#angst is going hard rn

[jordanraye47]

Headcanons about my favourite characters (yk who my fav is but whatever stfu /respectfully) [some ANSGT for y’all depressed people] ITS SO MUCH IZZY OMFG

Izzy is Scarlett’s younger sister. Idc if the order of seasons don’t let it make sense. Scarlett has older sister energy so I decide that they are sisters.

Noah has dyslexia. He loves to read and won’t let dyslexia stop him‼️Like his sisters see him with the same book for 3 months bc it takes AGES to read one

did I forget to mention that? He’s the youngest of ALOT of sisters (inspo from @deadmxnsparty on TT from the fic Stakes)

I have SO MUCH on izzy I need one list js for her so I’ll try and put a few on this one.

Her hair gets really really messy and often covers her face. So she ends up having to manually hold up her bangs if she has to look someone in the eyes or smth cause her hair covers up her eyes.

She canonically has psychosis, and being a pretty expressive and hyper person, it’s easy to get overwhelmed with emotions. So regardless of how many psychotic attacks or breakdowns she has, she never gets a full grip on how to handle them. So it ends with her running away from whatever situation she’s in so nobody sees her, and so she doesn’t hurt anyone.

NOAH AND IZZY ARE BEST FRIENDS BC I SAID SO

Just like Duncan, I think Izzy has some family that’s in the police or involved in it. So she’s definitely familiar with law and punishments. But she’s also really good at getting away with it.

Imagne if like Scott Izzy and Scarlett were siblings 😔 izzy would be a farmer lmao

I CANNOT FIND OUT IF SHE IS SCOTTISH OR IRISH ISTG

she wears crocs, attack me

She is not allowed in the kitchen alone. During cooking challenges on TD, she’s either js put to the fucking sidelines or someone it put on duty just to make sure she doesn’t fuck up.

got recruited by the FBI and/or army. She’s smart and strong like ??????

omfg I’m so bloated rn fuck my uterus

COURTZZY HCS (my pookies)

its js criminal x lawyer so she KNOWS the law, she just dgaf

regardless, she tries to help Courtney w work whenever she needs it. She probably has no idea what she’s doing but she tries helping at least, and she’s js happy when Courtney is. So like if Courtney passes an important test or smth, she js goes along w the excitement, even though she has no idea what’s happening.

and speaking of school n shit; Izzy dosent prioritise school, nor focus much on it. Especially compared to Courtney. But shes smart, enough to understand that Courtney is passionate about it. And as much as she likes bothering Courtney and hanging with her, Izzy’s quiet when she thinks Courtney needs silence to study, or just alone time in general.

IOTSSSS😈😈 (the angst is going hard rn. REREADING THIS IT SOUNDS SO DEEP AND LOWJRY POETIC IM PROUD) I wanna make this into a fic😔

Man the survivors guilt is CRAZY‼️🙏

Like she has Eva but the feeling that she had the opportunity to change the outcome still lingers. Like why didn’t she argue with Duncan enough to not let Noah stay

It’s not that she thought Noah wasn’t able to protect himself, but he didn’t. He didn’t exactly know how to fight, and he couldn’t sass his way out of death.

Duncan had to practically force Izzy along when they walked back. The danger of the island hadn’t properly gotten to her then, but if it had, she wouldn’t have let any of her friends out of her sight for a second.

She wasn’t strong enough to protect everyone, but she’s convinced she could’ve done better. And maybe Noah, Courtney, Owen, Lindsay and everyone else could’ve made it.

Like I said, the survivors guilt is pretty rough after a fucking massacre ykwim?

And she was 16 when this happened. And so was everyone else. And regardless of age, nobody should’ve gone though that, alive or not.

Her relationship to things associated with the death of her friends are definitely weird. Like when things like showering and drinking water felt like tasks. Like watching the water from the tap run for 10 minutes cause the image of Noah’s dead body in the water, surrounded by his own blood, wouldn’t leave her alone.

