#im just going through it right now

[goldnhourwrites]

im tired as fuck and going through a shenzed phase. i am. losing my mind over them

#shenzed #zedshen #don't worry i'm still crazy over kaynphel and kyone and everything else #im just going THROUGH IT right now #league of legends

[the-goldenbot]

This is the only motherfucker I can trust on this bitch of an earth

#this is a lie i trust and love all my friends #im just going through it right now

[steddieas-shegoes]

It’s been done in every which way but Eddie being in an accident of some kind that leaves him paralyzed, but his doctors believe he could walk again with intense physical therapy

He’s stubborn and absolutely hasn’t dealt with any of the trauma of the accident and takes it out on his physical therapist, Steve, who is used to patients being pretty angry about their situation

He always meets Eddie where he is though, tries to keep a smile on his face and joke when appropriate and even shares his cookies from his lunchbox with him

Eventually, Eddie starts making some progress, but instead of being happy about it, he panics and cancels all his PT appointments for the week

Steve tries calling, texting, emailing, doing everything he can to encourage him to keep going, but it all goes unanswered until Gareth, one of Eddie’s closest friends, calls him on Eddie’s phone

He’s depressed and he won’t get out of bed, he’s given up. He’s tired of being in pain and having to try to so hard just to move his damn legs a little

Steve isn’t usually this personal with clients, and tells Gareth he can’t discuss anything medical with him due to patient confidentiality, but insists he should try to drag him to the office the next day before it opens

And somehow, probably through guilt, Gareth manages to wheel a very sullen and grumpy Eddie into the side door entrance to the office at seven in the morning

Steve tells him to come back in an hour to pick him up and Eddie ignores the goodbye Gareth says to him

And Steve pretends nothing is wrong at all, goes through the usual temperature and blood pressure check, asks how he’s feeling and gets a grunt in response, asks if there’s any pain and gets an eye roll

But Eddie met his match in Steve because Steve then pushes him to the center of the workout room, where a large mat is out and a walker is set to the side

“What’s that?”

“Your walker.”

“I don’t need one seeing as I can’t fucking walk.”

“You are today.”

And Steve knows he’s pushing and he hates being pushy

But he knows what his clients are capable of, and he knows without a single doubt in his mind that Eddie is ready to use the walker for five to ten minute increments. He has the leg strength and the stubbornness, he just needs the belief in himself

“Do you want me to hurt myself worse?”

“Of course not. And if you get tired, the seat on the walker is right there. But you can walk and you will walk.”

“And if I call Gareth to come get me right now?”

“Then I don’t believe my services are of value to you anymore and I’ll wish you the best.”

It pained Steve to say it because he knew he was fucking good at what he did, maybe the best in town. His clients often had to wait for his availability to open for weeks or months at a time because of how many people were referred to him

But he said the right thing because Eddie huffed, groaned, and cursed under his breath before wheeling himself to the edge of the mat to hold onto the walker

He pulled himself up

His legs were shaking from not being used for the last few days more than the bare minimum, but his determination was clear

Steve slowly pulled the chair away as Eddie unlocked the brakes of the walker and glared at Steve as he took one step, then two

Sure, he was relying pretty heavily on the walker, maybe more than Steve would’ve liked to see, but he was moving

He made it across the mat and then locked the brakes, sat down on the pad on the walker, and gave a sarcastic grin to Steve

“Happy?”

“Are you?”

And maybe Eddie wasn’t ready to be asked that because he was suddenly sobbing, covering his face as tears flowed down his cheeks

Steve gave him a few seconds before moving to kneel in front of him, pulling his hands away

“You deserve to have your life back, Eddie. You’ve been lucky to have the chance to walk again. Let’s not waste it, okay?”

Eddie spent the rest of the session walking across the mat and taking breaks every two minutes or so

It was better than Steve even expected, but he reminded Eddie not to do too much at once

Eddie didn’t miss any more appointments with Steve, and every appointment, he seemed to be more charming and flirty, more like “the old Eddie” according to Gareth, who drove him most days

Steve never admitted it out loud, but he knew what he felt for Eddie was different from other clients. It felt more personal, and it felt like it could be more someday

When Eddie graduated to a cane, Steve’s services were officially no longer needed

And Eddie decided that he should probably take Steve out on a date

“Since I can walk and hold your hand now,” he winked.

