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kaylinalexanderbooks · 1 month

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OC interview

Thanks for the tag @mysticstarlightduck here and @leahnardo-da-veggie here!

Rules: answer questions as one of your OCs!

This time, I think I'll go ahead and do Lexi!

Are you named after anyone?

“Not that I'm aware of. My parents just really liked the name Alexia. And honestly, I can't blame them! It's a good name. I mean, there are so many variants on the name Alexander. Like I could've gotten Alexandra but that seems a little...I dunno, much? Much. Alexis doesn't...feel right. For me, like, I think Alexandra and Alexis are fine names for people who aren't me. Regardless, I definitely prefer the name Lexi. Alexia feels a little awkward to be called on, like, a regular basis. Again, for me. I'm rambling. The point is, no, I don't think I'm named after anyone.”

When was the last time you cried?

“This morning. I couldn't find my pink pen. Yeah, I know it seems stupid and immature to cry over a pen, but, like, it wasn't like I was upset that my pen was missing, it was the fact that I was stressed over losing it because my pink pen is used to color-code my English assignments. And there's a lot of English assignments, y'know?”

Do you have kids?

“I am in middle school. Middle. Schoooool. Who's even thinking about romance? That'll come with time. Like, high school. And kids much later. Like, after college. I don't have to worry about that right now.”

Do you use sarcasm a lot?

“I dunno. I don't have a record. Sometimes?”

What’s the first thing you notice about people?

“...everything? I dunno, I look at them, and I see them. The whole of them. Is this an attraction question? I already said I was in middle school! I guess height. Like if I look at them, it's either up, down, or straight ahead. Height.”

What’s your eye colour?

“My eyes are brown. Not much to say about them. They're pretty dark brown. My sister has bright blue eyes that really standout against her skin and hair. I'm not jealous, actually, it's just an observation. I happen to like my dark eyes!”

Scary movies or happy endings?

“Happy endings, of course! I love a good happy ending. I mean, sad endings make me sad. Scary movies can have happy endings, I guess. This is a strange question haha. But happy endings.”

Any special talents?

“Well, I am first chair, first violin in my orchestra class! I think I'm a good leader. Usually take the lead on group projects. Um...oh, duh, I play the violin. And I also can organize stuff really well. Good color sense, I've been told. Uh, I gotta garden! It's small, but I wanted to have an out doorsy activity. Brings my anxiety down.”

Where were you born?

“Uh...here in Texas, I think. At least that's what I was told. *Gasp* There's a chance I was born in Alium! I need to ask my pia about that...”

Do you have any pets?

“No. I wouldn't mind one! A dog or a cat would be awesome. Maybe both!”

What sort of sports do you play?

“I don't actually play sports. There'd be a few issues to convince those in charge, anyways, to get me a different uniform. I have haphephobia - I don't like people touching me - and the more skin I show the higher the risk and my anxiety goes up more. So for now, no, we don't want to deal with that. I ride my bike sometimes. If I were to play a sport, it would be either volleyball or tennis, and definitely cheerleading - those girls are so nice!”

How tall are you?

“I am 5'1, meaning I'm about average for my age!”

What was your favourite subject in school?

“Oh! English! I like learning new words - I always have. Phonics may have been my favorite in elementary school! We don't do that a lot anymore, but we still learn a lot more about language. Also, may be biased because all my friends are in my class this year. Well, not all of them. Three of them. Mr. Flanagan also let us choose our groups at the beginning of the year, so I'm always with them!”

What is your dream job?

“I. Am in. Middle school. Why would I be thinking that far? *Sigh* I guess...I dunno, maybe journalism or counseling? I feel like that'd be fun.”

Other interviews: Wade, Jazlyn, Gwen

Other Lexi: OC in fifteen, OC in three, OC questionnaire, two truths and a lie, Picrew, blank bingo

Tagging @somethingclevermahogony @melpomene-grey @squarebracket-trickster @writernopal @writeintrees

@winterandwords @ceph-the-ghost-writer @elizaellwrites @tabswrites

+ anyone else who'd like to play!

TSP intro

TSP tag list (ask to be +/-): @thepeculiarbird @illarian-rambling @televisionjester @finchwrites @nebula--nix

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Are you named after anyone? When was the last time you cried? Do you have kids? Do you use sarcasm a lot? What’s the first thing you notice about people? What’s your eye colour? Scary movies or happy endings? Any special talents? Where were you born? Do you have any pets? What sort of sports do you play? How tall are you? What was your favourite subject in school? What is your dream job?

^ for easy copy/paste

#the secret portal #tsp #teaspoon #lexi morgan #oc interview #oc tag game #my oc #writers on tumblr #writing community #writers of tumblr #writing on tumblr #writeblr #writeblr community

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thedeal-if · 10 months

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It took me way too long to figure dropout is yours too 😅🫶🏻 love it! Tell me, what‘s the main motivation behind those two IFs? What do you wish to experience and achieve with each one separately? Did I mention I am a huge fan of both already?? 😍😍😍

I have „Dereliction“ and also opened up „Paved in Ashes“ for the only reason of wanting to have a fantasy and slice-of-life one. But atm my friend is posting all the PiA content for me as I am busy studying. Can‘t wait to be back once my exams are through and finally throw myself into both!

Wishing you lots of joy with both of your babies 💕

Dropout was a kinda out of the blue thing I don't blame you 😭

What do you wish to experience and achieve with each one separately?

Honestly I agree I wanted to write both fantasy and slice-of-life!!

I really really like any media with demons lol that is The Deal's main reason of being. But the more years have passed the more I've used it as a means to explore responsibility and grief.

For a month or so now The Deal has been really hard for me to write (grief in general is something I'm struggling with atm though it's getting better!) so Dropout kind of just gained a little more priority.

As for Dropout... School makes me so anxious lol It's been a really alienating experience which I'm glad to say goodbye to next year hahaha I wanted to explore that feeling + the whole everything changes and I sometimes wish to go back to high school but everyone's an adult now and that sucks.

Did I mention I am a huge fan of both?

