#i'd love to stay friends!

[heartsoji]

FROM ME TO YOU: HEARTSOJI'S LAST OFFICIAL MESSAGE

dear all,

tumblr has honestly been a way bigger part of my life than i would ever admit to my irl friends. i've spent years on this crazy website and i now have a wonderful community and online friends that truly mean so much to me. i am so incredibly grateful for everyone who has supported me on this journey.

if we're being honest, i've lost a lot of my interest for anime and tumblr. i actually really tried to hold onto it, but i just couldn't do it. i hit a wall with writing, i lost touch with some people important to me, and i've found other interests and dont find anime nearly as appealing anymore.

and so, i'm logging off. i'll still be lingering around here for a while, but eventually, i will end up poofing out. i wont be completely gone, however, as i've made a new blog for interactions! no writing - there are just some people who i dont want to let go of. moots, please dm me on either tumblr to receive the new blog if you'd like to keep in touch. even if we haven't talked in a while, i'd really like to stay friends!

im sorry for the dramatic wording and long message, but this is really marking the end of an era for me. i hope you all have a lovely day!

love always, jisu

navi here!

#dont call me dramatic #i alr know #“jisu u dont even have a multi-thousand following nobody cares” SHUT UP I CAN DO WHAT I WANT #also i wont be archiving this acc coz idek what that rly means #moots seriously please reach out #i'd love to stay friends! #i dont care if we talked yesterday or haven't talked in months. reach! out! to! me! #anyways love ugs!

[beybuniki]

AU where Deku stays quirkless and he enrolls in UA's support department, he and bakugo befriend each other because they take the same train to school & Deku approaches him because they're both batfam fans :) they bond over common interest which also inspires them to work togetherrrrrr

#the canon event of bakugo bullying deku does not happen & i am usually not a fan of that its so crucial to them but this is a fun nerd au #they team up as either vigilantes or stay connected because bakugo interns under heroes that deku is also doing an apprenticeship under ig #deku is still connected to all might idk maybe thats his biological father for real this time or like he can be their bruce idk #anyway i think they'd be so fun as a duo i'd love to see deku navigatebattles and crimes without a quirk #and they have nerd discourse in their free time ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww #bnha #midoriya izuku #bakugo katsuki #deku #mei is deku's best friend in this universe :) #she covers for them when needed they rlly should be vigilantes sorry

[theoldkyokodied]

DEE IN THE DOOR WAY OF YOUR LATEST MAC AND DENNIS ART DUMP IS FUCKING SENDING ME LMAOOOOOO

I already replied this to a comment on instagram but i don't think i'll write anything more cohesive about my thoughts on deandra 'doorway haunter' reynolds: she is serving carrie white with a side of regina george after she got hit by that bus. haunting the doorway while her loser brother is hanging out with his loser friend, making fun of old skin mags they found. it's not like she wants to be part of that, but she would have loved to shoot the invitation down.

#(gripping the table until my knuckles turn white) love the twins #she would have still joined if she got the chance. just to prove herself. pathetic attempt for her brother's attention #(pointing at the sign that says 'hell is other people') jean-paul sartre was cooking with that one I'm afraid #hell does lie in the way we strive to be seen by others. I'd stay in hell just to provw I'm not who you think i am #she is so incredibly jealous that he has got friends to hang out with. even if it's ronnie the rat and dirt grub. #her ass is NOT invited to the hang out #I'm sorry. i know you meant it more as like a funny way that she's standing there. and it is!! #i just think about dee quite a lot. i need her (kicking rocks on the ground gayly. in a lesbian way) #iasip #ask

[erdarielthewhumper]

Caretaker and whumpee pair where there's no love lost between them, but the caretaker still does what they can to help the whumpee is actually a really Good Trope. Like, maybe the characters are rivals, maybe there's something in their past, maybe they just generally dislike each other as people, but one way or another, they're kind of on bad terms.

