#i work so hard everyday

[technicolorxsn]

,,,

#im too tired to even word my thoughts right #i wish i knew how to connect with people.. #i think i mightve upset a friend bc i pushed him away instead of talking abt how ive been doing but i cant keep bothering him #its not right #at this point just... #i dont think anyone should have to hear me out when im upset #its been more than proven that no one actually wants to deal with me being upset #i wish i werent so sad and scared all the time.. it makes it hard to reach out and actually talk about anything #and the thing is like... people want to be there and care to a point.. i never know where it is or how to avoid it and then its my fault #i have too much wrong im upset too often im paranoid im sensitive im crazy just.... idk #and just... i am doing the work #i work so hard everyday #and its still never enough #but no matter how much i improve myself and grow and change its never enough for anyone #how many emotions do i have to swallow to be loved? #just... so many people in my life have only ever wanted me if ive been happy and complacent and doting and stupid #and anything else was a flaw #im so tired

[lotus-pear]

got like five asks requesting aku or chuuya so i just drew them together🗿

#i don't ship them btw lol i hc them as mentor/student but you guys can do whatever ig #idk how to draw aku im so sry his hair is so hard for me fsr💀💀 #since bones or asigiri didnt give them interactions i had to do it all by myself :( #its hard knowing your two favs will never get screentime together even tho they probably see each other everyday at work #also they are so father son coded after dazai left i'd like to think chuuya took responsibility for aku #since aku was the result of his partner's failed apprenticeship so chuuya felt an obligation to pick up where dazai left off #anyway they’re besties but i can’t prove it #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #ryuunosuke akutagawa #akutagawa ryuunosuke #chuuya nakahara #nakahara chuuya #bsd #lotus draws

[blithesharem]

GOOD MORNING guess who's emotional about Asmo

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Wake up. Alone.

Cold compress over eyes. Tepid shower. Exfoliate, soothe, hair mask, softening shampoo, deep conditioner.

Serums one through four. Under eye gel. Facial moisturizer. Hand lotion, body lotion, heel lotion.  

Dress, blow dry hair, begin make up. Something light today. Effortless. Brightening, to hide the undereye shadows that just won’t fade these days.

A tap on Belphie’s door, and one on Levi’s, the two hardest to get up up in the morning. Then to the kitchen to start breakfast.

Fruit smoothies with lots of devildom spinach for the iron. A few dozen eggs, most set aside for Beel. Ham and Bacon and toast. Start a pot of coffee that will rotate throughout the morning. Bitter black for Lucifer. Black with a secret sugar cube for Satan. Cream for Mammon, extra sweet for Levi, green tea with honey for the twins.

Another round of wake ups, this time sticking head through door and chiming as bright a greeting as you can manage. Give them something to grumble about, get them moving, maybe even crack a smile. Satan and Lucifer already awake, if they even went to bed. Mammon unresponsive, a sullen lump on his bed, though he’s surely awake as well.

Back to the kitchen. Feed Beel plate one, try to get Belphie to finish dressing (did he fall asleep halfway through putting his sleeve on?)

Smile. Smile. Smile.

Final round. Cajole, threaten, bribe Levi from out his room, making sure he takes his seat even if he’s buried in his hoodie. Snatch the book from Satan’s hands and promise he can have it back at the breakfast table. Sing Lucifer the time and remind him he promised not to leave for work early today. Climb into bed with Mammon and squeeze him close until he feels himself enough to huff embarrassment and follow you into the hall.

Tease, flutter, flirt, giggle. Smile. Smile. Smile.

This is your job. Your duty. Lucifer leads you all, Mammon guards. Levi the unspoken entertainer, Satan the educator. Beel protects and Belphie comforts. You, who can’t do any of that, not to your standards, does this.

Keeps everyone together. Keeps everyone moving. Keeps everyone waiting.

