#PHOBIA mag

[transsexual-divinity]

Hey losers and losettes,

I’m in the very early stages of starting a little diy zine about horror movies! I have no experience in this so advice is appreciated lol. But I’m hoping to have it out by July. I’m calling it PHOBIA and the theme of this one is summer horror, so not strictly ones that take place in summer but they got the vibes. Along with the horror theme there’s also gonna be a smaller section about upcoming music/concerts/etc too. Going to attempt to have it in print but it may end up digital if that’s easier for me. And I’m having open submissions!

I’m open to all things, art, reviews and rantings, movie recommendations, original fiction or horror poetry, even your urban legends (got a story about a evil ice cream truck lol I’d love to hear it!). The subjects so far are:

House of wax 2005

Sharp objects 2018

X 2022

Texas Chainsaw 3d 2013, though I haven’t watched it yet..

Hopefully Maxxxine 2024 if one of my local theaters plays it when it comes out

Music, so if you want a shameless plug of your band hit me up!

And anything else I (or you) can think of

So if that’s something your interested in email me at: [email protected]

#m talks #or of course you can dm me on here too if you want #I kind of have no clue what I’m doing but I want to give it a shot #yeah even if you just want to say that house of wax is the worst movie you ever saw or whatever that’s good too I like variety #I probably won’t really distribute this anywhere may be able to get a shelf spot out a local record store but that’s about as public as itl- #get in the irl world. as for online or like snail mail idk bout that yet either but am open to it #would love to send a copy to anyone that contributes also #but um yeah! hmu! we trying to get creative in here lol. also yeah I’ll probably reblog this a few times then have it replace my pinned for #a while too. again advice is welcome from anyone experienced in the zine or art world out there #queing this for in the morning for reach #also have to go brush my teeth #oh yes and I need to make a mag tag hold on. okay here it is-> #PHOBIA mag #okay now for the shameless attention tagging #zines #zine promo #horror zine #house of wax #sharp objects #x 2022 movie #x 2022 #texas chainsaw 3d

[magpiethepunkfairy]

The emotional crash and anxiety spiral that hits immediately after hanging out with someone

Did I do good, did I socialize right, did I sound cool, gods do they hate me now, was I to weird, was I to much, did I talk to much, did I have enough to do, I miss them, do they hate me, God I fucked it up probably, whyd I say that, why didn't I say that, do they think I'm weird, do they like me, did-

It exhausts me, but I can't turn it off

#actually autistic #actually adhd #ramblings #mental health #generalized anxiety disorder #social anxiety #anxiety #social phobia #socializing is so Hard #they even said they'd try to hangout again soon why am i so worried i fucked up somehow!! #mag barks

[volcanolotus]

Bro I'm swear to God you'll never know who is a nutshack fan can be they could be right under your fucking noses and you would be number wiser because who's going to sit here and be like yeah I watched and enjoyed the nutshack anyways please don't watch this show.

#the nutshack #I literally cannot recommend it to anyone there is so many things wrong with it like #yes it's an important part of my history and I honor it as such however #the blatant. everything phobia. #mags says...

[googleincognitomode]

thg headcanons:

(Trigger warning for phobia, trauma and psychological mentionings)

the Hawthornes have a family song/lullaby: the “I love you song” ( Frankie Valley LOVE song). It all started out with mr h and hazelle having a dance to the song, and then gales dad just starts sing to hazelle and his kids to ‘brighten up their lives’. Gale n hazelle continues on the song to sing the kids to sleep, cuz it is a sweet thing that makes them think of the good times before the chaos.

katniss uses unscented shampoo and conditioners. she hates the reminder of it’s artificial, unrealistic, inauthenticity— like the Capitol. By being unscented and not having any connection to the Capitol, katniss allows herself to be free and unbranded. peeta always uses fresh or sweeter scents: maybe like mint and chamomile. But he ends up smelling like backed good at the end of the day

haymitch is Madge’s godfather like figure. he is close to her mother, due to being connected to mayslee. cuz of this, the undersees trust him a lot and have so much faith with him. he even cares a lot for Madge too, wanting what’s good for her.

Johanna, from the hjacking, developed a phobia of any form of water. cuz of that, she couldn’t take a proper shower or bath for a good couple of years, and won’t visit district 4 (also the pain of losing a close friend). she would clean herself with watered rags and wipe her body clean. she also cuts her hair short, never too short, but short and asks Annie to wash her hair for her— which she always does and hold her hands telling her she’s okay.

To add on, I think Katniss develops on onset phobia of needles. After all the trauma and abuse she got from the capital and the revolution, she hates the idea of needles, cus it just trigger her fight-or-flight reaction to protecting herself. Especially all the episodes of being unconscious, drugged up or injuries beyond repair.

Annie, I think, would want to become a psychologist, or something incredibly similar in the future. She learns to become better and helps other with similar situations to improve themselves to become more at ease. She specifies in trauma/addiction and childhood psychotherapy.

The mellarks adopt another cat and name it dandelion. Similar to the flower/plant motive of the Everdeens name, but also cause it reminds katniss of peeta. Dandelion, the cat, would be blonde with white in it. And it would be always there at the corner of katniss’ eye

Finnick has a massive book collection and poetry collection at his place. Him, Mags and Annie all have a ‘Book Club’ group and talk to each other

Finnick can’t sing anything other than sea-ship songs. Like those old-times pirate/ sea songs. He also sways a little when he stands too still for too long— an old habit that died hard from his youth his his dad owning a boat. Annie smtimes joins him w his singing, and mags too

#hungergames #everlark #peeta mellark #gale hawthorne #katniss everdeen #post mockingjay #madge undersee #annie cresta #finnick odair #johanna mason #haymitch abernathy #the hunger games #hunger games #headcanons #headcanon

[amandacanwrite]

Amanda Cessor • A Writeblr Intro

Hey everyone! I'm Amanda Cessor and I write historical fantasy and romance. I have words published in Merciless Mermaids (An Anthology,) Full Mood Mag, and I have my first novel coming out with Inked in Gray Press.

