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dw19791967 · 3 months

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That Type of Girl Part 1

Pairing: Dean x reader (Eventual), Sam x reader (Platonic)

Warnings: language, unrequited love, slight angst, some fluff

This is the first fic I have ever written, all mistakes are my own. Please be gentle on me!

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I had never been the type of girl that men would look at twice. I have always been on the heavy side of the scale. I have a big gut, small ass, and ok sized boobs. After struggling with my confidence for a better part of my life, when I hit my 20’s I stopped caring about what others thought of me. But I would still wear clothes a size or two too big. But I felt confident (for the most part). I didn’t give a rats ass what most people thought of me, which definitely helped when it came to hunting.

My life changed forever when I met the Winchesters. Sam was like the big brother I never had. Dean…well, that was a different story. Everything in me knew the moment I met him, that he was something special. The way he could make me laugh, make me smile, make me feel appreciated. No one had ever made me feel the things he did. But I knew he would never see me as more than a friend, and after some time I was ok with that. I knew a man like him would never even consider being with a girl like me.

“What ya thinking about Y/N?” said Sam. We were currently sitting in a roadside bar after we finished our most recent hunt. Of course Dean was busy flirting with some gorgeous blonde, leaving Sam and I to our own devices.

“Just thinking about what life would be like if we weren’t hunters.” I lied of course. I was thinking about why couldn’t I be the type of girl Dean would turn to for more than friendship. Something I thought about pretty frequently.

“Do you really want that type of life ?” Sam stated with a curious look on his face.

“Hell no, I’m not made for normal. Just always like to think about where I would be ya know? Would I be married, have 2.5 kids, and a full time job or would I be a crazy cat lady.” I giggled.

“Well considering you're allergic to cats you definitely would not be a crazy cat lady.” Sam was laughing.

“You’re right Sammy, guess there goes that day dream.” I said. I couldn’t stop watching Dean. I really needed to find something else to occupy my time.

“You know I see how you look at him.” Sam said.

“I don’t know what you mean Sammy.” I replied.

“Y/N you should tell him how you feel, you never know he may feel the same way.” Sam looked at me with an optimistic grin.

“Yeah right Sam, I’m going to the restroom then I’m heading out. You boys can stay and have some much deserved fun.” I got up to head towards the restroom, if only Sam knew how deep I was in.

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The following day after returning to the bunker the night before, I got up around 6:00 to make the boys breakfast. It was something I did every now and then, even though I made a pretty shitty cook. I rolled out of bed and put some shorts on. I had an old AC/DC shirt on (I didn’t bother wearing a bra since the shirt was baggy), threw my hair up in a messy bun and was ready to get to work. I made my way to the kitchen as quietly as I could. Evidently I tend to stomp when I walk in the bunker halls (according to Sam), so it is something I am trying to work on. I got the eggs and bacon out. Scrambled would have to be it for today because I don’t have the patience to try anything else. Sam made his way into the kitchen as I was finishing up with the bacon.

“Well good morning sunshine!” Sam sang.

“Damn Sammy can you keep it down somewhat, you know how I feel about being happy first thing in the morning.” I covered my ears.

“Oh yes so sorry grumpy pants” Sam laughed.

“I’m pretty sure you are like the only person I have ever seen to be so excited at 6:30 in the morning.” I finished putting some eggs on a plate for him.

“Well why are you up so early anyway? You made us breakfast?” Sam asked.

“Well yes you big giant, I did. I felt like doing something nice even if I am a grumpy pants.” I sat his plate down in front of him.

“Well I appreciate it and I’m sure Dean will too. Where is Dean?” Sam took a bite of his eggs.

“Pretty sure he is still sleeping, I’ll wake him up on my way to shower. How does it taste?” I asked.

“It is actually pretty good, way to go Y/N you have finally learned how to make eggs!” Sam was laughing. I enjoyed the teasing banter we had with one another, it made me happy that we didn’t always have to take things so seriously.

“Haha very funny, looks like now I will have to cook more often.” I stated as I walked out of the kitchen.

Heading down the hall I stopped at Dean’s room. I opened his door slightly, he was sprawled out over his bed snoring loudly. Blondie must have tired him out last night. I usually don’t like waking him up because he has such a hard time sleeping. Especially lately but I knew he would be pissed if he missed out on bacon. I made my way over to him.

“Dean” I whispered.

“Dean I made breakfast” I patted his shoulder.

He rolled over and opened his eyes. Looking at me in a way that almost made me blush.

“Hey sweetheart, what time is it?” he asked.

“7:00” I stated.

“Damn I actually slept in some, that was amazing.”

I’m sure it was, I stated to myself. Damn my jealousy.

“Well I just wanted to let you know there is eggs and bacon, Sam said that I actually learned how to make eggs so guess that means they are good this time. I laughed. “ I’m gonna take a quick shower then I will meet you back out there” I said.

“You had me at bacon” he got up and stretched.

“Well good morning sleeping beauty” stated Sam.

“God it smells amazing in here” Dean said with a grin.

Dean loaded up a plate with tons of bacon and a few scoops of eggs.

“Damn this is awesome” Dean moaned.

“Would you like me to give you some alone time with that?” Sam laughed.

“Sammy, she seriously knows how to make my damn morning. This bacon might be the best I have ever eaten.”

“Well she has been up since 6 working on it so I’m glad you are enjoying it.” Sam was reading something on his laptop now.

“What would we do without her?” Dean wondered aloud.

“What would we do without who?” I stated as I made my way back into the kitchen. I had taken a quick shower and changed into jeans and a flannel. Baggy of course. I never wore tight fitting shirts. My hair was still a little wet but I wanted to make sure the boys were taken care of before I moved on with my routine.

“You sweetheart, you are seriously too good to us.” Dean stated, staring at me.

I blushed, “Well I would do anything to make your guys day a little better.” Sam looked at me with a knowing look, please dear lord do not let him say anything.

Sam continued reading something on his laptop without saying a word.

“Well I’m gonna head to the library to check out this book I need, do you guys need anything?” asked Sam.

“I’m good, thank you though Sammy.” I stated.

“Unless you are stopping at the store, in that case we need pie.” Dean said while stuffing his face with more bacon.

“Of course Dean, I will make sure to get your precious pie.” Sam said while laughing.

With Sam gone, I struggled to find something to say to Dean but the silence was killing me.

“What time did you guys end up coming home last night?” I asked. I really didn’t want to know but yet I needed to.

“Uh not too long after you, it was kinda a bust.” stated Dean.

“What happened to Blondie?” I asked without even thinking.

Dean looked up at me, “She was talking my ear off about her ex. I told her if she couldn’t stop thinking about him then she probably needed to talk it out with him.”

Good I thought to myself, I knew he deserved a good time but I am glad he struck out. I really need to stop thinking like this.

“Well I am sure you will have better luck next time” I said with a smile. It took everything in me to muster that up.

“Nah next time we need to work on finding someone for you.” Dean stated.

“What do you mean?” I asked.

“Well I know it's been awhile since you have found a guy for you, so I figured I could help you look.” Dean said with a shrug.

Did he seriously think I wanted to find someone? I really was not the love them and leave them type. I tended to get too attached. So I just took care of things on my own. Plus it was hard to find someone to spend the night with when you are desperately in love with someone else.

“I’m really not interested Dean. I would rather just drink and make a fool of myself.” I laughed.

“Come on Y/N, I’m sure you could use a night of romance or whatever you want to call it” Dean looked at me.

Anytime I had even considered taking a guy home they would make comments about my body. Which usually ended with my fist bleeding and the guy laying on the bar floor.

“Dean, do you seriously not remember the last time I looked for a guy, he ended up calling me a fat bitch and I knocked his lights out.” I picked at my nails. I couldn’t look at his face right now.

“Yes I remember, that was just one shitty guy. I have faith we can find a good one.” Dean got up to clear his plate.

The one guy I want doesn’t want me so I really don’t want to try to find another one. I will just end up with my feelings hurt and my confidence wounded. It’s not worth it to me.

“I appreciate the offer truly, but I don’t want a night of romance. I just want to spend a night with my two best friends. That’s it. Can we please drop it?” I got up to start working on the dishes.

“If that is what you want Y/N.” Dean looked at me softly. “I will get them sweetheart, the least I can do since you cooked.” Dean started working on the dishes.

"Thanks" I said. "I'm gonna go finish fixing my hair." I made my way out of the kitchen as fast as I could. I wish he could understand how I felt, but this is one area in which Dean and I are very different.

#dean winchester x reader #dean winchester series #supernatural #dean winchester fanfiction #spn fanfiction #spnfamliy #plus size reader

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annahxredaxted · 4 months

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OKAY OKAY OKAY

sam & sweetheart sibling ramble

just so we’re all clear this is just MY version of sweetheart you don’t have to agree and you definitely don’t have to ridicule.

(i am southern so i am definitely projecting a bit)

so if you know me you know my interpretation of sweetheart and sam is that their siblings.

sam left when sweetheart was 9-10 ish

their parents had sam YOUNG like teenagers

but they had sweetheart when they were like late 20s early 30s

sam left bc of abuse yadayada

they were reunited and you can find my other post about that here.

but they have another brother..

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ANYWAY TIME SKIP TO CURRENTLY

Sam,darlin, sweetheart and Milo and sweetheart are at a random bowling alley and they’re all having fun.

it’s milo’s turn and sam is getting drinks

darlin is sitting down and sweetheart is just watching when their gaze is looking round and they see an ODDLY familiar face with a few people

it’s their brother, hunter (they have conservative, abusive AND southern parents let’s be real)

hunter is a informed unempowered but he’s basically a pro and very knowledgeable of magic and magical races.

hunter is the middle child, sweetheart being the youngest. sam being the oldest

sam came back and saw sweetheart looking shocked and almost scared

he turned and saw him and was very confused

hunter is an asshole, their parents favorited him bc he took the family trade etc

sweetheart ran to the bathroom and was just nervous, milo turned to see something was going on and sweetheart was upset.

milo did NOT like hunter, he cursed him out for a bit .

