#csam mention

[heartnosekid]

well, friends. i’m sure a good lot of you have seen this post. i was denied today. i have to contact a lawyer and i don't even know how to begin advocating for myself outside of simply contacting the firm an ex-friend of mine used to obtain disability.

if you would rather not read the whole vent, i completely understand. but if you would still like to provide answers or support to me, here are my main issues.

i need advice from others who have been denied disability and have gone through a lawyer to obtain it. i need advice on what to do about getting started with victim advocacy. that's about it, i reckon. i love you all. my dm's are open. you will be blocked if you clown.

and yes, i realize my stim blog is not the place to talk about this. i understand, but this is my largest audience and i feel i would be a fool to not post this somewhere it may be actually received.

tw for mental health talk / long vent under the cut, particularly of the despairing kind, and also mentions of CSA / CSAM, psychosis, and my general disabilities. if this post needs more trigger tags, please let me know and i'll add them.

my whole life i have been treated as if i am not struggling because i can do the bare minimum to keep myself alive. i can survive, but never thrive, and even surviving now has become difficult. i can't feed myself regularly, my guardians do that for me. i can't stand for longer than a few minutes at a time without extreme duress and pain, which makes cleaning, showering, and going out super difficult and beyond draining. i can understand abstract concepts and certain ideas and am emotionally intelligent, but i struggle heavily with understanding money or how government works, particularly when it comes to laws and loopholes. i don't know when i'm "being had", as it were, and others have pointed this out to me throughout my adulthood. it feels as though this entire disability journey has been me "being had". they gave me something to cling on to, the possibility i may be able to receive real help, and it seems as though they basically knew the whole time they were going to deny me again. for the fourth time. i know that is unrealistic but, it does feel that way.

i wrote several full length books when i was a child / young teenager, and had two published. i won't share the titles because i have outgrown what i wrote and find them childish and frankly embarrassing, but everyone upon learning that i have written and had novels published, immediately jumps to the conclusion that i am some kind of self-sufficient, incredibly intelligent and capable person. i have never once been able to effectively take care of myself. without my guardians, i wouldn't be able to manage money, insurance, bills, cars, groceries, among other things. i don't even halfway understand how insurance on anything even works despite having been shown how it works.

i can see something, be "taught" to the best of someone's ability, and i will still not be able to learn. this has been a constant issue throughout my life, and the american public school system has continually helped these issues perpetuate. all schooling has done is teach me how to parrot back concepts and ideas, remember them for a limited amount of time before losing them to the void, and not how to fundamentally understand and learn them or utilize them in daily life. even higher education was like this, and i was not able to thrive throughout my experience with college despite making mostly okay grades (i cheated and lied a lot, okay. i'm not proud of it but i felt i had to get through or i would be severely punished). i had to a sign an agreement that i personally still do not fully understand to "obtain" my associate's degree, and i do not know why despite the fact it was explained to me, in detail. the information has not registered, and i now no longer have anyone that was involved in said agreement to explain it to me. everyone i say this to is like, "what? that doesn't make any sense." and i'm like. yeah. it doesn't, and i have zero ability to explain it to them in a way that makes sense.

i mention my associate's degree because i am sure in some form or fashion it was used against me in the disability process, since i was "able to complete higher education". also it should be noted i did an early college program. also probably has been used against me. also cheated through most of it.

people have always considered my kind of autism to be hyper competent, since it appeared that way when i was a child, despite showing several signs that i was struggling with a math-centric learning disability, called dyscalculia. i have since deteriorated to the point of barely having the knowledge a young adult should have, about how life works financially and honestly in general.

i have extreme fear about what may happen to me without proper assistance. my guardians will be able to take care of me for some time, but after that? that feels like a black hole to me. it doesn't exist nor will it while i am under-assisted, and this black hole fills me with utter despair. i try not to let it permeate my daily life, so as to not dwell in a future that doesn't exist yet and has the possibility for change. but god. it fills me with literal existential dread, and it is becoming so much more difficult to ignore the older i get.

a lot of factors have been used against me my entire life to deny me assistance, and these reasons being yet another factor has really dredged up a lot of shit from my past.

