#having another moment don’t mind me

[axolozzy]

it’s at that point in the hyperfixation where just thinking about the characters fill me with so much emotion like JFHSHAGSSH I LOVE THEM SM. I LOVE NPMD SO MUCHHH LIKE HOLY SHIT!!!! feeling extra autistic today i guess because wow. they are all so silly i love all the characters but richie is my favorite rn. like omg his story is so fucking tragic and AHHH i love him sm. i need to draw npmd art this insane but i’m busyyy. but i’m sooo hyper rn i am going insane

#having another moment don’t mind me #literally can’t wait to get home and finish black friday in #THREE HOURS #i can’t wait that long bro #idk what i’m talking about anymore i’m so hyper and everyone irl is boring as shit #bluejay says stuff

[denkryn]

“You have kids?”

#killing eve #killingeveedit #ke #keedit #villanelle #jodie comer #mine #gifset #tvedit #tvgifs #just watched prima facie #having another jodie moment don’t mind me

[francesderwent]

you know, for years I’ve either been primarily occupied with some past knot that I was trying to mentally unravel into what-might-have-beens and closure or with some imaginary future that I was painting in my head based on illusory signs. but lately I’ve been pretty securely ensconced in the present moment. occasionally I indulge in gazing back to look for the invisible string or peering around the corner to wonder what might be coming next, but mostly I’m just thinking about the now, and how happy I am in it. what’s on my mind is going for little walks, and washing the dishes while someone else dries.

#in which cate tells stories #and the thing is I didn’t know I COULD stay in the present moment!! I didn’t know I was capable! #I was horribly worried that something was broken in my mind!!! #when I said I will not give into my delusional daydreams that was me clinging by my fingernails because I didn’t know how to NOT #but it ended up being so easy???? #I don’t know why and I don’t know how!!! #because it was something I struggled with for ages and ages but maybe what had to change wasn’t me but my circumstances #which. thanks I hate it. if you told that to past me she would punch you out. #but healing and happiness wasn’t something I could create for myself or practice. it was something I had to be given #which is so monstrously unfair for the years I was unhappy and unhealed!!! #feels like there LITERALLY wasn’t enough happiness in my life for me to hold on to I HAD to escape in one way or another #and now that my life has changed I don’t have to flee from reality like that #I don’t HAVE to be a I Wish You Would Elvis Song girlie anymore #the past is past! there it was there it goes! #now all I can do is be GRATEFUL #for something I didn’t anticipate didn’t create didn’t mastermind control #I have no practice at this!!! #but I’m not somehow unprepared for it #i will still not be elaborating at this time #ANYWAY ignore me

[sebnameyourcar]

hmmm. felt a bittersweet feeling.

#was just sitting here thinking WOW it’s so amazing seeing oscar race these past few weekends he’s so talented and naturally gifted #and i’m so excited to watch his career #and i like his personality #hey! i think i could root for this guy!! #and do you know. do you genuinely fucking know the last time i felt an emotion like this in f1? #why it was 2011 and i was watching sebastian vettel #it’s not the SAME feeling mind you #(seb already had a title and i was a lot younger so it was more outright awe. and no one could ever ever EVER compare to seb to me) #but… as much as i like esteban and alex…. i think ive found my post-sebtirement driver #yknow how you go back on youtube sometimes and watch old seb races #like monza 08? #and people have commented ‘this was when i first started supporting him. this is when i knew he was special’ #it feels like sooo many people are having this moment with oscar these past couple weeks (including me!!) #anyway. anyway. seb 5ever hes my main man my childhood f1 hero no one ever compares so don’t ever think i will ever have another fav driver #but…. man am i excited to support oscar #but it makes me sad at the passage of time. can i be 9 years old again please

[whumpy-wyrms]

AAAHHHH I LOVE MY OCS SO MUCH!!!!

