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gimmeurtmi · 1 year

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bad day — 2min

pairing: kim seungmin x fem!reader x lee minho

tags: established relationship, polyamory, dom/sub dynamics, smut!!!🔞

warnings: swearing, throuple, mxm, oral (m receiving), hair pulling, dirty talk, angry!minnie (not at reader), an unhinged mess.

inspo: @tasteracha, the enabler™️

notes: ig my 2min throuple adventures start now. i should definitely be asleep but i’ve been possessed and this was created. i’m oh so sorry for this but i couldn’t sleep thinking about it.

{ wc: 2413 }

“ugh!”

slam.

you quickly paused the show you were watching to bring your attention towards the entrance of your home, watching a very agitated seungmin throwing his shoes by the door. minho silently toed his own shoes off, face neutral as he just stood behind seungmin, following his movements like a cautious animal trying to approach a stranger.

“i just don’t fucking understand why he has to be so difficult,” seungmin started ranting, walking over to the fridge. he took out a bottle of water, slamming the fridge door behind him before he angrily gulped down half the drink. then he huffed again.

“and what is he telling me all that for the second before we finish work? what am i supposed to do about it now?”

minho didn’t answer any of seungmin’s questions, having known him long enough to understand they were all rhetorical anyway. he didn’t need answers, or advice, or anything like that. he didn’t even really need minho to listen to him. he just needed to vent.

you knew that too, so you didn’t probe at the pair at all, just silently observed them from your spot on the floor.

“hey,” minho tried, taking a step closer to the younger boy, “i’ll make us something to eat and we can just forget about this.”

“i’m not hungry,” seungmin huffed, walking over to the couch and plopping down on it angrily.

minho followed him, sitting down on the other side of you—or where your back was leaning against the bottom of the couch.

“are you hungry, bunny?” minho asked you, rubbing your shoulder softly.

“not yet, i had lunch late,” you smiled softly.

minho nodded at your answer, leaning into the cushions as he countined to observe seungmin. he was biting at his lip, brows scrunched together in annoyance.

you turned around in your spot, leaning your knees against the bottom of the couch to face them. you brought your hand onto seungmin’s knee, rubbing it softly.

“wanna ta—“

“—no,” he said.

“welcome home hug then?” you offered, cautiously. seungmin wasn’t usually in such bad moods, and you knew to approach him delicately in this kind of state.

he looked at you, his bangs hiding his eyes slightly, and nodded. he reminded you of a wounded puppy, and so you almost jumped up from your seat to embrace him. instead, you slowly climbed into his lap, wrapping your arms around him as he buried his face in your chest. you placed your chin on his head, rubbing his back softly as you felt him sighing against your skin.

minho placed his hand on both your arms, speaking softly as he said, “i’ll talk to her tomorrow with you, we’ll sort it together.”

“thanks, hyung,” seungmin sighed, pulling away from your embrace.

you kept your arms around his shoulder, massaging his skin lightly.

seungmin ran his hands up and down your thighs, his expression telling you he was definitely still thinking about whatever it was that happened. his eyes weren’t focused on anything in particular.

“i’m so done with this fucking day,” he sighed again, letting his head fall back onto the cushions.

you looked over at minho, concern clear on your features. but it wasn’t present on his.

“we got you, minnie,” he said, shuffling closer on the couch until their thighs were touching. “we’re home now and the day is over.”

“yeah,” you agreed, kissing seungmin’s shoulder. “you’re home and we’re here with you.”

“do i say something cheesy like ‘nothing can bother me when i’m with you’?” he rolled his eyes, a small shadow of a smile playing on his lips.

“technically you just said it, so…” minho smirked.

“i hate you, hyung,” seungmin groaned.

“that’s not accurate,” he teased back.

you chuckled at them, unable to stop the obviously goofy smile you were wearing.

you wrapped your arms around seungmin’s middle, curling into his body as you rested your head on his chest. “i’m glad you two are home now.”

seungmin closed his eyes, still resting his head on the pillows, hand rubbing up and down your back.

“it is nice to be home after this shitty stupid day,” he mumbled.

“let’s order some food and watch something and you can forget about everything that happened,” you offered brightly, picking your head up from his chest to smile down at him. seungmin just shrugged before echoing that he wasn’t hungry.

you looked over at minho, eyebrows folded together—near defeat. he looked unfazed, as if he knew exactly how to calm seungmin down.

he smiled at you, confirming that thought.

“bunny, i think there’s another way we can help him relax and forget about his shitty stupid day,” minho said lowly, reaching for your hand and locking your fingers together.

you nodded, eager to do anything to get your boyfriend out of his foul mood.

minho kissed your knuckles softly before smiling and saying, “wanna get on your knees for us?”

you smirked, nodding happily before you climbed off seungmin’s lap and sat on your knees.

as soon as minho spoke, seungmin’s head flew up from the cushions, looking between the pair of you.

“i, it’s, it’s okay—“

“—shh,” minho soothed, running his hand down seungmin’s inner thigh, “i said we got you.”

you placed yourself between seungmin’s legs, shuffling closer when minho spread them apart to give you more space.

“wanna know what he said when we finished practice?” minho smirked at you, his hand moving higher and higher.

“hyung,” seungmin groaned, his neck flushing red.

“he kept making mistakes,” minho wanted to remind him, “but as soon as we were done he said when we got home he’d ruin your cunt. so i told him it wasn’t your fault he couldn’t remember the routine.”

you chuckled, grinning when you saw seungmin squirming in his seat. you both liked it when minho talked like this to either one of you—something about how casually he’d say such dirty things.

you slid your hands higher until they settled on seungmin’s crotch, feeling his cock hardening beneath your fingers. minho ran his hand over the belt, moving back and forth as he rested his head on seungmin’s shoulder.

“look at how pretty she is like that,” he said lowly, as if he didn’t want you to hear.

“so pretty,” seungmin sighed, brushing a stray piece of hair behind your ear.

“we’re gonna take such good care of you, minnie,” minho promised, slipping the belt out of the buckle. “would that be okay?”

“yeah, yes,” seungmin nodded, shifting around slightly to help minho push his pants down his thighs, letting you take over and push them past his knees.

you dragged your nails across his inner thigh, giggling when he whined.

“you ready, bunny?” minho smiled down at you, catching your chin between his fingers.

you nodded, grinning at him when he smiled proudly. “and you know kim seungmin hates mess, yeah?”

you nodded dutifully.

“so you’re gonna have to swallow everything he gives you, baby. can you do that for us?”

“yes, minho,” you replied, excitement fluttering your core.

“should we make a bit of a mess before you start,” minho looked over at seungmin, smirking, “just to piss him off?”

“you’re so annoying, min,” you chuckled, laughing as seungmin rolled his eyes.

you let minho pull you up onto your knees, grabbing your chin and kissing you messily. his tongue moved against yours roughly, purposely letting his spit gather down your lips, grabbing your hair and pulling on it unceremoniously. but you knew it was on purpose.

after a few minutes minho pulled away, smirking at what was clearly your messy demeanour, before nudging you closer to seungmin.

