#am I losing my fucking mind

[cherrysnax]

it’s probably just the depressions and the dissociative disorders but I often feel like I’m just possessing my own dead body

#i feel wrong. fake. gone. in a way that I can never explain #i few twisted like im watching someone just. wither away and I want to help them but it’s me #everything feels so heavy and so weird #and idk it’s like the small things #my lips seem to move different my eyes seems slightly too far apart #my reflection takes too long to change #just a second too long #am I losing my fucking mind #n of course this isn’t helped by the misfit toys #hm. that’s very specific wording that I personally don’t use #I’m not gonna dwell on it too much but I see u #either way #idk I just feel too long too short too unbaalanced #it may be the drink. I feel so much resentment for so many people rn it’s insane but but but the stuff I use to help w my bpd rlly works #just cause I feel like ass at one moment doesn’t my feelings r right n even if people constant treat me like SHIT it doesn’t actually mean #they treat me like shit I just perceive it #at least Chevys back home for another day. so many of those thoughts go away when they’re around #I just wish my brain knew it wasn’t like. always go time I want to be able to relax fr #esp since my ass does NOTHING IM JUST A SACK of shit or something idk #it’s 2am I have to be up at 8 lmaooo i fuckin hate it here. I’ve gathered that I’m just depressed and nothing is actually wrong #well I mean there is. I’m very mentally ill and am constantly surrounded by stressors so I’ll never really be able to heal until I leave #but besides that things r pretty okay :’) I will be okay #I thought abt my butch once and now I’m 60% less breakdowny I love lesbianism

[madwickedawesome]

how black spruce would feel in between white spruce and engelmann spruce

#Am I Losing My Fucking Mind

[significant-ace-nnoyance]

musical annabeth "my grand plan is that i will be remembered/someday soon someone will notice me" -> show percy "you're better at this than me. and you know it"

musical percy "i swear that im a good kid/i just need one last chance to prove im good enough for someone" -> show annabeth "hes not like that. hes better than that"

#yes this is my third post about these two parallels because IM LOSING MY FUCKING MIND #THE USE OF SOMEONE IN BOTH????????? #AM I OVERANALYZING??? HELL YEAH SOMEONE HAS TO #i love adaptations #percy jackson #annabeth chase #percy jackon and the olympians #percabeth #pjo #percy series #pjo <3

[skribblez]

The reason why causes like the fight against KOSA don't go anywhere is because you fuckers give up too quickly.

You see one advancement from that damned bill and drop your sword and say that it's over.

Wake the fuck up.

If we don't keep fighting, even if it's gone silent for a while, that shit's gonna go through without us even knowing. Fight tooth and nail. Show them that we can and will beat their asses if they don't straighten up. And don't just say we will. Actually do something if it does pass. They think we'll take this sitting down and will just lay there. We need to prove them wrong.

But if we don't get on their asses and lay down like cowards, they'll think they have power. You bitches who say "it was a good run" or "I can't do anything so we're fucked" are part of the problem.

KOSA and KOSA adjacent bills blatantly violate several amendments in the US constitution. People need to realize that.

And if you don't think you have a voice or can't stop it in any way, yes you can. Do research on your rights, don't just get your info from Tumblr or wherever else. Go on and search on your own. Especially if it's something you've seen and you're unsure if it's true.

Misinformation can murder a cause.

You can do things, you just need to find a group.

And don't just keep KOSA online. Tell people you know. Make them care. If they think it's a good idea, change their minds. Don't "agree to disagree."

And don't just not care because you've lost faith. You can still try. And if peace doesn't work, get physical. Get dirty. We've done it for causes like Palestine, we can do it for this.* (read the tags for my elaboration on that- i don't want people getting the wrong idea.)

Organize. Attack. Scream. Make them hear you. Because if we don't, they're gonna take full control.

#i am pissed #some of you need to get a slap in the face #about the palestine comment #i'm not trying to belittle that cause #it's just as big if not bigger than this #i'm just saying we can also start a band of protests and riots for this as well #if that makes sense #listen idk man. #i'm pissed off and i'm passionate #we can't let this happen #fuck kosa #stop kosa #kosa bill #anti kosa #kosa act #kosa #kosa lies #kids online safety act #kids online safety bill #free internet #free gaza #free palestine #riot #protest #fight #politics #im gonna lose my mind #angry rant #rant #aggressive

[bonky-boo]

