#haechan and johnny as roommates was Very important to me

[nctdream]

countdown to haechan’s birthday: (d-5)  ↳ haechan the wine connoisseur 🍷

#haechan #nct #nctinc #nct 127 #nct dream #lee donghyuck #happyhaechanday #gifs #haechan and johnny as roommates was Very important to me

[dojae-huh]

So many new fans don’t know that the first scandal donghyuck had was in end of 2016 beginning of 2017. the whole issue was that stalkers boasted that they talked to him and that donghyuck hated taeyong. They not only bullied a 16 year old but also made to abt taeyong who was hated alot in the kfandom (Think now but make it ten times worse) (kpopmap.com/nct-haechan-in-controversy-of-being-friends-with-excessive-fan/)

The antis not only hurt haechans reputation, they also attacked taeyong in the whole issue. Now imagine a kid who is 5 years younger than taeyong who speaks rudely sometimes with him (watch?v=BUatQTYIuQA&ab_channel=zerotoone im sure uve never watched anyone else from dreamies talk like this to taeyong ) and how everything they both did was noted down and discussed in the fandom both International and Korean. Haechan was alot quieter after this issue and what I noticed taehyuck became very private abt their relationship (theyre the reason I thought jaedo did the same but than 2018 happened) the whole 5floor boys have alot of antis and remember how haechan was again in a scandal coz stalkers released his drunk pics, and as usual haechan wasn’t only blamed but doyoung was abused along with him (kkuljaem-pan.blogspot.com/2020/06/enter-talk-looks-like-nct-haechans.html) when I got into 127 I didn’t realise how close taehyuck were until I saw predebut stuff or how taeyong talks abt haechan alot more than other younger members and randomly buys him alot of stuff (svnthsns/status/1005396256703668224?lang=en), even after debut haechan was the only roommate who didn’t have an issue with taeyongs cleanliness. Haechan himself is very dedicated to cleaning things that are his. Even during the debut vlive donghyuck and jaehyun were taeyongs babies and u could see (vlive.tv/video/10995  at 17:45 this is not a reaction of someone who hates his hyung or taeyong being annoued with the way haechan always used to make fun of him)

With taehyuck look at them now and how comfortable they both are being flatmates and are usually doing stuff together(watch?v=AZ30spQW8Mk&ab_channel=채널NCTDAILY or watch?v=ECpEKsea-vw&ab_channel=NCT). also notice what donghyuck gets from taeyong, haechan is the only other member atm taeyong is close to in any sense other than doyoung. He makes him bags and paints him pics and also buys him expensive ipads and equipment. Taeyong showers the love he has alot on donghyuck still but coz of their antis they had not shared their friendship for a long time, now that haechan doesnt care we see alot more taehyuck. We have to realise that taeyong keeps members at a distance as he blames for the rough period 127 had in the beginning.

Haechan isnt from a rich household so he saves money, most cloths he wears are hand me downs from taeyong and taeyong always buys him stuff even doyoung doesnt.

I want to tell anon that the 2 ppl who are my ultimate bias are 2dong in all of kpop along with key from shinee, 2dong were the reason I became a taeyong fan, they both kept hyping him and being his biggest fanboys. This is why I call haechan dotaes kid and not jaedos (just look at the money spent on his b,day gifts)

also how can we forget taeyong asking haechan not to drink till hes 24 when he wasn’t legal and now asking haechan to come and drink beer with him.

watch?v=bYayYCMWKqU&ab_channel=FieryAunt a fanvideo with a few of their moments

Ps... I'm nouratan not an anon 🙋‍♀️

2018 jaedo was something else, I pity taeil and Johnny alot during this time

The scandal from 2016, Hyuk being rude, the scandal from 2020, Tae and sneakers, 127 debut vlive (17:45), TaeHyuk at dorms, fanvideo

Thank you for the explanation. I know about few things you've mentioned (like the i-pad with pics of Tae, sneakers), but didn't catalogue them. It's only when we pay special attention, give something importance, we start to really notice and connect the dots.

I pitied Mark more. The bro was forgotten, heh.

[jungcity]

bane of the devil. | vii

genre: vampire!jaehyun [angst | fluff | smut]

pairings: jaehyun x female reader

words: 5k

warning: bane of the devil deals with themes of deaths, physical, mental, and sexual abuse as well as toxic relationships. which may be upsetting for some readers. you are advised not to continue if you feel uncomfortable to these types of plots.

note: hello! hope you enjoy this short chapter! and i also am hoping that this story doesn’t bore you at all. stay healthy, loves! 🤍

“he would burn down the castles

of the kings who tried

to conquer her,

he would become the monster

of those who tried

to terrify her,

he would be the shadows of the

devils in her nightmares,

oh heavens,

he would lay waste

to their universe,

if they turn her world

to ashes.”

— bane of the devil // vii

“What do you think?” Madame Juana looked at you with twinkling eyes, anticipating for your long-awaited answer.

You roamed your eyes around the room. There were two clean beds, with freshly washed linens in blue colors. A sign that you won’t have the bedroom for your own. The fact of having a dorm mate excites you since you’ve never had a new friend aside from Mark and Haechan.

Aside from the beds, there was a massive bookshelf at the far corner of the room, located meters away from the door which you assumed leads to the comfort room. The two beds have small tables at the sides, two lamps placed above it.

“This room feels cozy,” you commented while nodding.

Madame Juana let out a sigh of relief. “That’s good to hear.” She placed a hand at the small of your back and guided you towards the bed. “This is yours,” she stated as you both sank down the mattress.

There were also two windows located at the head of each bed, with thick curtains to block out the sun.

The neat and pristine bed across from yours drew your attention. It looks like it hasn’t been touched ever since. “Who’s my roommate?”

“Oh, she’s Rhianon. She’s currently attending lectures, so you won’t be seeing her anytime soon.”

You nodded your head. Silence fell around the room. You still hadn’t asked about the happenings back in the courtyard. Madame seemed to anticipate your questions, despite her smiling face.

Before departing the clinic, Jane, the nurse, gave you a medicine to help relieve your headache. She advised you to press a clean cloth with ice wrapped in it for one week, to help the swelling of your broken nose. Presently, the swelling has lessened but the pulsating pain is still there.

“I didn’t mean to pry, darling, but what happened to Jaehyun?” Madame searched for your face, “He seemed devastated when he departed the clinic.”

Jaehyun’s disappointed face flashed in your mind instantly. And your own disappointment to yourself came back crashing like a tidal wave. It made you sick to your stomach. He only meant to protect you, but you’ve dismissed his efforts by asking him not to ruin the chance of joining the Academy for you. You have seen it in your own eyes. How had he managed to suppress himself from fighting back the venator. Yet you still condemned him despite holding his patience.

“I… I believe I’ve said something which annoyed him,” you admitted. For hours, you settled yourself on the clinic bed. Yet Jaehyun did not return. You could only wish that he remained out of trouble. The venators weren’t very welcoming, they’d looked at him with contempt and disgust. The reality of him, brawling with a venator, did not earn the good side of the hunters, it had only amplified the hatred they have for his nature.

Madame placed a hand on your shoulder, “Don’t worry, he’s fine.” With that, you snapped your head towards her. You didn’t mean for your face to reflect your eagerness of knowing Jaehyun’s whereabouts, but you supposed you have failed now that Madame seemed to take in your expression with a jovial interest and squinting eyes. “He’s staying across from my own room. I couldn’t place him at the venators’ dorms. Not a friendly place for him to be.”

You exhaled, your worry fading away like a popped bubble. Another silence weighed in on the atmosphere. You wanted to ask Madame about a lot of things. But the point on where to start seemed to be out of your grasp. Your mind could not sort out your questions. Tongue heavy of the words that you’ve been repressing to ask the witch lest you insulted her.

“Madame…” The worlds trailed off. Your eyes stared at the window. Leaves and branches were all that you could see from your position at the third floor of the venatrixes’ dormitory and inside your bedroom. The witch made a humming sound, a sign that she has heard your barely audible whisper. “Why me?”

Uncertainty wasn’t the feeling that you’d expected to feel in the presence of vampire hunters. Before you could step your shoes in the pavements towards the Academy, your heart was burning with determination, your bones screaming for justice. The same fire that has kindled mere hours ago inside you seemed to have doused into ashes now. You feel weak, and unable.

“What do you mean, little dove?”

With the question, you faced her. Courage is something you have been holding on for ages. But it seems to disappear the moment you need it. “I mean… I know I’ve come personally to you. To help me. I don’t mean to sound stupid, but you have tons of hunters to command. They are mortals, too. I don’t understand why did you wait for someone such as me to drive your plan into fruition?” You bit your lip after the words slid out.

Madame Juana’s face was devoid of any emotion. She didn’t look shock, nor did she look affronted by the sudden burst of your curiosities. “Would you believe me if I say no one in the hundreds of hunters under this Academy had knocked on my door and offered to kill Alena for me?” A doleful smile had spread on the woman’s lips. Your heart lurched by the revelation, yet you still had forced yourself not to jump into prejudices and paint the hunters cowards nor ungrateful. “Oh no, don’t look at me like that, Y/N.” She fans her hands between the both of you while chuckling. “They don’t really know about my son. You and Diego are the only person who knows about what happened to him.”

Oblivious you still are of the story behind Madame Juana’s son, despite of the little story she shared with you back in her mansion. Mixed feelings of awe and pride swelled inside you by her words. Diego Asdalis was a man of great importance to the Academy, and you supposed, to Madame’s life too. To be included alongside him as the person whose Madame had confided in was an honor. You feel special all of a sudden.

“But why? Why haven’t you told Lucas? Or Eva? They seemed to respect you like their own mother.” There was no point holding the words back. This is what you have been waiting for; an alone time with Madame.

“Yes, they do. But I didn’t feel any determination in them. Don’t get me wrong, honey. They are courageous, outrageous even at times.” Madame smoothed out her skirt before continuing, “My own powers whispered in me the day I saw you at my gathering.” She stood up and cupped your chin, “You are who I’ve been waiting for, my love. Together, we will destroy Alena. Because I believe she’s the one who killed your parents.”

Brows furrowing and heart thudding at the mention of your parents, you held Madame’s stare. “How?”

“Looking at you right now, Y/N, I know it hasn’t been long since you’ve lost your parents. And trust me, Alena is the only living vampire who’s intrepid enough to kill mortals even under the nose of the treaty.” She caressed your cheek, before planting a soft kiss on your head. As if immediately, the pain in your head seems to lessen, and the broken bones in your nose feels as if they are reconnecting in place. “Now rest, my little dove.”

Madame guided your back as you lay on the bed. Then she covered you with the sheets. Your eyelids drooped, the heaviness of your eyes enough to pull you to slumber. The last thing you had seen before closing them was the swaying of Madame’s skirts as she sauntered up to the door, leaving you to rest.

Dreamless was the sleep that you had. When you woke up, the moon was already on its peak, showering the earth an eerily white-bluish hue. The bed beside you was still neat, a sign that Rhianon hasn’t arrived yet.

Deciding to take a quick shower, you sauntered up to the comfort room, only stopping when your luggages caught your line of sight. They were resting beside a wooden cabinet composed of many drawers. Relief and the sense of familiarity flooded you as you keyed the luggages, revealing your clothes. First thing that caught your attention was your cellphone. You typed in a hurried text for Johnny, Mark, and Haechan, informing them that you have arrived safely. Then you started to unpack all your belongings.

As you fold your clothes and undergarments inside the drawers, different types of gem stones caught your attention once again. There were amethyst, jade, tiger eye, lapis lazuli and more. They sat mere meters away from your drawers. You shrugged and continued on with what you were doing. They must be Rhianon’s.

Then the door creaked open. Behind it emerged a woman the same height as yours. Her skin golden, hair like the shot of darkness. She’s not wearing the uniform of a venatrix, instead she’s clad in a simple t-shirt paired with pants and a rubber shoes. As she caught sight of you, she scrunched up her nose and fixed her thick glasses.

“Oh! You must be Y/N!” Excitement laced her voice as she trudged towards you. Her hand stretched out as if on cue. “I’m Rhianon!”

You wiped your palms with your pants before taking her hand, “Nice to meet you, Rhianon.” Then you flashed her a smile, hoping that it was friendly enough.

Rhianon shook your hand, presenting you her pearlescent white teeth. “Rhi is okay.” Rhi’s eyes found your luggages, her mouth formed a light ‘o’. “Do you need any help?”

“Oh no! It’s okay.”

“Alright, then. I’ll leave you to your work— wait! What happened to your nose?” Rhianon pointed at your nose, both concern and inquisitiveness plain on her face.

Your fingers touched the swell. It has receded and feel less worse than earlier. “Oh… A brawl–” Your words were caught in your throat as Rhianon put a finger to seal your lips.

“Wait! I’ll take a quick shower and then you will tell me what happened! Alright?”

Before you could utter another word, she already flew towards the bathroom. Leaving you confused but chortling nonetheless. It would seem like you will have a good time with Rhi.

Rhi took half an hour to clean herself. While you fixed all that you need to fix. The thought of Jaehyun felt like a stain in your mind, no matter how much you try to wash it off, it doesn’t seem to fade. Madame assured you that he’s residing across her own room, but that gave you little comfort. Jaehyun is a vampire— an impatient one at that. Problem is, you hadn’t had the chance to ask where Madame Juana’s room was, so you could at least talk to Jaehyun. Perhaps Rhianon could help you.

Your roommate exited the bathroom wrapped in a towel. She doesn’t seem to look bothered to you sitting on your bed as she started to dress herself on her pajamas. All felt unfamiliar to you, being that your friends were all men and that it’s your first time leaving in a dorm.

“Have you had dinner yet?” Rhianon asked, her raven-black and thick hair wrapped in a towel. Her cheeks were flushed. And she was squinting at you, as if it pains her to see without her glasses.

A growl vibrated from your stomach as she spoke the questions. You’ve never eaten anything ever since your arrival in the Academy. “Not yet.”

Rhianon’s hands wandered through her own drawers beside her bed as if on mannerism. Her hand emerged with her glasses, she put it over her eyes with ease. “Let’s eat! My treat!” She smiled, then her hands were gripping yours, pulling you on your feet.

“Oh, I haven’t showered yet. I probably stink.”

A frown painted Rhi’s lips, but she eventually smiled and told you to shower. You got up on your feet, your own pajamas ready at the top of your drawers. The presence of the bookshelf waved at you before you could enter the bathroom. Large and thick tomes were resting on its space. You caught a quick glance of the word majica before you turned your attention to Rhianon, who’s currently combing her long hair.

“Are these yours?” You politely asked.

Rhi continued to comb her hair as she craned her neck to look at you. “Yes. I am a sucker for everything about magic.” She presented you a smile, but there was a glint of dubiety behind it. Or perhaps you were just being paranoid.

—

“That actually tastes like crap,” Rhianon warned you as you took a spoonful of something leafy at the canteen counter.

A quick glance was what you gave at the glaring woman behind the counter. Rhianon continued to scoop different meals to her plate, unfazed by the glare thrown at her by the woman, who was probably the cook. You stretched out your lips to a smile, before hurriedly scooping your own meal and dashing for an empty table at the farthest corner of the canteen. Few venatrixes could be seen eating, some of them throwing you curious glances over their shoulders.

“I mean, I’d completely understand if you don’t want to talk about it, but why is everyone looking at you?” Rhianon asked through a mouthful. Based on her reactions, you have concluded that Rhi hasn’t yet heard about the spectacle brought down by a venator and a vampire earlier at the courtyard. And here you were, thinking that all aspiring hunters had heard of it already, leaving no one in the shadows.

You took a bite off your food, your taste buds dysfunctional because of impertinent eyes around you. “Well, it’s because of earlier.”

Rhi shot up an eyebrow while taking a swig off her drinks. “What happened earlier?” Then she wiped her mouth with a table napkin. “Sorry, I’ve been studying about strategies all day that I’ve missed what’s going on in the outside world.”

“A vampire and a venator fought,” you started. A sudden wince flashed through you by the memory.

“Vampire?!” Rhi slapped a hand on the table, garnering looks from every corner of the room. “That’s… I don’t have any word for it. How did a vampire passed through the main building without being decapitated?”

Confusion reigned in you. Just how long had Rhianon stayed studying to miss such informations?

“The vampire, he’s my friend.” Well, partly. And after what had transpired between you and Jaehyun inside the clinic, you weren’t so sure if he’d even consider you as one.

Rhi’s confusion seemed to mirror yours. You’ve expected another slap on her hands to the table but none came. She’d only squinted her eyes towards you, awaiting for further informations.

You pursed your lips and played with the food on your plate with a fork. “It’s complicated. But Madame has allowed him to reside here, with me. Until I’m capable of—” Words died in your throat. Madame had confided in you about her son, no one else except Diego. And he’s long dead. It doesn’t feel right to tell everything to Rhianon mere hours after meeting her. “Of killing a vampire.” You forced a smile.

The girl in front of you regarded you with scrutiny. Then her expression eased, understanding raw on her face. “I know you’re not telling the truth, since you’ve said nothing regarding the vampire. But I’m gonna let it pass.” She crossed her arms against her chest. “It’s not polite for me to pry.”

You blinked, “Thank you, Rhi.”

“So, how did you end up here?” Her friendly façade was back in an instant. You felt yourself slowly becoming comfortable in her presence. “Other than to train yourself to kill a vampire.”

A slight shrug was what you accompanied your answer with. “Well, I’ve never really believed that vampires existed. Not until they murdered my parents.” The familiar thorny lump wrapped your throat once again.

Rhianon gasped, her eyes grief-stricken. “I’m so sorry, Y/N.”

“It’s okay. It has happened such a long time ago. But you could never really recover from the loss of a loved one, right?” A bitter smile crept on your lips after you stated the words.

Rhi reached for you hand over the table, and squeeze it tightly with hers. “I may have not experienced your pain yet, but I want you to know that I understand exactly what you’re going through.” The smile she gave you didn’t reach her eyes. “That vampire must pay, Y/N.” Determination glinted in her eyes like wild fire. Your own hopes surged up in your chest like a rocket.

“Yes. I’ll make them pay.” For the first time since you stepped inside the Academy, your missing passion for vengeance seemed to come back within your grasp. And you will never allow it to slip like sand between your fingers just like it did earlier, ever again.

—

After your dinner with Rhianon, she invited you to pick up your uniforms to the main building. According to her, if Madame had personally enrolled you, all your documents must’ve been already processed.

And it was. It took you less than ten minutes to obtain the uniforms. The seamstress who’s supervising the distribution of suits only measured your body. And after minutes of her digging all the uniforms at the storage room, she’d emerged with three pairs of black suits for you to wear tomorrow for your first day of training.

It was discussed by Rhianon that you didn’t have to wear the black suit if you were only attending lectures, such as her today. A slight dread was what you felt upon seeing that your first day tomorrow requires you to wear the uniform.

“It’s uncomfortable at first, but you’ll definitely get used to it.” Rhianon assured you when she saw a frown which literally pulled down your lips to your chin. “And it’s helpful during battles,” she added.

The thought made you wonder if Rhianon have already killed a vampire. You drew in a halt as you reached the second level of the dormitory. “Have you ever killed Rhi?”

The girl focused her gaze at you, her own steps faltering. Rhianon smiled, “Not yet. I’ve never even seen a vampire before.” Then she ascended the stairs.

You jogged to meet her steps. Questions filling your mind. “Why is that?”

She merely shrugged, “I really didn’t join this Academy to kill vampires.” And just when you opened your mouth to ask more questions, Rhi already spoke. “I joined because of Madame.”

More questions stack up in your mind. Why had she joined for Madame? Are they related? Does she have the some fate as you? The same reason as you? Your brows were furrowed as you continued to climb the stairs. Different questions were jumbled in your mind, causing mayhem of curiosities threatening to burst through your mouth.

Your steps were halted as Rhianon’s arm outstretched suddenly, lightly pressing in on your stomach.

“Who is that?” She asked, not looking at you but to the tall figure of a boy standing in front of your bedroom’s door.

Your heart started to jump in frenetic patters. The figure was all too familiar, even if you hated to admit it. After months of being together, of sleuthing your way to the mysteries of your parents death, you haven’t noticed yourself becoming extremely familiar to Jaehyun’s visage even in the kiss of darkness.

“I know him,” you declared.

As if on instant, Rhianon’s hand flew to yours. She was gripping your hand tightly with hers, but not enough as to induce pain in your bones. She seemed more excited than ever. “Is he the vampire?”

A simple nod was what you answered her. Then the both of you continued to walk towards Jaehyun. With every step that you take, your heart appears to skyrocket out of your chest and into the skies. The only thing that’s keeping you tethered to the ground was the tight grip of Rhianon around your hand. Her aura was undeniably mixed with both perturbation and elation.

The little light from the corridors painted half of Jaehyun’s face, making it hard for you to decipher his emotions. Rhianon could jump from excitement as you finally stood face to face with him. The boy in front of you merely glanced at your roommate. His eyes were piercing cold as he regarded you with an icy stare.

“What are you doing here?” You tried to produce indifference with your voice. The faint rise of his eyebrow told you it was successful.

Jaehyun’s gaze could pierce right at your very bones and soul. But you held his stare as long as you could. “You’d been cruel toward me in the clinic. But here I am, finding myself searching and coming back for you howbeit.”

A gasp rose from the girl beside you. Rhianon seems to enjoy the view unfolding before her very eyes. However, her sound of surprise fell on deaf ears as Jaehyun continued to penetrate you with his stare. Hearts elating against your will, you broke the eye contact first. The light of the corridor directly flashes your face, and you couldn’t bare Jaehyun to witness your flustered cheeks. What’s with all these sudden charmingly gallant words?

You cleared your throat before speaking, “Boys aren’t allowed here.” Then you pointed your finger on the sign plastered not five paces away from the three of you.

The familiar smirk warmed Jaehyun’s face. “Do you really think a simple sign would stop me from seeing you?”

Before Rhianon could incite another squeal, you veered for the door handle and swiftly but softly shoved your roommate inside.

“Gods, it’s my first time seeing a vampire up close.” was her statement. All while trying to tiptoe to have a glimpse of Jaehyun again. A small chuckle was what you gave her, afraid of Jaehyun overhearing Rhianon’s excited squeals.

“I’ll be back.” Then you shut the door closed.

Jaehyun’s spine was leaning on the corridor’s railings, his elbows propped above the granite stone. He regarded you with depthless eyes, his whole façade dark as his back caught the moonlight entirely. The cold sweep of the night air brush past your cheeks as you sauntered up beside him. The copse of trees from the nearby forest filled your sight. Lush branches swayed back and forth as the crisp wind whispered on the leaves.

“What are you doing here?” You gripped the edge of the granite stone railings. Sight stretching far away to the horizon spreading before you. The Academy was conspicuously far from the lights and life of the city. That much was obvious for you have failed to see any nearby houses from the school.

The click of a lighter, then the smoke from Jaehyun’s cigarettes commixed with the night air. “Checking up on you and your broken nose,” he stated.

“I’m fine.”

There is nothing to worry about. You were certain of the magic that flowed in your bones as Madame kissed your head earlier. She had lessened the pain, and even fastened your broken bones together. All was left of your torturously swelling nose was a red tint, as you saw it earlier when you showered.

“This idea of yours still perplexes me.” Jaehyun turned on his front. You were both facing the endless copse of trees. His cigarette providing a tinge of red in the darkness of the night. “Do you think it’s necessary for you to join this Academy? I could train you myself. You need not bother yourself with all these arduous yet stupid trainings.”

Surprisingly, his bluntness didn’t confound you anymore. It was expected of him to say such things, now that he is surrounded by his potential enemies. Of course, he does not trust them.

Waves of memories swept through you. The fallen vampire on top of you, literally heartless and dead. And of you rinsing your body off his blood. How had you cried inside the four walls of your bathroom, how you vomited your guts out to the toilet bowl. And how your bones screamed in terror by the memory of it. Until now you feel restless. As if at any moment, a vampire would jump you, to bite your neck or slice your throat, and drink all your blood.

“After the vampire incident, I felt vulnerable. Weak. And I vowed not to feel the same ever again.” You pursed your lips together to stop your lips from trembling, your voice from cracking. The promise you made of not admitting your fears to Jaehyun was like a bottle of pride that you had decided to throw away. It was funny how had he managed to sipped in your weakest points just like that.

He was silent beside you, and you took it as a sign that he was listening.

