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studying-with-adult-adhd · 4 years

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My Journey I Suppose

So, I’ve been promising this post for awhile and since today is National Suicide Awareness Day here in the great white north, I figured I’d go through it. Plus, I’m procrastinating.

For it to kind of make sense, I guess I should give you some backstory. I grew up in a little village of around 800 people. Everyone knew everyone and it was an alright place (until I grew up and ya know, noticed things). I was part of a middle class family, having one older sibling and a cat. My dad spent a lot of time at work and then when he would come home, he’d be on his computer either working on stuff for football (american football) or playing his game. He never really left the house unless it was for something special. My mom worked most of the time too, she is still going. I had one real friend, which we’re still best friends today. Our moms knew each other and whatnot.

So in this village, I was unhappy. I was bullied a lot and many of the teachers hated me simply because of my brother. I was tripped constantly and belittled. I was sad and just all around not happy. I’ve also seen a lot of death in my 21 (almost 22) years of life. My grandpa died a few weeks before my 11th birthday, and my grandma had been diagnosed with ALS a few years before that.

In February of 2010, my parents announced they were getting divorced. I was actually happy about it, since I knew I’d be going with my mom, I could start over. I could get out of the village I hated so much. We moved in with my grandparents in a big town. I ended up going to school and finishing my Grade 6 year there. During this time however, I was sexually harassed by a few older kids. My mom also ended up dating her old high school sweetheart (they just got married last month actually).

During that summer, we moved to the big city. I was going to start my Grade 7 year there. It went alright. My aunt passed, and we had gotten a kitten who’s kidney’s failed and we had to put her down but other than that, the year went alright. I made a wonderful group of friends that the teachers had deemed “The Original 5″ and life was going pretty good.

That summer though, things kinda took a turn.

As we were driving back from an appointment, we witnessed a person jump from an overpass and land on the road infront of us. We were the first on scene. My stepdad called 911 and my mom went over to the person to try and assure them that help was on it’s way. Turns out, that person was from the nearby hospital and had escaped. I have no idea what happened to them. This incident messed with my head. I wasn’t sure how to process it. I didn’t get help for it.

After that incident, my stepdad and I had a massive falling out. I didn’t treat him well, and he held grudges so things never got better. I started Grade 8 and made some of the best friends a girl could ever have. Funny enough, I’m friends with them simply because I had a massive crush on one of them. We’re still friends today, they’re like my brothers now. I started struggling with depression here a bit I think. Just felt alone and I was becoming somebody I didn’t really want to be.

Grade 9 came and I had my first boyfriend. He was abusive as hell. I was with him for about a year or so.

Grade 10. Ah grade 10. I finally broke up with my boyfriend. Met a new one a few months later. He raped me. I started skipping school, drinking, smoking all sorts of things, it wasn’t a good situation. I also started doing some things online with strangers. This led to some... indecent pictures of me being spread online. I no longer had internet access due to this, and I didn’t until I moved out. I was struggling hard at this point. My depression had gotten so bad that I was a shell of a human being. I didn’t want to live anymore. I wanted nothing to do with life. I would sleep all day, I wouldn’t clean, I let everything go. I wanted to die.

Grade 11. I tried to start the school year off better. It didn’t go well. I had no support or encouragement. I had no one in my corner. I had my suicide note ready to go, i had my plan. At some point, I was put on suicide watch at the school. I ended up dropping out once I turned 16. My mom and I both thought it was what was best for me at the time, and I don’t regret it. That assistant principal was a joke though.

I’m going to make a separate post about the rest of this story. This was really just some of the backstory to help you guys understand a little more. Honestly, I hope that you guys read this an understand you’re not alone.

#tw: depression #tw: suidice #tw: death #TW: animal death #tw:rape #tw: rape #trigger warning #may be triggering

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gottaenjoythelittlethingzz · 5 years

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@mastery-in-procrastination, who is busy doing some awesome things for the community, was kind enough to send me this ask: “How long have you been working on "The Reaper's Only Daughter"?” Tumblr ate the ask, but I was able to save my answer! I may have gone a little over broad in my explanation. Thanks for the question, now sit back and experience the journey.

Ah yes. My origin story. I remember it like it was yesterday. Allow me to take you back, to before the beginning...

2018! For me it was the year of television (as ‘17 had been the year of the movie). I vividly remember searching for shows on IMDB to compile a sort of list in January. Some well-known, some old hat, but two in particular stuck out to me. Two my mother specifically enjoyed and had for many years. Sons of Anarchy and Shameless. I was finally at the age to where I could start enjoying these shows and so they were added to my list to be watched later. I remember reading the description of SOA and looking through pictures of tough guys on motorcycles. I knew I had to watch it!

Fast forward to May 15th. I was nearing the end of my high school/senior year. I believe I had taken all of my finals at this time and just had a few meaningless things left to turn in for one or two classes. I had just finished The Punisher (thank the godz) and was ready to start the next series. It was again between SOA and Shameless and I have never made a better or more damaging decision in my entire life than when I hit play on the pilot episode of SOA at 7 am as I was getting ready for school that Tuesday morning. Mind you, my school was a dead zone as far as internet goes, but the media godz were shinning down on me that week. I chased the signal every single day.

For the next 6 days, it was all I thought about, all I watched, all I wanted to talk about! I watched 92 episodes, roughly 70 hours of content in 6 days. Though my mother has seen it many times (as it is also her favorite series with her favorite actor(s) in it) I retold her the stories (nearly every episode, or several at a time) as I watched them. She was the first person to see me “live react” to a show in text or otherwise. She enjoyed it because she hasn’t had anyone to talk to about the show in what is now nearly 5 years and she liked hearing my takes on things.

I stopped talking to friends, I stopped eating (not really so extreme, but I mean...), and on the last 3 nights I hardly slept. I watched it absolutely everywhere! That Friday I skipped school. I reasoned I wasn’t doing work anyway and it wasn’t going to hold me back. If my memory serves me correctly, I watched the finale of S3 through S4 and maybe a little more on either side (but for certain these 14 episodes, technically my favorite in the series) in one straight sitting. In truth, nothing was going to be able to hold me back from this show. I was hard pressed to leave my room, much less my house which made work Saturday difficult. I told my coworkers I was watching it as I jumped up and down waiting to go home (business was slow you see) and I actually left early. I have a bad habit of watching things while driving (don’t do it kids! Listen to your mother!) and actually watched an episode on the way home.

I ended up pulling an all-nighter on Saturday trying to finish it as I had more plans Sunday. Well, it didn’t work. I fell asleep around 4 am with 4 or 5 episodes to go. I watched a few episodes to and from where I was going in the car, but on Sunday night May 20th, 2018, I watched the final two episodes of the series back to back and a weight had been lifted off my shoulders (it also left a hole in my heart, quite literally). I was no longer susceptible to spoilers and I knew the “secret”. What’s more, I completely, 100% agreed with the creator’s decision as to how and when he ended the show.

SOA was the first show that ever captivated my attention in such a way. I was never bored, not for a minute. I wouldn’t call many of the episodes fillers even now that I’ve watched each a couple of times (too many to count, for research purposes, I assure you.) And it is one of the most consistent as far as new ideas and character development/design I have ever seen. What's more is I absolutely adore the main cast and characters alike. It honestly took over my life and has changed it for the better. So much so, that it was still all I thought about for several weeks after I finished it. To the point where I had to watch it again top to bottom, though it took me about 2 weeks while sleeping that time. I’ve never watched a show like that, before or since, no matter how much I like a series.

Alas, life goes on, there were more shows to watch, and for the next month or so I turned to watching Shameless (another story entirely) and, though I didn’t want to, I stopped thinking about SOA for a time. That was, until I started thinking about moving to college. My mother had an SOA poster that use to be in her office that she gave to me to put in my apartment. I wake up every morning to see it hanging over my bed and I am reminded that I should be writing TROD. I went down to my college apartment about a week before term started. It was the first time I was technically on my own, though I have roommates, and you will never guess what I did during that week. Go ahead, guess. I did 2 things, actually.

I rewatched SOA, though this time I stopped on series 5 (and if you’ve seen it you may know why) and I “broke down” and created a Writeblr. I’ve always loved to write and actually was in the process of shelving what was originally meant to be my first novel length WIP (on the grounds that it did not have a plot to hold the characters together) that now hasn’t been updated in 6+ months. During this third rewatch an idea came to me. “What would it be like to be in this world?” More specifically, “What would it be like to be a woman in this world”?

This was apparently the right question to ask. The rest is history, swirling into a big black and crow feathered blur. I spent a few months creating Schuyler. I slowly stopped talking about the shelved WIP online and started answering questions for her instead. I figured if I was going to shelve 1 project I had better have another to replace it with, and so TROD was born! I nearly immediately had a character personality and a title when I started. The name Schuyler and her family lineage to link her to the canon story took more time. But while I was thinking of all the technical stuff I was also imagining all the fun scenes that would take place in this imaginary novel I was picturing.

I spent so much time thinking about it, specifically the first chapter which you have seen is now available to read on this blog, that the first time I sat down to write I wrote out 5,000 words flat. Many remained in what is currently “the final draft”. This had never happened to me before and I was inspired! I have been working on it ever since. As far as physically writing for it I have only been writing TROD for about 4 months. But in actuality, TROD has been a project a long time in the making. Nearly 9 months of thought and devotion to a Fandom nearly gone, but I’m here now to carry the torch!

9 months in and I have 6 moodboards, a chapter, and far too many tag games/posts to count. I have roughly 30k words written (continuously, obsessively tweaking the first 3 chapters) and another 2k or so of notes (outlines, dialogue lines, and ideas for scenes). This is actually the first story where I’m consulting a sort of outline (my own that I’m always adding to, but also the canon story) and it’s been my best writing experience to date!

This project is going to be long. Longer than anything I’ve ever dreamed of taking on before. I still have much to explore, plot kinks to work through, and many months, if not years, of work to go. But w/o SOA I would have never become so involved in media (as now I want to make it my career), met some of my favorite actors, created my Writeblr or been inspired to continue writing, and I certainly never would have entered into this inclusive community or met so many awesome writers!

*Whew. That was a lot. But SOA and my WIP TROD means a lot to me as you can see. Thanks so much for the ask. Feel free to stop by anytime!

I’m also going to tag @themildestofwriters as I know you may be thinking about diving into this series yourself and I want to both warn you and wish you well if you choose to do so!

And @aspire2bu, as I believe I saw you post recently about how you first got into K-pop in the first place and I found it interesting. Hopefully you’ll find this interesting too!

