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#anyone else bust out laughing at this scene? no? #shadow and bone #grishaverse

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#this needs to be on this blog #don't question me #every monstrous thing { aesthetic }

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One minute he made her blush and the next he made her want to commit murder.

#scheming face { self } #treasure of my heart { kanej }

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[I had a go at voicing a bit of a discord rp with Inej and made myself sad]

#ic #kaz brekker #six of crows

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[Let’s just pretend I haven’t been MIA and hop right back into it, eh?

I don’t think Kaz really wants revenge, not for its own sake. He tries to use revenge to satisfy a couple of his real wants:

As regards the future, a reason he’s alive, to appease his survivor’s guilt. Blaming Pekka Rollins for directly killing Jordie is a stretch and Kaz knows it. At first it was a survival instinct, just to give him a reason to crawl out of the harbour and keep crawling. Now he understands human nature better, he’s aware that he’s casting Pekka as his personal pantomime villain to motivate himself, but he keeps doing it because he hasn’t found any better life goals yet. Tbh he does this with a lot of things. He arbitrarily sets himself goals to achieve (see: stealing supposedly unstealable paintings he doesn’t really want), because why else drag your fleshly husk out of bed today amirite lads? How Kaz’s motivations change could be its own post but the tl;dr would be, he’s inspired to have another go at tackling his phobia, this time with a support system so it works better.

As regards the past, a way to make sense of Jordie’s death, and to regain control over a situation in which he was powerless. Setting Pekka up as a paper tiger for him to knock down makes him feel like he’s doing something for Jordie. And this hangup is more difficult to deal with than #1, because he can’t change the past. He can’t make sense of something that was just senseless. And the weird... fevered... ambiguous mode of Jordie’s death prevents Kaz from leaving it behind him and moving forward. He got absolutely no closure at all, to the extent that he’s never sure Jordie really died and still half-expects him to show up at any moment. And because he never talks about it, it keeps just not feeling real. But then he confesses it to Inej. And just saying, conclusively, that his brother died and is dead (implicitly, that there’s nothing he can do about it anymore) is a small step in the right direction.

So yeah, I don’t think Kaz will ever get around to killing Pekka, or even necessarily torment him too much more. The wholesome reason is that he starts finding better reasons to live and ways to cope with his past. The less-wholesome reason is that, as Kaz himself points out, the fear that he might do something is worse than anything he could actually do.]

#out of touch { ooc } #headcanon

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#every monstrous thing { aesthetic } #without armour { musings } #kings and queues

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@grishasnet event 3 | locations

KETTERDAM, the CAPITAL of KERCH

#every monstrous thing { aesthetic }

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[Eyy I have a cosplay ig now]

[Ladies and gentlemen, that is me. THAT IS ME. ON LEIGH’S INSTA. AAAAHHH

So there’s a story behind this encounter…]

Keep reading

#out of touch { ooc }

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[ six of crows ] or aftg ; requested by cari @galathynius ♡ happy birthday angel!

We are all someone’s monster.

join my celebration!

#kings and queues #every monstrous thing { aesthetic }

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Mam had been complicated, both emotionally and intellectually. She was brilliant but flighty, distracted, impatient. She would begin by teaching Jordie his alphabet and somehow end up feverishly delivering a lecture on economics. Kaz’s education was a patchwork of books scavenged from neighbours and Mam’s secondhand knowledge from Jordie’s lips. Through the latter, Kaz could tell she saw the world like he did: a puzzle to be solved, a game to be won. There are people who say that when one door closes, another door opens. And then there are people who see a closed door and pick the damn lock.

By contrast, Da was a simple man. It was hard to tell if he was unintelligent or simply uninterested. He wasn’t particularly warm, but nor was he ever cruel. His usual expression of affection was to muss Kaz’s hair in passing as if he were a well-behaved dog.

Where Mam had been slight and slender, Da was burly and broad from long days working the fields. But he was far from invulnerable. He was constantly losing bits of himself. By the end of his life, he had seven fingers and eight toes in total. There was a chunk missing from his nose and mottled burnt skin along his left arm. One eye drifted. He moved slowly, carefully, all too aware of whatever curse of clumsiness or wretched luck plagued him. It never helped.

Kaz didn’t see what happened. He stepped out to call Da in for lunch. And instead he spent the afternoon watching the crows feast on his father’s guts.

Kaz came to hate his father, for the same reasons he resents Jordie: for being fool enough to die senselessly, for failing to protect him. But mostly because hate is safer than love and he can’t afford to have a heart, least of all one with a hole in it where his family used to be.