#THINKING ABOUT MY OCS MAKES SO HAPPY #AHAHAHA !!! #MY MIND #DEW AND ANTON!!! #AND ANOTHER BLORBO THAT WONT BE INTODUCED UNTIL LIKE CHAPTER 15 !!!!!! THEMM #AHHHHHHHH #don’t mind me #just having an autism moment #just being silly #wyrms says stuff #ocs

[oldmanlusting]

Something To Know About Me I am a very monogamous person in mind to the point I can't think about fictional or real crushes too close to each other without feeling Wrong

#Not in 'shameful judgement sense' but in a 'I want to devote my mind SOLELY to you in the same way I would have if we were a real couple!!' #Ok maybe not even that way because I Understand that the ability of attraction exists forever And Also polygamy #But I want to pretend I'd never be able to find another person who appeals to me in that situation #Because that's one) annoying and two) distracting #I don’t know but I just don't enjoy it #I AM however fine with juggling my moments of attraction in phases and context switches #I want to think about you now I want to think about You I love you All but I don't want You clouding in on my laserfocused attraction Here

[vanity-complex]

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#literally fuck my job #never before have I felt so degraded or humiliated #it is mind boggling to me to hear community members and organizers tell me what a great and wonderful job I’m doing #to then go to my boss and hear how I’m doing everything wrong and need to fix everything #especially when their expectations change everyday without notice #every day I get something back with something changed or a new process telling me that I should have done better or differently #I honestly can not take this much longer #especially with my raise being revoked (unofficially until I have a meeting on Monday) #I literally work so hard and am busting my ass and am the public face of my agency due to my bosses lack of willingness to do anything #and I’m being drug under the bus #I just don’t understand how I ended up here #and I know it will all be fine and I will find another job #but this is so disappointing #and has me feeling so distraught in the moment #anyways #if I haven’t responded to you in a few weeks this is why #I am emotionally unstable and am just trying to hold it together #but I’ll be talking again soon besties

[fortune-maiden]

Maybe it’s the high of finishing a fic for an exchange with a whole week left to edit

but I kind of want to join another exchange ;w;

#don't mind me having a moment #i mean I am already in another exchange and don’t have any concrete ideas yet #so that is a thing I need to do something about #I’m planning to throw some things at a wall and see what sticks this weekend #the tag set for the other exchange just looks very nice #and then there’s bulletproof which just looks wild but in a fun way #and you are allowed to just……. default……..

[roseofcards90]

I just woke up from a nap and lowkey recovered from an ocd flare up but I truly do hate when fandoms downplay the relationships characters have with each other and water them down to fandom tropes/jokes it just fucking annoys me especially when said relationship has a lot of complexity and it ends up affecting the characterization of the characters involved too that they become misinterpreted/watered down/ flanderized in the process 😭

#this is mainly about Junpei and Akane and Suletta and Miorine btw #I see this a lot more often with female characters which doesn’t surprise me #but like the way in which I see people mischaracterize Akane and Suletta to be like evil masterminds who don’t care about humanity #as well as the fandom saying they don’t care about the person they love #when like their entire goals and personal traits in canon completely contradict that #what Akane did she did for the whole sake of humanity and she did it for Junpei in the long run even when she knew she couldn’t be with him #Suletta in her ignorant upbringing did what she thought was best for Miorine in the moment and is at her core a caring person #who wants to help people no matter what like bruh how could you characterize these two into such the opposite 😭 #it bothers me so much #yes they are selfish and have made a lot of selfish actions but that doesn’t contradict them into not being a person who still cares #their whole motivation centers around caring for humanity and the people they love #edit: OH YEAH ANOTHER ONE THAT COMES TO MIND IS SUNNY AND BASIL I CANNOT STRESS THIS ENOUGH #people who portray Basil as some sort of yandere or people who claim Sunny never cared about Basil make me want to stab a wall #my posts

[branches-of-time]

the version of me that writes down these rough drafts is very blunt. and frankly, probably a lot funnier than the version of me that edits them into something i’ll actually post

