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discoerot1ca · 11 months

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we come back from long-parted ways and our heads have changed color, lavender-blue and milky-white, scarlet as my sunrises and guiltless as pink velvet. yours comes in choppy waves now.

homer hasn’t told you about patroclus and achilles yet. it’s tied at the top of your reading list with some book title about an orange tree. you are settled gently in the mossy things at the base of a tree. I curl up against you as you crochet, snuggle in with my own hand-spun craft.

if I could, I would gather the thick yarn of you all into my hands and burrow into it every spring, surround myself with this laughter, this music, this ease. I am constantly finding odd gifts in the tangle, salt edges and rocks slicked with sea slime. you swallowed so much seawater in the dark on your way here. I remember the stories you dredge up from those years.

the tip of one of the scissor blades against my neck for a moment- but I don’t flinch. and you move to cut and all is well. we would not strike out against one another here, in the sun and the holy silence. there is a different god leaning against my desk, not the one either of us grew up with. they fall in the scraps of platinum, blind with the tilt of the metal in light. in your patient work is a love I could not have manipulated from you. I am glad I have given up. I am glad to find rest in this space. it’s okay that I’m good around you.

we are in my room under the green. I think red moon sounds better with a guitar slightly out of tune. I’ve only heard this song secondhand among the birds. you love it and I do my best to follow your melody. run your hand along my arm to watch the daisies pop up from it. press your palms against the wall to leave the mark of where you’ve been.

(- your flowers and handwriting curling out across my kitchen, the captions set in ink beneath our history. and all the pictures came out green, I guess the film was old. these stories are young still. press a kiss to your knuckles and feel their grace against my cheek, and the mud settles back into the banks of the river. I can see you through the water.)

i’m inside the house i waited months to visit. grandparents away for a week, and the house almost empty. L leads me in, and we sort through cassettes. it’s probably the first time in exactly a month we’ve had a truly calm moment. there are probably two hundred tapes on the dining room table, and we have all the time a sunday love can offer.

we go upstairs, to his room, a room full of art, a truly enriched enclosure. two pairs of black converse highs left on the middle floor. his and hers sneakers. well, maybe—his and theirs. i’m figuring out if hers still fits me, even now. but i pick up the soundtrack from my girl and give him a soft smile. he knows instinctively that’s me. he bites and bites and bites and now there are pretty little bruises on my arms, and larger ones on my thigh. they won’t fade fast.

L makes sangria for us. the first time we were supposed to meet, he asked if he should bring a bottle of sake. i declined. i wanted us to find substance without substances. our tipsy selves are a little more playful.

M comes out in the middle of the grocery store. he taps my shoulder and when i turn around, kisses me in front of the bagel shelves. he takes me by the hand and leads me to the produce, the deli, the frozen sections. i confirm when i first saw him that day and he asks did you not recognize me? and i say I’d recognize you anywhere. on the way home, he drives smoothly, an elderly lady lets him pass and we marvel at how nice she was. old women love me, he jokes, and then says seriously: i think you’re gonna be a cute old lady. i say, L doesn’t like grocery stores, and M says i hate them—but i just wanted to see you—if that’s okay. he cooks dinner for two. lamb, Caesar salad, charcuterie. i meet the family cat. she is an abomination. M leaves shortly after we go back upstairs. L returns and i tell him what he may have missed.

(below is about L, but tangentially about M)

when we fall asleep, we fall asleep together. the blanket covers us both, there is no tugging necessary. you whisper soft “i love you”s into my ear. you say it again when the bus arrives. of course, i say it back each time. i couldn’t think of doing otherwise at this point. my august self is not dead, but she’s a ghost. she haunts my heart for always. she would never say it but she loves you too.

#i know damn well who this is about too

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ziammyloves25 · 3 years

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Zayn is Liam’s Sunshine ☀️ and proofs why! Ziam Masterpost

During the month of June and up to its release, there were a handful of things foreshadowing an lgbt song. Including Liam’s response to a coming out story, and it being “warm and loving”, and the Ziam eyebrow slit returned.

Liam wrote the song “Sunshine” with Carl Falk in Sweden at the beginning of December 2020, along with a few other songs. (Includes a sister song which he says will be released later). Liam already wrote/recorded “Sunshine” then used opportunity to release it through a Disney movie soundtrack. It wasn’t written for the movie characters, the song is personal to him. He’s mentioned during promo that the robotic effect just happened to be like him singing along with Ron, wasn’t the original intent to be that. “Happy accident”(CapitalFM live Aug 26, 2021)

This also lines up being about him (not movie character) because within the song Liam wrote about becoming comfortable with himself by learning how from just being around this other person aka his “sunshine”.

“Oh, I was feeling so invisible

I didn’t know this could be possible

But you really on something different

You do you, just work it out

And I think it’s rubbing off on me”

In the Sunshine music video and Stack It Up lyric video, Liam is laying down showing the feather tattoo on his arm. The feather tatt is complimentary to Zayn’s bird tatt on chest (missing feather. There’s 5 on one side, 4 on other). With feather is lyric from “You and I”. “I figured it out” 🪶

“Stack It Up”, directly from Liam, is about “making money so you can share it with someone you love”. The mv includes a pink triangle, which queer codes towards gay love.

Zayn’s mom calls Zayn her “sonshine” all over her social media. In 2021, Zayn’s mom posts an ig story of her listening to “Vibez” while in her car. Caption: “My sonshine”. Again reinforcing it as an affectionate name Zayn is used to.

Liam listened to “Better” during an ig livestream he was particularly in good spirits. Liam loves it immediately. Grooving, closing his eyes, annoyed when it stops, happy when back on, hypes it up! His sister, Ruth joins the live later and giggles about it youtu.be/OZ4paDnjMPw

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“Better” released on Sept 25 2020, Liam listens to it live on ig that day. Liam talked about writing trip to Sweden with Carl Falk during a Dec 15 live. He had already heard Zayn’s “Better” when he wrote “Sunshine”.

Zayn making the single cover for “Better” the most Ziam references he could fit. (Also. “Sunshine” is for a robot movie!!!)

Zayn’s song “Better”. Lyric, “I hope I leave good vibes on your living room floor”. Song is telling his partner, I love you but I need reassurance we can do this together. We have to fight for it. (Song is 2:54 long and is RED on Spotify. Numbers 25 and 4 is a Ziam thing.)

Song “Sunshine” includes ‘vibes’, repeatedly. The lyrics are expressing to ones partner… You give me only good vibes! I’m not fully comfortable with myself yet but I’m learning how to be from your example. We are on this journey of life together, My Sunshine!

Liam has directly called Zayn “Sunshine” while on stage in front of THOUSANDS of people.

September 9, 2021 - Zayn’s mom posts ig story of “Good morning Sunshine 🌞🌞🌞”…. While Liam promotes the song.

The timing.

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eurydicees · 3 years

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thoughts on the musicals y’all recommended!

tysm for all the recs! i had so much fun listening to them, i really appreciate it! always feel free to rec more :)

to preface, there’s no actual judging system. it’s all about the vibes. so, in the order that i listened to them:

the mad ones

i already made a post abt this one, but i have to mention it again. i’ve been listening to it on repeat. like. straight up on a loop.

i’m obsessed with this

the storyline is so put together, and you can really feel the heart of the show

the characters were well written (with the exception of the boyfriend tbh, i could have done without him), and i’m so fascinated by sam and kelly’s relationship (writers were cowards for making them not gay)

the songs felt super cohesive, and the repeated drum loop was super well integrated. the sound techie in me is fascinated by the way this show was put together, and i’d love to see it performed (like. fr. i was getting ideas for the design. which is always so much fun)

19.75/10

romeo es julia

holy shit this slaps

costumes were weird

but the music was brilliant

some of the captioned lyrics were ???? bad translation or bad lyrics??? but the sound was incredible so i don’t even care

mercutio and tybalt were spot on

the moms were GREAT. i LOVED their voices, like. could FEEL the emotions, even if i didn’t know wtf they were saying

pretty much everyone was like that, like idk what’s going on via words, but i def can feel it, which is the best kind of song

my mother didn’t like this one but whatever, she didn’t get to see the choreo that went with it so what does she know

the SET. the LIGHTS. the SOUND. the SET. the LIGHTS. the SOUND. chef’s kiss.

14/10

ordinary days

i liked “favorite places” and “beautiful” a lot, but the rest of the songs were only okay

i wasn’t super attached to the characters and the singing was just. like. okay for me. i didn’t love any of them in particular

my mother also didn’t like this one, rip. she has a lot of opinions on musicals.

6/10

venice

oh my fucking god????????

not what i expected at all. right from the first lines i was like. 😲😲😲

like. this was so good??? wtf???? hamilton meets shakespeare meets the mechanisms meets les mis meets post-9/11 politics meets dystopia. i thought it couldn’t be done, but here i am, in awe

i was going to include some favorite lines but. it’s just all of them. ALL of them.

further confirmation that i’m in love with jennifer damiano.

also angela polk?? incredible

it’s weird bc it’s so clearly Not Broadway Music, but it’s also not trying to be, which i enjoy. i can see why some critics hated it (read some really funny reviews lmao), but i really loved the sound (haven’t seen the show, though, and that’s half of a musical, so maybe gonna try and find a bootleg)

18.99/10

count of monte cristo

damn from the overture this was. Intense. like. damn. i’m a slut for any dies irae sequence, so i was a big fan of that

that being said. gonna be real. i had no idea what was happening throughout the entire musical. it’s a pretty music-light show, so that’s probably why?

maybe it would make more sense if i watched a performance rather than just listening to the soundtrack??? idk. anyone got a bootleg?

thomas borchert has a nice voice. very distinctive. googled him to see where else i can listen to him. he was rum tum tugger. anyways. mad respect for this man

sonically, it didn’t feel like a very cohesive show? like it felt like there were a lot of diff vibes going around

lots of good songs for my evil musicals playlist though

11/10

once on this island (2017 revival)

ok turns out musicals are a lot better when sung by professionals than by sixth graders who think they can belt even tho their voices are still cracking

also turns out that stories can be much more complex and interesting-- and have much deeper themes of racism and classism-- when on broadway than when in a sweaty middle school auditorium in an upper middle class white neighborhood

funny how that works, huh

i’m still a little unsure abt it, and probably wouldn’t listen to it just because i can, but i definitely don’t object to it anymore

ty for making me give it a second try

hailey kilgore is brilliant in this

the singing in general is REALLY impressive and beautiful

12.68/10

death note

i cannot express enough in words how mad i am that i actually liked this

genuinely don’t know how to feel

i do think that i would get more out of it if i watched the anime, but it was still pretty easy to follow, just knowing the premise

idk who the cast is bc i found a weird shady playlist on spotify rather than a cast recording, but the girl’s voice (idk character names) was beautiful. “i’ll only love you more” was SO good

reminded me a little of jekyll and hyde? which? huh

also i’m now getting tik tok videos with audio from this musical can my iphone stop stalking me for ONE second

fucking unfair that this is actually a good soundtrack. the desire to find a bootleg is unholy.

14.87/10

35mm

why did no one tell me that alex brightman is in this!!!!

i listened to a few songs and really enjoyed them, but didn't get through the whole album lmao

but i did really enjoy what i did listen to, and i'm gonna come back to it

9/10

ghost quartet

i wanted to like this one. SO badly. i REALLY wanted to like it.

but i couldn't really get into it?

there were a few songs that absolutely slapped, but overall, it was just kinda. eh. which sucks bc i have heard such good things about it

i LOVED "the astronomer," "the telescope," and "lights out"

but i didn't get through the entire album

i'll come back to it eventually and give it another try, i think. i might just not have been in the specific mood for it

9.8/10

#ty again!#i always appreciate recs #the mad ones #romeo es julia #35mm #venice #count of monte cristo #ghost quartet #death note musical #once on this island #elektra #ordinary days

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iamnightduchess · 3 years

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HELLO QUEEN! Oh my gosh your latest updates have gotten me so hyped up and happy!! I love the feeling of seeing your post updates on my dashboard. I was wondering if you had time if you could possibly do some NSFW head cannons for It’s Gotta Be You universe?? I reread it again for the 100th time after reading your AYA update but I love that universe so much!