I'll be posting tips, essays, creative nonfiction and excerpts from my work here, as well as documenting the process of publishing my first book with a small, independent press. I hope we can be friends!

The Novel is called "With Love, Juniper" and the little elevator pitch is: Herbalist and witch Juniper, who suffers from severe social phobia, finds herself caught between the courtships of her oldest friend, Oleander, and handsome, influential stranger, Theo, while trying to deal with the expectations of her parents and the members of the small village she lives in.

I have entirely too many projects I'm currently working on, behold:

A Dawn Without Ashes -- Vampire Romance, Stand Alone (for now?)

Projected Word Count -- 100k

Setting

Fantasy Anachronistic 1920's vibes, in a land where Vampires rule and humans are seen as little more than a food source.

Synopsis

In Oubliette, Vampires rule from the shadows. Humans are considered pests at their worst, beloved pets at best. Orianna is the lowest of the low, an impoverished thief awaiting her sentencing after stealing coins to buy some food. When the charming Count Diable hand picks her as a commodity for his blood-brothel, she worries she has jumped out of the frying pan and straight into the fire.  

She has no idea how true that really is until she meets Atlas, Count of House Lune, darling of the Empress and and keeper of a secret that could change everything. Not only for her,  but for all of human kind.  

Of Foxes and Follies -- Fae Meets Peaky Blinders -- Trilogy

Projected Word Count -- 100k

Setting

Fictional version of Scotland, which I like to call Not!land and actually called Dimloch, around the 1910's or 1920's.

Synopsis

Rheannon Todd has a debt to pay. A debt she plans to pay by stealing from drunken guests at a Midsummer Soiree hosted by the notorious gangster known as The Magpie.

What she doesn't know is that The Magpie is more than just a charming card sharp with a penchant for cruelty. He's a member of the Unseelie Court and he doesn't much like being stolen from.

The Hallowed Wilds -- Serial on Hiatus -- Grounded Romantasy

Setting

Pseudo Appalachian small town in the 1840's.

Synopsis

Ezra lives near a mysterious forest called The Wilds. People who go in there tend to not come out, but even as a boy he feels drawn to the strange place. One day, when his parents are out, he sneaks into The Wilds and meets Aurelia, a strange, beautiful witch who has lived in the forest since she was born.

What starts as a beloved childhood friendship develops into a star crossed love over the years. The fear in the village and the brutality of the witches in the forest threaten to tear them apart.

Currently on Hiatus, but you can read about 60k of it here!

Red Skies -- Standalone Novel -- Pirate Romantasy

Projected Word Count -- 100k

Setting

Psuedo Imperial open world around the 18th Century.

Synopsis

Cordelia Shurka will do anything to provide for her family. She's worked herself to the bone since she was a child to keep the house afloat after her father vanished from their lives. When things get too hard, though, she seeks to raise her station by marrying herself to the viceroy. It seems an easy trade, her utter devotion and obedience in exchange for finally having the security she so desperately wants.

On her wedding day, the thinks she's finally out of the woods. That is until handsome pirate, Edric Davenport steals her for himself.

Want Updates?

If you happen to be interested in getting updates on any of these projects, you can join my tag list here!

#writeblr #creative writing #writers #novel writing #authors #book quotes #writers on tumblr #writing community #writing #writers of tumblr #writers community #writeblr intro #my writing #pirate book #red skies #vampire book #a dawn without ashes #The Hallowed Wilds #Witch Book #Fae Book #Of Foxes and Follies

[thatpodcastkid]

Magnus Archives Relisten 16, MAG 16 Arachnophobia

Oh mirror characters, we're really in it now.

MAG 16 analysis, spoilers ahead!

Facts: Statement of Carlos Vittery regarding the manifestations of his arachnophobia. Statement given May 1, 2016.

Statement Notes: oh no.

Okay, starting gently. I was particularly intrigued by Vittery's methods of denial and level of cognitive dissonance. He always knew there were spiders in his garden, but didn't feel the need to move until he actually saw them. He knows Major Tom probably isn't killing every spider, but he's okay pretending to believe it. He lives in a state of willful ignorance because what else could he do? With such a crippling phobia, how else could he be expected to live if not in denial?

I also noted Carlos' increasing bravery, as well as his increasing willingness to commit acts of violence. Bravery may actually be a strong word, as he is simply more willing to kill spiders to eliminate his fear. This is a strategy the Web utilizes often to push people into becoming, if not avatars, harmful to others. Can someone be called brave solely because they enact violence on that which they fear? Did Vittery become stronger or weaker? Did he become more courageous or more of a coward?

Carlos also becomes increasingly isolated as the episode progresses, largely due to his fear of spiders outside his flat and the way the spider may take over when he leaves. He also doesn't seem to have any close friends or family to intervene or help him as his phobia worsens. This is notable because, with no one to rationalize what is happening to him, Carlos descends further into fear.

Vittery also strangely emphasizes the "stylized blue owl" on his mug. Does this come up again? It seems like a logo, but for what?

