#READ THE WARNING

[wheredafandomat]

Dr. Laufeyson

Therapist Loki x female reader

Loki AU

Complete

After narrowly escaping a toxic relationship, you find yourself craving intimacy and settling with getting it any way you can even if it’s from random strangers in a bar. Your self destructive behaviours aren’t healthy and so your best friend Bucky recommends you a clinic that puts you in therapy with Dr Laufeyson who himself is quite lonely. Rule Number one of any sort of Doctor patient relationship, keep it purely platonic.

18+, contains adult themes and content that may be triggering including mentions of past abusive relationships. Please do not read of you may be triggered.

Chapter 1 ~ The doctor will see you now

Chapter 2 ~ Morning stragglers

Chapter 3 ~ This is me opening up

Chapter 4 ~ Rekindled

Chapter 5 ~ Seven seconds

Chapter 6 ~ Just dinner

Chapter 7 ~ Eye candy

Chapter 8 ~ Buckyless

Chapter 9 ~ Inapt thoughts

Chapter 10 ~ The lone diner

Chapter 11 ~ The Ostroff centre

Chapter 12 ~ Not your fault

Chapter 13 ~ Dance with me

Chapter 14 ~ Lament

Chapter 15 ~ Carnivore beast

Chapter 16 ~ Intoxicated

Chapter 17 ~ Flaming June

Chapter 18 ~ How I see it is how I call it

Chapter 19 ~ At long last

Chapter 20 ~ The doctor will cook for you now

Epilogue

#loki x reader #READ THE WARNING #tom hiddelston loki #loki x female reader #loki fanfic #loki (marvel) #oc fiction #loki smut #loki au #bucky x natasha #bucky x you #bucky x y/n #loki x you #loki x y/n

[russilton]

Service Top Lewis is sooo hot honestly.

Him sitting there while George does all the work and takes everything he can is good from time to time for a change ehehe

Fuck! Yes! And YOU would know Lesi (everyone should read takes one to know one)

I fuck sooo hard with service tops, theyre underutilised as shit and so good. Love your sub tops people! I’m not just saying this cause I have a personal investment!

I also think it tracks that George and Lewis certainly switch dynamically. Not often but enough to have some flexibility in both situations. Sometimes George needs coddling or pushing down and subduing and sometimes he desperately needs some measure of control over a situation, over Lewis. In the same measure, a lot of the time Lewis prefers to have a controlling hand, to lead, but sometimes whether he accepts it or not, he needs to be made to let go a little, hands taken off the wheel so to speak.

It’s within both of their personalities. George is a good listener, an eager adaptive driver, with a heck of a bratty streak, and he enjoys being teased and pushed, but there are also times where you can see a lack of control gets to him, drags him down, and he needs to feel like he’s the one with the power to re-centre himself and return to a proper drive.

In reverse, Lewis fights with control so often, he will push to the nth degree to control the cars he drives with all of his power. So much is out of his direction that he puts a firm hand on the things he can, to stop himself feeling helpless. BUT, if you’ve followed Lewis for any amount of time you’ll end up seeing him mentioning how he gets a kick out of the feeling of being out of control. He likes rollercoasters, sky diving, extreme sports, he’s even said he sometimes enjoys elements of crashing the car, because for just a moment you are completely out of control and the adrenaline rush is electric. But he doesn’t exactly go round crashing cars often, he likes to control WHEN he’s out of control.

Fuck I’ve just typed the word control more now than when I was writing science papers for school. My point stands, both of them have elements of playing with power, and you never have to be the top to be the one in control. Also, personal soap box- while it is amazing, you can top from the bottom without riding! It’s all in how you act and talk, and tops get desperate too.

#asks #lesi’s tags #full wets #see that #this is not safe for tumblr talk #read the warning #mark talks britcedes

[cozystars]

!!! BUILT LIKE BILBO BAGGINS !!!

#cosmo creates #edits #dungeon meshi #this one is a personal favorite rn! I’m proud of how it came out :) #also if you can’t read the song credits it’s keep up by karma carr #so good but the full song is like. 2 minutes. I need more than that #anyways. chucklefuck. yesh #volume warning #as well as fast visuals! should’ve noted that earlier #flashing #jic #omg I misread the lyrics. OH WELL

[devilherself666]

The time is now

Masterlist.

It has been a few months since Riku moved in with Kaida, he now had electricity and Wi-Fi, he learned what the jungle book was. Along with other things as well. Kaida and Riku have been hanging out and cutting trees down together for the cold that was coming. Kaida needed the wood for the stove. Kaida was outside with his axe, cutting trees down. As he looked around, feeling off and someone was watching him. “Riku, back to the house.” Kaida spoke sternly, and Riku listened because the sound of Kaidas tone was unsettling. As they walked back into the house, Kaida put the wood down. Shuting all the windows and locking them along with the door. 