She felt disgusted by herself when she avoided water like the plague. She refused to leave the house, even to just go out with the trash or pick up the mail.

The neighbours across her father’s apartment used to come to her door and ask for her parents. They complained about how loud she was when she was outside by the playground when she was 10. Their jaws would probably drop if they saw how she’d changed.

She found herself on multiple occasions, talking to herself. Just to make sure she still had a voice. She hadn’t talked in ages. And even if she did, it was only to her siblings maybe once a week, and maybe a word or two to her parents if they were lucky.

Even after turning 17, the mentality and maturity stayed the same. The memories of that island never faded. But the others did. She had a few videos and pictures on a digital camera, and that was the best preserved memories of her friends. She was afraid that if she lost these, she’d forget their voice and face.

#total drama #total drama izzy #total drama headcanons #td headcanons #td izzy #LOW-KEY SO PROUD #I WANNA MAKE A FIC #NOW #VLTE FOR FIC ON MY PAGE #angst is going hard rn #Not harder than me tho‼️🙏 #IOTS #island of the slaughtered #izzy connelly #izzy td #courtney td #ITS 2:44 IN THE MORNING

[aria0fgold]

With a glass body

You bear the weight of the world

Praying for safety

#ariart #isat #isat au #isat spoilers #of gems and pages au #ogap au #i am ngl reeeaally proud of this one esp cuz its done in a perspective i have not tried at all and! i think i pulled it off nicely! #the tinies are too cute in a piece thats filled with angst for the big odile honestly. whenever i worked on the tinies #and then zoom out once im done im like: oh yeah... forgot bout that angst-- cute tinies... pain odile #i also added a smaaaall gimmick to this cuz i wanted to try if i can pull that off too and looking at it rn i think i did! #click the image to see it! wtv is written on her tho is meant to be shuffled and a bit hard to figure out the direction of #how to read it as like-- a reflection of her own mental state rn being as cracked as her body is #edit: not me noticing a mistake one hour after i alrdy uploaded it. quick fix with layers-- there we go. no one noticed that i hope...

[welcometogrouchland]

(ID in Alt) have a WIP of this fun new piece I'm titling "the saddest boy alive"

#dc #damian wayne #that's all we'll tag for now #i kinda cooked w this one. just a little bit #yes it's based off my own angst post BUT ALSO the new cover for Batman & Robin no.11 (i think?) w/ crying angry damian #that cover is everything to me btw #anyway being 14 is so evil and hard I can't believe damian has to go through it rn #mine

[papaiyatree]

the want to read fanfiction vs the fact i can't find anything i want to read

#mostly just bc based off the summary n title i feel lit would be ooc #*like it #like ouhfhdhfhjdmf so hard...... #specifically sonadow #going through hoops rn trying to find smth that isn't too sappily romantic / riddled with angst #i just want them being stupid and silly ughhhh

[iris-kinnie]

Songs I Love Ask Game:

Apple Cider: What was your relationship with your F/O before you got together romantically? How did it change once you got together, and what were the most significant changes? (Also, what’s your F/O’s favorite flavor of juice? What’s your S/I’s?)

Dear Arkansas Daughter: Does your F/O know how to swim? Does your S/I? Either way, do y’all enjoy visiting pools or bodies of water?

Paper Bag: Are you and/or your F/O daydreamers or do you tend to stay focused the moment?

I Can Fix Him (No Really I Can): Be so honest. Can you fix them? Can you make them worse? Do you like what’s fucked up about them? Are they not fucked up at all? Or is it the other way around, and one of these is them about you?

Florida!!!: Where do you two like vacationing the most, and why?

Espresso: Which one of you hears about anything the other one wants and immediately gets it for them? (Or is it both/neither of you?)

Lavender Haze: Do you make your relationship very public or keep it more to yourselves?

Emoticons: Did either of you play hard to get before you got together?

I Don’t Know Why I Like You but I Do: What are your favorite things about each other?

Glitterbug: What are things that the two of you do better together, or that you do for each other when one of you can’t?