"Completely encased in webs." Not a few. Not covered in spiders. But completely encased in webs.

Entity Alignment: If Hill House can't be called the beginning of The Web's ritual and Annabelle Cane's plot, this episode can be:

Vittery didn't move into the new flat until he saw the spiders in his old one. He lived there for years and sat in that garden many times without seeing any spiders, when suddenly dozens descended on him. The Web forced Vittery to move so that he would become Prentiss' victim. His new flat holds the silver worms that infect him. This is where Martin is attacked. This kicks off the season 1 conflict. This begins the end. This gives the Spider everything she wants.

This theory is furthered by the fact that the spider haunting him prevents Carlos from leaving his flat and encourages him to give up Major Tom, removing his ability to escape or kill the worms.

The Web is known to play the long game, so it's entirely possible that it has been arranging this since 1991 by sending the spider to scare young Carlos. However, I also like the idea that the Web had several options it could send to the Boothby Road Flat, but specifically chose Vittery due to the intensity of his fear.

Character Notes: This has been said before, but it is so eerie how similar Vittery is to Jon. They both live in willing denial of their fears. They both act irrationally in the face of common problems. They both respond to their feelings in extremes or not at all. They both are proven right. They are both haunted by the ghost of the spider that ruined their childhood.

I have a...concern about the implications of my earlier web theory. Many fans cite MAG 22, in which Martin describes his escape from Prentiss after investigating Vittery's apartment, as the moment when Martin and Jon's relationship softens. I personally believe this is when Martin's feelings for Jon began to form, and Jon began considering his feelings for Martin before fully experiencing them in the season finale.

But if this episode is prompted by the Web and Martin's investigating part of Annabelle Cane's manipulation, then is Jon and Martin's relationship also a part of their plan? Cane clearly needs Jon to open the other universe. She really only seems to use Martin as a lure for Jon before the series finale, kidnapping Martin to tempt Jon to Hilltop Road. Is that the whole point of Jon and Martin being together? Would they ever have found each other if Cane didn't need to prepare her bait five years in advance?

#podcasts #audio drama #rusty quill #the magnus archives relisten #tma #tma relisten #jonny sims #media analysis #jonathan sims #analysis #Martin Blackwood #The web #The spider #tma entities #smirkes 14 #smirke's fourteen #annabelle cane #carlos vittery #MAG 16 #arachnophobia #tma spoilers #magnus archives #the magnus archives #horror #horror podcasts #horror podcast

[sorryichasedyourmorning]

Depressing Characters in Repo! The Genetic Opera

This is mainly a writing about Mag, Shilo, Nathan, Luigi, and SINGLE MOM (Why do you guys all like Single Mom so much). But yeah! Welcome to my analysis of sad Repo characters and WHY THEY'RE DEPRESSING. Of course, here are the disclaimers of topics mentioned in this short little essay thing:

Exploitation

Power Imbalances

Abuse

Child Neglect and Abuse

Suicide

Mental Illness

Discussion of Sexual Themes (Not in a weird way, don't worry)

Self-loathing

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First off, let's talk about Shilo. Shilo was completely lied to by her father, and her case doesn't need much explaining, as she is one of the most explored characters in the films. She lives her entire life being poisoned and trapped in a room, and when she discovers this, she doesn't even have the opportunity to seek closure, as her father is then murdered in front of her. Shilo now has to make up for the missing years of her life with no one around her to comfort her, having watched her only other family besides her now deceased father quite literally kill herself on stage. This leaves her destined to now have to find her own guidance in a world where she now has to work through the trauma procured from the events of the opera.

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In an order of connecting things, Nathan. Nathan has to deal with the blame and self-loathing of a murder that he didn't commit, even dying believing that he was always truly at fault. The death of his wife and the fear of how Shilo was almost taken for him haunt him, leading him to have a deep phobia of people leaving him. Nathan uses this as motivation to poison Shilo and push away all other people in his life, stating that Shilo had died, therefore leaving him with a person that would be able to provide a sort of echo chamber for him, only knowing the loving and kind side that he showed her and knowing no other mannerisms of his, leading him to have an endless source of appreciation.

Through his career as a Repo man, Nathan begins to take on a sort of split personality, switching between the personality of a father with a passion for science and a psychotic man whose only purpose is the track and kill his victims, thus showing the corrupting manner of his career.

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Mag is the definition of someone who is absolutely fucked over by quite literally ever factor in the film. She deals with a horrible life with GeneCo, a loveless relationship (See below), loss of her closest friend and goddaughter, who is presumed dead by the society outside of the Wallace house, a debt that she can never fully replay, self-hatred due to actions that aren't of her own, and a contract that, per a theory I stated in a previous post, may have been completely unfair and left her unaware of the main issue of it.

The subject of Mag's death is argued about, mainly on TVtropes, this regarding whether or not it counts as a suicide due to the fact that one reason that she chose to go out this way was due to the fact that she wanted to finally be able to control at least one thing in her life. I personally would rule this as a suicide due to the simple definition of the word, as well as connecting factors of the lyrics in her songs alluding to trauma and self-loathing. There's also the factor of how she needs to maintain a perfect exterior for GeneCo, and like the Largos, is not able to show weakness and is forced to simply not stop smiling and give the public what they want to see.

She won the poll of saddest character, for the record, which compared to all of the little Twitter things you can snag from the Largo Twitters, lyrics of her songs, and simple observations, this can be seen as quite understandable.