#venti #venti x reader #genshin impact #Seven’s Genshin Commentary #hello am alive #i'm sure all 30something of u have just been on the edge of ur seats #waiting for me to update this #/lh /sarc #just. look at me. look in me eyes. listen- #don’t look at the fact that it’s been over two months since i wrote the draft #i just. i uh. my fixation on the fuckign Daycare Attendant from FNaF came back stronger than ever #and they’re all i can think about these days. they kicked Venti out of my brain #also i have been. not doing very Great in general #but i'm doing better! i have a consistent sleep schedule that i'm happy with!!! #REGARDLESS i want to get back to writing for this blog i just. only have so much RAM in my brain #Venti’s a long-running and ever-returning fixation for me don’t u worry #i will write more and that is a promise #the moment i get my shit together- #AND the moment i get Sun and Moon out of the spotlight of my mind. it’s over for u all #anyways. sighs and makes another sideblog for silly robot clowns #i’ll be back soon with part 2 i swear #where You are still kissing Venti but you’re in the kitchen this time!!! wow amazing i know

[katsofmeer]

the more i reflect on the fact that wuvvy knew the whole time that rue WAS the one who broke up the apollo/gribalba engagement the more i need to take days off of work to recover.

#i’m so desperate to do a rewatch but school has me in its clutches!! #text post #so many reveals this season make so many moments WAY more impactful ahdkdijekfod #acofaf #wuvvyruehob #idk if my best friend who i was in love with confessed their love to the guy actively trying to hunt and possibly kill them i might. #also snap. #wuvvy was always right but she is soooo right my god #also - wuvvy True Villain arc is still turning over in my head like a rotisserie chicken #idk i just think she deserves to get a little nasty. as the saying goes #why would they put this mud out if we weren’t meant to roll around in it? #literally tell me that if rue confessed to being the sabatuer any episode earlier that hob wouldn’t have done what he wanted to do to apollo #and gone for rue. tell me wuvvy wouldn’t again make herself their champion to defend them. #fey are hard to kill and i don’t want them to kill each other. i just want them to viciously battle and ALMOST kill each other #wuvvy and hob have what brennan thought hob and andhera might have - bloody battlefield romance respect resentment💕 #let them unhinge their jaws and try to devour one another to rue’s shock and horror!! let it hurt before it heals!!! #hi boss i can’t come in today due to the preoccupation of my mind

[thehappiestgolucky]

hit hardcore over the head with Vigilante Tiso brainrot again. not a single person is surprised

more specifically thinking about Xero and Tiso because god dammit those two make me so emotional

#happy screms #imagining the situation from both povs is just so…sad #one one hand: a father falling prey to an infection whilst still trying to protect- #-citizens and his family. his awareness fading as he fully succumbs to it. but knowing deep deep down he failed- #-lost in a mind no longer his own. aware in his last moments before the world becomes just light. that he attacked his family- #-waking up years later. the world has gone cold. the place is empty. you’re locked up- #-you’re weak. you can’t move or really think straight. you later realise your own children had to take up- #-protecting. they had to take up *your* role. awful feeling. you’re scared of lose yourself again. to hurt them again #THEN on the other hand: your world is falling apart #your friends are gone. your family is nearly gone. and you promised yourself you’d protect the place- #-you don’t even believe in some way that it’ll be ok. but youre stubborn. you won’t let your fathers sacrifices be in vain. you fight- #-because that’s all you know. then you find another kid. one abandoned. you had promised hornets mother you’d protect her. but this one- #-feels different. this one didn’t have anyone to make sure they’re ok. and you get what your dad was doing this whole time- #-knowing things weren’t ok. but still trying. even if it meant he wouldn’t be ok. and you do it too. #*sobbing in my hands the parallels of xero and tiso and then tiso and ghost. i didn’t even realise the dynamics until now* #don’t perceive me. or do. i’m being sad about bugs again. i need to doodle them

[deus-ex-mona]

g o o d n i g h t .