Hello dearie! I hope you've been doing well ever since. I apologize for the slight delay as RL is demanding a lot of my time. But, I hope you'll enjoy this! ❤

Reiner x Mikasa (ReiKasa) (R20+) Fic AU Headcanon #13

Universe: It's Gotta Be You (Modern AU)

(A/N: ‼️WARNING‼️Graphic/Explicit Description of very dirty smut with potentially provocative images ⛔ Please don't click Keep Reading if you're below 20 🙅‍♀️ Sorry kiddos! To my dear adult readers, please absorb this post's content with appropriate discretion & maturity)

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I've shared more of ReiKasa's detailed Modern AU sexcapades in this post and for this Ask, I'll explore the different preferences involved in their sex life. Based on this post, Reiner & Mikasa had a 10-dates rule before they actually become intimate with each other and that post describes briefly on their phenomenal sexual compatibility. Before they reach that 10th date goal, they decided to keep all their interactions chaste, which only adds up to the building sexual tension between them. These two has a spark that ignites from just a single touch. Therefore, it had been a truly challenging period for them to keep their magnetic pull in check.

When they were in high school, they've only ever held hands but has never even kissed. Reiner was raised to be a respectful gentleman and he's always letting Mikasa takes the lead. He waited until she was ready to get a little bit more physical with him, thus why he suggested the 10-DR. So when did they have their first real kiss?

On their 10th date.

First Time

Their first time with each other had been a literal afternoon delight. Mikasa missed out on their 10th date night because of an on-call emergency at the med centre, so they made up with a lunch date the next day. Sure, they've been clawing at each other's clothes from outside the car to his front door and had never even made it to his bedroom but they really made full use of his coffee table and his couch. If only those furnitures could talk, they would tell you very interesting stories that took place on that day.

Bedroom Jams

Reiner and Mikasa do not have a particular preferred soundtrack running in the background while they're getting down and dirty. But, they'd always have Linger by Cranberries or The Root's You Got Me to set them in the mood for some slow-dancing before revving up their engines for their inevitable sexy times.

One time, Reiner had jokingly put Boyz II Men's I'll Make Love To You on in the bedroom. Mikasa changed it immediately to The Devil in I by Slipknot. It felt like an out of body experience the whole time.

Reiner likes to do this little striptease dance to 90's boyband songs just to drive Mikasa up the wall 🤣 One time, he wanted to surprise Mikasa from work & started grinding against her booty with his sexy moves as soon as she crossed their living room, completely not realizing that his mother had also walked through the door as his wife had picked Karina up for dinner at their house. He got an earful from his own mother 😳

Sexting & Surprises

Reiner loves sending sexy text messages to Mikasa when she's at work or when he's away in Marley for work meetings. The nature of her work demands her to be on-call or be at work in longer shifts, therefore, his texts make her misses him even more. Mikasa would not admit it out loud but his naughty texts do get her in the mood to make a lot of love to him when she gets home 😏 Before someone asks, no, Reiner does not send his wife dick pics haha

Reiner is also the type who'd surprises her from a long night shift in the morning by making her breakfast in the kitchen with nothing but an apron on. Yeah, Mikasa had a good eyeful (and mouthful) of his buns alright *wink* Reiner would also surprise her with a hug from behind when she's doing meal preps in the kitchen BUT Mikasa would be the one slipping her hand in his pants while he's doing the dishes. These two really do love getting kinky in the kitchen.

Gabi accidentally walked in on them one time and poor girl was mentally scarred, she locked herself in her room the whole night.

Favorite Positions

Despite having athletic bodies and fit figures, Reiner and Mikasa do not experiment with odd, bizarre positions as much. Their favorite position is either tantric or golden arch as they love locking gazes while whispering their undying affection for each other (+more dirty-talking from Reiner!)

But when they're in the mood for a more rough loving, all fours in front of a mirror or standing/sitting wheelbarrow would be their favorite positions for them considering his superb upper body strength and her amazing flexibility (Reiner has those weekly yoga routines of hers to thank for!)

Dirty-talking

Reiner likes to do this a lot (even in public) that it'll always make Mikasa goes multiple shades of red. His dirty-talkings are adorable and dorky but although Reiner's very alert when reading the room, he also tends to forget in switching off his dirty-talking mode once he's in the mood.

One time, he was calling Mikasa when he's away for work training. She was driving and had him on speaker. He was feeling a bit frisky and told her flat out - he can't wait to come back home, get inside the showers with her and ram into her so hard that she can't walk straight that his Dr. Ackerman-Braun need to take sick leave for 2 days. Things went still and quiet from Mikasa until he heard Annie's voice from the other end.

Annie : Ram her with what, Reiner? Your 3-inch dick?

Reiner: Screw you, Annie.

Annie: Gross and hey, Armin's already doing a bang up job in screwing me. Besides, you don't need to worry about Mikasa missing you. I just bought her this brand new vibrator.

Reiner: Totally ignoring you, Annie. Mika, c'mon babe, you know the real deal's so much better.

Mikasa: Rein--

Reiner: I made you come three times before I leave. You don't need that thing right? Can you hold on until I get back, baby, please?

Mikasa: Rein, can we talk a bit later?

Reiner: It's just Annie there right?

Pieck: Hey, Reiner. I think you just terrorized Gabi.

Reiner: F**K

Turns out Pieck and an already traumatized Gabi were also in the car with Mikasa at that time. Reiner avoided showing his face in front of the two women and his own cousin for the next 2 months.

As mentioned, that wasn't the first time Gabi had such TMI of her cousin and his wife's sex life. Apart from walking in on Reiner and Mikasa in the kitchen, the couple had terrified her enough for life when she also walked into them doing the deed inside their own living room (They either forgot Gabi was staying the night or had thought she was asleep) Gabi never wanted to be near that couch ever again.

Public Sexcapade

They had a quickie in Grisha's basement during one family dinner with the Jeagers. Zeke almost walked in on them.

Reiner also owns a pickup truck. He likes to take Mikasa out for a night drive. He'll have the back boot of his truck all nice with warm covers and they'll park somewhere private uphill to stargaze. They'll make love underneath the stars in the open air and just hold each other afterwards. Mikasa loves to listen to Reiner as he tells her about his favorite constellations.

Body Appreciation

When Mikasa's body starts to grow when she's carrying their twins, Reiner develops a much higher level of appreciation towards her body because of the changes she's going through. Obviously he appreciates the tremendous increase of her cup size, but he notices every other parts of her that swells beautifully with every week of her pregnancy too. As shared in this pregnancy post, Mikasa had the upper side of her hormonal changes that Reiner was the one who's constantly be worrying that he'll poke the babies in their heads every time she gets in her special mood 😂 see, he's so adorkable!

Sneaky playtime(s)

Reiner & Mikasa would always have a burning fire in their marriage even as they grow older. The twins were not spared from the traumatizing knowledge of their parents' extracurricular activities, when they overheard their parents from outside their bedroom door one Sunday morning.

Miraé: Rémy, are Mama & Papa fighting? She said the F word to Papa. Oh, Papa said he's coming? To where?

Rémy: Jesus, Miraé. They're having sex.

Miraé: What's that?

Rémy: Aunt Gabi told me to stay away if we ever hear weird noises coming from Mama & Papa's bedroom because it means they're having their adult playtime.

Miraé: Let's just go next door and ask Uncle Armin & Aunt Annie about it.

Armin was speechless and red with embarassment while Annie cackled at the poor twins. Afterwards, Annie sent a photo of the twins in their family group chat with the caption "Please come pick up your kids at our house after you're done maintaining Mikasa's plumbing 🍆💧💧" 🤣

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Gosh, I really, really enjoyed working on this. Thanks again for the Ask, Anonie 🙈💕💋

#ReiKasa #ReiKasa asks #ReiKasa fic #ReiKasa fic asks #reiner x mikasa #ReiKasa headcanons #ReiKasa reimagines #ReiKasa sexy headcanons #strictly ReiKasa #ReiKasaverse #ReiKasa Modern AU #ReiKasa smut #snk smut #aot smut #its gotta be you #by NightDuchess #ReiKasa kink!time

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matpisound · 3 years

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memes, and the role of music

Yeah, you heard me right. I'm gonna be talking about memes. Lately, I've been thinking about how much music has become intertwined with meme culture, and how certain songs can become memes on their own. Given that I write a music blog, I thought I'd write about my thoughts on the subject. How DOES music reach meme status?

Well first, we have to define what a meme even is. Obviously it's not just an image edited with a funny caption in Impact font or oversaturated to the point at which it's incomprehensible. Music has to be involved somewhere in there, or else this whole argument falls to pieces. There has to be a broader definition somewhere, right? Yes, there is, and it gives us a perfect grounding for establishing the meme status of music. According to Wikipedia, the term "meme" was coined in Richard Dawkin's book The Selfish Gene, and it defines the word as a cultural entity that can be considered a replicator; basically an idea that can be spread by people copying it and showing it to others, and it can include images, melodies, behaviors, and anything else that can easily be transmitted.

So why does this matter? We can now devise a way to categorize music memes based on what aspect of culture they appeal to. I won't go into every single meme song that exists, but I will go over some of the biggest meme songs in the past couple of years, and there are four main categories that all of them fall into:

Songs that have some sort of cultural significance on their own

Songs relating to shared cultural experiences

Songs that serve as part of a meme, without which the meme potential is lost

Remixes, typically of a sound that has cultural significance

For songs with their own cultural significance, we need look no further that January 2021 with the sea shanty craze; specifically, "The Wellerman". It's a perfect example of how social media has become embedded in musical culture and how sites like TikTok can bring people together through features that allow collaboration. Adam Neely made an in-depth video on this, but the gist of it was that the duet feature in TikTok allows people to come together with collaborative projects like singing sea shanties in a time when we're forced to stay apart. There are other songs that became memes through similar means. "Gangnam Style", "The Cha Cha Slide", and "The Cupid Shuffle" all became popular to the point of memes because they went viral on social media (mainly YouTube) and they were participatory in the sense they had signature dances, which were easy enough for anyone to do, solidifying them into a widespread culture. Some songs are memes due to their established presence in this culture, and they're songs people are expected to know either within a certain group or just in general. Just think "September", "Mamma Mia", and even "Renai Circulation" all became memes simply because of their existence within modern culture.

Culture also follows songs that are entertaining, i.e. funny, and funny songs are part of the epitome of meme culture. These come from the very early days of YouTube all the way to some of the newest TikTok audios. Take the keyboard cat on YouTube for example. Who doesn't love a cat in a suit playing some funky tunes on a keyboard? And Nyan Cat; an upbeat tune made out of synthesized meows while a cat with a PopTart for a body flies through space while farting rainbows. These random gems reflect the spirit of the internet in terms of creativity and just pure fun. There are also songs that are almost like musical shitposts; songs that have almost no meaning but exist for the sole purpose of entertainment through the random. Big Shaq's "Mans Not Hot" is such a fun song, and was really popular a few years ago because of its random lyrics and especially the verse that was just beatboxing. Songs that are so bad they're funny are popping up a lot as well. "Gucci Gang", sporting a laughably terrible sounding beat and 99% of the lyrics just being "Gucci Gang", climbed its way up to meme status just because of how bad it was. The meme status of these songs depends on the hilarity and ridiculousness that internet memes were founded on, and because of that, have embedded themselves into the worldwide meme culture.

Next is songs that relate to shared cultural experiences, so basically all of the movie tunes, game soundtracks, and just other experiences that aren't inherently musical, but contain musical elements. Everyone loves Smash Mouth's "All Star", and was popularized through none other than the hit movie Shrek. On its own it's a great song, but it's unlikely it would have reached the fame it has today had it not been for Shrek, which in and of itself has become a meme. Of course, the other one that everyone knows is "Megalovania" from the game Undertale. Its simple musical motifs combined to make it the insanely recognizable tune it is today, and has almost detached itself from its source entirely. Mario Kart has had several songs that have become memes, including "Coconut Mall" as well as "Dolphin Shoals", which gave birth to the famous Mario Kart Lick. And who could forget about Star Wars with its main theme, "The Imperial March", and "Duel of the Fates" among others. Lazy Town gave us a few gems as well, like "Cooking by the Book" and of course "We Are Number One". Most of these reach meme status because there are simple musical elements that make them instantly recognizable and can trigger pleasant memories of whatever media they came from, that media being a shared piece of culture among the majority of a generation. "All Star" begins that iconic leap from the the root to the fifth of the scale on the opening line, and "Coconut Mall" creates that frenzied feeling like entering a Macy's on Black Friday which just makes it so fun to listen to.