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Back to connecting things, we have Luigi. Luigi has an incredibly active Twitter that gives us a lot of information on him, such as the fact that Rotti wasn't exactly always there for him when he was a child, which can lead to an inference that he grew up being praised for this violent behavior. This also leads to Luigi's inability to have a real relationship, as shown by the fact that his Twitter highlights a relationship that he had with Mag.

In this relationship, he tried to keep his feelings out of it and leave it as a purely sexual thing, but his posts do show that he does want something more than that, but due to his inability to express his feelings, he is never able to have this.

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To try and lighten the mood (Even though this is another sad stuff analysis), let's talk about a character who actually got multiple votes, Single Mom. As @mahoukat said in the poll comments, Single Mom represents consumerism and the exploitation and fetishization of the impoverished. She initially needed a kidney transplant simply so that she could stay alive for her children, but didn't have the money for this. In turn, she was given a full-body makeover with the condition of her exposing herself on live television, a complete exploitation of her impoverished status to cause her to do something that could potentially ruin her life with friends and family, as well as harm her chances of finding new connections.

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The comments are an OPEN FORUM!! I really like reading your comments and reblogs, so ye!!

#blind mag #nathan wallace #shilo wallace #luigi largo #single mom (repo) #repo #repo! the genetic opera #r!tgo #rtgo #repo!tgo #GRAAAAAVES

[theseretoningoblin]

Magnus archives propaganda post

Go listen to the Magnus archives. It’s free. Go to a podcast app, scroll down til you find “mag 1 anglerfish” and listen to it

The Magnus archives is my favorite piece of media ever, horror fan or not you will love it. It’s a anthology series with one big overarching plot that starts to come together the further you get into it. (You do wanna listen to each episode in order) if you have any specific phobias each episode has a specific content warning so you can navigate around anything you don’t like.

If you still aren’t convinced take a look at the reviews

#here is some serotonin #the magnus pod #the magnus archives #tma #tma podcast #podcasts #podcast #horror #magnus archives #rusty quill #10/10 reccomend #highly recommend #listen to it now

[papersparrows]

🌷 First time kong mag EK for some reason sa tinagal kong nabubuhay sa mundo hahaha. Ewan ko, I think lagi lang talaga akong tinamad sa thought na bumiyahe pa-Laguna para lang magrides before kahit taga south lang din naman ako (pero nakarating sa ibang bansa para mag disneyland at universal ano hahaha). Magbibirthday na kasi mudra at sister ko, magkasunod sila. And eto trip nila this year eh since iilan na lang naman kaming magcecelebrate at ayaw nila magparty nang bongga. And yung sis ko kasi gustong-gusto niya ko mag EK since di siya makapaniwalang di pa ko nakarating doon hahaha. Siya kasi nakailang balik na with friends. So sabi ko sige G kung yan gusto niyo hehe.

🌷 Masaya naman din pala, ang lala nung ibang rides huhu. I was never afraid of heights and dati gora lang ako sa lahat nung extreme rides bcoz adrenaline pero once you reach a certain age.... medyo kakabahan ka na eh HAHAHAHA. Parang di ko kayang ulitin yung drop tower tsaka space shuttle huhu. Pati yung twin spin. Actually pati na rin yung jungle log jam, dun yata ako pinakatakot. Dahil lang dun sa wala kang seatbelt or anything yun yung pinaka nakakatakot na aspect sakin like alam ko namang medyo s****dal ako paminsan pero ayoko namang mamatay nang ganon hello ??? Like wdym kakapit lang ako sa basang bakal tapos yun na yun?! Never again

🌷 May sakit na ko ngayon pero hopefully saglitan lang to. Grabe kasi yung kapaguran buong araw lakad takbo. Naglaro pa kami nung paintball. Di ko naman inexpect na ganon pala yun ????? Ang sakit pala pota ??? Akala ko parang wala lang kasi pintura lang naman as in para ka lang nag water balloon fight. I was so wrong!!! Hahaha. Pagkabili ng tickets nagulat ako pinapirma ako ng waiver 😭? Then nag explain na yung marshall kung anong gagawin jusko ginusto kong magback out pero too late na HAHA. Masaya naman!!! Sabi pa nung marshall samin kinakabahan daw siya panoorin kami kasi ang tatapang daw namin puro sugod hahahaha. Anyway ang sakit matamaan nung bala parang bato.

🌷 Bago nagclose yung park, sumakay kami dun sa rio grande. Nakasakay na silang lahat tapos sabi ko pass muna ako since super sakit na ng katawan ko. Kaso umulit sila at gusto akong isama kasi ang daya daw dapat daw mabasa din talaga ako. Sila pa nagplano kung san ako uupo, so yun sakto sakin buhos nang buhos yung tubig. Basang-basa yung dress ko after ang haba pa naman ng dress ko so super kadiri and uncomfortable natulo pa nga HAHA. May dala akong pamalit, kaso ayaw pa nilang magpalit ng damit since paclose na park gusto humabol sa rides last minute. So pinatakbo nila ako habang tulo nang tulo damit ko sobrang wtf!! I do not recommend. Nakakaiyak mumsh hahahah :(( Then sa pinaka last ride namin pumasok kami dun sa Alcatraz na horror house. Actually ayoko talaga kaso mapilit si sister. Tapos di naman kami aware na may mga actors pala talaga???? Eh malala phobia ko sa mga taong nakacostume ng clown, mime, zombie, multo, etc etc!!! Tapos yung in character pa!! As in MALALANG PHOBIA. So sorry nang sorry kapatid ko kaso too late na nandun na kami. Iyak lang ako nang iyak at sigaw the whole time ang tagal matapos. Sobrang bangungot huhu. Nasigawan ko pa yung isang lalaki dun na kasama namin from another group of friends, akala ko kasi bf ng sister ko. Bf kasi niya yung nasa pinakaunahan para di kami yung unang makakaranas ng scares. Eh akala ko siya yung isang lalaki, so sinigawan ko yung lalaki dahil akala ko nga si bf ni sister sa sobrang takot ko sabi ko "MAUNA KA!!!!!! MAUNA KAAAAAAAAAAAA" paulit ulit HAHAHAHA tas saka ko lang narealize di ko pala siya kilala HAHA 😭😭😭😭 so todo sorry ako nakakahiya hahshwjakkskekr.