“all yours,” he smirked.

seungmin sucked his teeth before pulling you closer, smoothing down your hair and wiping the slick off your chin.

“beautiful,” he smiled when he was done, pecking your lips softly.

“she was beautiful before,” minho said, leaning his elbow on the cushion behind seungmin’s head.

“i know,” seungmin shrugged.

you shuffled closer until there was no more closer to go, placing your hands on seungmin’s thighs. minho’s fingers were moving up and down his boxers slowly, waiting for your small nod to tell him you were ready. when you were, they both pushed the fabric down, seungmin’s cock resting against his stomach. you felt your mouth water at the sight of him fully hard in front of you. he was definitely frustrated.

you looked at minho, following his lead as he grabbed seungmin’s cock and pumped it once then twice, before moving it to your lips. you let the tip rest against them for a few moments before you stuck out your tongue, smiling as seungmin sighed lightly.

“don’t be shy, baby,” minho encouraged, “we know you can take all of him straight away.”

“even when he’s so big?” you asked, eyes wide as you looked up at them.

“mhm,” he smiled, “you can take him.”

you slid the tip in your mouth, sucking around it slowly as you let more and more of him slip past your lips.

minho brought his spare hand into seungmin’s hair, playing with the locks softly as he encouraged both of you. reminded you how well you were doing.

“fuck, that feels good,” seungmin moaned, nuzzling closer into minho’s touch. “so good.”

“we’re gonna make sure minnie feels so much better, aren’t we, bunny?” minho asked, his voice so soft you let your eyes flutter closed.

you quickly hummed in affirmation, inhaling as seungmin moaned loudly in response. you could tell from the way his thighs were flexing that he was holding back, trying not to thrust up into your mouth.

“you know he likes it deeper,” minho reminded you, “do you think you can take it deeper for us?”

you hummed again, seungmin burying his face in minho’s shoulder as he moaned out louder. you breathed in through your nose, focusing on minho’s praises as you pushed more and more of him into your mouth.

“fuck,” seungmin whimpered, breathing deeply against minho’s neck. minho dragged his nails against seungmin’s scalp, letting him relax against his body.

“feels good, yeah? she’s so good at that, isn’t she?”

“so fucking good, hyung, fuck,” he moaned.

“want it faster?”

“yes, please, god,” seungmin whined.

minho’s other hand made its way into your hair, grabbing enough of it to use as leverage before he started moving your head up and down seungmin’s length.

“like that, baby?”

all seungmin could do was whine, telling you both to keep going.

you swallowed, trying your best to keep the spit and the mess to a minimum. but you knew seungmin was too far gone to actually care about any of that now.

“he’s close, bunny,” minho warned you, tugging your hair faster as he moved you shallowly up and down.

“so close, bubs, fuck, please,” he cried out.

you steadied your hands on his thighs, focusing on your breathing as you felt him twitching against your tongue.

seungmin grabbed minho’s arm, halting his movements as his orgasm crashed through him. loudly.

a few seconds later a warmness coated your mouth, thick and salty and familiar.

minho planted a few kisses on seungmin’s forehead, letting him come down from his high at his own pace. you rubbed small circles into his thigh as you swallowed everything down, your tongue and jaw feeling overworked.

minho grabbed your hand, squeezing it lightly, even with most of his focus on seungmin. you both looked at him, admiring the way his hair stuck to his forehead, the light flush in his cheeks, the blissful glow overtaking his skin.

after a few moments, seungmin opened his eyes and chuckled airily.

minho took that as a sign to turn the attention back to you, telling you to stick out your tongue for them.

when you did, minho smiled brightly. “such a good girl, you did so so well.”

“you were so good, bubs,” seungmin agreed, still catching his breath. “you too, hyung.”

minho nodded.

“come here,” he ordered, pulling your interlocked hands upwards and helping you regain your balance. you sat down on seungmin’s other side, stretching out your legs that were tucked underneath you for a little too long.

you wrapped a hand around seungmin’s middle, resting your head on his shoulder. minho mirrored your actions, laying his arm on top of yours, rubbing your skin softly.

“thank you,” seungmin said after a few moments, a hand on both your shoulders.

in sync, you each placed a kiss on his cheek—the three of you laughing loudly at the coincidence.

“wanna eat something now?” minho mumbled.

“yes. i’m starving,” seungmin groaned.

minho rolled his eyes.

he moved to get up from the little pile you’ve created on the couch, but was promptly brought back down by seungmin’s hand.

“don’t move. just order something,” seungmin suggested, in a pretty demanding tone.

minho just chuckled, fulfilling his task nonetheless.

when the order was placed you moved closer into seungmin’s body, close enough that you could easily brush your lips against minho’s.

“thanks,” you said softly.

“you did more than ninty precent of the work,” minho chuckled, chasing your lips for a few more kisses.

“yeah,” you whispered, “but you know us so well. and you always take care of us.”

minho smiled, resting his head back on seungmin’s chest as he let his eyes close.

“he was in such a bad mood today, it was getting on my nerves.”

you exchanged a look with seungmin, both of you agreeing that was definitely not minho’s only reason.

instead of acknowledging minho’s silent affection, seungmin said, “can someone get me a blanket or something my dick is freezing.”

you huffed as you pulled away, grabbing the fuzzy throw blanket off the armchair across from the couch and chucking it at seungmin.

“you two are insufferable.”

your point was proven when they both just grinned at you, each offering out an arm in invitation back into their embrace. you rolled your eyes playfully before jumping happily into their hold, sighing peacefully as you nuzzled your face against minho’s shoulder while seungmin kissed your temple.

“you’ll feel better after the food,” minho promised, voice low and soothing.

“i feel better with you two here,” seungmin confessed, his eyes shut while a small smile sat on his face.

“huh,” minho mused, “so he did end up saying it.”

“don’t ruin the moment, hyung,” seungmin warned with a small sigh, eyes still closed.

you laughed at them, grabbing onto minho’s back and pulling him in closer.

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chang-bunnie-bini-bop · 5 months

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hiraeth • seo changbin [part one]

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✰ pairing - roommate!changbin x fem!reader

✰ warnings - mentions of anxiety, reader’s mother is an ass, some swearing, vent and self projection ig, major angst

✰ word count - 1.8k

✰ notes - this was something i really related to so i hope you enjoy! [from: sana 🤍🤍🤍] part two will be out soon!

✰ sypnosis: when you try to reconnect with your mom after 2 years, a heart shattering discovery brings you and your roommate together.

hiraeth - the longing for a home that you cannot return to, or never was.

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All the walls came crashing down, your heart shattered into a million pieces.

It had all started when you decided that maybe, maybe she had fixed herself. Maybe she would love you now.

She wasn’t a terrible mother. She had kept you from starving, she had bought you what you wanted when you wanted it, and she gave you a home to live in.

A lot of people didn’t get that. You should have felt grateful. Not everyone had such a ‘loving’ mother.