I need to take a minute to comment on the songs in this category that arguably had the biggest impact on the culture of this generation: Minecraft Parodies. Simply say "Creeper" in a room full of high schoolers and I guarantee you it will be followed by a chorus of "Aww man", most likely followed by the rest of the song. You probably already know what song I'm talking about. "Revenge" by CaptainSparklez and Tryhardninja was the song that powered a generation of Minecrafters, and its resurgence in recent years was met with a flash flood of nostalgia and overall good vibes. We had other hits that grew to immense popularity, like "Fallen Kingdom" and "TNT", along with countless others (and I really do mean countless). The parody craze was so prevalent, some people who otherwise probably never would have gotten into music began releasing hit songs. Not to mention all of the original Minecraft songs that came into the spotlight, like "Take Back the Night", "Creepers Gonna Creep", and so many others. This craze spread beyond Minecraft to some newer games like Fortnite, which allowed the creation of one of the most popular parodies today: Leviathan's "Chug Jug with You". Overall, these helped define a generation and not only allowed musicians to be involved in the things they like, but also allowed many people into the world of music.

This next category involves music that became associated with a certain format, as in there's little to no meme within the music outside of that format. The one everyone knows is the iconic Rickroll, the act of building suspense and breaking the tension with the beginning to Rick Astley's "Never Gonna Give You Up" rather than whatever else would logically release tension. Meme formats are tailored to the individual song, and this is no different. The song begins with a sudden electronic drum fill before going into an upbeat 80s dance tune. Often the video preceding the Rickroll will build up to something desirable to the viewer, and that sudden fill subverting their expectations invokes a sense of disappointment, having been cheated out of their reward. However, the fun sound of the rest of the song helps ease that disappointment. The Coffin Dance and Shot on iPhone memes employed a similar concept by building up tension and releasing it by cutting to the music. However, here the music played throughout to help build up that tension while a video, often depicting someone doing something risky or getting hurt in some way, cutting to just the music at the climax of the clip. This employs driving principle of EDM, building up tension and releasing it at the drop. The meme works by mirroring that suspense and resolution of the video with that of the song, and that resolution being different than what would otherwise logically happen is what allows the meme to spread. Obviously, this isn't the only way songs can be part of a format; songs like "Baka Mitai" and "Shooting Stars" have all had their time to shine. However, these memes that work to subvert the expectations of the audience arguably have the biggest impact of the songs in this category.

Finally, we have the remixes, which typically involve altering any of the songs from the above categories. One of the most popular forms of the remix is the mashup, and who better to bring up here than the legendary SilvaGunner, whose videos advertise a track from a video game OST, but end up being some other meme mashed up into it. The reason mashups work as memes is because it subverts our expectations, even when we know it's a mashup. Our brains know how each song goes, but when we listen to them together it creates something completely new that either sounds great or absolutely horrendous. Yet we still listen to them because they're interesting. Additionally, remixing a meme song in a funny way is a common form of musical meme. It can occur through, super heavy distortion, or repeating a section of a song throughout the song at a level far more than a mere motif, or deleting parts of a song leaving only the memeable parts, or simple pitch shifting, among so many other ways of remixing. The possibilities are endless. The reason remixes are such good memes is they take songs with cultural significance and change them entirely, giving them a whole new meaning.

Well there you have it. Music and memes have gone hand-in-hand since the very beginning, and as culture evolves and memes become more advanced, there's no doubt that these threads will entangle themselves even further. Thanks for reading and if you have any interesting thoughts on music memes or just wanna talk about your favorite ones, feel free to share! That's all, and I'll catch you at the double barline!

#music #music nerd #nerd shit #meme #memes #dank memes

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April 10: Rocky II

(previous notes: Rocky)

When this movie came out I was a little kid living in Northern California, and we used to go to huge drive-in movie complexes that had like six screens. No matter what movie you were watching, you could see other movies from your lot. I don't remember which movie we were watching at the time, but I remember being distracted by a nearby screen showing Rocky II. I totally watched the ending in suspense. It was eventually on cable a lot so I was able to see it for real, but still like 40 years ago.

Anyway, I wonder if this movie will have the effect of dulling the charm of how the first movie ended, so climactically and with appealing suddenness.

Also, is this the only one of the first four movies that doesn't have a rollicking hit song emerging from its soundtrack?

Stallone famously wrote each of these movies all by himself, and starting with this one he is the director of a bunch of them as well.

Same kind of intro with the fanfare, except the music sounds very clearly, to me at least, to not be playing on real horns. I think it's synths. "Modern".

We're now just watching the end of the first movie. We get to relive the intense experience of seeing Adrian's face in closeup closing her eyes for one and a half seconds. The drama.

The whole first five minutes is the whole last five minutes of the first movie. That's weak. Cheap.

Then the whole opening credits follows, and it's following the ambulance that's taking Rocky to the hospital because of all the punchplay. Not a good use of this time. But more importantly: are they going to address the eyelid situation.

Rocky and Apollo confront each other in wheelchairs in front of the press at the hospital. They're still fired up.

After Rocky gets out of the hospital he rambles a lot and it's like an amateur improv scene where he's figuring out on the spot some things to say about where they are. He gets the idea to have Rocky propose to Adrian, then when she accepts he does a Tarzan wail. What a cheeky clown that Rocky is.

His eye seems fine now.

0:18:20 - the a cappela street musicians are still at it, still not very complex with the harmonies. Isn't Sylvester Stallone's brother a singer named Frank, and does he look like the guy in this scene? I bet it's him.

I'm pretty bored of this movie so far. It's like the people were clamoring for an answer to the question, "what happened after the fight", and Stallone's enthusiastic answer was "just regular stuff like you'd guess!!!!!"

Oh my. It's their wedding night and they talk like dumb, uninspired newlyweds and then kiss, and it's like the director, who remember is Stallone, directed the two of them, one of whom is also Stallone, to perform slow, exotic lip dancing and no one told him that's a thing called kissing which is normal and common.

Rocky has some money now so he and Adrian are looking at buying a house. The realtor is all "this whole place is supported by solid steel" and Rocky is all "yo Adrian that would be a great spot for a radio". It's like porn stars that have been told to ad lib for a few minutes in the beginning of the scene. Except that we aren't about to be rewarded with porno.

0:28:05 - Adrian is pregnant! They talk about it. They talk about it in small talk. "What if it's a girl" "Oh a girl I didn't think about that can you imagine".

So one of the adventures of post-the-first-movie Rocky is that he gets to do a commercial. They show the filming of that and that it doesn't go well because of his Rocky personality. And the next scene he has realized that he needs a white collar job so he's at an employment agency office and asks for a job where he gets to sit. But he's not a good fit there. So he goes and gets a job at a butcher place. He promised Adrian he was done with boxing so now we have this boring part of the movie which isn't short enough.

Okay it's definitely going in a direction of not-boxing-is-sucky-for-Rocky, because he lost the butcher job and had to sell his car to Paulie. He said "it's a great car, buckle up for safety!" Do you think Stallone actually scripted that line or did he improvise it and the director, who you may recall is also Mr. Stallone, thought it was really good and kept it in

0:46:30 - He goes to visit Burgess Meredith at the gym. BM is not helping Rocky's morale, tells him he's washed up POI-manently. He begs for a job doing menial tasks at the gym and BM tells him everyone will think he's a loser but okay. Stallone does okay looking humble about that.

When he comes in to the gym everyone is laughing at a very stupid editorial cartoon in the local news publication, it shows Apollo doing harm upon Rocky-as-a-chicken with the ingenious caption "APOLLO CREED VS THE STALLION CHICKEN". It was clearly "STALLION CHICKEN". That does not make any sense.

BM was easily persuaded by Apollo's cockiness and so he then shows up at Rocky's nad easily persuades him to accept the rematch deal. Feels like movie formula but at least it's about to be less boring.

I like BM's voice.

They're doing a thing going back and forth between Rocky training and Apollo training. Apollo's is going better, partially because his facility is kind of luxuriously spacious. Then they stuck a scene in the middle of that of Adrian working at the pet store all preggo, but having trouble lugging a weighty thing and listen my friends, I think Talia Shire acting is not good acting.

We're in a long sequence that's about how Adrian had the baby prematurely and she slipped into a coma or something, and it's made clear that she had health problems because she was stressed out and overworked because of the heavy things at the pet shop and the husband who went back to boxing. Big old guilt trip taking up a lot of the middle of the movie. Adrian is in a coma. They don't show the baby. It's all just sadness about comatosity of Adrian.

But! She eventually wakes up! And after the first ever conversation they've ever had about what to name their newborn son, Adrian inexplicably changes her tune and tells Rocky she wants him to win. "Win!" That's what she tells him. Then she says it again. Stallone writing, Shire acting, what more could you want.

Now an upbeat training montage that's more hopeful and he's obviously high energy. He must be hitting the punching bags better because just look at how confident he looks.

1:29:35 - It is the sequel to the famous running montage from the first movie. The inspired updates include a new recording of that same song but with children singing "flying strong now" or whatever, and also children following him on his majestic dash to the steps of that municipal facility. Someone probably said "do the running scene again just exactly like in the first movie", but no. Stallone was not satisfied. "We will change it a little," he proclaimed. And lo.

Oh I hope there will be a sequel to the shot of Adrian closing her eyes for considerably longer than a blink. Do you think when people stop her on the street they're like "do the eye close thing do the eye close thing! My friends will all ask if you did the eye close thing and I need to tell them yes she did I saw it and it was even better in person"

We're at the fight now. It's about to start. It's all going as expected. I truly believe that everything will be okay.

Before it starts, Apollo tells Rocky, "you're going DOWN". So maybe it will NOT be okay after all…

Seems like the shots of this fight are not as varied or interesting this time, and they're relying more on the announcer commentary telling us what to think compared to the first movie.

Now the obligatory montage to show us the rounds moving forward and them still going at it. Not the same style as the first movie, but whatever it's working fine. I'd maybe watch a boxing match if it were shot and edited like this so that it's just ten minutes.

I swear I remember seeing this imagery from across the drive-in way back in the 70s, I don't care if you believe me or not it's the truth.

Look, I know I don't know nothin' 'bout boxin' but it seems like you're supposed to use your forearms as shields kind of, and Rocky doesn't do that like at all.

The dialogue is telling us that Rocky is maybe losing going into the final round. I wouldn't have thought so… thanks dialogue!

"YOU'RE GOING DOWN" repeats Creed. Such writing I tell you. Rocky II - A Film By Sylvester Stallone.

I will never forget the carefully choreographed climax of the movie. They both crumble onto the floor and the one-to-ten countdown all slow-like as they maybe try to get back up and Apollo doesn't and Rocky barely does so he is the new world champion. Then the last couple minutes of the movie is the same basic energy as the first movie. It's like the first movie's ending was a template and they just replaced a couple of things.

They kept making more of these movies! I'm going to keep watching them! I'm going to do this notes-about-them thing!

(next: Rocky III)

#rocky 2

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Road Trip {Gina Porter}

summary: the musical was over and spring break has begun; the gang has decided to go on a roadtrip while y/n and gina try and deny their feelings

characters/ships: Gina Porter x fem!Reader; Rickey Bowen x Nini Slazar-Roberts; Ashlyn Caswell x Big Red; Carlos Rodriquez

song insp.: this entire playlist Teenager In Love - Madison Beer, What I Need - Hayley Kiyoko

word count: 1.6k

note: Gina is a wlw you can’t tell me otherwise | send requests!

part 1 | part 2

The gang finally had a break from musicals, school, and drama. Spring break was upon them and there were no pressures of an upcoming musical to stress them out. As far as Y/n could tell no one had any plans so she took it upon herself to make plans for them.

Y/n told Ricky, Nini, Carlos, Big Red, Ashlyn, and Gina to meet her at her house in the garage. When they arrived Y/n told them what she wanted to do, and they all thought she was crazy.

“Um, I just looked it up and it’s an eleven hour drive.” Ricky explained, motioning to his phone.

Ashlyn jumped in, “And it can’t be cheap.”

“You see, I already have that figured out, my uncle has a friend who can give us tickets, so that’s covered. We just need to stop at one hotel on the way there and back, so we don’t have to drive in the dark.