Pink Lemonade: How are the two of you when you have to spend a long time apart?

The Scene Is Dead; Long Live the Scene: What is a secret that your F/O has let you in on?

Come Hang Out: How often do you hang out with your platonic F/O’s? How easy is it to plan around your schedules?

Don’t Throw Out My Legos: If you live together, how long in the relationship did you move in together?

Humpty Dumpty: How do you two handle injuries and sicknesses? Do you prefer to tell each other so that the other can help, or do you prefer to keep it a secret so that the other won’t worry? Or maybe something else entirely?

I Won’t: How extraverted are you and F/O? Do either of you like crowds?

#I have something really stressful tomorrow morning so I’m making an ask game to distract myself and then immediately falling asleep after #I KNOW APPLE CIDER HAS SO MANY QUESTIONS I JUST LOVE THE SONG AND THERE ARE SO MANY THEMES TO GO OFF OF #I also know that some of them are more loosely related #I love angsty songs but f/o angst is not in my mood rn #also my favorite musical artists are a little bit evident AJDNDB #I worked so hard on this I hope it’s fun

[scatterpatter]

Let me actually try and explain the brainworms I have for these two (Click for better quality since tumblr loves decimating image quality)

Peak enemies-to-lovers vibes. They're both so stubborn and ready to pick fights with each other, but once they catch feelings it's ALL DOWNHILL FROM THERE

Once they catch The Feels theres no going back for either of them. They would DIE for the other if it meant protecting him. ... *nervously glances at Gigamix for Cut and Archie for Quick* haha ANYWAYS-

Also listening to All At Once while making this and feeling very normal /lying

#my art #understand my ship in 5 minutes #megaman #megaman classic #cutman #cut man #quickman #quick man #QuickCut #quickman x cutman #i know i said i was gonna make angst but the comic i wouldve made is a bit too hard to make rn #might actually make it a short fic instead and clean up one or two of the panels(?) from what i have so far #esp since ill be away this weekend so no tablet for meeeeee #just love my Lumberjack x Track Star <3 #i didnt list 'ages' bc Robots but i imagine mentally theyre like- Cut at 27ish and Quick at 25ish? Something like that #OH MY GOD #so i wanted to give Cut a bandana cuz ive seen a few other artists do that before and i really liked the idea of it #and i made it red before bc A-fits the palette and B- can match Oilman's scarf! #BUT I JUST REALIZED IT MATCHES QUICK'S RED AND *CLENCHES HEART* #Okay okay im done now i need to go to bed JBSKJGBVSKJBGSKJ

[sapnapsboyfriend]

me, who's been brainrotting for an entire week after the reveal of desert duo soulmates, rolling up to grians session 2 pov:

#double life #desert duo #/lh of course i dont *really* blame him for wanting to spice it up i guess #he did literally spend an entire season with scar already #this is just NOT what i was expecting at all lmao #also why is he going so hard with the whole ''scar bad at game get us killed immediately :/'' vibe #its a funny joke but tbh it feels like a lot rn BUT that could just be me. #either this will turn into angst in the series or. actually idk #i literally dont know what to expect anymore

[clonememesfrikyeah]

Rex, trying to give a motivational speech but then it evolved into him casualty talking about his really really fucked up cadethood:

“-I mean yeah all the other kids bullied me, hated me even, and no one liked me or even came near me. Come to think of it I did get shuffled around a lot, but that’s just because my entire original batch was decommissioned. And yeah I did have a lot of near death experiences, but I only needed to be resuscitated a handful of times. Ha, there was that one time a trainer threw me off a platform because they were sick of dealing with all my paperwork, but I pulled myself up by my bootstraps and hauled myself out of the ocean. You know what they say; you want something done you gotta do it yourself, because no one else is going to do it for you! I think I came out the other side just fine and I’m stronger because of it! :)”

The entire 501st: “…whAT THE FUUUUUCK!”