But that ‘love’ came with a price.

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“Mom?” The thirteen year old asked, peeking into the room. Her mother glanced up at her, an irritated expression adorning her generally beautiful face.

“What?” She asked sharply, removing her headphones. “Can I…close my door? I want to finish my homework in silence.” She spoke quickly, referring to her sister, who was loudly playing with her toys.

“You know the rule. No closing the door.” Her mom scoffed, turning away from her. “Why do you want to keep it shut anyway? What are you doing in there that I don’t need to know about?”

The girl could feel her eyes tearing up. She wished her mother would just trust her.

“Mom! It’s nothing like that! I just like to keep my door closed. I promise i’ll let you in, and I won’t lock it.” She whined, flinching when the older woman stood up suddenly, slamming her phone and headphones onto the soft couch.

“Let me in?! LET ME IN! I don’t need to be let in, filthy girl. Maybe if you were smarter, you could concentrate even in the noise.” The mom spat out, glaring down at the sobbing girl before slapping her, beating her until she was laying on the ground in fear.

Her sister had stopped playing, staring in utter horror. The woman rounded on her next, beating the poor eight year old until she was crying as well.

“Stupid. STUPID. Can’t do anything except cry on the floor.” The mother spat out, turning on her heel and slamming the door behind her.

The older sister got up shakily, walking to her desk to continue her homework. She didn’t dare shut the door, too scared of her mother’s wrath to do anything.

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You had dialed her number, hoping that muse would have changed, that she would love you now.

The last time you had seen her, she had turned you out, paying for your college tuition and dorm fees, and you had been alone since, talking to no one but your roommate.

The only thing you had focused on in the past two years were your grades, the only thing in your life you could control. Headphones in, you do nothing but study, occasionally going out to get food on the days your roommate had left his room.

You never knew why he left, he was pretty private about it, never too descriptive, never too defensive. You didn’t talk much to him, however, you had grown to care for him in the same way he cared for you.

You had dialed her number, maybe she would respond, maybe she would remember you, your daughter, and maybe she would love you now.

You had worked so hard, paying off everything and gathering all the money so she would finally be proud of you.

You were desperate, to say the least. You wanted her approval so badly, it was something you had never gotten when you were younger.

You had finally pressed call, waiting for the ringtone, but it never came. She had blocked you, cut you off.

You were nothing to her.

You had sat there, sobbing your heart out as you remembered all the times she had rejected you, and you felt so foolish for believing that she could change, that she would love you now.

The front door opened and shut, and you couldn’t care less. She had rejected you, she was never going to talk to you again.

The thoughts flashed across your brain like a red hot rod, and your eyes swam with more unshed tears.

Your phone lay smashed on the floor, along with the many other things in your room, including a photo frame of you and your mom.

You looked like a mess, hair flying in every direction, shirt soaked with water from the vase and your tears. Your hands flashed with pain, covered in cuts and shards of glass that only seared with more agony as you pressed them onto the cold, tile floor.

You gasped with renewed anxiety, tears slipping down your cheeks in an endless waterfall, sobbing when your chest hurt from your hyperventilation.

“y/n-ah?” A voice echoed throughout the room, but you didn’t care right now.

You could hear Changbin walking around the dorm looking for you, calling your name. You didn’t respond, not wanting him to see you in this disorder.

Changbin paused outside your room door, staring at the absolute disarray you lay in.

He had always seen you as the sort of person to always have your life together. You had never messed up around him, never got mad, always perfect, whether it was your grades or your personality.

He couldn’t comprehend the fact that now this person, you, who looks so perfect in his eyes, is laying on the floor sobbing, with blood and water pooling around you.

He immediately dropped everything and rushed to you, wincing as the shards of glass cracked underneath his now wet socks.

Changbin pulled you to your feet and lifted you in a bridal carry, walking out of the room without a care in the world but you.

He said nothing, walking to the kitchen and gathering a broom and a mop to clean up the mess in your room.

You sat there and waited for the man, watching from the couch as he disappeared into the room, trembling and shivering in the cold of the air hitting your drenched clothes.

Changbin emerged from the bedroom, holding everything he used to clean up and disposing of them, before walking over to you.

He stared down at the fragile girl curled up on the couch, grimacing when he ran his hand over your face and feeling the tears.

You promptly stood up, and almost keeled over from the vertigo, you’d given everything into the crying and screaming, and you were now running empty.

“I’m okay.” You said bluntly, staring straight into his eyes, wide with worry.

He reached out to grip your hand, and you averted his eyes. Changbin forces you to sit down as he began to pluck the pieces of glass from your hands.

Normally, this would’ve hurt. Pained like anything, really. But you couldn’t care less. You stared at the blood pouring from your hand, Changbin’s fingers blunt but careful.

He still hasn’t said anything since he had found you on the floor. It began to worry you, and you didn’t want it to seem like you forced him to help you.

“You don’t…have to help me.” You said slowly, trying to ignore the way your voice cracked halfway through the sentence.

Changbin gave you a cold, hard stare, the kind that pierced your soul in the worst way possible. The kind that made you flinch.

“I’ll help you, always. Don’t question it.” He finished with a grunt as he tightened the bandage painfully.

Your chest warmed up again. He wasn’t mad at you.

He cut off the end of the bandage, doing the same to your injured legs before tossing the cut-up socks in the trash.

Changbin picked you up again, making sure your bandaged feet didn’t bump into anything before bringing you to his room.

You tried to ignore the way he was able to lift you like you weighed nothing, or how his arms were wrapped ever so carefully around your shoulders.

But your chest certainly couldn’t ignore it, a feeling fluttering up inside you as you gazed at Changbin’s eyes, then his nose, and then his lips.

Oh, how you wanted to kiss them.

The realization of what you had just thought flared up inside like fireworks, and your face also certainly flared up as well.

You were sure that your face was now tinted a very bright red when he sat you down on the bed, fixing the angle of your shirt to make you more comfortable before walking to his closet and pulling out a shirt and your shorts.

Once you had changed completely in the bathroom, brushed out your hair, and did your skincare, you walked to the living room, watching as the older man cooked silently.

You were pretty sure you looked terrible, wearing his shirt. It made you look tiny, and considering that Changbin wasn’t that tall, it made you feel pretty embarrassed.

You remembered the times when girls in your class complained about only getting to wear dresses, as their mothers had mostly bought their clothes at the time.

You didn’t feel the same, though. Your mother had never let you wear dresses, commenting that you looked better in boy-ish clothing.

Though you were certainly glad that your mother always chose comfort over fashion, you couldn’t help but feel melancholic whenever you wore a dress.

It made you feel beautiful, loved, alluring. You had loved the feeling since the very beginning. It wasn’t a feeling you could get used to, though.

Afterwards, the woman made sure to buy less and less dresses, preferring you in more cheap clothing.

You hadn’t worn a dress to date, feeling the words stab you in the chest every time you wore one in front of her.

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“Mom?” The girl asked the next day, making sure to keep her volume low as to not startle her mother.