But whether out of pragmatic necessity (like it's clear they'll have to work together to escape or else neither will, or because as long as the villains are hurting whumpee they're leaving the caretaker alone, or because the whumpee's continued survival just is in some way vital to the organization they work for, or whatever) or simply out of basic human decency, when the two are stuck together in a bad situation and whumpee's badly hurt, the caretaker does what they can to help

#they don't even need to become friends afterwards like they can still stay on kinda awkward tense terms when it's over #but yeah i mean i like caretaker and whumpee being close as much as the next person #but sometimes them not getting along well outside The Situation is fun #(also i had a fanfic idea that decided to crawl in and live rent free in my head that's just this) #whump #whump prompt #whump scenario #caretaker #caretaker prompts #whump prompts #whump ideas #feel free to use in a story! altho do tag me if you do just bc i'd love to read it hehe

[harbingersecho]

finally played thru the infamous if demo and had an excuse to make a goth guy. with Facepaint and a coontail and everything. so here's Dane aka Lacuna of Dead Rat Society

#infamous #infamous if #interactive fiction #iris de luca #maya holland #mine #*24 #lacuna #try to stay on model challenge failed.whatever. also i made him under 5'3 after drawing the outfits bc i wanted to climb on counters in the #bus. that's that REAL manlet representation we need. also its so funny when that drunk guy calls u a fag indirectly. what gave it away #also 7 and dane exes is so funny. dane's like i'm over it tho i'm sad that we're not even friends + im happy you got friends but also. #are you in love with avina.like i don't care but ARE you? you have to tell me even tho i'd never ask. lol. but are you? its FINE if you #are i just wanna know. are they in love with you?do you want them to be. its fine btw. #taking everything in me to not start making yt spotify insta + twitter edits of the infamous peeps.

[lovecolibri]

Anyway,

#911 lone star #repeat after me #owen is not the main character because this is an ensemble show #i mean as a general rule you really should stay out of people's inboxes to bitch at them about something you know they don't agree with #but also people are allowed to call out the show for trying to get clout for diversity and then making it the owen strand show #and not even the 'owen strand is sooo good at being fire captain' show which would at least get us firecrew scenes! #it's now the 'owen does anything BUT fire captain because that's basically like sitting on the bench' show #which is a shame because there are a billion police/fbi procedurals i could watch if i wanted to #but i don't i want the found family hopeful wholesome 911-verse #and when owen IS being captain or being dad to TK or one of the team or a friend for the other captains his scenes are so good!! #i love those scenes and they give us more content for the other ensemble characters #and THAT is a lot of the complaint about the screetime is that it's majorly going to one character doing outside stuff #so not only is it not centered on the other characters but they don't even hardly get to be involved! #ANWAY #don't mind me just tired of hearing people say no one can be mad because owen is the main character #if this was a show with 2 mains and a handful of supporting characters or the show was named after owen in some way i'd get it #but literally he isn't the main character and that is why people are upset

[lunasilvis]

Of course I'm thinking about Philly (and the crazy luxury apartment I had there I wish was mine + the Trader Joe snacks on my virgin european stomach) today

#personal #23/3/2023 is a year ago today that I visited Philadelphia #despite despite...i had the best stay and left with really good eyebrows :) Loved the neighborhoods they reminded me of home #and got a copy of Zinn's super socialist historic lense of America in a bookstore called the Wooden Shoe or something. that was rad #And I had fun with my friend who's been the funniest and most considerate tour guide. who I'd still like to think of as friend #philadelphia #travel #*That's not the Taco Bell bell in chocolate btw. as contrary to popular belief

[jimmyspades]

#no rhyme or reason to these #I just rewatched s2 eps 9-10 tonight and kept thinking how handsome he looks. these are all from those two :) #I forgot how good these are... when melissa says what are you my dad??? 🙄 then calls him the sexiest man ever in the same episode. me #james spader #alan shore #boston legal #* #I love him so much.... #suddenly randomly feeling so sad tonight #and thinking about how much alan cares about his friends. and strangers. and everyone. he's so nice I wish I knew him :( #my best friend who lives in my tv. and in boston #I'd stay with him when he had night terrors and I wouldn't make fun of him for being scared of clowns and I'd play with his mullet... :(

[goldensunset]

that one post that's like 'i would be interested in playing chess but this is a very old game that people have been studying and developing strategies for for ages so there isn't a single ignorant thing i could do without immediately getting punished for it'. competitive pokémon is like this to me