This means a lot fr 😭💕 thank you!! Mwah

I have „Dereliction“ and also opened up „Paved in Ashes“ for the only reason of wanting to have a fantasy and slice-of-life one.

Omg I didn't know paved in ashes was yours either 😭 Tumblr recommended it to me so it's doing something right!! It looks like it's going to be amazing, best wishes with both ifs💕

But atm my friend is posting all the PiA content for me as I am busy studying. Can‘t wait to be back once my exams are through and finally throw myself into both!

Hope your exams go wonderfully! Lots of luck!🫂

#the deal if #the deal #dropout if #dropout

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rekishi-aka · 1 year

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Between a rock and a hard place: Adam had no choice, because Leo didn't leave him any

Probably not exactly a hot take, and actually a copy from my DW post the other day. Also, the original post has pictures, but because tumblr doesn't support any proper HTML, I had to skip the majority of them. Which is annoying me.

I think the whole mess is not Adam's fault alone, I actually think Leo has a significant part in it as well. I can't actually blame him, because he's so obviously in love and thought he was so close to getting what he wanted that he probably steamrolled Adam a bit. But Leo, for all that I get him and love him, is very much not blameless here.

Adam has one major raison d'être: Protect Leo. This is his one "this, you protect" thing ever. That was true in the school yard and this is also now true in adulthood with the whole money disaster. Adam wants to keep Leo out of the business with Boris and the money, because this is the best way to protect Leo. That's not exactly a news, this has been true since "Das fleißige Lieschen".

When Leo says, "I sleep better when I know nothing will happen to you", then Adam could have simply said that the same was true for him. He didn't, because Adam represses with the best of them (as you do).

(Rest under the cut, warning it's long an convoluted)

Anyway, between DfL and HdW, Leo didn't really have opportunity to catch some air. There was always something, first Adam comes back out of the blue with exactly no warning that he's still alive or about to become Leo's new partner (which he must have known), then he learns Adam's father has woken up again and the whole angst spiral starts over again. My guess is also that Adam wasn't exactly a happy guy in those two months between the episodes, because he was keeping secrets and had to deal with the emotional fallout of Roland being awake again.

I'm mostly willing to cut Adam slack about that, because he is protective of Leo and had the misguided notion of wanting to fix it himself, but Leo must have been confused. First Adam comes back and downright smoulders at him…and then he probably ran cold, suddenly. Leo is willing to forgive that for the most part because he has Adam back and looking that gift horse in the mouth will probably end with tears. So he doesn't. He should but he doesn't.

After HdW, however, that secret is very well out of the way and they obviously have some time to get used to each other again. The team gels better - probably because with Adam there, who will always have his back, Leo finally has some time to think about what he wants and how he wants to do it and Pia is willing to give the whole thing a go, so Esther is as well. They're so happy and relaxed at the beginning of HdS, flirting like they're about to go home with each other (they might have, had things not happened), it's a joy to see! It's a very bitter moment of what was and what could have been.

After HdS, Adam has more secrets, but all of Leo's secrets and guilt and tragedy has been aired out and gotten out of the way. Yes, he did put Roland in a coma, but he also did that to protect Adam. Really tragic is, I always thought that they could have just said what happened…but after KdE we also know that no one would have believed them. Leo should probably have paid more attention at uni when that topic was on the table, but he probably never thought that was about him - because that's the kind of guy Leo is.

But Leo has no more secrets. And he doesn't want any more secrets. Since DfL, he's always been in some kind of bind and all of that is just gone. And Leo can finally allow himself to actually love Adam the way he wants to.

And I think Leo just said fuck it and doesn't stop to think what that does to Adam. I don't think there was an actual love confession that used the words "I love you" or a variation thereof, but I that whole "I would go to the end of the world with you" wasn't new to Adam. Leo has said that before, in that way or in similar guise and sure, and he's very clearly loved on Adam. Maybe a bit awkwardly, because I don't think Leo is the super expert in relationships either, but I don't think he's been hiding his feelings anymore. He's way too expressive in KdE, he opens the door for Adam way too often, he wants he wants he wants.

Adam, on the other hand, doesn't do emotions - not in the Robert Karow school of thought though; Adam is very aware that they exist and that he has them but he hates it. At best he's rusty at them, at worst he's scared of feeling more than shallowly - scratching a sexual itch isn't the same as feeling something for anyone - because it makes him vulnerable. I don't believe Adam has any kind of relationship experience despite picking up strays and his experience with being loved by anyone (except Leo) is to be hurt. So he panics. And shuts down.

And Leo, who knows enough about Boris and the money and Roland to draw conclusions but not enough to see the whole picture, thinks if he just shows it enough, if he just keeps going and shows Adam how much he loves him, Adam will see it and accept it. Steter Tropfen höhlt den Stein. But he gets restless the more Adam fudges and lies and won't open his mouth, because Leo thinks if he can just fix this problem, he can fix Adam and then they will be happy. Unfortunately, that's not how life works and the whole things leads to the mess at the hospital. Because Leo goes after him again and again and is being shut down until finally, he leaves.

Adam, who knows everything and also knows that Leo loves him, finally has the opportunity to protect Leo from himself and from Adam's whole mess. Because the cut-off finger's of his attacker scared him shitless. So did the realization that, apparently, he's the heir to a crime family, but the fingers really showed him how this ripples out. He knows he's too deep into this mess, and finally when Leo steps up to him and says, "I would go to the end of the world with you but not this way", he knows the way to make Leo go away for good and protect him is to walk that path alone (single-plank bridge, anyone?). Because better Leo emotionally hurt than Leo dead for his association with Adam. Because Adam is a self-sacrificing idiot, but he also wants to save Leo from his own choices; he inserted himself way too deeply into the shitshow that is Adam's life (the couch crashing, going to see Boris, trying to get it out of Adam, etc). He doesn't want to, it hurts him a lot, but he needs to get Leo off this track. He knows Leo well and he very deliberately pushes him over the edge; he sticks in the knife and twists it, basically.