“If we go to cheaper motels and only stop in three cities, one on the way there, one once we get there, and one on the way back. Then we will have spent almost no money. Besides gas but that’s okay.”

“Are we really going to see Beetlejuice: the Musical?” Carlos exclaimed with an excited squeal.

Everyone looked around at each other before smiling and cheering.

The day had come, the gang was going to San Francisco to see Beetlejuice: the Musical - the off-off-Broadway version but a musical nonetheless. Y/n was the first up to drive, it was her van after all. She picked up Gina and Ashlyn first, Gina sat in the passenger seat and Ashlyn sat in the seat directly behind her. Y/n Picked up Big Red and Ricky who was already at Red’s house. Red sat next to Ashlyn and Ricky sat in the far back directly behind him. Y/n picked up Nini next, who sat next to Ricky. Carlos was picked up last who took Big Red’s spot while Red moved to sit next to Nini, right behind Ashlyn.

Everyone packed as little as possible, trying to fit a lot in the van’s small trunk was one challenge they couldn’t pass by.

“Hey, Carlos, sorry Seb couldn’t come.” Y/n said, glancing at Carlos through the rear view mirror.

Carlos sighed, “It’s okay, he had to help on the farm.”

A comfortable quiet fell on the van as music played sofly from the speakers. everyone stuck in their own little conversations. Gina looked over at Y/n who’s eyes were focused on the road. Y/n looked at Gina, catching her stare. The two girls’ faces heated up both of their eyes averting back to the road.

“You know,’ Y/n started, motioning to her phone resting on the center console, “You can change the music, if you want.”

Gina smiled and grabbed the phone, scrolling through Y/n’s playlist titled ‘Roadtrip!’ before settling on a song. She played the song and turned the music up with a smile, She by Harry Styles began streaming through the speakers, a favorite between the group.

Everyone soon started to sing along,

She lives in daydreams with me She's the first one that I see And I don't know why I don't know who she is

The first few hours flew by and soon everyone needed to stretch their legs, use the bathroom and get snacks and gas. Y/n put the gas in the van wile the others were in the station most likely getting snacks. Ricky and Nini were the first to walk out of the small building, Y/n tossed Ricky the keys.

“Your turn to drive, I need a break.” Y/n explained as she inserted her gas card into the machine. She hopped into the van, sitting in far back on the same side as the driver. Gina was the next to enter the van, Ricky and Nini already sat up front ready for everyone to load up.

Gina sat next to Y/n passing her a bag of her favorite snacks and her favorite drink, “Thanks, Gina.”

Gina smiled, slightly embarrassed, “It’s not a big deal, I figured you were busy with gas and stuff.” Her cheeks were warm and she shrugged it off before buckling herself next to Y/n, Carlos on her other side.

Ashlyn and Big Red sat in the middle row lost in their own conversation. Since Nini was sat upfront everyone was subjected to listening to the soundtracks from her favorite musicals for the next couple of hours.

“Where did we even end up?” Gina asked Y/n who was taking a sip of her drink.

Y/n looked out the window trying to remember, “Elko, I think.” She looked at Gina with a small smile.

Y/n wasn’t sure why she felt the way she did around Gina, they had been friends ever since she transferred right before their sophmore year a few moths ago. Y/n would find herself annoyed when ever Gina spent too much time with EJ or Ricky. Y/n got particularly angry with EJ during the dance he took Gina to. Y/n didn’t know why she felt hot while Gina sat so closely to her. Y/n kept her hands in her lap awkwardly, her knee sometimes knocking against Gina’s.

Y/n was lost in her thoughts and soon her snack and drink were soon forgotten as she drifted off, the three hours she spent driving taking its toll on her. Her head fell to the side, colliding with Gina’s shoulder.

Gina’s eyes widened at the sudden weight her her shoulder but smiled to herself when she saw Y/n sleeping peacefully against her. Gina blushed and returned to her conversation with Carlos.

A few hours had passed and the sun had begun to set by the time Y/n had woken up, her head still lying on Gina’s shoulder, who had been careful to not wake her. Y/n’s eyes fluttered open, her brows furrowed as she looked around before she realized she was on someone. Her head shot up, eyes widened as she looked at Gina with a sheepish smile.

“Sorry.” Y/n mumbled to Gina.

Gina smiled and leaned close to Y/n and boldly whispered into her ear, “I didn’t mind.” Shivers ran down Y/n’s spine, feeling Gina’s breath on her neck like that.

Gina sat back, her cheeks rosier than usual. Y/n’s face not so different as she tried to hide behind her hand as she rested her arm on the arm rest and looked out the window.

Music still played softly, this time it was some sort of soft hip-hop or rap only he and Big Red really knew, but no one complained. Everyone was fairly tired, sitting in a car for about seven hours could do that to a person.

At some point Nini took over driving and Ricky was in the passenger seat, explaining why his music was playing. Y/n yawned and stretched as best as she could.

Y/n looked out the window finally noticing the beautiful sunset that graced the horizon. The highway wasn’t so beautiful but the mixture of oranges, pinks, reds, and yellows made up for it. Y/n sighed contentedly and pulled out her phone snapping a few pictures before choosing one to share on her story.

She flipped her phone’s camera, nudging Gina getting her’s and Carlos’ attention taking a picture while the golden light was still kind to them posting this image with the caption ‘road trip going strong’ adding a small heart next to it.

Y/n and Gina began talking about their future plans how Gina wanted to go to a preforming arts college and how Y/n hoped to get into art school. Y/n was unsure about getting accepted but Gina reassured her, “You’ll definitely get in, they’d be crazy not to have you, plus that’s two years away.”

Y/n smiled, “Yeah,” She chuckled, “Maybe we’ll end going to school near each other.”

Gina blushed at that comment, “Yeah, maybe.”

The two continued to talk as the van continued to barrel down the highway, the sun slowly sinking behind the horizon. Soon Nini pulled into a small motel that lay just of the highway. The motel was small and slightly sketchy but they didn’t mind as they all clambered out of the van and pulling their bags out of the cramped trunk.

Ricky went ahead to rent a room for the night, Y/n told him two rooms each with two beds would be the most convenient for everyone. The couples could be in one room and share beds and the three singles could each sleep alone, one of them on the couch.

The six waited outside for Ricky with the keys, the entrances to each room being outside. Ricky walked out with a frown on his face, “They only had one room but it has two beds and a pull-out couch.”

“Ricky and I get a bed!” Nini called as she followed her boyfriend towards their room. “Big Red and I can share a bed too, if that’s okay with you, Red.” Ashlyn said softly.

“You and Gina can sleep on the pull-out, the floor would probably be better on ,y back anyways.” Carlos offered as he followed the group up stairs leaving Y/n and Gina in the back both of them sharing embarrassed faces.

What a cliche.

#hsmtmts #hsmtmts imagine #ricky bowen x reader #ricky bowen x nini salazar roberts #gina porter x reader #big red x ashlyn #ashlyn hsmtmts #ashlyn caswell #ej caswell x reader #ricky x ej #this was lowkey inpired by papertowns?? maybe?

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IAC Reviews #013: The Forest (1982)

I’ve been gone for far too long and in desperate need of a massive pick-me up with how everything around us is becoming more of a tire fire by the minute. So, let’s pack our bags and make our way for the woodlands to get away from the chaos for a while. I miss being out in the great outdoors during times like this. It’s so calm and peaceful, and with us approaching summer here in the northern hemisphere, it’s all the more pleasant. The fresh air, wide open space, the clear night skies - what could possibly go wrong? _______________________________________ I first heard about The Forest back in 2008 when I came across the Creepy Kentuckian’s review of it as part of his now dead series “Creepy’s Crappy Movie Reviews”, in which he spotlighted other horror titles like Lost Boys: The Tribe, Terror on Tour, Return to Sleepaway Camp, and Bates Motel to name a few. Since then, it sort of faded away from my memory and much like other films like Don’t Go in the Woods...Alone and Backwoods, which was for better or worse. Because I have an unusual fascination for these gritty, lesser known or spoken of titles, my eyes almost always light up when I come across something in the wild like this. I hope you packed your bug spray, because we’re going in deep for this one. Who knows what we’ll find?!

The Forest is a 1982 horror-thriller film that was directed, produced, edited, and written by Don Jones who doesn’t exactly have the most impressive filmography with anything too noteworthy to speak of. Most of his credits are attributed to the sound department, with titles like Blood of the Iron Maiden, The Psycho Lover, and Girl 27 (which is most recent credit as of 2007) coming up when you crosscheck his information. In regards to the cast, most of them didn’t go on to do a ton either after the 1980s for the most part, apart from Gary Kent who has the most prolific career of the crew with most of them being attributed to acting and stunt work - something he provided here as the acting stunt coordinator, which he went unaccredited for.

Our story centers on that of two couples and longtime friends who go on a camping trip to get away from the city and potentially help save one of their marriages from divorce. However, their fun doesn’t last too long when car troubles, bad weather, and a cannibalistic hermit looking for his next meal before winter puts a damper on things. While this isn’t anyone’s first rodeo with woodland cannibals, hermits, and weirdos, perhaps this one will bring something special to the table to help it stand out among all the rest.

The Forest In One Gif:

Well, color me impressed...I think. ________________________________________ It’s hard to really put a pin in movies like this since it feels like you can only do so much with the concept. You don’t exactly know what you’re going to get, so at best you might get something above average and at worst you’ll have a disaster of a time. Going into this, I honestly wasn’t sure what to expect given the mediocre review from the Creepy Kentuckian and the abysmal 3.8/10 rating on IMDb. I’ve had luck with poorly rated and received films before in the past, so maybe there was some hope that this would impress me. Maybe.

As far as the story goes, it's not all that bad and the motivation for our main characters feels like it means something so it doesn’t feel like a completely bland and generic slasher film - sort of. With the reviews I’ve come across on IMDb, some say that while this absolutely looks and feels like a stereotypical horror film with the same tired tropes, it bring something else to the table that helps it feel a bit more different. But, what this thing is I can’t exactly nail down either. I think it's partially due in part to the supernatural elements that come into play a bit later, which caught me off-guard because I wasn’t expecting it - certainly not for a film like this, as well as the subtle drama with our villain’s backstory and the marital subplot.

If I had to make one gripe about it that I can think of, it would be the logic and reasoning behind why our cannibal hermit, John, is doing what he does. I mean, we do learn more about his backstory and why he’s the way that he is, but why he chooses to hunt people for sport and his food supply doesn’t completely make sense to me if that’s how he’s scraping by alone. He’s situated on miles upon miles of woodland with plenty of freshwater sources, so why he isn’t utilizing those to his advantage doesn’t make a ton of sense to me. Plus, you’d have to have a good amount of luck to just stumble across random hikers and campers like that, but again, that's just a small gripe that we don’t get much of an answer for.

With our characters as a whole, they aren’t all that bad and or as forgettable as others are from similar low-budget, obscure, and forgotten horror films. There’s something charming about our main characters, even if the acting isn’t very good and the dialogue being clumsy which starts to show itself more as things go by in a way where it boarders between feeling awkward and sometimes unintentionally comedic. The latter feels all the more accurate when it comes to one of the scenes towards the end of the film, and I don’t know if that was done on purpose or it was a weird stylistic choice with the editing [which, as a spoiler, flashing epilepsy warning for those who are photosensitive].

From a technical standpoint, it’s pretty good for what it’s worth and I have very little to nitpick about.

However, the only way to truly enjoy this is in 1080p+ because you’d otherwise be robbing yourself of the all around sound visuals, which is probably the strongest thing going for it. The film was shot in the Sequoia National Park, which makes for some truly beautiful shots with the scenery; both the day and night shots when the lighting was good. But, some of the day for night shots it feels a bit off because we’ll cut from that to an actual night take, and then back to day for night. It can throw you off a bit with what time it’s supposed to be, but that feels more like something that can be overlooked with some patience.

If I had to fault the technical department somewhere, it would be with the sound. For the most part, it’s quite good and clear. In spite of that, we have a few hiccups here and there where the dialogue feels muffled or low due to the background noise of the rivers they were shooting near or on part of the child actors who have a filter distortion over them. Once again, this can be glossed over, but without captions or a good ear you might overlook something unless you don’t care.