“what the fucking hell did you say to them asshole? who do you think you are?” he pushed hunter by the shoulder, sam had to stop him.

hunter has a southern accent as well but more diluted than sam’s.

tank was behind milo but definitely ready to throw hands.

sam remembered when he reunited with sweetheart a few years back and they had a very similar reaction.

sweetheart had been abandoned by their family a few times. and it’s hurt milo and sam to see them like this.

“what did i do?” hunter would start and sam would scold him (like the older brother he is)

“do.not.start.” sam would say VERY angrily

“i thought you guys would be happy to see me..” he would be VERY sarcastic.

sam nudged him angrily

“why do you think you can just waltz back here just because- (sweetheart) wasn’t prepared for that!” sam scolded again

“well i didn’t mean to sammy-boy it just happened.” sam would scowl “oh get over it they’ve always been a crybaby.” hunter would say again.

MILO WAS NOT HAVING IT

“you better take my mates name out of your mouth before i put my fist in it.” he got ANGRY

“mate? well that’s hilarious.. (sweetheart)? keeping a relationship? please.”

sam had to hold milo back to keep him from pouncing on hunter.

“down doggy”

suffice it to say sam let go of him.

they got kicked out…

sweetheart came outside and their face was tearstained and they were breathing heavy.

“milo what— hunter— why—“ they were shocked to see hunters nose bleeding and milo with a bruised fist.

“sorry sweetheart i just—“

they were almost disappointed, but they were definitely in a bad mood.

all three of the siblings were standing side by side and their resemblances were uncanny. it was almost funny.

“woah..” darlin whispered.

“lets just go home.” sweetheart whispered grumpily.

hunter sighed, almost upset like he felt bad.

“(sweetheart)—“

“i don’t wanna hear it hunter..” they blew him off..

sam looked angrily at hunter again.

milo and sweetheart went home- not without sweetheart reading him the riot act about how he shouldn’t have punched him how he wasn’t worth it.

“what the hell were you thinking coming to the place you knew we were?” sam spat

hunter didn’t have an answer

“it— i— i haven’t seen y’all in a while..” hunter whispered embarrassed his accent making it hard to hear him with all the mumbling.

sam almost felt bad for him.

“do us all a favor and go back home. your not wanted here, go help dad and be the golden child.” hunters head dropped.

sam almost regretted saying it but he held his ground. hunter walked away.

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WOWZERS IT FELT GOOD TO GET THIS DOWN.

erm this is kinda a fic sooo

Taglist:

@darlin-collins @shellssstuff @itsdaifuku @verrverii @youisagayhooman @kuteheadrest @glitchedvariety @hobiesrockstargf @mrsmiagreer

#sam and sweetheart siblings #personal headcanon #redacted asmr #redacted milo #redacted sweetheart #redacted sam #redacted darlin #redacted oc #oc; hunter #hunter: sam and sweethearts brother

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hezekiahwakely · 3 months

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As anticipated, here are my extensive red string notes from the pilot:

God knows how relevant any of this will turn out to be, but I'm nothing if not a collector of trivial information

Very long text beneath the cut:

Page 1

The Magnus Protocol Pilot 10/25/23

Characters (in order of appearance)

Alice Dyer -O.I.A.R. employee -Dated Sam in uni -Jokester -Training Sam -Gets along with Colin

Teddy Vaughn -Retiring from the O.I.A.R. after 4 (?) years -Going into insurance field

Colin Becher -O.I.A.R. IT Manager -Vegetarian 🥬 -On the hook of "his nibs" (boss, male) -Sensitive about FR3-d1 app development, communicates w/politicians, trying for 2 years -Only gets along w/Alice -Knows computers are listening -Jokes about being killed

Lena Kelley -O.I.A.R. Team/Department Manager -Authoritative, follows protocol -Doesn't think Gwen is qualified for management

Gwendolyn Bouchard -O.I.A.R. employee -Backlog of casework -Dislikes Lena, wants her job -Dedicated to detail -Accused of nepotism by Alice -Thinks current job is beneath her -"Not like most people." *static*

Samama Khalid (Sam) -New O.I.A.R. employee -Dated Alice in uni -Wanting to 'get back on his feet' -Familiar with TMI -Didn't know what the Incidents were before hire!!

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Pilot notes con. 10/25/23

Listening Tech - Turns on by itself 💡

Dated computers (O.I.A.R.)

"Manager's speakerphone" (Lena's)

CCTV (O.I.A.R. breakroom?)

Cell phone (Alice's)

*O.I.A.R. formed in 70s? Accor. to Alice*

*Response Department no longer exists*

Still in onboarding paperwork, "Response 121"

Sam ticked this box

Tech Specs

O.S. = Windows NT 4.0 (modified) -Extended support for this O.S. was ended Dec. 31, 2004 IRL -Runs on workstations connected by LAN -Similar GUI to 95; comes w/Internet Explorer

FR3-d1 -Custom research software circa mid-90s -Flags Incidents and creates a database -Can search private/protected sources (email) -Alice claims no one has understood its workings for 15 years -Written in German source code

*1 Year = Average Employee Stay*

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Pilot notes con. 10/25/23

Classification System

Used in FR3-d1's database

Structure: CATXRXXXXX-XXXXXXXX-XXXXXXXX

CATXRX -> From reference table (CAT = Category?) First four digits -> Main subject of Incident DPHW (?) Next eight digits -> Date of Incident Last eight digits -> Current date

Example: CAT2RC1157-12052022-13012024* -First one we hear they file. "1157" is the "DPHW" for "dolls, watching."

*Jan. 13, 2024 is the date of Sam's onboarding/training (after Teddy's going-away party)

*as listed in transcript; in-show, it's quoted as 22102023, or Oct. 22, 2023

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Pilot notes (con.) 10/25/23

FR3-d1's Voice to Text/Text to Speech

Voices (named by Alice, which Gwen dislikes):

Neil = Alex

Chester = Jonny

(those two most common)

Augustus = ?

Neil's Incident

Occurs in "Cyberspace" via the transcript

"I'm so sorry. I should have listened. I just couldn't face the thought of the rest of my life never hearing him again, I had to try." First lines 😢

Email from Harriet Winstead to Darla Winstead, May 12, 2022

Recitations *can* be paused by pressing "space"!

Chester's Incident

Also occurs in "Cyberspace"

Topic: Magnus Institute Ruins.

On forum, user RedCanary, begins April 10, 2022. Explored 4/19-20/22.

Third floor gone. No old papers.

Suspicious, occult (?) graffiti, stains (!)

Took box with strange symbols (same as ones on walls/floors)

4/30/22 Posted image of gore/eyes, possibly of themself. Banned + did not return.

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Pilot notes con. 10/25/23

Early release video Case #: CAT1RA1353-03102023-22102024(listed as 202"3" on Patreon)

Video was posted 10/22/23.

Listed as "Incident" on Patreon.

According to transcript, the O.I.A.R. offices are located in Royal Mint Court.

Johson (sic) Smirke Building

Main building.

5 storeys, Grade 2 listed.

Entrance lodge also built by Smirke, in front of building.

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Pilot - Public Release -TMAGP#001

Changes:

Sam's first incident number - today's date

CAT2RC1157-12052022-13012024 -> CAT2RC1157-12052022-09012024

Voice (first incident)

Neil -> *Norris*

Minor word/date changes in incidents.

Minor line read differences.

Descriptions of Incidents in new transcript:

Norris': CAT1RBC5257-12052022-09012024 Reanimation (Partial) -/- Regret [Email]

Chester's: CAT23RAB2155-10042022-09012024 Transformation (Eyes) -/- Trespass [chat log]

#will add alt text shortly #also keep in mind a lot of this was written back in October - see the last page for recent changes #tmagp #the magnus protocol #tmagp spoilers #im super stoked to have figured out the royal mint court thing

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folansstuff · 7 months

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General Atticus HC's

Had the urge to write more OC headcanons, so here they are some more!

Is currently in his late 20’s-early 30’s. Despite being dead for 5 years and his revival being thanks to semi-supernatural forces, the Garden still aged him to keep him in-line with what it thought was right.

Sleepy Bisexual. Probably drinks as much coffee as Illyana does.

Still has traces of his old Australian accent. Still slips ‘mates’ and ‘oi’s into conversation sometimes. Comes out in full swing when he’s upset.

Majored in English Literature and Teaching! Will leap into long speeches about Shakespeare at the drop of a hat.

Put on some weight during his time away from the X-Men. Chose not to get rid of it, even after being revived on Krakoa. ((This is definitely not because Illyana likes it, no sir.))

Sees the original New Mutants as his family, would defend any of them with his life.

Team Dad when Sam is away. He and Dani spend a lot of time wrangling the students and planning for the school with the others. He usually leaves her to deal with the council unless they request him specifically. ((Or he gets to see Kitty and Piotr, whichever is more likely))

Die-hard Dazzler fanboy, Alison once dropped into his and Illyana’s home and found him at the door wearing a “I <3 Dazzler” shirt, she never let him hear the end of it ((she was flattered though)).

A perpetual project-starter. Would start and drop a new, weird thing every few weeks. Some are successful (the sweaters he made his teammates, learning to bake) some aren’t (boxing,

Briefly took a job at Avengers Academy as one of their “normal staff” and a mutant liaison (hilarious considering his history with the X-Men). Took the job despite his dislike of The Avengers because they offered him a ton of money.