“What do you want now?” The mother asked, her voice the epitome of irked.

“I was wondering, since my other dress ripped, can you maybe, buy me a new one?” The girl winced as the mom glared at her again.

“You already have enough clothes. I bought you so much food earlier, why do you need more?” The woman scoffed, throwing her headphones back on and effectively cutting the girl off.

“Okay, mom.”

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Changbin turned around and caught you staring, and his face tinted a light pink before he handed you a plate, gesturing to you to sit down.

You comply, staring at the way his arms tensed when he burnt himself slightly.

Guilt pooled up in your stomach when you saw the bandaged on his legs, remembering the way he stepped on the glass to get to you.

He sat down and held a spoon to your lips. You give him a look, but he interrupts.

“You wanna try eating with those?” He gestured to the thick bandages crowding the crevices of your finger.

“No.” You gulp, taking the spoon between your lips.

He placed the dish into the sink afterwards, wiping his hands on the apron before taking a seat in front of you.

“So. Do you wanna tell me what happened?”

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anthruser · 2 months

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SHAMELESS OPINIONS: S7 (cause Mickey's write off hurt and after s5, I watched again from s1 and forced myself to keep watching + no one around me likes Shameless so I need a place to vent)

overall: i actually loved it, had me pretty hooked all throughout

ok, i kind of like s7 Trevor, he's charming, got this lil sassy banter going off, he's cute and nice y'know. I just *HATE* that they so obviously tried to recreate some dynamics he had with Mickey straight away without letting us warmup to him, how can you deepthroat aspects built from 5 seasons into half of one??? No. Sorry. Him settling so quickly into the Gallagher house as if he's spent a decade there, idk. And the patient scene with Ian? foh man, no. 1x09 was special for a reason, and this would've played differently if Ian actually came to Mick if he was still around. They play out so much better as friends or fw/b ig but that deepthroat can't help me see a relationship between them. Not liking s8 Trevor so far, my god. Also his nonchalant attitude towards Monica threw me off. I get it, he's new and doesn't know much, Ian never mentioned her before apparently, but like "she's a lil crazy i can like her" eek, idk. Like almost downplaying his situation with her.

Caleb can suck my ass along with JW and his hate for bisexuals. My bi ass cannot approve. Cheater McCheater my ass. I can almost walk through Ian's ignorance cause for all he knew, Caleb was just gay, and I feel he said the bisexual thing out of frustration and betrayal towards his actions than actual disdain for the orientation, but yes. He was ignorant in his convo with Lip, and so was him anyway. I guess they just didn't know it is a thing. But thing is, I BET YOU ASSES that Caleb is the type of douche to STILL justify his actions even if JW didn't display his hate towards bisexuality in his writing, he just is *that* douchy. At least he motivated Ian to get his job, I'll give him that.

OH MY GOD THE THROUPLE... AND ITS SLOW BURN. it's hard cause you can understand both sides of the situation and it was just a clear issue of misunderstandings and miscommunication... I just wish they could've handled things better because I was really rooting for them. They fucking worked so well, with their little schedules and organization. I have such a fat crush on Isidora it's actually embarrassing. Anyway... I miss their dynamic. They deserved better.

Lip was a dick to Fiona about the Laundromat, but Fiona also just jumps the gut to these impulsive decisions, and I get that if she does ask for opinions, they probably won't agree with her, and it's not like I can blame lip, I mean look at the Club situation, yeah she made profit, but didn't break even, and that where his worry comes from. But at least, if she still approached him, and did it anyway against his say, he can't rub it in her face that this entails a family meeting and she can't just make those decisions without consultation. Overall, Lip was so arrogant and dickish with her, and for what... he couldn't even bring the money he so desperately wanted her to believe he could.

I love Sue. I just love EMT Ian stuff with all my life, idc what it is, I kick my feet cause he's so happy.

I fucking loved Carl and Mr. Luthers dynamic. Such an epic lil duo tbh.

I loved Frank's storyline here fsr 💀💀 it's so silly and he gets his way like always, but idk, I loved seeing his adventures at the shelter, he still remains a POS that's for sure.

I fucking LOVED seeing Debbie this season, I was a little disappointed last season cause there is so much lost potential on her pregnancy journey last time with where she was staying, but I fucking loved her here and putting her scamming skills to the test. Don't love how she ends up treating Neil in s8 cause... Well, I just feel bad for him, but also, if she really wanted to stay true to her convenience relationship, she probably should've stuck it out more so it lasted more, idk. But enough of that, I loved her setting a goal for herself at the end of the season, and I honestly commend Monica for helping her get Franny out of the house, I understand Derek's family's concern but they were so cunty in how they handled things.

Monica's death hit me like a truck... Idk why, there are so many mixed emotions here, she couldn't dare to tell the kids the real reason she was there, and all she wanted was to be there one last time. My heart goes out to her tbh.

Gallavich. Oh dear God. FERAL, FERAL EVERY TIME. it's like receiving crumbs and eating them up like a vacuum, nothing I can say that hasn't already been said... I just... Wow. Fuck. And to know that, after needing Noel for ratings, that this was gonna be the end for them? No, I could throw up. I couldn't imagine watching shameless as it aired with that knowledge in mind. FUCK ME THOSE TWO EPISODES I ATE THEM UUUP. anyway, I'm normal about Gallavich.

Lord bless Etta... my dear soul. 7x11 was vicious for that, my heart crumbled fr. I can see this was all in Fiona's best interest for Etta and stuff... It was just so sad to see.

Lip and Sierra, I don't really know what people's opinions are about Sierra but I kind of liked her? She was sweet, and had traces of boundaries with Lip even if the fucker attempted to break them every now and then. But she was sweet.

Lips second spiral was even harder than the first one to see. Him crashing at Helene's apartment, and she still doesn't seem to grasp that she essentially groomed him, and he's just so devastated still. Fuck.

That ending montage was truly a piece of cinema I tell you. It was beautiful.

I probably have more to say I don't remember but I really liked s7, not on the priority of a constant rewatch, but it was really good...and truly served as the finale it was meant to be. EXCEPT FOR GALLAVICH, holy fuck that would've pained the whole audience.

#shameless us #shameless #ian gallagher #gallavich #mickey milkovich #season 7 #fiona gallagher #lip gallagher #debbie gallagher #carl gallagher #svetlana yevgenivna

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my--moon · 2 months

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Vent Post

So yesterday I was sitting with my friends (outside of the event bc it was way too loud) and this older guy comes near us.

My friend Livvy tells me to move but I don't and I stay there. (I should've listened).

Anyway, he starts talking and I'm replying bc he seems nice. Then he starts asking me “do you like spicy books?”

which I reply with ; “um.. idk I don't mind them ig”

then he starts recommending me 21+ books (mind you he knows I'm a minor) and I'm sitting there awkwardly and trying to tell him to shut up without saying it

Then he starts going into detail about what the smut does (HE STARTS GOING INTO DETAIL OF A 18+ PERCY X GODDESS HAREM FANFIC?!?)

and yea.. he also didn't understand the basics of female anatomy, so I had to explain that not all female born bodies are super curvy?? Like that's basic knowledge??