this is besides the point, but i also learned recently that CSAM was made and distributed of me when i was a child and wow. that has hit me in ways i cannot even describe. part of me is like, why was i not allowed to know after the fact, even when i became an adult? i was directly involved. why did no one tell me my abuser was convicted for counts of spreading CSAM, and that they lied directly to the court system about their inappropriate actions with me? i was disenfranchised in more ways than one by more than one person on allowance of my abuser, and i am just now hearing about it. i don't know how to deal and i don't know how to get started with victim advocacy in my area.

but at the same time, whilst being treated as severely more competent than i am, i have also been infantilized relentlessly, by nearly everyone around me. how does this make any sense. i feel incredibly stupid and uninformed and at the same time privy to things about my disabilities others are not, while not being able to effectively communicate it. i feel i am screaming and begging for help, nearly at my wits end with a lot of things, and all of it is reading as "owie booboo" to anyone who could do anything to help. i feel i am falling through the cracks, and i fear having to crawl back up through them. i fear i won't make the trek. i fear i will lose motivation and let myself rot. it feels like no one in a position of power has taken a true effort to really help me and i cannot help or advocate for myself. i am very scared.

on top of all of that stuff, i am withdrawing pretty heavily from cymbalta, experiencing heightened panic attacks every day, PNES (psychogenic non-epileptic seizures), more episodes of psychosis and hallucinating than i'm used to, all of my mental and physical issues are out of control, and now this disability stuff. i also won't be able to see a psychiatrist for...maybe a week or so more, so no bridge meds till then.

these last couple weeks have just really kicked me down. thank you for reading if you got this far. i appreciate you more than you know and i have no idea where i would be without y'all and this blog. i love you all so very much.

-ish

#ish talks #disability #vent #mental health #CSA mention #CSAM mention #physical disability mention #mental disability mention #psychosis mention #hallucination mention #dyscalculia #neurodivergent #autism #victim advocacy #PNES #ableism

[funnyanimalguy]

Apparently this man, Francisco Dias*, whose company Frantech Solutions/BuyVM is the webhost that a lot of pro-contact/pro-CSAM/bestiality Fediverse servers use, also used to host fucking 🥝.FARMS??

I feel like we need eyes on this guy.

*Not to be confused with the tennis player or anyone else who shares his name

#Frantech solutions #BuyVM #ponynet #Fediverse #Francisco Dias #CSAM mention #ask to tag

[succliberation]

The biggest dataset used for AI image generators had CSAM in it

Link the original tweet with more info

The LAION dataset has had ethical concerns raised over its contents before, but the public now has proof that there was CSAM used in it.

The dataset was essentially created by scraping the internet and using a mass tagger to label what was in the images. Many of the images were already known to contain identifying or personal information, and several people have been able to use EU privacy laws to get images removed from the dataset.

However, LAION itself has known about the CSAM issue since 2021.

LAION was a pretty bad data set to use anyway, and I hope researchers drop it for something more useful that was created more ethically. I hope that this will lead to a more ethical databases being created, and companies getting punished for using unethical databases. I hope the people responsible for this are punished, and the victims get healing and closure.

#stable diffusion #laion #midjourney #ethics in AI #csam mention #csa mention

[its-lick-the-lollipop]

I’m terrible at using this blog but hey, I won’t leave @reversedshinyoumaru (hifuuclubfan on Twitter) get away with this

so let’s get the record straight: I said what Shadman drew is wrong. No doubt about it, “erotic art” of children or using children should not be made. But the correct term isn’t art, it’s also not porn.

It’s abuse. Specifically, child sexual abuse material

and the 16 year old loser ”criticized” me and said I was the idiot for pointing out that “child porn” is wrong because the word “porn” implies consent. And as everyone smart enough knows, children can obviously NOT consent to sex!

which is why even child protection organizations such as NCMEC have BEGGED people to call it what it is: child sexual abuse material

this 16 year old comes off as if what Shadman drew was “harmless”! And that’s why I’m stressing it so much: words have meanings.

And this clown and everyone who defends it are watering down the severity intentionally to protect abusers.