🌷 So ngayon nilalagnat na ko sa sobrang pagod at takot na naranasan ko sabay naulanan pa hehe 🥲 but it's ok masaya naman!

#pix #diary #me

[magpiethepunkfairy]

What's the overlap and differences between like, rsd, morality ocd, and social anxiety or phobia (and the differences between those two things honestly)

I'm assuming there's got to be like different criteria even if they might feel similar sometimes, how do you know which one your feeling/dealing with?

#mental health #morality ocd #rejection sensitive dysphoria #rejection sensitivity #rsd #anxiety #social anxiety #social phobia #mag barks #actually autistic #actually adhd #actually neurodivergent #im so confused constantly #madpunk #mad pride

[a-mag-a-day]

I love how we all collectively joke about The Magnus Archives as just being one long anti-smoking campaign, but given how many times people have used lighters to destroy The Bad Thing, I think at its core, The Magnus Archives is one long “Be Gay, Do Crime” campaign…

I noticed the music doing another cool thing in this episode!!! There is a dull hum that starts when Jordan notices the wasps nest which then rises in pitch when he inserts the nozzle into one of the holes! Right before he entered Jane’s flat, he makes a comment that he would’ve heard “the buzzing sound of wasps” by now but he can’t! But us listeners CAN hear it now when we couldn’t before in Jane’s statement!!!!!!

I usually don’t pay much attention to this one — again, big phobia hngh — but since doing A Mag A Day, I’ve been trying to notice more “songs” of each Fear!!!!

Also, Jon is starting to make the right connections!!!!!!!!!!!! Disease, insects, foul smells!!!!!!!!

Things are coming together

Also yeah the smoking+lighter motifs are strong in this podcast

#a mag a day #tma #the magnus archives #episode asks #mod ashes #tma spoilers #mag 55 #itssomethingcosmic

[the-great-kraken]

was listening to the season 3 q+a and this?

yeah, it WORKS

mag 75 was already an episode that felt tailor-made to terrify me personally (phobia of heights + falling gang), and then jonny went ahead and set it 15 minutes from my house. i scare too easily for this, i think about it pretty much every time i go there

#i dont live in an area that gets written about in fiction very often #so when it does?? i remember #the breekon and hope depot is super close as well #rhi rambles #the magnus archives #tma

[cassieuncaged]

Character Profile: Maggie Wilson

TW: sexual assault, wartime violence, PTSD, depression, physical injuries, marijuana use, etc.

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GENERAL INFORMATION

Universe: Platoon

Full Name: Margaret Patricia Wilson

Nicknames: Maggie, Mags, Maggie May, Wild Child

Age: varies. 29-34 through the events of Grave Bound

Date of Birth: 3/15/1940

Zodiac Sign: Pisces

Gender: cis gendered female

Pronouns: she/her

Sexuality: bisexual

Religion: lapsed Catholic

Race/Ethnicity: white, Irish and German ancestry

Country of Origin: United States of America

Hometown: Buffalo, NY

Current Place of Residence: Muskego, WI

PHYSICAL APPEARANCE

Skin: fair skin, alabaster. Has a pinkish/ruddy tint. Has freckles across the expanse of her body, the majority being across her nose/cheeks, shoulders, and chest.

Height: 5'4

Weight: 135

Eye Color: cornflower blue, dark kind of steely blue

Hair Color: titian/coppery orange, strawberry blonde

Hair Texture: wavy/loose curls. Is normal thickness and retains moisture well. Gets frizzy sometimes in humidity.

Hair Length: changes time to time, hangs past her chin to right above the shoulders

Body Type: Maggie is of average weight and on the thin side. She keeps herself in decent shape but isn't muscular. She has a soft tummy and arms but practices yoga.

Body Shape: a mix between inverted triangle and hourglass.

Other Notable Features: peach pink bow lips, broad shoulders

Clothing Style: bohemian, cozy. Mags wears a lot Gunne Sax dresses, flowing skirts, blouses with embroidered Peter Pan collars, knit sweaters, cardigans, blue jeans, floral patterns, low slung Mary Janes, clogs, plain leather satchel, white nurse's uniform with sneakers, knit scarves, gold stud earrings, aged golden crucifix (it belonged to her grandmother)

PERSONALITY

Positive Traits: empathetic, open-minded, humble, loyal, intuitive, benevolent

Negative Traits: aloof, overly sensitive, untrusting, stubborn

Hobbies: knitting, whittling, playing the violin, reading books (favorite's are Jane Eyre and Alice's Adventures in Wonderland

HEALTH

Physical Health: suffered abdominal burn scarring from her sternum spreading over the right side of her stomach to the top of her pubic bone. The skin is pink and shiny but is no longer painful. Nose was nearly broken once though it healed there were no visible scars.