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vacationcalendar · 3 years

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7/21/21

Oh hey! I’m back ;D

So I didn’t come back after dentist appointment, obviously. BUT, it wasn’t nearly as bad as I was imagining. I mean, it was bad, and it easily wiped out 10% of my net worth in an afternoon. Oops. You know, for someone who puts a lot of effort into living life with zero regrets, I certainly think I would have brushed my teeth a TAD more diligently as a child if I had known my poor smile would have made me unhappy every single day of my adult life while costing me constant pain, grief, and a couple month’s wages every now and again.

Can I be honest for a second? Give you hot take real quick? Hmm, ok, never mind. I was going to type out a spicy one, but while I was trying to find the words, I talked myself out of it. I was gonna say something around the area of “I had it rough as a kid; a took a couple licks from my old man, and I turned out fine” schtick. I feel like that notion gets dismissed too quickly. People hear that and go, “Ah, you just THINK you turned out fine. What you’re not factoring in is that you're a bigoted asshole.” But I think that dismisses it too quickly. I think if we deconstructed the situation a bit, me might be inclined to agree with some of those people. It wasn’t like a progressive, tolerant, patient, honest parenting couple was the one that gave their kid “something to cry about,” and then he turned into this raw, conservative a-hole. His parents were already raw, conservative a-holes. And then they didn’t do nearly enough to make sure that their child didn’t have a rough go of it while in their formative years. But their child was fine. In fact, he still grew up respecting their parents’ choices and decisions that raised him up. He in a very real sense did “turn out just fine.” The main problem was that he respects and trusts his parent’s judgment while his parent’s happen to completely out of touch with modern decency. Hey, did I start this paragraph out saying that I wouldn’t dispense a hot take, but then I went ahead and did it anyway? Hmm.. Well maybe my initial hot take was a little more unhinged, and you’re just reading the walked-back mild-sauce version of my take. But at this point I don’t even know myself what the original take was, so, shrug emoji.

EDITOR’S NOTE: Fuck this is so hard! I took a 2 hour break after that first chunk. I did some useful things (dishes, laundry) and some less useful things (youtube, a banger game of League). So now I just want to hit 1k more in my word count and get the fuck out of here before I crawl in a hole of procrastination so deep I die of the black lung. The hole of procrastination contains a lot of coal I guess. Does that make sense? Not really, but this all counts towards the 1k baby!!!! Here. We. A-go.

Ok, so. Let’s try this; let’s lay out everything that we can say we know for sure we want to happen in this next week. And don’t skip anything! Let’s try to get it all on here and see what it looks like:

Finish my laundry. Dryer cycle, fold and put away On that note- pack for the trip. We need Bathing suit (2! why not?!), undies, shorties, my comfy 90$ pants, shirts for moving, shirts for sitting, sockos, sandals go in the bag and tennies go on feet, hat??, yeah one hat, you never know, sunnies (2 pairs, that way I can kinda just leave lying around and see them more often, cuz when I see’s my sunnies, I wears ‘em. And that’s the kind of life that I’m trying to live baby, anything else? I’m looking at my clothes right now. Hmmm.... One hoodie just to be safe. I also have to pack non-clothing. Phone + charger, Ipad + charger, Fitbit CHARGED ahead of time (I just plugged it in, nice. This is why we make this list like this). I’ll charge the headphones today later as well. My two books. My fullsized notebook for the analog blogs that will be happening. I just pulled a pen out so as not to forget that ish later. I’ll be bringing this Dark Matter Coffee that I have committed to going out and gathering VERY SOON. If a coffee bar closes earlier than a regular place of business I should make sure I get there before 3. But that is TIGHT, because I want to sweat AND shower AND groom myself to the tops before I go out today. And maybe you’re thinking, Max that’s still 2 and half hours, that’s not that tight. But I’ll also have laundry AND lunch AND I have to finish this goddamn BS, and this is sucking the life out of my like the vacuum of space sucks out your eyeballs. Hey by the way, quick aside, the fucking take that Jeff Bezos going into space (recent news*) was a waste of money is so fucking ice cold. How is that the only thing people can think to say? The problem is it’s so obviously true, and seemingly can’t stick with anyone in power that the comedy is fucking frozen in time. You can’t zag when everyone’s zigging because the zigging is objectively correct. This rich person driving the machine of capitalism directly into our own annihilation has frivolously gone into space and actualized everyone’s childhood fantasy of riding a rocketship into space. And the act of acquiring the means to actually make it possible has made him one of the more reviled figures in modern history; this ruined the idea of going to space “because anything is possible if you put your mind to it” for a lot of people, and it’s possible that this debacle has proven the “anything is possible” notion to be demonstrably false. People clamoring and hustling to try and make sure that Jeff Bezos doesn’t enjoy going into space to me just highlights the impossibility of amazing adventures like these. One of the first people ever to amass the resources to actually manifest one of the most exciting things humans can do: commerical spaceflight; literally the next step towards the ultimate frontier, has forced everybody back over to the truly old and awful take that the money used for this could be better spent solving more tangible problems. For decades, small-minded cowardly people have seen NASA break through the barrier of space time and time again and whined that those taxpayer dollars should have been for like fixing highways and shit. And they sucked for it. That sucks. And now Bezos goes up because we now live in a world where someone can just go up there, which should be so fucking interesting, and everybody else goes, “well this isn’t taxpayer money technically, but it basically is, and it’s actually MORE useful than taxpayer money somehow. This money didn’t have to get filtered through government bureaucracy so it could have like built a bunch of wells in Africa or provided healthcare to thousands of people. This miracle of science and engineering isn’t as valuable as the really simple problems that I can parse as the common man, and I’m pissed!” And it sucks because that ANCIENT complaint is now propped up by the fact that Jeff Bezos could only manage this by sitting on top of a capitalist system that is seemingly seconds away from exploding in a world-ending fireball. So this awesome thing that we’ve all hoped humanity could one day achieve finally happened, but it seemingly only was able to happen because capitalism is crushing millions of people under it’s heel. And I think maybe a capitalism 20 years ago was less divine. We could have seen a rich man in space and managed to empathize with him still. We could have imagined that could be us one day. It’s not possible anymore. The motivating system of meritocracy that keeps capitalism balanced is completely and utterly broken. So when everyone looks up and sees this fucking space trip, the only thing you can even see is blood. It took literal blood to get up there. And that’s not worth it, to anyone. Anyone except Jeff Bezos. Should I bring Shampoo with me? Might as well right. A whole week? That could be 7+ showers. I might need to put it in like a big ziploc baggie. Dark Matter closes at 6. We’re golden babe.

Love ya dude

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phakjira198 · 3 years

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2020 Recap

Most people won’t reminisce the year 2020, but they’ll probably look back and think what a shitty year it was, with covid-19, lock-down and abysmal economy. But for me personally, 2020 wasn’t all too bad. I’ve learned a lot from this year. This year was like a roller coaster for me, a lot of ups and downs. A lot definitely happened, most of them are new things I’ve never experienced before. I mean, I think the reason why 2020 was not so bad for me is because I like who I am now. I think I’m a lot more stronger, a lot more confident, and a lot less tense than who I was in 2019 or earlier in 2020 itself. So here’s a list of recap of what happened and how it has changed me.

JAN

1. Stressing about a side project that I had with Pat, Ammy and Dao, called Thunder Bolt (I think)

2. Went to Perth and Melbourne, Woo hooo. Perth was a lot of fun; we stayed at an AirBnB and cooked every night. The lamb chop was wicked. There was a bush-fire when we went to Melbourne but it was still fun.

-> at this point I was so sick of Arts and Museum lol. (because I over did it in Tokyo last year 5555)

3. Exchange decision: debating between Dartmouth, USA and Groningen, Netherlands. Made countless list of pros and cons. In the end, I decided that I need the sun and can’t stand only 7 hours sunlight everyday for a month in Groningen, so choose Dartmouth instead. Anyway Him pissed me off so much about deciding where to go, peeps keep pressuring me to choose because my grade is high. In the end it doesn’t even fucking matter bitch, you just need to ace your interview, which I did and got a full score baby!

-> I just remembered that my Mac went cra cra and I had to change my screen. Thank god that I had Apple care otherwise, I’ll have to pay like 21000 Baht, but instead I got it fixed for free eiei. Anyway, I went to Australia without my Mac and I think that’s probably the longest that I’ve gone without my mac.

FEB

1. Lot of school work, according to my monthly calendar 55555. Had to prep for the exchange interview and everything as well. And had champ thingy as well.

2. Had a weird, random, study date-ish session with Pat. I don’t think he think of it as a date, he just wanted to study and I’m a somewhat useful resource ( or at least I hope so) -> because of working with him in Jan and like whatever the fuck happen in Feb, I started to develop a crush on him (again! jesus woman). But this time it was different, cause I actually told people about it, and by people I mean Tam 5555555. Anyway it was because on Valentine day, Tam, Por, Ohm, and I (we were all single, so sad) went out to celebrate the fact that we got to go to Dartmouth. And I was not very alcohol tolerant back then (notice the back then part, cause girl I can handle my alcohol nowadays 555), so when they asked me whether I liked someone or not, I hesitated and they spent the entire night try to figure out who. Later on that night when I got back home, I told Tam wa who 55555. But like it was just a crush, I didn’t like like him. Cause I don’t really know him well enough for me to “like” him.

3. GOT MY FIRST CAR!!!!, aka Stacy. But haven’t really got the change to drive her yet 555555555. The story behind how I got the car sound very privileged. I didn’t noticed it at first, but then went I told Ming what happened, she was like what a rich people way, and I’m like oh yeahh. So I stopped telling the story 55555. Anyway, I’m gonna tell it here again cause only future Jessie will read this post.

MAR

1. Midterm during the first week: so nothing much, just studying

2. Drove my car for the first time after mid-term. Took it to uni for like 3 times and then number 3 happened

3. COVID-19 hit baby -> online studying -> I was enjoying life as fuck. My introvert self was striving. I was playing piano, doing arts, keeping a bullet journal. Watching shit load amount of studio Ghibli and other movies.

APRIL

1. Pretty much the same as march. To be honest, they kinda merged together cause you can’t really tell time when you’re at home all the time. It’s just like school holiday.

2. Cheesy Avocado. Worked a lot on this joint-project for my 3 classes (software engineering, database system, ICE capstone). Spend a lot of time calling with Tam, Party and Nat. Shout out to Party for being a good PM; we would have never finished the work without you, and if I was the PM I would have drove myself crazy until the work is finish, you really help my mental health 5555.

