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"Girlfriend please"

#george harrison #b99 #the beatles #george harrison slaying and serving

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#7th one is so 2011 one direction era PLISS

beatle pics that i think look like they could've been taken in modern day

next is george, my pookie :)

i also have nearly 500 pics of him saved on pinterest 😭

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#she could be a neurosurgeon if she's doing nothing urgent

Unironically love Temporary Secretary so much

Need that song injected into my bloodstream IMMEDIATELY

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I love that this photo implies that John let some photographer crawl between his legs and snap this shot

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masturbation is evil not for any puritan anti-fun reason but because it has permanently claimed so many verbs

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#It isn't my little corner on the internet without this picture #my heart is always lighter when i see this #also it's so cute ashjdsjdsdsjd #pinterest find #self #art #gentle

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holy fuck today was terrible! I got up at 2 pm!

I first woke up at 8, forced myself back to sleep, then woke up at 10, forced myself back to sleep- this continued till 2.

Finally pulled myself out of bed, found out I'd gotten my period, decided I'd skip straight to lunch- which sucked because lunch was some leftover oily stuff from yesterday, my already upset stomach felt terrible to start the day with that kind of food. After, I finished a whole bar of chocolate even when I felt uncomfortable about half way through- yeah that feeling stuck around for a few more hours. I threw away my breakfast because I'd have to explain otherwise. I drank maybe half a glass of water the entire day.

fuck today was the worst.

#bad day #i hate it here #drained #mentally tired #my mind doesnt not give a fuck about me #why cant i do simple things like waking up and eating right?

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I look forward to the days I'm happier and not as hard on myself. I have so many impulsive anxious habits I do when I'm stressed, it makes me very tired when the day ends.

#mentally tired #tired #anxious #stress

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I did it all backwards.

I listened to "Now and Then" a couple of days after it was released because I saw the channel "The Beatles" posted it- hey isn't this that old famous band? I vaguely remember back when those "guess the logo" games were all the rage, an illustration of the abbey road album cover was shown for The Beatles on a "guess the artist" version.

I was so blown away by the song, it was beautiful. I listened to it for days. I read about john's death because a lot of the comments talked about him. I'd definitely read about his death in the past because reading the wikipedia article gave me deja vu, but it must have been just another drop in the ocean of content I consumed.

2 months passed, I listened to the song sometimes, discovering new scenes in the music video because I never actually sat down to watch it, I'd just play it in the background. I remember reading a comment about how John said that Ringo wasn't even the best drummer in the Beatles- what a dick! anyway who's Ringo? [john never said that btw, one of many false Beatles stories]

In February, somewhere between the 22nd and 26th- I had the brilliant idea of going to their yt channel and looking at their other songs. I came across the music video for "Only Sleeping", god what a great song! And after finding out about Em's painstaking work- what an incredible piece of art! I'd listen to the song for days, this time with my eyes glued to the music video in mesmerization.

Then it's all a blur. I first listened to all their popular songs on the channel, then the less popular ones [relatively obviously], then each album, each song, each interview, suddenly my pinterest was flooded with their pictures, I fell in love with each of them: John, Paul, George and Ringo. I was fascinated with John and Paul's dynamic. I was fascinated with the group. I suddenly sympathized with all the One Direction and BTS fans. I'd never felt this way for an artist before.

The funny thing is, the Beatles being so big meant that their music probably reached your ears before you even knew them. I remember recognizing "Blackbird" from "Boss Baby" and "Beautiful Boy" [john solo] from "Mr. Peabody and Sherman". I remember singing "and I will sing a lullaby" in the same tune as "Golden Slumbers" when I was younger.

I remember hearing "Yesterday" for the first time, my lips parted in recognition, some part of my brain recognized this as a famous song. It was like if someone played you an extremely famous classical piece, you wouldn't know know it but you'd recognize that it was famous. I was absolutely floored by Paul's work.