Allergies: doesn't suffer any specific allergies but often gets a cold every spring because of the pollen and change of weather.

Mental Health: suffers PTSD, social anxiety, and depression. Often doesn't approach strangers and avoids large crowds. Is sensitive to loud noises (car horns, balloons popping, etc.) and is prone to panic attacks.

Phobias: suffers from claustrophobia and agoraphobia in small capacities.

PROFESSIONAL LIFE

Education: has an RN from SUNY Buffalo

Professions: volunteer nurse for the US Army, elementary school nurse once being discharged due to injury.

ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIPS

Current Significant Others: Elias Grodin (long term partner, eventual husband)

Past Significant Others:

Thomas 'Tommy' Emory (high school sweetheart, ex-fiancé)

Several relationships between the years 1970 and her late 1973 reunion with Elias

FAMILIAL RELATIONSHIPS

Mother: Carol Lucille Wilson

Father: Louis Albert Wilson

Siblings: Sharon Marie Bianchi

Children: Rachel Julia Grodin

Other Notable Family Members:

James 'Jimmy' Bianchi

Maura Bianchi

Abigail Bianchi

PLATONIC RELATIONSHIPS

Friends:

Rachel Mariano (my OC)

Charlie King (no first name in film)

Chris Taylor

Rhah

Gator Lerner

Diana 'Ana' King (my OC)

Enemies:

Robert 'Bob' Barnes

Pets:

Maddy (orange tabby)

Major (German shepherd)

BIOGRAPHY

Childhood: The youngest of two, Maggie grew up in the suburbs of Buffalo, New York. Her father, Lou, was the partner of a small size law firm and was the sole provider of the household while Carol was a homemaker. Money wasn't an issue and the Wilson's lived comfortably. Maggie was quiet and awkward unlike her older and far more outgoing sister, Sharon, who was her parents favorite. Despite this, the two were and remained close. Mags started playing the violin at age eight wanted to pursue a career in music though was actively discouraged by her parents.

Adolescence: Maggie met Tommy Emory her freshman year of high school and started dating. He played football while Maggie received straight A's. They had little in common but both were loyal thinking they would be together forever.

Adulthood: Attends college with her boyfriend where they awkwardly lost their virginity to each other. Maggie was miserable and stopped playing her violin for a period and virtually had no friends of her own. After graduating from college in 1962, she took a job at a pediatrician's office. Maggie and Tommy became in engaged the same year though a date was never set. Becoming disillusioned with life, her relationship, and the war brewing in Vietnam, she volunteered as a nurse in 1966. Her parents and fiancé were furious and Tommy ended their engagement immediately. Sharon was supportive though understandably worried about her sister.

She met Rachel Mariano during training and were both assigned to work at the base in Củ Chi in 1967 as lieutenant nurses. She retained a glimmer of hope and most the company was grateful for this outlook, especially considering how bleak reality was. This is where she met Sgt. Elias Grodin where the two became fast friends. However, she also met Sgt. Bob Barnes who had become hardened and brutal and made it his personal goal to break the woman. He went as far as cornering the nurse outside of the barracks and assaulting her. Maggie tried to fight back and got punched in the nose and threatened to do worse if any superiors were notified. When In late 1968, Wilson and Mariano were sent with a sizeable camp of soldiers. During this time, she and Elias became secretly involved with only Mariano and the sergeant's squad aware of their affair though there were suspicions by others.

They became physically involved during R&R in Honolulu. Barnes' attempted to murder Elias shortly after returning who was sent back to base after being stabilized and honorably discharged and awarded a Purple Heart in early 1969..

After being attacked by an NVA ambush in the night, Rachel was killed in a resulting fire while Maggie was trapped by a metal bunk and was badly injured. She was discharged in January 1970 before being sent home.

She lived with Lou and Carol and attempted to reconnect with her parents though they kept her at arms length. She began writing letters to Elias documenting life but was never able to send them out of fear of rejection or possibly learning he may had succumbed to his wounds. Sharon lived in Brooklyn with her husband and two daughters and convinced her little sister to move into the same neighborhood. Sharon and Jimmy even got Maggie an orange kitten they found outside their apartment.

Adjusting to life after the war takes a toll on the nurse though she gets a job as an elementary school nurse and reluctantly befriending a few teachers. Maggie babysits her nieces in her spare time and has a couple relationships though is tentative about anything too serious.

Sharon and Jimmy play matchmakers and set Maggie and Elias (who works with the latter) up on a blind date in 1973. They take things slow though become serious when Elias suddenly a year later he leaves Maggie with a note and returns home to Wisconsin for a business opportunity with King.

Maggie falls into a deep depression, not understanding how his decision to leave was supposed to make her life better. After calling King, the nurse surprises Elias and the two reunite a second time, more emotional than the first. She eventually moves from New York and they purchase a home together. He, King, and an excitable and bored Taylor open a shop together outside of Milwaukee while Maggie finds work at a local school.

The couple remains together and finds comfort in each other. They enjoy smoking marijuana, listening to records, and going to the movies together.

As an adult, she plays the violin more regularly and finds peace in music.

Late in Life: She and Elias marry in the late 70s and unexpectedly become parents in 1980 to their daughter, named after Maggie's deceased friend Rachel. Mags is an elementary school nurse in Muskego, WI until she retires. The two have a quiet life and rescue another cat and dog when Maddy and Major inevitably pass away. Rachel marries King and Ana's son, Jamie, shortly after college. The two travel and keep a quiet life together after retiring.