Because of this he and Laura are surprisingly good friends, he was the first choice for a teacher for Gabby once he was revived and Akedeimos was more concretely established as a school.

Highly protective of his students, all of them, even the ones who aren’t his students anymore. Had to be convinced to not attack Arcade after he found out about Avengers Arena and almost started a fight with Bishop when he pitched his War Academy.

Frequently uses his powers for mundane things; spinning hand fans, hand drying clothes, rewinding tapes, etc. Will spin the earth around just to skip traffic.

After being revived he can see errors and other signs of reality having been warped or changed in some way in the form of spirals appearing over the top of the affected object. Causes him serious headaches.

Idolizes Captain America. Has considered using a shield as a weapon for its effectiveness and to emulate the man. Was very bummed out when Rogers acts like a “boot-licker” and worked against mutant-kind after AvX.

Dude is just trying his best to live a peaceful and quiet life with his family, and all the superhero drama keeps getting in the way : (

#i have #so many thoughts abt this poor man #x-men oc #oc #original character #marvel oc #marvel comics oc

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golbrocklovely · 10 months

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it's been a minute since i posted one of these so..

here’s some of colby’s tweets from 2021.

i don’t have proof that these are his tweets, but believe me, they are his.

if it’s bold and italicized, it’s someone’s tweet to him.