“No matter what I do, no matter how long it has been, the nightmares of my parents’ gruesome death always visits me at night.” The wind seared your unblinking eyes, urging the tears to slip out at last. But haven’t you cried enough? “It was like a hole spiraling. Little by little it eats up on me, leaving nothing but void.” A soundless chuckle echoed through your lips. “Only the answer of who killed them would banish this emptiness.”

“And you supposed that joining Venatrix is the way?” There was no mock in his voice, just pure curiosity. And dare you say it— concern. Concern that appears to ooze out of his every word.

“Yes. Because vampires are cruel. No offense meant.”

“None taken.” A thick cloud of white smoke flew to the air after Jaehyun dragged a long sip off his cigarette.

“If I don’t stay in a place where I am understood, I’d simply lose it, Jaehyun.” You twiddled with your fingers. “And in here, I think they understand me. I feel as if, for the first time, I am at a place where I belong.”

That was partly a lie. There was no assurance of what tomorrow will unfold. Whether the venatrix would be willing to help you train so you could carry out your mission, or they would simply look down on your lack of skills. Still, you believe that there is a link that connects you with the students residing in this Academy; that they, too, have suffered in the hands of a vampire that’s why they’re here.

“I understand you. Does that mean you belong to me?”

At his words, your heart began to beat in a panic-stricken rhythm yet again. You snapped your gaze towards Jaehyun, expecting to see his infamous mischievous smile and playful smirk. But his face was cold of emotions.

“Don’t be silly, Jaehyun.” You tried to chuckle, easing the atmosphere between you.

“See?” He gave out a long and meaningful sound from his mouth that resonated the likeliness of a sigh, “You feel as if they understand you, but that does not mean you belong here.”

Up until now, you still couldn’t understand his dissent about your joining the Academy. Jaehyun was an enigma. And you do not believe you could decode him anytime sooner.

“You’re confusing. If my memory was right, you were literally the one who was jumpy to go straight to Madame after Alena’s attempt on our lives.”

“Yes. Because I thought you’d be safe in her hands.”

A crease had formed in your forehead. This is confusing. “Am I not safe in her hands? Don’t you trust Madame?”

Jaehyun glanced around him, his own irises turning red. As if he was trying to scout every tree, and every branch for any spying ears. “Not one iota, Y/N. Everything is suspicious. Her sudden judgment that you could take down Alena by a mere curse she’s brought upon her is dubious in every way.”

A needle-like pain pinned in your heart by his statement. It sounded like he does not trust your ability to kill Alena. However, you were well assured that it’s not what he was trying to say. You gulped down the poisonous thoughts and focused on him intently.

“What did she tell you before I showed myself in her parlor?” Jaehyun asked.

Just like everyone else in your life, except for your brother and your two friends, Jaehyun could still pass as a stranger to you. Yet the sincerity etched on his eyes as he inquired about your discussion with Madame had stirred something inside you to unfold everything to him.

“She said she wanted to take vengeance for the turning of his son into a vampire.” By Alena. You decided not to speak the words. As much as Jaehyun hates to admit it, you know he’s suffering because of Alena’s selfish choices of turning him into a blood-sucking creature.

The man beside you nodded. His eyes glasslike as he took in your words while staring at nowhere. “Quite a heavy reason. But not convincing enough. Juana is a powerful witch. If she wanted vengeance, she could easily take that with her magic. There’s no need to curse Alena to die in the hands of a mortal.” Vampires do not blink. Jaehyun did not. Even after staring at nowhere for minutes. It hurts even your own eyes to see it.

“So why did she curse her like that?”

Madame Juana’s not lying to you, right?

“That’s what we will find out, Y/N. For the mean time, do what she says. Train as much as you can. Make yourself stronger. And we will find out her true intentions together.”

Your fingers brushed against each other as Jaehyun pressed his palms flat on the granite railings, preparing himself for a jump. Terror crawled in your bones by the realization. You were at the third-storey of the Venatrixes’ dormitory for heaven’s sake!

“What are you doing? Jaehyun just take the stairs!”

In deaf ears, that’s where your frantic warnings passed through.

Jaehyun smiled a smugly one at you, “Don’t worry. I won’t let anybody hurt you here.” Then he pressed his lips on the top of your head before jumping.

You suppressed a scream, half of your body leaning against the railings to see Jaehyun. Feeling as if your own heart is dropping on your feet for every second that you don’t see him.

And there he was. Standing on the ground. Unscathed and waving at you. It took him a blink to run away from the dorms and into the night.

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[iraacundus]

Circus

PART ONE - SEQUAL

(in part one they use the name addie to refer to you as that is your circus character)

Reader x Jaehyun ft reader x doyoung

genre: angst, smut, fluff words: 15.8K warnings: sex, mentions of alcaholism, swearing

what you leave behind doesn't matter your past is irrelevant at the circus 

You let go of the trapeze and dropped to the ground gracefully. Your arms stung slightly as you dipped your hands in the chalk preparing to jump back up. A friend of yours, Johnny, who often held the rope in your practices, frowned.

"You should take a break!" He called out to you as you rose higher and higher into the air. "You have been doing this for four hours straight Addie," he tried to reason with you. Instead of listening, you ignored him as you continued to slip your foot around the rope and let your body swing backwards.

Your arms did hurt and you were supposed to have stopped hours ago, according to regulations. But you couldn't bring yourself to get down. There was no performance for another two weeks, you had nothing else to do but practice.

The circus was training in the middle of nowhere at the moment so it wasn't as if you could take a second to go and do something of vague normality. You were trapped in the circus doing nothing, so you felt you should at least spend that time doing the one thing you really loved.

As the trapeze swung forward and back, you began to gain momentum, eventually acquiring enough power to push your body into the air, summersault and catch the metal bar in the middle of the tent. You swung your legs around to sit in the most comfortable way. You looked down to call out to Johnny when you saw the Ringmaster walking into the tent.

"Adeline," He shouted up to you, as he moved into the centre of the ring. You immediately stood up and jumped to grab the rope enabling Johnny to lower you to the ground.

You sprang off the rope, landing gently on your feet and curtsying before the Ringmaster.

"Beautiful as always," he told you. "Adeline, I wish to speak to you for a moment, about a rather important matter," You untied the safety wire from your waist and Johnny took this as his cue to leave. The Ringmaster nodded to him as he left.

Once Johnny had left the tent, the Ringmaster turned back to you with his signature sad smile. You waited in nervous anticipation of what he had to say, not a lot of the things he told you were so great these days.

You followed the Ringmaster as he went to sit in the stands that had curiously been put out despite there not having been a show for a considerable while. He turned to face you and you held in a breath.

"You understand better than anyone Adeline, that people come to the circus, often to get away from things. Of course, most people love what they do here but a love of performing is hardly ever the sole reason for joining a company such as this."

What he said was true, you had only ever met one person over the years who had joined the circus purely because he loved his art and wanted to share it with other people. He hadn't lasted long in the circus though, it was a place where someone needed more than just a naive passion.

"As it happens, my nephew has been needing of a fresh start and after Archibald left and you have been in needing of a new partner," The Ringmaster said, interrupting your thoughts.

At his words, an excitement rose in your chest. After Archibald left your act had been missing something. The trapeze was best as a double act, it was the trust that two acrobats had in each other that made it all the more amazing.

"He is a young strong lad, around your age, but I am afraid he has no knowledge of the circus or its acts. I think I could safely assume he has never seen a trapeze before in his life,"

You sighed deeply, the circus was dangerous enough without an untrained boy hanging from a trapeze, your circus knew that better than anyone

"With all due respect sir, if he isn't a circus person, how is he meant to be my trapeze partner?" you inquired.

"Well I was hoping you could teach him..." the Ringmaster told you. You were struggling to keep a look of disdain from befalling your face.

"I wouldn't ask you if it wasn't important, you are one of my most trusted performers and I really need you to do this for me, the circus did amazing things for you I hope, I need you to help it do amazing things for my nephew too."

You gave the Ringmaster a small smile. You had a strong belief in repaying those who had given something to you, the circus had given you a real life.

"So when is he coming?"

— • — • — • —

The air was distinctly cold as you stared down the sole dirt track that led to the circus field. The Ringmaster's nephew was meant to have arrived over twenty minutes ago. Usually, you wouldn't have minded waiting but this time, the anticipation was killing you.

Quite a lot of importance rested on this boy being able to work well with you and learn the art of the trapeze.

You did a handstand on the grass as you waited for some sort of vehicle to appear. You walked back and forth on your hands, seeing how fast you could go. You became distracted by this that you almost missed the sound of car wheels on the dirt track.

The sound of car breaks and a door slamming snapped you back to the present moment and you returned your feet to the floor, standing upright.

You were faced with the sight of a boy close to your age, he wasn't what you had expected but he looked strong. His lips formed a firm line across his face as he clutched two cases in each of his hands tightly. His knuckles were white with pressure.

He didn't make any motion towards you so you plastered a smile on your face and ran over, mostly because you wanted to impress the Ringmaster but also because you knew how scary first days could be.

"Hello there," you waved to him, "you must be the Ringmaster's nephew?" You said, taking one of the suitcases from his hands. The boy only nodded in reply causing his dyed blonde hair to fall in front of his eyes.

"I don't know how much you have been told, but I'm Adeline, your new trapeze partner, it's not my real name but real names aren't important here."

"I'm Jung Jaehyun," he replied simply. After a few seconds when he hadn't made any further statements, you decided to move on.

"Well Jaehyun, welcome to the circus, I hope you find what you're looking for here." You gave him one more small smile before continuing. "Follow me this way, I can show you where you will live."

You took off in a brisk walk toward the trailers. The awkwardness was tangible and you wanted the interaction to be over as quickly as possible. You didn't need to be his best friend, you reminded yourself, you just needed to be sure he was a good partner.

Jaehyun managed to match your pace as you speed walked. He didn't make any additional remarks.

You slowed to a halt next to where three trailers sat next to each other. One was yours, one was Johnny’s and the other was Haechan’s and now also Jaehyun’s.

"You are in the third one just here, you have a roommate named Haechan, we find it helps for new people to share with an experienced member of the circus. Haechan is one of our greatest acrobatic clowns. You will never be bored when he’s around." You explained to Jaehyun as you set his bag down outside the trailer.

"You have your own kitchen in there and everything but there is a large dinner made in the communal tent every night except Mondays. Everything else Haechan will probably explain... we will start training at six am tomorrow, I'll give you a lie-in," you winked at him.

For the first time since he had arrived, Jaehyun gave a visible reaction. His eyebrows raised in shock.

"What time constitutes as normal then?" He questioned.

You shrugged your shoulders.

"Not sure, I usually train from about five when we haven't had a show the night before."

Jaehyun gawped, he almost said something but seemed to swallow his words.

At that moment Haechan jumped out of the trailer door waving at you both with his signature grin.

"Hey, Adeline! I see my new roommate is here," he motioned Jaehyun towards him.

"Come on inside, I'm Haechan if Addie didn't already tell you."

Jaehyun looked between you and Haechan, he looked as if he was thinking very hard about something.

Haechan shot you a questioning look, you attempted to convey through gestures that you had no idea what was happening. You shrugged in reply.

"Hey, dude are you coming in or what?" Haechan prompted. "I'm sure you will wanna get settled before dinner."

Jaehyun looked up at him suddenly and dragged his bags back up off the ground, heading up the steps into the trailer.

"Bye Jaehyun!" You called out to him, but you never got a reply. The trailer door shut and you were left outside alone.

You sighed before skipping over and opening the door to your own trailer and going inside. Jaehyun seemed rude. There was no other way to put it, you hoped that maybe he was just nervous.

You glanced at the clock that lay on your counter, it was five fifteen. That gave you about ten minutes before dinner.

You untied your hair from the plait it was currently in and put a jumper over the top of your outfit. Lifting the blind of your window, you peeked to see if you could spot the two roommates.

For a minute or so there was no one about until eventually, you saw Haechan come bouncing out of the door with a melancholy Jaehyun shuffling behind.

You reached for your phone and headed out. Someone had to rescue Haechan from a ten-minute walk with Jaehyun alone.

"What's up, guys?" You called to them, jogging over.

"Not a lot, I'm just explaining stuff," Hoseok told you. You nodded and fell into place beside them.

The usually short walk felt like it took aeons. You tried to have a normal conversation with Haechan but it was excruciating with Jaehyun sulking behind you both.

“What the fuck is up with that guy?” Haechan whispered to you, though you doubted Jaehyun was listening anyway, “I get people who come here are a bit out of the ordinary but he hasn’t said a single word to me,”

“Just ignore him, I’m more fun to talk to anyway,” you said, nudging Haechan lightly in the shoulder.

Finally, you reached the main tent, it was already full of people. You spotted Johnny's brown hair as he sat down with a few other friends of yours. You quickly steered Jaehyun towards the food and grabbed some.

You made it to the table of people as quickly as possible. If Haechan was finding it hard to talk to him then it must be near impossible. Haechan could talk to anyone about anything and make it fun, it was a talent.

Jaehyun sat at the other end of the table to where you sunk down next to Johnny.

"How's the Ringmaster's nephew then?" Johnny inquired. You shook your head, exasperated.

"He is hopeless. He has been at the circus what... an hour? He is impossible to talk to and he is just so miserable, John. I'm honestly at a loss already."

Johnny smiled at you.

"Don't give up yet Adeline. I'm sure he just needs time to settle in," he suggested.

"If he works badly too, I think I will have to find a new circus," you said, “I’m not sure why I’m staying at this run down place anyway.”

Johnny shook his head, "You would never leave me. Jaehyun will get better I'm sure."

You glanced down at where Jaehyun stared blankly into his pasta, you hadn't seen someone so dejected in a long time. Not since Doyoung.

— • — • — • —

"Welcome to the circus tent!" You announced as brightly as you could when it was six am and your new partner looked like he wanted to die.

Jaehyun, predictably, didn't reply. To some, this may have been discouraging, but you were determined to make the situation work, however difficult it was set up to be.

Johnny had also woken up early to help you, he was sitting around the edge of the tent tying the ropes tightly. You walked over to him, leaving Jaehyun alone momentarily, and sat down by Johnny.

"You know we didn't need you to come right?" You asked him, "not that I don't appreciate your lovely presence,"

Johnny chuckled, "my lovely presence is why I'm here, didn't want to leave you alone with old smiley over there," he nodded towards Jaehyun. "I felt as if not even you, deserved that,"

"You're actually the best," you smiled at him, giving him a quick hug before running back over to Jaehyun, who was staring impatiently at you.

You gave Johnny a thumbs up and he raised the two trapeze bars so that you could just reach the bar if you did a small jump.

"Okay Jaehyun, first I just need to see how strong you are so can you just see if you can hang from the trapeze," you told him. He immediately followed your instruction and jumped up to hold it.

He stayed like that for about three minutes whilst you went to find some tape and when you got back he didn't even look tired, you were vaguely impressed. It was the good start you had hoped for.

"Okay, now can you let go with one arm?" You asked him. Jaehyun promptly let go and even began to do pull-ups with his one arm.

"I could hang like this for hours, don't worry," he said suddenly. You had been dragging a mat to where you wanted it when you heard him. You really hadn't expected him to speak.

"Um .. okay that's great, maybe we can test some other skills then?" You said to him. He nodded and dropped down.

"Do you have any gymnastic ability?" You asked him. To which he shook his head.

"I can do a handstand, and walk, you know like what you did as you waited for me to arrive," he explained, "and a forward roll but that's about it."

You blushed when you realised he had been watching you while he waited.

"Ah yeah, that... roughly how many sit-ups can you do?" You asked him, trying to not get ahead of yourself.

"Last time I checked around a hundred.." You were starting to feel more confident.

"You know your uncle wasn't lying when he said he was giving me someone well capable of the job." You said, shooting a confused glance to Johnny who had been intently listing to what was going on, as you were unsure of what you should do.

"Maybe I could show you some basic moves, we can start low down with the mat underneath," you suggested, Jaehyun gave his signature nod, his lips still resting in a firm line.

You both held on to the bar and gave Johnny a signal and he lifted the trapezes up so that when you hung your legs were a metre off the ground,

"You good?" You asked Jaehyun whose expression was indecipherable, but he certainly didn't seem nervous and you decided if he was nervous he was definitely great at hiding things. Another quality that would do him well at the circus.

"I'm fine," he said curtly.

"Usually we don't ascend this way but I needed to to get you to do this..."

You proceeded to lift your self up gracefully and sit on the trapeze like a swing. Jaehyun watched your movement carefully and followed suit.

Words were not achieving anything in regards to your new trainee, so you gave up using them. Instead just moving as you normally would, hoping Jaehyun would follow.

You let yourself fall backwards so that you were hanging mid-air. Something that always made you smile. It was thrilling. You made sure to check Jaehyun hadn't fallen and died yet and you were happy to confirm he was still managing to follow your every action.

You jumped down from the trapeze and waited for Jaehyun to follow before sitting down on the mat.

"You're really good at this," you said, turning to face him. "I have never seen someone able to perform trapeze so naturally before not even the old Archie."

Archie was the name of your trapeze partner no matter who it was - Adeline and Archibald - that was the name of the trapeze duo.

"We have a show in two weeks and I reckon you could learn part of the joint routine by then as long as we practise enough." You told him. Jaehyun didn't seem to have any reaction to this apart from shrugging his shoulders. A habit of his combined with the nodding that was starting to get on your nerves.

Circus folk were often loud by nature and so someone so quiet made it difficult to communicate and your act required trust which required absolute communication.

— • — • — • —

"I don't know how I am meant to trust him with my life if he hasn't even said more than about ten words to me," you complained to Haechan over breakfast the next day.

"I understand but I mean... you don't have much of a choice, Adeline and Archie is our most popular act and ever since Yuta left our ticket sales have been down. We were already in trouble and now we are really screwed."

You tapped your spoon against the table nervously. Nothing Haechan had said was exactly news to you, but it reminded you of the importance of making Jaehyun into a top-class performer.

"You guys probably won't ever be friends because he doesn't present himself as very likeable, and I try to like everyone, but according to what Johnny was telling me last night he has talent. If you can't trust him, trust his skill."

You were slightly consoled by this idea. If you trained him well enough he wouldn't drop you, it would be fine. You just had to make the best of a bad situation.

You put your spoon back into your bowl and placed it into Haechan's sink. Thanking him for offering to wash up before running out of the trailer to find Jaehyun. He had left as soon as you had entered to have breakfast with Haechan.

You found him sitting on the side of the tent watching a video on his phone. You weren't sure if you were mad or thankful that he hadn't tried to practice by himself.

You walked over to stand behind him, peering over his shoulder to see what he was watching. To your surprise, it was a video of trapeze artists. It was a famous routine by the circ du Soleil, one of your favourites actually. You swung your legs over the bench so you were sitting beside Jaehyun.

"I wish I could perform that one day," you announced.

Jaehyun took his headphones out and stared up at you.

"It's so amazing, so many people with so much trust in each other, it's so intricate - beautiful,"

He put the phone down on the bench and got up, jumping over the benches until he stood in the middle of the tent.

"I stayed up watching a video of your trapeze act all night, it was the only one I could find online but I'm sure I memorised most of it." He told you.

"Did the video say which routine it was?" You would have to see that the video got taken down but you were impressed Jaehyun was taking it so seriously. "If you want to see more, I'm sure Haechan has videos of most of my routines."

"It was called nox periculosa," he said with what was the hint of a smile."

Nox periculosa was one of your hardest routines, you hadn't performed it in about two years. It meant dangerous night in Latin and dangerous it was. It was the reason Doyoung had quit performing and Yuta had left for another circus.

"That's a shame," you said quietly, "there's no way we can perform that one."

Jaehyun looked up at you, eyes narrowing at your sudden change in demeanour.

"It's an impossible routine for even the best of trapeze artists and besides... we don't have three people. Doyoung doesn't perform trapeze anymore. I'm sorry you spent so much time learning it."

You racked your brain for another routine he could learn that was similar so that his efforts hadn't been for nothing.

"Whose Doyoung?" Jaehyun asked suddenly as you were lost in thought, "I don't think I have met him yet."

You stared down at your feet with a sad smile, "he was the most talented trapeze artist I have ever seen, but now he just sits around all day, works the box office sometimes, makes candy floss. He doesn't talk much anymore, kinda like you. Maybe you guys would get on." You joked half-heartedly.

"He came to us at fifteen, he literally has nothing else but this circus, so the Ringmaster would never ask him to leave even though the circus is struggling so badly."

Jaehyun looked confused.

"Why would he have to leave?"

"Doyoung is not the same as he used to be. He was always troubled, he has a lot of sadness.. just now he drowns that sadness with anger that comes from the bottom of a vodka bottle, not with trapeze."

You look up and smile past whatever you felt on the inside.

"Don't worry about it, we just can't perform nox periculosa. If we go find Haechan now I'm sure he will have the videos.. we can pick another routine to learn."

Jaehyun nodded.

"I'm sorry about Doyoung," he said as you walked out of the main tent and trekked across the faded grass.

"Don't be... This is a 3rd rate circus, everyone's fucked up here, I'm sure you know that just as well as I do - I'm very sure you didn't come here because you really wanted to learn trapeze."

He shrugged.

"I guess that's fair."

— • — • — • —

You spent hours watching the videos until Jaehyun pointed his finger at the screen.

"That one. We should learn that one."

You looked up from the bracelet you had been fiddling with on your wrist and glanced at the screen. You mentally screamed. Jaehyun didn't seem to make things particularly easy.

"You like a challenge do you?" Haechan asked him. You had asked Jaehyun to pick two routines to learn with you and both of the ones he had picked were insanely hard. Technically doable but still really hard. Especially the second one.

un choros in luci - a dance in the light

In all honesty, it was one of your favourites to perform but that was because it was so dangerous. The pure airtime of it made you feel free.

"I hope you like practice Jaehyun, because if you want to perform luci then we will need a lot of it.

Jaehyun shrugged again. His nonchalant attitude annoyed you slightly, he had no idea of the hell you were about to put him through.

"Do you own any leggings?" you asked him as you both got up. He shook his head.

"Well you're gonna need to get some, you know, aerodynamics and all," Haechan handed him a memory stick with the two performances on.

"Um from where?" Jaehyun inquired about the leggings as he took the drive from Haechan.

"I'm sure Maddie will be able to find you some at the costume tent. She's my aerial hoop partner, Madeline and Adeline. Budget cuts you know. She is also in charge of costume allocation so pop down to our trailer and she will take you to find some." You explained.

"You do more than one act?" Jaehyun asked surprised.

"Most people do here, as Addie said, budget cuts. For example, I am a part of the clown act but I am also in charge of the Teeterboard performance - acrobatic seesaw, you know." Haechan said, clearly proud of himself.

You could clearly see that Jaehyun had no idea what that was but he would probably learn at some point, most of the young men did because of the more people for that act the better.

"If the Ringmaster ever sees you do a flip he will have you on the acrobatic seesaw faster than you can say somersault so be careful."

Jaehyun nodded again before getting up and leaving, presumably to go find Maddie.

"Don't forget to learn one of the routines!" You shouted at him.

Haechan looked over at you with a discerning gaze.

"How is he meant to learn a routine from watching a video."

"He probably can't but I want to see how much he can pick up already," you explained. You looked over at the clock on the wall of the caravan.

"Damn," Haechan looked over. "We're late for the tightrope practice."

— • — • — • —

The circus had fallen on hard times but it was still one of the largest circuses around. You had a lot of young people join just never quite ones with the skills needed for the big acts. Jaehyun seemed to be the exception.

The tightrope team had a lot of these kids. Only sixteen or seventeen. Most of them just juggled off the side of the ladder but for safety reasons you always watched the practices anyway.

"If Mark lives to be thirty I will be surprised," Haechan whispered to you as Mark stood on the rope waving at you both.

He was amazing at tightrope walking, no one could say any different, he was just very excitable and so sometimes you feared for his life. Tightrope was better for those with a calm disposition. Not a bunch of kids and a very happy twenty-something-year-old.

You watched intently as the kids followed up behind Mark to start the routine. It was getting better the routine for sure but the only thing that really caught your eye was a man sitting at the back of the ring. He too was watching the performance.

You tapped Haechan on the shoulder vigorously,

"Oww!" He complained in mock annoyance before his eyes tracked to where you were pointing.

Sitting in the very back row watching was him.

It was Doyoung.

You hadn't physically seen Doyoung with your own eyes for about three weeks now. You had it on a good authority that he only went out in the dead of night these days and even then only to get essentials.

"Fucking hell," Haechan exclaimed, "he looks terrible even from here."

You gave him a pointed look.