Catnaps

#i'm losing my fucking mind #art #helluva boss fizzarolli #helluva boss asmodeus #fizzmodeus #fizzarozzie #fizzozzie #fizz x ozzie #helluva boss fanart #fizzmodeus fanart #fanart #fizzarolli #asmodeus #i love them so much #why am i not them #kms

[theshipdiaries]

the hand holding at the hospital IM FUCKING DYING IT KILLS ME EVERY TIME I CANT DO THIS! THE WAY HE CARESSES HER HAND WITH HIS FINGER WHILE SHE DOES THE SAME???? They were soothing each other... I CANT and the way after his initial surprise of her holding his hand HE grips it tighter???? I CANT

(yes I made this into it's own post)

#kastle #frank castle #karen page #the punisher #daredevil #daredevil born again #they make me fucking insane #I am losing my mind #2x11 #2.11 #gif

[philocalistwrites]

I CAN'T FUCKING HANDLE THIS OMG

#hannah waddingham #rebecca welton #holy fucking shit #oh my god #i will explode #shes a fucking god #how #i am literally screaming #im in awe #THE FUCKING DRESS #THE HAIR #EVERYTHING #SHE LOOKS SO GOOD #HOW IS IT EVEN POSSIBLE #im losing my mind #women #ted lasso #im obsessed #step on me pls #golden globes

[justaleafinthewind]

Percy's little head shake when he realizes he has to leave Annabeth behind? the way he presses his lips together like he's trying not to cry and his jaw is trembling? hello???

but then his exhale when he sees that she's there with him on the beach and she's okay? the way his lips start to turn up for the beginning of a smile and all the tension leaks out of his shoulders immediately? HELLO???

#i am losing my mind #screaming crying throwing myself against a wall #somebody sedate me #i am never getting over this #the acting is so fucking goood #percy jackson #walker scobell #annabeth chase #leah sava jeffries #percabeth #pjo #pjo tv show #pjo series #percy jackson and the olympians #rick riordan

[morganbritton132]

Dustin posts a series of videos on his Tiktok account of his time babysitting Steve and Eddie while they’re sick. He claims it’s evidence because no one would believe that two grown men act like this.

The first video he posts is literally just him asking why they are in the living room and not in bed anymore. Eddie says that he didn’t want to be alone and Steve grumbles something about this being his house, Dustin can’t tell him what to do. Dustin just sighs, “I’m glad we’re going to be mature about this.”

In the second video, Steve is throwing the pillows off the couch in search of his glasses. Eddie’s in a blanket burrito on the floor, throwing out suggestions. None of with are ‘hanging off your shirt’ with is where Steve’s glasses are.

He post one later in the day of Eddie bitching about how he can’t even walk up the stairs without needing to use his inhaler despite the fact that he doesn’t need to walk up the stairs at all. Steve is snoring so goddamn loud in the background of this one.

He post one where he and Eddie are trying to take Steve’s temperature while he’s asleep. They fail. He wakes up and he’s pissed off. He also has a fever.

Dustin post a video of the absolute death glare Steve gives Eddie the entire time Diane is reheating the soup she made for them in the kitchen.

In a different one, Eddie suggests they ‘screw the sickness away.’ Steve with his head in his hands says ‘that has literally never worked.’ Dustin tells them to knock it off or he’ll leave for real this time.

In a different video, Eddie walks into the room and sees Ozzy laying on Steve like he does when Steve’s had a seizure and tries to get up before he should. But that context isn’t known to the wider world so it looks like Eddie walks into the room and says ‘I took a shower,’ frowned, and then said ‘oh no.’

He post one of Eddie and Steve asleep with the caption ‘thank god’ and then another when he’s leaving for the day and they’re both upset that he doesn’t want to hang out with them. He ends it with, “It’s literally been a nightmare, guys.”

<- Last Post | Next Post ->

#Dustin’s a saint but he also drew the short straw so that’s why he’s here #Steve is so fucking grumpy when he’s sick and Eddie complains and gets bored and then complains that he’s bored #I am still working on something sad but workMs a bummer right now so we got some silly stuff so I don’t lose my mind #eddie munson #steve harrington #dustin henderson #eddie munson tiktok saga

[enjoyerofsoup]

/// general riptide spoilers ???

just got to ep 93 of riptide on my relisten (when finn wakes up) and i can’t stop thinking about how during the feywild arc, when celestine was assessing the magic involved in apple’s transmutation spell, necromancy was one of the types listed.

when gillion finally gets through to the unconscious finn using the bracelets, finn keeps talking about his spell, asking if it worked, if it protected his crew. it’s clear that the spell finn had been casting (over the course of 100 years supposedly) was incredibly important, and likely the reason he ended up trapped as a bird. clearly finn had some knowledge of what may happen, considering he started preparing so far in advance. it might be part of the reason he left the undersea in the first place. but after waking up, with the spell’s resulting mental deterioration, he can’t provide the answers he may have once had.

