#:) my nick

[littlerunonsentences]

Mmm, I don't wanna shut you out I don't wanna rush around or slow down This time, I wanna stay right here I wanna make it crystal clear That I won't give in to the fear "Crystal Clear" Verse 1

In 2020 when Hayley Williams released "Petals for Armor" I was not in the headspace to listen, and appreciate the album. I was broken-hearted, had canceled my wedding three months prior. I was not in a place to acknowledge my emotions. I wanted to have no emotions. At that time, the only song from the album I listened to was "Simmer."

Until recently.

On June 10, 2023 I attended Paramore's concert in Columbus, OH. Hayley Williams beautifully performed "Crystal Clear." Later that week I decided to listen to it again, and really hear the lyrics of the song.

I cried, and I cried. And I listened again, and again.

This was a song that so closely described the emotions, and feelings that I have experienced surrounding reconnecting, and now dating my boyfriend, Nick.

At the beginning of Nick and I's relationship, my therapist spoke with me about treating people like you intend for them to stay. This is something for the last year and a half that I have worked towards. You want people to stay, so you treat them like they will.

The opening lyrics echoed this for me.

The second verse of the song creates a strong emotion of grief, and relief for me.

Paramore has a song from their 2017 album, After Laughter, titled "Pool." Which is an album, and specifically a song that carried me through the hardest times of my past relationship. The lyrics describe drowning in a relationship, and choosing to give the relationship a second chance for the sake of not giving up.

For me, the second verse of "Crystal Clear" connects to "Pool"

In "Pool" they melodically sing,

I'm underwater No air in my lungs My eyes are open I'm done giving up You are the wave I could never tame If I survive I'll dive back in "Pool" Chorus

In "Crystal Clear" Hayley Williams references diving head first into a relationship, only to be met with disappointment. And then, a friend finds her (turned to lover), and revives her. She no longer feels like she is drowning. In fact, the farther and farther deep she goes, she discovers the water is crystal clear.

This was Nick to me, and continues to be.

Diving into a relationship, and trying, and trying to make it work because you don't like giving up is a very lonely pavement to smack into. You feel like you can't breathe. You feel like you're drowning.

Nick saw that I was drowning, and brought me to life again. Like Taylor did for Hayley. (Perceived, of course).

I remember standing on the edge Closing my eyes Counting to three, I Jump in with the rush in my head Only to find, the water was concrete And now you're pumpin' air to my lungs This don't feel anything like sinking In fact, no matter how deep I go Into you it looks like the water is crystal clear "Crystal Clear" Verse 2

This song is so deeply personal to me. It is the development of my life, in words that I could have never so beautifully crafted to describe the experience.

#Simmer #Paramore #Hayley Williams #Crystal Clear #petals for armor #Pool #After Laughter #Spotify #My Nick

[charon-cries]

artists, this is ur reminder to start drawing references or redesign your original characters before artfight in july this year

edit: if you dont know what artfight is, here's the link to the info page:

#i'm doing my yearly nick & deo redesign #honestly it's legally required at this point #artfight #original character #ocs #artists on tumblr #echolocating

[hellboys]

Nick Offerman Answers the Web's Most Searched Questions –WIRED, 2020

#nick offerman #nickoffermanedit #wired #youtubeedit #mancandykings #menedit #mensource #dilfedit #tlou cast #userives #userlolo #my gifs

[castielsprostate]

having talented friends is so wild!!!!!! like. YOU!!!!!!!!!! YOU made THAT. YOU DID THAT?!?!?!?! YOU created!!!! THAT!!!!!!!!!!! WOAH!!!!!! praise!!!!!!!! praise for one thousand years!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#sjonnie.text #this is about any skill by the way #writing art music crochet knitting editing #literally so so so so wild #yes this is about isaac and cody and taylor and nick and joey and dean and rain and mer and greg and jo and amanda and pie and zeph and jes #and daphne and jack and merv and angie and #sam and dex and jenna and tj and nahla and jenny and val and em and literally every single other one of my mutuals!!!!!!!! GAH!!!!! #you all are so talented it's SO cool #40k

[milfzatannaz]

a beautiful Klimt-inspired Stevie Nicks commission for my forever fav client @gayiconjamesflint 🌻🌻

#stevie nicks #art #artists on tumblr #illustration #my artwork

[tizzymcwizzy]

VALENTINES DAY SKETCH FOR YOU HAPPY VALENTINES DAAAAYYYY!!!!!!!!