Look at it (static pics at the DW post):

And with Leo also physically shoving him (big, big no go with Adam, srsly Leo have you learned nothing), he finally has the momentum to shoot back.

He isn't enjoying hurting Leo, but he finally manages, because this is Leo after Adam leaves:

(It's lucky Vladimir is a good actor, they both are, or this could have ended up being ridiculous)

This is Adam's last ditch effort. After he pushes Leo so far away that he can't even be sure they'll even still be able to work together, he makes a last ditch effort to get rid of the money by threatening Manuela with 'finding' it at the Heimatschänke. But that goes sideways and Adam learns too much about a past he never wanted and…well.

And still Leo isn't really done with him, because we have this image from the last scene:

This is not a man who is done with his friend. And well, neither is Adam, really (because all things being equal, he will forgive Leo most things which...is a whole different can of warm I don't want to go into here).

Leo, meanwhile, knew Adam had the money. He also knew it was in the gym bag, because he tries to get into Adam's locked desk for confirmation. If Leo had gotten that then or at any other point, this would have been salvageable. But the confirmation after the fight with Alina was just too much for him to take.

And the thing is, this was more or less inevitable. Both of them assume too much about the other and talk too little about their own shit. carmenta and I discussed back in summer or early fall already that the only way they could make it work was if they learned to talk. However, that was unlikely enough that the only way it might work was if they got together, crashed and burned the relationship, and then there was some sort of tearful kissing in the rain in the middle of the night. (With a boom box preferably, but I'm old fashioned.)

I'm actually more surprised that they managed to do that before they even have a relationship, that has to be some sort of record. But ideally they'll get this out of the way and then can start again. Dramaturgically, this is really well done, I approve even if it hurts me in my feels.

Bottom line: Adam (thought he) had no choice, because Leo didn't leave him any. This doesn't make anyone the villain in this scenario, but it also doesn't mean anyone is blameless here.

Also, they both need a hug.

#tatort saarbrücken #leo hölzer #adam schürk #wordy #it's basically a thesis #die kälte der erde #meta

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arkhelios-gameplay · 2 months

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"You're abandoning me while I'm pregnant!" Ulyssa continued. "You have no moral ground to stand on!"

"I'll pay whatever is necessary if we can take a DNA test to prove it's mine-"

"Forget about it!" Ulyssa snapped. "I want nothing to do with you and your manipulative tactics. Kerstin was right about you."

"Kerstin?"

Ulyssa stormed up the stairs without responding. Tennyson swallowed. I had to do this, he reminded himself. If I hadn't, we would've been forced to have this conversation with a child in the picture. He was no stranger to custody battles and parental back-and-forth blaming, with his father and mother doing the same when he was a child, and Pia doing the same to him with Daria.

It was for the best. In the long run.

#arkhelios #ulyssa durant #tennyson yoxall #sims 2 #the sims 2

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commanderbuffy · 10 months

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Jade you TIT! That voicemail explains everything and is Kit telling you that she didn't mean it, got scared, loves you so much. It literally explains everything that Jade had been wallowing over for YEARS! If she had just listened to it sooner!

Ugh, Jade I love you I do but you blaming Kit for not being there for you during moments that she didn't know about because you didn't tell her and wouldn't let her explain or apologise for the fight is on you too, in a big way.

This story is so good and I am all over the place. I was on Jade's side so much at the start but now I'm kind of on Kit's? Kit fucked up, but she's been fighting for their relationship for years at this point, whereas Jade immediately stopped at the first hurdle. I'm so conflicted and so invested and I don't care whose fault it is I just want them to be happy.

Amazing job, as always. This story is living in my brain like a Skellin grub.

But there’s also the domino effect. Who’s to say where their lives might be if Jade had listened to the voicemail right away. In that world, I don’t think Pia would exist at all….

SKELLIN GRUB 😂

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yazzydream · 10 months

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JJK Playlists: Geto | Toji | Gojo

It's Me, I'm the Problem (Geto Suguru Playlist)

Playlist for Geto. Gotta admit, he gets the gears in my brain running. Main themes are about Geto's descent, follows life as a genocidal cult leader, to the end of his life. Manga SPOILERS ahead.

-> [Spotify Link]

1. Paradiso - Pia-no-jac An instrumental chosen by Akutami Gege. Unfortunately, not available on Spotify.

2. Enemy (feat. JID) - Imagine Dragons

Tell you, you're the greatest But once you turn, they hate us (ha)

3. The Wall - PatrickReza When Geto starts questioning his life and philosophy.

Banging my head against the wall Nothing makes sense, no sense at all Nothing can numb me from what I've seen Pull me down, demons, yeah, try me

4. Cradles - Sub Urban Lots of imagery about eating and disassociation.

I love everything Fire's spreading all around my room My world's so bright It's hard to breathe, but that's alright Hush! Shh Tape my eyes open to force reality (oh, no, no) Why can't you just let me eat my weight in glee? I live inside my own world of make-believe Kids screaming in their cradles, profanities Somedays, I feel skinnier than all the other days Sometimes, I can't tell if my body belongs to me

5. Savages - MARINA Covers how the lowly non-sorcerers are monkey--I mean, savages.

One man can build a bomb, another run a race To save somebody's life and have it blow up in his face I'm not the only one who finds it hard to understand I'm not afraid of God, I am afraid of man

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Underneath it all, we're just savages Hidden behind shirts, ties and marriages How could we expect anything at all? We're just animals still learning how to crawl

6. Bohemian Rhapsody - Queen If there's any JJK character who suits Bohemian Rhapsody, it's Geto. The line about being a poor boy made me think of how he's from a non-sorcerer family.

