#I just fucking can't

[keiraspades]

as someone who very much enjoys BROADWAY Heathers the Musical, I physically cannot listen to West End.

I cant

the voices are just- WRONG

and it kills mw inside every single time I hear it bc why does JD sound so OLD he’s a senior HIGHSCHOOLER not College student and Veronica sounds like she’s in Jr. High and omfg don’t get me started on the Heather’s voices-

On another note, I am on a roadtrip and my lovely mother knows I like Heathers the Musical, so she added it to the playlist.

She added west end.

#heathers #heathers musical #west end #broadway #i just fucking can't #no

[daydreamerwonderkid]

Finally tried to give House M.D. a try since I have friends and mutuals who won't stop talking about it

Had to stop after 2 episodes, this show was made during a TIME 😫

#dreamer talks #idk man #it's the relentless sexism that's getting to me #any house girlies got a skip episode list for me? #i just fucking can't #it's too much my guy #do i just skip all of S1? does the writing get better? #somebody save me

[letmeliedown]

in retrospect... when i started panicking because this guy was making an ultimatum that he wouldn't make plans with me again if i didn't let him come over last night, that was the moment i should have told him to go fuck himself. the despo meter was way too high on both sides! like yes i'm sure it doesn't feel like making an ultimatum when you're crying and saying "well just forget it then, i don't think we can be friends irl, i just feel so shitty now" but like... i'm putting "suburban twentysomethings who still live with their rich abusive parents" on my list of surefire sources of emotional and bodily harm. every time!

#dude would have felt shitty either way. i feel infinitely worse now though #glad i speedran this one before we got common law married #i just fucking can't

[rahullkohli]

i might have to make a donation post to be able to pay these last things for my dad moving into the elder care home and i am so sick about it we still haven't heard back about the deposit loan we applied for and everyone we talked to just told us to move him in so he wouldn't lose his spot cause if we had waited they would have given his room to the next on the waitlist which stressed me out i am not someone to just do things when everything isn't in order but now we have to pay for both deposit and half a month's rent which comes to over 30k danish kroner and we haven't heard back about the loan and i am still dealing with his old apartment as well and having to deal with a debt claim from the court that he got but has no recollection of and i feel like i am getting buried in messes that i didn't create but if i don't handle it no one else will and i am so so so terrified that if we can't pay this they will kick him out of his new home and he will be back on my couch for the rest of his life i am psychologically melting

#i don't wanna do this anymore #i just fucking can't #i hate the thought of having to ask strangers for money #but at this point i don't know what else to do #i have done everything right and i am still not doing enough

[mieczyhale]

thank you @ alice oseman for including the "explanations for american readers" at the end of the nick & charlie novella. truly a god-send bc it covers a few things / phrases i've been lost on and haven't found a simple answer for anywhere else

like no, i didn't need to know these school terms to understand or enjoy heartstopper, but i wanted to know and understand them and now i do

little joys

#listened to the audiobook #it took a bit to get used to the voices #i'm so used to joe & kit #i still prefer joe & kit and their voices but these guys weren't bad. just different #loved it btw #v glad i spent the money to buy it #yeah i have a physical copy of the book but with my reading struggles and my ocd being as bad as it has been lately i really just did not #feel up to fighting that fight today #spend a day or more trying to read a book that took me two hours to listen to?? i feel like i gave up by doing it this way this time but #i just fucking can't #i cannot deal with that #i cannot deal with the mental battle every goddamn time i want to read something #its bad enough i have to fight through it to read fics or just posts on my dash or shit for work or literally everything everywhere #im taking the mental break where i can get it i guess #anyway #check it out if you haven't #the nick & charlie novella #i really enjoyed it #except for the fucking ******* part #i knew it was coming bc i'd seen stuff about it in fics and on here too in brief mentions but it still made me sad #i'm glad it didn't last long #maison speaks #myhsposts #alice oseman

[officerjennie]

.