#oc profile #original character #my oc #oc: maggie

[futurebird]

Hungry Little Girls

I had the misfortune of stumbling across the 'pro-ana' community that still lurks in the cracks and crevices of tumblr. Happily it's not as active or as massive as it was in the late 90s and early 00s. Sadly there are still probably teens involved. This made it all the more striking to me to see Kate Moss all over the place.

Vintage Kate Moss, who started her modeling career at 15, and who was photographed not just being thin (which I think she was naturally for the most part) but also being thin, and glum, boney and starved. The industry took a slender kid and not only sexualized her but had her pose and role play: "The Diet Has Gone Too Far" Headlines like "You *Can't* be Too Thin!" were common around that time. You could find 800 calorie a day diets in normal fashion mags. Eating disorders aren't caused by photos of skinny models or crash diet plans in Maxim or whatever-- but the ethos of the time really didn't help. And then there has been an effort to move away from all that. And, though you could hardly call contemporary media "free of fat-phobia" and they still are happy to exploit self hate to move product-- I do think some of the really bad stuff is gone. And that's why teen agers with eating disorders have to turn to crumbling old vintage magazines to find their "thinspiration" -- Makes me feel a little vindicated-- We really did grow up, buried to our eyeballs, not just of images of skinny people, but images that glamorized starving. And, to my surprise, changing the media landscape has taken some of the heat out of the "movement" Nothing will totally eliminate it, naturally. Eating disorders aren't really about being thin anyways. And those who are in it now? Getting out is worth it, it's a waste of time, you deserve better

Getting out is possible, not exactly easy, but 100% possible with no regrets except wishing that you did it sooner. You don't really gain much of anything for all the work that you do. Getting out is totally YOUR choice. No one can force you. You don't have to do it alone (and probably shouldn't) but it's not something someone else can force you to do. It's your life.

#cw ed #cw ed mention #tw ana diary #tw ana trigger #tw ana shit #tw ed diet #tw restrictive ed #kate moss #90s model

[kaphyr]

The Long Defeat Chapter 42 | Excerpt

“It’s like you’re on a swing ride in an amusement park. At first, you’re there waiting for things to happen, and for gravity to mess up with you. After a while of waiting, it starts working, and slowly you’re reaching a frightening height. And it’s not like you have a phobia, but you certainly feel things as your chest starts tightening, you think it’d explode. Then, it’s swinging and you just want to scream or jump or whatever, but you can’t do that. You’re tied and scared and there is no way you’d reach solid ground.” ― Nesrine Benahmed, Metanoia: Different Shades of Life

Katsuki and Deku go to the rankings. There’s a lot of talking. Part 2.

Fic Link: The Long Defeat

Excerpt | BKDK

“Get comfortable,” Katsuki says; he’s found exactly what he wants.

CW: under-negotiated bondage kink, dubious consent, and (unsafe) bondage.

When he goes back to the bed, Deku’s still in the bathrobe so Katsuki fights him out of it. Once he’s out of one sleeve, Deku accepts his fate. He lets Katsuki lay him down flat, pillow out from under his head, arms raised―Katsuki tries not to look at the scars crawling up his right arm.

He shakes his head and tries to focus back on Deku’s face, his half-lidded eyes.

The silk scarf whispers soft as he wraps it again and again around one leg―shin to thigh. It’s soft and cold but when Katsuki puts his hand over it, over where the cloth cuts and the flesh spills, Deku’s so warm. Katuski tightens the scarf some more, watches it cut deeper and then knots it off like one of those emergency knots.

He keeps going, making sure Deku’s legs can’t unbend, scarves and ties pinching at his thighs and shins and ankles. Tight enough that he can’t even slip a finger through.

Fuck.

And he does it all over again. Slip. Knot. Slip. Tight. He pulls so hard on one tie it nearly tears and Deku whines like he needs him.

Fuuuuck. Katsuki reaches for another scarf but there’s nothing left. He grinds his teeth but it’s fine. Even if he can’t bind Deku’s arms, his chest, this already has them both hard as fuck.

Katsuki grabs his thigh―high, where there’s nothing but unmarked skin―and squeezes hard enough to leave a print and it’s… so good. He doesn’t quite look like the girls in the mags. This feels too messy, too random, but it’s fucking gorgeous and he knows the marks it’ll leave later will be even more beautiful.

Deku’s legs spread a little and they stay bent just how Katsuki left him. He drags one leg to the side and Deku just lets him, lets himself be seen.

Now that he’s all exposed, Katsuki can’t help but grab his ass, feel him tense up as he moans and then relax as Katsuki massages deep. His legs tremble but don’t get in the way.

“Hold.” Katsuki makes him keep his hands on the pillow, up above him, and steps back to admire.

Deku blinks slowly, cheeks flushed pink, lips stained red, chest rising and falling with deep breaths. His legs are spread wide and his cock is fully hard, tip glistening. “Kacchan~! Are you gonna fuck me, please? ‘M ready, just need to be opened up a little.”

Katsuki goes back to his luggage and gets some gloves and a fresh pair of underwear. “Open your mouth.”

Deku giggles but obeys so Katsuki puts two fingers in his mouth―a small indulgence. He pets his tongue, feels it lick up his knuckles. Once he’s slobbered all over his fingers, Katsuki takes them out and replaces them with his balled up underwear.

Deku’s face gets even redder as he breathes heavily from his nose.

