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starting a week long fast today, I get my second vaccine dose next wednesday so I know I’m gonna be too sick to eat then too. I’m broke af and don’t have any food in the fridge nor do I have the money to order out so hopefully this will actually stick and I’ll be able to drop some weight.

#ana #just ana things #ednos #sick #relapsed #fasting #not pro anything #i hate my fucking body #fat #losing weight #unhealthy #do not do this it is disgusting and sick and you will die from it

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every person with ed ever:

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“I can’t talk right now, I’m doing Hot Girl Shit.”

The Hot Girl Shit in question:

(This joke is overdone but I found it funny lol)

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I don’t know how to tell my boyfriend that I’ve relapsed. My boyfriend is a twig but strong as hell and I feel so fat compared to him but I worked so hard to recover so he wouldn’t have to worry about me and right now I’m just sitting here watching supersize v superskinny sobbing and he thinks I’m just depressed (I’ve been having a rough time being back at school away from friends and family and classes are rough and I’m having issues with my roommates) like usual but it’s so much worse. I don’t want him to feel like it’s his fault because it’s not, it’s just that my world feels like it’s caving in and this is the only thing I can control.

#thin #skinny #relapse #getting skinny #ana advice #relationship advice #eating disorder #anorexia #trigger warning

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WATCH THIS VIDEO

a very, VERY important post. spread everywhere and screen record the video to your phone. or message me and ill happily send you the video. give to every woman and girl you know.

bc as they both said / demonstrated, its not only super easy to do, but super easy to miss.

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Anyway,

Always keep a granola bar or something fast acting with you incase you feel light headed

Keep your water bottle full

Don't fast more than 24 hours.

Don't ever purge. If you do already, h y d r a t e

Keep warm

Eat a balanced diet

If you bind, don't do it during a fast

After a fast and binge, eat regularly for ateast a day

Don't exercise every day

Rest when you need

Take care of physical hygiene

Seek therapy

You are loved and worthy of recovery

You aren't faking it, everything will be ok

You won't gain 10lbs from one treat

Your health comes first

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your eating disorder’s severity is not determined by weight because eating disorders are not weight disorders they’re behavioral disorders thanks for coming to my ted talk

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it's the small things

elbows being too sharp to lean on your knees

knocking you elbow on your hip bone

nearly dropping your phone through the gap between your thighs

fitting through a tiny gap as the door closes

all bracelets are too big

always being the one to sit on someone else's lap

knowing you'll always be an XS

honestly just forgetting to eat

saying your weight out loud like it's nothing

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My arms are so disgusting i wish i could just cut all the fat out of them fucK

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Just a reminder:

Feeling invalid and like you’re faking your disorder is PART OF YOUR DISORDER

Wanting to starve yourself but not actually being able to do it is PART OF YOUR DISORDER

Recovery does NOT come easily

Constant binging is PART OF YOUR DISORDER

Being able to eat normally without guilt for periods of time is PART OF YOUR DISORDER

Being able to restrict easily one day and not the other is PART OF YOUR DISORDER

Please treat your minds nicely

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So ik im not very big on here but i think im lowkey on the road to recovery, i wont be deleting this account or anything bc lets face it im most likely gonna relapse when i get back to college but for rn i kinda like where im at, just get toned again and get the muscle i lost back

#thin #anorexx #getting skinny #recovery #pro recovery #just ana things #ednos #eating

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Reblog if you're fat.

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You deserve to eat

You don’t have to earn it

You don’t have to justify it

You deserve to eat

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Me watching everyone else lose weight while I stay the same