“Kaida what is wrong?” Riku asked, slightly worried. “Someone was watching me, I felt their eyes. On me.” Kaida spoke as he looked out the window, worriedly. Riku raised an eyebrow. “Out here?” He asked. Kaida nodded. “Well you came out here didn’t you?” He asked and Riku nodded. “Well yeah, but that was because I was actually lost. Why would anyone willingly come into this deep of the forest.” He spoke honestly and Kaida hummed, as he held his axe tightly. “I do not know, and I do not wish to find out.” He spoke sternly, as he kept looking at the darkness of the woods. The shadow of a human lingered and Kaida held his axe tightly. “Kaida?” Riku asked and He looked at Riku. “Someone is out there.” he spoke, as he looked back at the window. “What are you gonna do, kill him?” He asked. Kaida shrugged. “Do not know yet.” He spoke. 

As the shadow man came closer, the black hair was seen. The gray eyes, and a staff in his hand. “Kaida, is that you?” He asked. Kaida raised an eyebrow. “How do they know you?” Riku asked and Kaida shrugged, having never seen him before. “I do not know.” He spoke as he looked out the window again and there the man was in front rear view, scaring Riku half to death. “It is your dad.” He spoke. Kaida scoffed. “No you are not.” He spoke out, and Kaida whistled. Bagreaa came running in as he tackled the man outside Kaida window, he picked up Riku and ran out the house as fast as possible. “Do you know him?” Riku asked, holding on to Kaida's shoulders tightly in fear.

“I have heard about him on the news. He is wanted for endless counts of murder, along with his son. They run Russia. If he knows me it isn’t for good reason.” Kaida spoke as he ran, faster than ever. He didn’t feel anything, but he knew his heart was racing, and his stomach was twisting with worry someone might hurt Riku. He ran faster. “Kaida, slow down! You are running out of breath.” Riku warned. Kaida listened, as he breathed out deeply. Frowning softly as he looked back. “You think he got him?” He asked and Riku nodded. “Of course.” 

Kaida looked as if they were in town, as Kaida sighed. They began to walk on the sidewalk, Kaida holding Riku to his chest, his face facing him on his shoulder, holding his thighs with Riku legs wrapped around his waist. He didn’t plan on putting him down. “Wow, you are freakishly tall, is that your boyfriend? Cause I am into three ways!” A black haired boy with piercings spoke. Riku looked at him with a dirty look. “Hey! Back off, do not ruin his mind. He is lovely without all your dirty mind kinks!” he spat out. Kaida patted his head softly. “Sorry, but I do not know what you are talking about, it seems he does and does not like the idea so I am going to have to decline your offer.” Kaida spoke. The black haired boy frowned. “How dumb is this man?” He wondered. The black haired boy looked at the gray-blue haired boy. “You do not know what sex is?” He asked and Kaida shook his head. “Afraid not.” He spoke, and Riku glared once more. “Can you just beat it!” He yelled. As another man with long black hair, gold eyes showed up, Kaida looked at him. “Kaida…that looks like..” He paused in fear. Kaida looked at the man with the long black hair. “Hey, you are the maniac's son aren’t you.” Riku asked, fear still lingering in his throat. The black haired male looked at the red head. “You gave you the right- Wait- You have seen my father?” He asked, as he looked at Kaida, the gray-blue hair matching the same as the baby picture. “Yeah, he came to my house in the woods.” He spoke. The long black haired male eyes widened. “Callum, go get the others. Tell them. I have found him.” Callum looked at the long black haired male and nodded. “You got it boss.” He then ran away and the long black haired male looked at Kaida. “I am Jimmy Black. You are Kaida Black yes?” He asked. Kaida looked at Jimmy. “Well by my birth I suppose yes.” He nodded and Jimmy nodded softly. “Come with me.” He spoke.

Riku tapped Kaida's shoulder. “No, Did you not hear him!? He found you. Meaning he has been looking for you probably why his dad showed up.” Riku spoke a little too loud as Jimmy turned his head. “I would watch that mouth of yours or I will skin your scalp!” He spat and Riku jumped. Jimmy sighed. “Look, if he found you, it isn’t long until he catches up, now come with me if you want to stay the fuck alive and unbothered!” He spat and Kaida nodded while walking with Jimmy. 