#i need to find someone on par with me you know. an energetic newbie #aka uhhhhh i've never even heard of this pokémon before uhhhhh what does that ability do #this is my special friend she has no evs at all but she's shiny and cute :) #way worse than a pro but way better than an npc. that would be my ideal rival #anyway i still love to watch competitive though #i'm getting to the point where i can follow #but man they make it look so simple #i would love to be as knowledgeable as them #however if i were that good at pokémon i wouldn't be enjoying the games #i'd be ranting on twitter about how they make this children's game too easy #so perhaps it's for the best to stay casual #pokémon

[lena-oleanderson]

Still Looking or on knowing there's a way out because you've been here before. you've been in bigger and scarier places before, and even they had a way out, and a friend on the other side waiting. and if the journey is too much for you, get up and eat. even if the bread needs to be baked for you, even if you need to be told, even if you need to be fed, just let someone tell you to get up and eat, let someone feed you, and get up and eat, and find a way out. (and like the mary ellen carter, rise again)

#poetry #poem #lena's bad poetry archives #grief #writerblr #on friendship #actually mentally ill #mental health #on love #on promises #there are so many reasons to stay alive. but on my shittest of days that promise alone is enough #i've written about what it's like to experience grief with someone before - losing the same person #and this is one facet of that for me #by the time that loss happened i'd already shaken the major urge. the big I Intent. but i was still pulling that #'i'm in a mood. i'm not going to wear my seatbelt.' thing a lot #which in retrospect is insane. a lot of that recklessness actually could've gotten me killed #since then - i've felt more awful than ever before because that's grief. but the only way i'll leave this world is kicking and screaming #because i wouldn't do that to my best friend. i wouldn't do that to any of them. not even half-willingly. #i'd rather do the most mortifying thing to me and ask for help #lena's poetry archives

[salvadorbonaparte]

Being at home all the time is genuinely bad for my mental health so visiting friends abroad or going on a little solo trip would actually be great for my mental health

#I already have an invitation from a friend to stay with him #We haven't seen each other since graduation and his mum died this year so I'd love to see him again #And the nice bonus is that he's in a different country #So we could catch up and I could get a change of scenery #And I'll see some other friends for graduation and one perhaps for a concert #Although I'll need hotels for those trips

[appatary8523]

I'm gonna watch a movie (I think an old transformers movie?) with friends today. Something about an anniversary of transformers, I don't know, I don't really like transformers but my friend LOVES transformers and of course I have to go with them. Might fall asleep at the movie teathre lol

#I actually don't like much watching movies (?) but sometimes you have to do some things you don't like because you love your friends (? #Things like going out to see them (?) #I'd prefer to stay home but I miss them #Text post #They'll hear about Diamondchance after the movie that's for sure (? #I tried to make them play Fortnitte during Wilds season (for you guessed it Optimus Prime) but it didn't work (?

[melit0n]

"On sunny days I go out walking, I end up on a tree-lined street, I look up at the gaps of sunlight; I miss you more than anything."

#bit of a vent incoming so be wary #drugs and mental health tw #I miss him. a lot. #he was a shithead who left me bruised up and with more issues than I began with but I miss him #I miss the walks we used to take and the picnics we used to have when it was sunny #when I got to lay my head down and look at the sun through the leaves and have a moment of peace with him #where it would be quiet and he wouldn't shout and wouldn't be high or drunk or hungover and it was finally nice #where it was nice and he made me stay so I did because I thought he could help me and convinced me that I needed to help him #all that 'you leave me and I'll off myself shit' #and then I left because otherwise I'd probably be dead and I hate him. I've never hated someone more in my life other than-> #my old best friend but I hate him #but I can't help but go out on walks and miss him to death because he showed me love and that wasn't (still isn't) something I got often #I don't know #I just feel stupid #very very stupid #melitunes #mitski #Spotify

[todayisafridaynight]

harvard a lame school i bet aoki never got woken up at 11PM because his roommates were blasting music cause everyone a square there