Steve should say no, but he doesn’t

Because holding Eddie’s hand feels even more right as his boyfriend than it did as his physical therapist

#steddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #stranger things #headcanon #physical therapist Steve #idk going through my notes on things I’ll never have time to actually write #but maybe someone else does #I’m literally ignoring work so hard right now #I’m just tired!!!! #im just a girl who doesn’t wanna work anymore!!!! #cw: injury #cw: mention of accident

[itseghost]

i have been steadily catching up with the mighty nein campaign the past few weeks after i fell off right around travelercon arc a few years ago.... i am ENTRANCED AGAIN and i have been doodling them while i put off thesis film work..

#jester lavorre #caduceus clay #lucien tavelle #mollymauk tealeaf #critical role #critical role fanart #critrole #the mighty nein #cr m9 #cr campaign 2 #m9 #technically this is just lucien. because i didnt wanna paint the rest of his tattoos i fear. but im tagging molly anyways dont kill me #but he has the horn jewelry? i didnt think this through #and no i have no idea where his eye tattoos actually are #im on episode 136 right now. utterly captivated by whatever essek and caleb have going on #deeply stressed about the incoming end of the campaign though #what like 2 years late. LMAO #itseart

[cupidreamexe]

this disability pride month i wanna give a shout out to the people who 100% KNOW theyre disabled but have to deal with going through the tedious process of getting a proper official diagnosis. especially if youre just barely on the cusp of not quite meeting the diagnostic criteria so they dont want to diagnose you just yet. the ones who have to monitor their symptoms for months, even years, but the symptoms have melded so much in your daily life that its hard to keep track of whats a symptom and whats 'normal'.

i see you. you are strong. you are not overreacting. you are not faking it. you will get through this. you are not alone.

you are your own best advocate and you deserve to be heard.

#dreamy broadcast #disability pride month #actually disabled #chronic illness #chronically ill #neurodivergent #disabled positivity #im going through this right now. because im just out of bounds for a lupus diagnosis even though i have many symptoms that line up with it #all i know is i definitely have an autoimmune disorder

[beeduoo]

wonderful

#there is a ranboo that goes withthis but i didn't like how he was looking imma restart from scratch tmrw😭😭 #ctubbo #michael beloved #ctubbo fanart #Guys you have no idea what i went through today like it wa fucking crazy i need to share this #so i went to the mall after school right and im going home at like 8 on the train with my friend bc i was supposed to be picked up ay her #stop right but then im told to just go to my stop and take the bus and im like ok sure but the problem is my phone is on SEVEN PERCENT and w #hen i get to the stop my moms like u have money for the bus right and im like ueah and i check and i have NO MONEY #BUT I DIDNT TELL HER ANUTHING BC I DIDNT WANT HER TI GET MAD BC I KNEW SHE WOUDKNT WANT ME TO WALK ALL THE WAY HOME AT NIGHT (FOURTY BLOCKS #So im like ok im getting on the bus now my phone is on four percent i have to WALK HOME allll that way and there's this crazy ass upward hi #ll that's like ten blocks long ITS NOT EVEN THAT BAD but like my mom thinks im on the bus so im trying to speed walk as fast as i can and i #RAWDOGGED it too because MU PHONE WAS GOING TO IDE!!!! #I made it home at two percent U guys i was so proud of myself thank u for listening #IM SO MAD IT WOUKDVE BEEN OKAY IF I WASNT IN A RUSH And also if i had music uggghhh Whatever #I bought this really cute skirt at garage hold on let me find it #lexi pleated skort color Navy blue ITS SOOOO CUTE got some new leg warmers too yesss.... #I NEED TO DOWNLOAD THE TRANSIT APP i woukdve been able to attach my apple pay and buy the stupid ticket if my phonewasnnt #too dead to do al that... #Guys always make sure u carry cash with yiu goodbye

[decolonize-the-left]

Artists creating specifically to sell and trading off (some of) their own style to do it, activists begging for attention and shares and media coverage because they aren't being paid enough attention, UNWRA desperate for donations, the percentage of people who don't mask in 2024 compared to deaths and disabilities, ppl who need to be convinced to vote with principles that save lives and that genocide is unacceptable, how a living wage or UBI is believed to be "unrealistic" despite the trillions in shareholder investment accounts.