Because you know they’ll be back. You know Solomon could never let you down. You know it’s only a matter of time until your family is whole again. In the meantime, this is how you help. You make sure your brothers are fed. Make sure they sleep, and shower, and brush their hair. Make sure they bicker, and fight and occasionally even laugh.

You make sure that when they come home at the end of the day, there is always a home waiting for them.

#bithe fic #obey me asmodeus #LOOK look look #he works so hard and he makes sure no one notices #because he knows if they noticed they'd resist it through pride or shame or frustration #so he plays his role perfectly everyday to keep everyone together #he needs his family and he knows they do too #asmodeus i love you #anyway i wanted to write some angst today because im starting to get sick

[louismygf]

some louis tomlinsons i never posted ^_^

#louis tomlinson #louisupdates #louisprojectstracks #lfltracks #mindofwalls #tracksintheam #usertomlinsonsource #dailytomlinson #im not Getting his likeness it's making me so insane #does it look like him?!!?!? no but if i caption it louis Then u will know #anyw these r sketches that still look kinda presentable to me #souwee if these look unfinished unpolished it's bc they are shdjdjd #vans louis & chemical formula louis were way back in 2021 (when i first became a fan) #afhf one some time in 2022 #all the others were drawn in feb 2023 except the aotv one which was march 2023 #aotv being. the one where he's in a suit yup #i wanna practice drawing him some more. ive been practicing when i have time (not a lot) since 2021 basically. he's become my muse kinda ! #i need to work on my realism🥲 it's the effect of never ever stanning a real person... so all ive drawn my whole life is anime&cartoons LOL #i have to draw him everyday i wanna like. devote all my free time into getting my fanart of him to look Right #you look like youd be easy to draw BITCH. if that's an insult then saying louis is hard to draw must be high praise!!!!! #ignore the fact that it may be just a skill issue on my end #if you read this far... erm... thanks! rbs are super appreciated thank you! ❤️ #my louis #liz.art

[embraceyourdestiny]

Love characters who are small and have a terrifying unflinching nerve will and determination to the point where the people around them call them unstoppable beasts with an insatiable gluttony and desire to improve and prove themselves against anyone in the world who doubts them

Also they peace ✌️ (*^_^*)✌️

#drop any similar characters pls theyre my favorite I love the underground the normal one the small guy who becomes big through hard work #LOVE THE NORMAL ONE #the more normal a protagonist ajd that being their struggle the more I love them #they are the everyday person and I love them so much #og #asta black clover #hinata shouyou #naruto uzumaki #gon freecss #hxh #hunter x hunter #black clover #haikyuu!! #haikyuu #hq #anime #anime protagonist #naruto series

[spop-romanticizes-abuse]

what bothers me about horde prime, more than his lazy characterization or his lack of impact on the narrative, is the fact that he is such a bad representation of a cult leader. like,, this is not how cults work. they don’t just insert a chip into you and make you follow their every directive like a robot. real life cults are a lot more terrifying because they use manipulation as a tactic to convince people to join them. it’s not a digital chip that you can remove from your system and suddenly you’re in complete control of yourself. cult survivors have talked about how hard it is to actually unlearn that mindset and start thinking for themselves, how many years it takes to stop feeling guilty for leaving their cult or seeing the toxicity in the leaders they so religiously followed.

sure, hordak and catra have some trauma tied to their experience with horde prime, but most of that is because of the physical torture they went through, rather than their experience of being brainwashed. and it’s fine if horde prime was just some villain and not a genocidal cult leader. but it’s clear that he was written to be a religious authority figure, the execution is just so off.

i know he’s a character in a fantasy world, so he had to use his powers for something. but instead of turning people into robots, he could have shown them a “better world” through his tech, talked them into joining him and forgetting about all their current worries, and then used them as weapons against etheria.

it would have been a lot more impactful and angsty if catra had willingly joined horde prime’s cult so that she could repress her guilt. in fact, it would have been really interesting if horde prime had convinced catra that he would help her repend for all that she did, if she joined his cult. this would have been a lot more comparable to religious guilt and trauma in real life, and it would show that catra actually felt bad for what she did, instead of just looking sad for a while and then continuing to be a shitty person anyway.