"He sits inside a caravan drinking all day and all night like how did you think he was gonna look?," Johnny announced in a matter of fact way as he sat down beside you, the sadness evident in his eyes.

"Do we say something?" You asked, "do we go over?"

Haechan shook his head.

"You would scare him back inside the caravan. He doesn't like talking."

It took much restraint on your half not to go over and beat some sense into him. You didn't care how he felt at this point. Doyoung had gone too far.

"Hey losers!" Your head snapped round to the shout, "you're not even watching and this is a good part- uh-oh" Mark glanced over to where you had all been staring.

"Oh Doyoung, I didn't know you were coming outside again! It's good to see you,"

Haechan and Johnny facepalmed in sync at Mark's comment because as predicted as soon as Doyoung was acknowledged he got up to leave.

"Wait Doyoung! Don't leave!" Mark shouted suddenly frowning, his shouts were pointless, Doyoung had already made a fast exit out of the back door.

You stood up. Someone had to speak to him. You jumped over the benches and ran round the tent looking around desperately for Doyoung.

Instead, the only person you could see was Jaehyun.

"JAEHYUN!" You screamed out to him. "Did you see which way Doyoung went?"

Jaehyun shook his head.

"I have never met him, therefore I don't know what he looks like."

You had forgotten Jaehyun had only been here a short time, in which Doyoung hadn't appeared even once.

"Um, like early twenties, tall, dark hair, glasses, wore a red sweatshirt, cute face." You described him.

"Cute face..? Whatever um.. he went that way," Jaehyun said pointing towards his and Haechan's caravan.

"Thank you," you replied, your feet already beginning to run in that direction. It was only a short distance and so before you knew it you had thrown the door to the caravan open and were faced with Doyoung standing by Haechan's cabinet.

"Addie."

"What the fuck are you doing?" You asked him, a dumb question seeing as he was obviously holding a bottle behind his back. "Are you seriously trying to hide the fact you just stole vodka out of Hobi's fridge?"

You could see the shame in Doyoung's eyes... just about, he looked so tired almost all emotion was lost.

"No one has seen you in weeks, why? Just why Doyoung? I know you were bad but this... this is worse. You're stealing from someone who used to be one of your best friends."

"Get lost, Addie."

You darted forward, reaching for the bottle, trying desperately to get the bottle away from him, but his grip was like iron.

At that moment Jaehyun stepped into the caravan looking most confused. He didn't say anything, just stood in the doorway.

"Who's that guy?" Doyoung asked.

"Jaehyun, he's my new partner, Jaehyun meet... Doyoung."

If Jaehyun had been quiet before it was nothing compared to now. Right now the silence he gave was deafening.

"Jaehyun, I know this is your caravan but could you give us a moment?" You asked and Jaehyun didn't seem to need to be told twice as he bolted out of the door.

"Doyoung give me the bottle," you said.

Doyoung shook his head. "I need it," his voice sounded so desperate you just wanted to cry.

"Why do you need it Doyoung why? You know we all love you, even now?"

"You just don't get it, Addie, it's not about you or anyone. It's about me." He placed his hand around your wrist harshly and pulled it off the bottle.

You pulled your other hand up to your wrist and sighed as Doyoung pushed past you and out the door. You didn't go after him because you knew that you couldn't help people who didn't want to be helped.

You sat down on their sofa dejectedly and held your arm to your chest. You heard the door swing open as Jaehyun came back into the room. You didn't really acknowledge him, you didn't have the energy for Jaehyun right now.

Jaehyun didn't bother you, he just grabbed his phone before leaving again. He gave you a quick glance but nothing more.

- • - • - • -

"What happened to your arm?" Haechan asked you worriedly as you sat down at dinner. He knew who had done it because it was obvious but it was as if saying it out loud made it worse

"Was anyone else there?" Johnny said. You shook your head. You had agreed to protect Doyoung after it happened. That involved covering it up to the rest of the circus just how bad it was.

"Well Jaehyun came in while we were fighting, then left then came back in after." You said.

Johnny threw his hands in the air.

"In what world does that classify as nobody which is what you implied with your head shake."

"Jaehyun doesn't count, he only ever talks to me and Haechan and he barely even speaks to us," you reasoned.

"I hope you're right if the Ringmaster new he was getting violent then.. he would be out."

"He didn't hit me or anything," you jumped in to defend him, you weren't sure why, out of habit maybe. You knew that wasn't the real reason though.

"He just pulled my arm away from the vodka a bit to... firmly."

"Like that is any better, stop defending him to me, Addie,"

"I can't help it, I ... I still," I still love him, you thought, you just couldn't say it.

Jaehyun shoved his plate down next to yours.

"You good?" Johnny asked him.

"Fine," Jaehyun replied though this clearly wasn't the case.

"Well if you’re good can I ask you a favour?" Johnny asked him. Jaehyun didn't reply which Johnny took as a cue to continue.

"Anything you saw today with Doyoung. Don't talk to anyone about it. I know it can seem bad but we can't just let him go so... No one can find out about how he is."

Jaehyun looked up surprised.

"I didn't see anything." He said with a small smile.

"Thank you," you say turning to him. "He wasn't always like this, I just want you to know."

"I'm sure he wasn't and don't worry I won't snitch, just don't let him hurt you again, doesn't matter what the fuck happened to him, that's not okay."

- • - • - • -

"So we are ready for the final stage now, probably the hardest one though," you explained.

"We need to work together, something that can be hard when you don't know people too well."

You sat on the trapeze as it went upwards and Jaehyun did the same.

"You need to do what you did before but this time, catch me. I'm going to swing flip and jump. You just need to catch my arms as I come down. Haechan agreed to help, he's gonna shout when you need to catch me."

Jaehyun simply nodded, not quite the level of reassurance you were hoping for before you launched yourself through the air with Jaehyun being the only thing stopping you from hitting the ground.

The music started up and you did your dance around the bar as the trapeze was raised into the air so that it was level with the platform. Jaehyun took a run, did his flip and landed on the trapeze before swinging round so he was hanging from his legs.

This move was slightly easier in that he only had to catch you, not throw you also but not swinging on a piece of equipment meant to swing presented its own challenges.

You heard the notes in the music and bit down hard on the side of your cheek as you threw yourself through the air.

"NOW," Haechan shouted and you felt Jaehyun's hands tighten around your legs holding you in place. You breathed out a sigh of relief as you lifted yourself up so your hands where on the trapeze and climbed up before standing on it and starting to swing so Jaehyun could leap and the act could continue.

The next one was where you had to do the full acrobatics and you were aware you were going to fall at some point, the net was out so it was fine. You just hated falling.

It was a good practice in all honesty you hadn't fallen until a particularly hard move so you were pleased, even as you fell into the net you smiled slightly.

"You must have practised lots Jaehyun, I really appreciate it, you're a quick learner." You told him as you started to walk back to your caravan.

It was only eleven in the morning and you knew Haechan had gone to practise straight after helping you guys out.

"Do you want to maybe come over to my caravan for a coffee?" You asked him, "maybe we can learn to trust each other for more than just our trapeze skill," you joked. You had half expected for Jaehyun to turn the offer down. But instead, he gave you one of his rare half-smiles. A feature you had only seen three times in the month he had been at the circus.

You grinned back at him. "Okay fun," you opened the caravan door. "Just take a seat wherever, it's all my stuff anyway Maddie basically lives in the costume van."

You put the kettle on and stared around in silence as you waited for it to boil.

Once you had made the tea you took a seat down opposite Jaehyun.

"I know circus folk are secretive about their past lives but there must be something you can tell me about yourself?" You asked him.

"Only if you tell me about yourself also." He said. "We can take it in turns ask whatever you want, you don't have to answer of course," he said. You shrugged, twenty questions was an effective way to find out what you wanted to know about people even if it was a bit cliche.

"What city do you come from?" You asked him.

"Seoul,"

"Ahh I always wanted to visit there, I heard it's nice."

"Yeah, it is," Jaehyun said looking down at his coffee. "What's your favourite colour?" He asked.

You laughed slightly, " that's a hard-hitting one Jaehyun how could you ask that?"

"I think it says a lot about a person, and also don't you need to build-up to the big ones?"

Fair enough.

"It's red like the circus tent is."

Jaehyun nodded.

"Do you like it here?" You asked.

"It's... different. But not in a bad way. You and your friends are nice people. I wouldn't choose to be here but I'm not unhappy if that makes sense."

He looked you dead in the eyes before asking his question as if he was deciding whether to ask it or not.

"Why does nobody use your real name? I know you say at the circus people hide their past but most people use their actual names to each other anyway. I know Haechan uses his real name because I saw his drivers license."

"Firstly except for one person, nobody knows my real name here so they can't use it. But the reason nobody knows which I think is the question your asking. The answer is because my real name connects me to who I was. At the circus, I have become a whole other person... which was my aim and so for all purposes and intents I am Adeline."

"Was your life before really so bad?" He asked ignoring that it wasn't his turn.

"Wasn't yours?"

"Fair point, I know it's way past my turn but I have one more question." Even though Jaehyun was fairly sure he knew the answer

You nodded for him to go ahead.

"Who is it that knows your real name?"

"The one and only Doyoung,"

- • - • - • -

You walked up to the Ringmaster's caravan with slight apprehension. He didn't usually call people to come to meet him one by one, most of the things he said could be said in front of anyone - apparently not what he had to say today though.

You rapped your knuckles against the door before pushing it open. The door opened into the room of deep purple and plants. There was old CD's everywhere and a microphone dropped in the middle of the floor.

You didn't know much about the Ringmaster, not his real name - which you knew was Taeyong because he told you once, a lot of people didn’t even ask him. You also knew that he was an underground rapper. He was pretty famous from what you knew - at least in the underground scene, he was so you didn’t know why he still bothered with the circus, at any rate, you were happy he had.

"Hello... Taeyong?" You called. His head suddenly popped up from behind the counter.

"Ah yes, Adeline!" He said getting up. "I need to talk to you about something." He was stating the obvious but you refrained from telling him as such.

"Sit down for a second, I will be right there." You took a seat next to the window, though the caravan was dark as the blind was closed and the faint caravan overhead light shone with a dim light.

Taeyong came back into the room and sat down opposite you, pulling a folder from behind him over.

"Well you see the thing is Addie, we have a chance." He said. Taeyong was smarter than most people so sometimes he was difficult to understand as he didn't articulate his point enough for the average person to comprehend what he was inferring.

"A chance at what?"

He chuckled.

"Ah sorry I didn't explain, we have a chance to return the circus to its original glory, maybe even surpass that."

You looked at him intently. You were not sure the words he was saying were true. The circus had been going downhill ever since the old Ringmaster had died, Taeyong's father. Taeyong was young to be in charge of a whole circus, you were certain that even some of the performers were older than him such as Johnny.

The reason for the downhill wasn't Taeyong's fault - all circuses were finding things harder these days, even the most famous ones. The circus was in many ways a dying tradition.

"What's the plan?" You asked him, it was worth hearing him out, better to listen to the smartest person in the room you always thought.

"Well you know that these days extreme sports like skateboarding and such are very popular, they appeal to young people in the way an old fashioned circus doesn't."

You nodded, teens these days weren't big fans of clowns unless they appeared in horror films.

"Well one of the companies that usually sponsor these extreme sports events is running a traditional entertainment campaign, they are looking for a circus with an extreme act to sponsor. And well they heard about our trapeze act and they think it's exactly what they want - a family circus but with extreme talent and danger."

His proposal to you sounded crazy, you thought he was meant to be intelligent.

"Taeyong, you know.. you know that we essentially don't have a trapeze act anymore, Jaehyun is good and is working hard but he isn't ‘campaign for a big company good’." You exhaled slowly, trying to remain positive.

"Did they tell you what they wanted from the trapeze performance?" Maybe it wouldn't be that bad, Jaehyun could learn quickly, it would just be a lot of work.

Taeyong looked down, he couldn't look you in the eye when he explained.

"They want to film a live performance of nox periculosa."

You stood up ready to walk out. He was insane.

"We don't even have three trapeze artists for God's sake. How in hell can we perform that?"

"Doyoung of course, he's had a while to recover now I'm sure he will be fine," he said. You, however, were quite sure of the opposite. You couldn't tell Taeyong as such because he would kick Doyoung out of the circus if he knew how he behaved.

"Doyoung isn't... he... it's a bad memory for him, for me too in all honesty. I mean it took him a year and a bit but I'm certain it's the reason Yuta left too. Just.. are you sure there isn't anything else we can perform, can you ask them?" You explained hesitantly.

He shook his head.

"Nox Periculosa is the routine this circus is famous for its as old as the circus itself. Just get Doyoung out of bed, he's too lazy these days anyway."

Taeyong finally managed to look up at you.

"I'm not stupid, Adeline, I know something is wrong with Doyoung and that it may be hard to convince him to take part, Doyoung is like a brother to me but we need this to happen, otherwise the circus will be over in less than five years I'm sure of it. I will have to make staff cuts again and unfortunately, Doyoung would be at the top of that list, help him help himself, okay?"

You nodded. Taeyong was crazy but maybe that's because he was smart. He was smart enough to know that the circus needed something big to become what it once was. It needed something totally wild and dangerous, it needed the nox periculosa, it needed Doyoung.

- • - • - • -

Trudging back to your caravan you pulled your phone out of your pocket. You pulled up messaging and made a group message telling Jaehyun, Haechan and Johnny to meet you in your trailer as quickly as possible. You shoved your phone back in your pocket and tried your best not to totally panic on the rest of the walk back.

You swung the door open and shut behind you before sitting down on your sofa, head in your hands. It was only minutes later that the boys you had texted turned up, all at once.

"What's up?" Called out Haechan as he sat down opposite you, putting his feet on your table. You usually would have shouted at him for 'disrespecting your property' but you didn't say a word.

"Oh god, is the circus shutting down I know you saw the Ringmaster earlier oh no," Haechan began as he realised you didn't shout at him.

You shook your head quickly.

"I guess I will get straight to the point." You said to the confused and slightly worried three boys across from you, even Jaehyun had a look of genuine concern on his face. These looks of concern only worsened once you relaid to them what Taeyong had explained to you.

"We are done for!" Exclaimed Johnny, "we would stand better chances if I learned trapeze. Maybe I could suggest that?"

"I don't think anyone wants that," Haechan told him. "Doyoung is gonna die though, like he won't even get out of bed never mind reenact part of the worst day of his life."

"If Addie is willing to perform it again he should be too, he owes her that." Johnny said, "if you want help telling him I will go with you.

"I'll go too," Jaehyun said causing everyone else to give him slightly weird looks, he was there because he was part of the act, not because he felt any responsibility for Doyoung, so the idea of him being there made no sense to you or the other two.

"I don't know him," Jaehyun explained, "so he's less likely to behave poorly,"

You weren't sure if that would be true, but in a way, it made sense so it was worth a shot. If Doyoung didn't punch anything or smash any bottles you would be willing to count it as a successful enterprise.

"I'm part of the act too, I'm Archibald, right? So I will help you get the gang back together, Adeline, Archie and...?"

Jaehyun didn't know the full name of the act you realised because once again it was something no one mentioned anymore.

"Doyoung was the Angel of Death. You watched the video, right? The trapeze tells a story of two people in love who are torn apart by the most selfish being, it's not super clear if you didn't know, most people just see it as cool tricks but that's the story to nox periculosa."

- • - • - • -

You had all decided to go together that evening to talk to Doyoung. His trailer wasn't near the others, he had parked it far away on purpose.

Johnny knocked on the door twice, to no reply, he tried the handle but the door was locked. Haechan walked over to the window.

"Doyoung if you don't open this door I swear bro.. just open the door it's important."

There was still no reply, they both looked at you, causing Jaehyun who was staring silently at the moon to stare at you too.

"Doyoung, open the door please, I need to talk to you and it's about nox periculosa."

Johnny gave you a 'what the hell did you say that for look' but you shrugged when you heard the lock in the door turn and the door swing open.

All four of you stepped into the darkness that had taken over the caravan. It was evening but still light outside, inside however it was almost pitch black and smelt of vodka. It made you want to cry. You could just make out, Doyoung sitting on the floor between his seats in the darkness.

"Sit down," You instructed the other three boys and stood still until the had done as such. You then proceeded to turn the lights on and open up the blinds.

"What the actual..!" Doyoung's were stopped by you as you had anticipated this reaction.

"I know you feel bad Doyoung, I know you feel like life shouldn't be a life you get to live well but you just need to listen to me for a second," you began, "because this is about the circus, the circus that gave you a chance, and the one that still refuses to kick you out even now. So you are gonna fucking listen."

You were hot, the anger you felt was radiating with heat. You had always felt sorry for Doyoung and until now you hadn't realised how angry at him you had been.

"The Ringmaster says you have to perform nox periculosa with us again. It's that or the circus can't afford to function and you are the first person out of a job, but we would all be done for in five years."

"No," is all he said.

"You don't get to say no," Johnny piped up, "did you not listen, it's not a choice, you have to, even if you don't want to."

Haechan frowned, he used to antagonise Doyoung a lot, back in the day, but he cared for him more than people realised.

"I get it, I get why you don't want to do it, I get why your scared, but if Addie will do it there is no way you can use fear as an excuse, that day was just as bad for her."

"It was worse for her, you know that Doyoung," Johnny interjected, "if you feel bad enough to drown your sorrows for two years, then I suggest you feel bad enough to help Addie and Jaehyun out."

Doyoung's grip on the beer bottle he was holding tightened as his eyes flickered to Jaehyun, everyone had almost forgotten he was there.

"If he's here can't Yuta do it with them?" Doyoung asked.

"Yuta left the circus months ago Doyoung how do you not know this?" You cried out, it was worse than you thought. You lurched forward and ripped the bottle out of Doyoung's hand and threw it across the room. It hit the side of the cupboards, smashing into a tiny thousand pieces.

"I forgive you for everything Doyoung, you know that I can't understand how you feel but surely as my boyfriend you could do your part for the only chance to save our only real home."

"Boyfriend?" Jaehyun said the only thing he had managed to say.

You laughed almost sadistically,

"He managed to drink his way to death but he never actually broke up with me, I never thought to break up with him either I suppose." You explained to everyone and also yourself.

"But there's a time for everything and it's now. Doyoung your officially broken up with and if you don't turn up to practise tomorrow morning sober I will get the Ringmaster to fire you because if you can't even try, and that's really all I am asking, then you don't deserve to be part of a circus because this circus is a family, and family don't do this to each other." You turned on your heels shut the lights off once again and walked out.

You only made it to the front steps of your own trailer before you broke down crying. At one point you were sure you could see Jaehyun staring sadly at you as he walked past, but with your vision blurred with tears, you couldn't be sure.

Haechan came over and sat down next to you, wrapping his arms around you tightly.

"I know to see him is hard for you. He's just being selfish but it's because he's in pain, it doesn't make it okay but I hope you can find it in you not to hate him."

"I don't hate him, but everything about him is painful to me, the way he is and the way he acts. I wish that I could understand but I don't, and so his pain is mine because I still love him even now."

Haechan let go of you and looked you directly in the eye.

"I don't understand either if I did I think I could help him, but he doesn't feel deserving of help, and maybe he isn't able to be helped."

"The Ringmaster told me to help him help himself,"

"The Ringmaster’s a smart guy, he knows the one truth, other people can't fix someone, the only person who can honestly save Doyoung, is him.

- • - • - • -

After Haechan went to bed you wandered around the field for a bit before sitting and staring at the stars, trying to forget and to just be at peace for once. You saw Jaehyun sit down next to you and for once you were happy that he was a silent person because you didn't want to say anything much.

"Do you think he will show up?" Jaehyun asked.

"Yes. I do. He feels bad that's why he is the way he is, he feels so bad about things that he wants the feeling of guilt to disappear. He knows that he owes me for something, he will come,"

"I'm sorry," Jaehyun said to you. You looked over at him confused. He picked a handful of grass out of the ground and threw it back down in front of him.

"You are a good person Addie, so I just feel sorry," he said answering your question before he asked. "I'm not a good person, but I think I should try to be."

You were surprised that Jaehyun was opening up to you in any capacity. You shuffled around so you were facing him, the moonlight reflected off his eyes as they pierced into your own eyes.

"I don't think there are good and bad people, I think there are good and bad choices. Everyone makes both, maybe some lean more towards one than the others but no one is truly good or truly bad. You Jung Jaehyun, are certainly not wholly bad and I'm not wholly good either. People are just people."

"Is that why you forgive Doyoung?" He asked you.

"Maybe so, but really I think it's because I love Doyoung and I don't think I will ever not love Doyoung."

Jaehyun played with the pulled blades of grass in his fingers as he continued to almost stare you down as you talked. His candour was calming to you.

"You don't talk a lot most of the time," you observed.

"I like to blend more into the background, like these blades of grass, just another person amongst many."

"You stand out anyway Jaehyun, you know that right?"

He looked genuinely confused.

"Johnny remarked only today on how he somehow forgets I'm there."

You pressed your lips together in a firm line. You always noticed when Jaehyun was around, his silence was noticeable to you, maybe it was because he was your partner.

"Well people will notice you soon, for the worlds hardest trapeze act, I warn you though Jaehyun it really is dangerous. And Doyoung is kinda mean nowadays so I apologise for him."

"Don't apologise for him, you guys are too kind on him, no offence."

You laughed slightly back, "if I'm offended by the truth that just makes me ignorant," you paused to lie back and look at the stars again.

"I wish you knew him when he was wonderful Jaehyun because he really was wonderful, Doyoung was like the brightest star in the sky, illuminating a room. He was amazing."

"If you liked him that much I'm sure he was," Jaehyun answered. He had laid down next to you. "You're like that too when you perform you know, all of you were in the trio, that video I saw was mesmerising on all accounts, not just Doyoung."

"I make up for my dullness in life by my bright in my performance," You said.

"I think I'm a bad person, Doyoung thinks he's guilty, and you think that you're dull. Maybe we are all right and maybe we are all wrong, but in the end, I suppose your right, we are just people, people in a circus." Jaehyun observed.

"The best kind of people" you joked.

- • - • - • -

You walked into the ring for practice praying and praying he would be outside waiting as he used too. But as you drew nearer you saw no one outside.

You pushed the door of the tent open to see Jaehyun sitting on the floor of the ring stretching out and behind him Doyoung sitting in the first row of seats. Jaehyun said nothing and neither did Doyoung, but Doyoung looked sober even if he also looked close to death and so you were content.

You ran over to Doyoung and threw your arms around him, trying really hard not to start bawling again.

"Thank you for coming Doyoung, thank you so much,"

His arms remained at his sides. He almost went to move them around you but seemed to decide against it.

"I owe you this, as you said." He told you.

Jaehyun watched you from across the room but refrained from joining in the exchange. Instead, he chose to get up and hang upside down from the trapeze.

You grabbed Doyoung by the arm and pulled him towards the middle of the ring.

"You have to help me teach Jaehyun, I know you remember how to perform it, we just need practise," You said rather optimistically. You didn't get a reply from either of them. Just a reassuring glance from Johnny sitting behind the rope rigging.

The difficulty with nox periculosa was that it was extremely fast. If you stopped paying attention for even a second then it would all fall apart.

You climbed up the ladder and ran at the trapeze, your hands grasped the bar and you swung yourself upside down until you were doing a handstand on the pole as if swung back and forward. Jaehyun had to do the same on the other side and mirror you.

You pulled yourself up until you could place your legs around the bar, swing forward where Jaehyun's hands grasped your own. Doyoung came next he had to pull you up onto the other side. This was one of the technically most difficult parts but Doyoung did it effortlessly. Jaehyun swung you into the air where Doyoung was able to reach out, grab your waist and lift you on to the platform.

Even after almost two years, Doyoung was perfect at it.

- • - • - • -

Dinner that night was a grand affair. There was a new Madamé Isobel, the circus fortune teller, she worked outside before the show as a sort of carnival-type attraction, a big moneymaker. The last Madamé had retired for life by the sea. The new girl you saw looked a lot younger than you had expected.

In line with that, the ringmaster introduced her as Mademoiselle Isobel. She seemed a similar age to you.

Her presence was noted at the dinner but Doyoung's was not. Despite his attendance of practice, he left straight after without a word. Jaehyun had gone back to not saying much either.

You were complaining about it to Haechan who rolled his eyes.

"It's a job, you don't have to love them, just be thankful you still have that job, it's only because of those two working with you." He told you. And he wasn't wrong. You leant back in your seat and rolled your shoulders. "Don't confuse him working again with everything being the way it was," Haechan reminded you.

You nodded.

"I won't, I know it isn't the same." No matter how much you didn't want that to be true.