And then he kept talking about smut, kinks and all that shit. I wanted to burst out crying.

He even has the balls to ask me; “what type of body to you prefer on men?”

I answer: “um.. I prefer hugs..”

“Yea but like, super buff or skinny?”

“ummm... scrawny ig?”

“hey I have a scrawny body!” then he lifts up his shirt to reveal his waist—then I add; “i also prefer girls... so..”

he ignores that.

he even asks for my number. “you got Snapchat? discord?”

me; “no sorry.”

“any type of messager??”

me; “youre not getting my number. you're too old for me.”

“only 2 years older!”

okay at least he got the memo on that... But after when I'm huddled up with my friends walking back to school—he follows us.

he starts complaining about this girl he's talking to. mf texted her “dating advice; don't leave a boy in read of 6 hours if you want to keep a boyfriend.”

and she replied with; “i was at school and if I have my phone out I get expelled???? and your not my bf????”

I told him she was right and he rolled his eyes

anyway, he follows me up to my homeroom to grab my bag (cuz he goes to the same one) and he keeps talking about his job and all that.

when I finally got away from him I nearly cried, I had so much yucky feelings around him. (AND IT DIDN'T HELP THAT HE USED TO FOLLOW MY OTHER FRIEND AROUND LAST YEAR)

and during lunch I'm happy I'm smiling again—then he comes near, and stops in front of my group. I'm immediately grab my friend, livvy's hand and rush into the girl's bathroom and we wait until he's gone to go back.

I have to see him everyday because he's in my homeroom. I don't like him and I feel like he's trying to get closer with me like he did with my other friend (he kept following her after she ONCE needed his help with a math problem)

ALSO ALSO ON THE SWIMMING CARNIVAL WE WERE PLAYING T OR D ON AN APP.ON HIS PHONE AND IT KEOT BRINGING UP NSFW DARES AND TRUTHS?? AND EVEN WHEN IT WAS NSFW he made it seem like it was

a few questions he asked that apparently I answered 'wrong'.

what do you do in the privacy of your bedroom?

i said sleep

what do you do infront of the mirror?

I said brush my hair

next dare was for me to take something off (I was in a bikini btw!!) and I took off an earring. he sighed like he was expecting something else.

Like please just leave me alone, Ryan. I don't like you you make me sick and uncomfortable.

#school vent #tw mental health #tw vent #personal vent #vent post #venting #vent #high school sucks ass

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mycptsdstory · 4 months

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Let's do a re-cap for this year, for me. Because it was an insane year.

Well, it started off with my family telling people I'm a peadophile, I hurt children and I've got a lengthy criminal record. I lost jobs, I lost friends and I thought I was gonna be homeless. I had to call the police because when I ordered food from my local takeaway, my neighbours were talking to them saying "I wouldn't trust her. She's a peadophile and hurts children". Then I had friends starting drama with me because they believed my family, even tho I didn't do anything wrong.

Role up to May, I visited America to see my fiancé, his family and my friends. I got engaged on my birthday. It was then I decided I wanted to move to America and never come back to England. It's just HOW. That's the issue. In my head, I got fed up with being stalked. I started to hate England even more.

I came back home, it's when people started to ignore me and want nothing to do with me. No drama, they just ignored me like I didn't exist. So after a while, I did the same thing with them. Then they said, I hurt them by me ignoring them... Okay 🥴

I was still losing friends, I had one friend who spread lies about me. Even tho she wanted my cat dead, she didn't like how I wanted to move to America. I vented to my therapist, found out she has been talking to my family, persuading me and fiancé to stay in England. (That didn't work lol). My therapist said "I don't like your friend J. Block her. She continues to stalk you, call the police". I haven't yet, but I will in the future.

Late August, still in deep depression, my family still causing me shit. The police got me into Cross Roads and they have been helping me a lot. I still continue to lose friends because people still believe my family. Then my fiancé came over to England and we watched AEW in London. It was a really good time and I needed a break. I felt safe in London.

My neighbour started acting weird around me. I think he's talking to my family. But no drama with him. His vibe and energy shifted slightly and I don't like that feeling.

Cross Roads got me into this design course that's not too far away from me. I've been creating fashion and learning to do an Expedition either in Sheffield or in London. We are planning to do an Expedition where I live in a very fancy hotel. Tbh, I'm super excited.

Then more and more people started to ignore me. No drama.

Rolled up to November, my best friend in England is acting all weird around me. Told me not to go to the wake, after the funeral, even tho I looked the memorial for her dead mother, everyone was allowed to go. So I went anyway. All her family loved me, but they hated J (go figure. And yes the same J that my therapist HATED).

I still headed up to the design course, I still love it up there. It's cold, but she has a wood fire. It's nice to sew and create fashion. It helps distract me from my family.

I saw my cousin, he was on drugs and acting erratic. Threatening anyone who looks at him weird and threatening children, he was gonna beat them up. Calling them a freak and so on. When they ran past me in fear, they were calling the police.

Rolled up to December, I thought an old drama situation from a decade ago was over. Nope. Found out, my so-called best friend told our friends I caused drama, because they all heard me and my mother argue, (when I was living with her at the time). She hid her stories on her IG when i told her I blocked everyone. When she hid her stories, I just blocked her. Tbh, she was a child and I haven't got time for people like that. Especially after this year. Do it once, I'm happy to cut you off. I know Al is still stalking my profile, (hi, how ya doin 😘).

I got my neck tattoo because after this year, FUCK IT. Y'all calling me a criminal, I'm gonna get a Corpse Bride butterfly tattoo, on my fucking neck. BECAUSE, WHY THE FUCK NOT. Straight after when I got my tattoo, I needed to pay the tattoo artist, so I head to the bank, but before I went to the bank. I treated myself to Costa Cafe, a hot chocolate and a small cake. I wasn't that hungry, but it was nice. I saw my cousin there, she kept telling her friend how my skin should be "pure" and having a neck tattoo is against the family rules. Her friend was confused and my cousin kept telling her, how I should "marry within the family. She should marry my cousin". Yeahh her friend thought the family rules were weird and her friend liked my tattoo. But my cousin wasn't having it because my uncle An wouldn't like it. (Fucking lol. My family can kiss my furry purple ass). Now she needs to tell the family and my family won't be happy because they have to disown me (fucking lol). It was that moment I knew I needed another tattoo on the other side of my neck. BECAUSE AFTER THIS FUCKING YEAR, WHY THE FUCK NOT. I walked up to my tattoo artist, gave him the money and walked back home. As I was walking home, I saw a family friend full on screaming and swearing at her children. I ignored her and just walked home. Nothing to do with me, I'm keeping my nose out of it. Now people have started to treat me with respect since I got the neck tattoo???? Like, wtf. This never happened. It was so fucking weird.