if it’s in (), that’s just me commenting lol

added bonus: if they have a * next to them, that means it’s been deleted

~~~~~~~~~~

Jan. 2 - thank you all so much i love you don’t forget

Jan. 6 - just got yelled at on my walk by a 93 year old grandma it was dope how’s your day goin

on another note , so sad to see what’s been happening today at the capitol .. this is ridiculous. i’m worried.

(the issue with this time period is that colby was getting a lot of heat for shit he shouldn't have been. so… some of these tweets are gonna trigger me, and this is one of them lmao)

Jan. 8 - seems like the older i get the more independent i become

*@/mikes_dead: seems like the older u get the more u forget to call me back headass sorry bb 🖤

don’t crave that personal life human affection like i used to i’m cool with being by myself

always feel like i’m living in a dreamy reality until i get caffeine. blurry vision blurry mind

Jan. 9 - learned how to drive manual for the first then drifted that car today i’m surprised i didn’t kill anyone

you in January

Jan. 12 - fan: hi i love yOu…@/ColbyBrock

hiii i love you

fan: It’s my 2,000 day supporting Sam and colby. That’s fucking insnae man. Mental. I love you 2. Always and forever thank you for being such huge parts in my life @/SamGolbach @/ColbyBrock @/SamandColby

thank you for being a part of our life journey 🙏🏼🖤

Jan. 14 - time to conquer my anxiety

Jan. 16 - tonight , two years ago i was sleeping in a little jail cell wondering how long i’d be in there without Sam. life is fuckin crazy hahah, freedom is a gift

fan: i cant believe that most of the fandom slept on the floor when @/SamandColby 2 years when they got arrested #FreeSamAndColby

the best fans in the world

Jan. 18 - oh how time can heal and change everything

fan: no fr he’s been working so hard and you can really tell. proud of you @/ColbyBrock

thank you darlin

Jan. 19 - my fear won’t be something that i let control the way i live

Jan. 20 - fan: colby ur tweets r always so deep

twitters my personal little mind dump

(wish this was still the case… but i get why he is barely on there)

Jan. 22 - it’s underwater shipwreck dive today

feels good to feel proud of myself

Jan. 24 - fan: @/ColbyBrock can you teach me your ways of being okay with being single bc i’m tired of asshole guys fucking around with my feelings

one day you’ll learn that the only happiness you need comes from within, once you’ve learned to really enjoy youre own company you don’t need anyone else! practice makes perfect 🖤

Jan. 25 - why do i push away everyone who tries to get me to open up?

(what a juxtaposition lol)

Jan. 28 - crows are honestly just death metal chickens

Jan. 30 - don’t wanna jinx this like last time but XPLR gods have definitely been on our side recently again … Alaska has been an adventure of a lifetime

Feb. 1 - don’t let anyone tell you who YOU are and how to think

fan: Currently listening to We Love Our Friends @/SamGolbach @/ColbyBrock @/SamandColby

a bop

Feb. 2 - fan: Thinking about @/ColbyBrock hours

💭🖤

*fan: @/ColbyBrock u should get a tongue piercingggg

*ouchh

fan: As part of 25x25 @/ColbyBrock needs to come out with music

🤫😏

(he needs to come out with more music asap)

*fan: @/ColbyBrock u said no to the tongue piercing what about u getting a nipple piercing??

ouchhh

(what's with fans wanting him to get random parts of his body pierced lmao)

wake me up after valentine’s day

Feb. 4 - what’s one thing you wanna do before you die ?

Feb. 7 - my dream is to show you the beauty in life .. no matter how hard it can get

really opened up on my ongoing experience with anxiety in today’s video , i hope it resonates with some of you. we’re not alone

Feb. 8 - fan: bro @/ColbyBrock do you always get your tats in the early hours of the morning??

yes hahah

just gettin started on this sleeve. lots of work to do

Feb. 10 - fan: @/ColbyBrock I need some advice for anxiety lately my anxiety is playing up and I keeps having anxiety/panics attacks and idk how to calm my self the best thing I can do so far is watch ur vids but still sometimes I just can’t hold it in do u have any advice

box method breathing really helps.. soft music.. meditation. anything that can relax the mind. usually it stems from overthinking so if you can somehow distract yourself with an activity of some sort that could help too 🖤

i’m so emotional sometimes and for what

Feb. 13 - so who’s down to hangout tomorrow

fan: i could really use a hug from @/ColbyBrock rn /: sigh i miss him sm

🖤 sending virtual hugs

fan: Hey Colby … just checking in…. are you okay? Taking care of yourself? @/ColbyBrock

thank you for being so sweet i love you. yes i’m okay i have my good and bad days

Feb. 17 - sang for the first time on camera yesterday

Feb. 20 - this pill that i don’t wanna taste

fan: Are you okay??? Or one of your song lyrics

song lyrics .. probably should have explained that a lil more. it’s not a literal thing i promise hahah

Feb. 22 - damn i miss the big trap house parties we use to throw at our old place. 500 people plus in our living room.. David dobrik always comin in randomly with flame throwers hahah legendary times

Feb. 24 - i was so happy in my dream last night .. felt so real.

simply a wonderful sight to see

Feb. 28 - Dear @/ColbyBrock I would REALLY REALLY APPRECIATE IT IF YOU DYED YOUR HAIR BACK TO BROWN I WOULD REALLY APPRECIATE IT

my purple is pretty much out ! so it’ll be all the way brown soon

fan: Apparently the guys are in Las Vegas and Las Vegas is probably like oh no not these guys again. @/ColbyBrock don't go for a midnight stroll and almost get mugged or kick a cactus this time

palm springs was when the mugging and cactus assault happened hahah but we will do our best to stay outta trouble .. maybe

March 2 - i feel like i don’t fit in with that many people in LA

@/jccaylen: let’s move to Texas.

looking for houses now

March 6 - take a chance with me

head down, headphones in

March 8 - happy #InternationalWomensDay , women are fuckin powerful, thank you for all that you do

(another triggering tweet sksks)

March 10 - maybe i just knew i had to wait for you

March 15 - fan: I just know deep in my soul @ColbyBrock had an angsty sad boi tumblr back in the day and I just wanna scroll thru it. Sir pls hand me the link thx :)

i wish i had tumblr. but wasn’t in to social media until i was like 18. only had a facebook until 2014

(….interesting lol)

fan: @/ColbyBrock do u have any advice on keeping productive on something even though it isn’t ur favourite thing to do but u need to get it done

set goals and make sure you do things in little pieces. if you don’t like something you’re doing just make sure you’re getting it done in the way YOU want to. take it day by day instead of procrastinating and doing it last minute

fan: y r u awake @/colbybrock

same reason you are

March 16 - things change, people change. but in the end i’ll always wish the best for my friends

March 17 - i can’t help but feel this way

March 18 - fan: How can you get through a break up

time. i know that’s a cliche answer. but seriously. distract your mind for a while and you’ll get over it i promise

fan: @/ColbyBrock how often do you not sleep at night because your mind is too loud?

i sleep terribly most nights. i have this weird insomnia that forces me to be up at 3am daily

are any of you hard on yourself for no reason? cause holy shit that’s me daily

fan: Better at picking others up than picking myself up

feel this so hard

fan: please call me sweetheart its my dream deadass

sweeeeeetheart 🖤

fan: @/ColbyBrock what’s your best advice to give to a teen who’s gonna turn 17 next week ? like any tips or tricks you wanna hand down bc i need help

so assuming you’re in highschool, just know that you might think your social circle means the world to you right now .. but everything can change (if you let it) after you graduate. life changes so much after graduation! focus on making good relationships and having fun :)

fan: @/ColbyBrock what’s the first thing you’ll do after all this covid stuff is over?

throw a real trap house party

March 25 - i am becoming a hummingbird father.

@/amberscholl: idk why but this is a VERY hot tweet

can’t wait to show you what i’ve been doing 😈

March 27 - just don’t have the time anymore

March 29 - friday by rebecca black is my anthem

March 30 - should i curl my hair for a youtube video

#colby brock #personal #cb tweets #text

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"A Field Trip" Chapter 4

aka Ectoberhaunt Day 12- Way of Life

Ao3

FFnet

Chapter WC: 2,013

Overall WC: 10,673

Summary:

Danny's class goes on a trip to the Grand Canyon. It's all fun and games until suddenly it isn't.

“What hit me?” Dash asked groggily and to no one in particular. Immediately everyone’s attention was drawn to the jock, and he looked immensely startled when 20 sets of eyes suddenly swiveled to look in his direction. He gaped like a fish for a solid 30 seconds, before he saw a floating Danny Phantom only a yard away.

Danny, in his defense, had almost forgotten that Dash had been unconscious for most of the reveal discussion. And did not react accordingly.

“What the heck were you thinking, Dash?” He said, trying to sound more concerned than angry. Dash’s eyes went wide and he tried to start talking 5 different times but kept stammering over his own words. Meanwhile, Sam got out of her seat and shoved her bottle of water into his hands.

“You passed out a few minutes ago. We’re on a field trip to the Grand Canyon, you fell in and dragged Danny with you. Luckily he’s Phantom so he saved both your butts. Drink up.” Well, that was one way to catch him up on current events. Danny was not looking forward to another spiel of questions. He just wanted to be home already.

Dash took the bottle of water and chugged at least half of it. Sam gave him a glare with one brow raised and he sheepishly handed it back. Even for her small stature, Sam could be imposing. Kwan came over, taking Sam’s place as she retreated.

“Are you ok dude? Anything hurt?”

“Aside from my pride? Not really.” That made Kwan laugh, and some uneasy chuckles spilled out from their classmates. Dash wasted no time in tackling the next subject, turning to Danny.

“Everything's kinda fuzzy. So, wait- did you like, catch me and Fenton? Where’d he go?” He questioned, confused. In lieu of an answer, Danny reverted to human form, sitting solidly on the back of his seat.

Dash’s eyes just about bulged out of his head, even more so than a minute ago when he woke up to his ‘hero’ berating him. The jock's jaw dropped to the floor, and for a solid minute of time he just stared blankly.

“How the heck?” He yelled hysterically. Dash grabbed a handful of his own hair and tugged, as though trying to wake from a bad dream.

“Long story short, accident in my parent’s lab. Yes I’m still the same person as Phantom, yes I have all the same powers in both forms, and yes you pulled me off a cliff and I had to reveal myself to save the both of us.” Danny deserved a bit of salt. Just a tad. Maybe a pinch.

“You almost killed us both with that kind of stunt. What were you thinking?” Dash shrunk back for a moment, but the sheepishness disappeared as he puffed out his chest and broke eye contact.

“I don’t have to explain myself to you.” Dash said haughtily. It would seem that he had pushed aside the novelty of learning his classmate’s secret in favor of putting on a jerkish front.

“Oh you kinda do,” The audacity-

“remember the whole almost murdered me thing?” Reminded Danny. Dash paled, and looked anywhere but Danny’s face.

“But I didn’t, nothing happened. So I don’t owe you anything.” Danny tried to appear neutral, but he was livid. There was a biting response perched on the tip of his tongue, but he was interrupted by the timely entry of the bus driver.

“Uh-” The driver stammered.

“Why are you back so early?” He stood at the door to the bus, plainly confused. Mr. Lancer stood up immediately before anyone else could make up an excuse.

“One of the students passed out from the heat. I imagine it would be best to return to the hotel, I think everyone has had their fill of the Grand Canyon.” Lancer said quickly.

“Alrighty then.” Said the driver with a shrug. He took his seat at the front of the bus. Lancer sat back down and soon enough they were off, trundling down the highway.

Conversation on the bus ride back to the hotel was sparse and carried out in whispers. They were all distinctly aware that the bus driver wasn’t supposed to be let in on Danny’s secret, but it would seem that was all anyone could think to talk about. The ride was way too long, and yet also way too short.

Danny stared out the window for much of the journey. The sun filtering through the window was cozy, and paired with his frayed nerves he passed out for most of the drive. Tucker shook him awake when they arrived. Danny was still half-asleep as they trekked up to their room, and he phased right through their door without waiting for Tucker to grab the key card. Danny collapsed on the nearest bed, shoes and all. Sam and Tucker hovered over him as he slept, concerned. But the halfa slept peacefully.