Is this the real life? Is this just fantasy? Caught in a landslide, no escape from reality Open your eyes, look up to the skies and see I'm just a poor boy, I need no sympathy Because I'm easy come, easy go, little high, little low Any way the wind blows doesn't really matter to me, to me Mama, just killed a man Put a gun against his head, pulled my trigger, now he's dead Mama, life had just begun But now I've gone and thrown it all away Mama, ooh, didn't mean to make you cry If I'm not back again this time tomorrow Carry on, carry on as if nothing really matters

7. Wait For It - Hamilton: An American Musical The lines "Death doesn't discriminate between the sinners and the saints" popped into my head after watching s2e4. But when I went back to listen to it to add to this playlist I was blown away by how Burr's (Geto's) thoughts about Hamilton (Gojo) were so suitable. Also, it wasn't always intentional but there's so much religious imagery (and a few mentions of parents...) in this playlist that I'm loving.

Death doesn't discriminate Between the sinners and the saints, it takes and it takes and it takes and we keep living anyway. We rise and we fall and we break and we make our mistakes. And if there's a reason I'm still alive when everyone who loves me has died I'm willing to wait for it. I'm willing to wait for it.

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I am the one thing in life I can control I am inimitable I am an original I'm not falling behind or running late I'm not standing still, I am lying in wait Hamilton faces an endless uphill climb He has something to prove He has nothing to lose Hamilton's pace is relentless he wastes no time What is it like in his shoes? Hamilton doesn't hesitate. He exhibits no restraint. He takes and he takes and he takes and he keeps winning anyway. He changes the game. He plays and he raises the stakes. And if there's a reason he seems to thrive when so few survive, then God dammit I'm willing to wait for it. I'm willing to wait for it.

8. Time of my Life - UPSAHL As Nanami would later say, being a jujutsushi is shit. No wonder Nanami's response was he doesn't blame Geto. Geto suffered from compassion fatigue; he was all burnt up.

I cleaned my room I paid my dues I did all of the things that they all told me to I filled my head With common sense I did all of the things that everybody said So how come all the worst days Are in the time of my life

9. Burning Pile - Mother Mother The turning point. Geto changes his aim.

It goes, all my troubles on a burning pile All lit up and I start to smile If I catch fire then I change my aim Throw my troubles at the pearly gates

10. Bang - AJR Geto certainly left legitimate jujutsu society behind with a bang.

So put your best face on everybody Pretend you know this song Everybody come hang (come hang) Let's go out with a bang Bang! Bang! Bang! I'm way too young to lie here forever I'm way too old to try so whatever come hang (come hang) Let's go out with a bang Bang! Bang! Bang!

11. The Other Side of Paradise - Glass Animals Reflecting on how Gojo (his strength) just went to a place Geto could no longer reach. So, Geto leaves too.

Bye-bye, baby blue I wish you could see the wicked truth Caught up in a rush, it's killing you Screaming at the sun you blow into Curled up in a grip when we were us Fingers in a fist like you might run I settle for a ghost I never knew Super paradise I held on to But I settle for a ghost

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My thunder shook him down My thunder came and shook him down

12. Come Back Home - Two Door Cinema Club I usually prefer sandwiching my playlists with Akutami's music choices, but in this case it felt like it made more sense narratively to place this here. Lol. Sounds like a heartfelt plea from Gojo telling Geto to come back home honestly.

So now you're on your own Won't you come back home? To see you're not that kind And find the strength To find the strength, to find another way

13. East Jesus Nowhere - Green Day Yeah! Classic Green Day, this song popped into my head while thinking about Geto. Geto embraces his religious persona.

A fire burns today Of blasphemy and genocide The sirens of decay Will infiltrate the faith fanatics Oh, bless me Lord for I have sinned It's been a lifetime since I last confessed I threw my crutches in the river of a shadow of doubt And I'll be dressed up in my Sunday best Say a prayer for the family Drop a coin for humanity Ain't this uniform so flattering? I never asked you a goddamn thing

14. cult leader - KiNG MALA

I might be the villain in somebody else's story, but that's fine My methods are controversial, but at least it keeps 'em all in line In line I don't need your roses, I like men on their knees Praying up to their god, seein' visions of me I'm a cult leader, mind reader, heart eater Fear feeder, say I'm your favorite preacher If I wasn't a narcissist, I wouldn't like me either

15. Mental Funeral - EHLE From those devotees.

You're a criminal cute and creepy Dangerous for me When you're all alone, love me, dearly Psychopath

16. Godly Behaviour - ELIO "Monkeys have their roles. Money collecting monkeys and curse collecting monkeys."

Nothing comes for free, there's a fee for my time I'm so heavenly, hard to reach, gotta climb, 'cause I got godly behaviour And I'm not doing any favours I'll be in your dreams tonight, but I'm not an angel 'Cause it's confirmed, I got godly behaviour

17. Do It All The Time - IDKHOW He seemed pretty nonchalant about the Night Parade of a Hundred Demons.

We're taking over the world A little victim-less crime And when I'm taking your innocence I'll be corrupting your mind

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Now we're so young But we're probably gonna die And it's so fun We're so good at selling lies We look so good And we never even try I don't wanna do it, but I do it 'Cause I do it all the time

18. Freak (feat. REI AMI) by Sub Urban Geto's family of curse users.

Welcome to our freak show, come meet my monsters Oh, such a fine collection of stranger things

19. Family - Mother Mother More found family music. Affectionate.

They is my family, they is my family They might be crazy, but they is my family You can't get to them unless you get through me You fuck with them, you fuck with me

20. cutlery collector - Sion POV: Geto when Kenjaku takes over his body.

Cutting me open and switching my insides Make me an avatar girl, just let me die And they all say that I have changed But oh, nobody knew why 'Cause you're a cutlery collector You cut open my mind

21. House of Memories - Panic! At the Disco Lots of melancholic death songs.

Baby, we built this house On memories Take my picture now Shake it 'til you see it And when your fantasies Become your legacy Promise me a place In your house of memories

22. Goodbye - Bo Burnham

So long, goodbye I'll see you when I see you You can pick the street I'll meet you on the other side

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Am I going crazy? Would I even know? Am I right back where I started fourteen years ago? Wanna guess the ending, if it ever does I swear to God that all I've ever wanted was A little bit of everything all of the time A bit of everything all of the time Apathy's a tragedy and boredom is a crime I'm finished playing and I'm staying inside

23. Akari - Soushi Sakiyama The third ED best describes Geto I think.

Before my goodwill crumbles away I should have told you everything In a life descending and dissolving into the night Fuzzy emotions, a flickering light If accepting it as inevitable Means it's all over, even though I know It somehow doesn't feel worth it, there's No meaning to it

#playlist #jujutsu kaisen #suguru geto #my jjk #jjk spoilers #geto suguru

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grissomesque · 7 months

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For the WIP ask game: 💗

Aw, thank you, my friend!