As they walked into the hotel, Jimmy walked Kaida and Riku to his room, sitting down on the bed. “Let me explain everything.” Jimmy spoke as Kaida looked at him. Jimmy looked down at the floor. “When our mother had you when I was nothing but five she gave you up, to save you from the life we were forced to have. That got her killed, but that piece of shit thought she cheated when she didn’t. In return, I was his fuck toy for nine years. When I turned sixteen he found out I had a brother and went after him. I have also been trying to find him before he could. You are that brother.” Jimmy spoke. Kaida looked at Jimmy, Riku frowned deeply. “No wonder why you are such a dick, that is all you know..” He spoke and Jimmy just shrugged, not really caring. “You do not know me, why save me?” Kaida asked, Jimmy shrugged. Showing no emotion. “Well, I don’t have any other family besides my Minions. So you are the last of my blood.” Jimmy spoke. 

A man with short black hair ran into the room, as his eyes shined so brightly. “Jimmy! You found him!” He cheered. “Yeah yeah, stop yapping.” Jimmy scoffed. The man smiled brightly. “Well you are a handsome one just like your brother! Runs in the family, well skipped your dad.” he chuckled and Jimmy glared. “Sorry.” He backed away and left the room. “Who was that?” Riku asked. Jimmy sighed. “My butler, best friend and Chester.” He spoke softly. Riku's eyes widened. “Wow! You have a butler!” He asked and Jimmy nodded. “Yes, now the important thing is, what happened to my dad?” He asked. Kaida shrugged. “Fed him to my panther.” He spoke and Jimmy rubbed his face. “You had an animal deal with him?” He asked and Kaida nodded. “Welp that animals dead, and you royally pissed him off already.”

#toxic #maifa #triggering #read the warning #horror #murder #mystery #thriller #trauma #butler

[heritageposts]

I was looking at some of Bashar Murad's old music videos (he's a queer Palestinian artist), and....

7th of August, 2021...

#warning to the liberals here: i have *zero* patience left for whatever recycled lesser evil argument you feel compelled to make #read the room #anyway... #free palestine #palestine #gaza #israel #bashar murad #tamer nafar #that's tamer in the picture btw not bashar

[livelovecaliforniadreams]

#all i know is when this comes out in may im gonna be obsessed #warning yall now #kind of want to read this book now too #bridgerton #penelope x colin #colin x penelope #penelope featherington #colin bridgerton #love #polin #the angst is too good #the chemistry damn #Nicola Coughlan #luke newton #season 3

[ofswordsandpens]

its funny because Percy has been spiraling ever since pjo and whenever he has a particularly bad episode you have other characters actively worried about it and you think to yourself surely they're going to intervene, surely someone is going to talk to him about it, and then like no one ever does lol

#I STILL HAVE NOT READ CHALICE #so maybe something's there #but I think Jason in boo was the closest thing we got (percy initiated the conversation) #but like... I still dont think Jason recognized/understood the extent to which percy was spiraling #and to be fair Jason was not present in tartarus so he wouldn't truly know but like #I dont think annabeth's approached the topic with him #at least not on a non superficial level #or if she did it happened offscreen #anyways #if percy deflects or loses it or whatever you can't say the warning signs weren't there lmao #pjo #percy jackson #mine

[areus-in-a-little-cave]

Mischaracterization in fics is annoying and can sometimes make me be like “he would not say that” EXCEPT when I do it. he would say that because I am holding him at gunpoint to do so

#areus rambles #sorry wilbur enjoyers I did something to him in fof #I did something to everyone in fof actually #tubbo and wilbur enjoyers reading fof you get a warning sign going in #this is not a place of honour

[lygma-nygma]

Sometimes I try to live my life normally but then I remember that when Tim properly met Dick for the first time the man was in full clown makeup.

Theres a foreshadowing joke in that but I can’t quite put it into words.

#I don’t know if I want to make a circus joke or just call Dick a clown #Can’t say he didn’t warn Tim though #batfam #tim drake #dick grayson #please read A Lonely Place of Dying it’s lowkey hilarious #Like 90s Batman is so unserious and it’s trying so hard to be

[wheredafandomat]

Dr. Laufeyson

Chapter 11 - Ostroff Centre

Warnings etc: Loki x female reader au where Lokis a therapist, therapy, flashbacks, swearing, mentions of past trauma later in the fic including abuse both physically and sexually - not explicit detail, 18+. Mentions of overdose PLEASE tell me if I ever leave anything out x

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Arriving home, you quickly headed towards the bath, wanting to be properly exfoliated and shaved for your night with the handsome doctor, that’s if he arrived you thought, a new anxiety settling inside you as you bathed. You hoped he did. Really hoped he did. As much as you found Dr Laufeyson extremely good looking and someone you’d happily spend a night to two with, you generally enjoyed his quaint company. He always looked at you as if he was trying to work you out, like he cared, deeply. It was new. Your mind wandered onto your earlier encounter with him. You thought about what would have happened if you weren’t interrupted. How naughty.