....I'm starting to think Mainstream People™ fucking suck, ngl. In fact, dare I say that Mainstream People are the biggest obstacle to progress now.

Malcolm X said it was the white liberal as did a lot of other revolutionaries and thinkers.

I, however, think anyone who can hold their own comfort over someone else's suffering is the problem.

Why are the rest of us constantly begging and shouting and changing ourselves and our bodies in an effort to make them care about us? To make them see us? To give us rights? To bless us with the support needed to make a living?

Same shit, different generations. And idk about y'all, but I would love to be the last generations who ever had to hate themselves to survive.

#For starters: why are we asking and voting and protesting for rights. HELLO?? #THEYRE RIGHTS. THEYRE ALREADY OURS. #Secondly: it's been 500 years since pilgrims arrived #they do not call the shots anymore. And one of my rights is to form my own militia #to protect me from a fucked up government... are we waiting for an invitation to start calling shots? or whats the plan with that #cuz im good #id like to start talikg whats mine now ty #....anyway i have no fucking clue what to do #i do know that there two ways to get passed an obstacle tho. around it or through it #idk if you can just Workaround the majority and idk how to go through them either #reblog #politics #mainstream #dems #repubs #liberals #people #sociology #idk #equality #classism #capitalism #biden #lgbt #direct action #leftist #ndn #queer #2024 #social justice

[acekindaneat]

art dump

#some are new some are old #i know i havent been drawin a lot.. im just working thru stuff #like both irl stuff and also another comic. #i swear im still into mp100 im just going through the horrors right now #now if you'll excuse me i'll go back into my cave and go insane thanks #mi art stuff #reigen arataka #serizawa katsuya #serirei #mp100 #mob psycho 100 #mp100 fanart #also i realized i never draw demon reigen so he gets a rendered drawing pfft

[napping-sapphic]

i want to fall in love in a way that always gives me something positive to think of like i want to love someone so much that i know i can send my thoughts in their direction to calm myself down and get away from everything else for a bit i don’t know i guess i just want something good to think about

#wlw #wlw mood #sapphic #sapphism #lesbian #ugh ignore me #again im going through a lot right now #i dont know im just tired #and sad and sick of thinking #and it’s like there’s no mental safe spaces in my mind right now #because it all just redirects back #just feedback loop forever #and i just wish i had something safe to think about i guess #im sorry im sad posting i just honestly don’t have anything else to give right now

[gelarshiesprofruitboarder]

felt like drawing marzi and uhhhhh,, put her in the outfit im wearing right now cuz i feel like itd fit her :3

#man im really going through a homestar phase right now. hm. #shed be a mikaela davis fan it just feels right #homestar runner #h*r #marzipan #marzipan hsr #art #doodles

[azuneekun]

i come check ur blog everytime my friends slander shane to my face. its a type of shane palette cleanser. ur the only mf who gets me

Im glad you can feel some sort of sanctuary in my blog bcz shane fans r always going through the fucking trenches in this fandom

#i just went through facebook looking at a page that did not ask for permission posting my art (i gave up) and im reading thru the comments #and most of them r just slandering shane left and right like CAN U GET OUT #i know that old man is stinky!!! now GET OUT OF MY HOUSE 👉🚪 #i keep getting shit in reddit too everytime i post shane. this never happens w the other characters 😂 #they all complain abt me drawing shane “handsome” like idk how to tell these ppl but can u fuckin imagine if i drew shane more poorly than #everyone else LMFAOOOOOOOOOO #like even if im not a fan of a character i wouldnt draw them intentionally 'ugly' 😭😂 there would always be someone who loved that person #ppl r entitled to their own opinion ofc and we cant stop them for not liking shane but they dont have to rub it in our face either 😭😂 #i normally just avoid/ignore ppl who dont like shane (obviously. incredibly normal thing to do.) but shane haters will go to shane fans #and shit right in their front yard and personal spaces lmfaooo 😭😂 good lord #sorry for the yelling in the tags