#Saw someone already calling Jaskier’s bi rep homophobic #And I really hope they're fucking joking because #IT’S NOT EVEN OUT UET #JFC #can't fucking tell with this fandom because people shit on twn for everything #Like someone bitching because Yen doesn't dress like she's in LOTR specifically #I just fucking can't #Gonna go drown myself in old man Joel

[heretherebedork]

Prapai: I took care of you when you were sick because Rain answered your phone and invited me and you couldn't argue so now you owe me everything, absolutely everything, and nothing you say will ever matter... not that it ever did considering how far I was willing to go before. So now everything I do is great and totally darling and you owe me everything. Prepare to never have another boundary as long as you live because money will buy me everything and your trauma makes it easy for me to manipulate you.

#no tags here #i just can't #i just fucking can't #Thursday spoilers

[spyglassrealms]

had a fucking hilarious dream that tumblr replaced the "block" function with the far funnier "glock" function, which did the exact same thing except whenever anyone blocked you a random bullet hole, like a png of a bullet hole, would appear on your blog. discourse blogs were unreadable bc you'd go to the page and the sheer amount of bullet hole pngs stacked over the blogs obscured everything. I woke myself up laughing

#normally I don't chronicle my dreams here but fucking hell that one was funny #I think this would genuinely make tumblr better tbh #@ staff do this cowards #spy has thoughts #my life is a sitcom and i am my own laugh track #functional website #spy's smash hits #Glock function #edit for everyone in the notes saying 'everyone clapped' #I know I can't prove to you that it happened for real you're just gonna have to trust me on this #but I swear on my goddamn life I'm not making this up #I make so many conscious puns that sometimes my subconscious cooks up a real good one

[castielsprostate]

i hate you "influencers", i hate you tiktok, i hate you "content creators", i hate you "unalive" and "s€x" and "dr/ügs", i hate you instagram, i hate you consumerism, i hate you family friendly, i hate you puritans, i hate you facebook, i hate you family vloggers, i hate you violating other people's privacy, i hate you modern day social media

#sjonnie.text #i just saw someone make a 50 SECONDS reel about combining movie genres and movies and it was scream and romance and it was 50 SECONDS and #they said “i'm sorry i unalived all those people” go actually fuck yourself. #IF YOU CAN'T SAY THE WORD MURDER KILL DRUGS SEX ETC YOU ARE NOT READY TO HAVE A CONVERSATION ABOUT THOSE TOPICS #AND SHOULD NOT PRODUCE CONTENT OF IT #i hate this “family friendly” aesthetic jesus fucking christ #text post #anti instagram #anti tiktok #anti influencers #anti capitalism #20k

[inkskinned]

you're in the habit of denying yourself things.

if someone asked you directly, you would say that you love a little treat. you like iced coffee and getting the cookie. you drink juice out of a fancy cup sometimes, and often do use your candles until they gutter out helplessly.

but you hesitate about buying the 20 dollar hand mixer because, like. you could just use your arms. you weren't raised rich. you don't get to just spend the 20 dollars (remember when that could cover lunch?), at least - you don't spend that without agonizing over it first, trying to figure out the cost-benefits like you are defending yourself in front of a jury. yes, this rice cooker could seriously help you. but you do know how to make stovetop rice and it really isn't that hard. how many pies or brownies would you actually make, in order to make that hand mixer worthwhile?

what's wild is that if the money was for a friend, it would already be spent. you'd fork over 40 without blinking an eye, just to make them happy. the difference is that it's for you, so you need to justify it.

and it sneaks in. you ration yourself without meaning to - you don't finish the pint of ice cream, even though you want to. the next time you go to the store, you say ah, i really shouldn't, and then you walk away. you save little bits of your precious things - just in case. sometimes you even go so far as putting that one thing in your shopping cart. and then just leaving it there, because maybe-one-day, but not right now, there's other stuff going on.

you do self-care, of course. but you don't do it more than like, 3 days in a row. after that it just feels a little bit over-the-edge. like. you can't live in decadence, the economy is so bad right now, kid.

so you don't buy the rice cooker. you can-and-will spend the time over the stove. you can withstand the little sorrows. denial and discipline are practically synonyms. and you're not spoiled.

it's just - it's not always a rice cooker. sometimes it is a person or a job or a hug. sometimes it is asking for help. sometimes it is the summer and your college degree. sometimes it is looking down at scabbed knees and feeling a strange kind of falling, like you can't even recognize the girl you used to be. sometimes it is your handprint looking unsteady.

sometimes it is tuesday, and you didn't get fired, and you want to celebrate. but what is it you like, even? you search around your little heart and come up empty. you're so used to denying that all your desires draw a blank.

oh fuck. see, this is the perfect opportunity. if you had a mixer, you'd make a cake.