Coming out of the bath, you made your way towards your bedroom before seeing your phone ringing. Picking it up, you sighed at Steve’s name plastered across it. As well as being an absolute pain in the ass, Steve was also one of your exes from many moons ago. The only positive he brought to the relationship was properly introducing you to Bucky who you probably would have met anyways. Bucky. This was probably his cheap attempt at an apology, using fucking Steve of all people. You didn’t even know they were still that close. Rolling your eyes, you answered the call.

“What?” You spoke.

“Y/n, it’s Buck.”

Your heart dropped at the seriousness of his tone.

“W-what happened?” You asked, steadying yourself by sitting on your bed, still in your towel.

“He’s in a bad way.” He replied.

“Why the short fucking answers, what’s going on?” You fumed at his bluntness.

“He took some pills, too many pills and drank a lot. When I found him he-he was.” Steve paused, taking a steadying breath.

“What Steve.” You sniffled, wiping your nose.

“H-he’s fine now he’s in the Ostroff Centre. I thought you should know.”

You muted the call, quickly letting a sob fall from your lips as you took in the information. A deep seated feeling of guilt covered you. Hearing Steve still on the other end, you unmuted the call.

“Well I need—I need to come see him.”

“Y/n you can’t.” Steve insisted.

“What do you mean I can’t!” You demanded.

“He’s not accepting visitors right now or they’re not allowing them. One of the two, they weren’t too clear.” He explained.

“Well which is it Steve?” You huffed.

“Listen y/n it’s late you wouldn’t be able to go in anyways only doctors can go in at this time just try to relax.”

Relax? How could you relax knowing this. Quickly hanging up the phone, you tried to calm your breathing as you searched through your contacts for Dr Laufeysons number. Emergencies only right.

“Hello” you heard him greet. It felt like a comforting embrace to hear his voice.

“Dr Laufeyson.” You spoke, phone to your ear as you took a deep breath trying not to cry.

“Y/n.” He answered.

“I need your help.” You spoke, fighting to keep your voice even.

“What’s happened? Where are you? I’ll come pick you up.” He replied.

“I need you to meet me at the Ostroff Centre.” You sniffled, wiping your face.

“Upper East side, why?” He questioned.

“Please Loki, just meet me there.” You implored, not able to explain the entire situation right now and wanting to quickly get to Bucky.

“I’ll be there.”

“And bring ID.” You added before disconnecting the call. Putting your phone down, you quickly threw on some jogging bottoms as well as as jumper. You tied your hair up messily before picking up your car keys and your bag. Not sparing a glance at yourself in the mirror before you left, you hopped into your car before making your way towards the Ostroff Centre. Driving, one of your hands kept leaving the steering wheel to rid your eyes from the tears that were cascading out of them. This was all your fault.

Pulling up at the car park, you honked your horn at the person in front of you taking ages to take a ticket from the machine that docks the time. It was like they were just sitting there in their tinted window Mercedes.

“MOVEE!” You shouted, desperate to hurry and get inside.

“I can’t reach and I can’t reverse because you’ve blocked me in” The person answered back as they leant out of the window. Instantly, you recognised the voice.

“It’s me.” You answered embarrassed as you leant out of the window too.

“Y/n.” He spoke.

Getting out of your car, you walked towards his one before grabbing a ticket for him. Dr Laufeyson had smartly pulled up too far away from the ticket machine and was stretching to grab one. Once he had it, the barrier opened.

“I’ll see you inside.” You smiled curtly before he drove off.

As he drove, Lokis mind raced even further. What had happened? He noticed that you looked like you had been crying and he wanted nothing more than to comfort you. This had gone further than a therapist simply consoling their patient. He wanted to hold you, reassure you. Instead, he parked up and stood at the boot of his car, leaning on it as you drove in.

Driving in, you exhaled nervously as you spotted Dr Laufeyson watching you park. Why would have have to do that? You thought. You successfully drove into a space without accidentally reversing into him or hitting another car. Once you had parked, he made his way towards your car as you got out. He began asking questions, following along next to you as you walked towards the facility but you couldn’t hear him, you were focused on Bucky. Reaching the reception, you smiled politely as you greeted the lady who was sitting there.