I think I lost that best friend whose mum died. My intuition started to kick in that J is spreading shit about me. So I just muted all of her profiles so I don't see what she's up too. If I don't hear from her again, I don't mind. I'm thinking of the worst case possible right now.

I still continue doing my design work. I've been experimenting and my teacher, she thinks I'm really talented. I've been doing so much fine detail work, it's been fun.

In all honesty, I FUCKING HATE IT HERE. Other than the design work. FUCK ENGLAND AND FUCK WHERE I LIVE. I FUCKING HATE IT HERE.

Anyone tells me otherwise, your suss. Just sayin.

I hope everyone had a better than me. It started off shit, still kinda shit. But at least people will leave me alone. Planning on getting another tattoo on the other side of my neck. BECAUSE WHY THE FUCK NOT. Y'all wanna treat me like I'm a criminal, I will be a criminal, by getting tattoos and me showing them off. Because fuck what other people think, I'm gonna do my own thing. Don't like it? Kiss my furry purple ass.

It's funny how, people thought I was conservative and "prim and proper" HA 🤣🤣

#year 2023 #what happened this year #2023 recap #2023 #cptsd #c ptsd

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bonesandthebees · 10 months

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OH i don't think i ever told you this but Another reason that honey and tangerines is so important to me is that during it's updating last summer, I literally went on a trip to visit my aunt on an island which had a coastal town and it was a lot of the same vibes. Like I even got to ride a bike and everything ahahaha. It felt a little surreal to be living a fic's life LMFAOO

At least that trip didn't have any found family angst, the most stress I had with family was chasing after my baby cousin ahaha

But it did inspire me to write (unposted) my own au based off the trip but add a bunch of found family angst and it's such a comforting au<3 lets me vent out my problems while also journaling the trip i went on, 10/10

ITS ALSO HILARIOUS THO BC?? okay so my best friend and i joke about them kinning Tommy but in the au I accidentally like??? Projected ?? For them?? Like i was just out here brainrotting like "hmmm okay so tommys visiting phil... i want a dramatic moment where he calls him dad but Also i dont want his own family to be abusive but I could make them just... not great and then have tommy be conflicted over his feelings with them and--" aNyways yeah long story short my friend read it and was like "how did u read my mind ." AND THEN I EVEN ADDED TOMMYS MOM BEING AWAY FOR AWHILE ON A BUSINESS TRIP AND MY BEST FRIENDS MOM WAS AWAY ON A BUSINESS TRIP 😭 LIKEEEEE I KEPT SOMEHOW ADDING STUFF FROM THEIR PERSONAL LIFE WITHOUT EVEN TRYINGJFKGLG

Ig Im psychic B)

Pfffttt fjfkfk

awww wait I love that that town sounds so nice :) I can imagine how surreal that must've felt. I definitely based it partly off my own experiences around coastal towns bc they're so quaint in such a unique way, I love them so much.

thank god you didn't have the familial angst tho lol

very funny that you unintentionally threw your friend into your fic as TommyInnit. I'm so glad my fic inspired you to write though!! i love hearing about when people write stuff because my work inspired them like that it makes me so happy

#ask #icyfox17 #honey and tangerines

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https://www.deviantart.com/comments/4/80757935/5070403795

Alright, today I'm talking about this thread to talk about this unfortunate encounter with this Probium person.

First things first, they intruded the conversation I was having with this Patchi person, who was fortunately way more kinder and understanding than the person I'm mainly talking about. But anyways, Probium for whatever reason thought our conversation was his business now, and entered to bring out their hatred. Also going "I don't intend to attack Club" *he says as he's attacking Club and immediately trying to get me to unfriend him* After I tried reasoning with him about how untrustworthy Club's harassers are, he spams me with two replies at once for some reason, the first one saying "I'm autistic (doctor-diagnosed). I don't RP with anyone, especially not including diaper fetish" Uhh okay I didn't ask, what does that have to do with anything?? I never said YOU were the bigoted one, you moron, and you're also further slandering Club by saying it's a fetish, so "I don't intend to attack Club" my ass. Then the other thing they said was "Why don't you look through it and analyse for yourself, and how do you know these are bigoted trolls? If I told you I was one of those people exposing him, AND I'm autistic (he claims to be autistic too), how would you feel?" Look through and analyse for myself? HONEY PLEASE, I've been a victim of theirs myself! I know damn well what's going on with those fuckers. Maybe don't assume I don't know shit when I do. And if you told me that I would be like "Okay I don't know you and you're admitting to contributing to the harassment of my friend?? Lol okay then ig get blocked." You want to pretend you're special, but you just invaded a conversation. You were never a friend, I won't treat you any different than I treat the other DADramaNow trolls, dear. Also it's a shame your contributing to ableism when you yourself have autism, tsk tsk.

They then wanted me to define bigoted and list reasons why I knew DADramaNow was that. So I did. I gave them a good list. And I'll admit the things about Tam was a misunderstanding. Though rather than talking about my reasons like a normal person, they simply brushed off ALL my reasons with a "no". Then proceeded to rant about Club. "In fact, I have reasons to believe Club is bigoted. Transgender woman named Eden Knight committed suicide knowing that she was sent to Saudi Arabia to possibly be executed? "Oh no! Anyway..." also, constantly shunning other people's stories and struggles to make way for his own to vent about his love for diaper 5yos and make the AUTISM excuse." Yeah now I definitely know the whole thing about "nOt InTeNdInG tO aTtAcK cLuB" is bullshit to try and look innocent. I'm not dumb or blind, honey. And explain to me how the living Hell that woman committing suicide should be blamed on Club??

Of course I was having NONE of this bullshit anymore. It was clear all this person wanted to do was slander my friend and didn't want to listen to a thing I said, Ig a sad attempt of manipulating me to get away from him? But that whole thing was just immature as fuck. I then cut ties with him there and blocked him after giving the final blow, bc there was absolutely no reason to continue dealing with that headache of a "conversation". Why bother trying to talk to someone if they're just gonna tune you out and only worry about what THEY think and what THEY have to say??

I honestly shouldn't even TRY to reason with people like this, yet I tried anyways. And look where that got me -_-

DADramaNow and their supporters don't want reason, they just want mindless slander.

The saddest part is people misunderstand how trust is supposed to work, and that gets us in this kind of situation.