[suits]

help a black woman in need

tldr; beat homelessness just in time to have my car repossessed.

hi ive been putting this off as long as i can because idk how to ask for help but i really need it rn. some of you might know, i was homeless since oct 2022. we found a place and have moved in at the start of this month (july). unfortunately this morning i was on my way out to work only to find that my car had been repossessed due to me falling behind on the payments (see: being homeless). i had to call off today but i need my car to get to work the rest of the week. im not asking for a specific amount because i need a lot and this will most likely be ongoing.but ANYTHING helps. please share even if you can't help out financially. words of encouragement/advice also appreciated. thank you 🙏🏾🫶🏾 pypl: @mkwats cshpp: $mkawatson vnmo: mk-watson

#i've literally been crying all day i have no idea how im going to make it through this #i do not like asking for help and only like 2 people knew about my previous situation but this is just so #all encompassing i feel completely defeated i really dont know what to do #sorry ill probably be annoying rb this #please do not be rude this is incredibly vulnerable i genuinely dont know how to even #put into words how defeated i feel #maybe its my own fault for waiting so long to ask for help #maybe if i asked sooner i would not be where i am right now but i genuinely hate feeling like a burden #im very much suffer in silence type but this is so much more than i can handle alone

[goobygnarp]

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#good grief im gettin a lil tired of seeing 'DONT DO THIS' kinda art videos #i very much understand its a youtube thing and that clickbait names and thumbs get the views and attention needed #but it doesnt mean it doesnt annoy me or that I cant be annoyed by it #sometimes i just see it in tutorial pictures too #but the large DONTS with red Xs near the supposed ''wrong'' way of drawing is so demotivating #people start and draw in many ways than one #its what makes art their own #but when videos or tutorial posts are made and show the ''WRONG'' way to go about it #its like scolding the new artist or long time artist with that style that they're doing it wrong and that its bad #no matter the intention its not the way to go about helping artists learn to draw #and in my personal opinion #the click bait ''DONT DO THIS WHEN DRAWING'' thing is what keeps me from actually watching the vids #i get theyre probably helpful but i don't like that I have to feel some NEED or DESIRE to click on a vid cause I feel like I did a thing #wrong or that i never should have done it at all #i wish i could see more 'here are some tips that helped me #kinda vids cause yes i would love to learn what helped you rather than being or feeling wronged for drawing in a way that isn't theirs #im rambling but i have been seeing a lot of 'DONT DO THIS' NEVER DO THIS' 'IF YOURE DOING THIS STOP NOW' kinda art vids #im speakin for myself here #but im an artist sifting through art youtube or spaces always willing to learn new ways of improving my art #i dont need to feel click baited like the next 3am don't this kid to learn how to improve my inking skills #if it was more a 'this is my personal preference and I wanna share it with my audience and maybe teach some things' kinda vid #id watch that too #but im just so tired of seeing art youtube going down this need to tell folks 'YOURE DOING IT ALL WRONG. THIS IS THE RIGHT WAY"

[outism-had-a-purpose]

Got me giggling and shit. Despite it all she keeps being silly my favorite war criminal

outis lore outis lore she is odysseying the purpose

Outmael nation. We have been fed. They are pissing each other off so bad

#canto v spoilers #limbus company #im making the stupidest fucking hyena cackling right now about this #oh outis.... please keep bootlicking brutalizing babygirling..... #just to say this i have not actually watched nor read canto 5 i'm just skimming through the logs #she is running that ship like the navy i love her so much #has someone posted a video about canto v i NEED to watch the damn thing #my friends are going to suffer watching me go feral over her again #and ishmael of course. and dante. man.