3. Songkran that doesn’t feel like Songkran at all. Had all my classes as usually, and didn’t get leave my house. ToT

MAY

1. Final the first 2 weeks. Got a chance to work on a killer report for my history of animation class. I wrote an almost 20 pages report on “Whisper of the Heart”, a lot of it are my own analysis from scratch, so I’m very proud of it eiei.

2. Prep for Agoda -> I was very lazy to do this. I procrastinated it to the very last minute and didn’t even finished it properly lol.

3. Went out for lunch with friends for the first time since the pandemic at a Korean restaurant in Siam One. (Had a record driving time to Siam at 12 minutes I think)

--> I think May was like boring af. Nothing really happened that much.

JUNE

1. Started my internship at Agoda as a data engineer in the Messaging team. It’s a part of a bigger team called Agoda Data Pipeline, and I worked on a project called improve Kafka Offset Monitoring, where I implement this new feature called “time lag”. I wrote a blog post about it but never actually posted on Medium 55555. It requires too much work man. But I first started the internship we had to work from home, because of covid-19, which was depressing as fuck. It was not fun at all!!! To top that off, it was difficult and I was lazy and just no no. Then we got to start working at the office on the 21 of June and that was a lot more fun and everything. I really enjoyed working there.

2. Grandma passed away on the 19th of June. Thank god that I was working from home then cause I was crying my eyeballs out and it did not look pretty. But it wasn’t as bad as when P’Rin passed away (where I cry for non-stop 3 days and had to missed a trip that I was supposed to go on), because we were expecting it to happened. It was out of the blue or anything. The doctor asked whether we want to ฝอกไต her or not and the family agreed that we don’t want to put her through anymore pain, so we decided that we’re not going to do it. And the doctor said that if we’re not going to do it, then all we can do now is wait for her to go. I was in her room (well almost the entire family was) when her heart stopped beating and I think grandma was happy that we were all there.

-> nothing much else. Just hangout with people, ทำบุญให้อาม่า and just work.

JULY

1. Continue with the internship. At the Internship they had this thing called the the intern pitched competition and my team fucking won. (I probably already covered this in another blog post, so I’m not going to get into the details here). Anyway, we won 6000 Baht and spent it a Japanese restaurant in Gaysorn Plaza.

2. Finished up the internship project towards the end of the month.

3. Went drinking multiple time at Groove 5555.

AUG

1. Went to Koh Kood, it was so goooddd (pun intended 5555). A couple of days after the internship ended on the 5th of Aug. The trip itself was fabulous, pretty beach and fin food. But the weather itself wasn’t particularly good, but that’s okay.

2. Started talking to a guy for the first time (Woo Hoo!). It was all fun and game until somebody loses their mind (and that somebody just happened to be me, SAD) But actually I haven’t lose my mind in August yet. August was a lot of fun, I really liked the version of myself was talking to him. I was open and honest and wasn’t afraid that he would judge me. We had like 3 cute calls, but that was it 55555555. I called him on his BD at midnight to wish him happy birthday; I was cute as fuck. Just think back about it is making me blush, and boy did I blushed a lot. I’ll probably write more on the experience later in another blog post.

3. Started my senior year at uni. But this time it’s a little different because your home girl is a TA as well. I have the power to influences a the grade of a sophomore, felt powerful 555. We still had to do online studying, although I don’t really think it was necessary at that point, cause there wasn’t really new cases and people were out and about like normal just with their face masks on. The classes that I took this sem were good as well, I actually enjoy all of it, especially Stochastic and Optimisation, which makes me consider studying my master in Operation Research, but will still have to do more research on that 55555.

4. Worked on the Global sustainable development SDG goal competition thingy, and we got into the final 10 rounds. But we didn’t win 5555555, but it was still great cause I made a new friend. (which is really rare for me 555)

SEP

1. Your home girl 20!!!! I’m now officially legal and can drink and buy alcohol in public casually, which I am enjoying 555555555. Let’s just say I drink now 555. Btw I cried the night I turned 20 because I didn’t want to. I don’t want to grow up and I don’t want to become an adult, but I guess we can’t avoid it and we’re just going to have to embrace it instead. Also I think I was crying as well because I expected something from prime, I don’t know what I was expecting and keep telling myself that I didn’t expect anything but that’s not true. I did. Anyway he sent me a voice message and was the first one to wish me happy birthday eiei. And you guess it, I blushed bitch.

2. Shit also went to hell this month with the Prime stuff. Specifically on the 25th of September, where Millie told me that Prime told her that he likes her. And that he asked her to watch a movie and eat out (which he never did with me wtf bro). So when that happened we stopped talking, like literally stopped after that night. The last thing on our chat was me sending him the brown bear confetti at almost midnight on the 25th and that was it, we never texted each other again. Which was really sad ( I mean sad for me but and easy way out for him), because I never get to know what happened, why it happened, and I didn’t get to scream at his fucking face. I eventually did in a dream later in December, which leads to a fucking closure after a 3 long and depressing months. (I just want to say, Fuck you Prime)

3. Nothing else really happened that much but studying and love stuff. I was so fixated on the love stuff though 5555, but can you really blame me; it was my first time actually liking a guy not having a crush on him. (You know what just thinking about what happened my eyes are tearing up 555)

--> Just

OCT

1. October was a month of tear. Jessie was experiencing her first heart break; earlier this year back in July, Jessie just told Millie that she has never experienced heart break before in her entire life, but now she does. What a growth man. I did not enjoy the experience one bit, it was depressing, and just bad for me in many aspect. I tried to summoned stone cold bitch Jessie and killed of soft Jessie, which ultimately lead to me feeling numb and just plain sad. I lost inspiration, I just don’t enjoy the little shit like I used to; let’s just say I was not in a particularly good place. The only way to maintain my mental health was to run. And thanks to the free personal training that I got from Mr.Prime when we were talking, I started running more.

2. Midterm. Got full score for introduction to stochastic modelling bitches. I remember going to Sea life right after Stochastic exam and just try to get my shit together. I really thought that I had picked up the pieces together but I really hadn’t, it was only 2 and half weeks since it happened. I was rushing into healing too much and didn’t know that these things take time to heal. Screw you knw for telling me that it only took you a week to get over Tam, that was total bullshit, and I tried to used that as a fucking standard, which just killed me.

3. Skinny Bitch Jessie emerged. I lose my appetite because of the heart break so I ate a lot less. Actually I think I consumed a normal amount of what an average human being should consumed, I just ate way too much before 55555. And like with all the running, my weight got down to like 50, 51, which is the skinniest I’ve ever been since I got to uni. Maybe even the skinniest I’ve ever been since year 11 as well.

NOV

1. Shopee GLP application. I didn’t get the job but it was a great experience. I learned what a case interview, and thinks it very oppa. The process of preparing for it was fun, but I wasn’t totally into it because I was still dead inside. And still have no passion, no inspiration, no motivation, no goal, and everything because of what happened in the last 2 months. The only reason why I wanted to job was because I wanted the money 5555555.

2. Won DevDisrupt Hackathon 2020. Ter did most of the work though, but it was still a lot of fun, and something that I could add to my resume 5555.

DEC

1. HAPPY JESSIE IS BACK BITCHES!!!! I LOVE December Jessie; she’s STRIVING. Thank god I got my shit sorted out before the end of the year. She is once again enjoying life, feeling inspired, and motivated. And she’s doing all this while she is dressed to the nine every single fucking day!

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thelastifntdragonrider · 7 years

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HI! I’m putting all of the things i’ve been tagged in from the past couple of weeks that i haven’t answered yet bc i’m working hard on an admission portfolio for university and i really want to get into Sheridan, so yep lots of work and lots of art. i am also working on the HTTYD fandom reading (please sign up) and the next chapters of J’Imagine and No Cannon Shall Sink This Ship. Anyways, onto the tagged:

get to know me meme: tagged by @animalsarepeople2 thank youuuu!

nicknames: Kei / Keiko *i explain this in a question down there somewhere

Gender: Female

Star Sign: Libra

MBTI Type: INFJ

Height: 163cm

Time: 17:07 (by the time I finished all of these it’s 18:36)

Birthday: February 25

Favourite Bands: Beatles, Young Rising Sons, Clean Bandits, Lovelyz, Infinite

Favourite Solo Artists: Ailee, Ed Sheeran

Song Stuck in My Head: 1cm by Lovelyz

Last Movie Watched: Charlie and the Chocolate Factory with Johnny Depp

Last Show Watched: I just binge watched Stranger Things

When I created my blog: July 15, 2013/June 27, 2017

What I post about: httyd, animated movies, animation

Last thing I Googled: information about Sheridan and character rotation

Other blogs I have: my main blog @tokkeiko

Following: 100, though I want to find more good blogs, any recs anyone?

Followers: in total from both blogs, 200 or something

Favourite colour: Green

Average hours of sleep: 8-ish

Lucky number: 7

Instruments: piano, oboe

What I’m wearing: jeans and my current favourite sweater which is grey with gold spots

Number of blankets: I need to remember to find another one bc my room is freezing when I wake up in the morning

Dream Job: story artist at Disney

Dream trip: i just want to get out of my city rn

Favourite food: i’m just hungry rn, give me anything, but favourite food, among others, is salted caramel truffle blizzard from the good old DQ (#lovemydq)

Music ask, tagged by @yv-sketches THANKS!!!!

10 songs that you are listening to right now;

my current favourite playlist is called Shut Up and Dance:

“Elle Me Dit” Mika

“Red Balloon” Charli XCX

“Dancing in the Dark” Rihanna

“Shut Up and Dance” Walk the Moon

“Red and Gold” Young Rising Sons

“Can’t Stop the Feeling” Justin Timberlake

“Better When I’m Dancing” Meghan Trainor

“I Bet My Life” Imagine Dragons

“Into a Fantasy” Alexander Rybak

“Get Back Up Again” Anna Kendrick

Tag Game, taggged by @thepurplewriter333 ty friend-o!

Nicknames: Keiko/Kei/Spirit/Sweet Potato

Gender: Female

Star Sign; Pisces

Height: 163cm

Sexuality: probably straight

Hogwarts House: Hufflepuff!!!

Favourite animals: uhhhh... orcas probably

Average hours spent sleeping: 8 i think, i’m not bothering with math rn

Dogs or cats: KITTY, all of my sibilings have a significant other and all of their significant others’ have cats and why can’t I have a s/o with a cat???

number of blankets sleeping: during the winter, aka now already, two

Dream trip: geeeeetttt meeeee ouuuuttt offf thissss citttyyyyy

Dream job: Story artist at Disney

when I made this account: June 27. 2017

why I made this account: bc i wanted a place to reblog all of the httyd stuff without loosing followers on my other blog

# of followers: like 47, I think? I recently got more. follow me i am cool person

92 statements, tagged by @thepurplewriter333 thanks for the double tag!