You left dinner shortly after, you didn't want to go to bed so you walked along the outskirts of the field for a while, you walked for about fifteen minutes before you came across Jaehyun. He was practising some form of martial art with a wooden stick in front of the gate that led to the exit of the field.

He didn't notice you walk up behind him. You didn't want to disturb, you sat down a few meters away and just watched him. He looked so peaceful somehow. His eyes were closed as he muttered something unintelligible under his breath. Each movement was so precise, you were in awe.

"It's Kendo, "Jaehyun said turning round to face you.

"You knew I was there?" You questioned.

"Of course, your not as sneaky as you think, circus folk tend to stand out, even at the circus," he laughed. If anyone else had said it you may have been offended but Jaehyun didn't say it like it was a bad thing.

"Sorry for disturbing you,"

Jaehyun shook his head,

"I don't mind, it can be a bit lonely here." He explained.

"It can," you agreed, thinking about how Doyoung still hadn't talked to you. Your heart ached.

You walked back towards the main area together in total silence, a silence that only deepened when you spotted Doyoung, he was outside and he was talking, something that would have made you so happy, had he not been talking to Mademoiselle Isobel.

"You're fucking kidding," you thought out loud, your mouth agape.

Doyoung had a half-smile on his face as he talked seemingly happily to the Mademoiselle. He, however, immediately spotted your almost furious gaze. He stared at you as she continued talking. You didn't know if he was contemplating talking to you also, but you didn't wait to find out. You stormed off into your trailer and locked the door behind you.

He hadn't spoken to you in two years normally, but he managed just fine to talk to the new girl in town. You were furious. Of all the things he had done this made you most angry. You liked to believe that underneath it all that Doyoung still loved you too. But he couldn't even speak to you. And so you had to feel like your hope was misplaced.

There was a small knock at your door, and you looked to see Haechan and Johnny standing there with some chocolates.

"Jaehyun told us that you might need some friends," they expressed as they clambered through the small door.

"Well the chocolates are certainly welcome," you joked.

"You know you love us more," Johnny said taking a seat on your sofa. "He told us what you guys saw. You good Addie?"

You sat down next to him and lay your head on his shoulder.

"I'm more in the realm of bloody furious and vaguely disappointed."

"That sounds about right," Haechan agreed. "If it makes you feel better he hasn't talked to us either."

"It doesn't."

"You're in charge of training, make him do 300 press-ups," Johnny suggested.

You shook your head. You didn't want to talk about him anymore. It was too depressing.

"Why didn't Jaehyun come with you guys?"

"Something about it being a best friends situation," Haechan said. You pulled out your phone and texted him to come too.

"He said he feels lonely, I don't think he should have to feel like that," you explained.

Jaehyun turned up moments later with a parcel clutched under his arm.

"I thought we could watch the greatest showman," he said when you let him in, "I ordered it on DVD and it finally came today, perhaps at the right moment."

You smiled for the first time that evening.

"You're amazing, thanks Jaehyun," you said taking the DVD from him and setting it up on your small TV. You placed the sweets in front of it and pulled some blankets out of a small cupboard.

"Lads movie night," you announced to the other two. Who shrugged and turned to face the tv also.

Haechan and Johnny had called asleep before the movie even ended. In fairness, you had all seen it before but it was just the thing to cheer you up and by the time the subtitles ran, you felt a lot better. The sky was darker but it was hot inside your trailer.

"Shall I wake them up?" Jaehyun asked you, pointing to the boys. You snapped out of your daydream.

"Just leave them, they can sleep here," you stood up off the sofa and moved the boys slightly so you could swing their legs onto the sofa and placed a blanket over them.

"Do you wanna watch the stars for a bit?" You asked. Jaehyun was out staring at the stars almost every night so he nodded vigorously, with a grin you had never seen on his face before. It was cute.

You stepped outside, taking one of the blankets with you and lying it down just on the ground in front of you. You sat down and leant back against the wall of the caravan. Jaehyun followed and sat next to you.

"You're a really quick learner," you told him.

"You're a really good teacher." He replied back instantaneously. He was fidgeting, obviously once again desperate to ask you something.

You shrugged, letting him know to go ahead.

"Why is Doyoung like that, you know, drunk and rude? Why doesn't he talk to you guys anymore." He asked.

"You really don't ever ask the easy questions," you laughed slightly.

"I just wanted to know so I figured I would ask."

"It's kinda hard for me to talk about," you explained, "mostly because I don't understand myself, none of us do, I know the event that triggered it but even then I don't understand. I will tell you one day Jaehyun I'm sure, today is not that day."

He smiled at you,

"You don't ever have to tell me, I just couldn't give up the opportunity to ask."

"You will figure it out before I tell you, you couldn't perform Nox Periculosa with us and not work it out." You figured Jaehyun wouldn't understand until he realised on his own. In all honesty, it wasn't that hard to tell if you looked closely.

"Well I will keep my Sherlock Holmes hat on," he joked. You stared up at the stars he loved so much as you listened to him chatter. It was a strange sound. He hardly ever talked, he only ever talked like this when you hung out alone at night.

"Why don't you talk very often?" You asked, following his policy of curiosity.

"I used to think that I didn't want friends."

"Used to?" You inquired further.

"I didn't ever feel lonely before without friends, but when I look at you and your friends I feel like the loneliest man on earth."

You stopped looking at the stars for a second and looked over at Jaehyun. He was looking you dead in the eye. His own eyes contained an emotion you couldn't quite read. You were sure it wasn't a positive one though.

You moved your hand over to his and held on to it firmly.

"You don't need to feel lonely if you feel like that then just know that I'm always willing to hang out with you, and I'm sure the same goes for our sleepyheads inside."

Jaehyun squeezed your hand back.

"Thank you,"

"You don't thank your friends for being friends with you Jaehyun,"

"You can't tell me what to do." He joked, the corners of his eyes turning up as he smiled. You both looked back up at the stars and you were sure that neither of you felt lonely.

- • - • - • -

It was the fifth practice that week and you knew there was no more avoiding the moment. You had to teach Jaehyun the final ten seconds of the routine.

Jaehyun didn't have to do much. He just had to flip a few times then lie on the ground looking dead. Before getting up again to catch you at the end as you dropped. You, however, had to put total faith in Doyoung, as he held one of your feet and swung many times before throwing you up and catching your hand. You had to wear a blindfold so if he messed up you didn't have time to save yourself before you fell.

As you explained to Jaehyun, Doyoung sat behind you both with his eyes tightly shut.

You ignored his. Behaviour and climbed up to set the scene. Doyoung followed you up soon after. Jaehyun did his bit no problem. Doyoung waited for you to run at him to catch your leg.

His face looked like he had seen a ghost, nonetheless, he managed all of the moves seamlessly, You couldn't see anything but as you went through the air you knew the movements were correct. He caught you on time and then waited for the trapeze to go lower before he dropped you to where Jaehyun, was standing to catch you again.

You landed in Jaehyuns arms no problem. Jaehyun was smiling again.

"We did it, the whole thing!" He announced with happiness.

"Yeah," You said, only half-listening to him, Doyoung was still up on the trapeze with his eyes firmly shut. Jaehyuns gaze follows yours.

"This was it wasn't it?" He said, "something went wrong with the end of this performance," You nodded.

"Good work Sherlock," you joked, but the pain in your voice was evident.

"He dropped you right? But howe? he's so good." Jaehyun was clearly confused.

"If I knew the answer Jaehyun I would tell you, but I don't, all I know is that he messed up, I fell and landed breaking my arm, and knocking Yuta out. It almost caused the circus to have to close - health and safety. Doyoung never explained or said anything. By the time we came back from the hospital no one had seen Doyoung in weeks. When he returned it was announced he was quitting trapeze and he began to spend all day drinking."

You were so caught up in explaining the little that you knew, you never noticed Doyoung walk up behind you both. He frowned slightly before walking off. You tried not to take as much notice of it as you once would have, if Doyoung wanted to be sulky that was his own choice.

"If you ever get so good at being a detective you work what happened, feel free to enlighten me, I will buy you a brownie if you’re correct," you laughed, trying to make the situation feel better in any way possible.

Jaehyun smiled back at you,

"I will do my best Dr Watson,"

- • - • - • -

"Tell me again where we are going?" Johnny asked as you shoved him into the driver's seat of Taeyong’s car.

"To the circus," you told him jumping into the back seat next to Haechan, Jaehyun had managed to run to the front seat the fastest so he had won the best seat.

"But we are already at the circus," he said pointing to the tent behind you. You sat back in your seat exhausted before you had even begun.

"It's like a recon mission, circus spies, the Cirque de Contes is doing a one-night performance not far from here so we have been sent to check it out." You explained to Johnny, who then finally seemed to understand why the sat nav Jaehyun was typing in led to an empty field.

It was a usual thing to keep up with other circuses, make sure their performances were not greatly better than your own. The Ringmaster could never go himself or he would be spotted, so he often sent you and some others to go and watch.

"When was the last time you saw a circus?" Johnny asked Jaehyun. Jaehyun thought for a second or two before replying.

"I don't think I have ever seen a circus," he said. Johnny slammed on the breaks of the car, causing you all to jolt forward.

"This is your first time going to the circus? And you're from a circus family? The Ringmaster is your uncle right?" Haechan asked incredulously.

"Not literally my uncle, he's only a few years older than me. He has a much older brother though, who was good friends with my mum, I always called him uncle, so the same went for him I suppose." He explained.

Johnny nodded but Haechan still looked like he had seen a ghost.

"Well this is certainly unexpected," Haechan remarked.

"It's not like I came to the circus knowing anything or having any skill," Jaehyun reminded him.

"Well," You began. "It's good you have a chance now to really see the circus in action before you are a part of it. The tour starts in ten days. In ten days you really will be a circus man Jaehyun."

The drive to the other circus was short, by the time you had discussed Jaehyun's circus virginity and before Haechan had time to fully comprehend that fact. Johnny pulled the car into a parking lot on the field next to the circus tent.

When you got out of the car you handed everyone a pair of sunglasses except for Jaehyun.

"Why are you wearing sunglasses in the dark?" He asked.

"Circus folk do not take kindly to others showing up at their show, we need to be sure they won't spot us," You told him. "Your fine though, you haven't performed yet so they wouldn't know to spot you."

After donning your glasses, the four of you walked towards the bright lights of the tent that shone through the darkness.

"Have you ever thought that sunglasses at night are kinda conspicuous?" Jaehyun pointed out. Johnny shrugged.

"Some people who come to watch are weird, they won't ask questions."

You insisted that Jaehyun be the one to ask for the snacks so that the rest of you would remain incognito.

"This was just a ploy to get me to buy the snacks," Jaehyun said pouting. You giggled and placed your hand over your heart and feigned hurt.

"I would never do such a thing," you said sarcastically. Haechan reached over and grabbed popcorn from Jaehyun.

"I definitely would," he said before running off to find a good seat. Jaehyun shook his head,

"You guys are wild,"

"We just really love the circus, it's exciting."

- • - • - • -

Once you had all managed to sit down the lights in the tent dimmed and the music began. A clown came out and did standard clown things, he pied the other clown, squirted water at people, and hid a picture of himself in the bag of a poor unassuming woman only to reveal it to her later.

You made a mental note that they were using magic from the get-go. The other acts that followed were also pretty good you really enjoyed it.

You were smiling brightly until the final act came on stage, it was a trapeze that began to lower from the ceiling and two platforms came out. You didn't think this circus did trapeze, they had a few more girls on the hoops instead, that was their big aerial act.

You saw a boy come down from the ceiling on the trapeze and began to choke on your popcorn once you had realised who it was.

"Yuta," Johnny mumbled under his breath. Jaehyuns head whipped round to ask you his series of questions straight away. But you politely told him to shh.

Yuta was here at another circus, he didn't quit the circus, he just quit your circus.

"What a snake," Haechan said to Johnny.

Yuta was as good as ever, spinning and jumping, it was hard to make a one-man trapeze act interesting.

You sat stunned throughout his whole set, you couldn't even clap at the end you were still in shock.

The moment the circus finished you jumped out of your seat and ran off, the boys chasing after you.

"If you're doing what I think you are, you better not!" Johnny shouted from behind you.

You were doing what he thought, and he couldn't stop you.

You ran straight out of the circus tent and around the side, you spotted a muddy gap in the bushes to the next field, you reckoned that was where the trailers would be.

Sure enough, as you hurtled through the bushes you saw Yuta opening the door to one of the nearest caravans.

You didn't hesitate to run on into it behind him.

"How's life?" You asked him casually. Yuta looked really alarmed and you didn't know if it was because you were there in his caravan or if you were there in general.

"Addie, I didn't expect to see you here," he said slowly.

"I didn't expect you to be a traitor either," you said running headlong at the elephant in the room. You were not feeling like aimless pleasantries and small talk.

"I'm not going to apologise," Yuta said as the three boys caught up and bundled into the trailer too. "The whole gang is here huh," he remarked. "Plus a newbie, my replacement I assume."

"That's me," Jaehyun said awkwardly.

"Why did you come here?" Yuta asked.

"To scout out the circus you know how it is," Johnny said. Yuta shook his head.

"No, I mean why did Adeline run into my trailer like a crazy person?"

"I just... didn't expect to see you here," you told him.

"I have to make a living still, the circus, as before, is still the only place I want to do that, I just couldn't do it at your circus, I couldn't watch Doyoung drink himself to death, I couldn't watch you so sad every day Addie. I couldn't take it anymore." He said.

You nodded.

"I miss you, Archie, I mean Yuta."

He walked over and pulled you into a hug.

"I miss you too Ad," He let go of you slightly and looked down sadly.

"Is he any better?"

You shook your head. Knowing he was talking about Doyoung.

"He has to perform though, with us. The Ringmaster said so, we all have to do nox periculosa or he's out."

"Jesus Christ," Yuta said brushing his hair back with his hands.

"My thoughts exactly," said Johnny.

He invited you all to sit down on his sofas. With all five of you, it was a bit of a squeeze but you made it work.

"How's the new circus then?" Johnny asked him. Yuta shrugged slightly.

"It's whatever, it's better in the sense I don't have to think about the accident anymore but the people here aren't the same. I still won't say sorry for leaving though."

"You shouldn't have to, maybe I should have left to," you told him.

He cracked a smile.

"That would never have happened. I was always Yuta, not Archie, Jaehyun is Jaehyun, not Archie. But you, you are Adeline, everyone calls you that, you don't know any different. Beyond that circus, the real you doesn't exist." Yuta said.

A sad truth.

You left soon after, Yuta promised to come to watch your show when he could. He promised to meet you when you had a break, to talk about life.

You drove back near midnight to the caravans in your own circus field. It was totally silent.

"Do you think that anyone can be two different people?" You asked.

"How so?" Said Johnny.

"I was thinking about what Yuta said, that the real me doesn't exist outside the circus and yet I had always thought the opposite, that the real me lived outside the circus, I just left it behind for my character." You explained.

No one replied for at least five minutes.

"I think it's not as simple as that. You are both of them in a way but you are still only one person. As you said, no one is only good and no one is only bad. In the same way, as you are not only whoever you were and you are not only Adeline, you’re somewhere on that line."

It was Jaehyun that spoke.

"Makes sense," you agreed. Then the silence continued the whole way back.

- • - • - • -

It was almost two a.m. the night before the first performance of the year when you saw them outside your window. At first, you couldn't be sure who it was but when you opened your blinds and looked closer you were certain.

You had awoken at two a.m. to see Doyoung making out with the Mademoiselle. You felt sick, your heart hurt, worse than anything you had ever thought you felt before. Your only instinct was to leave, to get out. You ran out of your caravan and slammed the door shut, it made the pair stop and notice you but you didn't care, you ran the two hundred metres over to Jaehyun and Haechans caravan.

At first, you were sure that it was Haechan you were looking for. Then you realised the only person you wanted to talk to, to try and ease your pain was Jaehyun. You supposed it was the closeness of trapeze partners. You knocked on their door and thankfully it was Jaehyun who answered.

He stepped outside closing the door quietly behind him.

"Hey what's up, I didn't want to wake..." he cut off when he noticed the silent tears that had begun to roll down your face. He jumped off the step up to the door and wrapped his arms around you tightly, pulling you into his chest.

He didn't ask you what was wrong, he just stood there rubbing circles into your back until you managed to compose yourself slightly more.

He took your hand in his, carefully, and began to lead you out behind the caravan and over towards the circus tent.

"Why are we going here?" You asked him.

"Sometimes it's best to talk about things in the place where you feel at your best, I figured for you, that's probably in the circus ring."

At any other time, you would have grinned at how well he knew you, how kind he was. Just not that night.

He didn't say anything else until you were both sitting cross-legged opposite each other on the crash mat, situated below the tight rope, still set up from the nights practise.

"What's up?" He asked you.

You fidgeted with your hands, staring down at them. You felt nervous about your feelings for some reason as if you didn't have a right to have them.

"It was Doyoung," you said, "he was kissing Isobel."

Jaehyun looked totally surprised.

"I don't know what I expected," he said, "but it wasn't that. What a dick." The last part he said under his breath, you don't think he even meant to say it aloud.

"He ignored me for almost two years, even now he won't look at me. He dropped me on the floor, not the other way round. I never held him accountable for it either. Even in the hospital, I said it was okay and he just walked away and I have barely seen him six times since. Yet he manages to make out with some random girl who showed up less than two weeks ago." Your voice was so angry it was quiet.

"I had to talk to someone. I think that if I see him again I have a strong chance of punching him in the face," you admitted.

"I will punch him in the face for you," Jaehyun said.

"Thank you, but I meant that you should hold me back, resorting to violence won't fix anything."

"Who said I was trying to fix things?"

He was interrupted by the tent door opening. You both stood up immediately, Jaehyun stood in front of you, he reached back and squeezed your hand before turning to face Doyoung who had just walked in.

He looked slightly sheepish.

"Hey, Addie can I talk to you?" He said, "alone?"

You looked up at Jaehyun and shook your head. Usually, you fought your own battles but as you said to Jaehyun, you really didn't want to end up punching him.

"Unless you want her to slap you round the face, I suggest you get lost," Jaehyun told him.

"I just have to say one thing," Doyoung said.

"Anything you have to say to me you can say in front of Jaehyun too," you told him, still refusing to look him in the eye.

Doyoung sighed but took a few steps forward anyway. He shoved his hands in his pockets and licked his lips slightly.

"I didn't mean anything, I don't even like her that much." He said.

You moved quickly, Jaehyun never had a hope of catching you. You darted around Jaehyun and over to Doyoung, you began to attack him in various seemingly non-effective ways.

When he realised what was going on Jaehyun ran forward and grabbed you by the waist.

Doyoung didn't move, he just stood there and took the hits until Jaehyun pulled you off.

"What do you mean it didn't matter?! Does nothing matter to you, does how I feel not matter? Why Doyoung, why did you do all of this... not just this but the last two years? WHAT HAPPENED?" Tears were streaming down your face from anger.

Evidently, the commotion had caused other people to get up to come and see because Haechan came running into the tent.

"Get it together Adeline!" He shouted at you. You stopped trying to run back at Doyoung and instead crouched down on the floor and started to cry again.

Every emotion you had felt since that day was finally manifesting.

Haechan began to drag Doyoung out of the tent.

"You don't get to talk to her, not now not ever," he said as he pulled him away by the arm.

Jaehyun stayed and crouched down next to you.

"Don't cry Addie," He said, his voice sounded so sad, it almost made you want to cry more. "He really isn't fucking worth it."

- • - • - • -

Jaehyun walked with you back to your caravan, you opened the door that you had forgotten to lock in the midst of your emotions. Jaehyun turned round to leave but you grabbed him by the arm.

"Would you mind staying with me for a bit? I just don't want to be by myself," you told him. Jaehyun nodded and followed you inside, shutting the door softly behind him.

You pulled back the shutter to your bedroom and looked down. Only to realise this whole time you had been in your pyjamas shorts. You sat down in your bed and patted next to you for Jaehyun to beside you.

"I'm really sorry," you told him.

"Don't be sorry, you had every right to be angry." He replied.

You shook your head.

"You shouldn't have had to stop me from assaulting someone."

"Isn't that what trapeze partners are for?" He joked causing you to smile ever so slightly.

"I just loved him for so long I guess, I don't know how not to love him."

You looked up at Jaehyun's face, his lips were turned into a frown. His eyes were creased in concern and yet for the first time, you noticed how pretty his eyelashes were. Jaehyun really was an attractive person.

Neither of you said anything but you were so close that you could feel Jaehyun's breath against your skin.

Jaehyun reached over and brushed a loose strand of hair behind your ear gently. He didn't move his hand, it stayed gently rested on your cheek as he scrutinised your face just as you had scrutinised his.

His eyes flicked down to your lips and your faces moved close together once more.

Jaehyun closed his eyes and at the same time he closed the gap between your lips and his, he pressed them softly together, only for a few fleeting seconds.

He pulled away abruptly.

"I'm so sorry, I really didn't mean to do that, it so awful of me to do that right now, I'm.."

You cut him off by kneeling up and using both of your hands to pull his lips back to yours. You kissed him deeper this time, your lips moved quickly against his, you were desperate for the feeling that kissing Jaehyun was giving you, it was happy and safe and .. all the things you hadn't felt since Doyoung.

You pulled back after a while and stared at Jaehyun, his cheeks had gone red and he looked really nervous as he began to apologise again.

"I shouldn't have done that, not when you are so upset." He looked really sad.

"Was kissing me really that bad?" You joked. Jaehyun shook his head immediately, it was cute you noticed. You had started to notice a lot about Jaehyun in the last few hours.

"No of course not, but it still wasn't right of me,"

You looked up at the beige ceiling,

“I thought we agreed that good and bad aren't so obvious?” You reminded him. You knew it was bad of you to use Jaehyun to ease your own pain, but you didn’t know how else.

“Are you sure?” Jaehyun asked. You pulled your shirt off as a reply, hands moving to his chest pushing him back into the pillows.

“Never been more sure of anything,” you mumbled as you trailed kisses down his neck, unbuttoning his shirt. When you traced his muscles with your hand he moaned lightly, eyes fixed on you.

You went back to kissing him as one of your hands travelled down to palm his underwear, feeling his member harden with your every touch.

It didn’t take you long until your fingers curled under his waistband, dragging his underwear down to fully expose his length. You began to kiss the tip before Jaehyun stopped you, he pulled your head back up, level with his.

“I want to make you feel better baby, you don’t have to do this for me, today is about you.” He said.

He pulled down your jeans before sliding his hand into your panties, a moan escaped your lips as he began to rub circles into your clit. Your wetness soaking though, Jaehyun realised how desperate you were to be touched. He moved to sit between your legs, pulling your underwear away, before leaning down replacing his hand with his mouth, causing you to gasp.

“Does that feel good babygirl?” he asked, before sliding his finger into your wetness. You nodded slightly, unable to form words properly due to the sensory overload. He kissed your neck, you knew he was going to leave a mark, but you didn’t care, especially when he inserted a second finger, pumping at an excruciatingly slow rate.

“Shit Jaehyun, I need more,” you said, feeling tortured by his slow pace, “I want you to fuck me,” you said, a slight blush spreading across your cheeks.

Jaehyun pulled away and grinned up at you, eyes glistening,

“Whatever you want,”

He reached into the pocket of his jacket, trying to be as quick as possible, he pulled out a condom, rolling it down his length before positioning himself.

“Are you really sure?” he checked, chuckling at how needy you were for his cock.

He moaned softly as he slid into you and then back out at the same slow pace as before, perhaps just to annoy you.

“faster,” you whined. Jaehyun kissed your lips once more before starting to thrust forward quickly, burying his dick inside of you. Whatever you had prepared for it wasn’t that, tears pricked your eyes as he stretched out walls, thrusting relentlessly.

“you look so pretty, taking my cock,” he smiles,

“only for you,” you said, pulling his lips back to yours, for a second before he focused again, he brought one hand down to rub your clit as he fucked you, his other hand tangled in your hair.

This added stimulation was almost too much for you to handle.

“Cum for me baby,” Jaehyun encouraged you as your walls clenched tight around his cock as you came, moaning his name. The sight of your orgasm had given Jaehyun everything he needed or wanted, as a few seconds later you felt his length twitch inside you, before he pulled out, laying down beside you.

He pulled the duvet up to cover you both before turning to face you.

“Are you in the habit of having sex with your trapeze partners,” he joked, draping an arm over you.

“I do really like you Jaehyun, it’s not just because of Doyoung,” you explained.