Which gave them the perfect chance to get their things and sneak right past him and out of the hotel room.

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“This doesn’t feel right.” Said Tucker. He shifted back and forth in his flip-flops as the elevator descended.

“They deserve to know more about the whole situation. Plus they’ll just keep bothering Danny if they don’t get answers.” Said Sam. She sounded confident, but really she was worried as well.

“It doesn’t feel right to do it behind his back though.”

“We aren’t really, he’s the one who fell asleep. And we’re just doing him a favor so he doesn’t have to deal with it all.” Sam picked at the frayed hems of her swim top. The atmosphere was stilted and silent until finally, the doors slid open.

It was easy enough to follow the signs that pointed to the pool and made even more so by the number of classmates that had congregated there. They were the only ones in the room, which was a plus. A few people walked past and seemed to debate coming in. But they shied away pretty quick after Kwan started a cannonball competition. Sam double-checked the class's group chat quickly, taking count of how many people they had invited for this meeting. Only about half were there already. So it would seem they had some waiting to do.

Sam sat on the edge at the shallow end, her feet dangling in the water. Tucker sat on a chair behind her, doing something on his phone. They were waiting for the rest of the class to show up before they launched into their spiel.

Finally, fashionably late as always, Paulina and Star walked in the door. Paulina didn’t strut in like she would have done under any normal circumstances. She was quite stiff, and if the redness around her eyes was any indication, she wasn’t late simply because she was doing her hair. Star watched Paulina like a hawk as they wandered over to a chair and set their things down.

Finally, with everyone present, Sam lifted her fingers to her mouth and whistled. The change was drastic, with just about everyone freezing where they were. A few isolated conversations puttered off.

“We all saw what happened today, so I’ll skip over that. The fact of the matter is that Danny is Phantom, and everyone in this room needs to respect his request to keep it a secret. Danny does so much for other people and has so many responsibilities, imagine how devastating it would be if this got out.”

“-And not only that,” Tucker interjected.

“Danny’s world is dangerous. He has too many enemies to count on one hand, not even including the ghosts. His identity is the only thing protecting him from ghost hunters. He’s unique, and the GIW would literally tear him apart if they ever got their hands on him. And his human life is what keeps him off their radar most of the time.”

Sam picked up where he left off.

“If Danny’s secret spreads, adults will find out about it. And then so will the Guys in White. And his parents. We have no clue if they’d be accepting or not, and what lengths they might go to try and ‘fix’ him.”

“Danny’s secret has been revealed before. And the GIW hunted us across the country. Nowhere was safe. Danny managed to set everything back, but that isn’t an option this time.” That had been the worst three days of Sam’s life. Though it was even harder on Danny. And Tucker was along for the ride as well. It was tough for all of them. Sam had never felt more alone.

Tucker stood from his chair.

“TLDR, don’t tell anyone who isn’t in this room. Not even your parents. Don’t even say a word to your dog, if you can help it.”

Kim, who was standing in the shallow end, nervously raised her hand. Sam pointed to her.

“Um, why do so many ghosts attack? Why does Danny have to fight them? Can’t they just leave us alone…” She trailed off.

Sam looked to Tucker, and they had a silent conversation.

“Ghosts are creatures of habit. Most of them have a driving force, a reason to want to exist. And they go out of their way to fulfill it. Like Technus with technology, or Skulker with hunting, or Box Ghost with boxes.” Tucker started. He didn’t want to come right out and tell them about Obsessions. Obsessions could be easily weaponized against a ghost, Danny included. They didn’t want to give their classmates that kind of ammunition.

Sam went on to explain.

“The veil between Amity Park and the Ghost Zone is very thin, and it just so happens that we line up with the Ghost Zone’s barrens. It’s not a very good area and has a lot of people that were forced out of ghostly societies and establishments.”

“In short, we get all the troublemakers. Ghosts whose purposes in death are to cause mischief or harm.”

“But why Fenton?” Kwan piped up.

A harsh sigh was dragged out of Sam. Tucker relieved her of speaking duty. (heh. duty.)

“When Danny became the way he is, the veil was thinned even more. It didn’t used to be as easy to cross over as it is now. And even though it was a complete, freak accident, he still feels guilty.”

“And the ghost hunters in town are mediocre, at best.” Sam added.

“Also that.”

“With his powers Danny was just the one best suited to the job. And he really got in deep once ghosts started being a real threat to people. But now the ghosts expect to have him fighting back, and have made it into a game that he can’t quit. Because if he doesn’t, people get hurt. It’s just become his way of life.” Which was a horrible, twisted role Danny had been forced into. Tucker had to calm himself down. The ghosts had him in a chokehold, stuck between hurling himself at them and getting physically hurt, or being hurt by his core if he refused to engage. Tucker hadn’t fully realized the ramifications until Danny had been physically sick to leave Amity.

A wave of anger rolled over Tucker, this time directed at Dash. Sam and Tuck had just barely managed to convince Danny it was safe to come on this trip, but now Dash had to go and ruin everything and throw Danny into yet another situation. Quite literally.

“Uh, did I do something?” Dash asked nervously, ducking into the water. Tucker hadn’t realized he was staring.

“Yes.” Sam said flippantly. Tucker shook his head to clear the desire for revenge and scratched an itch on the back of his neck. Dash hadn’t known what he was doing. It wasn’t his fault. They were all victims of circumstance.

Speaking of circumstance;

A very stressed half-ghost practically plummeted through the ceiling and right through the pool. There was only the slightest of ripples in the water to indicate that he’d been there. Everyone stared, gaping, at the spot where he’d disappeared.

...

To be Continued...

(eventually)

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New Moon in Real Time

March 16th, 2006 (Thursday)

On this Day

Moon Phase: Waning Gibbous 🌖

🌄 Sunrise: 6:26 AM

🌅 Sunset: 6:25 PM

New Moon, Ch.15 ("Pressure") pg 352 (from line 21), Ch. 16 ("Paris"), Ch. 17 ("Visitor") (to pg. 395, line 20)

7:30 AM (Approx.) - Bella wakes up early and sneaks a change of clothes out to her truck

9:30 AM (Approx.) - Bella arrives at the Black house and is surprised when Jacob doesn't greet her; she talks with Billy who gives her worrying news that Jake is out with the pack following a fresh trail on Victoria

9:45 AM (Approx.) - Bella decides to wait for Jake at the beach

10:00 AM (Approx.) - Bella wanders the beach, observing a gathering storm and worrying

11:00 AM (Approx.) - Bella decides to try cliff diving without Jacob and returns to the Black house to get her truck

11:20 AM (Approx.) - Bella arrives at the top of the cliff where she'd seen Sam and the others diving weeks before

11:30 AM (Approx.) - Bella stands at the edge of the cliff and hears her auditory hallucination of Edward warning her not to

11:31 AM (Approx.) - Bella jumps.

11:32 AM (Approx.) - Overwhelmed by the churning water, Bella struggles and begins to give up fighting the current, believing she will drown; she feels a hard impact, assuming she's hit a cropping of rock

11:34 AM (Approx.) Bella feels her head break the surface and mistakes Jacob's efforts to expel the water from her lungs as being tossed against the rocks

11:40 AM (Approx.) - Bella regains full consciousness; Jacob carries Bella to his house and Bella sees, distant in the water, a flash of firey red; Jacob informs Bella that Harry Clearwater suffered a heart attack that morning, and is in the hospital in critical condition

11:45 AM (Approx.) - Jacob and Bella arrive at his house; Jake grabs her a change of clothes, but Bella asks him to stay with her; Jake falls asleep on the floor next to the couch; Bella also falls asleep.

4:00 PM (Approx.) - Bella wakes up, thinking of Juliet and Paris

4:25 PM (Approx.) - Billy and Sam return from the hospital; Harry Clearwater has passed away; Sam takes his leave, returning to the hospital where Charlie and Sue are making arrangements

4:30 PM (Approx.) - Jacob leaves to get Bella's truck

4:40 PM (Approx.) - Jacob returns and drives Bella home; Bella seriously considers beginning a romantic relationship with Jake

5:00 PM (Approx.) - Jake pulls up at Charlie's house; Jake catches the scent of a vampire and prepares to retreat with Bella; Bella sees Carlisle's Mercedes parked across the street from her house and demands that Jake stop; Jacob objects, and leaves Bella to inform Sam that there are Cullens in town again

5:10 PM (Approx.) - Bella enters the darkened house and realizes that the red flash she saw on the water earlier had been Victoria's hair; a light comes on and Bella greets Alice with rapturous joy; Alice, surprised and relieved to find Bella alive, carries a sobbing Bella to the sofa; Bella explains that she was not attempting suicide by jumping, and was only doing it for recreation; that Jacob pulled her out and that the Quileute Wolf gene has been re-triggered. Alice is disturbed to find that Bella has been spending copious amounts of time with them and demands full explanations of the wolf and Victoria situations

5:35 PM (Approx.) - Alice laments Bella's suffering

5:37 PM (Approx.) - Jacob calls Bella to check on her; after he abruptly hangs up, Bella makes Alice promise not to leave again right away; Alice leaves the house to hunt and grab an overnight bag, promising to return in exactly an hour

5:40-6:30 PM (Approx.) - Bella cleans up and eats leftovers for dinner

6:30 PM (Approx.) - Bella goes to the living room and finds Alice has returned; Bella sits with her on the sofa and asks about Edward

6:35 PM (Approx.) - Charlie returns from the hospital and Bella greets him with consolations; she also informs him that Alice is back

6:40 PM (Approx.) - Bella falls asleep on Alice's shoulder

#twilight saga #twilight renaissance #new moon in real time 🥀#bella swan #real time twilight #jacob black #new moon 🥀#charlie swan #harry clearwater #sam uley #alice cullen

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━ INTRODUCING SAMIRA IYER

full name. Samira Iyer

nickname(s). Sam, Mira, Sammi

age. 38

birthdate. September 29th, 1985

occupation. External Affairs Manager @ Fairmont Hotels

currently living in. Carriage Falls

gender. Cis Female

pronouns. She/Her

hometown. Los Angeles, California

length of time in Wilmington. Three Weeks

face claim. Deepika Padukone

connections. // pinterest.

trigger warnings. cancer

tldr -

samira is the older of two daughters that the iyer family had in los angeles. her younger sister diana passed away from cancer nearly 20 years ago, after being married to kian lawson. samira was a very studious child and studied for her mba at stanford before settling in san francisco. had a long term relationship in her late 20's to early 30's which resulted in the birth of her daughter maya iyer who is currently seven years old. she worked at different hospitality brands in their marketing and pr sectors before joining the fairmont brand and becoming their external affairs manager, dealing with seeing where there is a demand and how they can bring in other companies for partnerships and collaberations. moved to wilmington just about three weeks ago. spent a week in the four seasons hotel before purchasing a home in carriage falls thanks to her trust fund from her family and her high salary.

BIOGRAPHY ;

Samira Iyer was born to American citizens Aparna and Venkatesh Iyer. She was their first child and they were over the moon as in their culture, they believe a daughter being born is like the Goddess Lakshmi entering your home. Lakshmi is the goddess of wealth and prosperity and that is precisely what she brought as soon as she entered their household. Her father’s business had been doing okay for the past couple of years but within the month of October right after she was born—everything changed. Her father’s luck shifted and he was getting large contracts for his textile importing company and her mother who decided to pursue her life long dream of becoming a nurse actually made it happen once Samira was old enough to go to school.