When it comes to the SFX work, I’m impressed by how gruesome it was for something this low budget. The opening sequence in particular is probably the most graphic moment of the film and it gets us off to a nice start with what we can expect for the duration of the film, even when it comes to the more tame murders or bloody injuries. The same can be said with the stunt work as well in a way too, I suppose. While the fight sequences aren’t anything special, it’s interesting that one of the actresses, Tomi Barrett, did her own stunts; which included a scene where she dove off a small cliff and was swept down the river over some rapids. Much like her co-star and husband Gary Kent, this also went unaccredited for.

On another semi technical note, the score and soundtrack isn’t all that bad either and is kind of catchy, at least to me. It was composed largely by Richard Hieronymus and Alan Oldfield; with Hieronymus providing work for films like Lethal Pursuit, The Astral Factor, and The Love Butcher and Oldfield working on films like 10 to Midnight, The Fear, and The Fear: Resurrection. The songs are also a nice touch as well, even if they’re brief; particularly “The Dark Side of the Forest” (ft. David Somerville) and the closing song “The Edge of Forever” (ft. Carol Browning). If you have a guilty pleasure for 80′s horror soundtracks, especially the somewhat cheesy like ones like Blood Lake, Psycho Pike, and Truth or Dare?: A Critical Madness, then I think you’re going to have fun with this one. I hate to admit it, but I’ve been jamming to both ever since I wrapped up seeing this a few hours ago.

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So, where am I at now with this? I don’t completely know, if I’m being honest.

To hearken back to something I said about Rot last year, I think that the low score it has is a rather harsh and a bit unfair. While I agree that it’s better than Don’t Go Into The Woods Alone by a long shot, it doesn’t sit right with me. On that note, I feel that seeing reviews that place it at 8/10 or above is being a bit too generous as well, even if it’s in a “so bad, it’s good sense” which I don’t consider this to be since I don’t see it as a terrible horror film either. This is why it’s difficult for me to stick some pins in this damn thing to figure out where I’d place it.

It’s not a masterpiece by any means, absolutely not, but it’s not trying to be and it’s not a massive disappointment either like a certain film around the same time was. If you’re looking for a different slasher film of the time, especially if you have a weakness for woodland flicks goes, consider giving this one a watch some time and see where you fall with things. I’m stumped with how I feel about this one. I didn’t hate it, but I don’t see myself rushing to watch this again in the near future.

Rating: 5.3/10

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cobaincreates · 5 years

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warnings: f l u f f i want this so bad

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bless tany for this gif

kinda feeling this song for them, not entirely sure but check it out!

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your heart was racing as you plopped down in your chair and searched for something to drink. you needed to catch your breath as everyone else danced on the floor in the center of the banquet hall. it was getting warmer and warmer so you started to fan yourself with your hand. you sipped the glass of champagne you thanked a waiter for and looked toward the large mass of family enjoying their time. it made the brightest grin spread on your face as you trained your eyes on a particular husband dancing with two little nephews of yours.

joe had taken his suit jacket off and draped it over the chair beside you about two hours ago. he hadn’t stopped dancing yet. you really couldn’t blame him, the wedding playlist was a whole soundtrack of your teenage years. you knew every word to every song that played through the speakers. joe seemed to have new moves for every song too.

your eyes lit up when he caught your gaze and he couldn’t help but grin. he said something to his nephews and they ran off to someone else before joe turned toward you and made his way out of the crowd.

“you know my sister will not be happy when she sees you sitting down,” joe reminded you.

“i just needed a breather,” you said and held out your hand for him to take as he was a couple steps away.

he sat down in his chair and leaned over to give you a sweet peck on the cheek. “you okay?”

“yes, i’m okay.”

your cheeks were starting to ache from smiling so much at him. you always found yourself doing so whenever your eyes were on him, and it wasn’t just the champagne from tonight. even when your eyes weren’t on him and he popped into your head, you’d be grinning endlessly. your chest would feel like it was ready to burst just at the mention of his name.

joe kept your hand in his lap while he picked up his untouched glass of water and took a long sip. dinner was long over, but your stomach growled for something to eat. you hadn’t had much throughout the day before the ceremony and you managed to fill yourself up on the nicely made dinner, but it must not have been enough.

“oh, we’re so going back out there,” joe groaned as a new song played. neither of you could resist it, so you let him pull you up and back toward the floor happily.

the words were already on your tongue as joe took your other hand and moved his shoulders in a shimmy. you both moved to the beat and sang the words to one another, all the while having fun with it. a few of joe’s cousins moved closer to you two and joined in as they jumped around. there was one moment where you grabbed onto joe’s tie to pull him closer, then immediately laughed. he enjoyed it much more than you thought and kept his hands attached to your hips.

you had belted out the lyrics so loudly, you throat felt a bit raw by the time another song came on. joe hugged you around your waist and you felt thankful for a slow song finally. your legs needed another break.

“you look beautiful.”

“you’ve told me a few times tonight already.” you cupped joe’s cheek and leaned toward him for a kiss. you were then interrupted by a tug at your dress and you looked down to find your nephews fighting each other over who got to dance with you. it surprised you that they weren’t tired yet. you moved away from joe and bent down to their height to help them figure it out. “how about we all hold hands so both of you can dance with me?” you suggested and that seemed to be doable to them as they nodded.

joe left you to dance with them and you swayed from side to side while holding their hands. as you watched the little ones below you, you couldn’t help the overwhelming sensation that came over you. a simple thought had passed by in your head and now it was all you could think about. it didn’t make your soft smile falter however, which was a good thing as you thought about it more. you then looked up and searched through the room for joe. you found him sitting at the table, watching you with a look of adoration. his head was against his hand and he looked tired from the night’s activities.

when the song ended, you let the boys run off before you went over to joe. he reached out and stroked the material of your silky dress when you stood in front of him.

“ready to go home?” your stomach flipped as he looked up at you. you hadn’t had nerves around him in years, not since you were teenagers. but you knew that it was because of your small realization. you couldn’t bring it up with him now though, it wasn’t the right time.

joe nodded and you both grabbed your things before saying goodnight to the whole family, and the bride and groom. your nephews were sad to see you both go, but you promised them you’d have them over soon for a movie night.

the air was chilly as you walked outside toward joe’s car parked the furthest away and still heard the celebration going on inside. joe’s arm was wrapped around your waist loosely after he draped his jacket over your shoulders. once you got into the car and he started it with a bit of heat coming on, he turned to you.

“think we can stop somewhere for food?”

“took the words right outta my mouth,” you commented and gave him a nod.

joe wasn’t inebriated in the slightest, having paced himself through the night knowing that he was going to be the one to bring you both home safely. there had been plenty of nights you shared where you switched off on who would be the designated driver and each night was always something new. this one, you both were just hungry and ready to eat the worst possible food imaginable.

joe stopped at a mcdonald’s, pulling up to the drive-thru. there was only only other car for this time of night and you both took a look over the menu as you decided what to get.

“think they have champagne?” you wondered aloud. the taste still lingered on your tongue.

joe turned to you with a laugh and shook his head. “i don’t think so, bub.”

“i bet they’d get a lot more customers if they did.”

he nodded his head with a grin as he moved to car up to order. he asked for a big mac and a medium fry for you both to share, along with a cup of coke. you leaned over the console to order yourself, which was unusual since you normally told joe what you wanted beforehand. first, you asked why they didn’t have champagne, earning an awkward chuckle from the worker behind the bright screen. joe laughed and apologized on your behalf, which you ignored as you said what you wanted to eat.

joe parked the car in an empty spot once you two had gotten a bag full of burgers and fries. you dove straight for the fries, smacking joe’s hand playfully when he tried to reach in for his burger.

“you’re an animal,” he chuckled.

“no, i’m just hungry.”

you both took your respective burgers out of the bag and opened them up in your laps to start eating. joe set the fries on the center console between you and your first bite tasted better than you thought. normally you didn’t eat mcdonald’s, but after all the champagne you had over the last few hours, it tasted like heaven.

“did you have fun tonight?” joe asked as he sipped his drink. you held out your hand for it when he was done and took a quick sip. it was big enough for you to share one and you just liked to share things with him.

“of course. i’m so happy. it was such a nice wedding. she looked so beautiful.” you sighed, remembering how joe’s cousin had walked into the church all decked out in her long flowing dress and her hair and makeup all done for the special day. all day you had spent gushing over how perfect she looked. “god, remember when that was us?”

“i do, yes.”

“i miss that day. that was the best day ever. can we go back?”

“maybe we can just have another one?”

“oh, no. that’d be a nightmare.” you shook your head fast.

“why?” he laughed mid bite.

“do you know how stressed i was? i was freaking out thinking you’d get cold feet or i’d get cold feet. i thought i was going to throw up or fart or something during our vows.” joe cracked up, throwing his head back in laughter. you really were so nervous that day. you had thought so many times of how you wouldn’t blame him if he got cold feet and left you. but you were really glad he didn’t. “i was scared shitless. i don’t want to go through that again. i just want to relive it.”

“that’s kind of the same thing, bub.”

“no, it’s not.”

“it is, but you’re right.”

you giggled at his agreement with you and continued to eat your late night pit stop snacks in silence. you looked over at him a few times and reveled in the moment of how you two were dressed, having just come from a wedding and we’re now in a parking lot of mcdonald’s. you felt like a teenager again, always on some kind of adventure with him.

“love you.” you cooed after a few moments, chewing on the last bit of your burger.

joe smiled and met you halfway to peck your lips quickly. he then brought out his phone from his pocket and turned in his seat as he tapped through the screen. “hold up the bag for me and smile.”

“i have food in my mouth.”

“and yet you’re still talking with a mouth full.” he teased.

“oops, sorry.” you muttered and covered your mouth for a moment as you chewed the rest quickly. “wait, wait!” you shouted when the flash startled you, making joe laugh. “okay, now redo.” you held up the bag and smiled sweetly as you showed it off, joe’s jacket still draped over your shoulders. you closed your eyes since you always hated the flash on the phones since they were so damn bright and nearly blinded you every time.

once the photo was taken, you leaned over the console and put your cheek against joe’s shoulder to watch him type out a quick caption. it always made you smile and freak out a little when he’d post photos of you online— still to this day.

“post wedding snack with this one. she’s pretty upset that mcdonald’s doesn’t serve champagne and i’m pretty upset at how pretty she is,” he wrote and posted the photo.

“aw,” you cooed and shoved a couple fries in your mouth.

once everything was gone and thrown out, joe drove you two home in the quiet. there were hardly any other cars out at this time of night and you were starting to feel tiredness seep in. joe’s thumb was rubbing against yours in your lap and you’d close your eyes every so often as the engine hummed below you. your realization from earlier came to mind and you so badly wanted to say something. before you could, joe was pulling his hand away to find the garage opener.

the house greeted you warmly when you walked inside and you instantly kicked your shoes off, sighing at the sudden relief. you hadn’t really noticed it all through the night, but you could go for a massage.

both you and joe made your way through the house and toward your bedroom so you could change into your pajamas. you hung joe’s jacket back up in the closet and went into the bathroom to wash your face and pull your hair up in a ponytail. you brushed your teeth then walked out to find joe not in the bedroom. you pulled your dress off along with your bra and replaced it with one of joe’s old t-shirts.

joe was in the kitchen drinking a glass of water with just a pair of sweatpants on. you smiled as you walked up behind him and wrapped your arms around his waist, giving his back a kiss.

“lookin’ good, hot stuff.” you commented as you moved around him to get yourself a glass. this was normally what the two of you did before bed, you both downed a glass of water.

“i could say the same about you.” he pulled you against his side with a smirk. “you come here often?”

you laughed and nodded up at him. “i live here actually. with my husband. he should be home any minute.”

“why don’t we ditch this popsicle stand and leave him in the dust? i think you’ll have a fun time with me.”

“oh, really? i don’t know he’s got some killer dance moves that nobody’s ever seen.”

“i promise you mine are better than some foot shuffles and flailing arms.”

“care to enlighten me then? before he gets home, of course.”

“i’d be happy to.” he took your hand into his and pulled you toward the bedroom. you brought your glasses with you and laid over the covers to get ready for the little show. “give me a good one,” joe pointed at you as you scrolled through your phone for a song to play.

you couldn’t resist the giant smile that came onto your face as the song played and joe started moving his hips. your stomach was aching by the time the first minute got through and you were glad you had set the glass down on the bedside table. your eyes were watery when the song finished and joe was done moving around the room and making the most of the space he was given.