“We’re here to see James Buchanan Barnes.” You spoke evenly.

“Sorry who are you?” The lady replied.

“She’s with me, I’m his therapist.” Loki improvised, moving closer to the desk as he leant over it flashing his ID. “We’re here to speak to him.” He continued, lowering his voice an octave as he looked intently into her eyes. You didn’t know whether you were turned on or jealous.

“One moment.” She grinned as she turned from him to the computer before typing away. Dr Laufeyson turned from the woman and looked towards you before giving you a wink.

“Could I also update his payment details please.” You asked, handing the lady your bank card. The least you could do was pay for whatever treatment Bucky was getting here considering it was probably because of you.

“Sure.” She answered, taking it from you. “Do you have any ID.”

“Yes.” You nodded, handing it to her. As she filled out the information, you and Dr Laufeyson took a step back. “You look good.” You mentioned, turning to look at him. You had calmed down slightly since you saw him.

“I always look go—” he began before you sniffed him.

“Smell good too. Less like a therapist and more like a man I’d like to fu—”

“If you’d both like to come with me.” Someone interrupted before leading you and Loki down a hallway. Your heart raced the whole journey as you thought over what you’d say to Bucky, how you’d apologise. If only you hadn’t been so callous. If only you had been the first to call, text. As if noticing your shaky breaths, you felt Dr Laufeyson squeeze your arm.

“You okay?” He whispered.

“Yeah thanks.” You lied, shooting him a small smile. Feeling his hand slowly move from your arm and down to your wrist before holding your hand, you were suddenly very aware of your own appearance. You were so worried about Bucky that you didn’t even take the time to dress properly.

Once you reached the door, the porter excused himself as Dr Laufeyson opened it.

“Bucky.” You called to the body laying in the bed facing away from you.

Bucky? Lokis eyes widened as he realised who James Buchanan Barnes was.

“Y/n?” Bucky uttered, turning to face you. Seeing him, you instantly teared up again as you ran towards him, wrapping him in a hug.

“I’m so sorry.” You cried, burying your head in his shoulder.

“You haven’t done nothin doll.” He assured, hugging you back.

Loki stood awkwardly watching the interaction not knowing whether or not he should speak. Seeing James glance up at him, he gave him a tight lipped smile.

“So that’s how you got in.” Bucky smiled, gesturing to Dr Laufeyson.

That’s not Bucky in the centre, it’s Carter 😂

@howdidurhammergrowchris @mischief2sarawr

@consistentreader578 @eyesbluelikethetitanic

@michelleleewise @lucylaufeyson3 @peacope

@emma-laufeyson @lokisprettygirl22 @deathlydelusion

@mcufan72 @multifandom-world8

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#READ THE WARNING #TW SLIGHT MENTION OF OVERDOSE #loki x reader #loki x female reader #tom hiddelston loki #loki fanfic #loki (marvel) #loki fanfiction #loki x you #loki x y/n #doctor loki #loki au

[sunny6677]

[THIS IS ALSO CROSS-SHIPPING TERRITORY, SO IF YOU ARENT INTO THAT, HERES YOUR WARNING.]

Since I won't be posting a chapter today(if ya wanna know why, look at my last post), I decided to do this to make up for it. And also, because I really enjoy writing Spookytale and hearing what people have to say about the chapters. So even though Kevin and Toriel aren't gonna be a canon ship in the fic since I didn't wanna make any people a n g r y about it, I did this.

You can either just drop your headcanons in the reblogs or comments. Doesn't matter which one. Also, I'm mainly doing this because even though they aren't canon in the fanfic, they're kinda cute as a ship to me.

#spooky month #spooky month au #kevin spooky month #toriel undertale #spookytale #read the warning

[sop-soap]

TMA begins with a lure, but TMAGP begins with a warning.

#that's fucking me up a little ngl #the anglerfish and the red canary statements.... im losing it #the anglerfish is a trap. the moment jon reads that first statement he's caught in something he can't yet comprehend #the red canary is the opposite. its death is a warning to sam - stay aboveground. don't dig too deep. it's a canary in a coal mine #and yet it has the effect of dragging him under regardless #tma #the magnus archives #tmagp #the magnus protocol

[egophiliac]

giving the people what they want (jokes about spreadsheets)

anyway, Twst continues to prove that it is aimed at me specifically by giving us not one, but now TWO extended scenes of characters being incredibly difficult about signing an NDA. you just don't get this anywhere else.