(something about the spell feels very reminiscent of a deal. finn trading his knowledge and intellect, whether he did so intentionally. something he dedicated his life to. him being able to protect his crew, to a certain extent. and when he finally gets to see that his spell worked (?) he might not fully remember it’s significance. might not remember what he wanted. why he made that choice.)

during my relisten, i’ve really taken note that whenever any of the black rose crew are talking about the hole in the sea and what they remember, there’s some pretty big gaps in memory. they all recall falling unconscious at one point or another, and waking up somewhere else. drey struggles to remember a lot after being in the block so long. finn’s memory is waning, either from age or the effects of his spell. and initially, when chip talks about that day, he’s confident in what he remembers, and doesn’t seem to dwell much about losing consciousness and how he eventually ended up at skullslice port.

but when finn wakes up, and chip gets the third part of the map tattooed on his back, everyone’s confused. why wouldn’t it be on arlin, like they’d thought? why now?

drey says something along the lines of “why chip, though? he wasn’t even down there with us. you weren’t there, right chip?”

and chip doesn’t say anything.

i think the reason there’s so many gaps in memory is that maybe none of the black rose pirates made it out. maybe there’s a reason necromancy was involved in finn’s spell.

(THESE ARE THE RAMBLINGS OF A MADMAN BTW I DO NOT CLAIM TO HAVE A THEORY AND I MIGHT HAVE COMPLETELY MISREMEMBERED SHIT BUT I AM FULL OF SO MANY THOUGHTS)

#jrwi #jrwi riptide #jrwi riptide spoilers #grizzlyplays when i fucking get you #i am losing my mind over this hiatus #chip jrwi #finn tidestrider #drey ferin #black rose pirates #jrwi show #jrwi podcast #just roll with it #just roll with it riptide

[tin-omen]

#I am losing my fucking MIND over this #Drake #Kendrick Lamar

[galaghiel]

what remnant does to a mf

#fnaf #michael afton #me doods #look away people! this one's just for me and myself only #(despite maintagging yes i know but its for organization purposes) anyways #i am a big fan of remnant mutating the shit out of a person #pair that w michael's unique death and continued exposure to the spirits it ends up doing pretty fucked up stuff lol #post scoop michael looks like a purple titan 💀 #i'm literally just making fun of my own design atp lmaooo #whatever's the opposite of same face syndrome i have that w michael #just recently added the bolts to the jaw and i love it sm i'm keeping it #post scoop michael is 6'7 so i just want yall to imagine this absolute unit of a cryptid losing his mind managing the pizzeria #he's out there sobbing shitting rolling on the floor trying to mute the fucking ads absolutely flooding his monitors #i drew what his neck looks like but its usually covered in bandages or a turtleneck #you do not want to see what's under his shirt btw. its a whole circus in there AHAHAHAHAHA

[cozylittleartblog]

me speeding to count stock as fast as possible to avoid taking radiation damage from my parents god-awful taste in television

are these Really the ugliest homes in america or is your personality just equivalent to a cheap, wet paper towel. are these Really the ugliest homes in america or do you take your home decor inspiration from psychiatric hospitals and white women on pinterest named Meykaighlahe

just say you hate art and go build your dream unseasoned microwave mashed potato of a house in fucking utah or something oh my gOD

#ms paint #dat me #art #IF YOU DONT LIKE IT WHY THE FUCK DID YOU MOVE THERE !!!!!!!!!!!!!! SCREAMS #these shows make me homicidal fr #70% of the houses on that stupid fucking show are by majority legitimately so cool and beautiful dude i am losing my mind #''its a historic house but i dont want any of the history or aesthetic that goes with it'' i am going to dropkick you lady. to death. #getting my own place and literally banning the viewing of any HGTV show under my fucking roof #how are there so many old people with such GARBAGE fucking taste in interior design #y'all grew up in the 60s 70s and 80s and learned fucking Nothing ?????????? HELLO ???????????????

[thedeathwitchescats]

Okay, review time!! If you are one of the oddballs who thinks you cant be critical of something you love I suggest you stop reading now before I ruffle your feathers. Iron flame, second in the empyrean series. I am gonna start with what I was not a fan of and then go into the shit I adored.