#kix: I’m getting you a counselor immediately #Jesse: I want a list of people who have harmed you immediately #Echo: can I offer you emotional support in these trying times? #fives: I know our upbringing is ass to begin with but damn that’s super extra fucked up #Dogma: *is calling the command squad up rn* #Hardcase: what Jesse said but im going to hunt them down for sport with a flame thrower #tup: *now has like 100 new fears and secon hand trauma from Rex’s story’s alone* #y’all writers are going hard with all the Rex angst and whump keep up the good work #in my mind all of it is canon if you string the time lines together right #captain rex #fives #echo #hardcase #jesse #kix #Dogma #tup #commander cody #star wars #tcw #star wars: the clone wars #the clone wars #the 501st legion #the prequels #arc trooper #clone trooper #Rex is severely traumatized #just smiling through the pain #forgetting all of your childhood trauma and putting the rest in a box for later works wonders for the mind #my post

[sundial-girl]

what do you think Len tastes like

the realistic answer: depends on what he is in a given storyline i think. if he's an android/robot i can't imagine all the wires/mechanical bits taste all that good (casing/motherboards go crunch ig??????). if he's more human-adjacent and something organic that'd obviously be more like. you know regular human probably.

the funny answer: banana-flavored

#ask #the fucking song cover im listening to while answering this is NOT HELPINGGG HKAJHSKJGH HELP HELP IRONY(?) #you come into MY askbox asking ME about cannibalism shit. ahkjshdkjghsdkjghskhgkdkjg #as much as id love[????] to go into further detail i will look fucking insane 😭😭😭 GOOD LORDDD i mean. again i cannnnnnn but #ill say tho ofc among the various ways ive killed him off in storylines this has happened to him a few times lmao. #or the rare occasion of actually him doing the cannibalizing but we're not here to talk abt that rn :) #its so hard to talk abt my voca shit b/c i dont organize it properly or anything 😭😭😭 and also its insane shit like this sorta #(100% mean that in a /pos way. sorry not sorry fucked up vocahorror/angst stuff is the banger. haters b gone)

[uh-oh-its-bird]

Do you ever like

Read a fic

And it's one of those like 200k super long incomplete monsters with beautiful writing and characterizations that lets you get like *really* into the story almost instantly

And it starts off like oh light angst can't wait for the reveal and eventual comfort! And then the light angst turns to heavy angst

Then the heavy angst turns to fucking overwhelming angst

And things keep getting worse and worse and there's no comfort in sight and you've come to the realization that no matter what happens this story will not have a happy ending. And the main character that all this fucked up shit has happened to is so fucking far gone that it's starting to make you Feel Things in a Bad Way(tm) but you can't tear your eyes away from this impeccably written train wreck in the distant far off hope that somehow, someway things will get better

And suddenly it's almost 5am and you feel kinda floaty and like someone took an icecream scooper to ur chest and you just kind of lay there like *wow I don't think I can emotionally recover from this actually* and you know that while you can't being yourself to subscribe to this fic, in the long run its absoloutley going to haunt you at 3am when I'm busy staring into the void unable to sleep

#i am feeling a Certain Way rn #i havent run into one of these fics in a while #so like when I read one just a bit ago i just #WOW i forgot how fucking hard they can hit #im going to have to inject so much fluff and comfort into my bloodstream to recover from this #fuck #ao3 #fanfiction #it was a fucking TimKon clone baby au btw #im going to sue the author for emotional damage I stg #fanfic #fic #I THOUGHT THERE WAS GOING TO BE COMFORT #fluff #hurt comfort #angst #part of me wishes theyd tagged it dead dove even tho it doesnt REALLY deserve the tag #but like the emotioks they got????? #dead dove material all on its own #if I could bottle my current emotional state I would describe it as #birds rambles

[spectralpooch]

putting undue pressure on myself to make this chapter good enough to justify taking a month to post it but also... maybe it should be underwhelming? like. lets all ease back into this after the great lore drop of april '23

#still just under 3k so itll still be a while i fear #posting a lot of writing-related angst lately #im going thru it rn... #man. its hard and exhausting

[pyrriax]

sincere doubts anybody will actually see this, but i wanted to do a poll anyways just because i want opinions

elaboration because Room:

i'm debating adding more chapters because i feel like the current+upcoming parts need more breathing room. i'm realizing the ending of the fic feels a bit rushed (at least imo) so. yeah.