Jaehyun looked up at the ceiling, “but it is partly because of him... I’ll take what I can get I guess... I’ve never felt closer to anyone than I do to you... and I don’t even know your name.”

“And I’m still not ready to tell you. I know it doesn’t make sense but,”

Jaaehyun cut you off.

“I get it, it was special between you and him, only he knew.”

He paused for a while.

“I will make sure you learn to love me more than him,” He said. “Because that’s what you deserve.”

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[unmanageable-day]

By your side | 07

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Jung Jaehyun was not always seen as a confident guy. He can only be cocky when he was with his circle of friends, which you were clearly not excluded. Yet. This was the perfect time for Jungkook and Sia to prove their loyalty to their dear friend in need. To boost the best friend's confidence, Jungkook and Sia were actively brainstorming to find the most effective way in the most natural state possible to be integrated in Jaehyun's effort to get closer to you. This had been mainly his strategy as well—after intensely consulting with Minhyuk and Naeun and basically following their advice; start from being friends. More like, very close friends. Jaehyun knew he couldn't do it alone. That was why he kind of begged Jungkook to help him, which he and Sia gladly agreed to do so. And actually this couple had more ideas way than Jaehyun did.

Today was an example, which Jungkook successfully dragged you out to accompany him having brunch with a lame excuse saying Sia had some errands to run and would join later. Sia never came. Instead, there were Jaehyun and some dudes called Yugyeom and Mingyu joining them.

"Dude, you don't need me anymore. You have your dudes here," you snapped at Jungkook, not really care about your image anymore.

"My dudes are your dudes too, you know?" He innocently grinned, looking at you and your squinting eyes.

Jaehyun smiled at you and Jungkook bickering non-stop, practically ignoring the other 3 guys. He liked this side of you. It felt more natural, genuine, and strangely it exuded a warm personality. There was definitely summer inside covered by a windy, cold winter.

"Jaehyun, I'm craving fried chicken in your neighborhood. Let's go to your house and have it delivered there. Haechan is not home yet, right?" Mingyu suggested.

You became more alert when the guys started planning something else. This should be your chance to escape and go back to your house, having your sleeping beauty moment.

"Ah, right. I left my jacket too," Jungkook added. "Yeoreum, come with us."

Your eyebrows curled as you couldn't comprehend your bestfriend's mind. "I think it should be 'Yeoreum, do you want to come with us?'"

"You will say no." He knew you better, indeed. "But I'll still take you with me though."

You blinked in confusion.

"Please, do come with us," the house owner spoke up, making you turn to face him. The dimples were on full display. His eyes were actually quivering when you made eye contact. So he kind of looked everywhere. Att you, at his friends. "We're just gonna chill a bit. I promise we'll be quiet. The chicken tastes great, you know? You won't regret it."

Did he just lure me with a freaking fried chicken?

"Yeoreum, come on. We don't take no as an answer." Jungkook stood up as his hand gripped your upper arm, dragging you again for the second time on that day.

Now there you were, sitting on the passenger seat in Jungkook's car with the other 3 giant guys, feeling lost and confused. The trip to Jaehyun's house was mostly filled with this Mingyu guy talking non-stop, while the others responded to him with relatively short answers. At least he was not loud. But still, how can one talks so much? Sometimes you were reminded of Johnny, who you finally could tolerate after weeks of him trying to get close to you. You smiled a little reminiscing those old days.

"What's funny?" asked Jungkook suddenly. He must have caught you smiling like an idiot. "Don't tell me you find Mingyu hilarious."

"What? No. Nothing." You cleared your throat.

Jungkook had to drag you again to enter Jaehyun's house. He sat you on the sofa, turned the TV on for you, and even provided you a pillow to hold. Meanwhile, the guys were all over the fridge checking out what was available. When you thought they will join you in the living room, the plot twist that Jungkook never planned just happened. This was when Yugyeom decided to pass because he got an important call, and Mingyu who was the one suggesting to go to Jaehyun's house had to leave early just when they arrived at the house, leaving the three of you. You didn't even say a proper good bye to Yugyeom and Mingyu.

Jaehyun and Jungkook silently exchanged looks. 'You got this!' Jungkook mouthed to his dude when you were not looking.

You were sitting awkwardly alone on the sofa, trying to not fidget too much.  It was the second time you visited his house. The first time was when Jungkook and Sia, as usual, kidnapped you for a late night movie with Jaehyun too and the other dudes, and ended up in Jaehyun's house, playing games all night long.

"Yeoreum, I'm sorry I have to go. Sia just called."

You abruptly got up. "I'll go with you. You can drop me off at the bus shelter."

"Why don't you stay longer and accompany Jaehyun? He will take you home."

"What? No, I..."

"That would be nice." Jaehyun quickly responded as he locked his eyes on you. "To have a company. I mean until my roommate comes back home," he continued as his sheepish smile appeared.

Jungkook firmly nodded at his same age friend. He pat you on the shoulder before really leaving. You couldn't believe your friend who left you in a man's house all by yourself.

"Just think of this house like the cafe you usually go to on weekends. Unfortunately I don't have tea or cake in this house, except coffee." Jaehyun began to break the silence. At this rate, he was so going to talk about whatever comes to mind. "Chilling at home is still the best, right? I mean, for a homebody like you. Well, it's not your house though. But still, a house instead of cafe, or restaurant, or even shopping center."

"You know, if you never mentioned that you're friends with Jungkook in our first meeting, I wouldn't trust you this much."

He chuckled. You've got a point though.

"I thought you can't stand staying at home and would prefer going out, shopping and everything."

Jaehyun chuckled again as he invited you to sit on the high chairs in the pantry instead of the sofa in the living room. "Yes, you're right actually. But since you're here, I'm good, I guess." He wished his reddening ears were not too obvious. "Let's see what we've got here beside coffee and cola," he sang as he opened the fridge and started scanning the whole compartment. "Lucky you, I've got milk and ice cream."

You were frustrated looking at Jaehyun being lost in the kitchen, trying to find anything else that goes well with milk and ice cream. He was running out of snack yet didn't want to bother going out to the convenience store. Eventually you just had to push him away. After asking for permission, then it was your turn to scan the fridge. Luckily, you found some strawberries and decided to make the hot trend of strawberry milk.

"I saw that in Youtube," he commented with his eyes fixed on the pouring milk onto the glass filled with your homemade strawberry jam.

Before you could respond, a loud, high-pitched voice was heard from the front door, making Jaehyun flinched from his seat. "Jaehyun hyung, I'm home," the younger guy sang, calling 'hyung' non-stop until he found Jaehyun and you in the kitchen. His doe eyes instantly filled with sparks and curiosity, along with his mischievous smile.

"Oh, Haechan, welcome home," Jaehyun greeted him.

"Who is this pretty Noona?" he asked with his cheerful tone, stomping approaching you.

Blushing, you laughed at the way he said pretty noona.

"Haechan, Yeoreum." Jaehyun's hands gestured pointing at you and the pudu-like boy back and forth. "Yeoreum, this cutie is my roommate, Haechan."

"Hi, nice to meet you." You were already being affectionate knowing that he was younger and ready to be babied.

"Wow, our names match very well, Noona. Full sun and summer. How's that?"

You chuckled at how vocal he was. Your eyes can't stop following whatever he did, particularly when he stood in front of the opened fridge, like he was pausing himself to find something he could eat right away. You just had to offer the freshly made strawberry milk, which he joyfully accepted.

"Hyung, can I have a friend come over?"

"Sure." He turned at you. "That's okay with you?"

You shrugged. "Yeah, sure."

"Is he the one from the dance academy?"

"Yes. Oh he's already here."

Soon, Haechan's voice was met by a contrast of a deeper yet firm and fruity voice. You could hear Haechan's friend nagging him over a group chat matter. Both you and Jaehyun smiled listening to their conversation simply because you found them adorable. Their voices got closer to the pantry, so you started preparing another glass of strawberry milk you made for Haechan's friend. Beside you, Jaehyun was being helpful as he cleaned up everything yet still kept you company and talked to you.

"If you're uncomfortable, I can take you home now." He looked concerned. It was supposed to be a chill, quiet, and perhaps a bit romantic home date just the two of you. Earlier that day, he should have ensured that Haechan didn't go home this early.

"It's okay. I think he's nice. His friend should be nice too." You smiled, reassuring him.

"Meet my roommate." You heard Haechan coming. But the one who he was with was definitely a surprise.

"Summer noona, why... what are you doing here?" His face was as shocked as you were.

"Oh, you two know each other?" Haechan asked.

"Sort of.." Mark answered in hesitation, his eyes were still on you.

"Interesting. What kind of mutual relationship do we have here?" Haechan sang innocently. Meanwhile Mark kept glancing at you and Jaehyun, and the little interaction you kept having with him. Jaehyun had been more quiet as it just came to his mind that Mark was one of Johnny's close friends. Of course you would know Mark.

"Jaehyun hyung, remember me? I'm a friend of Johnny, your partner for that night radio program 2 years ago," Mark initiated speaking.

The dimply man showed off his dimples again. He had to control his perfect smile to disguise his sudden insecurity. "Of course."

"How do you know guys know each other?" Mark asked, cautiously looking at you. He tried to read your expression but he failed. He can't tell anything from the signature poker face you were wearing, along with that practiced smiley expression.

"I'm a friend of her bestfriend," Jaehyun answered for you. He noticed you being silent suddenly as Johnny's name was mentioned.

"So now you guys are... friends?" Haechan spoke very brightly. "Or, is it more than friends?" he teased Jaehyun.

"It can't be decided yet," Jaehyun managed to throw a joke to melt the intense microexpression of yours. He also glimpsed at Mark who was staring at you, waiting for your response. "Despite the things we share in common, we still disagree about many things. For example, she's against gopchang which I like the most. How can I be friends with someone who doesn't understand the delicacy of this country?"

"It is disgusting to eat blood," you defended yourself. Jaehyun was finally relieved to have the usual you back.

While you and Jaehyun argued over little teeny tiny things, it was an unfamiliar sight to see for Mark. It was his first time to see you very lively and being vocal to speak your mind even if it was only simple stuff like milk-based drink was better than coffee. Beside him, Haechan kept throwing questions that kept rising a heated yet fun discussion between you and Jaehyun. This time about 16 personalities which you got ISTP and Jaehyun got ESTP. Mark had been silently observing how you and Jaehyun agreed and disagreed about one stuff and another. This Jaehyun guy seemed... compatible for you, he thought. It was interesting for him to see this side of you. To see a new side that probably would never emerge to the surface if you were still with Johnny. Basically you would let Johnny decide everything, making him dominant yet in the sweetest way possible in your relationship. When you were the girlfriend of Johnny Seo, Mark saw you as a calm and graceful, quite reserved, but you still knew how to have fun.

"It's great to see you today, Noona," Mark said before departing. He glimpsed at Jaehyun who was busy washing the dish in the kitchen. "Anyway, I know it's none of my business. But... does Johnny know?"

"About?"

"You and Jaehyun hyung."

You let out a chuckle. "What's with me and Jaehyun?"

"You guys definitely have something."

"Really?” You smiled, pretending to be oblivious. “Well, I believe this is something that I'm not obliged to tell him. Or maybe Mark could tell him for me?"

He quickly shook his head. "I'll let you guys figure things out."

#nct imagines #nct scenarios #nct au #nct fanfic #nct fanfiction #nct fluff #nct angst #nct jaehyun #jaehyun imagines #jaehyun fluff #kpop fanfiction #kpop fanfic #kpop imagines #post by yourblinkies

[sluttyten]

Ten Masterlist

fluff = ⭐️, smut = 💋, angst = 😩

series

best friend au:

💋 one time thing - 2k words, Ten’s your best friend, and when he accidentally opens a porn video while you’re trying to watch a movie, your plans for the evening take a turn

💋 one more time - in which it turns out to not be just a one time thing

the poly series

11 parts + 3 drabbles, smut, fluff, and angst

full length fic

💋 love daze - 6k, (for kinktober 2022), when the strangely beautiful plant you brought to brighten up one of the wayv dorms starts to bloom, kun, ten, and yangyang begin to act weird–feverish and dazed, and very very horny–the only thing you can do is help them all feel better

💋good hurt - 6k, you’re a tattoo artist, Ten wants a tattoo, and after developing feelings for him (and midway through the appointment) you learn he has a pain kink, so you help him out a little

💋 like home - 8.1k, you’re living in the city, having fun, being carefree and not tied down with your romantic life, and then you meet Ten and everything changes

💋⭐️ this dance - 12.3k, you’re a trainee close to debut under SM, Ten is a very helpful sunbae who helps teach you how to dance better, becomes your best friend, and becomes a lot more

💋 this unspoken thing - 8.4k, ten’s your best friend and you’ve been kissing him since you were both 16, but now on his 23rd birthday things begin to change

💋 jealousy - 3.6k, doyoung and ten sometimes don’t get along as well as boyfriends should, but with you as the steady part of the relationship, they realize that pleasing you is the most important thing OR the bedroom is no place for their squabbles when you’re waiting on the bed for them

💋 baby touch me - 1.7k words, a date night where Ten is a tease, so you take things into your own hands

💋 the subject of your dreams - 1.5k words, you and Ten spend too much time together in the recording studio of the music department without recognizing your feelings for each other

💋 silence & sin - 1.6k words, ignoring Ten is a great way to piss him off, and pissing him off is a great way to deserve punishment

💋 dance practice - 1.2k words, dance practice with ten gets a little hotter than normal

💋⭐️ first time - 3.4k words, you and Ten lose your virginity to each other.

💋 pierced - 531 words, Ten secretly pierced his nipples, and when he finally reveals the truth to Johnny, he reacts better than Ten could’ve hoped to imagine

drabbles/headcanons

⭐️ tattoo appreciation - you take your time showing some love to your boyfriend’s tattoos

💋 more & more -- ten fingers you and fucks you on the sofa while you beg him for more 

⭐️ warm and cozy -- “you’re hiding under the blanket because you’re blushing?” OR you’re not supposed to be in the dorm at all, but one of the members almost walks in on you and ten making out

⭐️ touch me -- ten is clingy, and even though you’re a staff member, he doesn’t let that stop him from wanting you to touch him

⭐️ tenalice -- ten’s embarrassed for you to see him dressed as tenalice, but he has no reason to be

⭐️ stay - cuddling with your roommate ten through a storm

⭐️ I missed you - just a fluffy drabble about ten coming home to you

⭐️ poly johnyuten drabble - just johnny manhandling his two boyfriends 

welcome home - he’s home after months away and all he wants is you

💋 how it goes - a johnten threesome OR you and ten try to switch things up and top johnny, but johnny’s not having it

💋 luten threesome - lucas thought ten was sleeping when he started touching you. ten wasn’t asleep. 

taeil | johnny | taeyong | yuta | kun | doyoung | ten | jaehyun | winwin | jungwoo | lucas | mark | xiaojun | hendery | renjun | jeno | haechan | jaemin | yangyang | shotaro | sungchan

#ten #nct #nct ten #wayv ten #super m ten #superm ten #ten smut #ten fluff

[masjestickingdom]

Parallel Lives

Pairing: NCT x reader

Genre: Lighthearted, slight fluff, one shot 

Summary: You’re a studious university who’s on summer break, spending your spare moments with your best friend. After a random statement is thrown into the conversation, you and your friend wonder what it’s like to be in NCT’s position. Little do you know that your idols are simultaneously pondering about your position as a normal college student.

Note: Here’s a simple, sweet scenario that I wrote! Even though it’s simple, I really wanted to post this because it’s a nice, exciting thought to have a crossover conversation... Imagine if you were thinking about the same thing at the same time of your favorite idol! Anyway, I also thought it was important to post this to point towards the life experiences everyone has. While this story doesn’t cover every one of those experiences, I think it covers the bigger topics (youth, hate, missing out on experiences, dreams, etc) that I personally think about a lot, so I hope you enjoy! 

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   As a university student, you have worked your butt off to get good grades and make connections with your professors, upperclassmen, and peers. When you were a high school student, you didn’t care about any of that. In fact, you were the shy one and you got away with it because, hey, it was high school. Fast forward a few years ahead and here you are in the present day, socializing with every human being you could possibly get in touch with. What for, though?

   “For what are we grinding this hard?” you wonder out loud, grabbing your nth piece of chicken.

   Your friend sighs in agreement, spreads out her long legs over the table you both paid for, and rests them adjacent to the boxes of chicken and coke you ordered over half an hour ago.

   Exams are finally over, and you decide to spend the night on the balcony with your roommate, who’s also your best friend, before your two-month internship, which you earned in part to your networking skills. It’s a nice, breezy summer night. It’s one of those nights you want to enjoy in peace and quiet, staring off into the limitless expanse of the dark, but shimmery sky.

   You reach out for another piece of chicken when your friend chuckles at something on her phone.

   “What?” you ask with your mouth nearly full.

   “Nothing, it’s just this really funny meme about NCT,” your friend says with glee. “Very relatable, by the way.”

   NCT, one of the hottest international sensations taking the world by storm alongside living legends, BTS and BlackPink, according to news outlets, is a name you haven’t heard in a while. Personally, you used to be an avid fan since the SMRookies days. You kept up with the appearances they made as trainees in EXO’s EXO 90:2014 series, the cameos in music videos (including the ones in EXO 90:2014), the variety show Mickey Mouse Club, and the videos SM Entertainment would randomly post. As time went on, sadly, the determination to be informed of the latest news withered as your priorities changed upon entering your sophomore year of high school. Sure, you heard news here and there and occasionally checked out their social media accounts, but when you entered college, that was a territory you failed to explore. Other than awards and comebacks, you hadn’t heard much of NCT once you had indulged yourself in your studies, and everyone else around you were doing the same thing.

   It has been quite some time since you were curious about the idols. Your friend’s sudden comment on them resurfaced old fangirl feelings, luring you into an interesting discussion of NCT, idols, and life in general.

   “Another exam to go until graduation, another test to assess loyalty, another test closer to our deathbeds,” you mumble grumpily.

   At the abrupt foul tone that consumed your voice, your friend raised her eyebrows questioningly.

   “And an internship to be a prospect of a permanent employee for some company to work for others--exciting, right?” you said sarcastically before you took a long sip of ice-cold, refreshing coke, which did nothing to restore your mood.

   Understanding what you were getting at, your best friend calmly nodded.

   “They’re living their best lives,” she says, referring to NCT.

   You let a bitter smile form on your lips as memories about mistreatment and mismanagement whiz past your mind. “Or behind the curtains..."

   “They could be just like us,” your friend finishes off. “Tired, overworked, maybe even frustrated.”

   A soft smile overtakes your bitter one. “But probably in a different way.”

   “What would it be like to be an idol?” your friend sighs dreamingly.

   “What would it be like to be a college student?” a silver haired boy ponders aloud.

   His purple haired younger friend, Haechan, who’s grilling meat, replies ambiguously, “Stressful, Yuta. Pretty stressful.”

   “Probably fun too,” green haired Jaehyun chimes in. “Engaging with lots of people the first few weeks of school, trying out different clubs, and finding a way to fit in--that all sounds fun to me.”

   The optimistic boy joins Haechan in the adventure of grilling meat, switching with Taeyong’s position as a meat griller. While the rest of the boys prepare the dining table, placing the setting with kitchen utensils and side dishes being prepared by Taeyong, Doyoung, and Johnny, Yuta admires the busy streets of the city, listening for the distant sounds of cars honking and pedestrians screaming, with the cool night air breezing past his newly dyed hair. It certainly is one of the best ways he and the members could possibly enjoy the rare moments of freedom.

   At the sound of a whistle, Yuta is pulled from his cloud of thoughts, and he looks over his shoulder, nodding to his not-so-secret favorite member of the group at the simple gesture of a hand that urged him to go inside and help bring out the dishes.

   “We’ll never experience the glamor of getting dolled up almost everyday,” you state solemnly.

   “Or have fans,” your friend pitches in.

   “Or see famous celebrities literally every day.”

   “Or experience the trainee days, everyone trying to bring everyone down, or haters trying to drag you out once you gain fame.”

   You throw a strange glance at your friend for that last statement.

   “What?” she says, shrugging nonchalantly. “We need drama in our lives, or else life’s boring.”

   Shaking your head, you chuckle at her unique take on an abstract concept.

   A moment of silence engulfs the two of you as both of you fall deep in your thoughts.

   There was never a quiet moment under the roof of NCT, and tonight is no exception.

   “Hey, isn’t the beef really good?” Yuta’s favorite member, Mark, speaks, delighted at the flavors bursting in his mouth.

   “Haechan, don’t you dare pull a prank on us with coke and vinegar ever again,” Taeyong scolds the youngest member, recovering from his gagging session, while Johnny and Taeil are still chugging down glasses of water to get rid of the aftertaste. “Is it really necessary to do any of this?”

   “Sorry, mom, my hand itched,” the prankster smiles innocently.

   “Didn’t Haechan grow a lot?” you bring up, breaking the quietness.

   Your friend gulps down her coke before pointing out, “Isn’t he the same age as us?”

   Your crane your neck, your head now tilting sideways. “He is?”

   “Crazy, isn’t it?” your friend responds. “The majority of the Dreamies are the same age as us.”

   “Yuta, didn’t you say something about college?” Mark asks, chowing down pieces of watermelon.

   The older boy nods. “Wouldn’t it be fun to experience it? None of us went to college.”

   Taeyong uncomfortably shifts on the bench at the mention of college. 

    Like Yuta mentioned, none of the members of NCT went to college and probably won’t go because it’s not a likely option, considering their packed schedules. He knows that the mere mention of it can bring down the mood because for them, college represents the definition of normalcy, the life of a normal person, and with them not going to college or graduating high school, he doesn’t want them to have a chance to regret or have second thoughts.

   “Imagine if they visited our college for one day,” your friend mused.

   Extending your short arm to pour yourself another cup of coke, you wheeze between your breaths, “Hey, I bet that the professors would ask for autographs.”

   “Yeah, I think we wouldn’t stand a chance in the classes,” Johnny laughs, adding ice to his coke. “They would be too advanced for us to understand anything.”

   Yes, Taeyong let the conversation flow. He even joined in on the conversation a few times. He didn’t want to ruin the mood by switching the topic in a way that could be nothing short of a very obvious attempt, and if he didn’t say something, his group members, his family, would notice.

  “It would be nice to make new friends, right?” Yuta expresses. “New people to dance with, sing with, do sports with..."

   “I think Yuta’s tired of our awful soccer skills,” Jaehyun replies humorously.

   “I feel like they would say that they would want to make new friends, but it all depends on your personality,” you say, tucking your hands behind your head. “I only have you.”

   Your friend laughs, replicating your movements. “Loser, I’m on the same boat as you.”

   “Wouldn’t it be nice to go to game rooms or comic book stores?” Mark carries on as he stretches his arms out to the sky.

   “Wouldn’t it be nice to be your own karaoke room or be able to dance the trends?” you fancy.

   “Or be the trend,” your friend adds.

   “I just want to sleep,” Johnny murmurs, lazily dragging his feet across the floor to the cushioned bench placed against the white walls. Turning his large body so that his body faces the wall, he hugs an available pillow with his legs and remarks, “Idol or student, you don’t get to sleep that much.”

   “It would be nice to work hard for something that you know you want to do,” you dream. “We have no clue what to do in the future. Most of us blindly study and get internships.”

   Just then, a bright stream of light passes your eyes, and your eyes widen.

   “Did you see that? That was a shooting star!” Jungwoo exclaims, his eyes mirroring the sparkling trail.

   Everyone looks up at the sky even though the moment has well passed.

   “We’re living under the same sky as them, so how are our worlds so different?” you say without much energy, staring at the now dark sky. “I bet they were pitted against each other at some point in their trainee lives, but here they are in this world. Years of friendship, what would that be like?”

   Slightly offended, your friend sits up from her resting position. “Hey, we’ve been friends since middle school.”

   “Do you remember the time when you were young and saw your favorite artists on tv?” Doyoung reminisces.

   “They’re the reasons why I became one,” Haechan concurs.

   Taeyong thoughtfully fixates his eyes on where the shooting star once was, his arms acting accordingly.

   “They were so young when they were casted,” you whisper. “It’s kind of sad when you think about it.”

   Another wave of silence overwhelms you. Your friend spares another look at you and watches you stretch your hands to the sky, hands shaped as if you are taking a snapshot of your view.

   She responds with a quiet voice of her own, “Some of them didn’t even plan on being an idol.”

   Taeyong’s hands retract to his sides. “I remember when I first met you guys. I’m really glad that we have each other.”