Then I'd re-read about john's death, this time it felt so different. I'd almost forgotten about it all really. I'd watch the get back documentary, I'd read more about events from 1970 to 1980, I'd get into their solo work, I'd fall in love with even more music, I'd read about their families. I'd learn to adore them but not put them on a pedestal because they were imperfect human beings [perfect musicians however].

Now john and george's death hit twice as hard. John's death angered me tremendously. I'd look at paul and ringo's recent interviews and pictures, finding it crazy how all this media I'd consumed at lightning speed all happened decades before I was even born. I'd learnt of 4 people, grew infatuated with them, learnt of their flaws, the fights, the breakup, the love, the friendship, the music and mourned their death- all in weeks. And I still have so much to listen, watch and read-it's brilliant really.

I remember listening to "Now and Then" much later, I'd avoided the song like the plague. I remember my eyes welling up, taking in john's voice, the lyrics, the four of them on my screen jumping ages. Just a couple of weeks changed the entire meaning and love I had for a song I just happened to stumble upon.

#the beatles #beatlemania #ringo starr #paul mccartney #george harrison #john lennon #music #fan #fanatic #my beatles journey #now and then #fandom

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actually I'm so grateful the beatles are loved and adored with such fierce intensity because there is no other way their music would have made it to my generation.

yeah it's not unique to like the beatles but at least they're releasing documentaries fifty years later, remixing albums, there's tribute bands, radios play them, I can find their movies online for free, I can find beatles merch in my local shops and there's active and thriving fan groups across social media platforms!

I wonder about all those incredible films and music that didn't make it to my generation simply because enough people weren't crazy about it. So from today onwards

SHOUT FROM THE ROOFTOPS ABOUT EVERY OBSCURE ARTIST OR FILM OR ART YOU LOVE LET THERE BE NO MORE GATEKEEPING!

#the beatles #help! #fandom #freezing beatles #help! movie #fans #film #art #music #gatekeeping #anti gatekeeping

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no because this is exactly how i feel when i listen to music

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For those who didn't try their best.

The world is always incredibly kind to those who try, every "chin up!" message would effectively leave me out with the words, "hey, you tried your best." I'd beat myself up about it and bully myself with such vitriol, knowing nobody had any sympathy or love for people like me.

I haven't learnt how to speak kindly to myself yet but;

To everyone who didn't try their best: know that you are still deserving of all the wonderful things in the world, you can still hold yourself accountable and show yourself love at the same time. Don't let regret swallow you whole.

Take joy in the fact that your best exists somewhere in that beautiful mind of yours.

#motivation #yourbest #best #self expectations #self love #self hate #words of love #words from a friend #love #regrets #study #study motivation #self care #self motivation #college #university #school #depression #depressed

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“If I had known John was going to die, I would have made a lot more effort to try and get a better relationship with him. But when he started slagging me off I was not prepared to say ‘Well, you’re quite right’, because I’m human. My big regret was that I could have told John to listen and put my arms round him.”

— Paul McCartney, Titbits Magazine, November 1983 (via amclennonblog)

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hit me hard and soft

[picture for each song on the tracklist]

#billie eilish #hit me hard and soft #album #visuals #mood board

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paul mcartney.

#the beatles #paul mccartney #beatles #picture #pretty boy

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I went to bed after breakfast and woke up for lunch, slept again but then decided I should do something. I took out a loomband kit that has sat untouched in my cupboard ever since the trend died. I arranged everything by colour, decided on a yt tutorial to make a sheep- struggled for half an hour and then gave up when the whole kit fell, undoing all my organizing.

Maybe one day I'll make the sheep, but it's not today.

#loomband #sheep #tryingnottobedepressed

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To avoid crying and sleeping in my bed till my parents come home, I finished my harry potter advent lego set that I got for christmas. It was nice to do something, but that lump in my throat is back again.

sigh.

#tryingnottobedepressed