When Samira was barely a year old though, her parents had another child…Diana Iyer. A very unconventional name it was—but it was all thanks to Samira. Her parents—who had an easy time deciding on her name could not find one for their second daughter until one day little Samira saw Princess Diana on tv and kept pointing to the baby, ‘Diana’. From that moment on, it became her sister’s name. Diana wasn’t like her little sister, instead they were both closer than that—almost twins really. They did everything together.

Her childhood was pretty much perfect in her eyes. She had high expectations from her parents and she excelled in school thanks to their reminder of how important education was for her future. She had a lot of friends in school and was always pretty outgoing and taking part in most extra curriculars as well to make sure they looked good on her resume. She got into Stanford upon graduating from High School and spent the next years of her life there. Given that she was born in Los Angeles, the shift wasn't extreme by any means but she absolutely loved her life at Stanford, a big reason why she ended up moving to San Francisco after getting her MBA.

It was while she was at Stanford that her little sister had decided to go to UNCW and while it kept the girls far apart, they met up as often as their college schedules allowed. Of course while there Diana met her future husband, Kian Lawson someone that Samira had approved of pretty quickly. But when Diana got sick—things changed. Samira had flown out there instantly and had been with her sister while she came to terms with the diagnosis. When the couple decided to marry, she was standing there proudly as her maid of honor. But she had resentment buried in her heart. Of course she desperately wanted Diana to be happy, but her choosing to marry Kian and spend the rest of her remaining time with him as opposed to the family stung her.

She had gone back to school then, needing to focus on her studies—something Diana forced her to do and when the time came, she was there by her sister’s side. Taking a bereavement leave from college wasn’t something Samira had ever believed she’d have to do but such was life. Her bond with Kian from then also shifted—gone were the fun conversations they’d had because they both lost the most important person in their life…the one person they each loved in a way that would never be replaced.

When she returned to Stanford, she threw herself into her studies, ensuring she did the best she could, graduating with honors. Once in San Francisco, Samira worked her way up as a PR marketing manager at various hospitality brands located in there in the city and it’s surrounding areas.. She landed this current job with Fairmont as part of a natural promotion and when they told her she needed to move to North Carolina to see if the area would benefit from another Fairmont hotel in the region, she’d taken the opportunity.

Of course she was moving there with her young daughter Maya. Maya is the product of a long term relationship she’d had while she was in her late 20’s, a relationship that she’d believed was heading towards marriage. They had been engaged when she’d gotten pregnant but he hadn’t been able to deal with the pressure. It was unfortunate—for him, since Maya was pretty much an angelic baby and honesty he missed out on having her in his life. She’s currently just celebrated her seventh birthday and is very excited about this move especially at the prospect of seeing a new place. Often the mother-daughter duo take trips across the United States, their goal is to visit all 50 States and have so far completed 12 states in Maya’s seven years of being born. North Carolina will be their 13th state together.

As a woman—Samira is cold to all those she regards as strangers, building a friendship with her takes time. She won’t blame any past trauma for this but in reality it’s a way to protect both her child and herself from growing attached to anyone who may not remain in her life. But once you get to know her, once you break down through those high walls—she’s truly a very warm person and will often show off her dimpled smile otherwise you get the raised eyebrow that is a very non-verbal way of her saying that you’re wasting her time.

HEADCANONS;

was on the basketball team in school, was also an avid badminton player and founded the woman's cricket league at Stanford ( a fact she's quite proud of)

will always have an iced coffee on her--if she doesn't, there's something wrong

has a couple of standard perfumes that she's always rotating between, some are floral (ie. jasmine, lavender, lilic, frangipani), some smell like sandalwood and then some are like the classic chanel no.5 scents.

her daughter is pestering her for a pet but so far samira hasn't relented but now that they've moved to a different type of city--this might change.

she has a special prayer organized on her sister's birthday every year to pray for her soul.

she swears her daughter has the same mannerisms as diana and often feels like her sister's returned to her life in the form of her daughter.

she loves lush bath products and will always do little bathbombs for her daughter whenever she's having a bad day

has a sibling tattoo that she and her sister got when they were both 18, a little infinity on her wrist with her sister's initials.

tba

#wnc.intro #intro | samira

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I've been binging Ray Donovan. This may be a impertinent question. However to all or any straight men. Does it ever get boring and pathetic and sad and just plain revolting to constantly wanna stick a dick in it? Because as a lesbian and woman I'm like WOW! I'm completely nauseous with just the amount of women he's fucked but with how many he no doubt wants to fuck. I just be over these women that either have daddy issues or I need a white knight complex. Some of those women are so pathetic. If I was him I'd be like no bitch with the sad please fuck me face, I'm not fuckin you!! It will not slove any of your fuckin problems and if I do I'm just gonna be a dick to you later is that what you want? Damn bitch! But Ray Donovan would have far to enlighten as human being to do that... so instead it's stick my dick in it!!

One of the things I've found I truly hate about Ray Donovan character is constant need to fuck almost every woman he has as client or one of his clients sends for him to help... but their only women of current age of course. God forbid he fucks a woman of his own age or older that's not allowed! 🙄

I really would of liked to seen Ray Donovan and Susan Sarandon's character Sam Winslow have a sexual relationship that would of been badass!! But did that happen of course not! It also could of been because Ray Donovan couldn't handle being with a powerful woman!! Because he be a little bitch! But ultimately I think it's because the show deemed her "too old" for his character. I know this series is from 2013 - 2020 so not that long ago but can we move on from this main lead actor mid 40s - early 50s in series can only date/marry/fuck women 20s - mid 30s 🙄. It's so fucking over, it's so fucking boring, it's so fucking pathetic, it's soooo lame!!

When I was in my 20s, shit in my late teens, early teens, fucking ever I never wanted nor I date women in their 20's, I wasn't even attracted to them! I'm sorry their boring... so boring! Especially when I in my 20s and lord we were dumb! I always... always was attracted to women in their 40s! So I'll never understand straight men ever! Maybe the truth is their as dumb as the 20 year olds they want to fuck so much!

I know this isn't a true statement of a hetero men... thank goodness but I think of them as human beings first then their gender. Where men are just their gender, it sums up their whole being, their personality, their emotions, their mind set, maybe it's their shit dna or something but they have yet to evolve pass, lizard brain, monkey brain, caveman brain. Their also tend to be abusers, violent, angry, mean, assholes, criminals. Now they can choose to evolve, but it takes work, time and consistency. They aren't known for that.

#ray donovan series #ray donovan #men like ray donovan #impertinent question #always gonna stick in it #so boring #once again for 1 millionth time I'm so happy im a lesbian

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a list of muses that i offer! if you have any questions regarding any of them, please don't hesitate to shoot me a message and ask!

i am also known to just pick up muses for my writing partners, especially re: wanted opposites, so if those guys pop up here, you know why. PLEASE NOTE: most of my muses are bi/pansexual, and any that are not will be noted.

MAINS / OPENS:

— ADHIRA REY. fc gwendoline christie. early 40's. amab nonbinary (they/it). a strong-willed individual who enjoys breaking those with a cruel heart or malicious streak. dom breaker, top. knight.

— ANIKA SINGH. fc priyanka chopra. 30's. cis female. waitress, currently going back to school in the hopes of becoming a lawyer. bottom switch.

— ATTICUS REX. fc oscar isaac. early to mid 40's. cis male. professional, but will take what he wants. will not raise his voice, though he will raise his hand and get other methods involved. will submit to the right partner. true switch.

— BREANNA "BRAN" PRESCOTT. fc mia goth. early 20's. cis female. small and meek, willing to take and do whatever is asked of her. a timid bunny waiting to be broken or healed. submissive.

— JASMINE "JAZZ" REYNOLDS. fc gugu mbatha-raw. mid 30's. cis female. the owner of Midnight, a beauty and luxury-goods based company, jazz knows what she wants. she is looking for someone to give it to her, or put her in her place. true switch.

— MATTIAS. fc rory mccann. mid 40's. cis male. rivin's bodyguard and semi-willing assistant. his tongue was cut out to keep him quiet, but he follows through with his master's orders without question. sometimes is allowed to keep a favored pet. top verse.

— RIVIN WILLIAMS. fc sam reid. mid 30's. cis male. sadistic and dominant, willing to break whoever he finds. if it doesn't hurt and humiliate, then it isn't worth doing. top dominant.

— VENUS. fc: sarah palmer. 30's. cis female. real name: venus bennett. an actress, model, and singer, venus is portrays the vixen in the daylight. to the lucky few, her "handlers" are always willing to sell her for a few extra bucks.

— YOSHINADA TAKEHIKO. fc tony thornburg. early 40's. cis male. noble, dominant. the ceo of yoshinada industries and secret crime boss. will take what he wants, but draws the line at being overly cruel.

MORE TO BE ADDED — I am currently in the process of setting this blog up.

#muses.#out of character.

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Tuesday, 3 October, 2023.

A lovely though abnormally warm early Fall evening at the Barn.

Warmup

4 Rounds

HEAVY Squat Holds

30 Seconds Down..........30 Seconds Up

Strength

BOX SQUATS

3 / 3 / 3 / 3 / 3 / 3

70 To 80% 1 Rep Max

Pause On A Parallel Box or Bench Each Rep

Explode Up

Chase=315 Shane=265 Robert/Sam=225 Herb/Dana=205 Coach=155 Alicia=105 Tom=95 Kayla=85 Linda/Shannon=75 Elisa/Casey=65 Howard=did stuff Average Dave/Faith=Here Some I missed

WOD

3 Rounds

Dumb Bells (E=50 / 35 / 20)

10 DB Box Step-Ups (24/20)

15 DB Push Presses

20 Push-Ups

25 Sit-Ups (GHD)

100m Farmer's Walk With DB

Kayla=10:25 Shannon=13:08 Elisa=13:12 Robert=13:29* Casey=14 Coach=14:02 Alicia=14:13* Linda=14:26 Dana=16:10** Tom=16:15 Shane=16:43** Chase=19:45** Herb=20:25* Sam/Average Dave=did random stuff Faith/Howard=attended Others=?

Cool-Down

Alternating DB Curls

10 /10 X 5

Notes:

A good group. Girls/Boys 50/50.

Casey was the new girl, sponsored by Elisa who knows her from church. I failed to get an adequate history, but I think she has done CrossFit, maybe in Valencia, California. She moves like it. Casey lives not too far away, has minimal obstructions to attend LHCF, seemed to enjoy our girls (who wouldn't?), and I gave her the T-shirt and offered the lifetime free LHCF membership. I have great hopes that Casey will not only attend, but maybe she'll bring her husband.

Faith rode her bike over to visit. She is holding off on CrossFit due to a very sore toe. She has great hopes to win a mile race this weekend. If she can run, she will win. I'd bet on her. She told me that CrossFit has made her TOUGHER.

Gentleman Howard came for a short visit. Warmup and light strength. He left a case of burly beer in the cooler.