💗Is there a scene you can’t wait to write for a WIP?

So there's a handful of lines in Play It Again, Sam:

“Who was that guy—” “Gary. ‘Gaunt Gary’,” Tom says with a chuckle. She smiles again, circling the pool table. “Your father was so furious when he tracked us here,” she recalls. “His deadbeat son teaching his star protégée to play pool in a dive bar? Can you blame him?” “Yes,” she says softly. “I can.”

I've known, since PIAS, what that whole scene looked like, and I almost wrote it as a oneshot. But I'm glad I held off, because now it's going into the last chapter of High Place in the Darkness. (I've written everything up to it, and a little bit after, and now I just gotta get through midterm grading 😭.)

Thank you for this ask ❤️❤️

WIP Ask Game

#wip ask game #asks

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averbaldumpingground · 3 years

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@albatrossisland Here's Part 2. For anyone who cares, I'm linking Part 1 of this thing.

Deputy Inspector Jaime Lannister was having a particularly shit day.

Which, if he were being honest with himself, something he tried to avoid more than his brother's matchmaking and Pia's attempts to make coffee, could describe pretty much every day since "The Incident" happened.

"Incident". Ha! Jaime rolled his eyes at himself.

As tempting as it was to blame the more or less predictable consequences of almost 40 years of bad decisions on that time some methhead with a mile long list of priors decided to remove his good hand with a Crannogman tool in the middle of a hostage negotiation, at least moving to the middle of bumfuck and nowhere had afforded him enough clarity to admit that, yes, the desk job had been a fucking terrible idea.

Surprise, surprise.

Daddy Dearest would be be so proud though!

Jaime slammed his car door closed, wishing, as usual, that he'd kept the impractical sports car with the remote start ignition and the heated seats that he'd sold right before wildfiring his old life from orbit. Not that it could survive a winter in the subarctic hellhole he called home now, but it would probably beat shivering in his truck while being forced to acknowledge that yes, Pia's ridiculous crocheted hat with its dumb, dopey lion face was actually a very practical gift, thank you. Damn his generally-competent-except-when-it-came-to-coffee secretary. And it probably wasn't even her fault that everybody else at the station apparently liked drinking lukewarm tar...

Coffee. Decent coffee. Decent coffee that didn't taste like the fossilized remains of a tardigrade would be great. He might even get the feeling back in his extremities. Assuming, of course, that the roads stayed subglacial and there weren't any major accidents between the station and Torrhen's Square. Jaime cursed his own poor decision making. He should have moved closer to work.

Edit: Part 3 is here.

#Jaime x Brienne #Jaime Lannister #ASoIaF #Game of Thrones #Modern AU #AU fanfiction #fanfiction #Roadside Assistance #Why did I do this to myself?#I guess this will be more than 6 parts long.#WHHHHHHYYYYYYY?!?!?#I know nothing about police ranks.#So this was like maybe 2 minutes of research on the Wikipedia page for the NYC police department.#And me picking something that sounded important but not too important.#I will not be researching this.#I will not.#I will not damnit!#December 2 2021

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not-poignant · 3 years

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Hi Pia! I'm really loving ffs and I have a question about ADHD because it's something I'm really struggling with at the moment.

I see a lot of the symptoms of ADHD in my behaviour and I've been trying to be diagnosed and get help for it. However, I'm an asian woman at university and my propensity for taking on too many commitments and overworking myself seems to continuously be swept away by therapists saying that's just the way a lot of asian women are and that it isn't ADHD.

Do you have any thoughts on how I might be able to have a conversation with them so that I can possibly get some help. It's just becoming quite frustrating and I feel incredibly lost.

However, I'm an asian woman at university and my propensity for taking on too many commitments and overworking myself seems to continuously be swept away by therapists saying that's just the way a lot of asian women are and that it isn't ADHD.

...That just sounds horribly racist, tbh. Like, that's pigeonholing people into stereotypes that are harmful and stop you from getting assessed and treated properly. That's not even a microaggression, that's just straight up racism. Like, I also take on too many commitments and overwork myself, but a therapist won't blame that on my ethnicity. That's a shitty thing to have happen more than once anon, and I'm so so sorry. Asian women can and have definitely been diagnosed with ADHD!

You absolutely have a right to get assessed. You also have a right to call out - if you feel safe enough - your therapists when they say things like that. Sometimes saying something like: 'What would you say to someone who wasn't Asian then' or 'I understand you're using ethnic stereotypes right now, but can you not use those to bar me from actual assessments?' or 'how would you treat me if you weren't seeing me as an ethnic stereotype?' or 'you dismissing my concerns based on me being Asian is not actually helpful, can I talk to your manager about this?' depending on how bold you feel. But all of this stuff can be extremely hard to say (even if you're saying it only in writing).

Sometimes just a straight up: 'Could you still do the assessments please' or 'can you please refer me to a specialist in this area' can go a long way. Honestly, sometimes calling someone out on being a bigot can also make them realise they're not helping and/or make you realise you deserve a better therapist. I haven't had to do it for ethnicity, but I have had to do it for ableism and queerphobia, and it sucks. At the very least, if I didn't feel like I could be honest with my therapist and they were being bigoted, it let me know that I needed a different therapist.

It might also be worth finding a psychiatrist or actual specialist in ADHD (i.e. not a university therapist, many of them are not good, and also categorically not equipped to diagnose people like this), who not only specialises in subjective self-reporting (i.e. you answering questions) but also objective metrics (i.e. computer programs and tests designed to measure your visual / audio concentration and working memory and executive function).