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i really need to vent im so sorry. my sister is driving me to literal insanity. i dont know if im a manipulator or shes truly being a horrible person to me. i talk to my bf a lot. facetime pretty much all day every day, and she can hear me talking through the wall, mostly mumbles no words, but still noise, and she doesnt say anything. she games at the WORST times, honestly, at least we stop talking at 8/9pm, but thats when she starts gaming with her friends, screaming (yes. literal ear piercing screams from horror games) shouting and overall joyous loudness from her room. i put my headphones on and try to block it out, knowing shes just having fun and i need to put up with it. its been like this the whole year practically. the past week shes been getting closer to dad again. dad. the guy who hates me with a passion and mentally abused me for 2 years straight and never got a consequence for it. every. single. time. she hangs out with him, or games with him, she turns into this horribly mean snarky person who is so so rude. and ik im sounding dramatic but shes literally the opposite otherwise. but other than dad shes also got a new friend whos very judgemental and snarky so ig shes impressionable. but anyway the past week shes been very rude and mean to both me and my mum. mums a huge pushover so being mean to her is like kicking a dog, and i truly hate it when shes mean to her. cos mum loves her more than she loves me (its evident and shes told me multiple times i promise im not inferring it) so shes much more of a pushover with my sister 'everything has to be perfect for her'. i hate it. ik ik its jealousy but im dealing with it or at least trying to. so tonight she was singing horribly and ive not had a good day, im stressed, tired, and trying to sleep and here she is humming away purposefully sounding awful. i ask her to be quiet, continues, tell her to shut up, she continues, so i bang on the wall and i kid you not she slowly gets wuieter and quieter til its barely a mumble i can hear from her room and it makes me so unfathomably angry and i truly have no idea why. its like she knows every single button of mine and pushes them at will. so i texted her saying, why are you being such a dick lately its so annoying, to which she was like "i put up iwith you blah blah you cant put up with me blah' i told her to stop playing victim so she told me i need to learn to shut up and put up. a phrase straight from dads book. she knows it is and it throws me into a spiral ehenever i hear it and she knows!! so here i am angry af trying to calm down and not do something ill regret tomorrow, whilst shes happily downstairs making light conversation with dad. i hate it so so much. i did respond back, are you being sarcastic rn?? if not i dont want to speak to you ever again. and she said ok. ik ik its dramatic af but i just cant with her anymore she makes me feel how dad made me feel and i then react like a child, to a child. ik my responses are in the wrong, i really am sorry if i sound really childish or just plain stupid and im truly in the wrong, pls pls tell me if i am. i just cannot handle her at all lately shes literally been a demon lmao (jkjk) thank you for letting me vent to you, the safe space youve created really means a lot <3

hi im the anon whos mad at my sister, uhm - im very close to starting my period and have come to the conclusion that its the reason for the anger lol. Ik i do have some issues but i think it was mostly irrational anger when i wrote the vent, and not an acc issue, or at least thats what im really hoping is the answer lol. im super sorry about it, and i hope youre having an awesome day 💕

Hey, nonnie. I'm glad you could let out some of your frustration and anger here ❤️ I didn’t see your second ask until after writing the reply below, but I think all of it applies anyway, becuase we’re allowed to have days where we’re more irritable. I’m having a good day today, I hope you are too!

I don't think you sound childish or stupid, nonnie. It sounds to me like you might have had a trauma reaction toward her because of the abuse your dad put you through. Trauma reactions (ie. having flashbacks, going into fight/flight, becoming hypervigilant...) don't just appear when we're interacting with the people who abused us; they often also appear when other people do or say something that reminds us of the abuse. Your sister knowingly used a line your dad has used to hurt you before, so I think it is completely understandable that you had an emotional reaction that seems "dramatic" in retrospect. I can only talk from personal experience, but I've also done the same over text in the past, and it was always after something/someone sent me into a fight response.

And, nonnie, even if trauma responses don't justify our actions (they only explain them), I think it's fair to say that this situation with your sister escalated from both sides, not just yours. It wasn't you exploding at her out of nowhere. As you said, she was pushing your buttons, and she knew she was upsetting you, because you'd asked her to be quiet several times.

So yeah, if she makes you feel like your dad made you feel, I think it's understandable that you're having these big emotional reactions toward her when she oversteps your boundaries and purposefully pushes your buttons. You said you react "like a child" toward her, and I think it might be helpful to think about why your reactions feel like those of a child. Children—especially abused children—feel small and defenceless, and sometimes they lash out to protect themselves when this fear and defencelessness become overwhelming. So "reacting like a child" doesn't have to necessarily mean "oh I'm being so immature and stupid". It can mean "I feel threatened and helpless, so my body is having an instinctive reaction to protect me".

What I'm trying to get that is I think you ought to be a little bit kinder to yourself, nonnie. You're allowed to be affected by her attitude toward you. You're allowed to acknowledge that these reactions you're having aren't a flaw on your part, but a sign you're going through a lot of distress and your body is protecting you in any way it can.

I also think you need to be kinder to yourself about feeling jealous that your mum loves your sister more than you. Your jealousy isn't the thing that needs to be fixed in this situation. Your jealousy is a very appropriate reaction to a very unfair situation to you. You deserve to be loved and cared for and protected from harm as much as your sister. You never deserved to hear that your mum loves her more than you. You're not being selfish or childish by feeling jealous; you're just acknowledging your unmet emotional needs and acknowledging that you deserve better than this. And you really do. You deserve so, so much better than this.

Your emotions are allowed, nonnie. Your anger and your jealousy and your defensiveness when she's mean to you and your mum are all allowed. Please don't forget that.

Sending a virtual hug ❤️

#Ask #Vent #Abuse #Abuse tw #Abusive father tw #Toxic sister #Trauma tw

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leesuhyo · 2 years

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Sighs

One of my friends (A) got into a relationship and we're meeting up on Friday with two other friends who are semi in a relationship

Vs me, the forever alone </3

I'll save the rant and venting for my own diary but I guess I'm just super depressed right now? There was a cute boy who came over for dinner last Saturday and I was talking to two of them about him (excluding one because she's a lesbian) and A was like oh bestie if you add him on ig now it'll look super sus

I'm usually not someone who would be affected if I'm determined but I guess it's because I don't have experience in this area so I'm just wavering

I keep trying to push away feelings of wanting a relationship by blaming a grocery list of insecurities and past trauma (see: commitment issues, abandonment issues and ✨more✨) but honestly at this point everything just feels like a lie to me. But I also know (mostly a premonition but it has truth in it) that if I chose the wrong person for my first relationship it'll end up terrible for me, and I have a bad feeling that my first relationship will end up very bad

Anyways. My rational brain tells me that I shouldn't get into a relationship for the sake of it - which is true and wise - and to only find someone I click with instead of chasing after some random person. But my dumb monkey brain propelled by hormones and affected by my friends are telling me to do the same thing because while watching people be dumb in love is fun, the same punchline gets boring after time. And also I guess the peer pressure from people are just growing stronger and stronger 🐸 can all my gay friends also stop fucking asking me whether I'm in a relationship or not

(perhaps I should feel pleasantly surprised that my friend seem surprised that I've never been in a relationship before, but then again he doesn't really know me)

Anyways I guess the conclusion is if someone could take a look at my 11H Chiron, 8H Scorpio Venus, 8H Libra Mars and natal Venus retrograde I'll love you to bits <3

#Love problems #Commitment issues #Self esteem issues #Anxiety #Unhappiness #Love is a ball and God is making me go fetch except the ball can fly #11H Chiron #Scorpio Venus #8H Venus #8H scorpio Venus #8H Mars #Libra Mars #8H Libra Mars #natal venus retrograde #venus retrograde #Who's blaming astrology for their love problems? Yes hi it's me