#ic #drabble #headcanon #kaz brekker #six of crows

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vcnsunshine‌.

Ahh, there it goes. He was wondering how long it would take him to make a dig at his privileged past. Only about four minutes, as it happens. He refrains from a roll of his eyes or a snapping retort, only because it would invite conflict and frankly, he’s not in the mood. 

Wylan stands, moving over to said pantry and checking the pathetic contents within. Food hasn’t exactly been their priority. Still, he finds some stale bread and a bag of half eaten chips. He takes both back to where they’d been sitting. Both items are placed in the center of the table, so that if Kaz wants, he can help himself to it. Wylan, for his part, takes some of the bread to eat. Without complaint. 

“Do we have another job lined up or are we laying low for a while?” 

Kaz runs a hand through his hair and then presses at the cords of his neck, perpetually solid tense.

“Always another job, Wylan.” It doesn’t answer the question, but nor does he part with information lightly. “There’s time enough for you to eat and sleep. If nothing else, I need the man handling the explosives to be well-rested and alert.”

Does he need to sleep as well? Probably. Will he stave off exhaustion with coffee instead? Very likely.

Peeling off a glove, he notes the open bag and opts for bread as well. Epithet notwithstanding, his are far from the dirtiest hands in the Dregs.

“If you see anyone”---he nods to the open door---“send them to the Kooperam. I’d kill for an uitsmijter about now.”

#vcnsunshine #ic #[wahoo just found this in my drafts]

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[Ladies and gentlemen, that is me. THAT IS ME. ON LEIGH’S INSTA. AAAAHHH

So there’s a story behind this encounter...]

[There was this deal on where the first 100 people to buy sth from a particular stall would get wristbands to Leigh Bardugo’s signing in the afternoon. My sister and I got there right when the con opened but then got lost and didn’t find said stall until right when they cut the line off. Bummer. But heyo, we figured we could still go to her panel, and we did.

Meanwhile we met a ton of fun folks, including the absolute angel you see on the right in the second photo, who took pity on us and was like ‘I got you bro, I’ll smuggle you into the signing, LB has to see you’ and I was like haha sure, thinking she’d point me out and I’d be blessed with a wave or sth.

Signing came along and we’re hanging out hoping for senpai to notice us lol. Absolute Angel had her turn and I heard her going ‘there’s this amazing cosplayer---’ and I was peeking around the security to just wave hewwo and not waste anyone’s time. But nah, LB’s like AAHH COME UP HERE and digging out her phone. So yeah she took a photo, gave me a high five (Me: ”Gloves on.” Her: “Gloves on!”), and told me I have serious Kaz energy and honestly I feel like it was half the cosplay and half the fact that I hijacked her signing lmao. Serious breaking-into-the-ice-court vibes xD

tl;dr my life is complete and I owe it all to Absolute Angel, bless her cotton socks]

#bookcon2019 #kaz brekker #six of crows #soc cosplay #leigh bardugo #tw: asher's face #out of touch { ooc }

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[Okay hi I’m still here, I’ve been busy with some things, including:

I’m seeing Leigh Bardugo at a con this weekend and throwing together a Kaz cosplay for it so I will hopefully have some pictures to share next week

I finished the Grisha trilogy and I’m now substantially less excited about the Netflix adaptation bc oh no how will I watch it without putting my fist through Mal’s face]

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Honestly.. Kaz being a street magician for a little while would make so much sense 😂

[Kaz vc: and for my next trick, I will pull a Shu out of the Ice Court]

#[thanks for the follow!] #lisyh #out of touch { ooc } #ask

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@sixofcrowsnet heist: crimes breaking into the ice court

the ice court had been built to withstand an onslaught of armies, assassins, grisha, and spies. when she’d said as much to kaz, he’d simply replied,  “but it hasn’t been built to keep us out.”

#every monstrous thing { aesthetic } #kings and queues

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There is nothing  𝒷𝑒𝒶𝓊𝓉𝒾𝒻𝓊𝓁  about the way I’ve been  b r o k e n

There is no ɢʀᴀɴᴅ ᴘɪᴄᴛᴜʀᴇ to be formed from these jagged pieces 

                     A part of me was  MURDERED  in that place, 

                                     in cold and brutal blood,

                          &&  there can be no reviving it, now.

#without armour { musings } #kings and queues

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Favorite male characters: Kaz Brekker.

“There was no part of him that was not broken, that had not healed wrong, and there was no part of him that was not stronger for having been broken”

#every monstrous thing { aesthetic } #kings and queues