   The sappy moment comes to an abrupt end when Johnny’s snores take over.

   You turn your head over to your friend who is fast asleep.

   Eyes averting to the inky sky once again, you contemplate quietly, “I wonder what they’re doing now.”

   Meanwhile, the boys are trying to stuff a sock in Johnny’s mouth to muffle his snores. Taeyong, not participating, stays in the background and enjoys the last bit of their night of freedom.

#nct #nct scenarios #nct oneshot #nctu #nct127 #nct dream #nct mark #nct jaehyun #nct johnny #nct taeyong #nct doyoung #nct yuta #nct taeil #nct haechan #nct jungwoo #nct imagines #kpop scenarios #nct writing #nct x reader #reader x nct

[jenomark]

I really liked the Way V question. Who do you think is the closest in NCT 127?

Because of how much time they’ve spent together, it’s hard to pinpoint just one person they’re closest to. 

For Taeil, I think it’s Yuta. They’re roommates, so they’ve created their own privacy together. I feel like there is something really intimate about them always wanting to room together. It’s worth mentioning that I also think Taeil vibes well with everyone who meets him.

For Johnny, it’s either Mark or Jaehyun. Jaehyun and him seem to understand each other well. It’s almost like, out of everyone, they choose to spend time together the most. With Mark, I think their dynamic is fun for Johnny. He gets to be both the goofy older brother and the one Mark can look up to.

For Taeyong, it’s always Yuta. Hearing them talk about their conversations makes me wonder what being close really means. I don’t think they hang out a whole lot on their down time because I think they like different things, but I think their deep connection transcends that. 

For Yuta, I think he’s close with everyone. I can’t see him having relationships that lack anything. I think all of the members add something important to his life. If I had to pick one, it would currently be Mark. I feel like Mark acts as a pressure relief for Yuta.

For Doyoung, I think it’s both Johnny and Jungwoo. The reason I chose Johnny is obvious. The fortune teller said that Johnny was the leader and Doyoung the follower, and I think that’s very true. They work well together. I also chose Jungwoo because I think, in that relationship, Doyoung finally gets to be the leader. In a way, they give Doyoung the best of both worlds.

Like always, Jaehyun confuses me. My safest guess is Johnny. I’m always curious about how he is around other members. Even though we see him with them, it never feels like it’s enough. I almost get the feeling like he’s on neutral 24/7. I will say that I think he’s quite close with everyone, and that we just don’t get to see it much. 

For WinWin, I feel like it would be Mark. I think he’s close to everyone, but the last videos we’ve seen of him, Mark has been doting on him a lot. I secretly think WinWin actually likes the attention 127 gives him.

For Jungwoo, it’s Doyoung and Mark. I can’t choose one, because it’s kind of like they need to exist together. I’m sure they both function as safe places for him. Also, Johnny. I think Johnny doesn’t sugarcoat as much as Doyoung and Mark would, and I think Jungwoo would appreciate that.

For Mark, there are many to choose from. I think that has more to do with how many people unknowingly gravitate towards him. If Mark Lee is anything, he’s insanely lovable. I will say, at the moment, I do think it’s Yuta. I think they depend on each other a lot.

Besides Mark, I think Haechan is closest to Taeil. I’ve mentioned it many times, but their friendship has grown so much. I think Haechan looks up to Taeil, and I think the admiration runs deep.

#Anonymous #asks #nct #nct 127

[wildandsexyjacks]

Maybe It’s a Chicago Thing

I know we’re way past halloween, but here’s Johnny (no The Shining pun intended) + #2 and #56  from this halloween prompts list requested by anon

Hope you like it!

Word Count: 1.9k

“Do I really have to go?” You ask, playing candy crush on your phone while you wait for your friend to finish her make-up.

“Yes!” she shouts from the bathroom of your shared apartment “You promised me, remember?”

You roll your eyes.

“It’s not like you’re gonna miss me, being too busy swallowing Ten’s face and all...”

She laughs and sticks her neck out to look at you through the open door.

“Y/N, come on, you used to love those parties! Is this about Jaehyun? Because that was, like, ages ago. I’m sure he doesn’t even remember it anymore. Probably no one does.”

You throw a cushion at her and even though she actually ducks, it doesn’t even reach the doorway, landing right in the middle of the living room. 

“It was literally last halloween.”

She shrugs and turns back to the mirror.

“Just stay away from jello shots or try not to throw up on anyone’s shoe this time and you should be fine.” after applying a heavy coat of red lipstick, she comes out of the bathroom with her hands on her hips “How do I look?”

You squint at her outfit, uncertain.

“Like a stripper dressed up as a nun.”

You have no idea what her costume really is and the comment was supposed to make her mad, or at least a little annoyed, but your roommate smiles brightly instead.

“You know, that’s why we’re best friends. You just.... get me on a spiritual level. Are you ready?”

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When you get to your old college friends’ place, the infamous House 127 known to host unforgettable parties, Yuta is at the door, dressed up as Edward Elric from Fullmetal Alchemist. He’s hugging a bowl full of chocolates, surrounded by half a dozen whiny children in cute halloween costumes.

“Come on, little dudes!” he orders, keeping the bowl out of the kids’ reach “Ten push-ups each or no one gets candy.”

Your friend charges at Yuta and punches his arm then takes the bowl from him to give a chocolate bar to each one of the kids. They all thank her very politely and run off to the next house.

“It’s called trick-or-treating for a reason, idiot.” she mutters, handing the candy bowl back to Yuta “They’re supposed to threaten you, not the other way around.”

“And where’s the fun in that? All right, whatever.” he rolls his eyes and gestures at the door “Hello to you too Slutty Nun, nice to see you Jello Shot. Welcome to our house of tricks, ladies, please come in.”

You pass by your friend, bumping her shoulder. “No one remembers, huh?”

The living room is heavily decorated, with purple lighting and spiderwebs and bloodstains on the walls - hopefully fake, but you never know with these guys, Doyoung sometimes takes things a little too seriously. There’s a table with snacks of all sorts and a silver platter with an unholy amount of the jello shots you need to stay away from. There’s also a beautiful jar filled with red wine punch, ice cubes shaped like tiny skulls. 

You’re about to go for the punch but your best friend’s boyfriend - Ten - intercepts the both of you, wrapping his arms around her waist and pressing a soft kiss to her cheek. Then he looks at you and frowns.

“Where’s your costume?”

You point at your black smudged eyeliner and the Chicago Bulls shirt like it should be obvious.

“I’m Pete Wentz.”

“She’s lazy.” your friend corrects “And didn’t even wanna come, can you imagine that?”

Ten, you notice, is wearing a sexy french maid costume, and he looks utterly ridiculous but incredibly funny at the same time.

“I’m actually glad I came, though, otherwise I’d miss this.” you point at his costume “You two really deserve each other.”

“Thank you. Donut?” he asks, offering one of the pastries on the tray he’s carrying as part of his costume.

You’re about to take one but a large hand grabs your wrist. You look around - and then up because he’s super tall - to find a man you’ve never seen before. He’s got brown hair falling in front of his eyes, amazingly beautiful cheekbones, broad shoulders, and looks really good dressed in a black button-up and a white lab coat.

“Don’t take it, it’s a halloween prank. He filled it with mustard instead of boston cream.” he explains.

You want to slap Ten, but the nice-looking stranger is still holding your arm, so you stretch your leg and kick him instead.

“WHAT THE HELL?”

The boy almost drops the tray, hopping on one foot with a pained expression.

“Ouch! Thanks a lot, Johnny.”

So that’s his name.

“Thank you... Johnny, right? Are you dressed up as a doctor?” You ask, looking at his lab coat. He turns completely to you, so you can see the rest of his costume. There’s a tiny Snoopy plushie in his pocket, and you raise your free hand to touch it. “Oh! A vet, then?”

Your roommate sighs.

“Wow, you didn’t even bother, John. Congratulations, you’re literally dressed up as yourself.” She complains. “I bet you even came straight from work.”

Johnny laughs.

“No. If I did, I’d be covered in Mr. Flufflestiltskin’s urine. Big boy was really happy to see me today.”

“Oh, I can’t wait for that demon cat to be adopted.” She rolls her eyes, then smiles, holding onto Ten’s arm with one hand and waving the other to get your attention “Johnny is Ten’s best friend. He’s volunteering at our animal shelter while the construction company is setting up his clinic, he just moved back from... Oh.” staring at your Bulls shirt, she tilts her head to the side, a weird look in her eyes “You guys have a lot in common. You both like sports and suck at halloween costumes... Maybe it’s a Chicago thing, he was born there too.”

You look up at Johnny, and he finally realizes he’s still grabbing your arm, quickly letting go with an embarrassed laugh. Ten and his girlfriend exchange a look you know can only mean trouble and make up a poor excuse to leave, abandoning you to Johnny’s care. He looks around, eyes darting in every direction, not knowing what to say.

“Um... Thank you for saving me.” You say again, just to break the ice. “I’m Y/N, by the way.”

“No problem.” He shrugs “In fact, you should be suspicious of pretty much everything from now on, the guys have a bet going on and whoever pranks more people gets a reese’s peanut butter cups box and a month free of any household chore obligation. Trust no one tonight.”

“Not even you?”

You frown, but he shakes his head.

“I don’t live here. Besides, I know all their plans, which makes me the safest person to hang out with right now.” offering his arm, he winks at you “Wanna get something to drink?”

There’s really not much to think of. Your friend ditched you to make out with her boyfriend somewhere in the house, the other boys would not hesitate to prank your scaredy-cat ass... And Johnny looks really good. He’s also very nice, with his soft velvety voice and broad shoulders and warm smile. And he looks really, really good.

You grab his arm and take him to the food table. He reaches for the jello shots, but you tell him a quick variation of your sad jello encounter from last year - not getting into gastrointestinal specifics because that’s not something you tell a cute guy you just met -, and after laughing for a whole minute he ends up filling two cups with punch, handing you one. 

With a steady hand on your lower back, Johnny guides you to one of the couches, and you sit down side by side. He compliments your shirt and starts a conversation about Chicago, then sports, then your interests. It’s easy to talk to him, he has a nice voice when he talks and seems genuinely interested when it’s your turn to speak. And you do have a lot in common, indeed. You talk about music, movies, sports, not even noticing how much time has passed since your friend vanished with her boyfriend.

A few punch cups later, when your favorite Fall Out Boy song starts playing, you drag Johnny to the improvised dance floor adjacent to the back door. He’s surprisingly good at it as well, especially for someone as tall as him. It makes you wonder if there’s anything he’s bad at, and you ask him just that. 

“Flirting,” he replies with a cute laugh. “I’ve been meaning to ask your number for...” he squints at his watch “over an hour now.”

You take a step forward.

“Oh, I suppose it’d be useful.” you joke, smiling “I mean, you’re a vet and I have a goldfish at home.”

He comes closer too, only a little bit, subtly resting one of his hands on your hip. 

“It definitely would. Goldfish need special care, it’s very important to have a professional at hand.”

One more step closer.

“It is isn’t it?”

You’re already on your tiptoes, hands on Johnny’s shoulder, and he’s leaning in... Until Haechan comes from nowhere running like crazy and bumps into the both of you, completely ruining the moment and making you jump back. 

“If anyone asks,” he goes, barely stopping to talk to you “you never saw me.”

And just like he came in, he goes out with no explanation whatsoever. You and Johnny look into each other’s confused eyes before bursting out laughing.

“What was that?” he asks mid-laugh, shaking his head.

“I have no idea. He’s probably in trouble, but it’s not our problem...” you reach for his hand, a little shy, and clear your throat “Where were we?”

He glances at you, chewing on his lower lip.

“I’m pretty sure you were about to kiss me.” 

You avoid his gaze, biting back a smile.

“Really? I think I don’t remember that...” going against your words, though, you move into his personal space, wrapping your arms around his neck.

“Well, in that case...” with his hands on your waist, Johnny closes his eyes and leans in again “I was definitely about to kiss you.”

He does so, and it’s unlike any other kiss you’ve ever had before. Johnny pulls you closer, running his hands up and down your back as you thread your fingers through his hair. 

“Mmhmm....” he hums after you break the kiss “Just like I imagined.” smiling, he takes your hand, intertwining your fingers “Come on, let’s get a drink.”

You move back to the table at the same time as Doyoung storms inside coming from the backyard, carrying a half-empty reese’s box that was probably meant for the bet and looking seriously pissed. 

“Who ate all my candy?!!” He yells, poking random people on the dance floor, looking for the culprit “I WILL find out who did it and WILL kill everything they hold dear, whoever and wherever they are!”

Johnny laughs and squeezes your wrist to get your attention.

“Perhaps we should go somewhere else before he finds out the chocolate thief has left already and things get real ugly... Would you like to go grab something to eat?”

You nod in agreement, and the both of you head for the door, hand in hand and twin smiles on your faces. 

The house really is one to host unforgettable parties. This time, however, you’re set to make good memories and you’re very glad you came.

-

Not nearly as good as I thought it’d be, but here it is. Happy belated halloween everyone, and thank you for requesting, anon!

#johnny seo #johnny suh #johnny scenarios #nct scenarios #nct fanfic #nct 127 #nct johnny

[teampandawang]

NCT Dream Reaction: having a crush on you

By: Aria

Genre: Fluff

MARK

Since you were recruited as an SM trainee you were working hard that the company decided to give you a reward performing with your whole group at a special stage with the NCT Dream boys. You were too excited practicing daily the choreography, but one day you were told that you were having a general rehearsal with the boys.

When they got into the practice room you felt how someone gazed at you. You tried to ignore the feeling, but it caught your attention when you heard the guys laughing and teasing Mark with no apparent reason.

He looked embarrassed, but you just decided to don’t introduce yourself until your manager tell you so. But Mark’s attention kept on your movements. His eyes followed every step you did. He couldn’t believe he was going to work with you, the trainee that took his breath away every time that passed by.

His friends were no merciful. They kept on the jokes ignoring that you might listen them.

“Mark, please.” Shouted Chenle. “Stop drooling. We must get a bucket for you.”

“Shut up.” He said while blushing.

He threw you a glance while the manager started to introduce both groups’ members; but he felt kinda intimidated by your eyes meeting, your pretty eyes on his. He rapidly looked down to the floor with a shy smile on his lips.

 RENJUN

You couldn’t believe that you were near to perform on your very first stage with your group. But you felt strange and afraid, because you knew more groups were watching as audience, and some are the ones that you admired the most.

Before the performance you went backstage to relax and celebrate with your friends. You were on a group hug when you felt someone grabbing your arm softly, making you turn over. You got shocked, literally shocked.

There was NCT, your favorite group. All the members were at backstage with your own group and they were trying to speak out behind all the shouts of joy.

“Girls, we are so proud of you.” Said Taeyong with a big and charming smile.

“Count on us as the kings of your fandom.” Said Johnny winking shamelessly.

You all bowed at the compliments they said in sign of thanks and respect.

“I thought Renjun ha something to say, didn’t he?” Asked laughing Haechan receiving a slap on his neck from an angry Renjun.

 “You are amazing, girls.” He said before leaving almost a whisper. “Specially with Y/N as the beauty leader.”

 JENO

You didn’t understand how stressful becoming an SM Idol could be. You kept working 24/7. Vocal and dance practices the whole damn day. But you were not giving up on your dream. You would keep improving your skills and preparing yourself for your yet-to-come debut.

One day magically the company decided to give you a break and take you to an amusement park with other groups just to relax. That make you really, really excited because you knew that the Dreamies were coming too, and the crush you got on one of them was unquestionable.

But no one knew is that you were someone’s bias too…

You arrived at the park and ran to the attractions with your friends, but they entered to the roller coaster without you. You waited in the queue with the Dreamies, that started talking to you. You noticed Jeno’s eyes over you making you blush softly.

Your turn came and he approaching to you with his cute eyes´smile. The park’s personnel told you that you must get into the roller coasters’ car in couples.

“No problem. We’re going together.” Jeno said suddenly, leaving you a little confused. He looked at you smiling. “I finally got the opportunity to meet you.”

This day was, literally, the stress relief you needed with the best company you have ever wanted. The one you always saw as a crush was now becoming the more important boy in your life.

 HAECHAN

Sweet, sweet, sweetest.

Something was happening, and you didn’t understand why. Your mornings were always interrupted by the arriving of flowers’ bouquets, chocolate boxes and mysterious letters, just for you. But you, and your roommates were too confused about who the emitter of them was.

You kept your mind focused on your dance practices and vocal trainings. Your work as an SM Idol were really hard and you, being your group’s leader, had to push yourself to the limit.

But one day, you received one of those letters that caught your attention because it seemed to be an invitation more than another thing:

‘I’m an honored working for the same agency as yours, but I’ll be the happiest boy alive if you gave me one simple opportunity to hang out together. Would you mind meeting me today after your practice?         -Donghyuck’

You found that name familiar, but something still missing so you went for your group mate’s advice. You handed the note to them. But they suddenly screamed when they opened it and saw the name on the signature.

“Y/N, how could you?” Said one of the girls. “It’s NCT’s Haechan. What are you waiting for meeting him?” They said pushing you to the door with no mercy.

JAEMIN

Everything on this event seemed to be an incredible opportunity to get yourself to know between other Idols of your same company. You practically just debuted as a solo artist, what was more difficult than being in a group, so you needed your colleague’s recognition to took strength on the musical industry.

You were literally stunning. Your image consultant did a great job highlighting your gorgeous features. And everyone noticed it. You caught everyone’s attention what was great.

Jaemin wasn’t the exception. He got lost on your eyes. He didn’t know how to focus on the funny conversation he was holding with the other NCT members. They noticed it and tried to obtain a response for his actions, but he suddenly let them and walked toward you.

You were greeting some managers you already knew when you noticed someone apologizing to them.

“Sorry, can I have her for a minute?” They bowed and went away. Jaemin took your arm softly to turn you around.

“Y/N, you look even prettier than in your MV’s. How is it possible?” He said with a wide smile and a cute blush on his cheeks.

 CHENLE

“You have been waiting for weeks to talk to her, Chenle.” Said Mark while they were walking to the studio.

“This is your opportunity. Don’t waste it, pleeeeease.” Encouraged Renjun. “We know you are really into her. And we suspect she’s interested on you too.”

“How do you know that?” Answered quickly Chenle with a suspicious tone on his voice.

“Don’t ask us and go for Y/N. With no doubts!” Almost screamed Jaemin.

The Dreamies entered the studio and you were there sitting with your manager, planning the last details of your collaborations with your favourite NCT sub-unit. You were really nervous that almost didn’t noticed when they arrived, so you practically shocked when you saw them really close admiring how handsome they were, specially Chenle who couldn’t stop smiling at your reaction.

“Let’s get it. It’s your moment.” Said Jeno.

“Invite her to your mansion or something expensive, you Richenle.” Said Jisung teasing the boy who answered with a strong, but disguised, knock on the Maknae’s arm.

JISUNG

You were fortunate to have reached a job as an SM Idols’ makeup artist despite of your age, but with this much talent they couldn’t refuse to hire you. Your work was difficult because the amounts of famous you attended, but it has tons of fun too, more when you spend time n tour with your favorite group: NCT Dream.

These boys kept your sessions really entertaining, specially when they started dancing as machines and singing with no control no letting you do your work, even if the manager reprimanded the boys for that.

On that random dances they always teased the Maknae, who you found cute even if he was younger than you. The other members said to him to show you the impressive dance step that he has prepared for ‘someone’. But he instantly blushed when they started with the jokes.

“I’m sorry Y/N.” He said almost whispering. “My Hyungs are grown men that doesn’t know how to act when their friend is into a girl.”

They listened everything despite of the low tone that Jisung used.

“Such a disrespectful maknae.” They shouted laughing. “He has no shame about confessing to his Noona crush.”

#nct #nct dream #mark #mark lee. #lee mark #renjun #huang renjun #jeno #lee jeno #haecha #lee donghyuck #jaemin #na jaemin #chenle #zhong chenle #jisung #park jisung #fanfic #fandom #fan fiction #reaction #kpop reactions #reacciones #reactions #headcanons #imagine #nct reaction #nct fanfiction #nct dream reaction #nct scenario

[criminallyvenomous]

What Is This? Lucas X Reader

Part Three in What Is This?

Hey asshats, it's Kat again and I have chapter three here for you. I don't know why this is important but I felt the need to let you guys know that Lucas isn't a bias or even a wrecker for me, but this just happened because I felt it suited Xuxi.

~

"She's got a boyfriend, Ten, you don't understand how much this confuses me. She never mentioned a Lucas before."

"Johnny, you're pacing." Ten places his hand on Johnny's shoulder.

"Ten, they're active."

"Active? Like sexually?"

"Yes, like sexually. She's my little sister, what if she gets pregnant or a std. What am I supposed to do? How do I tell mom that her little girl is having a Sushi Junior?"

"Sushi?"

"Yeah, his name is something like that. It's not important. I don't understand, I could've set her up with someone very nice, like that guy Haechan, he's cute."

"He leans towards guys."

"Okay, uh, how about you?"

"I'm your boyfriend." Ten laughs before continuing, "Johnny, do you need a nap or some water or something?"

"Yeah, that sounds nice." Johnny puts his hands over his face as he sits down on the bed. Ten hands him a bottle of water and he takes in a good amount before lying flat.

"I'll wake you up a half hour before lunch?"

"Sounds good. Ten?"

"Yes?"

"I love you."

"Love you too, fatass."

After feeding Lucas a cake you bought the other day, you decide to analyze the situation.

"Okay, so Johnny will be having lunch with us at the place across the street."

"I'm aware."

"Apparently Ten will be there as well."

"What's he like? Have you met him before?"

"I have not, but I know he's like a famous dancer in Korea."

"So, he knows how to move?"

"Lucas, shut your bisexual ass up, you are not making a move on my brother's boyfriend when you are supposed to be my boyfriend. Heard?"

"Heard." Lucas says, defeated.

The place across the street was called "Eatery For All" and was run by this cute Chinese man named Kun. Lucas became good friends with him when he first opened the place. They're actually roommates now, well when Lucas isn't pretending to be some chick's boyfriend.

"Xuxi! It's been awhile! What's the occasion?" Kun asks in Chinese at the sight of the younger entering his restaurant. You hear Ten slap Johnny on the chest "It's 'Xuxi' not 'Sushi'"

"The usual, meeting the girlfriend's family." Lucas laughs.

"Girlfriend? OHH, yeah."

"Hey Kun, you look nice." You interrupt, bringing English back into the room.

"As do you, Lucas is a lucky little idiot." Kun jokes and Lucas gives him a death glare.

"Who is this?" Johnny asked, taking a seat at the booth closest to them.

"His name's Kun, he is Lucas' roommate." You say and Johnny gives you a puzzled look.

"I was his roommate, until you pulled him into your trap and he moved into your place." Kun covers for you and you make a note in your head to invite him out to eat next time you reward Lucas.

"Ah, the tragic case of girlfriend over bestfriend, been there." Ten laughs, sliding into place next to Johnny.

"How? I'm your only friend AND I'm your boyfriend."

"Fair enough."

Lucas ordered six things of pancakes and you felt the money in your wallet just fly away, metaphorically, of course. You all ate your food with casual chatter, you talked about how Ten got famous and how he met Johnny, weird, but interesting.

"So, what's the worst part with living in the same place as eachother?" Johnny asked and you and Lucas made eye contact for a few seconds before you thought of something.

"His underwear is everywhere, I don't know if he is secretly Gray or something, but he just strips and leaves them. Want to sit on the couch and watch a movie? Too bad, there are six pairs of underwear all over the sofa. Want to make breakfast for the two of you? Too bad, he managed to leave a pair in the fridge. I swear, he drives me insane." You weren't lying, this was true, but it also wasn't your story. You had asked Kun the same question when you first met him and this was his response. What can you say though? Recycling IS good for the Earth.

~

Hey, so I'm going to a concert in like five minutes (actually posting this while I'm at the venue) so I didn't have time to write a big and complex chapter. I can either try to write small-ish sized chapters everyday or I can give you a 1000+ word chapter every other day or so. Let me know which you would prefer. Or don't, live your lives bitches. Just remember -

Don't choke my little guttersluts - kat.