“how’d i do?” he breathed heavily, leaning himself against the edge of the mattress.

“very impressive,” you wiped at your eyes. “maybe you can teach that to my husband when he gets home.”

joe grinned and jumped onto the bed to hover over you for a kiss. you cupped his face and placed your lips over his, pecking him a couple times as he made himself comfortable on you. he placed his head over your chest as he calmed down from his dance routine. you softly brushed through his hair as he laid there and you both felt closer to falling asleep. but that little thought came back to you and wouldn’t stop nagging until you spit it out.

“hey you,” you said softly and touched his cheek.

“hey me,” he replied with a quick peck to your palm.

“i have to tell you something.��

the nerves spiked in your stomach as he lifted his head with intrigue written all over his face. you smiled softly at him, watching him closely as he moved and looked all around your face.

“okay. tell away.”

you breathed deeply as he set his chin on the center of your chest. you bit your lips anxiously as he waited for you and you were so close to convincing yourself to just say anything else. but you knew if you didn’t get it out now, you’d regret it. and how could you look into those beautiful eyes and not say what you wanted to? joe always made you feel that you could tell him anything, so why stop now?

you licked your lips and touched his other cheek, stroking the stubble lightly. joe had grown anxious while waiting for you and his eyebrows were now set deeper into his forehead. you finally said to hell with it and pushed it out of yourself.

“i want to have a baby with you.”

the lack of sudden response had you on edge, but you knew it was a big step. of course it was always a thought in your relationship from the moment you made a commitment, but neither of you had spent too much time talking about it. you knew joe wanted kids someday and you always saw that during every moment he spent with his nephews. tonight it was different when you watched them while you were dancing. that desire washed over you so quickly and set so deeply into your bones. even just the thought had you choking up from excitement. so many thoughts and images ran through your head of a little family you’d make with your husband. you were finally ready for that.

“are you serious?” joe asked slowly and sat up on the other side of the bed. you weren’t sure if he was excited or scared shitless.

you nodded with a laugh and sat up too. the excitement closed your throat up again. he’d be a beautiful father. “i think we’ve put it off long enough, don’t you? we’ve been together, what? five years now?”

joe watched you closely as you spoke, shocked and not knowing what the hell to say. it was obvious he had been waiting for this moment forever and now that it was here, he didn’t know how to react.

“you’d be the best dad in the whole world.” his throat tightened at the comment and you put your hand over his when you saw the little twitch in his face. “i can see it when you’re with your nephews and how much you focus on them and what they need and you’re always trying to please them while also being the fun uncle. you have so much love in there, joe, it’s crazy,” you laughed and put a hand over his chest.

you waited a moment to see if he had anything to say and when he didn’t, you went on. “frankly, it freaks me out sometimes,” you admitted. “how is it possible to have so much?”

joe’s eyes had glossed over now and your heart sunk at the sight. he wasn’t somber and you weren’t making him upset. his chest was just filling with that same kind of love.

“i can see it whenever you look at me and i want our tiny little human to feel that too. i want to have a baby with you, joseph.”

joe broke his frozen position and kissed you deeply, holding the back of your head. you couldn’t help but grin against him, your hand moving from his chest to cup his cheek.

“you’re amazing, you know that?”

“i love you so much.”

he pulled you back in and this time kissed you passionately, breathing deeply. his throat was starting to relax now as the excitement set in even though he still couldn’t believe everything you said. he never thought he’d cry over the fact of you saying those words to him, but here he was having shed a few tears.

“when can we start?” he pulled away for a moment, his breath hot on your face.

“right now,” you grinned.

#joe mazzello #joe mazzello x reader #borhap #im soFTTTTTTT #I LOVE ETHISSSS #joe mazzello blurb #joe mazzello fluff #bohemian rhapsody

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I was reading @falsettosconfessions a while ago and found one pertaining to the darkness and complexity that surrounds Trina’s character. It was #112 if anyone was wondering. I started writing this long reply to that, elaborating on it and expressing thoughts and giving insight, but I thought I might hijack the post. So I’m posting it here.

cw: depression mention, self-harm mention, suicide mention

I have written a rough essay on this subject (along with other aspects of her character) for my university and continue to work on it because Trina means so much to me. Full disclosure: I am in no way a Trina scholar, but I’ve had a long history of analyzing her character for no reason other than insomnia and love and I’ve spoken to Alison Fraser and have gotten ideas and insight into what exactly Trina’s origins have been.

Alison Fraser herself has told me no less than three times that Marvin’s Wife wasn’t even supposed to make it past In Trousers. That’s first.

She expressed a bit of surprise when she returned for March of the Falsettos and has expressed, as well, that March of the Falsettos is much darker than any of us really understand if we’re not familiar with it.

Anyone who has known me for a long time knows I love Alison Fraser as Trina, and I think that’s because of the way she played her. Alison was the original, and, from what Alison has said, the basis. While Bill Finn says that In Trousers is not technically autobiographical (in the case of the wife and children), Alison admitted that, in a sense, Trina was her. She was Trina.

I know it can be cliche to say something along the lines of the original being the best, but I can say that I truly understood so much about Trina from listening to In Trousers and March of the Falsettos because of Alison’s portrayal. The raw energy she gave and the way her voice depicted the situation and tone.

Is it possible that I also am enamored with March of the Falsettos because it was written before Falsettos edited some of my favorite parts? Yes. Very much so.

There are examples such as vocal orchestrations. Alison herself did vocal orchestrations, and while I know that every interpretation of a character is a personal choice, there were some things in the revival that, once comparing and examining them, I found confusing.

If you have a chance, listen to “This Had Better Come to a Stop” between the March of the Falsettos cast recording and the 2016 revival. Listen to “He’s like a baby who’s denied.”

That “denied” has changed from a higher note to a lower one in the revival. Her “primal screech” is what Alison called it. Because of the desperation and hopelessness that Trina felt.

Here’s a short section of my paper, acting as a bit of a summary, and addresses the lines mentioned in the original @falsettosconfessions confession #112.

As the show advances, her life deteriorates. March of the Falsettos, as a show, is noticeably darker when addressing Trina’s character. This is evidenced in “Trina’s Song” (discussed later) and the character’s continued references to death. While the first act of Falsettos retains the line about the scalpel, March of the Falsettos originally had the lines

We’ll see if you two get along,

If not I’ve got

Some Rope

Right Here,

And Trina will be hanging from a chandelier.

It should be acknowledged that she sings this directly to her own therapist in an attempt to ask him for a housecall for her son.

Another example is in the changes in lyrics or the absences of sections. You know the “five!” Trina exclaims in Falsettos? Barbara’s delivery in which she has to remind the not-quite-men that she, is in fact, one of the Jews in the room. Stephanie’s delivery where her response seems, to me, to convey a sort of incredulous (perhaps) reaction. As if she doesn’t believe that they, either by negligence or by ignorance, have forgotten that she too is part of the Tight-Knit Family.

In March of the Falsettos, she doesn’t say it. She doesn’t remind them that she’s there. She sings seldom in the opening song. There’s a different air to March of the Falsettos that Falsettos seems to change.

The tone of the show changes with the continuation of the story into Falsettoland.

Alison expressed, and I firmly believe this to be true, that Marvin is the one she loves. She loves him in such a way, and the saddest part of her love is that he is wholly unavailable to her. He loves men.

Do not get me wrong, I’m a huge fan of Trindel (especially with the way it was portrayed in the revival and with the beautiful chemistry between Stephanie J. Block and Brandon Uranowitz), but when I look at March of the Falsettos, I remember how different Trina’s song is. She acquiesces to the marriage proposal and sings about how she’ll remain faithful even if Mendel cheats on her. Her views on Mendel and their relationship are those of a partnership. She sees Mendel as someone she cannot fully find herself loving the way she loved Marvin.

A tangent from that is the fact that the revision of In Trousers, there were two, actually, wasn’t out yet. Love Me For What I Am encapsulates a lot of what makes up Marvin and Trina’s attraction to one another. From my paper on the subject:

In “Love Me For What I Am”, the first song chronologically in which Marvin’s Wife appears as her own character [as opposed to one of The Ladies in the chorus], His Wife recalls their first meeting and being hopeful and optimistic, wanting Marvin to be able to love “a girl like [her]” who is imperfect and insecure (“The Nausea Before the Game/Love Me For What I Am”). Marvin himself asks the same of her, despite his own doubts that he could love someone like her, a female rather than a man.

Returning to the point about Trina dn Mendel’s relationship, March of the Falsettos’ version of Trina’s Song is different onstage than it is on the cast album. Trina’s Song and the Reprise bookend March of the Falsettos (song) just like in the revival, but it’s cut for time, I presume, due to the album being recorded on vinyl in 1981.

The last note on Trina’s Song and Reprise is that of the cut material, on the soundtrack that is, Trina often mentions how her desire is to resemble Mendel. Physically, she dresses like him, rather than Whizzer, stated in the libretto and in this photo:

caption: Trina and Mendel pre-Trina’s Song

caption: Trina and Mendel post-Trina’s Song

There’s even a section in the libretto that during A Marriage Proposal, he gives her his scarf, and later during the Reprise of Trina’s Song, she ties the scarf around her waist in her attempt to be like him.

The exact meaning of her need to resemble is uncertain. I have seen interpretations of it being her accepting him as a husband, I have seen that it’s to give herself some form of power over herself, or even the reverse in her surrendering, yet again, to be someone’s wife.

You can tell that the tone of the show changes with the introduction of Falsettoland, and also, the character herself greatly changes. In part due to the addition of facts (her Jewishness, for one; explained below) and Faith Prince’s portrayal.

Faith does a lovely job. I have no qualms with her whatsoever and think her spin on Trina is endearing. She matches the show.

Trina’s character regains an element of femininity. Pink is her favorite color. Excellent. I once read in an archived review of In Trousers, back when it was put on by Playwright Horizons, that Marvin’s Wife wore a pink shirt. (According to Alison, it was polyester, apparently.)

She helms efforts towards Jason’s Bar Mitzvah, doing what it is that she and Marvin should collectively do as parents and try to have the best Bar Mitzvah for Jason.

Speaking of...

According to Alison Fraser, Trina wasn’t meant to be Jewish at conception. There were two Jewish women in In Trousers: Miss Goldberg and Trina. One by birth (Miss Goldberg) and one by marriage (Marvin’s Wife).

I think it’s humorous that in March of the Falsettos (show), Trina offers bologna to Mendel for dinner during therapy sessions (oh my lord, Jason’s therapy is a very long song in MotF), which is decidedly not that kosher.

In Falsettoland, she says that the food must be kosher and rejects the idea of lobster from Marvin.

Her faith seems to be incorporated more through the show, especially in Falsettos considering that it is immediately established in the first song, which, to me, changes a lot of her character.

I think that I’m a tired human and will give this a rest for tonight, but here are my thoughts right now and if anyone wants to add anything or discuss, feel free to add things in reblogs or send me an ask.

Cheers.

Tam.

#trina falsettos #trina weisenbachfeld #in trousers #march of the falsettos #cw #falsettoland #falsettos #tamsin speaks #analysis #alison fraser #faith prince #stephanie j block #the nerd speaks #then goes to sleep

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ok ok, sorry sorry sorry i’m back. i’m a few weeks behind and watching these episodes for the first time no spoilers.

Previously on Insecure: Living with Daniel was a lick. Daniel wants to make connections at the club. We Got Y’all needs to hire people of color. And Molly switched to a black run law firm.

Looky looky looky. Issa and Daniel are sleeping in bed together, platonically of course. Daniel teases her and at first you think they are still playing platonic, but they soon begin kissing and Daniel goes down on her. There is totally a scene full of Issa Rae's naked pelvis and hard nipples which I have to say is an improvement over her very awkward sex scenes last season. I approve. Idk about the eating Flamin Hots while getting head, but I understand the sentiment being expressed. But then! That was a fake out too, yet another of Issa's frequent fantasies about the person she wishes she could be but is not, like yelling at her coworkers at work or going on dates with her ex who dumped her last season. She got me that time.

Why are they sleeping together platonically? Issa quickly rolls out of bed and leaves before acting on any of the things she's thinking.