Last:

Drink: Tim Hortons’ Double Double (got to stay caffeinatedddddddd)

Phone Call: Home to get a ride home

Text message: Friend to go hang out later

Song You Listened To: Shooting Star by Lovelyz

Time You Cried: uhhhhhhhh... oh, like a month ago, it was a bad week and then I watched Home and my emotions were already out of wack so I basically sobbed near the end

Have you:

Dated someone twice: Nope

Kissed someone and regretted it: Nope, i’m boring

Been cheated on: nope

Lost someone special: nope

Been depressed: i feel like it’s hard to be a university student and not get depressed

Gotten drunk and thrown up: i am a boring party person and yeah, no i haven’t

List 3 favourite colours:

Green

Blue

Gold

In the last year have you:

made new friends: Yeahhhh

fallen out of love: nopppeee...?

Laughed until you cried: like every other day

Found someone was talking about you: in a good way; nope. In a bad way: yeah too many times

found out who your friends are: yeahhhhhh

kissed someone on your FB list: okay someday, i’ll have more interesting answers

General:

how many FB friends do you know IRL: 99% of them

Do you have any pets: nope

Do you want to change your name: i recently thought about dropping my middle name, but like it has significance to my parents so probably won’t happen and my middle name doesn’t do anything so idk

what did you do for your last birthday: Keep in mind that I turned 18: my friends and I went to Build-A-Bear and they got me a Build-A-Bear Toothless.

What time do you wake up: my alarms on early days are 7:00, 7:05, 7:15, 7:25, 7:35, 7:45, 8:00. I naturally wake up at 9-ish

What were you doing at midnight last night: Sleeping :D

Name something you can’t wait for: to (hopefully) get accepted into Sheridan and start a new adventure out there.

When was the last time you saw your mom: she’s in the kitchen with me

what is one thing you wish you could change in your life: i wish that I could’ve figured out what I wanted to do with life so that I could’ve started Sheridan this year

What are you listening to right now: Sheridan portfolio reviews, tips, etc. (Starting to see a pattern here?)

Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: friend’s dad. he’s a cool dad.

Something that is getting on your nerves: when people are packing up their stuff before the professor is finished talking in the last 5 minutes of class. URGH stop moving ppl this stuff is important

Most visited website: FB, YT, tumblr

Mole(s): couple

Mark(s): I have freckles (might be moles) on each cheek under both eyes.

Childhood dream: when you’re a kid, you’re really only exposed to teacher, doctor, police man and whatever your parents are. I think I defaulted to an artist when adults asked.

Hair colour: black, I have silver hairs though, they stick out on the black hair a lot

long or short hair: I always grow my hair out and then cut off 12 inches to donate to cancer wigs

Do you have a crush on someone: not currently, though i had a crush on a guy for like 5 years, so even now, 5 years later, I get happy when I think about him

Piercings: no, i really think a conch piercing would be nice though

Blood type: ... A I think, i’ve never gotten tested, but according to genetics, I should be an A

Nicknames: my full name is Keiko, but everyone called me Kei as a kid, but during high school, I started introducing myself as Keiko, so some people call me Kei, some people call me Keiko, one of them is a nickname, depending on which way you think about it,

Relationship Status: Egg salad.

Zodiac: Pisces

Pronouns: She/her

Favourite TV show: Friends

Right or left handed: Right, but recently I’ve been trying to teach myself to draw with my left hand

Surgery: Wisdom teeth

Hair dyed a different colour: nope, but I think I might try a ombre some day

Sports: ballet since I was 4ish, ballet is a sport, come fight me on it if you dare

Vacation: a lot of camping when I was younger, I’ve been to Japan twice, and then places across Canada

Pair of trainers: are we talking about trainers as in shoes? bc then ankle high all black vans.

More General:

Eating: this is taking so long I stopped and had supper between these sections

Drinking: Double Double (Tim’s coffee, two creams, two sugars), gotta stay AWaaaaaaaaaaKE

I’m about to: draw character designs or go out to coffee shop to study with friends

Want: to get into Sheridan so so so so so badly

Get married: I’m still single, want to put my career first, so yep not for a little while

Career: i’m a cake decorator rn, see my cakes on my insta @tanakeiart

Hugs or Kisses: hUG mE

Lips or eyes: Eyes, (though I am supper bad at making eye contact)

Shorter or taller: would be nice to be slightly taller...

Older or younger: like to date or something? I think high school rule is a good rule, but rn looking at niners mAN they are tiny

Nice arms or stomach: arms to hug meeeeee

Sensitive or loud: i think I would need a loud person to compliment me

Hook up or relationship: relationship bc you have a standing plus one to everything and rn being single I have to text like 5 friends to find someone to go with me to something

Troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant

Have you ever:

kissed a stranger: Nope

Drank hard liquor: I only have like four months until my 19th so like i’ll go drinking then

Lost Glasses/contact lenses: funny story: family and i were in Japan and we were at Kinkaku-ji and then i realize that one of my eyes have gone fuzzy, so thinking that there is something on the lens, i take my glasses off and my lens had fallen out of the frame. my family literally crawled around trying to find my lost lens, we did find it, but we couldn’t find a small screw that would hold the lens in. my dad fixed it with a twist tie.

turned someone down: nobody likes me so nobody has asked me so i have never turned someone down

broken someone’s heart: no

had your heart broken: yeah, by a friend. It is shATTERing

been arrested: not even a parking ticket in my name

cried when someone died: no, i am some kind of emotionless egg

fallen for a friend: my heart easily leaps and often trips falls and gets lost

Do you believe in:

yourself: yes, I believe that I can get in, I believe that I can be what I want to be.

Miracles: I believe in karma more than miracles

Love at first sight: yes, but not in the way that media portrays it

Santa claus: nah

Kiss on the first date: this is weirdly phrased.

other:

current best friend name: becky

Eye colour: brown

Favourite movie: the other day i was procrastinating and made an official list of favourite movies, which still has a lot of ties: 1/2: httyd 1/2, 3/4: moana, big hero 6, 5/6/7: wreck it ralph, tangled, rise of the guardians, 8/9/10: back to the future 1-3

wow that took a lot of time, but thanks for tagging me! I’m tagging @thepurplewriter333 @yv-sketches and @animalsarepeople2 on the ones that you didn’t tag me in! also tagging @katlikespie @crazilexa and @fading-shadows for whichever one/s you want to do!

#long post #but i really didn't want to make four seperate posts #replies #keiko talks to thin air

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canaryatlaw · 5 years

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alright, I should get typing because I’m getting tired. Today was pretty good. I got up nice and early to my alarm at 7:45 and refreshed the bus schedule app furiously until it was apparent I needed to get on the 8:21 bus since the next one wasn’t until 8:41 (which is the one I normally take when I don’t have to get their early for the babies). So I made it, and of course since it’s early everything took less time and I ended up getting to church super early. it was kinda awkward because we were doing like a mini-baby shower thing for two volunteers who are married and about to have a kid so people were bringing like diapers and wipes and I just kinda neglected to bring anything, so I was just kinda standing there awkwardly for most of it, but oh well. I also officially met the new staff member that’s doing something with the kids ministry I do not remember at all but I think she has some background in children studies so that should be good and she was very pleasant. Once we finished with all of that I went to the babies room to get ready for check-in. We generally check in all the babies and walkers from the babies room and then take the walkers next door (there’s a door between the two rooms) and then at the end of the service we move the babies in there for everyone to get picked up from there, I guess the idea is to streamline dropping off and picking up instead of splitting it up. Since this was the earlier service that’s the most heavily attended I was prepared for more babies than usual, but man, they just kept coming and coming. I didn’t get a full count between the two rooms but it had to have been about 25 or so, which is a lot of children under 2, lol, and unfortunately it was one of the Sundays where everyone was screaming and something was on fire (I always say in the babies it’s either completely calm and relaxed or everyone’s screaming and something’s on fire, and this week was the latter) (not literally on fire though). There was pretty much constant crying from at least one child at any given point, there were very few moments when everyone was content, and of course we know the phenomena of contagious crying, so when one of them starts if we don’t get them soothed right away another three kids will start crying. I kinda floated between the two rooms for most of the time just seeing who needed help, towards the end of the service I ended up holding a little boy about 5 months or so that was fine for most of the service but just started getting fussy so I knew it was most likely from him being tired, so I did the little bouncy alternating feet thing that generally gets babies to stop crying then once he did I started rocking him which took a while but eventually he did fall asleep, at which point there was probably about 10 minutes left in the service, so I just sat and held him until it was over and his parents came to pick him up. I was very pleased that I managed to stand up and actually hand him to his parents without waking him up, because that’s always somewhat of a feat lol. I’m not used to doing babies first then service so my mind was like time to leave! and I had to be like no, time for service now 😂 timing was working well for me, I had just enough time to get everything I needed done and get to the sanctuary right before the service started. We were starting a new series with both of our lead pastors preaching together, which I always appreciate (it was funny because the guy was like “I’m J___, one of your lead pastors” and the woman was like “and I”m J____, the other one” and everyone laughed) basically talking about how we relate to others tends to define how we relate to God, talking about the story of when Jesus went to see Mary and Martha and Martha was all like “uh Jesus tell Mary to stop being lazy and help me get everything ready” and Jesus was like “nah it’s chill she just wants to sit at my feet and be in my presence” (that’s more or less how they talk in my head) and then moved on to talking about the enneagram tests which is something they’ve used with the leadership a bunch of times before so I was familiar with it and already knew what I was (type 3 with balanced wings, but I definitely forgot what the part about the wings means) which is the achiever, which sounds about on point, and that’s gonna feed into next week’s message. So that was good. Once we ended I started my trek home, ended up having to wait twenty minutes for the bus to arrive after getting off the train, but at least it was much warmer today than the rest of this week. something did happen around this time though, facebook reminded me that the P!ATD Chicago concert is tomorrow night which we opted to go to Milwaukee instead because we didn’t think we could make it in time since Jess gets out of work kinda late, but I saw that and was like oh lol let me pull up tickets on stub hub that will be like $600 and make a joke so I went to do so and discovered the tickets were not in fact $600, they were actually significantly less than that, and now we knew that there are two openers and they don’t start the actual concert for at least an hour in so we wouldn’t have to worry about getting there right at 7.....so I texted Jess and was like ???? and she was like YESSS so now we’re seeing them again tomorrow night???? I’m super amped about it lol since I spent the last week wishing I could relive the concert and now I’m actually getting to do that, so that’s pretty damn awesome, really excited for that. Anyway, the bus eventually came and I got home, worked on some stuff for a bit before watching the final two episodes of The Final Table and then switching over to the super bowl purely for the commercials because I really could not give less of a fuck about the actual game so I was really only paying attention to the commercials and not the actual game. Around this time I was really craving bubble tea and when I went to look at it on ubereats I somehow had some credit that literally let me get it for free (it was probably something to do with the sushi order they messed up like two weeks back) so I got free bubble tea delivered to me which was pretty dang cool??? I still tipped the deliverer of course because I don’t stiff people on tips as a matter of principle. so I enjoyed that while watching the commercials. I was the slightest bit invested I suppose in that I didn’t really want the Patriots to win, which I realize it’s probably inconsistent for me to dislike them for winning all the time when I’m a Yankees fan, but I just don’t like them, so seeing them win was kind of an eyeroll. I just left it on the channel after the game was over which saw the premiere of some very weird talent tv show competition that had like, these insanely good karate people, three adorable little boy singers, an escape artist, and then this guy that was billed as “the space cowboy” and was basically a sword swallower but his act was so incredibly nauseating to watch I legit had to look away to avoid gagging. I don’t plan on watching the show, but I was still glad to see he didn’t make the cut, lol. after that there was the news for like 20 minutes or so which I kept on because they were talking about the chemical plant in the suburbs that’s potentially giving people cancer which I was working on with the firm for a while so I was curious about that. Then there was the late show with Stephen Colbert which I watched a few minutes of before deciding to start getting for bed and showering then of course procrastinating for a while because I didn’t want to go to sleep yet, then started writing this and now I’m here. It’s 2 am now and even though I don’t have anything to do tomorrow until night it’s still probably a good idea to get to bed now I think. Goodnight darlings. Hope your Monday doesn’t suck.