#nct #nct imagines #kpop imagines #wong yukhei #wong xuxi #xuxi #lucas #lucas nct #wong lucas #lucas fic #nct fic #johnny nct #johnny seo #lucas imagine #lucas imagines #kpop #kpop fic #kpop imagine #kpop fics #nct scenario #nct scenarios

[hannaday81]

My NCT Fanfic Recs

Mark + Donghyuck = Markhyuck

akajung

want me to spell it out for you? Oneshot

“We’re just friends,” Donghyuck says, because they really are. They’re just friends, nothing more, nothing less. “Mark and I, we’re just friends.” It’s usually not a lie. Usually. Or, alternatively: five times Donghyuck denies seeing Mark as something more than a friend, and one time he finally doesn’t.

anons

retracing steps Oneshot

It takes one accidental time-travel and one day of dating Donghyuck in another reality for Mark to realize a few things. [About Time AU]

berryboys

Crystal Scarlet Chaptered - Completed *NEW

Three years of Auror training for this, Mark bitterly realizes. Three years of sweat, of long nights without a single second of sleep, of putting his life on the line, of emotional and physical pain, culminating in Donghyuck. Because one can never escape from a Slytherin, not if they don’t want you to escape, and Donghyuck has always enjoyed wrapping his fingers around the little freedom of Mark’s life.

bloodplum

the inconceivable idea of you Chaptered - Ongoing

Mark knows that his soulmate is real. He’ll search the world for them, if he has to. But as far as Donghyuck’s concerned? Soulmates don’t exist. Or: AU in which some people seem to have soulmates and others don’t, but everyone deserves to have good things.

bluebot

rewrite the stars Chaptered – Complete *NEW

Donghyuck’s got a crush. He’s the perfect boy-- he’s cute, he’s polite, he cooks. Donghyuck’s friends even like him. The catch? He’s a robot.

celegant

sweet relief (pretty please)  Chaptered – Complete -NEW

It takes a year, an unhealthy obsession with Lord of the Rings, and a few unexpected video calls with Mark’s mother before Donghyuck realizes that he’s somehow managed to literally fuck his way into an actual relationship. (Or: ‘101 Ways to Fail at Being Friends with Benefits’ featuring Mark and Donghyuck.)

Crimsun

Hopeless hearts just passing through (I was made for loving you) Chaptered – Complete

Donghyuck's mother was the demon looming over his shoulder. She painted his life with harsh greys, desolate blues and destructive reds. So when she pushes him to a cage with Mark, he knows there's no escape but he also knows he wants to love the man he married. So he tries. He succeeds.(It was never hard anyway)

dhyuckie, kingtatae

skinny bitch Chaptered – Ongoing

Lee Donghyuck is fat.

euigeon

the choices we make Oneshot

Donghyuck waits on someone who'll never be his. He waits and waits and waits and hopes his wounds don't get worse over time.

fateline (orphan_account)

night by night (lullaby, rockabye) Chaptered – Complete

Mark’s crisis begins like this: Donghyuck slips into Mark’s bed and into his heart.

flowerboyeol

and you know how (i like dancing on thin ice) Oneshot

lee donghyuck absolutely rued the day he presented because the dumbasses claiming heats were just “bad, but bearable” were absolute fucking liars. okay, maybe he’s exaggerating a little bit, but he swears heats are actually worse than they sound. at least mark exists, donghyuck thinks. bless his pure soul and ability to look past donghyuck’s questionable (and probably very frustrating) attitude—unbridled irritation and mood swings and all.

galaxy_neozone

Ships Passing in the Night  Chaptered -NEW

One minute, Haechan is falling asleep in the dorm after a 127 schedule. The next he’s waking up as Lee Donghyuck, a high school student in a tiny, nowhere town that sounds oddly familiar. No one around here has ever heard of NCT, half the older members are living the frat boy stereotype in college, and it’s as if Mark and Johnny never existed at all. Something is seriously wrong with this picture, and time is running out to make it right. Haechan never realised just how much he relied on his brothers until they were all suddenly leading their own separate lives, without him. He needs to bring them all together in this strange new life, no matter what it takes, or risk losing them forever. Or, the one in which Haechan misses his family but they don't even know he exists. And he's really not okay with that.

hitmyheart

You, You, You Oneshot

Mark’s actions are always louder than his words. (Six times the members misunderstood Mark and Donghyuck’s relationship and the one time Mark finally makes his feelings clear)

hyuckieberry (95pjm)

Eyes On The Prize (Not On You) Oneshot

Where there's a grand prize at stake, a few hurdles to cross, and some home truths to uncover.

hyuckshot

A Whirlwind of Warm Hearts Oneshot

Donghyuck came to him fast like a sudden burst of whirlwind and the omega left just as fast.

The Omega is the Boss of Me Oneshot

There was nothing to worry about because Mark always had his eyes on Donghyuck. It’s a settled agreement that Donghyuck was his and he was Donghyuck’s.

hyuckios

lose it  Oneshot -NEW

Mark's eyes flutter open, and he scoots himself up further against the headboard. With a pull at his collar, he tugs his shirt off, making Donghyuck suck in a short breath. Oh, he's going to fucking lose it. "C'mere, already," Mark lifts his arm. "Yes, I want to cuddle. Why are you being weird?" Gnawing on his bottom lip harder than ever, Donghyuck kicks his shoes off, nearly stumbling back over to the bed as he stares at Mark's bare chest, lifting the covers slowly. Donghyuck doesn't think it's weird, no, not really... he's just never really cuddled with Mark.... alone. Sure, he's cuddled up to Mark playfully in front of their friends, in front of cameras, or even when he's sleepy, but never in a comfortable and dark room—never just the two of them.

ilovenct

creature of habit Oneshot

If Jeno was the angel on Mark’s shoulder, then Donghyuck was the devil, and Mark wanted to do something that felt wrong, even just once.

i look for myself within you Oneshot

Donghyuck cared about nothing, and Mark cared a little too much about everything.

ImJaebabie

Back To Square One  Oneshot *NEW

Donghyuck would really just like to be hugged sometimes.

iubi

between the lines Oneshot -NEW

Fuck him out of your system, they said, but Mark seems to be doing quite the opposite really, and he's not entirely sure if realizing he's in love with Donghyuck is helping in that direction.orMark is a novel writer and Donghyuck is his best friend who happens to be very eager to help with the more practical aspects of writing.

Light me up Oneshot -NEW

Haechan takes it upon himself to teach Mark how to kiss, but Mark ends up learning more than he signed up for.

kailogan

The Betting Pool Oneshot

Donghyuck wants to get revenge on Chenle for ruining his upcoming prank. During his search through Chenle's phone however, he discovers that the other members of NCT have a bet based on when he and Mark will start dating. Which is ridiculous because Donghyuck found Mark about as romantically attractive as a dead fish. Or, so he thought. Alternatively, Donghyuck always gets what he wants.

milksbars

left to right - (but you’d leave with me anyway) Oneshot

Mark’s eyes narrow instantly and Donghyuck can smell the immediate shift in his scent as he tugs Donghyuck closer, pulling him away from the other guy’s hand. “Don’t touch him,” he snaps, and his hand’s not on Donghyuck's ass like the younger had instructed, but it’s pressing possessively against the small of his back, which is such a Mark thing to do that Donghyuck can’t help but relax a little into the touch.

Mntsnflrs

Fire and Dreams  Oneshot  *NEW

“What are they?”“Things,” the boy says, cocking his head slightly to the side. “Dangerous things.”Mark swallows. His heart hasn’t slowed, like it knows more than his mind, his eyes. “And what are you?”The boy smiles. It’s a childish expression, young and unpracticed, but so pretty it hurts to look at, made for stronger eyes, a stronger being. “What am I?”Mark asks again. “What are you?”“A thing,” the boy says. “A dangerous thing.”

orangecaramel05

I Like Me Better When I'm With You *Chaptered - Complete

Haechan was unique. He was an omega, and by nature he should be submissive to alphas and betas, he should be soft, he should be kind, he should be altruist – but he was not. He was loud, he was obnoxious, he was playful, witty, short-tempered, and most important of all, he wasn’t naturally submissive. He liked himself that way and the alpha that would be his would have to deal with it. Hence why he thought he would find love at thirty. Comes Mark Lee.

pududoll (aprilclash)

beneath the moon and under the sun Chaptered - Complete

Donghyuck has a crush on his roommate. Who is a vampire. And most certainly doesn't like him back. (Maybe).

stealing the sun is not enough Chaptered - Complete

Mark Lee is a demigod with a knack for terrible decisions and a crush on Donghyuck from Apollo's cabin.

scintilla (adrarerien)

drink up the evil (and you'll spit out the truth) Chaptered - Complete

Maybe it started when Mark and Donghyuck were forced to pretend to the world that they were lovesick fools, or maybe even way before that. or; a markhyuck fake-dating-enemies-to-lovers!au

SlimeQueen

Out Of Your Mind Oneshot

Mark just wants to be a regular teenager. Or as regular as an eighteen-year-old sharing his body with a demon can get. And unfortunately for him, Donghyuck loves making things complicated.

smoothui

Appreciated Oneshot

Everyone has a bad day and takes it out on Donghyuck, who's more fragile than he seems. Donghyuck likes to pretend he's not affected but Mark can see through his front.

taeminki

Haechan is Mark's Muse Oneshot

In which Donghyuck deserves to be loved and Mark can hardly believe he's the only person who recognizes that.

Thatlongassridehome

Good thing (That whiplash) Oneshot

'You know what I mean, I like being alone.Except for when I play with you.' Mark and Donghyuk go on a mission, and of course something happens when Donghyuk’s playing in the face of danger.

unbalancedlove

one step closer (to reach you) Oneshot

there isn't a class in hogwarts that teaches you what to do when your crush drinks a potion and falls madly in love with you.

winko (donghyucks)

open up your soul and let it pour flooded Oneshot

Before he can react and ask what the hell just happened, Mark feels a mouth press against his own with fervor. Donghyuck keeps his own lips pressed against Mark’s for a good couple of seconds until he pulls back.  “Stop thinking so hard,” is what he says from above him.  And so Mark does.

--

Jeno + Jaemin = Nomin

akajung

don't leave me for a second, my dearest Chaptered - Ongoing

“Should I just blast him from here?” Jaemin asks Jeno, fingers carefully and quietly placing themselves on the small of Jeno’s back. It’s really super fucking ridiculous, the way he feels the warmth of his amplified power coursing through his veins just from having his hand on Jeno and feeling his breath on his skin as Jeno whispers in his ear, “No, you can’t do that.” (Jaemin's stronger around Jeno, quite literally, and maybe that's not always for the best.)

berryboys

Invisible, Unlikely, Impossible Chaptered - Complete

And what Jaemin fears, over all those things, is that Jeno assumes that Jaemin wants him this way – broken, caged, to his mercy.

fateline (orphan_account)

hands off (eyes on me) Oneshot

Jeno's with Jaemin when a drunk alpha hits on Jaemin at the club.

Kihyunie

We Can Be Braver *Chaptered - Complete

Jeno knows Na Jaemin, of course he does. Well, he knows of him anyway. There’s not a single person in this godforsaken high school who doesn’t. Jaemin is everywhere, up in everyone’s business. He hangs out with all the other cool kids and even the teachers greet him in the hallways. So yes, Jeno knows of him, too, he doesn’t live under a rock, and they've talked, once or twice. But he doesn’t know him and that's fine because they frequent different crowds. Jeno keeps to himself. Jaemin doesn’t. Jaemin keeps to everyone but to himself. Everyone knows that, too. (aka Jaemin is popular and Jeno didn't think he'd care until suddenly he does.)

_laugheisis

holy sinner *Chaptered – Complete (Spanish)

Jaemin no quería dejar de ser gay, y Jeno, su tutor cristiano, no planeaba caer ante sus encantos.

ZaiJam

Growing Wolf *Chaptered – Complete (Spanish)

Cuando los cachorros se convierten en adultos deben de tomar un lugar en la manada. Jaemin está seguro de que será el mejor alfa de todos y a Jeno no le podría importar menos lo que sucede con la manada.

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Lucas + Jungwoo = luwoo

idlesong

neither would suffice Chaptered – Complete

Yukhei may be the devil, but he’ll be damned if he lets heaven take another soul. Or, how Donghyuck’s arrival in limbo causes everything to collapse.

#nct 127 #nct dream #NCT Fanfic Rec #NCT Fanfic Recs #NCT Fanfiction Rec #markhyuck #jaeno #nomin #luwoo #markchan #haechan #NCT Recs #nct #nct 2018 #kpop

[dojae-huh]

Tyong

I’m posting the opinions I received on the topic of Tae’s changed behaviour. 

I’m asigning a new tag for this thread “Taeyong is the rose” for easier search. His fans call his scar under the eye a rose, he knows it, likes it and called himself a rose in one of his vlive (”Rose is going to sleep”). 

I'm copypasting Asks for easier reading. I will reply later collectively. 

nouratan

It's not only u, I've also noticed that taeyong is only clingy to doyoung and now due to doyoung haechan alot, Mark talking abt the love triangle... These three have the same amount of hate in kfandom, they get blamed for everything and everyones bias not getting opportunities so maybe they bond on that or they've become flatmates and have become closer to eachother than the other members. Yuta doesnt comeout of his flat that much, and johnny I have a feeling has loads of down moments than

The up ones he likes to share with the fans. Remember when haechan said hes very hyper as a roommate in America but now he talks abt johnny being quiet and talking deep things with him. I basically am trying to say that taeyongs back to the ppl he was always close to as a trainee. Doyoung, markhyuck and johnjae. Taeil is always the older brother and he keeps them at a distance when he needs his own time and the others arent really that close to taeyong.

Anon number 1

Hi! Here to share my thoughts on Tae. First, discliamer: I do not have a Tumblr account and now am confused about this ask (?)and it's  method of operations. Still I have tried my best in sending this in parts. Sorry if I had messed it up. I started stanning nct from boss,  so yes 2018. But before stanning them, I had watched videos from mid 2017. 

I agree with what you say about Tae shutting himself off, but I just wouldn't word it like that because he has not been successful. As you yourself said he tries to, yes. So I don't think I am gonna say anything that you have not seen yourself already. (Side note! I really enjoy your blog, especially your skills in observing and reading characters 

Till 2018 beginning - he was clingy, and from late 2018, regular era, he has been trying to cut it down because members have become comfortable enough to show their discomfort. I believe Tae has realized that not everyone is comfortable with Tae being himself (or Tae being weird, in your words). I have observed this a lot, they immediately have this expression, that screams  "here he goes again". Ex: Hyuck recently while interviewing Tae. All except Do. Do smiles. Adoringly too, if I may say so (but not always, lol).And I believe Taeyong's biggest fear is to fail his members. And his biggest wish/aim is to be someone they love and respect. So he modifies himself. 

I have observed this with myself. Whenever I felt people couldn't relate to my loud voice/ hyper energy, I vowed to myself that I'd never do it again. I'd succeed for three days. Real personality comes out. Recognise discomfort. Take a vow.  Repeat cycle. But now, I have found a balance? I know who relate to me and who does not. Tae is still in that stage.

He will soon as you put it, completely shut his weird self from others. But all this is about being clingy and making weird noises and stuff.Teasing, I believe is yet another issue. I don't think Tae has ever trusted others enough to these them a lot. My bias is Do. I got into nct because of him, his SM station with Sejeong. My first ship was dotae, still is my ult ship

What made me believe in their friendship is this: in 2017, and even now, Tae almost never initiates teasing of others except Do. Even in nct life Seoul and bangkok... He has always been careful to not offend them. But with Do he is himself, he teases, so much so that I worry it might hurt Do, and says the nicest words about him in interviews. That's what got me thinking that 'ah, so they are the ones close enough to tease without fretting' So yes, I think Tae has given the members and their opinion of him, a great importance, so unless he feels they are comfortable he is not gonna do it. And I don't think he thinks they are comfortable. Lol. This is such a long message, that adds almost nothing, but thank you for reading.

Anon number 2 (some parts were lost)

About Taeyong, while i'm not really an avid fan that following his steps all the way, i think he's been trying to shift people's attention to other people than himself. We all know how hard things for him with all the bad issues surrounding his past self keep popping every now and then and how that affect his confidence in leading his group. Put himself as the one to blame on the group 'failure' and pestering his member not to make the same mistake as he did. I think that experience..

(...)

I'll try to remember again. I was saying that Taeyong experienced bad pers with his past that keep coming back to him every now and then. That must be hard, and time needed for him to healed was less than enough. I'm guessing that he latched to Doyoung, share his deepest darkest thoughts, and Doyoung probably anchored him to reality. 

Doyoung is a good listener and he speaks wisely. I myself was at one poin in deep depression and having someone who listened and accepted me really helping. I guess that's when Taeyong's bond strengthened beyond others. When i spoke my worries once, i hesitated to relive that anymore. I limit my vulnerability acces to just one door. Maybe that happened to him too. He once said in his vlive that he'll now will only just move forward "What am i gonna do (with my past)? That's just me." I guess he started healing by accepting himself

Anon number 3

Honestly I see why you would think that, I’ve also noticed in some videos tae is very laid back and acts way more “mature” than before. But I don’t think that’s always the case, like I’ve noticed with mark and Johnny he acts weird sometimes but you’re right it used to be way more than now. I think tae has been feeling really pressured the past like year, he seems like he’s trying to be different because of the amount of hate he keeps on facing.

But artistically i would say he got SO much more passionate and even more hard working than before (which is impossible bc he already was such an ace) but I also noticed he’s not that clingy anymore but he still babies the members and takes care of them but he seems like the ultimate leader now. But on Twitter and other social media i saw fans talking about it as well, how tae seems different.

I really do think it’s the pressure of being the leader and one of the hyungs in nct and the fact that k nets and k fans watch his every step to see if they can use anything to hate against him. I think superm was really good for tae, baek is the leader and tae isn’t one of the oldest ones. Baek really babies tae and tae enjoys it, he really adores baek.

I’m adding videos with Baekyong: 1, 2

He gets really clingy around baek and he seems like the actual tae he always used to be. That’s why so many people ship baek and tae but I honestly just think it’s the fact that tae can let his leader rule down and be one of the “maknaes” and the fact that baek really does baby him. That’s exactly what tae needed after being the leader and the hyung in nct. But I hope tae can just ignore the media and be the exact same in nct

I mean have you seen the video going around everywhere of tae acting like the maknae and hae acting like a leader? Tae is just a very soft person and he really is a kid at heart but he’s an amazing leader but sometimes it’s hard to keep that role up the whole time and I think he got lots of backlash for being “too clingy” etc so now he’s just trying to be the leader tae. I really hate k nets sometimes.

Anon number 4

About Taeyong.. Isn't it normal tho? From the beginnig, I've always thought that the members and the dynamic in the group would change in a couple of years and it did. It started to be obvious recently. Old groups always say that the relationship between the members change when they are getting older so the fans shouldn't be surprised about it. This is what happens in 127 now i guess.

Anon number 5

Regarding Taeyong, I feel like he’s been troubled ever since September of last year. There was a vlive in September where he was in the studio with purple hair and the way he was interacting with fans and the things he said was a bit “off” compared to his usual vlives. I don’t know if it’s the worry of rumors spreading nonstop or if he has some unresolved personal issues but ever since then there’s been a drastic mood shift.

He went from constantly updating fans and playing around with members to radio silence. I think maybe he doesn’t want to worry people, so in his mind it’s better to shut himself off from everyone than to be a burden? He’s always been hard on himself and I think the title of “leader” makes him feel like he shouldn’t show his weakness to the other members aside from DY who tends to be quite logical which helps balance out tae’s emotional thinking.

I feel like the members kinda sensed that he’s been a bit off mentally as well. They’ve been making sure to shower him with compliments. Like, they kept on noting how handsome and cool he was in the two episodes of the Late Night Punch Show. Or like how Haechan cooked him a meal recently or how DY’s been cooking for him. I just think whatever is going on, it’s just him trying to make sense of the situation that he’s going through and it just results in him appearing more distant than usual

Taeyong is an interesting subject. His mood shifts interests me greatly. When he’s, what the members like to call, “high tension” he’s all over the place, super loud, super interactive but when that mood passes its like he’s a whole different person. Sluggish, sort of bleak, and generally monotone. Obviously humans go through these highs and lows in mood as well, but the way tae expresses it always makes me raise an eyebrow.

I think his mood could play a big part why we, as fans, feel like he’s shut himself off from the others. In recent group broadcasts he’s just been in a lower mood compared to in the past so it looks like he’s shut off more than usual. but from what I can tell he’s still super interactive with the members in the dorms and other moments when he’s in a good mood. Idk if that answered your question….

This a bit off topic, but he recently said that we (fans) don’t know him that well yet in his vlive after the SuperM concert. That made me think that maybe the super clingy tae of the past was just sort of an image he built up during that time because he wanted to be loved by the public and needed the comfort of other members. Now that he has more of a footing and gained some emotional maturity, he’s just letting his real self shine a bit more (I don’t mean this in a bad way)

There’s a reason why he gets along so well with Doyoung’s sarcastic and blunt nature and also why Doyoung doesn’t view him as a “hyung whom I have to take care of” like Yuta for example. Taeyong isn’t as innocent and “baby” as fans make him out to be. He’s a lot manlier than one thinks and I think he’s just grown from the insecure taeyong of the past hence why he doesn’t feel the need to be as clingy anymore? 

#Taeyong is the rose #Taeyong is the boss

[warmau]

the sci-fi au is by far one of the best ones you've ever write!!! pleas please please tell me you're gonna write it for the other members

thank you!! i really liked writing them!! here’s johnny, sicheng, haechan, and yuta’s version!! find the others (here)

Johnny

a civil servant who works in the IT department 

most of his job consists of performing backup checks on the huge system that interlocks every department in the building

and you know,,,goofing around with intern renjun

but even though he looks laidback, almost kind of like he takes nothing seriously

he’s really, really good with technology

i mean, there’s a reason the government trusts him with such a big job

but also,,,,could he come to work not wearing sweatpants

like c’mon jonathan 

and - although his job is to work on problems within the systems of the government,,,it is the future,,,and people are walking around with prosthetic’s and chips imbedded into their brains

so,,,sometimes johnny’s a doctor,,,a technology doctor in some sort of sense

you work in the communications department, you’ve been deciphering alien languages and legal scripture for as long as you can remember - and although your department is a lot of hands on work

johnny has been around to help upgrade AI systems and all that

and ,,, you’ve always been shy around him

he’s just so ,,,,, bold and cheerful

he smiles with ease at everyone - even highranking officials

and that smile,,,it makes your heart do a little twirl - it’s just so bright,,,,

you don’t think johnny notices your coy nature

but of course he does,,,and he thinks it’s just downright adorable

he’s always nudging doyoung in the elevator in the morning like “i think they like me,,,you know,,,the cute one in communications”

doyoung always gives him the same look but johnny’s heads in the cloud

(but like - he is right,,,you do have a crush)

you also have a prosthetic, an artificial ear piece from an accident a while back

and one day, you feel it malfunctioning - zapping you slightly when you try to fix it

your ‘ouch!’ resounds through the office and your co-worker leans over in their chair only to wave their hand

“ill call johnny. he can help.”

you want to tell them it’s fine, you’ll be ok - but it’s too late

a couple of minutes later, johnny comes through the glass doors - holding a kit in his arms before calling out, “who needs the doctor~”

the staff giggle, but point to you

and once johnny’s eyes settle on yours - there it is,,,that smile

he walks over, tall and lean and you feel a bit small in your chair when he literally gets down on one knee to meet your height and without warning let his hand settle on your cheek

he tilts your face, so he can see the prosthetic and clicks his tongue

“no problem, i can fix it.”

he grins, opening his kit and taking out a couple of tools

you sit frozen - like you’re covered in ice as he works

your entire office is there,,,,,,glancing every now and then at you and johnny but otherwise not paying much attention

still,,,it makes your chest tighten - he’s so close

“ah - here we go.” he whispers, and you feel it right against your skin 

he tightens something on the prosthetic, and you almost jump when his other hand comes up to brush your hair from the ear he’s working on

and you almost double over when he goes

“it’s so soft, your shampoo must be expensive.”

it’s so,,,,corny,,,,almost dad-joke like to say something like that,,,but you can’t like it makes your heart do that twirl again

and after a while, with your face burning hot the whole time, johnny finishes and pulls back to smile at you

“there we go - it should be good. if it bothers you again, come see me in the IT room.���

he hands you a holograph tablet, you assume it’s one of the IT room keys

he leaves, with a little wave to you - and a smile to the rest of the office

but later when you activate they key, the blue screen reflects a string of numbers as well as johnny’s face

it’s ,,,,,a call card?!?!?!

his face starts moving, with a little wink “contact me sometime - maybe we can have lunch?”

the message ends and the holograph disappears

but your co-worker’s already grinning on the other side of your desk

“you two finally gonna go on a date?!”