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #tapis rouge #gif warning #gifs that tempted the gods and lost warning #azul specifically is making everyone's lives difficult by insisting on actually reading things before he signs him #like some kind of nerd who actually cares about his rights or whatever #no but i love that for him #(i have only a few more postcards left to unlock him...sigh...) #anyway vil just went full scarlett o'hara over here and made it WORK #i am sad we didn't get to see the infinity tiara though #in my mind it's three feet tall and looks like a bejeweled crown rack of lamb #this is why some things are better left to the imagination i guess

[devilherself666]

To a new home

Master list.

Kaida and Riku walked out of the darkness of the woods, and into the city that was filled with nothing but brightness, and lights. Worse of it all, people. Kaida looked around once. “Do we really have to go in there? How do you plan to buy all this stuff anyway?” Kaida asked and Ruki raised an eyebrow. “Well, how do you get your food?” He asked and Kaida hummed. “Well I borrowed it.” He spoke. Riku blinked a few times, and looked at Kaida. “No… Do not tell me..” He spoke worriedly and Kaida looked at him blankly. “You robbed people!” He asked. Kaida shrugged. “No, I kinda traded it?” He asked himself. Riku looked at Kaida as they walked into the big city. “For what?” He asked. Kaida looked down at Riku, his face plain. “Well, give me what I want or my friend will eat them. Also, I am really tall, for whatever reason they fear that too.” Kaida spoke honestly and Riku blinked at him. “I am suddenly really glad I didn’t rob you.” He spoke and Kaida looked ahead and back at Riku.. “Bagheera wasn’t.” He spoke. Riku shivered at the thought, knowing now Kaida wasn’t kidding, Riku wasn’t even sure if this male knew what a joke was and that was the scariest part. 

As they walked through the town, Kaida pointed. “There, that is where you get your machines. You need to stay cold or warm.” Kaida spoke pointing at the shop and Riku walked towards the shop seeing ACs and heaters. Riku walked into the shop, Kaida had to bend down to get into the building. People inside it weren't pleased with that. He looked around. “See one you like?” Kaida asked and Riku looked around. “Well this one is nice.” Riku spoke, picking up a full black heater, and Kaida nodded. “Okay, on to cold.” Kaida looked at the ACs and the heater Riku was holding. Kaida noticed one thing. “Riku, I have nowhere to plug this stuff in, I have no electricity.” Kaida spoke and Riku smiled brightly. “Don’t you worry your head about that, I will handle that.” He spoke and Kaida shrugged. “Alright. What about this one?” Kaida asked to pick up a big ACs, that would keep any house big or small cold for days after a day of being on. Riku chuckled nervously of how easy he picked it up, but also thought for a moment that it might be him, and he shivered, in a good way? He shook his head. “No. Try something like this. Small.” He spoke pointing to the smaller one, and Kaida put the big one down, and picked up the smaller one with one hand. “Alright, we're done?” He asked and Riku nodded, as they walked out the store. They let them go, because everyone in that store watched just how easy he picked up that ACs and no one wanted anything to do with it. 

They walked down the street and Kaida took the heater from Riku. “Hey! I was carrying that!” He spoke. Kaida looked down at him. “You are tiny, and you looked like you were having trouble being comfortable carrying it.” He spoke, and Riku looked at him.. “Are you calling me weak?” He asked and Kaida nodded. “Yes I am.” He spoke and Riku's eyes widened, as he began to laugh. “Wow! You really have no filter! Ahah.” He spoke while laughing. Kaida shrugged. “I do not see the point in beating around the bush about things.” He spoke honestly. Riku nodded, smiling softly, as he looked up at Kaida. “I like that.” He spoke and Kaida nodded. “I am glad you do, because I am not changing.” He spoke. Riku nodded. “I do not want you too.” He spoke honestly, Kaida pointed to the bigger store. “Televisions.” He spoke, Riku grabbed Kaida wrist and walked towards the door. “Let's get the biggest one!” Riku spoke out and Kaida shrugged. “Okay.” Kaida nodded, walking over to the biggest TV, putting the stuff down on the floor for a minute, picking up the biggest TV, with both hands at first and then putting the stuff on top of it. He wasn’t even breaking a sweat. Riku looked at him, watching Kaida stand up and that's when he realized why no one questioned what he took. He could take out a million police officers and still not be worn out. “Woah..” Riku spoke calmly.. Kaida nodded as he bent down and walked out the door sideways.