#very incoherent rant about my week in the tags; sorry for incoherence i hit my head earlier so b s #im just. so d o n e with this week. 100000% done i say. #on monday i was late to work by 20 minutes and had to stay behind for half an hour to make up for it bc the app we use to clock in suuuucks #and i also found out that i lost $40 of my salary bc of said clocking in app which. suuuuuuuuuuucks #though. this week had a weirdly low number of samples. which was. kinda nice ig since i managed to finish all my work before 7pm… but still. #like we managed to finish our stuff so quickly that we managed to watch bee movie together on tuesday……… #mmmmmm i don’t remember much about what happened on wednesday though….. #but yesterday. oh g o d . yesterday. thursday. whateverday. g o d. #so the software to operate one of the [lab equipment] machines kept crashing everytime we tried to print results #regardless of whether there were any samples being tested with said machine at the moment. which. y’know #sucks on its own. but it also means that the tested sample had to be reweighed and every sample that came after it had to be reentered again #which was a m a j o r pain in the behind. #so like. after i reran the sample post-first software crash… the boss’s favourite employee freakin’ remote-accessed the computer and #he did the results thing. and crashed the software. while a sample was being analysed. and the entire monitor!!! went!!!! dark!!!! when he!! #so. i ‘calmly’ and ‘rationally’ rushed out to the office area to give him a piece of my mind. #which. may or may not have involved screaming at him and slapping him. it’s too bad that i slapped him so loudly that our boss heard/saw it… #but. um. she didn’t call me out to screech at me in return. she sent him into the lab area to settle his thing himself in fact. so. hm. #i guess i’m able to keep my job for another week. maybe. #it didn’t stop my coworkers from making fun of me for slapping the guy though so b s #anyways ig i got my just desserts today bc i walked straight into the side of the door of an in-workplace bathroom stall at full force #and i think i bruised the side of my head… what goes around comes around ig…… #idek what i’m even typing anymore i blame my head hurty for this #inedible blubbering

[cherrysnax]

it’s probably just the depressions and the dissociative disorders but I often feel like I’m just possessing my own dead body

#i feel wrong. fake. gone. in a way that I can never explain #i few twisted like im watching someone just. wither away and I want to help them but it’s me #everything feels so heavy and so weird #and idk it’s like the small things #my lips seem to move different my eyes seems slightly too far apart #my reflection takes too long to change #just a second too long #am I losing my fucking mind #n of course this isn’t helped by the misfit toys #hm. that’s very specific wording that I personally don’t use #I’m not gonna dwell on it too much but I see u #either way #idk I just feel too long too short too unbaalanced #it may be the drink. I feel so much resentment for so many people rn it’s insane but but but the stuff I use to help w my bpd rlly works #just cause I feel like ass at one moment doesn’t my feelings r right n even if people constant treat me like SHIT it doesn’t actually mean #they treat me like shit I just perceive it #at least Chevys back home for another day. so many of those thoughts go away when they’re around #I just wish my brain knew it wasn’t like. always go time I want to be able to relax fr #esp since my ass does NOTHING IM JUST A SACK of shit or something idk #it’s 2am I have to be up at 8 lmaooo i fuckin hate it here. I’ve gathered that I’m just depressed and nothing is actually wrong #well I mean there is. I’m very mentally ill and am constantly surrounded by stressors so I’ll never really be able to heal until I leave #but besides that things r pretty okay :’) I will be okay #I thought abt my butch once and now I’m 60% less breakdowny I love lesbianism

[marc-spectorr]

y’all

WHY DID NO ONE TELL ME I CAN BUILD MY OWN BB8 AT GALAXY’S EDGE 🙂

#I LOVE ONE (1) ROUND ORANGE DROID #don’t mind me im just having another late night manic moment LMAOAOOA #me.txt

[johnbronze]

ok for real I know they were limited in their options for explaining Stiles’ actions because DOB didnt come back but like SERIOUSLY. I have so many questions and complaints and not even all of them are Stydia related….. spoilers obviously

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Uhhh I can’t figure out how to add a read more on mobile sorry folks hopefully this is a good enough buffer !!!!!

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Did…. Did anyone bother to tell Stiles that Allison is alive?  are we meant to believe that nobody did?? or what’s worse, that he was told and he just didn’t come to Beacon Hills or call or anything?

On that note, are we actually supposed to believe — and I am not a Sterek girlie by any means, love and light to y’all but it’s just not my cup of tea — that Derek fucking DIED and there was a whole ass memorial service that Stiles just didn’t bother to show up to???? HELLO????