#snap chats #hi everyone. #i finished WMA3 :) still couldnt tell yoou what happened but it was still fun.. #love the montage moment... theyre my fave in the WMA movies... #oh right. the post. //screams// #I WAS JUS LAYING IN BED THINKIN BOUT HOW IM GNNNA GO IN THE CITY TOMORROW #AND I FALL ASLEEP AND NEXT THING I KNOW I HEAR MY ROOMMATE AND HER FRIEND IN THE LIVIN ROOM #BLASTING MUSIC AND IM JUST. UU 👁️👁️ #scariest moment was when her friend rattled my door cause apparently she used to stay in my room last semester #BUT STILL MY GOD i thought someone fell so i go out and shes like Are We Too Loud <:) #and i. like any self respecting adult. said no <3 #honestly i probably could sleep through this. my sister used to have parties all the time in highschool and i slept through those #tho those were in the basement...... and theyre right outside my door ☠️ #anyway i hope harvard DID have cool ass parties nd aoki never got invited to any of them and he just kept getting waken up eveyr night #yall think he dormed or did he just live in a house/apartment nearby.... ive always wondered that... #if sawashiro was there with him then i'd imagine a house/apartment #tho would there be a point in getting a dorm if he already lived close by ? prob not #im not thinking about it rn i just wanted to complain LOL

[dungeons-and-dragon-age]

Been seeing so much cute art around recently so i'm inflicting these gross people on you <3

#these are the kinda self indulgent fluff sketches that are the results of me feeling bad for thinking about angsty stuff too much lmao #and that would stay forever alone in my folders usually #but i'm in a sappy mood so y'all get to endure it <3 #also it's so funny to me how my reaction to overly corny content of my ocs vs literally any other character or irl people is #cos if this was anybody else i would not care or roll my eyes at it at most #but when it's my own or my friends' ocs my brain turns to mush and does incomprehensible noises instead #cos these are MY CHILDREN they are IN LOVE and they are GROSS and I LOVE THEM #there's more technically but these are the only ones that look decent enough to present hsgkfhk #josephine #fenris #isabela #oc: liam hawke #oc: lilian hawke #oc: ari adaar #my ocs #my art #these were loosely inspired by some photos of couples i'd seen btw

[anaalnathrakhs]

uh oh i feel like i have a deeply maladaptative response to people knowing Literally Anything about me it's fine it's fine i'm handling it very well

#constantly daydreaming about throwing my phone in the river n leaving a nice note for my parents and fucking LEAVING #but like #if i just stop talking to my friends #then what's the point #do i make new friends? will i do the same shit to my new friends? #it feels like kind of a dick move to do that to people i like #and i DO like them #i like hanging out w them and just. i don't know. i feel like this freedom i dream of is something i could have in this life yknow. #i feel if i had balls i could just start living the life i want #it's not even like my parents are dicks or something they trust me and they've very understanding and loving #they wouldn't judge me for how i dress or be mad if i stay out late as long as i warn them #but i dont know. i dont know why i'm a massive fucking weirdo about it okay. #but i've caused them so much trouble already. i feel like i'm betraying them if i grow up. #i feel like i'm causing them too much worry no matter if i stray away from the nest or stay. #and i feel like a fucking monster for not loving them enough but i can't stand being near them anymore #it's too painful #i've never managed to completely hate them even when i was deep in depression and they handled it poorly #i'd get into a screaming match with my dad and an hour later we'd sing songs together in the car #but it's been so dull lately. it feels like im in a video game. picking prewritten dialogue and being fed prewritten answers. #and WHY does this happen. why can't i just have a normal relationship with people #why do i turn into an alien on his first day on earth whenever i start caring abt someone #why are we so fucking abnormal as a family that we never goddamn hang out #why am i such an empty husk of a person that i cannot for the life of me figure out something we could do together #i keep believing in this fantasm of one day changing everything in one fell swoop instead of growing up like a normal guy #because i know i'm a coward. i'm scared of other people seeing me fail. #i dont want to hurt my parents ever again and i dont want to settle for halfway freedom #so i repress hardcore things i want so that nobody not even me can decipher what it is #smth smth the enormity of my desire disgusts me #and of course it fails because im weakshit and cannot restrict anything ever #and i hurt them anyway