#everyday i mourn the character horde prime could have been #he could have actually been representative of toxic religious figures who push unhealthy mindsets #instead of being all “heehee you love adora dont you” he could have been like #“i sense guilt. you’ve done a lot of horrible things and you want to take it all back but you can’t. at least you think you can’t. #but if you join me you can repend for all your sins. dedicate yourself to me and i’ll make sure you’ll never feel like a bad person again.” #and it sounds like escapism because it is #halfway through catra begins to realize this and she has to choose between repressing her guilt #and actually allowing herself to feel guilty so that she can work on being better #and instead of having adora rescue her catra rescues herself by making a hard decision #but alas #spop critical #spop salt #spop #spop discourse #spop criticism #she ra #anti spop #tw religious guilt #tw religious trauma #tw religion #tw cult

[simgerale]

me after attempting to get back into sims and realizing i had a lot more to do than play the game

#hi everyone #I’m going around hugging you all #okay now that we are gathered here today #i will simply acknowledge that i have been gone for a very long time and then also acknowledge that maybe it was for the best #i relied on sims to be my only creative activity even if i tried to write a book at the same time #and also. i prioritized sims over real life responsibilities. that’s just a deadly combination lol #but I recently noticed I just replaced sims with Netflix. with YouTube. with anything that gave me quick dopamine #literally became addicted in a sense. still am but I’ve been cut cold turkey from most everything #I get off work and go. okay I’ve done the dishes and the laundry……..I could read or write or bake…. #I try to write and sometimes i get a good hour #then I read for a few hours and then get tired of it #and I made cookies Tuesday so I’m waiting for those to be gone before baking again #I’m just so pitiful that I feel BORED and don’t know what to do #so I said….. okay what if I do sims for an hour. #I downloaded some new cc Tuesday and tried to play yesterday #y’all ……………….. I can’t find the energy anymore to set up elaborate scenes and pose my sims and plan posts #I said wow… this is boring without my intervention and fake story #I said wow…….. all this for what? for tumblr? yes I created cool things and provided joy. but is that inherintly important compared to my #own joy? my own everyday activities I should be doing? #y’all I do not leave the house unless we got out to eat or shop or travel to our parents #.. I have little desire to. I’m trying to find that desire #but my husband is busy with grad school and work and I don’t want to do anything by myself #I’ve found myself in one heck of a slump #I didn’t want to be human for awhile. just had no desires no interests no ambitions #I was slacking off SO HARD at work. I just had no drive to do well #I’m still working on it. I’m still trying to get caught up. I’m still trying to force myself to move every day. #but I am struggling y’all. and I can tell you that sims… sims isn’t helping rn but I want it to so bad. I want to get back into it #I didn’t mean to disappear on everyone. I got married and then life got busy and then I fell into this hole of nothing #I didn’t even WANT to crawl my way out. but my husband has helped a lot. I feel like such a child!!!! #I reached max tags. 🙃 bye love you all. till next time

[bunnihearted]

lately i've been finding it so so hard to be positive and hopeful. and it's making me so bitter and hateful. i hate it but i dont know what to do about it