#haunted ecosystem #au: where the dust settles #boo its a poll #for context: originally the next chapter is the end of the prison arc. its REALLY short-lived as it is #i mean it'll mostly just be giving stuff breathing room (and more character development + elaboration for pandora. which i don't think #anybody would really mind? you just get to see how he handles this stuff. i could give a little treat of some more interaction with #sylvester to make up for the angst party we have going rn) #idk im just debating. i was so SET on this being 30 chapters but now im realizing it needs a bit more time. #i could condense a couple of chapters into one so that i have the room while also being able to elaborate on this stuff #but also condensing those would mean like. a 10k chapter #which i'm trying pretty damn hard to avoid so i don't burn myself out

[orcelito]

Did a bit of a number on my knuckles. Hands r hard to bruise, but there's the shade of a bruise on the outside edge of my hand, right at the knuckle. That really was not intentional.

#speculation nation #self harm ment/ #tagging just bc well. you know #it was in the middle of a terrible awful rush and i needed SOMETHING to keep me focused #combined with my general agitation of it all. i hit my hand pretty hard against the ice machine. just an instant Snap Bang #sometimes i forget how strong i am. & how that can translate to stuff like this. #combined with the scrape from later that night that really was accidental. my hand has been annoying me. #i went to drum a rhythm on the counter earlier today only to be like 'Ouch' bc it. hurt lol #today was just spent vibing to music. singing to songs i knew and dancing to any i vibed with #even with the limitations. im in a decent mood todat #... i dont want to do dishes. maybe i can do them tomorrow. i Really dont want to do dishes. #im a little bit tired of reading smut. im actually not that much in the mood for it. it's just kinda what's there i guess #endlessly devouring anything relatively long for this pairing bc i want it very much. i want the drama and angst tho not the smut #perhaps i should just read the manga. but i need to shower first b4 i settle down on the couch #and i still have manager meeting in a few hours 😭😭😭 ughhhh #there really is no continuous thread for all these topics aside from this is everything im thinking about rn #i really need to go to bed at a decent time tonight. no more 4 hours of sleep for no fuckin reason. yea

[cosmetichorror]

You KNOW your angst fanfic is good when even you start crying while planning it.

If my readers don’t cry reading the last chapter I will start throwing hands

#ao3 stuff #ao3 writer #ao3 fanfic #ao3 author #fanfic #angst is coming #hurt/comfort #but still a lot of hurt #emotional hurt #actively crying rn #you better cry when I write this as well #linked universe #linked universe in general #it’s going to be linked universe #hold onto your horses and ignore all typos because it’s hard to write when tears are blurring your vision #coming soon

[destiny-in-the-universe]

currently having a very angsty idea ft. the first ninja and the human! nomicon (and the sorcerer) and i swear i am frothing at the mouth. anyone willing to hear me rant about it?

#randy cunningham 9th grade ninja #rc9gn #first ninja #rc9gn first ninja #rc9gn nomicon #ninja nomicon #human! nomicon #alternate universe #non canon #this is the most self indulgent nonsense i have ever written honestly #angst #i have no idea how i want this to end but trust me this will hurt at first #rc9gn au #first ninja and ‘nomi’ are brothers in this becsuse I said so #hyperfixations #hyperfixation #why am i like this #autistic interest moment go brrr #im hyperfixating so hard rn

[xstrawberryshiftsx]

Literally my relationship with Percy in my PJO dr

especially the bridge/end

#scripting all that angst #Based of a dream I had #situationships go hard rn #he led me on? #idk yet #shifting blog #reality shifting #shifting #shifting community #shifting antis dni #shifting consciousness #shifting diary #shifting motivation #shifting script #shifting stories #Spotify