Unfortunately that can be expensive depending on your circumstances :( Idk what kind of insurance or healthcare you have access to, but it's definitely worth looking for a specialist in adult ADHD, especially adult ADHD in women (which can present differently than it does in men).

Also if anyone here has any suggestions from personal experience - especially on matters of not being allowed to access assessments specifically due to a therapist using ethnic stereotypes against them like this, please feel free to speak up in the replies / reblogs! This obviously isn't something I've had personal experience with, and I know some of my suggestions might be completely off base. <3

Anon, what you have gone through on this so far is really unfair, and really bigoted, I'm not surprised you feel lost and frustrated. You 100% deserve to be assessed purely on your behaviours and attention and executive function, just like everyone else. But I also think it's really awesome that you're persisting on this, and are determined to help yourself as best as you can. The fact that you recognise these people are failing you (and they are) means hopefully you will eventually find someone who doesn't. I really wish you luck with this stuff, and I'm so sorry for the crap you've already had to put up with.

#asks and answers #personal #i'm also so pissed off on your behalf anon #like #the level of racism in the responses you're getting #you deserve so much better than that #and there *are* better specialists out there #who won't be bigoted dicks #i hope you're taking care of yourself

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enchantedblackrose · 3 years

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All the Pieces Pt 3

Gif not mine. Full credit to the owner. Taken from Google Images

All the Pieces

Sirius Black/Fem Reader

Warnings: unedited, mild language, alcohol consumption, brief mentions of underage drinking, small mention of bullying. Lengthy author's notes at the end. Also this was a huge PIA to write so hopefully it doesn't read too disconnected

Part 1|| Part 2|| Part 4|| Part 5

Part 3 of ?

When you touch me gently I remember how you know And the sun shines rings around your smile And I'm here laughing like a child -Pieces, Dan Powell

If it was any other person on your doorstep, you'd probably berate them for inducing that almost heart attack you just experienced. Instead you grab the familiar face by the sleeve of his worn jacket, pulling him into your living room.

"I could deck you, Remus John Lupin. I thought someone came for him. Ugh. Come here." Your arms wrap around him for a tight hug, which he returns. "He's here, Remus. He's safe." You feel Remus let out a deep sigh of relief. Pulling away, you look at him with gentle scrutiny, knowing what a toll last night took on him. "You look awful. Did you walk far? You should've told me you were coming. I could have met you."

Remus shakes his head. "I caught a train and apparated most of the way."

"Stop fussing over him, y/n. Let the poor man get past the door." Sirius's teasing voice calls out from behind you; no doubt his canine ears allowed him to hear the familiar voice even through the closed bedroom door and knew it was safe to come down.

The two men embrace; this encounter being much more relaxed than their last. No Peter, no warranted need for revenge, no threat of execution.

As you all stand in your living room, a haunting thought hits you: you three are it, the last of your true friends. Peter is the traitor. You suppress a shudder, swearing to make the most of this moment.

"You know," you say with a grin, "I happen to have a large bottle of firewhisky. Fancy a drink, boys?" Sirius's grin mirrors your own. Remus has a small tentative smile, but it's all the encouragement you need to send you to the kitchen to fetch the bottle.

The small, quaint kitchen appears even smaller with the disregarded dishes from breakfast still sitting out on your table. The sight causes a small frown to appear on your face. All the rest of the morning and most of your afternoon had been lost to the unplanned nap with Sirius. You fill your sink with soap and hot water. A few flicks of your wand and your dirty dishes are submerged in the water, scrubbed, and rinsed. The process begins again as now clean plates make their way to the drying rack, which is concerning because you dont believe you cast a spell for that. Confused, you turn to see Remus in the kitchen. He winks and wordlessly reaches your top cabinet without so much of a stretch to retrieve the bottle of firewhisky. You follow him back to the livingroom, toting three glasses.

"Cheers to freedom," you say once everyone has a full glass, "and to being reunited with old friends."

"You hear that, Remus? She thinks we're old." You roll your eyes good naturedly. Remus rests a hand on Sirius's shoulder, giving it a brotherly pat. "We are old," he says simply, before all three of you raise your glasses to your lips, sipping at the burning liquid. You each settle comfortably in your living room. Remus sits in the armchair, leaving the overstuffed couch for Sirius and you. You sit at an end, while he opts for the middle seat, but in a respectable distance of your space. The bottle of alcohol sits in arms reached on the coffee table.

"I thought you swore off this stuff y/n." Remus says with a twinkle in his eye as he takes another drink from his glass. "You know, considering your history with it.." You groan and Sirius throws his head back in laughter.

"I almost forgot," Sirius says breathlessly from laughing. "Was that seventh year?"

"Sixth. Just before we got together. I suppose I was trying to impress you," you tell him.

"You matched me drink for drink that night."

"Which was mad seeing how I never had a drink before. I spent all next morning and afternoon in bed, throwing up. It was awful."

"You're forgetting the best part," Remus interjects.

"Dancing on top of that old table in the Shrieking Shack, singing the chorus of "Rock and Roll all Nite" at the top of my lungs was far from the best part. I only wish I could forget it."

"That wasn't singing, love. More like cats dying," Sirius quips while he and Remus laugh. You say nothing, well aware how accurate the description fits. You take a long drink from your glass.

"Yes, well as, uh, entertaining as that moment was, I wasn't referring to it," says Remus. You look at him questioningly. "Have you forgotten sneaking into the Slytherin boys' dorm, stealing all their robes, turning them hot pink, changing the crest to a mountain troll, and then returning them to the dorm?"

"Oh, Merlin. That was the same night wasn't it? James had never been so keen on lending me his invisibility cloak until I concocted that plan!" The two men laugh and you join in.

"You know most of my other friends thought I was strange for being into muggle music." You say as the laughter dies down.

"Lily shouldn't have?" Sirius asks after he swallows his drink.

"No. You're forgetting Lily and I weren't friends first. We didn't really talk or hang out until she and James started dating."

"That's right. I forgot. I remember the two of you constantly together."

