While Jamie tried to track down Ches, James saw an opportunity. Would trying to milk Elliot for information make things worse? Probably, but with how clear Ches had made her commitment to Elliot at his mother’s funeral, he was curious. What kind of man could keep her attention that long? What kind of information could he get out of him? When it becomes apparent that there was a window he moves. “Hey, you’re one of the students here, right? I kind of got myself all turned around, and I was wondering if you could help?” He rubs the back of his neck, glancing around to see if Jamie or Ches were coming back yet. So far, so good. “I can’t find my boyfriend, and I know he really wanted me to meet his sister. Talk about a first impression.” He chuckles, with an entirely faux nervousness. “And I don’t know about you, but, my mum always used to say if you’re lost pick the guy with the coolest sunglasses for help, or maybe it was find the nearest adult… suppose that’s close enough to the same thing.”

God, the more he heard himself talk, the more he hoped the innocent act was actually going to work. If he was going to have to keep this up, he wanted some sort of reward for it. But he knew if Elliot knew who he was, he’d close right up. But if he was a stranger, someone who seemed completely clueless about everything? Well, there was a reason wolves wore sheep’s clothing.

#in our darkest hours we’re not invincible but we're both stronger than we know ( elliot ) #replies:elliot #elliotgdi #jamie elswood #james ruth #events ( graduation 2021 ) #I'm casually gonna avoid gifs and shit on James considering he's... only here for this #like he's definitely getting removed by ONE of the Elswoods violently it's gonna be a who gets to be the lucky one lbr #because they're all dying to do it #not me tempted to regif this in 2021 because holy shit all my Finnick gifs were ugly I know this was when I was first learning to gif #but yikes @ past me