#csa mention #csam mention #shad man #antishipper #antis follow christian conservative propaganda #antiship #call it what it is

[fakeboitherottengirl]

The only thing I will say negative about Plagued Moth is that he lied about having never seen CSAM. Hes around my age, and left-leaning, so if he was in any Bernie Sanders facebook group (especially the largest "Dank Meme Stash" one) he would have been there when Hillary sent the hackers in to spam CSAM/Gore/Animal abuse. If you were at all Bernie-leaning during the primaries, chances are you were in at least one group that put horrible shit on your feed. I remember waking up one morning and half my feed was spammed CSAM from those groups, the point of the attack was to make those groups unusable and it worked. Hes also around my age and said he went on 4chan regularly as a teenager. Back in the late 00s you could not refresh the front page of /b/ more than 5x without seeing CSAM (and thats not even counting the lolicon or sexualized discussions about underage female celebrities). He grew up on the "wild west" internet where you didn't have to go looking for that kind of shit, it popped up uninvited on websites you used every day (i remember having to report somebody randomly sending it to me on gaiaonline when i was like 14, and another incident where i downloaded a song from limewire and attached to the file were CSAM images. I was a child at the time so I got my mom and we reported it together). its weird to deny that you ever saw CSAM during that time on those websites, especially if you are somebody with an interest in dark media/true crime I don't believe that you can be chronically online enough to make a living reviewing gore videos without having unwillingly been exposed to CSAM. ESPECIALLY since he watched Amber Alert and Suffer Little Children, which pretty much up until he reviewed them were obscure trade-only mixtapes. Like to say you've never come across it just makes it sound like you are sus and have something to hide.

#plagued moth #csam mention #csa mention

[thedeafprophet]

Funneling my midterms stress into being pissed off about ai bullshit.

And im not even someone who's career is monetarily impacted by ai sludge taking over, art is just my hobby. But I feel terrible about it and for those impacted by it

And all of searching has been overblown with ai images spammed everywhere. It's harder to find actual artists to support and sites get overrun with this stuff that can be produced at the click of a button, drowning out the word of artists who spend so long producing stuff. And this isn't even getting into the inherent violation it is when it comes to voice generation.

the inherent disgust at that fact that yea, data scrapping is violating! We did not share things just so people can use it to train machinery without our consent. Especially not people's hard worked on art, photos of family and friends, the pages and pages of conversations and history with people shared for joy, only to be stolen with bad intents.

And that's without getting into the gross immoral aspects of Data scrapping from everywhere. People's personal photos, medical photos is one thing. The fact that child sexual assault material is in the data set trained on is abhorrent in ways I can't even begin to express.

And the thing is I don't have an answer to this. Copyright laws do not help us in the way people seem to think and would likely just make matters worse. Disinformation and photoshopping revenge porn was already a problem, but this is on a whole other level. What do we do with this, what it's all just another cog in the machine around us.

Ugh. I need a nap

#the prophet speaks #ai nonsense #csam mention

[vergess]

rememver the multiple times antis have actually disseminated CSAM because they did in fact think it was the same as a cartoon and were horribly shocked to find out there is a difference

I only remember two specific incidents, but yes.

That would be because many of them were indoctrinated into this cult when they were children, and the indoctrination process functionally taught them to genuinely believe that cartoons are genuinely interchangeable with film of a child being raped.

I tend to focus on one direction of this cult belief. The treatment of comic books as if they are evidence of a serious violent crime. Some will report comic book artists to child protective agencies, wasting their limited time and budgets. Others will seek to enact violent mob justice on those who draw such comic books (the content of which varies and need not be sexual in nature to invite this harassment).

But the inverse issue also arises: treating violence against children, and the survivors of that violence, as subhuman.

I have heard of (and seen evidence of) several cases where antishippers either located the film of a victim of their harassment being raped as a child and sent it to their victim as a threat, or else claimed that they had such films but did not send them.

There are fewer, but as I mentioned at least two incidents where antishipper cult members uploaded film or photos of children being raped into common public platforms like twitter and google docs, so that they could "signal boost" these graphic pieces of CSAM to each other.

This is just one of many ways that antishippers reveal their concern for the safety of children and prevention of sexual violence is nonsense. They do not want to protect kids.

They want an excuse to violently attack people they don't like.