#daily journal #February 2019 #Jess tag

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remembermemorablememories · 5 years

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Tuesday, January 8, 2019

post #365!!!

WE MADE IT!! 365 DAYS!!!

main points:

- brunch with sheena making avocado (guac) toast with eggs and ham

- going to soccer field to fly drone/help sheena get some fresh air/exercise

- watch some more travel videos

- play falcon/snake in smash against CPU and get a few more characters

- dinner with the fam

- play smash online with snake

- brief mario kart game with sheena before she sleeps

- more smash online hovering between elite and non-elite smash

today i:

- woke up around 9am and felt groggy so i went back to sleep. sheena was already awake and was on her phone. then around 10:30am my alarm woke me up. i snoozed until like 11 ish then i got out of sheena’s bed (since i was sleeping there for the night) and went back to my room. mom came in to check on sheena and said they booked a psychologist for today at 4pm, which was surprising. mom said she was struggling to find someone with open availability yesterday after calling 7-8 people. but today they managed to find a doctor

- i went downstairs with sheena and we tried to make avocado toast with the guacamole. i toasted some of the whole wheat bread, fried some over easy eggs, then we drizzled some cheese, spread the guac and added a slice of ham to make a lil sandwich. it was actually pretty good. but it felt like it was missing something. sheena agreed. then she pinpointed it; we were missing bacon

- after we finished eating i washed all the dishes and then went back upstairs. mom suggested sheena go out and get some exercise by either biking or walking. so we took a half hour break after eating. i caught up on yesterday’s blog post, january 7, then sheena and i went to the soccer field

we tried to ride the bikes. sheena’s bike tires were flat so we tried to pump air into it but the front tire wasn’t taking in air for some reason. after some failed attempts, i just let sheena use my bike and i walked behind her. but when she was riding it, we realized my bike tires were also flat LMAOOO whoops

sheena rode the bike to the soccer field and then decided to just walk around in a circle. i set up shop with my drone to get some footage and mess around with it again. i was able to fly it so far and it was sooo cooooool. being out in the open like that (instead of in our backyard). i could fly it everywhere!!! wheeeeeee

i messed around with it and got a good amount of shots. sheena finished one circle (which is like 3/4 mile). then i let sheena play with it and then the drone complained that the battery was low so we packed it and then walked back home

- once we got home, i edited the video using the DJI auto generated app. put it to some default dubstep music and it turned out pretty dope. while i was doing this sheena got some stuff from sephora in the mail for toner for your face. she showed me a brief run through of how to keep your face clean

then dad came home, and then he mom, and sheena went to the psychologist to have their first session to see how it went

- i stayed at home and spent some time just chilling and then stumbled upon

https://www.youtube.com/user/MrBrynnorth

from sam kolder’s instagram story. i watched his video on indonesia

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i72GDSvcPmc

it was mesmerizing and unique. i feel like it had its own vibe and captured the atmosphere so well, making you feel like you were taken there. no overdone transitions and whatnot

- i played some falcon against a level 9 CPU to see how good i would be. i lost quite a few games against it. eventually i won some here and there. also put in my captain falcon amiibo from john from last summer and also made a mii fighter, mii gunner and mii swordsman just for the heck of it. then i decided to take a break from playing with falcon and switch to playing with inkling, then snake. i practiced down b reversal a lot. also i unlocked some other characters like sheik, olimar, incineroar... maybe another one

and once i got the hang of that i decided to go online for a few games. i played like one game and then dad said dinner was ready so i went downstairs. sheena was taking a nap after she came back from the session

the psychologist just said some stuff that sheena already knew, like get more sleep, exercise more, etc. when sheena came back she took a nap for an hour. so i woke her up for dinner and then we headed downstairs

- dinner was tofu pi, eggs + veggies and bok choy. m m m i love me some tofu. it was a delicious meal. dad talked briefly about trump’s trade deal and now the government shutdown and the address he was making tonight about the border wall

- then mom and dad went to look at some sink options on amazon while i washed the dishes. i brought up the chest discomforts with my dad and he said it’s likely just cause i was exercising for the first time in a while, so my muscles might be sore. and i guess to be fair it wasn’t hurting before yesterday. but i’ve taken long breaks and then exercised before and never felt something like this. it’s like a few seconds of discomfort in my chest, shifting from left, right, center, sometimes lower left. it comes and goes maybe every 10-15 minutes still. hopefully it’ll resolve itself in a few days

- after i washed the dishes i went back upstairs and just played smash online from 8-9:30pm. i was hovering on the elite smash line again with snake T.T

i kept losing the elite smash game and then winning the quickplay game. i learned that snake’s up smash is really good for edge guarding LOL. and learning to pull out nades more. it’s still kind of funky to play with. also up tilts and forward tilts. i was following a lot of what jtails said in his video that i watched like 3 weeks ago

- around 9:30pm sheena asked if she could play a mario kart grand prix with me. so we played one round and she did... okay :P like maybe 6th or 7th overall? i kinda forgot. she had one good game where she got 6th. the other games were like 8th or 9th

- around 10pm sheena went back to her room to sleep. i think the psychologist recommended melatonin or something to help her sleep

i decided to hop back on online smash and just continue playing snake. winning a few quickplay games, then losing elite smash. one time i did win like two elite smash games in a row. i was at like 2.98 mil GSP and just wanted to pass 3 mil GSP. i think the cutoff for elite smash was like 2.92 mil. so i’d hover around there, get past that threshold, then back down to like 2.8 mil after losing an elite smash game. sigh. oh well, it’s good practice. i had some pretty rough matchups against a few wolfs and pichus, but good matches against two kens and a falcon. those were the most notable i think

- i stopped around 1am, getting back into elite smash. took a shower and now i’m typing this at 2:19am cause i procrastinated watching some NY videos on the site :p

- time to sleep, tomorrow’s gonna be my productive day. i’m gonna clean my clothes, fill out patient form, do some more reading on crossing the chasm, and maybe start figuring out the china plan with dimitri over text

also

this is the 365th post!!! we made it one whole year yay!!!

i definitely slacked off the last few months, using condensed posts and not really posting at the end of every day, usually every 2 or 3 days. but i’m glad that for most of the year i was able to document all of my days, and did actually keep up with it daily (up until the end of summer cause of everything that was going on)

i can’t believe it’s been a year already. what a long journey :p i’m not sure how long i’m gonna continue doing this but for now, i’m gonna keep it going!

WOOOO!!

#post #normal #january #2019 #365 #year #one year

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therealestatesparkblog · 6 years

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How Adopting 7 Kids at Once Led Me to Launch My Real Estate Investing Career

The truth is that I did not get involved in real estate in a meaningful way until later in my life. I have been a chiropractic physician for 29 years, but Im really an entrepreneur at heart. I have started or purchased six multi-discipline medical clinics in my career and have been involved in a number of other businesses. None, however, have matched the combination of relative safety and potential returns afforded by real estate. Still, for some reason, I could never pull the trigger and launch my real estate investing career. Unfortunately I sat on the sidelines for a number of years. I hoped to get started but never did. Like many of you, I read Robert Kiyosakis Rich Dad Poor Dadand a few other real estate books, but it wasnt enough. Looking back now, I can point to several life events that lit a fire under me and finally got me off the bench and into the game. Over the past few years, I have flipped a couple houses, owned a small apartment complex, developed a large commercial retail strip center, syndicated a 125-door multifamily townhome complex, and am just finishing the co-syndication of a large self-storage deal. I am in my 50s and wish I had started earlier. No matter your age, though, if you are procrastinating like I did, hopefully you can use one or more of the following five steps to get started. 5 Steps to Launch Your Real Estate Career1. Find your passion. Twenty years ago, my wife and I became interested in adoption. We had two biological kids at the time and wanted to adopt a third child. While working with an organization that facilitated the adoption of Eastern European orphans, we heard about a sibling group of seven Russian children that the Russian government was going to split up and send to three different countries. My wife decided she would make it her personal mission to find a family that could keep these siblings from being separated. The idea of someone taking that many kids into their home blew us away, and we made a list of all of our friends and acquaintances that we thought might be able to afford such a monumental task. The Russian government announced they would be separating the children in a few months. As the date approached with no takers in sight, we began to ask ourselves if there was any way we could adopt them ourselves. Its a very long story, but fast forward to August of 1988. We were told at the U.S. Embassy that we had completed the single largest adoption in U.S./Russian history (at a single time). It was a big culture shock to bring seven Russian speaking kids into our home for sure. But the real shock was just around the corner when the financial reality of our decision began to hit home. Nine sets of clothing, nine bikes, nine soccer teams, nine college educations, nine weddingsyou get the picture. The financial pressure began to build. I rapidly set out on a course to produce more income. I started or purchased six different medical clinics. I developed anathletic club, which eventually grew to 1,500 members. I purchased a sports performance enhancement franchise. And we even started a coffee shop/deli. Some produced more cash flow than others, but the one problem all those businesses had in common was that they took immense amounts of my personal time. I was fairly successful at creating additional income, but I was killing myself. My family life was suffering. I quickly realized working 70-80 hours a week would not work. There are few things that I am more passionate about than my family, so I threw myself into a massive search for ways to create passive income. It was this search that eventually led me to real estate. You can do the same thing. Figure out what you are passionate about. Focus on the end results. Getfired up and use that passion to fuel your real estate dreams.