#idk it's just all too much to deal w #i have sm pains and physical discomforts. money issues. stress bc my avpd is making school very hard for me to finish #i have suicidal thoughts and really bad anxiety every single day. i've basically begged the mental health care system for help for 7 months #like i've kept contacting them and asking them but they havent done anything at all for me. i dont even get to see anyone and talk #i just dont know what to do or how to handle it #im so stressed abt the future. i have to finish school but then choose smth so i can go to school/get a degree & get a job #im holding my mom down and back and i need to find a way to kove out from her and support myself #i have no friends to meet or hangout with and destress with etc etc and im really feeling the lack of it #idk the list just goes on and on and on #nothing is working and idk how to fix it. but also i know that me and only me have to find a way bc there is no help #i struggle bc of my avpd and mental health but there is no treatment for me to get. they just dont wanna give me *any* help at all #im just so frustrated. and every day is the same. everyday is full of some physical pain anxiety stress worries suicidal thoughts etc etc #i cant break free idk how!!!! my life is so fkn boring and pathetic and miserable #i never get to relax bc all of a sudden last year i got extremely noise sensitive. and it's never quiet anywhere in this city #anyway yeah i could just keep going. and like now im feeling anxious bc my tooth is aching :(( #it -everything- never stops or lets up or relents. and it makes me wanna die even more. #so... idk im just incapable of being hopeful abt anything and that's really killing me idk

[mysicklove]

working hard so that rich girl by gwen stefani can be my anthem

#🔪 - mello talks too much #working hard so that i can have a chihuahua in my handbag and drive a mercedes convertible #working hard so i can buy $8 lattes everyday #working hard so that i can have a country club membership and play golf just for funzies #working hard so i can be a pilates mom later in life

[mjtheartist04]

#hey yall🌚 #what I miss?👀 #ok ok first- #the only reason I came back was- #I GOT SICK AGAIN LMAOOOO #so I’m free from working rn🎉 #me n my dad got caught in the rain and um- #yeah here I am👁️👁️ #ANYWAYS I MISS MY MOOTIES🥹 #ESP MY BELOVED CHERRI #YALL KNOW HOW HARD IT WAS TO LOOK AT MY WALLPAPER EVERYDAY!???😤😢 #lemme adjust a bit and go through my notifs rq-

[sunsetsimon]

having a stare down with this virgin simon smut sitting in my drafts that i want to finish so bad but the words just aren’t coming to me :((

#I MISS WRITING AND BEING ON HERE #i dont even have the app installed anymore :((( #kinda been having an arthur morgan phase recently tho #that man is so…whew #also working at 5am everyday and not sleeping until 11 is hard #but i want to writeeeee #i need some inspiration

[qiekzart]

day 32 drawing len until my preorder arrives

bad art today sorry :[ cant do anything else...

u can send requests in my askbox (*^▽^*) (4 requests in askbox as of writing)

#drawing len everyday until my preorder arrives #kagamine len #my art #art #vocaloid fanart #chat.. ive been feeling a little out of it for a while is this burnout... I THINK IM FINE THOGH i just need to draw more i think #also i probably need to stop overworking myself when im injured but i will never listen to that <//3 #OUH YEAH soryr if i dont draw as good anymore... i am cursed (chronic pain) so its little hard sometimes but i try to work thru it for u al

[vaxxildamn]

very happy Matt decided to clarify his stance on the genocide of the Palestinian people rn. Pretty unhappy with the way he worded it, who he centered in his video, and disappointed to see the responses to it on Twitter.

kinda scared to even post about it bc CR fans can get so defensive about their favorite white people that they can often leave little room for criticism or nuance. but man I have thoughts.