Kayla was here. She claims that she is always here, but my aching heart tells me otherwise. Kayla's current S.O. has reserved a spot in next Tuesday's workout. Why a whole week from now ?? It takes more than a week to grow a pair. And she wants me to program a sissy WOD for him. Like no difficult leg stuff. I reminded her that Tuesday's are Squat Day. She also wants some very lax guy to break him in. Somebody other than Robert. I'm hoping Timmy is back from vacation and can put an insurance rider on his waiver.

Great news from Miss Shannon. She snagged a new and better job, not any further from LHCF, and is politic-ing for early out on Tuesday/Thursday. We all know that any job Shannon wants, she will get it. Nobody with a brain would deny her.

I don't attend church, but I really like church-ladies. Ironic.

Thursday at 4 PM. Snacks, wine, and fun conversation afterwards. A special request has been placed for a bon-fire. Somebody tell Timmy and Ed not to complain about the smoke. Pray for a wind from the West.

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intcthatgoodnight-a2 · 2 years

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if you would like to plot or do something with one of my horror inspired ocs you should like this post / let me know!

I’ve got: James Callaway - southern goth inspired, psychic / medium, heavily religious, detective. and Samantha “Sam” Bennett - true crime podcaster turned final girl.

longer bios are under the cut. they are still heavily a work in progress

James Callaway. A psychic / medium, homicide detective, in his 30s. When he was a child his mother killed his abusive father and made him help her get rid of the body. It’s a secret he’s promised to take to the grave, not wanting to bring shame to his mother, even though she has since passed away. He believes that his psychic abilities are a punishment from God for what he did. He has been haunted my the ghost of his angry father since his was a child. Other ghosts come and go. He became a detective in the hopes that catching murderers would somehow make up for what happened. He married a woman named May when they were in their early 20s. They had two daughters: the oldest Margaret (”Maggie”) who is currently around 10, and Anna who is now around 6. May was killed in a hit in run a few years ago, their youngest daughter Anna was in the car with her, she only received minor injuries, but has been quite and withdrawn since the event. Unknown to James, Anna shares his psychic abilities.

(when I first thought up James I pictured his main verse as being set in the 80s, and while I could still have an 80s verse, for convenience sake I’ve put him in modern day.)

Samantha “Sam” Bennett. A true crime podcaster, turned final girl, in her late 20s. Sam studied journalism and ran a blog before making her podcast, with her best friend as her co-host. It’s a fairly popular podcast with a wide audience, and ran for a little over three years before the murders started. Three women dead, and her town officially had a serial killer. The next victim would be someone Sam knew, a girl she went to school with and was still casually friends with. The next victim was one of Sam’s neighbors in the same apartment building. Around the time of the fourth murder, the killer started emailing her, commenting on recent episodes of the podcast and suggesting what she might say about his kills. She contacted the police but they weren’t able to trace any of the emails. The emails became more angry and threatening, and the murders became more violent, each was someone in close proximity to Sam. It was clear that Sam was a target, the police were watching her, but eventually the killer was able to sneak past them. The killer finally attacked her one night, the two fought; Sam was stabbed in the shoulder, hit across the head, and had deep lacerations to her arms and hands, but was able to get the knife away from him after tazing him, and stabbed him in the neck. At that point the cops had finally heard the commotion and can running in, just as he died. It killer was someone that Sam had taken a journalism class with a few years before. Since the incident Sam's podcast is on an indefinite hiatus. She’s not sure how she feels about it anymore.

#;; human disaster (OOC)#i'm gonna hold off on officially adding them to my muse list #for now i'm just testing them out #but i just can't get these two out of my head

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sortasirius · 3 years

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What the Fuck Happened to the SPN Finale?

Okay so here it is, my Charlie Kelly style manifesto.

Before I get into it, I recognize that I will look like this to many of you, and that’s okay, I understand:

Secondly, your personal Takes about the writers don’t interest me, I don’t need to hear them. This, as I’ll explain, is going to remain a writer positive blog, and that’s the end of it.

Third, and most importantly: some of what I’m going to talk about is fact, and some is highly educated speculation. I will notate what is speculation, just so there’s no confusion or hot takes in my inbox that I’m a conspiracy theorist or stirring shit up for no reason.

A list of what I’ll be discussing

The episode in regards to the rest of the season

The episode issues: length, editing

Scene placement and speculation of scenes cut

The scrubbing of Jack, Cas, Eileen

Network involvement and general timeline of when things were cut

Misha: theories on where he was, official company line, why we can’t expect to hear anything directly

The silence of the cast post episode (in Misha’s case, mid episode) and what this might mean

Jensen speaking with Kripke about the ending: why it doesn’t mean what you might think (also why kripke remained positive on the ending)

Walker, and why this episode had a major shift

Why the network would do this or get involved

Why the writers of the show simply aren’t the bad guys here, and what I “want” out of this post, since I know it’ll get asked

This is very long and under a cut, but I hope you’ll give it a read.

The Episode In Regards to the Rest of the Season

So, I’ve discussed this already here, but it’s the most obvious thing to me, and that’s the way this episode simply doesn’t fit with the rest of the season.

These people in this room have, truly, been nothing but consistent when it comes to their arcs, especially this season, and the marked dropoff in quality for the finale episode is just too sus to discount to me. Dabb’s whole focus has been character-based. In his seasons, we’ve moved far away from MOTW and bro-codependency, the found family taking it’s place. Does it really sit right to anyone that that was all thrown away in literally the last episode of the entire show?

This is speculation on my part, but as a writer myself, there is no way I would be happy or willing to stamp my name on something that I didn’t think would, at the very least, wrap up the season+ character arcs that I and my team had been crafting.

And before anyone comes in here saying, “well GOT did that!” Bruh. The writing was on the wall for GOT long before the final episode. You could tell that the showrunners just wanted to be done (not only from the plot, but from the fact that they lobbied for a shorter season). Miss me with that, it doesn’t apply here. Andrew has, besides Singer and J2, been with the show longer than anyone. He cares, he is meticulous and detailed, and this ending feels worse than anything Bucklemming has ever written, let alone Dabb.

Additionally, I’ve seen a lot of people say that Dabb was never behind Destiel, that it was all Bobo and Meredith and no one else. That is reductive to the point of insult of the work Dabb has done to get this greenlit. This man did not write the s13 Dean grief arc to be slandered like this. That being said, YES, Bobo and Meredith were the leads on the DeanCas arc this season, but ANDREW IS THE SHOWRUNNER, TO GET EVEN THE CONFESSION APPROVED BY THE NETWORK HE WOULD HAVE TO HAVE THEIR BACKS. AND HE DID.

Finale Issues

So, now that we’ve gotten the fact that this episode doesn’t hit on any of the major themes the show was barrelling towards all season, let’s discuss the fact that the episode is just...weird.

Not only is it shorter than any other episode (I think with the intro and the credits/crew thing at the end, it was around 38 mins), but it was also...idk, 90% filler?

One of the lovely humans in the POLOL server did the legwork here, and broke it down:

This is weird, y’all. Most series finales are LONGER than normal (Lost, SOA, Longmire are the ones I can think of off the top of my head), and for the final episode to be this? I saw more than one person point out that we only really needed 19 episodes, what was the point of 20? AND THAT’S EXACTLY IT? WHAT WAS THE POINT OF THIS FINAL EPISODE IF THIS WAS ALL WE WERE SUPPOSED TO GET?

It simply doesn’t make any sense, the first half of the episode was rushed, a final monster hunt gone wrong, but in the second half? Nothing really happened? Sam lived his entire life and Dean just drove around. It doesn’t make sense to have all the emotional arcs left unaddressed in an episode that definitely needed some kind of spark.

Here’s the speculation I have: the episode seemingly went through a lot of changes between the initial inception of the final season and when we actually got it, but I think it would have been passable (as in, we wouldn’t be sitting here asking each other why each arc feels incomplete) until the editing room got ahold of it. The only think that makes this episode make sense is network fuckery. Truly, that is the only thing. It explains the weird, cuts, the rushed pacing of the first half followed by nothing in the second half, the double montages of “Wayward Son” back to back, and Dean just...driving around for the last half of the episode.

Scene Placement and Speculation of Scenes Cut

Before I get into this section, the info of the shots in the episode I have come from a source that @occamshipper got a week or so before the finale. She’s talked about this here.

So here’s what Min was given:

1-5: 1 INT MEN OF LETTERS – DEAN’S ROOM Dean is greeted by Miracle

6-10: 6 INT MEN OF LETTERS – HALLWAY/SAM’S ROOM Sam has his routine

D1 1 11-15: 15 EXT FARM HOUSE Establishing

N1 1/8 16-20: 19 Dad’s journal, marker, drawing of masked man in journal.

21-25: 23 INT IMPALA – PMP Driver picks the music

N2 1 3/8 1,2 26-30: 28pt2 INT BARN: A face from the past

28pt3 Sam and Dean say goodbye

28pt4 Shot early for technical reasons, presumably the overhead shot

N2 31-45: 41 INT MEN OF LETTERS – SAM’S ROOM Sam’s alarm goes off D4 1/8 1 46-60: 56 INT N7glasses for Sam, laptop.

So...it all fits right? It all tracks with the actual episode, where it lands, etc. The issue is between shots 29-40 which were apparently “too big to spoil.” Uh. Where are they? And where’s 28 pt4?

After Dean dies, the next scene is Sam burning him, then shot 31, the shot of his alarm going off.

So. Where are those 11ish shots?

PLUS we have the boards, which are scenes we KNOW were actually shot:

As well as scenes for 20 that were shot in 19.

It’s just...weird, it’s weird and again hits on the fact that the episode is so short and like 80% montage.

The Scrubbing of Jack, Cas, and Eileen

So now we have to reckon with the fact that Eileen was last mentioned by Sam after she got snapped by Chuck, Jack’s last mention is that he’s off being God somewhere, and Cas’ last mention is a ~knowing look~ between Dean and Bobby.

I’m sorry, make it make sense:

???????? That’s the end if it? They don’t need to be discussed after this??? It’s just simply not something a writer would do, they would not introduce these characters, these arcs, without thinking there’s going to be some kind of follow through here.

So not only were three major characters (including two leads and both of the original characters’ love interests) completely wiped from the finale episode, it was as though Sam and Dean never even needed them, which just...ain’t it.

So why Eileen and Jack too? Why not just take Cas out of it if they were afraid of the gay? Because, ultimately, the episode went back to Kripke’s original story: just the bros, they only need each other and no one else. They don’t want anyone else, they don’t need anyone else. Easier to go back to something they knew was successful than trust the writers and their audience and take a big leap.

Alex even said he shot for 20 with “some of the guys” here. What happened to that footage?

The complete 180 of it all still shocks me, I still cannot believe that we were essentially at the finish line, and the network just stopped short, and decided to go run another race, at the expense of the arc of this fifteen year legacy show.

Network Involvement and When Things Were Cut

Okay, now into the juicy stuff.

So I’ve pretty well established that network fuckery is clear, but how much did they get involved, what was the original intent?

Well again, we may never actually know what Andrew’s original script was, but I think, at the least, it would involve Dean speaking his truth to Cas and Sam living a life with Eileen.