Related: If I Started My Real Estate Business Again Today, THIS is What Id Change 2. Harness fear. As humans, nothing makes us react quite like fear. Fear comes in all shapes and sizes. There are literally hundreds of types of fears and phobiasfear of pain, of disease, of injury, of tight spaces, of rejection, and of failure, to name a few. People will do just about anything to avoid their fears. If they are forced to face fear, they go into fight or flight mode or they are paralyzed by fear and do nothing at all. Fortunately, a random encounter with a couple of patients changed my investing mindset forever. It was March 6, 2009, and the stock market was in the final throes of its great crash. I walked into a treatment room, and there sat a patient with tears streaming down his face. It was odd because this was a big burly guy who had just retired from a local factory and was a pretty tough character. I soon found out he was not crying because of his back or neck pain but because he had just lost almost all of his retirement savings in the stock market. Apparently, this gentleman had taken his retirement payments as a lump sum and had recently dumped it all in the market. As he sat on my exam table, he explained how in a few short days, he had lost more than 70 percent of his retirement savings, and those savings had taken him 40 years to amass! I am not usually at a loss for words, but nothing in my medical training could have prepared me for that moment. A couple of days later, I was seeing another patient. Mrs. Smith (not her real name) was a 50-something retired school teacher and seemed to be in a better mood than normal. I noticed her cheerfulness and asked her why she seemed so happy. She went on to explain how she and her husband had taken all of their retirement funds out of the stock market about a year previously and had used the funds to buy rental property. Their rentals were leased, and frankly, they were really enjoying retirement. Fortunate to have gotten out of the market when they did, this new landlord was not affected by the downturn in the markets at all. I had really never trusted the stock market. I mean, with the almost-daily headlines of one major bank after another caught cheating their clients or gaming the system somehow, this ladys message really hit home with me. Even so, I had always been too afraid of missing out on that once-in-a-lifetime Amazon or Microsoft stock pick to shift my investing away from the stock market. Right then and there, it finally hit home. When it came to real estate, I was afraid to make a mistake that would cost me money. Since I was not sure when or where to start, I just sat doing nothing for years. I had analysis paralysis, but I realized I was much more scared of ending up like my first patient, crying in a doctors office somewhere having lost the majority of my retirement. I finally made a commitment that real estate would be my investment vehicle of choice. 3. Find your motivation. A few years back, an MRI revealed I had a torn rotator cuff, torn labrum, and arthritis in my shoulder. Decades of occupational abuse and years of chasing baseball scholarships had taken their toll. My orthopedic physician announced I could either give up my chiropractic career immediately, or in about four years, I would need a shoulder replacement. Suddenly, I was heading toward for an untimely retirement. I was shocked. I had dedicated the last 29 years of my life to helping people heal. My entire identity was tied up in being a healthcare provider. At the same time, Obamacare was rapidly eroding away my practice of two-plus decades. I had no idea what I would do, but knew I needed a plan and needed one quick. After much angst and a considerable amount of prayer, I decided it was time to jump in with both feet. I still have a medical practice, but am working full-time on a plan to exit healthcare as soon as possible. Even though I didnt recognize it at the time, life circumstances helped me find my motivation. Each individual has their own unique mix of life experiences and desires that fuel their drive for success. For some, its the thought of a penniless retirement. For others, it is the commitment to never let their children grow up in poverty (like they did). Some people say that success is a lake home or traveling the world. Others have an altruistic motivation to give back to those less fortunate. There are 1,001 books on ramping up personal motivation. For me, however, it boils down to a very simple concept: Focusing on my goals 10 times more than I focus on the roadblocks. Every time I run up against what seems like an insurmountable roadblock, I pull out my list of goals and focus on what I want to accomplish. Time spent focusing on what matters most turbocharges my motivation levels. The roadblocks seem to work themselves out. Whats your motivation? Related: How to Jumpstart Your Investing Career as a Multifamily Deal Finder 4. Hire a mentor. Every athlete from t-ball to the big leagues has a coach. They need someone they can learn from who is more experienced. Someone who knows the ins and outs of the game. Its no different in real estate. If you are serious about learning the craft, you need to find someone to teach you the ropes. When I finally got serious, I hired a mentor. I knew if I spent my hard-earned money on a program, I would take it seriously. There are lots of mentors and training programs on BiggerPockets. For me, I knew the more expensive the program, the more commitment I was likely to have. I am not talking about a weekend seminar with a few handouts. I chose a company called 37th Parallel Properties. Their program is a comprehensive year-long mentorship. It includes visits to real assets across the country (much like getting an MBA in multifamily investing). Dont get me wrongnot everyone needs to pay for a mentor, but dont attempt to go it alone. Learn from someone elses mistakes. Its one of the many reasons I am such a big fan of BiggerPockets. You can learn so much just by hanging out in the community and reading the advice of experienced investors. Whether you hope to invest in single family homes, self-storage units, large multifamily communities, or mobile home parks, there is always someone with expertise willing to share.

5.Leverage the experience of others. Maybe you dont need to change careers like me. Maybe you just want to use commercial real estate to turbocharge your portfolio. Maybe you just want to be a passive investor and have very little interest in toilets, tenants, and trash. If you are an accredited or sophisticated investor, syndicated deals may be the best approach for you. Some companies offer syndicated real estate investments. They specialize in sourcing lucrative real estate assets and packaging them up for passive investors. They typically underwrite the project, perform all due diligence, line up debt, and complete the purchase. The companies then operate and oversee these assets so that their investors can realize great profits minus the headaches. Choosing a company that you feel comfortable with is the key to any syndicated investment. While it is a much quicker way to jump into the fray, be careful! Take your time and choose the specific deal and syndicator carefully. Ask lots of questions and always check references. So, what is holding you back? Whats it going to take to get you off the sidelines? Dont procrastinate like I did! Hey, if an old chiropractor can do it

What motivation led to your first investment? What did your journey there look like? Take a moment to share what it took to make your first real estate investment! https://www.biggerpockets.com/renewsblog/seven-child-adoption-launch-real-estate-career

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How to Be More Successful at Anything: Why You Need to Practice Where You Want to Be

Be honest, you and I both aren’t fans of making decisions.

We’ll do everything we can to circumvent or even push back the most stressful decisions of our lives. The act of taking action is scarier than the act of thinking. Still, when it comes to achieving goals—unless your goal is to do nothing—at some point, you have to take action. You must make a decision.

But that gets a little scary when your emotions creep in; once they get involved and start churning in your head, all hell can break loose.

Here’s the thing about emotions: they can be defeated by changing your perspective.

It’s never easy to change your perspective. Sometimes it’s agonizing and painful. But it can be done.

I get emails every day from people looking for the one hack, the secret sauce, to achieving their fitness goals. And most often this is my reply:

Practice where you want to be.

The Pain of the Beginning

Anyone who’s started a diet can tell you that those first few days, even weeks, are filled with a ton of emotions and struggles.

Saying no to your favorite late night snacks

The bland taste of veggies that you’re eating by the handfuls

And the sweat (and sore muscles) you have to work through via exercise.

You made a decision for health and longevity, but there has to be a better way, right? A short cut? A quick fix? A 5-minute-fat-blasting-ab-shredding-muscle-building routine that helps you lose 30 pounds in 30 days?

Our emotional perspective at this time is all about the goal—the end; our results.

This is all our emotions want. So what would happen if you changed your perspective?

What if you decided that instead of focusing on the outcome, you’d concentrate on the act of practice, first. And not just any act of practice. But the act of practice that the most successful people do every single day.

What kind of practice is this?

Pull up a seat, my friend. Because it’s story time.

I Can Fly Twice as High

I’ve never been eager to read books. Early on in my childhood, I knew that I was a visual learner. Show me how to do something, and I can (usually) do it. My mind works best with a ton of stimulus. It’s why video games have always worked for me: I’m a problem solver.

Reading, though, meant that I had to quiet my mind. I had to let my wandering thoughts sit still. Nine times out of ten, I’d get a few pages into a book, and I’d start falling asleep. Or my mind would begin to race and I’d lose focus on the pages in front of me.

Writing, on the other hand, allowed me to take those racing thoughts and place them down on paper, to put them into stories. To create and craft the magical journey that lived in my mind.

Up until last year, if you excluded the books I was forced to read for school, I’d probably read less than fifteen books for pure enjoyment in my life.

What changed?

A friend of mine whom I look up to as a writer told me point blank that if I wanted to improve as a writer, I needed to read more.

So, I did what anyone in the internet age would do today, I Googled: “how to read more.” And then I asked some of my more erudite friends about their reading habits.

None of my friends proclaimed to be speed readers. They didn’t have any secret process or strategies for reading numerous books a month either. Except for one.

They read every day, no matter what.

For some of them, that means one to two hours of reading in the morning. For others, they read as a part of their nightly routine before bed.

And some follow Ryan Holiday’s advice and carry multiple books with them everywhere they travel, reading every chance they have.

So I came to a turning point last year. I knew that if I wanted to become a better writer, I needed to read more. But how would I do that if my brain could barely make it through a dozen pages before I slumbered off or lost my place because of my racing thoughts?

Playing Catch-Up

How could I catch-up with many of my friends and fellow entrepreneurs who are voracious readers? They had years of a head start on me. There’s no way I could read as much as they do in a month. Let alone a year.

So why even try, right?

It’s thinking like that that causes us to give up or not even attempt our goals. We create these daunting tasks and tell ourselves that our self-worth, or the opinions of others, are tied up in whether we succeed or not.

Those barriers aren’t placed by other people, though. They’re placed there by our minds; we construct the obstacles to our success.

And instead of doing the one thing that made my friends’ great readers — aka practicing where I wanted to be — I was far too focused on the mountaintop, the end goal of “being well-read.” Here’s something to think about:

You can’t get to perfect if you don’t practice.

And sitting around and lamenting about the literature that I’d skipped during the 30-years I’ve spent on Earth, wasn’t going to get me any closer to my goal. I needed to put into practice the concept of “practicing where I wanted to be.”

That meant reading every day. No matter what.

How I Begin My Day

And to make this quest a bit easier, I decided not to set a goal of reading a certain number of books by the end of the year. For one, I would’ve (probably) set the number so low and procrastinated until the last minute. And second, I knew if I’d reached said numerical goal by the middle of the year, I would have never picked up another book in all of 2016.