#warm up #this isn't good #writeblr #this is complicated by the fact i can't stand up too long or i fuckken pass out and <3 hit my damn head <3 #but i did take a deep breath and buy myself the stupid rice cooker #and!!! a very cheap sushi kit!!! i have been wanting to try making sushi for literally YEARS #the kit was only like 15 dollars!!!! and i haven't purchased it bc?!!??!?!?!?!!? #..... i didn't get the mixer tho that felt. like a lot. like too much. #on my list is a kitchenaid. one day when i get a check and i have paid off my student debt #and medical debt #i will put that first little bit of cash #into a kitchenaid 5qt stand mixer (with attachments) #i really do just go into their refurbished section and stare lustily at each option #but yeah i feel guilty about the rice cooker even tho i know for a fact this damn thing is gonna be a lifesaver #oh shit also fuck i forgot to mention . poached eggs

[castletemprwine]

i'd devour you whole if you'd let me 🩸🫀

hand knit and crocheted, words by me

#knitting #crochet #my art #fiber art #fiber artist #honestly i could've tried a bit harder to block it so the edges don't curl and i wouldn't have needed the extra thumbtacks #but i just can't be fucked #so it will remain as it is messy and unperfect like the body and its desire

[helpimstuckinafandom]

Oh Noah Schnapp is trending wonder what's going-

....

Fuck you Noah Schnapp

#i can't believe this is the world we live in sometimes #i just fucking can't #fuck you dude #what the actual hell #there's no excuse - not age not nothing

[jestroer]

Guys, there are. Two shadow people on the new banner

#in posts ive seen of it they weren't there??? #did they just change it again or wgat is hgappening #if it IS the new members #frickibg 2!!! holy shit lads #hermitcraft #shitpost #i can't even begin to comprehend who TWO whole people could be. like. i was expecting maybe one. like holy fuck yk

[goth-pastoralist]

i really hate my life. so, much. 

#i'm fucking trapped #i cant envision a future where i have anything i want other than the most basic requirements like food and shelter #and even that is more and more doubtful with the way everything is heading in this shithole country #being poor is fucking awful #my life is just a pile of shit growing more and more rancid every day #everything i have worked for has been worthless #i hate that i was ever born #i can't fucking do this if things don't get better by the time i'm 30 #i just fucking can't

[chubs-deuce]

Alastor may dislike new age tech but that doesn't mean he doesn't have his sources lol

#hazbin hotel #alastor #velvette #hazbin hotel velvette #hazbin hotel alastor #digital fanart #digital art #fanart #art #my art #I just like the idea of Velvette keeping him in the loop with online drama and new age lingo #you can hardly manipulate people effectively if you can't fucking understand half of their slang after all #Velvette likes that he can keep up with her wit and is just as much of a judgy gossip as she is - Alastor finds her brash attitude amusing #he also has sources she doesn't so it's always nice to exchange information every once in a while over some tea/coffee #plus it's funny to hang out with your roommie's main source of hateboners bc he's actually pretty chill

[no-face-no-shame]

wow people really have 0 fucking manners. I was about to start cooking because I'm leaving for holiday tomorrow and I need to pre-prepare some food, but then a chick from another room came into the kitchen and just fucking took the stove. I literally asked her if she's going to cook because I AM and I came here first. She looked at me like a cow, said "yes" and fucking took all the space as if I didn't just say I need to cook. animal behaviour. and those are the same mfs who later will complain about someone else being rude to them. sometimes I think that I should just start behaving the same way (I know it would make things worse but at least I wouldn't get my ass beat all the time)

#vent #i just fucking can't #i'm the only one caring about the hygiene in this house #last week i was too busy to take out the rubbish and of course no one else did that so now everything's rotting :))))) #and no the problem aren't boomers as the internet loves to frame every single issue #those are people my age #faceless