Molly is taking her bulldog to the dog groomer. She hasn't started at her new job yet. Issa hasn't had the interview yet for the invitation she had in the last episode but Molly is just happy she will be getting her own place soon. Issa clearly isn't quite ready to leave the safety (not to mention financially beneficial) arrangement she has with Daniel, but isn't being totally honest about that. Her makeup looks fantastic though.

Molly doesn't see what the big deal is since Issa is sleeping on the couch, but Issa's awkward response makes it clear they she and Daniel have started sharing a bed. Like a good friend, Molly knows this isn't a good idea, but Issa defends her poor choices while eating a dog biscuit.

We Got Y'all is participating in like... a non profit fair or something? I really like Frieda in a supervisory role, and it looks like Issa is doing better from the redheaded stepchild position she had been in before.

Meanwhile, Molly is having her first day at her new law firm. Her dress has a confusing belt thing going on but a cute ribbon tie at the neck. She meets all of the staff and I enjoy just the concept of a firm staffed entirely by black people. That's a nice thing to see on TV. And the view isn't bad either.

Can I just say that I actually love LA? I expected to hate it and for it to be full of nothing but bleach blonde fake boobed bimbos. First of all the people were totally normal - far more "normal" "American" people than I was expecting, which is to say... overweight, basically. New York was a lot worse/better - nothing but thin and fit people in really fantastic clothes. I never saw a fat person in New York until I went to Times Square with the tourists. I could totally live in LA and be completely happy with the vibe, it is honestly not that dissimilar to Chicago at all. After visiting a few times I really don't know why people hate LA so much. You know what I hated was San Francisco... a surprisingly ugly city! And before I ever went to California I used to tell people if I were to live anywhere there it would probably be SF. Oof. That's what happens when you speak in ignorance, sis.

Daniel is working on a new track which sounds like a cross between a video game soundtrack and a sad "my life was hard" rap song. He's hoping Spyder will like it, and solicits criticism from his producer friend. I don't know his name, sorry. The producer friend doesn't like basically any of the components of the song and criticizes things he thinks Spyder won't like. I'm not sure if we should trust his opinion more than Daniel's at this point. The caption says that he "strips down" the beat. They both sound like the same sad ass song to me, so idk. But Daniel is clearly uncomfortable with the criticism.

It turns out We Got Y'all is hosting a booth at a job fair, looking for the more black employees Issa suggested. Frieda and her manager haircut are happy with the turnout. For some reason, Dias de La Muerte dancers show up complete with a band and everything and I guess job fairs in LA are more interesting than any I've ever been to... which now that I'm thinking about it is zero...

It turns out this is part of a presentation for another employer that works with musically gifted kids in underrepresented neighborhoods. Issa goes over and talks to the staff there and seems impressed with their shtick. Or maybe impressed with the cutie manning the booth.

Uh oh. At Molly's new firm she's learning the office doesn't use standard tech that she's used to expediting her work with. Instead of DocuSign, they use Adobe and a courier. Yikes. I worked at a nonprofit that still didn't have efax and, why? This is the whole ass future. We wasted so much paper printing and faxing everything manually and they didn't even have the big blue recycling bins, which annoyed me to no end. They are also ok with CPT time on the courier deliveries, which is clearly unacceptable to Molly. Sigh. Why do we do this, you know?

Issa is meeting with the property management company and is being interviewed by an older black guy, which is a good sign. Let me reiterate that her makeup is lovely. It seems like the part time position is more the role of a super than... something Issa would really be interested in. She would also get a discounted apartment - about half off - that the interviewer is readily willing to give to her. He asks if she wants it, and at least she has a good bathroom mirror again with which to comtemplate it.

Later, Issa is tagging along with Daniel at the laundromat, who is complaining that his producer friend took out all the "musicianship" in his track - he wanted the string accompaniment, he wanted the instruments. Daniel is trying to elevate his production with Nordic influences and unique touches. Issa offers gently that when he gets to the next level he can do whatever he want, suggesting nonverbally that he should play the game for now and get creative later.

Issa tells him she picked up the second job, so now she can move out. Daniel points out that three jobs is a lot but Issa, perhaps pressured by Molly and Kelly, is really focused on getting her own place. Daniel tells her he really doesn't mind, and their chemistry is lovely as they flirt and get in each others' faces. They are doing a good job of building the tension because I really just want them to bone already.

Back at Molly's firm, a coworker asks if she wants to take a walk for lunch because she's in a fitbit challenge with her MiL. I am sharing data from my Apple watch with my sister and my niece and biiiitch... being a child is the best. She regularly gets 500+ move points a day while I struggle to reach 400, wtf is this child doing all day? She clearly moves so much more often during a day than I do, lol. No wonder we get fat as we get older. However Molly turns down this invitation - she is used to working through lunch, in case you weren’t picking up on all the signs that the black owned firm does not run as strenuously compared to the white-run environments that Molly is used to. The emphasize the point, the storage room is just randomly inside the building instead of offsite, as Molly would have expected. She clearly is not a good fit for this environment, and honestly she should just acknowledge that.

Girls night. The four girls are at a bar listening to Molly complain about the firm. Issa points out there are Mexican law firms as well, for Molly to complain about. Of course Tiffany, the obnoxious one, agrees that black things are janky. I mean... this is not an argument I want to get into for obvious reasons.

The girls go through examples of supporting and not supporting black businesses - Tiffany loves Beyonce, so although she signed up for Tidal she never goes on it. Kelly has a white accountant even though she herself is an accountant. I feel like this all the time. I feel pressured to give clicks to black articles, lol. I feel guilty for skipping links on Twitter about "black issues." I feel a responsibility to care and show support even about things that I don't fucking actually give a fuck about. Also Issa is wearing a dress that definitely showed up in some pivotal scene last season.

Tiffany hints about the changes from pregnancy - she hates that she can't fit her clothes anymore and she's being excluded from group chats. But the overall point is Molly should give the situation some time and try to adjust. Is Amanda Diva really pregnant IRL? Her pregnancy belly is realistic.

Kelly was helping Issa find an apartment - the best she could do with Issa's credentials is something with a "half bath," which, biiiiitch. So Issa breaks the news that she is, in fact, going to stay with Daniel a little longer. They're not sleeping together and they're getting along so she doesn't see what the problem is. Her friends try to convince her there is a problem, and shit like this scene is why I don't listen to bitches when it comes to my romantic life. Don't need all that extraneous input on what choices to make that are best for ME.

Back at We Got Y'all, Issa and Frieda are interviewing one of the people that showed up at the job fair. For some reason, Issa clearly isn't feeling it - and why is she taking part of this interview in the first place? Is it literally just because they need a black opinion on who to hire? The girl compliments Issa's sweater, perhaps perceiving the bad vibes she's kind of rudely wafting. The candidate asks sincerely what Issa thinks of the job, and Issa answers honestly that "they are how they are." When Issa says she's been there five years and the candidate concludes that Issa must really like it, she blanches with no response. But later, Issa checks out the website for the musical empowerment employer, so maybe she will find the motivation to make a change.

More of Molly's black firm, more of her disdain for the loose standards. This time they call her out, and everyone at the table laughs politely.

Check out Daniel! Despite Spyder's reluctance, apparently they have established a working relationship as Spyder shows up at the studio to meet with Daniel and the other engineer. It turns out a friend of Spyder did get shot at the club the other night. He probably died because when Daniel asks if Spyder is alright, Spyder takes a beat and responds "....nah."

Daniel plays his track for Spyder instead of the pared down version his producer recommended. The producer asks if Spyder wants to hear the other version and Daniel is clearly annoyed at this power move. He does play the producer - Khalil's - version, and Spyder thinks that version is hot as well. At first you aren't sure if Khalil is really being a snake - clearly both versions are good, just for different sensibilities - but then he takes over the session and starts playing more of his own stuff, to Daniel's chagrin.

Issa and Daniel are having dinner... I wanna say at Gladstone's! But that's a totally uneducated guess, lol. Daniel is in a bad mood, but Issa is oblivious. "Is that Jay-Z and Beyonce?" she says; "No, it's us! We cute!" she playfully jokes. This breaks through Daniel's bad mood, and Issa explains she wanted to thank him for his generosity, but she is going to take the part time job and move out. Daniel responds petulantly, and eventually explains the snake move by Khalil in the studio. Surprisingly, Issa takes Khalil's side, saying that Khalil knows what Spyder likes, and Daniel would be squandering this opportunity to be so prideful.

Daniel says he thinks it's funny that Issa is giving *him* career advice and... while maybe that's valid, does Daniel even have a job that pays actual money? Cause I have to say I have not seen any evidence of that over the last three seasons. He throws his "saving you from some shit" actions in her face and Issa is understandably hurt. The dinner is ruined. They still sleep together in the bed that night but they are turned away from each other in terse silence.

Daniel halfway apologizes for taking out his issues with Khalil on her but Issa only dryly replies that it's fine. He turns over and starts spooning and kissing her, which she reluctantly gives into. Toxic. I mean, I get it, but fuck, toxic relationships. It seems redundant to even complain about it because, fuck it, aren't we all toxic sometimes too - it's not always just the other person. This time, he goes down on her for real.

Unfortunately, Issa isn't into it. She says it doesn't feel right, and I don't blame her. They lie next to each other awkwardly and eventually turn away from each other again.

the soundtrack says something something something about loving each other despite their pride and yeah... I get it, lol. I would have got it without the on the nose elaboration.

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She’s my Abigail.

Tay, meet my best friend Karla. ( @kserpaaa )

Freshman year I sat in class next to this funny girl with wild dark curly hair. We instantly clicked. You know when you meet someone you feel like you’ve always known? That was Karla. In 2007, our sophomore year we watched you open for Brad Paisley, wearing our sundresses and cowgirl boots, screaming Our Song at the top of our lungs! We captioned all of our Facebook photos (wow that sounds so old 😂) with your lyrics.

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Flash forward to 2010, one year into college and still not much of a clue what we were doing with our lives. Speak Now was the newest soundtrack to our lives, and Long Live became our official friendship anthem. Through the past few years together we had experienced our share of backstabbing, heartache, even mocking from dragons we didn’t see coming. We continued to lean on each other and learn the value of true friendship. In the summer of 2011 we got to see you on the Speak Now World Tour, and it was one of the most emotional nights of my life. Karla was going through a really hard breakup at the time, and we were seated near the B Stage. You started playing Last Kiss, and we just stood there hugging each other and sobbing the entire song. Then of course lost it again to Long Live. ♥️ It was so therapeutic and special, and a show we will never forget.

During the Red & 1989 eras I was away at college out of state, and we learned how tough long distance friendships are! We also learned that our friendship was solid, because it only got better from there. Karla is one of the strongest people I’ve ever met. She has been through so much pain that she could be the most bitter person, but instead she overflows with love. She takes care of everyone around her, loves people unconditionally and never asks for anything in return. She stood by me even when it wasn’t cool, and I am so thankful for her huge heart. She’s a WIFE and a MOM now, and somehow STILL finds time to encourage me and remind me how loved I am! Everyone deserves a friend like Karla. It would mean the world to me if she got to meet you.

Thank you for bringing us together through the power of your music and your heart. You have been such a huge part of our lives since we were 15. Now we’re 27 and in a whole new season, but we feel more connected to you than ever. We have always had the time of our lives fighting dragons with you and CANNOT WAIT to see you again together on the Rep tour!!

We will be at Metlife night 1 screaming and sobbing and shaking the night away!

We love you Taylor and we will always be on your side. ♥️

@taylorswift

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Scorpion album review: just give into the formula

So let’s start with April 2016, when Drake’s Views was released. Let’s start with the album that included several hits ("Controlla," "Hotline Bling," and "One Dance") that would serve as the soundtrack to Summer ‘16. Views was the perfect companion for this young Jamaican gal, who gleefully dutty wined at parties with Henny & coke-filled glasses in hand. It was great.

During that same year, Lemonade and ANTI revealed (among other things) that it's possible to be a music superstar and still produce creative, career-defining work. And that your career will ultimately be the better for it.

Lemonade and ANTI would go on to set a precedent for how I would later judge popular music artists. Surely, if Beyonce and Rihanna (THE queen of hits herself) could produce intensely personal, layered, and culturally relevant albums at the height of their careers, Drake could too, right?