Now, it seems today, that Misha said that Jimmy Novak was supposed to be in the finale in one iteration of the script, and while initially my brain was like “that truly makes no sense and he’s either straight up lying or telling a half truth,” I think what may be happening is Misha talking about as much as he can right now.

So Jimmy right. Weird as fuck. Why would he been in the Roadhouse and not Cas? My current thought (this is about as reachy as I’ll get) is that Jimmy had no lines, could he have been in the Roadhouse as a red herring, like it said “Jimmy” in the script but it was just Cas in human clothes, a way to get around the network saying Cas couldn’t be in the final scene. Also, you’ll notice that Misha didn’t say that Cas wasn’t supposed to be in the ep at all, just Jimmy in the last scene.

All this to say, there have clearly been multiple versions of the script, getting lighter and lighter with Cas and Eileen as the network pulled further and further back. Remember, Dabb has to get things approved before they get shot, and if the network kept asking and asking and asking to cut Cas and Eileen, he had to find a way to work around it. Granted, I still think that if we had been able to get a Dabb script that wasn’t torn to shreds in editing, it wouldn’t be so bad. It may not be what a lot of us wanted (Dean speaking his truth to Cas and a reciprocation), but doing everything he could to give it to us in subtext or visual clues.

Plus, in all honesty, my man can’t keep his story straight anyway. He said twice in his panel that the Empty and offscreen Heaven ending weren’t his original ending either.

In addition, remember that Jensen did ADR post episode 18, AND said in a meet and greet last weekend that Dean’s reaction to Cas’ confession was “cut down.” (Source here). Many of us clowns got excited when we first heard about ADR, because we thought it would be upping the ante on Dean’s reaction, but I remember being a little sus when it was just crying. My speculation on that is that they cut out Dean actually SAYING something, @winchestersingerautorepair spoke about that here.

The biggest sins were, in my opinion, committed during editing, where the network got too gun shy and sliced the episode until it was nothing but a heartless bro-fest of a finale, not mentioning anything about the other major characters that we all love, and letting the boys just suffer in separation until Sam died and finally joined Dean in Heaven. The editing came by cutting all the major emotional beats between anyone other than Dean and Sam, leaving the skeleton of the story intact, just shorter and less...poignant than it was ever supposed to be.

Misha

We know Misha was in Vancouver, we know he quarantined, but we also know he wasn’t in the final scene, when he spoke about being in the last moment of the show months ago. We were not crazy, he was there, he quarantined, and, in all likelihood (speculation but fitting with the timeline), he actually may have shot something (not much, but something).

I have sources here, here, here, and here showing where Misha was at that time.

Remember, the man was completely open about coming back until they finished shooting (look at this thread). The switch happened, just like everything else, halfway through them shooting.

Please also remember Jake Abel posting his “Where’s Misha” video here. Jake isn’t malicious, he isn’t being nasty here. Misha was there, and everyone that’s trying to convince people he’s wasn’t just...isn’t telling the truth about it.

This is one of the things that makes me really mad, because they’re literally attempting to gaslight people into thinking, “oh we were totally wrong he was never supposed to be there” WHEN HE WAS THERE, WE KNOW HE WAS THERE.

So we’ve already heard from several people (Meghan Fitzmartin, Jay, a PA on the set of 19 (WHO WAS NOT WORKING FOR 20), Misha himself) that this was all down to Covid restrictions. Ultimately, as this post says, we’ve heard FIVE versions of where Misha was. None of it makes sense, but the Covid protocol seems to be the company line that others are repeating.

You may ask: why? Why lie to all of us when we have questions? Why, in Jay’s case, say that we’re all spreading false lies to stir up trouble, when we just have questions and things that do not make sense. Simply? Warner Brothers is absolutely massive. These people have their careers to protect and are likely all under NDAs. They want to work for WB again and don’t want to burn bridges, including Misha. It sucks, but that’s why it’s unlikely that we’ll hear someone come out and say, “yeah we’re lying to you.”

Silence of the Cast Post Episode

So this is...probably the worst part of all this, at least in my opinion.

The guys had all been pretty excited about the end of the show (especially Jared, but Jensen’s panel last week was Jensen as happy and jokey and positive as I’ve ever seen him. He was so excited about episode 18, about what it meant for Dean and for Cas, and I just cannot buy that he would have been that excited unless he thought there was something more in the episode.

Misha live-tweeted the episode, and was watching it with his kids. It’s well known that Misha and the kids don’t watch the show because it’s too scary, and let’s ask ourselves, why would he have them watch an episode that he’s barely even mentioned in?

He also stopped live-tweeting at a very specific point in the episode (Dean’s death) and has not mentioned Supernatural since then.

None of them, not Jared, Jensen, Misha, or even Alex, said anything about the episode for nearly 36 hours, when Jensen posted a salty photo on instagram. It’s just...not what you’d expect for the end of a 15 year show, when the cast and crew are so close to the fans, so close to each other.

My theory? They didn’t know. They thought Misha was, at least, going to be in the episode in some way, and when he wasn’t, they decided not to say anything.

You really think that Jensen “Heller” Ackles would have been so excited about the end of the show last week if he thought Cas wasn’t going to be in it at all? Nah son, doesn’t make any sense.

Even today, in Jared and Misha’s panels, they seemed sad and...more than a little careful, both saying that there were things they couldn’t say, both talking around things that we all have questions on.

Jensen Speaking with Kripke

So this is where a lot of people are getting fodder to take shots at the writers, saying that Jensen hated it from the beginning, but I don’t think so. I actually think I know what Jensen went to him about, and it wasn’t the lack of Cas or the weird pacing or the montages (which I don’t think were there when Jensen got the script); I think it was the manner of Dean’s death.

I know a lot of people were upset about that, upset with how...normal it was, coming off an episode where they literally beat God. I actually didn’t mind it, I thought it was an interesting thematic take to be like: you can be a hero all your life, but sometimes shit happens, and you just die.

But imagine how hard that was for Jensen to read. He would run to Kripke for that, because for him, Dean dying by being impaled by a piece of rebar had to be tough to swallow.

So, why didn’t Kripke say that? Why didn’t he say, “oh well he had a problem with Dean’s death, none of that other stuff was in the script.”

Guys. Why would he get involved? He’s not going to burn bridges any more than anyone else is. He said the ending was good because it’s the easy thing to do, it’s simple, will cause him no problems in his career, and he can just ignore the people trying to engage with him on it.

Walker

Something else to talk about is the major shift this episode had from the rest of the season: the shift from Dean to Sam. I am NOT saying that Sam isn’t important, he definitely, absolutely is, but it was DEAN who really needed to wrap up his arc, Sam just needed to move on, get married to Eileen, become the leader he was always meant to. So what changed? What was with the shirtless scene, the Austin number and random case there, most of the episode being heavily Sam focused, going through his entire life in a montage?

Anyone else notice the 375 Walker promos, or Jared’s little spiel about Walker and how he hoped SPN fans would “come along for the ride.”

It’s...kinda obvious? CW wanted to appeal to who they think the key demographic of SPN and Walker is: rural areas in the South. It would explain a lot, why so much editing, why so Sam focused, the Austin number, the number of Walker promos, all of it.

I’m not saying this is fact, I don’t know that it is, but it is a little suspicious that even in Jared’s panel today, he talked A LOT about Walker and how he hopes SPN fans will watch it.

Why Would the Network Get Involved?

Simply put: $$$

If they think Walker can be the new SPN, and that those crazy SPN fans liked it originally, it’s a lot safer to go with the “original intent” of the show than do something risky (like making one of your two original leads queer).

And? They don’t care. They don’t care that the episode didn’t make sense, they don’t care that all the emotional arcs were left hanging, they don’t care by (potentially) smashing together two of Dean’s monologues (one to Sam, one to Cas) that it came of as...gross. ( @curioussubjects wrote a beautiful post showing how part of that death speech was likely meant for Dean here). They don’t care, they never have, they just want to make their money and move on from the too-loud fandom that fought for representation too hard for too long.

It can’t help but feel insidious, which, honestly, it might be, but it really all comes down to the next cash cow, which, they think, is Walker, even at the cost of the fifteen year legacy show.

The Writers and What I Want

So here it is, all this weird, sus shit laid out on the line. And you know what? To me, there is no way to blame the writers, because they didn’t want this.

I don’t think Dabb and Bobo would have gone ahead with the confession in 18 without thinking that there would be some closure to that arc, they wouldn’t have done that not only to the fans, but for the sake of their own story as well: no writer wants to start something that they can’t finish. (And this applies to both Cas and Eileen).

Here’s a basic rundown of what I think happened: they had a clear arc from 18-20, ending in reciprocation at some level from Dean, Sam marrying Eileen, Hunter Sam as the new Bobby, Dean in heaven with Cas and big roadhouse reunion at the end. Covid prevented a good amount of that. Network had to stare at big gay 18 for six months, got cold feet. Thought about Walker, target audience and alienation of the rural areas if it went full gay. Misha quarantined and likely shot something (not much), he was then cut by execs and went home. They likely added in lines referencing Eileen and Cas to make it clear but more subtextual. They wrap, editing gets it and hacks it to pieces, so we get a shorter episode that’s mostly montages and jarringly bro-centric with nothing else. Arcs are left hanging. Dabb gets episode but it’s too late, there’s nothing he can do. Actors aren’t told so they can continue to do positive PR for the ending, they all found out at the same time we did: hence almost complete silence about the finale.

And you know what? They warned us. I talked about it here, but they’ve been telling us all season that Chuck wasn’t the writer, he’s the network. I don’t think, still, that they thought it would be cut up like this, into something so unsalvageable that it’s been panned by almost everyone, even people who didn’t care much about Dean and Cas.

Finally, a masterpiece can be ruined by editing, and while I’m not sure even the script they ended up shooting on was a masterpiece (due to the network meddling already), but to me it’s blatantly obvious that it’s no one but the network that caused this, that took away closure for Dean, Cas, and even Sam.

So what do I want? Nothing really, there’s nothing we can do, but I wrote this mostly to show people that the writers are not your enemy. In fact, to the people trashing them? You’re doing exactly what the CW wants you to: blame the obvious targets, blame Misha, blame Jensen and Jared, blame Dabb. Scream and yell at them on Twitter and about how the show is ruined because of them. The network keeps their engagement levels high, they don’t get as targeted for their behavior, and just keep moving along.

Just, please, think about who did this, Mourn the show, be angry, but not at the people who fought tooth and nail for this for literal years, not the people who wanted it more than we did, not the people who cannot say anything because of their careers and the NDAs they’re bound by.

Someone is going to spill eventually, but until then, we just have to wait, and continue to be loud.

#my writing #my meta #supernatural #spn #spn finale trash fire #MY MANIFESTO IS DONE

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