"Because we bonded over you two idiots. Prior to that, she never came out and said it, but I think she thought I was daft hanging around you lot most of the time. The other girls were more forgiving, but they had crushes on you all." You give a careless shrug. It was no secret how sought after the boys had been in their schooldays.

"I never quite understood how you became friends with us," Remus says.

"It was easy with you. You were so nice, calm, dependable, and not obnoxious. Peter…" you pause, choosing words carefully, not wanting present feelings to influence memories. "He was quiet and lonely. Pretty much agreeable. Again, easy. James and Sirius? I was determined to never speak to either after that boat ride our first night."

"We saved your life that night!" Sirius interjects.

"You two were the reason it needed saving! Standing up in a fucking boat because you two saw whatever in the lake. James knocking me overboard in the process."

"It was a giant squid and we rescued you."

You roll your eyes. "I was drenched, freezing and completely mortified. And as apologetic as James was, he kept calling me the wrong name." You all laugh.

"It wasn't until second year that I thought they might be okay. We had already become friends," you say looking at Remus. "I missed about a week of classes due to acute bronchitis. You spent time with me afterwards, helping me catch up. When you missed later that month, I was ready to return the favor."

Remus nods, remembering the time fondly. "You were an excellent note taker. Much better than the other three."

"Did you even take notes?" You ask with a playful glance to Sirius.

"In second year? Probably not." He grins ever so cheekily. You shake your head, but are smiling.

"So we became friends and you befriended James and Sirius by default?" Remus muses.

Sirius feigns hurt. "Are you implying we were some sort of consolation prize?"

"Actually," you interject, "They saved me once again. A group of four older boys were harassing me, just dumb taunts and knocking my books out from my hands. They came right over, not caring about being outnumbered. Got the gits to leave me alone. James finally learned my name and I realized Potter and Black weren't so awful after all."

"Those guys were jerks. It didn't sit well with us to see anyone bullied like that."

"Unless of course it was Snape," you counter.

"That was different," Sirius's free hand clenches into a fist as he takes a hard drink.

Remus is quick to change the subject. "Do you still have that remembrall?"

"The one we enchanted to go red only for James? Mhm! It's at my flat in the city."

"Do you mean our flat?" Sirius asks.

Your smile falters. "No. Sirius. I got a different place. After…everything. It was too hard."

A deafening silence falls. Each of you taking long sips from your glasses.

"Oh!" You jump up suddenly, which given your somewhat inebriated state is not the brightest idea. You stumble slightly, but Sirius steadies you, grabbing you by your hips. His fingers linger and your eyes meet. You lose yourself; for a moment you're sixteen again and his touch is more intoxicating than the alcohol. His gaze tells you he feels the same.

Remus clears his throat loudly before taking a drink from his glass.

"Thanks," you mumble, setting your glass on the table.

Sirius releases you from his grasp, though you still feel the ghost of his touch. "'Tis no trouble, darling." You sense his eyes on you as you disappear from the room, heading upstairs. Your head is buzzing, but you blame that on the alcohol…

You return downstairs to the living room, the fetched item tucked securely out of sight under your arm, and find the boys, men talking with easy smiles. It makes you so happy to witness and spend this time together. Your presence has their full attention.

"Follow me, please." You fill your glass with more firewhisky. Sirius mimics the gesture and offers Remus a refill, but he just shakes his head no and silently indicates to the liquid still in his glass. You grab your wand and lead your little group outside to the backyard. The sun sits low in the west, the sky becoming more plum and black than pink and gold. Buckbeak sits on the ground near your shed, one wing tucked over its head.

You hand Sirius your wand and then produce his prisoner robes. He laughs and even Remus looks as if he approves. Sirius waves your wand and the dingy, tattered garment is set ablaze.

After a while, you all make your way back inside. You prepare a light dinner and the eating and drinking continue with more laughs and shared memories. Hours pass. The contents of the bottle nearly drained signal the night coming to an end.

"I'm one drink away from dancing on tabletops and singing, or, screeching some A-ha, or something equally as embarrassing." you laugh. "I'm going to bed. Remus, I offered Sirius your room, but you're welcome to the couch. There are blankets and pillows in the hall closet."

"Thank you, y/n. But I should be going."

"What? No. Stay. I insist. I need to see your bemused face sipping tea when I come downstairs with a bloody hangover and you're just fine."

Remus grins. "I hate depriving you both of such a moment, but I have an appointment tomorrow morning. I've already rented a room." You frown but don't press the issue any more. "Though if you don't mind, I thought I'd travel by floo."

"Of course. Help yourself. Powder is on the mantle." You hug him close and kiss his cheek. You excuse yourself, giving the other two time to say goodbye.

As you head for the bathroom, you pause hearing their low voices.

"I'm so sorry, old friend, for believing you... betrayed them. I should have known better. I-"

"There's nothing to forgive. I doubted you, too. The war made us all fear the worst.."

Mentally, you chastise yourself for eavesdropping and begin washing your face.

Sirius has made his way upstairs. In passing his room, you say goodnight. You're about to close the door to your bedroom when he calls your name and you turn to see him stepping towards you. Without warning his lips crash down on yours. Your fingers intertwine in his dark curls at the nape of his neck as you let the kiss deepen. His hands grip your waist and he hoists you up off your feet with little effort just as he did many times all those years ago. Your legs wrap themselves around his waist as he carries you to your bed. He drops you gently and only breaks the kiss to look at you. Still hovering over you, his gray eyes search your face for the answer to an unasked question. You nod in response, but he continues to gaze at you longing to hear you say it.

"I want you."

A slow breath of relief leaves him and his mouth finds its way back to yours.

The night ends with two former lovers once again completely losing themselves in a perfect moment.

There's an unspoken understanding that the night you and Sirius shared together was more than a drunken hookup after a long night of reminiscing. But you don't repeat the night, though you share your bed with him. Nights are hard for him. Sleep doesn't always come easy and he often wakes in the middle of the night screaming, or panicked with sweat pouring off his body. But your presence brings him a comfort he can't otherwise achieve. And so, you spend your night together in your bed. Sleeping.