#its 10 minutes away from being not valetines day anymore for me JDBDHDHJFG #JUST IN THE NICK OF TIME #miraculous ladybug #my art #adrien agreste #marinette dupain cheng #adrinette #ml #mlb #miraculous #kiss #valentines day #i had a lolipop taped to a muppets card today #it was good

[sheldon-oswald-lee]

Jenny Jenny Jenny Jenny by @catfatigue on Twitter!

#my life as a teenage robot #mlaatr #jenny wakeman #nicktoons #nickelodeon #xj9 #jenny xj9 #nick #digital art #x j9 #nick toons

[maxbegone]

no context spoiler for the last of us episode 3

#the last of us #tlou #tlou hbo #tlou hbo spoilers #tlouedit #tlouhboedit #nick offerman #nickoffermanedit #* #my edit

[livelovecaliforniadreams]

Nick + Being The Best Boyfriend To Charlie (Season 2)

#heartstopper #the best boyfriend #nick x charlie #charlie x nick #nick nelson #charlie spring #kit connor #joe locke #my heart #gif #gifs #gifset #narlie

[doctorsiren]

the reason Edgeworth takes off his glasses during the trial in AA5 is because he can’t focus on court if he’s distracted by seeing Phoenix Wright clearly

#doctorsiren #ace attorney #phoenix wright #miles edgeworth #narumitsu #wrightworth #beanix #7yg #ace attorney fanart #comic #art #digital art #my art #fanart #procreate #I’m cackling bc the way Nick is blurred in the second page makes it seem like Edgeworth’s vision was ABYSMAL before glasses #it’s why he squints so much

[thatgirlmegan]

mood lately

#new girl #i’m doing my best #nick miller

[littlerunonsentences]

Favorite lyrics, because they make me think of Nick.

I get undertones of sadness When I think about the moments That I never got to spend with you

'cause I Always see my youth in you

That love is just a currency So take my pockets, take me home Take my life, and take my soul Wrap me in a wedding ring You know I swear I'd give you anything

#halsey #spotify #hotelhalsey #ya'aburnee #if i can't have love i want power #iichliwp #my nick #journaling #Spotify

[wasahothouseflower]

The future’s bright, dazzling

#tswiftedit #tsedit #tscreators #taylor swift #ttpd #the tortured poets department #clara bow #stevie nicks #sabrina carpenter #tsuserlea #usercassidy #usercallie #tuserella #userpenny #userluhra #addys-beth #userlolo #usercloud #tsuservio #userasterion #usercate #userleah #userjoeys #userkarolina #my creations

[artsideblogofsorts]

something i made a while ago, uploading bc fallout is back in town. dont mind the main blog signature 🥴

#fallout #fallout 4 #nick valentine #fo4 companions #fo4 #my art

[kyrbs]

that one shot with the umbrellas ⛱️

#art #fanart #heartstopper #heartstopper fanart #nick and charlie #charlie spring #nick nelson #illustration #sketch #drawing #my art

[ithinkdogshouldvote]

POV: you are Willy Stampler

#prediction right before the finale #this will happen i am manifesting #you guys ever notice that Taylor is just Eric cartman if he watched anime and learned empathy? #dndads #dndads s2 #dungeons & daddies #dungeons and daddies #nicholas foster #nick close #taylor swift #close family #dndaddies #digital art #digital drawing #my artwork #fanart #fan art #dndads fanart #shitpost #nicky swift #nicky foster #nicky close #fuck you Nick and your 4 million names