But achieving a set number of books wasn’t the point. The point was I wanted to not only improve as a writer but as a reader. And to do that, I needed to practice where I wanted to be. So I read every day. First thing in the morning, for thirty minutes.

I didn’t start with something huge like “read a book a week.” And I would have failed if I had tried to read one book a day. But thirty minutes?

That, I could do.

And if all I read in thirty minutes was twelve pages, so be it. If it took me a month to finish a book, fine. The point wasn’t the end goal; the point was practicing where I wanted to be.

By the end of 2016, I read nearly thirty books. A 200% increase from the total number I had read in my previous 29 years.

Then, in the first month of 2017, I finished five books in a month. Which, if I kept that pace all year, I’d double what I read in 2016. But, honestly, I could care less about trying to hit that number.

It Works for More than Books, Too

You can apply the concept of practicing where you want to be in your quest to lose fat and look better naked (or in eating more nutritious foods).

Too often, when you decide to go on a diet or start exercising, you try and do it all at once—you try to be perfect from the get-go.

But if you break it down, and practice one aspect that those who’ve had long-term weight loss success practice every day, you’ll see huge changes in a few months.

Here’s a list of what some of those practices are:

Tracking everything they eat or drink

Lifting heavy weights 3-4 times a week

Walk more (be that 10,00 steps a day or 5,000)

Eat more lean protein

Consume more fibrous veggies

Limit their consumption of liquid calories, aka drink more water

Have a consistent sleep schedule

Limit their consumption of overly processed foods

When you put these principles into “practice” — many of these are the same principles I used to lose over 50 pounds and now use with my online coaching clients — you’ll feel better, move better, and look better naked.

I created a cheat-sheet that covers the most important practices for long-term fat loss called, The 7 Principles of Fat Loss, grab your copy here.

Practice Where You Want to Be

I didn’t become an overnight bookworm by reading every day. And eating more lean meat, lifting heavy weight for a week, or drinking more water for a month won’t turn you into a fitness cover model overnight. Remember: It’s not about the end; it’s about the process.

And when it comes to reading, the process for me hinges not on trying to catch-up with my bookish friends, but on practicing where I want to be.

So whatever your goal may be, don’t focus on the mountain top. Stop looking for the finish line. Instead, look at what those who are the most successful do every day, and practice where you want to be.

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Sure be cool if you did

Well the school year is almost over. Can you believe it? I made it through an entire year of college. Again. I didn’t accomplish many things I wanted to, though. But I guess thats what next year will be for.

I’m moving home next week. Back to my parents’ house for the summer. I’ll be working at the security gig again, but back at the bottom. None of this $18/hr crap, now I’m making $10.50/hr. Isn’t that great. But at least I’ll be back with my old buddies and we can have a good time for the next few months.

Kim moved away. To Seattle. She’s been on the road for the last 2 days. Probably got there by now. I’m kinda sad about that. If there was ever a chance (there wasn’t) it’s gone now. Then again, I may be moving to Seattle in a few years anyway. I want a condo with a nice view. Hopefully this degree will help with that.

I’ve been doing better in school. The first half of this semester was a disaster. I fell down into a depression again. I could barely get anything done. I couldn’t concentrate, and I was just miserable. I started seeing a counselor, and eventually a psychiatrist. We think I may have ADHD-PI, which may be the base cause of a lot of my issues. The concentration, procrastination, forgetfulness, social isolation, anxiety, etc. I’m supposed to receive a ritalin prescription this week or next. Hopefully it will come in before next Friday, because I have to move to start working. Anyway, I have a lot of hope.

Lol, the above paragraph is pretty common of my ADHD. I was going to describe how my semester has gotten better lately, but turned into something else. Anyway, my semester got better. Not socially or mentally, mind you, but academically. I’ve been keeping myself busy with schoolwork to avoid boredom. I get bored so easily, it sucks. But it’s good for schoolwork sometimes I guess.

I had to make a virtual stack machine in Java as a semester project. I was anxious about it and putting it off all semester. Yesterday, I opened it up and took a crack at it. And finished it. In one day. I’m really good at programming, I’ll give myself that one. I’m really proud of that stack machine too, because it really goes to show how far I’ve come since coming here. It often feels like I’m not learning anything (anything useful anyway), but I now intricately understand stacks, callstacks, assembly, processor architecture, databases, and a variety of other things. This fall, I’ll be taking one of the most difficult classes in the course, Data Structures and Algorithms. Hopefully with my programming skills and the help of the ritalin, I’ll do well.

So, I’ve been losing weight as well. Like, a lot. I’ve lost 25 pounds since I started working at it last fall. Granted, that’s not as much as it could be, but its still good. I’m at 171 right now. I’ve actually been losing fat, even though I’ve been platueued at the same weight for the last 3 months. I’ve been hitting the gym consistently. I think it really helps manage a lot of the depression and anxiety I feel. I’m gaining muscle mass and have upped weight on most sets. Hopefully by this fall I’ll have shaved off the rest of this fat and have a beach bod.

I was feeling pretty down about my looks for a while. Feeling fat and ugly and undesirable. Short. I don’t know. I posted some pictures on /r/amiugly and the response was an overwhelming NO. In fact, I received over 20 comments telling me I’m attractive. One girl even gave me a 7.5/10, one said I was “really freakin cute” and another said “I’d date you.” So, I’ve actually been feeling better about my looks lately. Which is good, because thats always been one of the big things that keeps me socially isolated.

So, social isolation. I’ve been feeling pretty lonely lately. Ha. It’s funny. I remember starting this blog in 2015 and I had just started feeling lonely. Before I started this blog, I was actually quite happy with being single. I had been in that messy relationship for 2 years, and being free and unchained was a huge boon to my mental health. I felt confident back then too, like I could easily get girls. I mean, when I was in a relationship I could barely keep them off of me. Lol, not really. But it felt that way sometimes. I was very confident and easily talked to girls. In fact, one of the biggest reasons I left Amanda was because I felt like I could do so much better. Who knew I’d end up where I am now?

It’s been 3 years since I’ve been in a relationship. It’s been over 6 months since I last got laid. just over 7 I think, actually. And that was a fluke. She only slept with me to get back at Casey. I tried to woo her again a bit over a month ago, but even with a bottle of wine and an evening spent at her apartment, nothing happened. I just have no game anymore. I should be able to woo girls. I mean, we’ve already slept together, I’m attractive, we had alcohol in our systems, and we spent at least an hour on the topic of sex. And yet...? Nada. I don’t know.

That’s what really bothers me. I don’t even try anymore. Before, I tried and failed. That sucked, but at least I tried. I mean, think about it. Christina, Amanda, Courtney, Tiffany Judy, TCU chick, Kim, exchange program chick, Hannah. I may even include Lauren in that list. I mean, most of those led to nothing, but at least I made an effort. Now, I don’t even try. I don’t know why not. Let’s try a thought experiment.

I see a gorgeous girl sitting alone who I feel is in my league. I want to talk to her. What happens? I should talk to her. I just walk away. Nothing goes through my mind, no feelings occur other than shame. Why do I walk away? If I start to approach, I get nervous. The more I approach, the more nervous I get. Some thoughts run through my head, like “What do I say?” or possible openers. My heart starts racing. I start feeling nauseous. The hairs on the back of my neck stand up. If I give it an attempt, I come off as very nervous and kind of weird. I can’t think of anything to say other than general small talk. Either she gets up and leaves or I do. I spend the rest of the day feeling like COMPLETE shit, replaying the embarrassment in my head, playing alternate conversations in my head, and may even consider suicide.

Wow. Yeah. Okay. That sounds like social anxiety to me. Thats just ridiculous. The weird thing is that its only when it’s in that context. Need to talk about academics? work? Ask to borrow something? No problem. Hmm. Maybe that should be my opener then. Hey, do you have a stapler I can borrow? Then while I use it, just talk about what I’m doing, ask her what shes doing, etc.

Alright. Lets try another thought experiment. You’re at the bar. You see a girl you would like to talk to sitting alone, or is obviously the only one in the group w/o a boyfriend. You’ve been scoping her out and she’s available to talk to. You’re slightly drunk. She’s drinking too. A good dance song is on. What do you do?

I think about it. I tell Casey. He encourages me to go over there. I say no and laugh it off. Then feel shame. Alright what happens if you decide to walk over. I walk over, drink in hand. I approach from the front-side so she doesn’t get spooked. I stop next to her, and say hi. She says hi. Assuming she doesn’t ignore me, look at me weird, or tell me to fuck off, I ask if she would like to dance. If she says no, thank her for her time and leave. Feel dejected. Start drinking heavier. Go home and hate myself. If she says yes, tell her, “I gotta warn you though, I’m new to two-stepping.” If still yes, then take her hand and walk onto the dance floor. Get her name, ask her if she goes to school here. Eventually take the conversation off of the dance floor. Try to get her number.

Ugh. See. It’s not that hard. It’s all in my head. ITS ALL IN MY HEAD. Why?? Why can’t I make it stop. Fuck. Well. Fuck. I hope the Ritalin solves this somewhat. I read online that it can help immensely with confidence. I believe it. When I popped molly I was very social and not anxious at all. Same with shrooms, kind of. Well, I guess we will find out.

I just hope this social isolation ends soon. I’m driving myself crazy. I’m actually just typing this because I have no one to talk to right now and I just need to get some of these thoughts out of my head so I can relax. They won’t leave until I start letting them out in some way or another. I can’t handle being alone anymore though. I find myself pretending I have a girlfriend when I’m alone. Grabbing at the air, closing my eyes and imagining I’m cuddling, having pretend conversations with the chair next to me. Talking about my day to the only thing that will listen. I’ve actually written more on this post than I wrote for my semester essay. Lol. Fuck.

Anyway. It’s going to be really awkward if anyone ever finds this blog. They’ll think I’m insane or something. Pretending to talk to someone. They probably just don’t know what it’s like to be so isolated by your own mind. It’s terrible. It’s a living hell that I wouldn’t wish upon anybody.

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“I took Deborah’s Author Your Book Course. I was at a stage in my book where I hit the wall. I met with Deborah privately who brainstormed with me on the message I was trying to convey. I did not have a solid title yet and Deborah helped me to see how important that was. Once I got the right title, the whole book came together. I am grateful for her insight, guidance and ability to see the whole picture”

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—Audrey Addison Williams (Kapala, East Africa) CEO, Inspire Africa Academy

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“This workbook is a genius creation for writers, like me, who have wanted to publish a book but never knew the right order or steps to take to complete it! This insightful guide provides a step-by-step approach to help budding writers organize their thoughts and includes all the necessary components to publish. I took a fabulous publishing workshop with Deborah where, with her guidance, my book blueprint was delivered in the mail.” Read More.

