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I just want to be happy with you. D

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Which pose should I do? And what character?

-matrix

#balls #drawing #artwork #art #artists on tumblr #small artist

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Hey all! Sorry nobody has been on in a while, we've been going through some stuff and took a break to deal with some irl problems. Currently we are sick so we prob either won't or will post a lot (depends how bored I am lol) But yeah- we be back!!

-Vikky

#did alter #did system

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pls indicate whether you're bodily an adult or minor!

Not bodily drinking age but also not a minor. That's all I will say.

-Vikky

#did alter #did system

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I THOUGHT HE SAID GOOGLE AT FIRST AND IT BECAME ASTRONOMICALLY FUNNIER

Considering how kinger and queenie are opposite colors on the chessboard, I think it would be funny if they actually hated each other

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I wish I could be good enough for my mom.

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"You look Freddy fazbear *insert gorilla emoji I couldn't find*" -Aaron, 2023

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making characters for writing stories is hard how to did my head do this like share your secrets

-Matrix

#writers on tumblr #writeblr #writers and poets #writerscommunity #writing #im so tired #studyblr #school

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reblog if you want this to have a proper sample size

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TW ED & SH DISCUSSION UNDER THE CUT

This is partially a vent but also trying to start a discussion

I want to go back to being sick. I want to feel skinny and be proud when I drop yet another pound. I want to hurt myself for comfort. Since I've been medicated its made these wants worse but I never go through with them because I feel I have no control over anything I do anymore. I feel consistently like a brainless zombie just roaming around.

I wish I knew why I felt this way, ashamed of everything I am, and everything I am not. The pain of wanting the freedom to do as I choose grows every day. I cant even drink anymore because of my meds.

I just want to be sick again.

(Tags are for reach, I do not support pro4n4 or $h blogs. I do wish for their recovery when they are ready though.

- Matrix

#ed not ed sheeran #ed not sheeren #sh tumblr #im so tired #did alter #did system #i hate everything #i hate it here #i want to be weightless

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anyone have any good Amazon wall decor finds? Think grunge, emo, goth, or y2k. If y'all could be little angels and find some PLEASE dm us!! - William

#y2k aesthetic #grunge #emo #alternative #did system #did alter #christmas shopping #ughhhh #i cant find shit #this is annoying

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Alter Intros! ❤

This will be updated as people front!

TW for talks of DID under the cut, obviously lol

Matrix

Hi!! I am the host of our system. I am 14 and am agender. I identify with the term 'otherkin' due to my form in the headspace being very glitchy and disoriented. I enjoy art, and alternative style. I am normally pretty calm but can be very protective over people I care about, which has gotten me into more fights than I'd like to admit. I am normally able to identify who I am pretty quickly when a switch happens. I like shows such as Game Of Thrones and Shameless, and watch youtubers such as GrayStillPlays, brandonfarris, and jacksepticeye. I also really really like Halloween as a holiday. Like weird amounts.

I would like to add that bodily we have autism, major depressive disorder, anxiety, and have a chronic condition called 'hashimotos thyroiditis'. We are medicated for what we need to be, but will NOT disclose what meds we take or what they are for as per our own safety.

This is me! v

William

I didn't know this existed until now so here's mine. I'm a fictive of William Afton, I have memories from the game but take the form of the silver eyes graphic novel for some reason. I'm 43 years old. I enjoy creating designs for a variety of things (websites, logos, outfits, ect.) I get angry pretty easily but over time I've learnt how to not take it out on people, and calm myself down a bit. Anyways this whole thing is weird so I'm done.

This is a similar representation of me. Add more wrinkles and a tie I guess.

#did alter #alternative #alter intro #alter info #did system #actually did #dissociative identity disorder #dissociative system #actually dissociative

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-Matrix

#Spotify

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We had a short spurt of rapid switching and now I cant tell who we are and everything is hard to see and I'm in so much pain physically and mentally

I just want to know who I am

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#did system #did alter #rapid switching #i’m scared #and uncomfortable #i wanna be perfect

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-William

#william afton #bored #im so tired #im tired #sleep deprived af #istg im gonna scream #Spotify

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I hate hate HATE what the internet has done to mental health language. You don’t have intrusive thoughts about fucking McDonald’s for four hours Bethany, they’re about incest, rape, murder and all other kinds of disgusting things you don’t want. That’s why they’re called INTRUSIVE. They’re rapid and scary and horrible. You’re not “triggered” cause a moron on tiktok said something you don’t like, it’s when your PTSD recognised something that could be dangerous to you that’s similar to a traumatic event and shuts down to try and help you. It’s panic inducing and the worst feeling. Disassociation isn’t “zoning out.” For a bit in class, it’s walking around like an emotionless zombie because you can’t feel anything as a symptom of severe mental illness or trauma. Shut the fuck up!!!

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[Text: This user is a fictive of William Afton and is not their source.]

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