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the job sounds so sweet how could I ever possibly refuse such an offer. You will be freed from your parents, as your first and most loyal employee I will of course help with any job we get and also tell you that you're doing awesome each time!

on a more serious note yeah, I dunno how much it means but I really get what you mean. Growing up one of my biggest fantasies was of my parents dying and running away after to live in the forest with our dog. Or more accurately I wanted to run away and join a dragon colony

You're definitely not alone in your desires, but it's too complex a thing to just say usually ig? but yeah I feel ya. Parents are a prison to break out of, and sometimes that means force (hypothetically speaking)

wow this "being a boss" shit is hella easy. I'm gonna give you a raise cause you're the best (and only) employee I've ever had.

anyway forgive me but im gonna rant about the story i made now. it was called Hounds End. the main characters were a trans guy named Andre and the ghost of a vengeful nonbinary person who'd been murdered and is now kind of a guiding spirit-ghost-thing. they cant really remember their life and they've been a spirit for a while now so they feel less like a human and more like a ghost yknow.

sorry for the ramble, the POINT is that the dog-ghost-spirit rips Andres parents to pieces and then accompanies him to keep him safe while he's homeless. then my Gf got mad at me (not exactly the story just skeeved her out) so i changed it to the dog-spirit offering to kill Andre's parents and Andre being like "ehh thats nice but lets just leave instead"

but she still didn't like it or wanna hear about it, so i shelved it. it was a really angsty vent project anyway.

#nnstuff #ask #asks are sweethearts #hounds end #nnoc

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lokislytherin · 1 year

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ghosted - an original

i’m sure some of you have seen me post about these ocs before or vent about not having a story to give them? well now they’ve escaped into the world! if you’re interested in murder mysteries crossed over with kpop with a drop of magic, romance and crack 👀

LINK TO INCOMPLETE NOVEL HERE!

i tried to draw my ocs but unfortunately im still working on learning how to draw so i kind of took the picrews as a base? the chibis were based off genshin stickers if they look a little familiar

anyway character introductions!

SONG JUNHEE

he’s a singer who sacrifices his memory to a mysterious grim reaper in exchange for surviving a car crash, and he’s gotta solve the mystery of his own death and an ensuing idol serial killing in six months before all hell breaks loose! honestly his chibi is so cute i want to use it as an actual reaction sticker- yeah he is the Pretty Boy character (because hello? faceclaim doyoung from nct is 🥺🥺🥺) tbh but hey! he can fight with his drumsticks and he’s meaner than he looks

AHN MINJI

best girl!! detective!! smug as hell when she’s right, awkward as hell when she’s wrong because she expects herself to always be right. she’s a karen fighter and will not hesitate to speak her mind even if it gets her into trouble. yes i know i originally cast her as rosé bc i feel like she’d be more gentle but she’s a bit of a cheeky one and her personality ran away from me so all she’s got now is rosie’s signature hair color. she’s fun tho and i like her a lot

SON DAEHYUK

sunshine boy! baby! golden retriever bf type of character! unfortunately 1) he’s dead 2) he likes to think of junhee as sunshine and himself as sunshine protector bc he’s junhee’s biggest fan and will fight haters but he’s also an idol and junhee’s hoobae so let’s face it he’s the baby of the cast and junhee is like his responsible older brother LMAO honestly he wasn’t really meant to be a major character but i’ve been told i have oneechan vibes (even tho i have no siblings) so i basically adopted him. junhee move aside he’s My baby now

HYUNJUN

real name unknown, real age unknown, all we know is that he’s an idol who’s always disappearing for Unknown Reasons and he’s been junhee’s bff for the past decade. who knows, maybe he’s got more hidden under his sleeve than just cards... he was not meant to exist actually. but he popped into my head and chewed through my train of thought and now we’re here

if you’re interested pls feel free to give this a read! i’m trying to use this site called royal road bc i heard it’s better than wattpad in some ways but at the same time using it feels kind of discouraging because the site literally wants you to publish every day but i’m a uni student who doesn’t have time for that rip

updates are on my ig rinarchive52 for anyone who’s interested!

#original characters #ocs #original content #original writing #original novel #oc art #aaaaa #i am Trying to art #im learning #it's a slow progress #writer #writer problems

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Heyy! So, I really dunno if I’m the one who’s lagging on some brain cells but just hear me vent something out. {idk what tw is exactly applicable but ig toxic fandom?tag should be okay}

So, I have a couple moots who are all bookworms like me, and since we’re dedicated armys, we usually lookout for fanfics and basically recommend fics of our choice on an ig chat(sort of a book club activity you can say). Now here’s one thing: a moot shares a profile of <mystical princess> user from wattpad and it creates a sort of havoc in our gc: mostly as in, it’s hyped as if it’s a breaking news or something. Later I get to know that this user happens to be an account owned by aespa’s giselle in her predebut years. It recently got much attention because somebody leaked it apparently, and here’s where the actual problem is. I know some moots on that gc are toxic armys - the army who shared the profile happens to be one too. She said very demeaning stuff about giselle and even said it’s such characterless attitude to maintain wp account if you’re a celebrity - like??? I don’t stan aespa alr, but I’m pretty sure giselle never knew she was gonna become an idol from the beginning. Also, what’s wrong in maintaining a writing page? She did that stuff as a child, and leaking away this info about her account is like breaching her privacy. Moreover, using this as a means to spread hate only because of that one controversy for which she apologised (the racist slur one) is ridiculous imo. I can’t really say anything to them because most of them happen to be older than me but I think what that moot pointed out was blunt hypocrisy. Someday some fanfic writer from tumblr happened to become a popular writer and their tumblr profile is leaked without their knowledge, won’t they face hate too? What’s the point of spreading such hate when you could be peacefully binging on fics instead?😕 I think I spoke a lot anyways, it kinda feels better to have written this out because I was feeling heavy the whole time with this piling up in my head 😅 you’re a good human who listens to others rants without being much judgemental so I just blurted stuff out here, sorry if I had been rude at some point!!

the tw is okay !! thank u so much for adding one <3

hmmm, yeah that does not sound healthy. judging celebrities – or people in general – bcos of such a thing is definitely unsolicited. fanfic writers are just people, too 😭 no one would criticise professional writers either – i don't know aespa or giselle, or anything about the slur controversy (have just heard of aespa), but the fact that her wattpad account caused such a controversy is such a stupid thing lmao that's as if they're cancelling her for being a celebrity's fan pre-debut.

i agree with u, one should just read fanfics in peace 🥲 and ahh, honestly, that's probably just me, but in such a situation i just say nothing; bcos it's a conflict that can be avoided! unless it derails !! 😐

but i mean the main advice i can give u is to definitely leave the group – sometimes, when u feel bad about smth, things just get worse and then blow up someday. i bet it'd be better for u if u didn't have to deal with those things anymore, since i can see that it's affecting u. i hope u do what's right for u tho; and i hope things get better in that group soon 💕

#tw toxic fandom #notes for rid 🌹#anon #long ask

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