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I've abandoned you all again,, dear god I should schedule some posts cause I definitely have art to catch up on. Heres the monthly reminder to follow me on twitter cause Im actually active there lmao

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I crave Alva Lorenz carnally 

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ALL 42 SURVIVORS!!!!!!!!!! ❤️🧡💛💚🩵💙💜🩷

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hi there! i saw you’re in an adult only idv discord, and was curious if they’re accepting new people? i would love some folks to play with / chat theories abt

Hi! If in honest its been a little bit quite in there but a couple of us still talk! You're more than welcome to join ^^ Id love for things to become more active again, I have a lot of thoughts about this game ahahaha

#ask #strangenscary

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Luca shenanigans

#hope these are cropped enough #its a really big [ ] #luca balsa #the prisoner #idv #identity v #fanart #ukarimo #digital

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Some alvaluca stuff

#i wuv them sm.. #alva lorenz #luca balsa #alvaluca #the prisoner #the hermit #idv #identity v #fanart #digital #art #wip #ukarimo

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Luca climbs him like a telephone pole

#based off a photo of a lineman i saw #lmao #Luca balsa #the prisoner #alva lorenz #the hermit #idv #identity v #fanart #digital #art #ukarimo #chibi

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#i ated too much im pass out #alva lorenz #the hermit #idv #identity v #meme #ukarimo

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Hanging out

#i wuv themmm #alva lorenz #luca balsa #the hermit #the prisoner #idv #identity v #fanart #digital #art #ukarimo

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Hes so beautiful I want him so bad

#HOW DID I FORGET TO POST THIS #GANJI BELOVED I WANT YOUR COSTUME #ganji gupta #the batter #tungsten #idv #identity v #fanart #ukarimo #digital

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classic aesop moment

#yeah #aesop carl #the embalmer #idv #identity v #fanart #wip #ukarimo #digital

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Luca with his hair down my beloved

#funny enough this is also cropped on twitter #i dont know if ill ever post the full sketch #luca balsa #the prisoner #idv #identity v #fanart #ukarimo

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Back with more meta, got a curious cat asking for my thoughts on Herman Balsa. I, predictably, had a lot to say.

Oh, boy, have I got Herman analysis.

I want to be really clear up front that I have two caveats to any Herman analysis that I could do that readers must keep in mind. The first is my strong bias here—I don’t care for Herman as a character as he presented in both Luca and Alva’s narratives. The second is that with that, I exclusively ship Halva as a thing that happened in the past. I do not have thoughts or feelings on Halva as an evolving ship or thing I actively enjoy; all my halva thoughts are part of my Alva character analyses and color the way Alva thinks about his current story relationships (which for me usually means alvaluca, platonically or romantically).

That said, the most important thing in my read of Herman is that he was a very selfish man. The kind of selfish where you are incredibly self-involved, and have no idea that you are. He didn’t think he was a bad person, he wasn’t trying to be cruel or malicious, and he genuinely thought his work was going to change the world and that’s why he sacrificed everything to it. But it cost him every relationship he had, all his money and time, and eventually his life.

Herman, I think in his own perspective, always thought he was doing good, or at least doing what was expected, but didn’t concern himself with the people around him or how they were feeling about his actions. You can see that in Alva’s story, about how he doesn’t bother to tell Alva about his family, or where the money for their research is coming from, or about his more dangerous experiments. He valued Alva as a research companion, and calls him the only one who understands him, but doesn’t let him in—largely, I think, because he never thought to. I think it never occurred to Herman to let Alva further into his life, because he was so focused on his own work and desires to pay attention to Alva’s.

And we see this more with Luca, from how Herman treated his son and his wife. From everything we have, Herman was a neglectful father—he doesn’t seem to be around, and her certainly doesn’t seem to be providing for his family. Neglect is a form of abuse, and Luca’s story and reactions to his father in both the main narrative and events make a lot of sense looking at him through the lens of abuse survivor. And here too, I don’t think Herman ever intended to abuse his son, because he didn’t consider himself a bad person. But he didn’t care about his son or his wife and their lives as much as he cared about his desires and his work. He wasn’t around to care about them, and didn’t think of how spending all of their family’s money would affect them, because they were always secondary considerations.

The fascinating thing about Herman is he’s the ultimate villain in both Alva and Luca’s stories, right? He fucked up Alva by holding him with guilt and withholding information, and then dying before he could ever make it right. He fucked up Luca by never being there in the first place. And that difference reflects how both men feel about him—Alva resigned and bitter but missing him, and Luca forever angry about him even as he longs for him and follows in his footsteps. Herman’s flaws are so utterly human, and it makes him compelling and believable. I can see why people are drawn to the sketch of a character we get from the holes he left in Alva and Luca’s stories, even if I’ll never like him.

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Im sorry Im so inactive here SOBS,, I draw a lot of stuff I cant upload here cause Im a filthy lil creature. Ill try posting some cropped stuff maybe

#i like to think about characters being hot and gross its a problem

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These costumes have such a strong hold on me

#crying because ill never have them #i spent so long on this #identity v #idv #alva lorenz #luca balsa #warden #winter cicada #costumes #fanart #digital #art #ukarimo #the hermit #the prisoner

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redrew them over this image a bit ago. im so unimaginably funny

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You're so good at poses I am kissing your art style on the cheek

Waaaa oh my god thank you!! 😭😭🧡

#that means so much to me 🥺 #ask