#lemme just say. if you have a public platform that has set a precedent for philanthropic work. messages of positivity and love. #and have called attention to various political and social conflicts *in stream*. & whose employees and cast members are vocal #on socials about political topics #then it is NOT unreasonable for fans to expect them to address one of the deadliest orchestrated conflicts in recent history #a literal genocide is happening. thanks in part to the US. #it is good that they donated as a company and as individuals. so good! #but to everyone saying that publicizing good deeds like donations is virtue signaling or demanding CR cast to show their support is #or that activism shouldnt be all about what you post bc then it becomes performative #are kinda missing the point. and theyre not listening to palestinians at all #a huge issue with this conflict & the way its being received in the western world - ESPECIALLY the US bc of its partnership w israel - #is the sheer amount of disgusting minsinformation and propaganda convincing ppl this genocide is either not that bad or that its necessary #everyday citizens CANNOT change foreign policy. we cant do anything! #so what have Palestinians been asking us to do?? SPREAD AWARENESS ON SOCIAL MEDIA. MAKE PEOPLE AWARE. UPLIFT PALESTINIAN VOICES. SHARE LINKS #SHOW PPL THE TRUTH. #and yes its hard! its difficult to watch what theyre going thru. but we HAVE to. #i didnt rlly like matts statement. he said he didnt have the spoons to engage in the discourse. which i get. god i get it. #but ive also seen many many creators/influencers who are also disabled or whose families are directly involved gather their spoons to help #and no one was asking CR to harm themselves in the name of helping palestine. we only wanted them to spread awareness #bc the comments on their tweet about finally donating were full of mostly white centrist takes not able to see any benefit to donating or #addressing the issue at all. which is EXACTLY why CR should addresss it. bc they can reach so many who dont understand #but theyd been radio silent for almost 5 months. i didnt like that he didnt really apologize. i didnt like that he centered himself #i didnt like his lowkey flippant language either. saying all that.. ridiculousness in regards to a genocide not well worded. #but i dont feel right holding that against him. should he have thought it through better? sure but i get it #& unfortunately his parting message left a bad taste in my mouth - one of positivity & self care & hugging each other #nice important words but it didnt feel like he was talking about ppl who are affected by this conflict. but rather ppl who are watching #it just felt like a very white thing to say in response to this. we are not burdened and easily victimized bc of it #we are responsible. and so we must center palestinians. #if i were him i wldnt have gone in detail about how hard the palestinian genocide is for me to watch. #but thats just me #*CORRECTION: radio silent for almost 4 months

[itsdelicate]

“i’m pissed off you let me give you all that youth free me” has so much meaning to me i cannot explain lmao

#@ ocd taking over my 20s and leaving me completely housebound for years 🤪 #i’m still working against it everyday like. when people mourn losing 2 years over covid that’s me but almost 10 years 🥴 #anyway i never rly talk about my mental health on here cause it’s too hard for me to get into but taylor’s lyrics are always so 💔 ily bestie #text

[smirked-with-triumph]

The hot potato with the blue suit and smoke!! If its actually Mr. Turner then he is so fine, Your art makes me want to devour him in whole!! Aaahhhhjhbvh?!?

absolutely devastated Nickelodeon is never gona acknowledge him in any capacity ever since the end of Oh yeah!Cartoons (for me the last chance to do it in a tasteful way was 2 times in fact, in Channel Chasers and or in Mice Capades where they all became tom and jerries), at most it's butch hartman showing some production art or giving a passing mention of him when he reminisces about working on the pilot💔his appearances were so brief i can post my fav moments of him here (but i ask to search up fairly oddparents Party of Three first if you dont want spoilers, its the best one!)

#its not everyday theres an anon showing excellent taste #the entirety of fop season 0/oh yeah cartoons era is on youtube! please enjoy it when you can watch it! #i have made it my mission to keep pilot timmys parents alive in the form of art and AUs #in my interp he works at timmys school and looks after tootie! from these episodes hes excellent as a parent and teacher #if i do decide to give him a supernatural origin then the crocker interactions would be very interesting #“it was hard to hide their faces all the time” butch said...my showrunner in christ use the power of imagination/fear of the unknown #and no pulling a loudhouse where they show the parents faces anyway..that made me so madcore #at certain points they were undecisive with how much should be hidden of him and also his skin going🟤⚪inbetween scenes takes me out #asks #fop #also hope tumblr doesnt glitch again and actually lets me posts videos without spamming your timeline what the fvk

[khlur]

so tired of being single but the only thing worse than being single is being in a relationship

#i just want someone who will make doing everyday chores a bit easier #i enjoy being single so hard when i don't have to work out logistics for 93248209348 life altering decisions