Katsuki trails his wet fingers over Deku’s chest, his pebbled nipples, his twitching abs, his navel―bypasses his dick, earning him a whine―and then rubs at his hole. “Don’t you want me here?”

Deku grumbles around his trunks, raising his hips, cock flopping from side to side.

“What, want me to play with this thing?” Katsuki points at his cock and Deku raises his hips again, gets his cock to brush against Katsuki’s hands. “You sure?” He dips a finger in and Deku is so very tight. Katsuki pushes one of Deku’s legs up to his chest and spits on his hole―to Deku’s indignant fussing―and slips the finger to the second knuckle.

Deku tenses, mumbling.

“Open.” Katsuki smacks his thigh so hard he leaves a faint, red print. “I’ll get the lotion, but first, open up for me.”

Deku frowns but then his hole doesn’t feel like it’s fighting him just as hard and Katsuki can sink it fully in. He’s hot there, burning. And his cock looks so hard and red and Deku moans in that plaintive tone.

Katsuki slips out to fetch some lotion―there was no way to get actual lube without someone seeing the package or him getting recognized in the pharmacy and he wasn’t about to ask Pikachu and let him be insufferable in his DMs.

He coats his fingers then the outside of Deku’s hole. When he puts a finger back in, the slide is smooth and Deku’s moaning happily.

Katsuki immediately adds another finger, smiles as Deku’s dick jumps and drools. He fucks in slow, makes sure to turn his fingers, let him feel his fingers go deep. And every time Deku rolls his hips, Katsuki meets him with just as much intensity, his other hand squeezing one asscheeks.

Right as Deku plants his feet on the bed, trying his best to fuck himself on Katsuki’s fingers, Katsuki puts a hand on his dick. When he starts to cum, Katsuki holds him, makes sure to point his dick so he cums onto his own stomach.

When his hips fall back to the bed, his chest heaves and his eyes are dazed. Katsuki takes him more firmly in hand and places his thumb at the slit. He rubs there once and Deku’s legs close around him.

Fuck. He can’t stop. Katsuki rubs a little faster, focusing on that head flushed as red as Deku’s cheeks.

Deku reaches down, grabbing his wrist.

Katsuki lets go, takes his fingers out of his hole. “Put your hands back up.”

Deku keeps his eyes on him, eyebrows furrowed the way they are when he’s outraged Katsuki doesn’t treat everyone with kid gloves.

“Up,” Katsuki says, voice stern. He pinches Deku on the inside of his thigh and Deku twitches but doesn’t squeeze.

Deku keeps frowning but obeys.

Katsuki spreads his legs again―as far as they’ll go―and gives a hard smack to the bare skin; Deku grunts against the underwear but stays where he’s been put. “Good.” And then, he adds a bit more lotion and this time, he puts three fingers in.

They slide in easily and Deku rolls his hips in tandem―even if Katsuki starts playing with his dick too. He pumps him slow, fucks his fingers in even faster and when Deku closes his legs around him, Katsuki goes faster, harder until Deku’s groaning against his underwear like a fucking slut.

This time, Deku throws his head back and doesn’t fight the hand that strips his dick until he’s coming and even past that.

Katsuki swallows. Fuck.

Deku looks tortured, shaking his head, screaming into the gag, clawing at the pillows, legs trying and failing to move Katsuki off his dick―and Katsuki can’t stop.

This is better than the magazines, better than being sucked off, better than the fucking wet dreams. Just having Deku looking at him with tears in his eyes as his pathetic dick shrivels and twitches. Deku comes, dick completely soft. It just dribbles out of him and he cries, muffled and pitiful. Fucking sobs, toes all scrunched up.

Katsuki rips the underwear from his mouth, dying to kiss him.

“K-Ka-Kacchan,” Deku cries, takes deep breaths. “Wanna―Kacchan please. Need―”

Katsuki kisses him and Deku grabs at his shoulders, fingers clawing at his back. Katsuki squeezes Deku’s dick and he fucking screams in his mouth.

Katsuki’s half-surprised when Deku puts a hand on his cock and he finds himself so hard he might cum just from that. He gives him one stroke and Katsuki pushes Deku back, disentangles from his hands that pull at him. He kneels by Deku’s head so he can fit his cock there.

The moment Deku has his lips wrapped around his cock, Katsuki grabs him by the neck and cums. He groans through it, lazily thrusting his hips as Deku drinks his cum, hand squeezing Deku’s neck for those sweet, little gurgles and gags.

Katsuki takes a breath, watching Deku’s body. His pink dick. His flushed chest. His lips still wrapped around his cock.

“Gonna sleep here?” Katsuki asks.

Deku tries to mumble around his cock but when it’s clear Katsuki’s gonna keep him on his cock as long as he wants, he rolls his eyes and nods.

“Good.” He pulls his cock out but keeps it at Deku’s lips. “Lick me clean.”

“K’cchan’s so demandin’,” Deku croaks out.

Katsuki tugs sharply at his hair but he just moans and diligently sticks his tongue out to dispense his own little torture.

Like this? The you might like the Dekubowl fic it came from: The Long Defeat! And if you really like it, I am open to commission <3

#bnha fic #mha fic #the long defeat #bnha izuku #mha deku #bkdk #bkdk smut

[mysteryideasgroup]

Magnus Weld (Matin's Brother/My new Msa oc sona)

Full Name: Magnus Weld

Nicknames: Magn, Mag,

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Sexuality: Heterosexual and Straight Allies/Ally

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Magnus Weld belongs to my new msa oc sona

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