—Emily Yurcheshen (Santa Barbara, CA) Author, An Odyssey of Song

“Great Tool for establishing dreams suitable for junior high students through college and adult seekers. Positive affirmations and simple step by step activities make this a must have tool for those ready to plan for future, write a practical life plan, or even write a book!”

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(Immediate Direct Download)

Busting Negative Thought Habits: 10 Episodes PDF

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You too can enjoy the life-changing experience of becoming a published author. Listen, as Cindy White shares her excitement!

Have you ever asked yourself, how do dreams come true?

Ever wanted to make your dreams come true … on purpose?

Julia Loggins describes how fun the publishing process is with Deborah’s step-by-step self-publishing curriculum.

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Nelson wrote and published 22 books, including Change Your Story, Vacation Rental Owner’s Manual, Do-it-Yourself Vacation Rental Branding, The Vacation Rental Travel Guide series, and the Author Your Reality series. As a publishing coach, she has guided over 100 authors to publish their books. Recently, she introduced her latest innovation—Vision Kits.

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Buy Now

A Published Vision Book Offers these Self Improvement Options

The Newest Secret Vision Kit—SILVER

Retail Price: $286 | $77.00 Sale

The Newest Secret Vision Kit—SILVER Curriculum is a $286 Retail Value

The Newest Secret Textbook E-book PDF

(Immediate Direct Download)

The Newest Secret Workbook Paperback

(Mailed Via Amazon Books)

60 Minute Vision Coaching Session with Author Deborah S. Nelson

(Schedule Via [email protected])

Ten Dreams to Reality Steps to Reach Your Goals PDF

(Immediate Direct Download)

Busting Negative Thought Habits: 10 Episodes PDF

(Immediate Direct Download)

—Mannie Jackson (Las Vegas, NV) Harlem Globetrotters

—Maya Shaw Gale (Carpinteria, CA) Poet & Life Coach, Creative Edge Coaching

—Patty DeDominic (Montecito, CA) Founder, DeDominic & Associates International Woman’s Festival

—D. S. Beasley (Colorado Springs, CO) Owner, Angel Arts

—J. Nelson (New York, NY) Photographer

—Larry Melby (Carpinteria, CA)

—Julia Loggins (Santa Barbara, CA) Author, Dare to Detoxify, It Takes Guts to Be Happy!

—Eve Briere (Santa Barbara, CA) Founder, Successful Organizing Solutions Author, 31 Days, 31 Spaces

—Bill Hood (Austin, TX) Bill Hood Books

—Carol Stall (Austin, TX)

—Peter Kahuria (Oklahoma City, OK)

—Cindy M. White (Santa Barbara, CA) Author, The Ripple Effect Game

—Audrey Addison Williams (Kapala, East Africa) CEO, Inspire Africa Academy

Visualization in a New Way!

—Taylor Reaume (Santa Barbara, CA) Search Engine Pros

—Robert Munster (Portland, ME) Author, Still Surfing, Forty Eight Years on Waves, Who Are We, Really?, Learning to Listen to Life’s Clues

—Emily Yurcheshen (Santa Barbara, CA) Author, An Odyssey of Song

—Dr. Deborah De Vries (Ventura, CA) School Trustee and College Instructor

How Can The Newest Secret Curriculum Help You?

Making Dreams Come True—on Purpose

Law of Attraction PLUS Power of the Pen EQUALS Success

Not Ready to Buy—But Want to Start Anyway?

Free E-Course—Busting Negative Thought Habits

The Newest Secret Vision Kit—SILVER

Retail Price: $286 | $77.00 Sale

The Newest Secret Vision Kit—SILVER Curriculum is a $286 Retail Value

The Newest Secret Textbook E-book PDF

(Immediate Direct Download)

The Newest Secret Workbook Paperback

(Mailed Via Amazon Books)

60 Minute Vision Coaching Session with Author Deborah S. Nelson

(Schedule Via [email protected])

Ten Dreams to Reality Steps to Reach Your Goals PDF

(Immediate Direct Download)

Busting Negative Thought Habits: 10 Episodes PDF

(Immediate Direct Download)

Publishing a Vision Book Is Like Printing Money

INVEST IN YOURSELF: To invest in yourself, is the best investment ever! Getting the right training and information helps you move from mediocrity to excellence—from depression to exuberance.

AUTHENTIC CONFIDENCE: Once you publish a vision book, expect a confidence surge to increase by 25, 50 or 100%. More confidence translates into more earning power.

FINANCIAL GOALS: Focus your vision book on abundance and setting financial goals. With your new vision, start practicing an abundance mindset and money will come to you.

Not Ready to Buy—But Want to Start Anyway?

Free E-Course—Busting Negative Thought Habits

Our Popular SILVER VISION KIT Below Includes Books & Author Consult—$77

The Newest Secret Vision Kit—GOLD

The Newest Secret Vision Kit—SILVER

The Newest Secret Vision Kit—PLATINUM

You too can enjoy the life-changing experience of becoming a published author. Listen, as Cindy White shares her excitement!

Have you ever asked yourself, how do dreams come true?

Ever wanted to make your dreams come true … on purpose?

Julia Loggins describes how fun the publishing process is with Deborah’s step-by-step self-publishing curriculum.

Deborah S. Nelson, Author-Publisher-Speaker

Nelson’s digital publishing curriculum has guided numerous writers through their publishing journey on the way to publish a total of 120+ books.

FREE BONUS—Busting Negative Thought Habits With Purchase of Any Vision Kit

Claim The Newest Secret Gift Now!

Regardless of your buying decision today, I want to help you redesign your life!

You Receive a 90-Day Money Back Guarantee

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allenmendezsr · 4 years

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Power Of The Pen Plus Law Of Attraction Equals Success

New Post has been published on https://autotraffixpro.app/allenmendezsr/power-of-the-pen-plus-law-of-attraction-equals-success/

Power Of The Pen Plus Law Of Attraction Equals Success

Buy Now

A Published Vision Book Offers these Self Improvement Options

The Newest Secret Vision Kit—SILVER

Retail Price: $286 | $77.00 Sale

The Newest Secret Vision Kit—SILVER Curriculum is a $286 Retail Value

The Newest Secret Textbook E-book PDF

(Immediate Direct Download)

The Newest Secret Workbook Paperback

(Mailed Via Amazon Books)

60 Minute Vision Coaching Session with Author Deborah S. Nelson

(Schedule Via [email protected])

Ten Dreams to Reality Steps to Reach Your Goals PDF

(Immediate Direct Download)

Busting Negative Thought Habits: 10 Episodes PDF

(Immediate Direct Download)

—Mannie Jackson (Las Vegas, NV) Harlem Globetrotters

—Maya Shaw Gale (Carpinteria, CA) Poet & Life Coach, Creative Edge Coaching

—Patty DeDominic (Montecito, CA) Founder, DeDominic & Associates International Woman’s Festival

—D. S. Beasley (Colorado Springs, CO) Owner, Angel Arts

—J. Nelson (New York, NY) Photographer

—Larry Melby (Carpinteria, CA)

—Julia Loggins (Santa Barbara, CA) Author, Dare to Detoxify, It Takes Guts to Be Happy!

—Eve Briere (Santa Barbara, CA) Founder, Successful Organizing Solutions Author, 31 Days, 31 Spaces

—Bill Hood (Austin, TX) Bill Hood Books

—Carol Stall (Austin, TX)

—Peter Kahuria (Oklahoma City, OK)

—Cindy M. White (Santa Barbara, CA) Author, The Ripple Effect Game

—Audrey Addison Williams (Kapala, East Africa) CEO, Inspire Africa Academy

Visualization in a New Way!

—Taylor Reaume (Santa Barbara, CA) Search Engine Pros

—Robert Munster (Portland, ME) Author, Still Surfing, Forty Eight Years on Waves, Who Are We, Really?, Learning to Listen to Life’s Clues

—Emily Yurcheshen (Santa Barbara, CA) Author, An Odyssey of Song

—Dr. Deborah De Vries (Ventura, CA) School Trustee and College Instructor

How Can The Newest Secret Curriculum Help You?

Making Dreams Come True—on Purpose

Law of Attraction PLUS Power of the Pen EQUALS Success

Not Ready to Buy—But Want to Start Anyway?

Free E-Course—Busting Negative Thought Habits

The Newest Secret Vision Kit—SILVER

Retail Price: $286 | $77.00 Sale

The Newest Secret Vision Kit—SILVER Curriculum is a $286 Retail Value

The Newest Secret Textbook E-book PDF

(Immediate Direct Download)

The Newest Secret Workbook Paperback

(Mailed Via Amazon Books)

60 Minute Vision Coaching Session with Author Deborah S. Nelson

(Schedule Via [email protected])

Ten Dreams to Reality Steps to Reach Your Goals PDF

(Immediate Direct Download)

Busting Negative Thought Habits: 10 Episodes PDF

(Immediate Direct Download)

Publishing a Vision Book Is Like Printing Money

INVEST IN YOURSELF: To invest in yourself, is the best investment ever! Getting the right training and information helps you move from mediocrity to excellence—from depression to exuberance.

AUTHENTIC CONFIDENCE: Once you publish a vision book, expect a confidence surge to increase by 25, 50 or 100%. More confidence translates into more earning power.

FINANCIAL GOALS: Focus your vision book on abundance and setting financial goals. With your new vision, start practicing an abundance mindset and money will come to you.

Not Ready to Buy—But Want to Start Anyway?

Free E-Course—Busting Negative Thought Habits

Our Popular SILVER VISION KIT Below Includes Books & Author Consult—$77

The Newest Secret Vision Kit—GOLD

The Newest Secret Vision Kit—SILVER

The Newest Secret Vision Kit—PLATINUM

You too can enjoy the life-changing experience of becoming a published author. Listen, as Cindy White shares her excitement!

Have you ever asked yourself, how do dreams come true?

Ever wanted to make your dreams come true … on purpose?

Julia Loggins describes how fun the publishing process is with Deborah’s step-by-step self-publishing curriculum.

Deborah S. Nelson, Author-Publisher-Speaker

Nelson’s digital publishing curriculum has guided numerous writers through their publishing journey on the way to publish a total of 120+ books.

FREE BONUS—Busting Negative Thought Habits With Purchase of Any Vision Kit

Claim The Newest Secret Gift Now!

Regardless of your buying decision today, I want to help you redesign your life!

You Receive a 90-Day Money Back Guarantee

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