I carried these thoughts - along with a measured lack of patience for Aubrey's overexposure and pseudo-Caribbean vibes - going into More Life, and again on Scorpion. And while he's dropped the cultural thievery on Scorpion, the album reveals an artist stuck in a formula and unwilling to grow creatively. Scorpion commits many Drake-album sins, including overstaying its welcome, exploring repetitive topics (i.e., money, career success, his relationships with women) with no new insight, and generally reveling in its own self-importance.

That being said, Scorpion was a smooth, engaging & often-enjoyable listening experience. Cohesive and introspective, the album features excellent beats, production, and lyrics tailor made for Summer ‘18 Instagram captions. Additionally, the album becomes a lot more enjoyable with you drop the expectation for something new and instead accept the tried-and-true formula.

Five proper albums in, it's unclear whether Drake is ever going to have his Lemonade moment. As his frenemy Jay-Z once asked, "would you rather be underpaid or overrated?" in response to his critics. And maybe it's hard to grow creatively when you're too busy counting the commas and breaking Apple records. Maybe producing career defining work is not relevant to Drake compared to repackaging existing cultural expressions in the name of hit singles.

At just 31 years old, Drake has the time to produce this "creative" and "career defining" album. But in the meantime, grinding my hips (water in hand this time) to yet another hit single and stealing lyrics for my Instagram captions will just have to suffice.

Favorites:

· 8 Out of 10 - This track provided the best-possible response to Pusha T and Drizzy's haters. While not devastating in content, that Plies outro made me chuckle. You big mad, huh?

· That's How You Feel - Man, that Nicki sample was great. This one had me doing the patented Black girl head snap. And reminded me why I used to be a Nicki Minaj fan. I'll gladly take notes from this Onika breaking down the boss-bitch playbook like a good student.

· Talk Up - Jay-Z is really good at rapping. And has been great at rapping for over 20 years. Your fave could never.

· After Dark - So we're in agreement that Ty Dolla Sign is giving some of the best features in music, yes?

· Final Fantasy - A great soundtrack for all the intense sex sessions I'm not having.

· In My Feelings - An effective track, with great samples. That "Lollipop" sample in particular makes me want to throw my (very unsubstantial) ass in a circle and sing along with friends in the club.

Skips:

· Blue Tint - Don't need two fuck-boys (Drake and Future) on a track singing about having expensive diamonds and putting women on "ice.” I’m good luv, enjoy.

· Peak - Skippable track. And can we stop this trend of having British women talk aimlessly on R&B tracks? It's overdone and a total cliché. K, thanks.

· Jaded - Songs like these reveal the problematic and misogynistic underpinnings of Drake's regard for women. I don't need songs about men treating their romantic interests like some weird "Build-a-Bad Bitch" project - especially in 2018. Hard pass.

· Is There More - Again, not sure this track is needed. But that Aaliyah-inspired outro? Here for it.

· I'm Upset - This song is just bad and lazy. And no, the "Degrassi-themed" music video didn't win me over. But I see what you did there, nice-guy Aubrey.

· Ratchet Happy Birthday - Where do I start - between the bad chorus, cringe-worthy lyrics, and unnecessary auto-tune…I literally laugh, scrunch up my face, and ask "what the fuck?" every time this one comes on.

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Don't Make Me Over 36

I feel like a DICK! The date on the original notes for this was 5-10-15 (And it was SUPPOSED to be posted in MARCH of that year.)

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If ANYBODY is even still around, I am so sorry. And, also thank you.

Don't Make Me Over 36

Babycakes Is Born

Jonesy was in the middle of her workout (which meant doing choreography of R&B and pop song official videos, but real talk - like 2 or 3 videos and she'd be done with everything and everybody), when she first started feeling pains. The pains weren't severe or really uncommon for her, having had a couple of bumps in the road during this journey already. She wasn't really ready to give up on her workout yet because that end part of Beyonce's Grown Woman gave her LIFE, but when she felt… not really a pain, but more like a hard kick from the baby, she almost hit the floor.

"You ok, Boss Lady?" Bree asked.

Jonesy chuckled, "Yeah.. I felt this weird super kick…" She hoisted herself up and a gush of fluid released from her body. "Goddamn." She said, as calmly as can be. "I have to go change and get in contact with the doctor..."

Fortunately, she had her things together and it didn't take her long to both change and to put on an adult diaper which her mother insisted she purchase. At some point between the changing of her clothes, washing her face, brushing her teeth… she began to hurt. She rinsed her mouth, came out of the bathroom and gave Bree a worried look.

Bree had already called in assistance, in case something went wrong and she sat alert, "What is it?" She wondered.

"Just some pain." Jonesy took a few deep breaths. "Get a photo of me before I go into labor."

"Of course," Bree said and did so. She began tweeting while Jonesy made her way for the couch, her legs collapsed and she barely caught her fall this time. Bree yelped, dropped her phone and rushed over to help her. Jonesy's heart was beating really fast and her head was spinning. She almost started crying as she called Sam. "Sam. H… Hey…"

"Jones… are you okay?" He was already taking off his work belt. "Is it time?"

"I feel like I might have another seizure!" She sobbed.

"Where's Bree?"

"She's… she's…"

"I'm on my way! Let me speak to her!" He ran passed his manager, just saying, "Jonesy!" The manager, the rest of the staff and the customers looked either surprised or confused, but he hardly had time or attention to notice.

Jonesy was trying to explain something to Bree as Bree was on the phone with Sam, trying to listen to both of them and also to get Jonesy situated where if she had a seizure, she could help her power through it. "She might tell you not to call 911, but I've been saving up for it and just go ahead and do it. You can't really see her through a seizure and drive her to the hospital at the same time, you know?"

"Yeah…" Bree said, reaching for her own fallen phone, but keeping Jonesy's hand in hers and honestly feeling super overwhelmed wondering where the fuck her backup was. Jonesy heard New Edition's "Is This The End" playing from her laptop and hoped silently that that was not a sign, because she certainly felt like she might die.

Renee and Mack finally came in and Mack wondered, "Is this the baby?" in excitement.

"I think I might be preparing to seize," Jonesy was trembling and crying at this point. Mack's eyes widened.

Bree rubbed her belly, "Your hormones and blood pressure are likely not ideal, but maybe it'll be okay. Maybe you aren't seizing. Think about that. Say that," she spoke into the phone, "Yes, she's had one in the past and I guess right now she's having auras. She's pregnant, her water has broken and she thinks she might be about to have a seizure." She looked at Mack and said quietly, "Water and towels." Mack rushed off to comply. Bree put the phone down and cradled Jonesy. "I am going to try to get somebody here to help you. I need someone to help me get you into fresh clothes."

"I got the diaper on."

"Ok. Well, do you need help changing it?"

"No… I don't think I'm seizing. I think I felt the pain and started having an anxiety attack… Cancel the ambulance."

"No, Sam told me not to listen to that order. He claims he can afford it and if I'm being real, I can use the help for my own peace of mind."

By the time the ambulance arrived, they took her vitals, checked her out, confirmed whether or not she needed to be rushed to the hospital (and decided that she didn't seem to, but that they would bring her.) She wanted to wait until she had to be there. She wanted to be comfortable, in the meantime.

Bree had been in a Twitter war pretty much all day long. It started with her posting the pre-hospital photo of Mercedes, and the caption, "When your queen springs a leak but she's still on fleek." Several fans had responded and retweeted in the excitement of the nanny seemingly confirming that Jonesy's water had broken. But, several others decided it was time to try to come for her. There were size jokes and the typical declarations that there was no reason for people to care because, 'She isn't even actually a star. She's a blogger and her reality show isn't good.'

" KittyWildebeast MarleyRose And yet, here you hoes are. #LoveToLoveToHateYou #YallHatersCorny #BabycakesDay"

Sam sighed, "She is always on her phone."

"It's her connection to the outside world," Mercedes said, rechecking all of the stuff that Bree had gathered. "And, she already did her work. I'm just… Sort of freaking out."

"I would love if we can go, now." Sam told her.

"I still have time. I don't want to wait around at the hospital."

"I don't want to try to get there too late and have something happen. I can't believe you sent the ambulance away. We're still going to have to pay for it."

"Worrier," she said.

He quickly muttered in reply, "Says the one triple checking work that she already approved."

Bree commented from her seat, "He's right!"

"Was that a vote to go to the hospital?" Sam asked. "Because that's a two-fer, if so. And two-fers mean you gotta," He looked at Jonesy and she frowned, but reached for her bag. Bree got up and started gathering the stroller, with everything else tucked inside. Sam got up, took Jonesy's bag and made his way towards the door.

Ryvie had arranged for a private room and she and Mary had already decorated the door, which had a guard outside of it. Jonesy pointed a thumb at him as she came inside, "Ummm?"

Ryvie shrugged, "You never know, with your life." She looked at Bree, unpacking the stroller onto the small table and wondered, "Are you planning to be here for the duration? Because if so, I could give you a little tip for watching Ra. Her and her daddy are heading this way."

Bree asked, "Do you not want her to see and know the wonders of bringing human life into the world?"

"To be frank, I'm caught between not wanting to traumatize her with that bloody event and WANTING to traumatize her with it."

"She's too young to be anything but entertainingly grossed out by it, I think," Bree offered. "But, I will take her on. After it was decided to do the hospital thing, instead of the home thing, I'm really not worth much use around here other than handling supplies."

"Nonsense. I have felt better since you were hired," Ryvie said.

Mary was seated at the table, preparing the first outfit and kicked out a chair for Mercedes to sit at. "You ready for this painful miracle?" She asked.

"I am. It feels surreal. Like, so many times, actually coming to full term was not a reality, so inside of me, no matter how well I'm keeping it together, I am losing my shit."

"If it makes you feel better, you ain't keeping it together well. You appear to be losing your shit from where I'm sitting," Mary said.

Mercedes shook her head, "It doesn't make me feel better."

"Well, it didn't make you feel worse," Mary commented.

Ryvie interrupted with, "Whenever it all happens, there can't be too many people in the room. I hope you made some choices, because all of your little friends will get their feelings hurt if they think that they're about to crowd into this space when you're at risk."

The last checkup she received, her blood pressure was dangerously high and she had to be on bed rest. Mostly, it was her obeying, but feeling sick all the time and Bree helping her to try to keep her pressure down. But, the more she tried to relax, the more time she had time to sit and think about everything wrong. About if she saw a baby that looked like Finn, what was she going to actually do. About why she went through with this, especially with all of the complications and the restrictions. About the time when she'd gotten so upset that she had a seizure. A fucking seizure. And the doctors were not sure that she wouldn't have another one.

That was possibly why she had so much anxiety about it and almost manufactured one in her mind.

The level of support made her heart swell. She expected much of it, but hormones didn't care about that when she was crying every time she saw a new check in at the Babycakes Day event that Kurt set up on Facebook.

This. Was. Painful.

Hours of it, in fact. In her mind, she had imagined this happening with a soundtrack in the background that embodied the experience. She had thought that it would play out, not like a movie, but like a viewing. She had somehow expected an out of body experience. Like… she had dissociated from a lot of things over the past nine months and now, she was finally hit with the sobriety of her choice. There was now going to be another person in her life that no matter how screwed up or out of wits she was, she was going to have to be responsible for! And this additional person was coming today. And she was bringing the pain with her. Pain like Jonesy had not been capable of imagining.

For some reason, the "soundtrack" happening in Jonesy's mind was Tina covering Tina's Wish by Ike and Tina Turner at a Shucks on a Shingle show at her request. "I'm talking to the priest. The priest. And everybody out there in the universe. If what I'm saying is wrong, then tell me the right way to say it. Cause, I wanna be made over…"

"What was I thinking?" Jonesy groaned out loud, nearly crushing Sam's hand. "I don't want to do this. I didn't understand what I was signing up for. I can't be a mother. I can't raise nobody!" She cried.

Ryvie wiped some sweat off of her head and said, "You're already a mother, biologically. You still have time to sign off.."

Jonesy could barely breathe. Sam was handed Babycakes, and he stared at her, trying to smooth over the crying. "If you don't want her, I'll take her," he said and moved closer to her.

Everything hurt, but when Sam brought the baby over and showed her to her mother, Jonesy reached out to accept her and forgot whatever she had just been saying.

#dmmo #Don't Make Me Over #samcedes fanfiction

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