#Antis #Antishippers #Antishipping #CSAM mention #CP Mention #Harassment #Hate campaign #Cult indoctrination #Bog Incident

[just-antithings]

I think deviant art banning art of “underage” characters has something to do with them allowing AI on the site. I’m not defending dA or AI but I’m guessing they don’t want the possibility of generating CSAM with the submitted pictures

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#mod erin #ask #posted without comment #csam mention

[compostboy]

TUMBLR FUCKING HELLO ???????????

There are many CRIMES to being a marine biologist apparently! Abysmal.

#what do I even fucking tag? #csam mention #maybe?

[spurgie-cousin]

I have just been watching something and realised u have different types of police and jail / prison are different places. I was wondering why ppl said Josh didnt get conjugal visits cos its the feds. Didnt even really know what feds meant 🤦🏽‍♀️. So why is Joshs a fed crime? Could it have been a state crime? Is fed more serious? In the UK its just the police for the whole country (i think 😂). We use the word jail and prison interchangeably but it means the same thing.

"Fed" means "federal" which refers to national law enforcement agencies like the FBI and Homeland Security, not necessarily police. Feds get involved when a crime is very serious and isn't isolated to just one state, as is often the case with CSAM (and was for Josh).

When people are convicted of a federal crime as described above, they are sent to a federal prison which means the prison is operated by the national government and not an individual state. Again these usually hold criminals who have committed very serious crimes that have crossed state borders in one way or another.

In the US 'jail' is generally more of a temporary thing and 'prisons' are for long-term sentences.

The UK does have national law enforcement bodies to my knowledge, although I don't know as much about them

#queue #csa mention #csam mention #josh duggar tw

[lifblogs]

*eye roll* For all the “geniuses” out there, just thought you should know AO3 doesn’t have any CSAM material.

#csam mention

[jalopeura]

sometimes twitter is great but other times its 'unsurprising but still fucking disappointing: AO3 wont do anything abt the AI thing and will not actually apologize for the legal heads insane takes' immediately followed by someone going 'um actually i think i Can separate art from the artist for the sake of the new rurouni kenshin anime. we shouldnt boycott the animators just bc the author is a pedophile uwu' jesus fucking christ

#im gonna go shower in the hottest water i can to forget both of these things hopefully #csam mention

[mrsmarlasinger]

Got a s2r blog removed!!

Thank you! 🖤

#ask #csam mention

[antiradqueer]

“why does tumblr keep banning rq accounts guys?????”

#mod adam #anti radqueer #tw csam #tw csem #tw rape mention #tw nazi ment #tw nazi mention #anti prat #anti transhateful #anti transharmful #anti xenosatanism #anti xenosatanist

[txttletale]

did you hear about the LAION stuff?

yeah i mean it is obviously really fucking bad but i think a lot of the reporting on it is disingenous in presenting this as a specific problem or failure of LAION / the AI sector when it is really just indicative of a much wider problem with the prevalence of CSAM on the internet. like, ending up with CSAM in your dataset is kind of a natural consequence of scraping the public facing internet, because places like facebook and twitter are fucking rife with it. facebook removed more than 70 million posts last year for violating its CSAM policy -- if we give them the extremely generous benefit of the doubt and say that their moderation is capable of catching 99% of it, that's still 700,000 CSAM images/videos left up in 2022 alone. like a lot of things with AI, it's just showcasing a much wider problem that's unfortunatley much more difficult to resolve.

#ask #csam mention cw

[kiwisandpearls]

please please please please PLEASE I am BEGGING people:

stop using terms meant for abusive material of actual children when you referring to content of fictional characters. You are implying that fictional characters are as much victims as the actual children who are abused when CSEM is made of them.

You are not helping victims as much as you might think you are by doing this. Knock it off.

#talk away ⌞🍵🍋 ⌝ #my new year has started off great /s #and just in general #please don’t use terms such as “cp” and “cheese pizza” #proship #profic #profiction #proship please interact #proship safe #Profic safe #pro fiction #tw csem mention #tw csam mention #tw cp mention #I don’t even like that type of fictional content really #I just think it’s really gross to be using terms for actual abuse when talking about said content