I mean it’s also nearing levels of ‘spn finale Dean Winchester ending’ stupid that Derek died in the first place, given that his whooooole character arc (by my book, anyway) is springing from the place of his trauma, and the way that he has blamed himself, struggled with guilt and loneliness and has been atoning for all of the pain of what he perceives to be personal failures the ENTIRE TIME, never letting himself get too close to people, never asking for help, and instead sacrificing for and nurturing Scott as the ideal alpha that he feels he couldn’t be… I don’t know. It just feels like a needless sacrifice to me, like there are so many ways that you can restrain someone and prevent them from moving from the place where you need to. Oh I don’t know burn them alive ?maybe? Which don’t involve sacrificing yourself and burning alive yourself, right in front of your son and the rest of your loved ones. I know again there are production factors at play, maybe it’s likely that they knew damn well Tyler H wouldn’t or couldn’t come back for another movie so they decided to kill off his character?? but suffice to say I was not happy with that at all (and not in the way I think it was INTENDED to upset me.)

Anyway, I know that Stiles needed to be absent because Dylan O’Brien was not a part of this movie, but if I’m being honest, I kind of would rather that Stiles had died ! Obviously I love Stiles’s character and it’s not that I want him dead at all!! it’s just. if they were going to fully send it, and they know he’s not coming back, and they knew that they were going to make up this premonition dream to break up Stydia and (poorly) explain his absence, then it would’ve done a lot better to make that separation as permanent as in life and death. The Stiles we know would never want to be separated from the people he loves as much as he has been now because of all of the external, real life factors. In fact, the season arc with the ghost riders proved to us just how far Stiles can and would go to be present! It was aaaactually a whole thing ! So, if I’m being honest… (1) the way that he and Lydia parted, (2) the way that he isn’t present or even mentioned in the light of his loved ones dying/being resurrected, and (3) again the fact that he wasn’t even at Derek’s memorial … it all feels like a silent character assassination to me. It feels like the mentioning of “Stiles” in this new canon contains less essence of Stiles than it would’ve if he had died. I know it’s easy to have a hater moment and make criticisms and piss and moan about how I would’ve done it better, and I know it’s not always as easy as it sounds… but JESUS CHRIST

Also congrats to the sterek girlies on your own personal y yo a ti moment……that jeep shit was CRAZY







#this is only like an iceberg tip of the things I have to say about this movie #like there’s a clear estrangement between some of the main characters that honestly..stiles feared! we know he did #and we know how hard he fought to hold onto everyone #like he was the glue between them and it would’ve been so sad to see that confirmed. he really WAS the glue #seriously. stiles dies. they all fall apart into little groups and fragments pieces of my HEART!!!! I would’ve bawled. #we could’ve had a closed casket funeral flashback! Scott tries to take Malia’s hand and she pulls away. boom Scali breakup explained! #*​scalia (obvi) #and I feel it would’ve been more evocative emotionally to see Lydia grapple with guilt #that stiles died (in her mind at least) because she was too selfish to heed her power’s warning and keep away from him #it would’ve made the moments where Eli is SOOO similar to stiles HURT more for us as an audience AND to the characters who would see it too #like. raise the stakes! heighten Derek’s (and all of their) fierce protectiveness for this baby !! #make us ACHE thinking about the cycle of it all. how this kid is Scott but he’s also stiles and he’s (literally) a little bit of Derek and— #also this is another thing but I’m also pissed that Liam and Mason had like ZERO interactions lmfao theyre fucking besties ??? or #if they’re not anymore then you should TELL US THAT!!! #I wanna know why Scalia broke up and why she’s fucking Parrish FR #for REALLLL it’s so left field and don’t get me started on what they did to her character and how it highlights Stiles’ absence further #also I miss Theo. to ME he’s under the Hale’s wings. to ME he’s a mechanic and an artist and him and Liam are boyfriends. haters stay mad #TAKES A DEEP BREATH. #okay I think I’m done for now #I can’t figure out how to add a read more on mobile so I hope tagging for spoilers will be good enough (!) #teen wolf #teen wolf movie #teen wolf movie spoilers #teen wolf spoilers #tw #…. I mentioned Dean so. #supernatural finale #supernatural spoilers #alright. bases covered? #long post