1) what in the actual fuck was the pacing of this book?? I can tell you what, it was non existent. There was none. Where I thought there was a lot of filler in the last book there was none in this one. We got snap shots of conversations and then *boom* more plot flew at you. The timeline of this book greatly suffered for it i think bc we end only a couple weeks, if that, after threshing, which happens sometimes in October. This book was actually so wild with times.

2) while it was a spectacular cliff hanger, xaden becoming venin pisses me off. Especially if Rebecca yarros isnt going to have him tell violet. Like if that small tid bit of a conversation we got wasnt him telling vi that he was venin then the entire romantic conflict of this book was rendered pointless and their going to be having the same fucking fight for the rest of the series and at rhat point I give up.

3) I understand that the revolution is trying to take down basgaith and make the world better or whatever the fuck but can someone actually formulate a real plan for me?? Because I feel like their mission is just, giving violet and xaden something to be pissed at each other about.

4) the entirety of cats character. I get that she was set up as a spin on the typical jealous ex. Like having her be bitter about xaden picking violet over her but OH WAIT it wasnt actually about the man it was about the crown, oohh not like other girls. Im a writer too I see the point. I dont care. I think it was trashy. If you wanted her to be a bitter spiteful ex then have her be a bitter spiteful ex, the whole crown thing was shallow.

OKAY haters your time is up now onto the shit that made my heart hurt with joy and sadness

1) xadens arc in this book. I really liked that he went from "transparency is never gonna happen" to losing his fucking mind over violet and giving her everything. I love feral men and he qualifies. I think his arc was really well done and i liked it.

2) I appericiate that violet stuck to her guns for this book. She wouldnt let xaden off without a fight and I loved that. She made him bow and scrape and I was eating it up. It was spectacular.

3) the throne room scene. Violet on the throne. "Im making a temporary point not a lasting vow of maschocism" xaden being feral.

4) that gets its own point actually, just xaden being completely feral this entire book healed a part of my soul.

5) andarna's little speech at the end where she was like "I waited for you violet" made me ugly cry. That was just so hopelessly good I loved it. Andarna in general heals my heart but that part was just *chefs kiss*

6) tarin being completely and utterly ready to eat people this entire book. Just, at every turn "I want lunch their pissing me off " was spectacular

7) every scene their squad was in. Rihannon, violet, sawyer and ridoc are my roman empire. Their bond is so amazing. The fact that they launched a rescue mission for violet. Rihannon being ready to kill xaden at every turn. Ridoc being so platonically and adorably in love with violet. Just- augh happy cries happy cries. I love it all. Their so special tbh.

8) I love xaden actually, just, the whole book every scene hes in lives in my brain.

9) I liked that we saw a small bit of violet being feral this book too. I hope that we get more of that in future books. I want more of violet losing her fucking mind. Hot, badass women covered in blood

10) Liam. Fucking Liam. When violet was kidnapped and Liam was there. Now, do I logically understand that he was a hallucination, yes, do i care?? No. He was a gift from Maleck I will be hearing no critiques on that. It was so fucking sweet and amazing. I love violet and Liam and Liam being dead so horribly breaks my heart. I loved Liam. Liams death lives rent free in my skull.

#i might add more to this later #please #i am begging yall #dont get weird #i am allowed to love this book and have critical opinions abt it #if i start getting threats about my fandom opinions again i might lose my mind #haters get fucked #anyways #i need the third book right now and the fact that i wont get it until next year kills me a little #i loved iron flame #i loved fourth wing #xaden riorson #violet sorrengail #violet and xaden #fourth wing #iron flame #book review #iron flame review #🪓

[vowofbrotherhood]

hollow

#the great ace attorney #dai gyakuten saiban #tgaa #dgs #kazuma asogi #asogi kazuma #asougi kazuma #kazuma asougi #evangenny art #'lucien these colors look awful' i don't fucking care anymore #this shit sat in my folder for almost 9 months now i want it FINISHED and GONE and OUT OF MY SIGHT #tbh i didn't initially plan to make this Very Red it just. kinda happened #it's 2 am i should go sleep before i lose my mind

[spinach-pine]

what if they... instead of...?

#make your guesses #the way shatner acts here literally looks like kirk had just kissed spock and couldn't believe what just happened #so naturally i had to make this #i am losing my fucking mind #spirk #spirk cus it's fucking canon #space husbands #k/s #old married spirk #spirk is canon #jim kirk #mr spock #space has never been so gay