They walked back to the woods. “So what is your plan to use all this stuff?” Kaida asked. Riku smiled brightly. “Sooo, my plan..” He swayed back and forth on his heels and smiled up at Kaida. “We invited one of the tech guys over, yes? Then when he has got everything set up. Your friend has a great meal!” He spoke and Kaida hummed, as they were in the forest. “Okay, but can we do that with the, um. What do you call it..” He was thinking hard as his face was scrunched up. “Internet?” Riku asked. “Yes! That guy, can we do it to him too? He has a lot of friends, and I think he would want to feed them as well.” Kaida spoke

Riku smiled brightly at how caring Kaida was to the wild animals, that most human kind judged, shot, or hated, but he didn’t. That made Riku very happy. They arrived at the house, and Kaida sat the stuff down with ease, and Kaida walked to the kitchen and made him and Riku tea. As he looked back at Riku. “Hey, can I ask you a question?” He asked Riku, and he smiled brightly. “Of course!” He sat down on the couch, taking the hot tea cup from Kaida, as Kaida sat down next to him.. “What were they doing in town? The people. Why were some of them so close?” He spoke. Riku was trying to remember as he saw a lot of people in the town kissing. “Oh! That is what people do, when they like someone, they kiss them.” Kaida heard the words and he let them process, thinking if it could mean any other thing, but Kaida didn’t he couldn’t. Kaida just wanted to know one thing. Would he feel it? 

Kaida looked at Riku, and spoke softly. “Can I kiss you?” He asked and Riku's eyes widened. “Wow! What?! We just met! You can’t like me!” He protested. Kaida nodded. “Correction, I can’t like you ever, because I don’t know what emotions are.” He spoke, as he looked down at the liquid in the cup.. “I just want to know if I can feel it.” He spoke, Riku was confused, and then remembered Kaida saying he couldn’t feel hot or cold. He felt bad truly, it must suck not being able to feel when your body needs something. “I suppose it wouldn’t hurt anything, and I do owe you for stealing those things for me.” He spoke. Kaida looked at him. “I borrowed them.” “You stole them!” “Borrowed.” “Just shut up and kiss me already.” Riku's eyes widened when he felt the softest lips on his, Kaida's eyes were closed, Riku closed his eyes, falling into the kiss without a single problem. Kaida felt his lips on his, Kaida felt it, so he didn’t want to pull away, he felt something on his body, he liked it. Their lips began to move in sync, Riku ended up on his back on the couch and Kaida on top of him, kissing. More like making out. 

But sadly to Kaida, Riku pulled away, he frowned knowing he would never be able to fill that again.. Kaida slowly sat up. “Wait! Wait! No, I didn’t pull away because I wanted to stop. I pulled away to breathe.. I know you can’t feel it when you are running out of breath.. But your face is red.” Riku spoke calmly, and Kaida looked at him, as he felt his chest, his heart rate was high, and he was panting. Kaida looked down at him. “You want to kiss again?” Kaida asked, confused. “Fuck yes I do, for someone so dense and slow, no offense. You kiss like a fucking god.” He spoke and that did something to Kaida.

He got back on top of the man, kissing him deeply once more, loving the feeling of skin on his lips, their lips moving in sync again. Kaida rubbed Riku's bottom lip with his tongue and of course Riku agreed, their tongues fighting with each other with ease, swirling and saliva dripping out of both their mouths. Kaida pulled away when he heard a sound come from Riku. He thought he had hurt Riku, and was worried. Riku's face was red, and not because he was out of breath. “Riku? Are you okay?” Kaida asked, and he nodded. “No, yes of course I am ok.” He spoke calmly. “But you made a noise.” He spoke. Riku sighed rubbing his face, this wasn’t his idea of a first kiss, but he honestly didn’t mind this, because the more stupid Kaida really was, the more time, Riku got to know Kaida for who he was, and Kaida could know Riku for who he was, and no sex was needed. “Well, um.. It was more of a moan? Like a sound you make when you really like something.” Riku spoke calmly. Kaida raised an eyebrow, as he leaned down his face close to Riku’s. “You like my kissing?” He asked and Riku's face went red as he nodded. “Yes, yes I do.” He spoke honestly. Kaida smirked. “Want to do it again?” He asked. “Of course!” Riku cheered. Kaida loved the feeling so much, finally feeling something was addicting when you haven’t for your whole life, it is like tasting candy for the first time, you want more. Kaida wants more. More of Riku. 

#toxic #triggering #murder #mystery #read the warning #master list #read with caution

[fatestayyuri]

#girl

#Mia's jpeg butchery #I edited the dialogue from Oddman 11 #by Dowman Sayman #fair warning their work is one of the most out there yuri manga i've ever read #still pretty good though

[inkskinned]

you have to go to work so you can pay for your doctor, who is not taking your insurance right now, and if you say i can't afford the doctor's you are told - get a better job. it is very sad that you are unwell, yes, but maybe you should have thought about that before not having a better job.