As days turn into weeks, a comfortable routine has set. Remus visits about once a week. Surprisingly, Sirius has taken to caring for your garden. You go into town as needed and you and Sirius cook dinner together most nights. Buckbeak, now known as Witherwings per a letter from Hagrid that reached Sirius, roams your yard freely, occasionally taking flight in the safety of the countryside night skies, always returning by daybreak. As precautions for the hippogriff and Sirius you casted Protego totalum over the cottage and yards.

During this time together, Sirius learns how you took over your parents' shop*, how you've taken on a promising young woman who mostly looks after it, leaving you to spend more time here at the cottage, which also belonged to your parents. With tears in your eyes, you told him how they died months apart just over two years ago. He comforted you, remembering them both fondly and told you they'd be proud of you.

The day is still young when you tell him you have to go to the shop to take inventory. Before you leave you call out to him.

"Since it looks like rain, can you please go through some of your things in the attic?"

"Yes, dear," he uses the term mockingly and you playfully glare back at him.

"Try not to burn the place down while I'm gone." With that, you close the door behind you.

It's late afternoon when you return home. Sirius is waiting for you. A midnight blue box in his hand.

"Will you marry me, y/n?"

*a/n: I kept this vague so you can imagine a shop that fits your personality/likes/whatever. I'll only specify this later if needed for storylines. I wanted something where you could be allotted time off easily. Personally I imagine maybe an apothecary? Or maybe an antique shop. What about you?

2: I'm thinking of writing a prequel? More like blurbs, highlighting moments between you and Sirius. But I need to know what you want to read. First engagement? First kiss? When Sirius realizes he's in love? Time at Hogwarts? Post Hogwarts but pre Azkaban?

Taglist <3: @oingo233 @marimorena06 @medalloway-blog

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agentrouka-blog · 3 years

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Reading how pretty pia got slut shame for being molested, I think it is somewhat similar to Sansa going through in vale. Lysa called her whore because petyr forced kiss her. Marillion implied same claiming she had bastard blood. Tyrion and Hound blame her for not giving them what they wanted and mock her. In show she was continuously mocked for her rape. Arya playing 'mercy' evoke similar image. Maybe in future Arya will hear something about Sansa.

I'm pretty sure those parallels are intentional.

Arya is a great observer but she is not necessarily great at interpreting what she sees. Not yet.

She doesn’t start out with the ability to truly question why people act the way they do. There is simply a very passionate reaction.

"I hate them," Arya confided, red-faced, sniffling. "The Hound and the queen and the king and Prince Joffrey. I hate all of them. Joffrey lied, it wasn't the way he said. I hate Sansa too. She did remember, she just lied so Joffrey would like her."

"We all lie," her father said. "Or did you truly think I'd believe that Nymeria ran off?" (AGOT, Arya II)

I like to think that Arya’s journey is indeed going to lead her to not just seeing minute details and contradictions but understanding the deeper context of things, the forces below the surface. Away from black-and-white, back to grey. Toward more compassion, just as Ned showed her.

I do think this will be crucial in her relationship with Sansa, specifically.

#arya stark #pretty pia

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janiedean · 6 years

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Not trying to fuel discourse and if you wanna ignore this and drop the Cersei conversation I respect that, but I don't think it's true or fair to say that Cersei fans actually like Cat instead. It implies that liking Cersei and Cat are mutually exclusive when people absolutely can and do like both, or that they are assigning Cat's attributes to Cersei. I understand not liking Cersei and I'm not trying to convince anyone they should, but people shouldn't be judged if they do either.

I don’t think I explained myself but no, I’m not saying certain cersei fans like cat instead.

I’m saying that a lot of people who have their *strictly fanon* interpretation of cersei as a ‘smart person well-versed in politics who genuinely loves all of her children for themselves and cannot come into her own just because the patriarchy stops her’ when canon cersei is a) shit at politics, b) shit at strategizing anything, c) doesn’t love her children if not as extensions of herself (BAR JOFFREY I GUESS or anyway I don’t see that), d) maybe the patriarchy stops her but the moment she gets in power she does a great job of fucking it up for herself because she doesn’t listen to other people... are not talking about canon!cersei, they’re talking about canon!catelyn who is actually someone who’s smart, well-versed in politics and who probably would have gone places if she hadn’t been a woman (sure as hell she’s better at it than her husband and tyrion for that matter), and since a lot of those people also either don’t care for cat or are in the group considering her a bitch/weak/annoying maybe it’d be more intellectually honest if they just admitted they’re projecting cat on fanon cersei. period.

if people who actually like both for different reasons like both then who even has a problem with it, I’m just saying that 90% of the fanon!cersei interpretation sounds like canon!catelyn to me and that’s my personal impression. I’m not talking about ppl who like cersei for the mess she is and dislike cat for other perfectly legitimate reasons, I’m talking about people who like cersei and talk about her in ways that absolutely don’t resemble who she is in canon (same as I see people discussing jaime and saying that ‘he actually was being victim-blaming/ableist/misogynist in his treatment of **pia**’ and I go like have we read the same book and yes I saw that discussion once too). period. I’m not saying EVERYONE does it and I’m not saying you can’t like both or that you can’t dislike one and not the other. I mean ffs I don’t like one and I like the other. I’m just saying my very personal impression of what ppl interpret fanon cersei as.

peace, I could absolutely be wrong. but like, someone who likes cersei can absolutely hate cat for wholly different reasons and viceversa, I’m just saying that if your fanon cersei (fanon cersei not canon) sounds like canon cat I’m going to find it at least somewhat amusing esp. given that cat gets way more fandom hate than c. like, far from me to say ppl should like cat. I hope I explained myself better.

(cc @nellethiel-aranel you replied to that other post with a similar thing so I’m tagging you here to and not repeat myself XD I guess I didn’t explain myself too well ops)

#1 #2 #3 #4 #5 #anti-cersei lannister #Anonymous #ask post

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