Sicheng

an empath,,,whose exceptionally bad at being subtle about it

“doyoung, you’re very angry right now aren’t you.”

“w-what, no im not.”

“you just thought ‘why the, excuse my language, hell is taeyong so much better looking than everyone else”

“,,,,,sicheng could you please,,,”

“not say that you think taeyong is the most handsome person outloud? and that you’re jealous of it? sure ok.”

the point is,,,,,he can feel what you’re feeling and he’ll spill the beans if anyone so much as so looks like they’re curious to know

it’s gotten him in trouble somtimes

but sicheng just plays oblivious,,,,and his cute face gets him off the hook most of the time.

you’re actually a pretty transparent person - you,,,,tend to share your feelings openly

some people say you just lack shame, while others say that being an open-book is good!! you’re not afriad to be yourself

either way, when you meet sicheng,,,,,,you’re nothing but starstruck

and it’d only be more obvious if pink hearts started glowing in your eyes because you look at him and-

“wow, you’re the most handsome boy ive ever seen!”

you blurt out, making sicheng turn around and point at himself

his friends doyoung and yuta look between each other and then back at you

“th-thank you?”

sicheng stutters and you put a hand over your mouth, embarrassed

“sorry! that was sudden, but im telling the truth! you’re feature are,,,,wow!”

sicheng’s empathy starts working, he can feel the emotions surrounding you - the fascination, the interest you have in him

but somethings,,,off

you’re feelings are really strong - they nearly make sicheng dizzy

even when you say goodbye, apologizing for being so sudden - he can still feel you

yuta claps sicheng on the back, “see - i was right. our sicheng is just more and handsome with every passing day~”

doyoung rolls his eyes, and both boys go on chatting about whatever but sicheng,,,, still feels it - those strong emotions of yours

you run into each other again, sicheng is at the store to stock up on snacks while you’re trying to find a special flavor of ramen your roommate had asked for

when you nearly bump into him and his leaning tower of food

“oh! sorry!” you apologize, and your voice grips sicheng again

he peeks his head out and you recognize him immediately

“ah - you’re the prince looking like boy!”

he blushes, eyes cast down as you shake your head “ah s–sorry, sorry!! i don’t have a filter,,,,so i sometimes just say things.”

sicheng wants to answer you, but his empathy is off the charts. your feelings are pure and truthful and sicheng has never been around someone that doesn’t have anything to hide before

the dizzyness comes back, and the snacks fall from his hands

as sicheng teeters a bit and you reach out, concerned to grab him

“are you ok??”

he leans forward, his head nearly resting in the crook of your neck

your touch calms the feelings, almost as if his power has been dulled,,,,

there’s no dizziness and sicheng - for once - feels only his emotions

and the softness of your hands on him

he could stay like this forever, but when you let go of him the blushing, scorching feeling of your embarrassment tighens around him

“i,,,,i um,,,” you’re not sure what to do - when such a pretty person has hearly hugged you before you’ve even been properly introduced

so you start picking up his snacks, as sicheng loses focus again

“hey,,,come back.” he mutters, reaching to pull you back toward him - the physical connection between you two is welcoming again 

and you freeze when he whispers “can i stay like this, next to you for a bit?”

you don’t know what’s going on , or why - but you nod slowly and let sicheng cling to you

his empath abilities waver, comfortably between silenence and just a bit of your beating, anxious heart

“i can feel it,,” he mumbles slow “that you like me?”

you jump a bit, but laugh “ah,,,im always pretty obvious about these things,,,”

sicheng grins to himself, “everyone’s quite obvious when it comes to me.”

Yuta

a diplomat from a different galaxy, where the species still look like people,,,but they’re also endowed with the ability to bend elements

yuta’s element specialty is fire 

he makes this known, at any place and,,,anytime 

has turned bread into toast to make humans go wow~, lights candles with his fingertips, and sometimes even let’s smoke come out of his ears to make kids laugh

he’s always been amused by how,,,uninteresting humans are

“you have no special powers? you can’t even freeze water with your mind? move mountains with your eyes? how have you survived!”

but,,,most people overlook this quality because yuta is expecionally handsome and sociable

the only person who does,,,,not take this lightly is you

who also happens to be yuta’s guide on his stay on earth

and believe me - yuta knows all the way to push your buttons

“guide, why are humans so weak? i could pick you up with one hand if i tried! i could pick up those things you have here,,,,horses? with one hand if i tried!”

you, grumbling: “because humans have no need to pick up horses.”

yuta bending over to look at some flowers outside of a garden

“can humans make this bloom or do you have to wait all year? guide, hellooooo answer me~”

you, with your head in your hands: “why did i sign up for this job”

but as much as yuta annoys you, you’re oblivious to the reason why he does all this

you think it’s to be a bother, for him to get some laughs out of it, but the reality is,,,

he just likes you - and he’s not sure how courting works on earth

i mean, annoying people isn’t courting on his home planet either - but it’s not like he can bend fire into the words ‘ will you go out with me?’ and then shoot them into the sky like fireworks

he’s pretty sure that’s illegal here

there’s an important gala coming up, and yuta has been practicing the traditonal dances of your country

there’s a teacher for him,,,but on the day before they fall ill and it ends up with yuta pestering you into being his partner

when you first let his hands come around your waist, you realize yuta’s body temperature is hot

much hotter than yours

“no wonder you walk around in t-shirts when it’s cold,,,” you mumble and yuta pulls away, deep eyes looking into yours

“sometimes i get so hot i need to walk around nake-”

you put a hand over his mouth and nod “let’s just dance.”

yuta is much better at dancing than you, is the second thing you note. he’s very focused and his body has a natural sense of rythm

for a moment, all those times he asked you nonsense questions and twirled around you in a cloud of prickling comments about humans,,,washes away

because his hot hands are distracting, and so is his face - like carved from marble, perfect and strong

“you can stare all you want~” 

he suddenly cooed and you break back into a sour expression

yuta laughs at the change, bringing himself close to your and nuzzling his face in your hair

“nakamoto!” you squeak, addressing him formally and wiggling in his arms

he let’s you go, but the grin is still on his face as you huff at him, red and surprised

“sorry, you were too cute.”

“i thought you didn’t think much of humans?”

you straighten yourself out and he shrugs

“but i think much of you, ive been trying to drop hints about it for a long time.”

you stare at him, unbelieving and turn on your heel to walk away

but,,,,why is your heart racing a mile a minute and the imprint of his hot hands still tingling on your skin?!?!

Haechan

a intergalactic bounty hunter!

who has a cool robotic dog partner!! too bad real dogs can’t space travel ):

even though he’s pretty young to be in the bounty hunting game - he’s pretty much perfect for it

unlike a lot of the other guys, he’s agile and fast. he blends in well into crowds and seems the least suspicous

just a boy and his dog you know??? it’s no threat

but the extraterrestial police is always shocked to see him pull up, in an old starship that must have belonged to his father, with a criminal in energy cuffs and a grin on his face

“money first!~” he sings, holding his hands out every time

looks adorable in his hand-made flight goggles and with starship oil on his cheek

you actually have a bounty on your head for theft. nothing to big, just a couple of safes broken into and galaxy royals stolen from LOL

and haechan is very interested in the sum over your head, he shows yours poster to his robotic dog, named cherry (cherry bomb is the full name in case you were wondering)

“we’re gonna get them right? and then we’re gonna use the money for dinner~”

the dogs a robot, so haechan adds in that he’ll get oil snacks for him too

and thanks to some under-the-table info, haechan finds out that you’re actually due to break into the home of an esteemed diplomat on the planet he’s visiting

so, he parks outside of the home and waits to see you creeping out of the house, climbing over the gate and falling to your feet as siftly as  a cat

but suddenly,,,,you feel something like weights on your legs so you can’t move

and you look down to see energy locks on them, turning to see haechan pointing a blaster at you with a smile

“come with me~ big fish~” he laughs and you narrow your eyese

“bounty hunter i assume?”

“you got it.”

“aren’t you too,,,”

haechan puts up a hand “you’re too young to be a theif too so don’t even.”

without a choice, you follow him back to the starship - with the energy cuffs on your hands instead

but as you get into the ship you’re like “hey,,,,why don’t we split what ive stolen - it’s probably bigger than my bounty.”

haechan clicks his tongue, “ill just take everything you’ve stolen AND turn you in. double for me.”

cherry lets out a bark and you throw it a glare

“fine, you’re not stupid. how about this - you let me go, i give you half this time and then half from the next house im going to hit.”

haechan turns from the ship controls and lifts an eyebrow

“and what house is that?”

when you say the name, haechan’s eyes widen

“that’d be,,,,,quite the amount of money -”

you smile, “exactly” lifting your chained hands

“uncuff?” 

he gives you a look, you’re pretty cute now that he sees you in the light of his ship, not like he’d admit that though

he hums, thinking about it “ok- but-”

he rummages around and clips something else to your ankle, a tracker. it makes you roll your eyes, but you give him credit - at least he knows not to believe you

with that he breaks the energy cuffs and as you massage your wrist, you pull the bag of stolen goods from his seat

you two go through them, bickering over who gets what - but by the end you both have your share and you get ready to leave

when you turn back to haechan

“thanks for letting me go, bounty hunter.” you lean in - kissing his forehead gently before jumping out of the ships opening

you disappear into the night, as haechan sits there dazed and cherry looks up at him 

he touches his forehead and makes a face, but after cherry’s bark he scoffs

“no,,,,it’s NOT like i LIKED that,,,,don’t be SILLY,,,,,,” coughs

#nct scenarios #nct imagines #nct 127 scenarios #nct 127 imagines #johnny scenarios #youngho scenarios #winwin scenarios #sicheng scenarios #yuta scenarios #haechan scenarios #johnny imagines #winwin imagines #yuta imagines #haechan imagines #sicheng imagines #youngho imagines #sfw #nct #nct au #johnny au #winwin au #haechan au #yuta au

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[TRANS] The 3 things that make NCT 127 special & commentary on the 9 members unique personalities — Interview

What makes NCT 127 so special?

Reason 1: The members are from all over the world

Taeyong: The first reason is that the members are from all over the world. Because we’re of different nationalities, we can learn about and deepen our understandings of each country’s culture and language in a natural way.

Yuta: Also, during recordings, for example, for our new Japanese version of “Limitless”, I checked the other members’ pronunciations. People from Korea tend to struggle with certain sounds, such as pronouncing the “tsu” sound as “chu”, and we can correct and teach each other things like that. Similarly, when we need help with Chinese, Winwin will teach us, and when we need help with English, Johnny and Mark will teach us. The fact that we can fill our gaps in these ways is great.

Reason 2: They have fun practicing for their performances

Taeil: I think the second reason is our stage performance. We always spend lots of time practicing. We plan everything out together, so when we perform it on the stage, it’s really something special. But honestly, there are times when I think practice is too much work (laugh).

Taeyong: Of course, practice is a lot of work, but we always have fun doing it and I think that shows through when we’re on stage. The harder we work, the better the performance will be.

Mark: Our performance is different for each song. We’re always thinking about how we can express each song in a fitting way. There are a variety of moods for our performances because we change our movements and expressions depending on the song, and I think that’s enjoyable to watch.

Reason 3: All 9 members have their own unique charm

Taeil: I think the third reason is that each of the members are special (laugh). We each have our own unique charms. So, combining the 9 of us, we make one “special” group!

Yuta: Because our nationalities and cultures are different and the environments we grew up in are diverse, it’s not very easy for all 9 of us to understand each other. However, when we do understand each other, a new bond forms between us, and that’s another reason why we’re so special.

What are the members like? 

<Jaehyun>

Haechan: As you can see, Jaehyun-hyung’s skin is very white and pure, but his heart is just as white and pure as his skin. Jaehyun-hyung and I are roommates, and he cares for me by doing little things like leaving the lights on for me when I’m still awake and doing something even though he wants to sleep. Jaehyun: (laugh). But there are also many times when Haechan cares for me as well.

<Mark>

Jaehyun: Mark is someone who is constantly and endlessly growing and improving. I can’t wait to see how much he will mature. Mark has changed in so many ways since our first meeting, but the thing that improved the most… is his cuteness (laugh).

<Yuta>

Mark: This is something I’ve been thinking for a long time, but Yuta-hyung is someone that NCT 127 can’t be without. He has an open personality, is fun and handsome, and has a warm heart. He’s like that to everyone, so everyone’s very close to him. He’s especially caring to all of us during promotions in Japan, and he helps us a lot. Also, when he has something he wants to learn, he’ll work extremely heard to learn it. Yuta: (To Mark) I’ll treat you to something delicious (laugh).

<Doyoung>

Yuta: You can tell right when you hear our songs, but he has such a beautiful voice. Also, although the leader of our group is Taeyong, Doyoung supports us by being the mother figure and completes the job of the leader. Taeyong is our dad, Doyoung is our mom, and we’re the children. We’re constantly being nagged by those two so we need to be careful (laugh).

<Taeyong>

Doyoung: Taeyong-hyung has a strong sense of responsibility as the leader, and I’m thankful for his efforts to lead on the members. Also, I think that I can learn from his performance on stage, so I check him on the monitor a lot.

<Johnny>

Taeyong: As you can see, Johnny has the figure of a model. Also, just like Doyoung, he cares for me a lot and is considerate. Whenever I’m feeling stressed or closing myself off from others, he helps me open up again. He plays many important roles in our team, and he’s a true friend.

<Taeil>

Johnny: He really has a beautiful voice, so when I see him singing on the stage, I feel very proud of him. And I think everyone thinks this way, but whenever I’m together with Taeil-hyung, I have a lot of fun and I feel happy. Like that, he shows his “friend” side, but also sometimes he shows his “hyung” side as the oldest member of our team. He’s truly a wonderful person.

<Winwin>

Taeil: Firstly, isn’t he very handsome? Also, he has a very innocent personality. It’s fun being with him. There’s something about him that makes you want to tease and play with him, and even though we annoy him like this, Winwin always accepts it (laugh). With Winwin in our group, the atmosphere of our team is made friendlier and brighter.

<Haechan>

Winwin: Haechan is an amazing person. He thinks about many things very deeply, so even though he is the youngest in our team, he’s sometimes like an older brother. Also, when he wants to do something, he doesn’t spare any effort to reach it. For example, if he wants to get better at both dancing and singing, will work very hard and get better at them.

What are your thoughts on your Japan debut?

-It’s your long-awaited Japan debut!

Yuta: The fact that rookies like us were able to debut so early in Japan is all thanks to the many people that helped us, and most importantly, our supportive fans. Along with our debut, we’ll be having our first showcase tour (in Tokyo, Nagoya, Osaka, Fukuoka) as well, so we want to return the favor as much as we can. We want to have lots of fun with everyone.

Taeyong: We’ve already participated in several events and stood on big stages in Japan, and those experiences left a good impression on me, so I’ve always been thinking “I want to go to Japan!”. When we debut in Japan, we’ll get more and more opportunities to meet our fans in Japan, and we’ll get to connect with each other more through the stage, so it means a lot to me. I’m excited and a little nervous but I want to send our bright and positive energy to everyone.

-Yuta, you’re debuting in your home country – do you have any other thoughts to add on?

I think NCT 127 was able to stand out from other Korean groups at events in Japan because I’m in it.Struggling with pronunciation for the first time recording in Japanese Along with the announcement of their debut in Japan, the music video for the Japanese version of “Limitless” was released. This was filmed separately from the Korean version, and it was their first time recording in Japanese – according to the members, they struggled with the pronunciations.

Taeyong: Pronouncing the “tsu” sound was difficult. Sometimes, even if our singing was great, we had to do another take because of just one mispronunciation of that “tsu” sound.

Jaehyun: Each of us practiced very hard for the pronunciations, Yuta-hyung tested us, and then we recorded after that. Yuta-hyung gave us lots of advice.

Taeyong: This is one of the perks of being a global group (laugh).

-Yuta, who was your best student?

Yuta: Everyone worked hard, but Jaehyun and Taeyong? (laugh) I got exhausted because all the members attacked me with questions (laugh), but we got to present a very good Japanese version of “Limitless” so I’m satisfied.

-You guys filmed a new music video for the Japanese version as well – what are the best parts of it?

Taeil: I think it turned out to be a cool music video full of fantastic scenes with lots of parts to look out for. We filmed it with the concept of us running away from something, so that’s something I want everyone to pay attention to closely.

Winwin: At the end, there’s a part where I jump, and I think that was shot very well. But we had to do many takes for that scene, which was a lot of work (laugh).

Taeil: Like that, there is a scene for each of the members’ charms. We were watching the music video ourselves and thought that it was great, especially how it shows our individual colors. I think all our fans will be able to feel our various charms by watching it a few times. It turned out to be a truly great music video.

Holding events in Tokyo, Nagoya, Osaka and Fukuoka in one day

On November 4th, they held their first solo event in Japan “NCT 127 The Introduction “connect”. They first held their performance and debut announcement in Tokyo with all members, then separated into three groups to interact with fans in Nagoya (Taeil, Yuta, Haechan), Osaka (Johnny, Jaehyun, Mark), and Fukuoka (Taeyong, Doyoung, Winwin).

-What is your impression of the event?

Jaehyun: I’m happy we got an opportunity to meet all our fans so closely. All of our members thought this way, but I’m very thankful for everyone who welcomed us warmly and cheered for us. I want to continue to meet everyone like this all the time.

-Were there any fans that left a strong impression in Osaka?

Mark: I think this is embarrassing for Jaehyun-hyung to say himself, so I’ll say it for him (laugh). There was a segment where fans can directly ask one member a question, and when a fan held the mic and started to ask a question for Jaehyun, she broke down into tears. I was waiting and wondering what kind of question she would ask, and it turned out to be about how she loves Jaehyun-hyung so much to the point that she can’t get a boyfriend (laugh). That moment was pure and fresh and left a big impression for me.

-How about for the Fukuoka group?

Taeyong: It was actually the first time for us NCT 127 to go to Fukuoka.

Doyoung: This time, it was only the three of us, so we promised that we would come back next time with all of the members. It’s exciting even from now to think that we’ll get to meet all our fans in Fukuoka again next year, and I think our fans are waiting expectantly as well. I want to go meet everyone soon.

Taeyong: Our fans in Japan are all so lovely, and this makes us want to care for and do many things for them. I want to meet everyone on the stage again soon.

-For the Nagoya group?

Haechan: I went to Nagoya for the first time in my life, went on my first Shinkansen ride, and also ate the bento Yuta-hyung recommended me because I heard that eating bento on the Shinkansen is a popular thing to do. We got to meet all of our fans in Nagoya and did a fun event, so I got to make good memories.

Taeil: I also rode a Shinkansen for the same time, and that itself was fun. When I looked at the scenery outside the window, I saw the sea and it was very pretty. I’m very thankful for all our passionate fans in Nagoya. They welcomed us warmly and told us the answers for the games that we did (laugh). Thanks to our fans, all three of us got every question correct.

-What was the bento that Yuta recommended to Haechan?

Yuta: I recommended him a chicken bento, but Haechan said he didn’t want to eat it. Eventually, he ended up eating a scallop bento (laugh).

Haechan: Yuta-hyung was eating a wagyu bento, which he gave me a bite of, and that was delicious as well (laugh).

The key to making a dream come true

NCT 127 has made their dream of debuting as idols come true, and their debut in Japan has been confirmed as well. Here is some advice from the members to the readers about the secret to making your dreams come true.

Johnny: To make your dreams come true, I think you need to be stubborn. Even if someone tells you that you can’t do something or that what you’re aiming for is impossible, the chances of it actually coming true will be higher if you believe in yourself. If you have confidence and continue working hard, that dream will come true someday.

Mark: There is a quote from a film that I watched recently that touched me very deeply: what you’re going to do in the future – for example, tomorrow or the day after tomorrow – is something that has never been done by anyone yet. Because no one has done it before, no one knows whether it is the right or wrong thing to do. So, if there’s something that you want to accomplish, what’s important is that you believe in yourself that you can do it. What you need is a heart that will believe what you can’t see. The secret to making your dreams come true is to keep telling yourself that you can definitely do it.

Yuta: What I think is the most important is the courage to step out and start something. I used to be unsure about auditioning for S.M. Entertainment, but because I took the audition, the me now exists, and I am able to work as a part of NCT 127. Surely, taking that first step takes a lot of courage and is very difficult, but there’s always something that you can gain from it. Even if you fail, there are many things that you can learn from that failure and use that to push yourself in the future, so what’s important is to get started.

Translation: Miu @ FY! NCT (NCTINFO) | Source: modelpressjapan

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[dojae-huh]

Have you analyse When doyoung read messages from other member in nimdle there's a message that said "do you love me? I love you...i miss you" it's from haechan actually doy have to guess who's the messages from and jaehyun immediately cross his hands and said ding he's being defensive and doy reaction is look at jae first. jae really quite and awkward that time

I did mention it a couple of times in passing in the past, but my reading of the moment was wrong. I didn’t know about the real month the programme was shot (time stamp is always important) and I was affected by another person’s opinion (i.e. primed). 

Hence. Let’s re-watch. The Nimdle programme was shot in November 2016, but released in January 2017 as part of Limitless comeback promotion. The Rolling paper segment.

1) Do->JN: “Always thank you Bro!? I love you”

Jae: There is no soul (in the message), so it should be from Doyoung-ie-hyung.

Do: Correct!

Jae to JN: He said he loves you. 

- Johnny didn’t pay attention to Jae and continued to read messages from the members, i.e. it wasn’t an inside joke like “do you see this hypocricy? he never says to you/us such sweet words, only on TV”. It was said out of jealousy.

- Taeyong also included “I love you” in his message, it wasn’t pointed out by Jae.   

2) Yuta->Do: “Please, attack Taeyong more!!”

Mark: Haechan?

Jae: No, Yutaa!

- I’d like to know what that was about. Yuta simply enjoying the show or asking Doyoung to scold the leader too? Jae was correct though. 

3) Hyuk->Do: “Do you love me? I love you.* I’ve missed you~ ^-^**”

* - is written in very polite style. ** - in less polite, still formal style. 

Yuta, after the words “I love you”: Jaehyun-ie

Jae: Wrong!

Mark: Haechan

Do: Haechan?

- Actually, Jae responded calmly, the members do say if a guess is wrong or not. Still, he didn’t pretend it his message either as some do to confuse for the laughs. And, as usual when it’s about Doyoung, he showed enthusiasm in his reaction, crossing his arms.

- Doyoung did glance at Jae as a source of movement in his periferal vision, but he didn’t pay real attention to him, distracted and surprised that it’s Haechan and immidiently focusing on the maknae. Combination of Jaehyun + “I love you” didn’t ring a bell or alarmed him. 

- Yuta was Jae’s roommate back then, if I’m not mistaken, they had the “oppa is here” phase, they played back then a lot together. No other member paid any attention to Jae or Yuta’s guess though. Yuta tried to guess as many members as possible, so it’s hard to say how serious he was about Jae here. Was it “I know he has a crush” or “it’s Jae, everybody knows he favours Doyoung”. 

4) Tae->Do: “Broaden your mind~ Doyoung, who’s full of beautiful thoughts, I love you.”

The moment Jae hears “I love you” his expression changes.

We need the leader alive, don’t kill him, please. 

5) Do->Jae: Jaehyun-ah, I respect you, let’s eat together.*

Jae: DY!

* Written informally. From hyung’s position, Do tried to make it look like the message is from Johnny.

- Jae did glance in JN’s direction, but in the end reilised it’s Doyoung. Also let’s note there was a time Doyoung was known as DY (he is called Dons often, but not DY).

6) Do->WW: 

Yuta to Jae: It’s Dons, it’s Dons.

Jae: Donss.

7) Do->Mark: “Our Mark-hyung-ie, I really love you. Lav U!”

Jae: He wrote “I love you”, it’s soulless (therefore it’s Doyoung). 

Mark: DY!

- No day without teasing the hyung.

8) Do->Hyuk:

Jae: Doyoung-ie-hyung.

It looks like the members read all the messages from the board. Jae didn’t write anything to Do. 

OK. So we have Jaehyun, who can’t help but be a little bit territorial (it’s my crush! only I say “I love you”!) and who loves to tease Doyoung at any given opportunity (the pulling of pig-tails, please notice me sempai).

Jae calls Doyoung as “Doyoung-ie-hyung” and “DY”, he will switch to “Doyoung-hyung” in January. 

Doyoung did laugh together with Jae at some of his jokes, but overall wasn’t very attentive to him or jumpy/reactive. It’s hyung-donsaeng period afterall. 

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