(where is the better job? who is giving out these better jobs? you are sick, you are hurting - how the hell are you supposed to be well enough for this better job?)

but you go to the doctor because you had the nerve to be hurt or sick or whatever else. and they tell you that it is because you have anxiety. you try your best. you are a self-advocate. you've done the reading (which sometimes pisses them off worse, honestly). you say it is actually adding to my anxiety, it is effecting my quality of life. so they say that you are fat. they say that all young people have this happen to them, isn't it a medical marvel! they say that you should eat more vegetables. they say that you probably just need to lose a little more weight, and that you are faking it for attention.

(what attention could this doctor possibly give? what validation? that's their fucking job, isn't it?)

there is always a hypochondriac, right. someone always tells you about a hypochondriac. or someone who is unnecessarily aggressive during the worst days of their life. or someone looking "for a quick fix". or some idiot who wasn't educated about how to properly care for themselves who just abandons their treatment. and again, the hypochondriac, the overly-cautious hysteric. these people don't deserve to be treated like humans (right), and since you might be one of these people, you also don't get treated like a human. because those people can really fuck with the system, you now have to pay for it. and besides. you're actually probably faking it.

(more often than not, you find a 2:1 ratio of these stories. for every "hypochondriac", there are 2 people who knew something was wrong, and yet nobody could fucking find it. the story often ends with pointless suffering. the story often ends with and now it's too late, and it's going to kill me.)

you are actually just making excuses. someone else got that procedure or that diagnosis and he's fine, you should be fine too. someone else said they watched a documentary about other inspirational people with your exact same condition, maybe you should be inspirational, too. you're just too morbid. your pain and your experience is probably just not statistically concerning. it is all self-reported anyway, and you're just being a baby.

(once, while sitting down in the middle of making coffee, you had the sudden, horrible thought - i could kill myself to make the pain stop. you had to call your best friend after that. had to pet your dog. had to cry about it in the shower. you won't, but that moment - god, fuck. the pain just goes on and on.)

you know someone who went in for routine surgery and said i still feel everything. they told her to just relax. it took her kicking and screaming before they figured out she wasn't lying - the anesthetic drip hadn't been working. you know someone who went in for severe migraines who was told drink water and lose weight. you know someone who was actively bleeding out and throwing up in the ER and was told you're just having a bad period.

in the ER there are always these little posters saying things like "don't wait! get checked today!" and you think about how often you do wait. how often the days spool out. you once waited a full week before seeing the doctor for what you thought was a sprained wrist. it had actually been broken - they had to rebreak it to set it.

but you go into the doctor. the problem you're having is immediate. the person behind the counter frowns and says we're not taking your insurance. you will be paying for this out-of-pocket.

they send you home with tylenol and a little health packet about weight loss or anxiety or attention deficit. on the front it has your birthday and diagnosis. you think about crying, and the words swim. it might as well say go fuck yourself. it might as well say you're a fucking idiot. it might as well say light your money on fire and lie down in it. and the entire fucking time - the problem persists.

it's okay. it's okay, it's just another thing, you think. it's just another thing i have to learn to live with.

#spilled ink #warm up #can you tell what i'm mad about today specifically #i will say that there are a LOT of things that go into this. like a lot. this is ungendered and unspecific for a reason #it isn't just sexism. it's also racism. and ableism. and honestly classism. #and before a healthcare professional reads this as a personal attack: i understand ur burnt out #we are ALSO burnt out. your situation is also dire. this is not an attack on you. #this is a commentary on the incredible amounts of bigotry that lie at the heart of capitalism #where people have to pay money out of pocket to be told to fuck off. #your job is important. so is our humanity. and if you cannot accept that people are fucking mad as hell #at the industry - you are probably not listening . #anyway at some point im gonna write a piece about sexism specifically in medical shit #but i don't want terfs clowning in it bc they can't understand nuance #> it is true that ppl w/a uterus are more likely to experience medical malpractice & dismissal globally #> it is also true that trans people experience an equally fucked up and bad time in the medical field #> great news! the medical industrial complex is an equal opportunity life ruiner :) #(if you find it necessary to go into a debate about biology while discussing medical malpractice #i want to warn you that you're misunderstanding the issue. because guess what. #cis MEN might experience this. particularly black men. particularly disabled men. #so YES having a uterus can lead to more trouble for you. but this happens a LOT. #instead of fighting those ALSO experiencing your pain.... try working WITH them. #which btw. is like. actual feminism.)