#it's breaking my heart pls why

[purplesweetpotatoes]

I told my friend that Aziraphale and Crowley got together in Good Omens (as in they are confirmed in love and not just writers stringing us along). I did not tell her that they are no longer together and now I don't know how to break it to her before she embarks on the journey of watching the show

#I can only pray that she doesn't get there before Season 3 comes out #good omens #aziraphale #crowley #I think I've dug my own hole with this one #they're not talking #it's breaking my heart pls why

[samberrybay]

This part in 32 chp always felt kind of odd to me and this is the reason why:

The coward wolf boy, Lock. Until Choi Han found him, Lock had been hiding as the chief had told him. The Lock at that point is very much a coward, a weakling, and kind of slow. In simple terms, Lock easily took the position of the character that readers found to be extremely frustrating.

This has bothered me since I first read the novel, and to this day, even after several rereads, it still haunts me.

Cale simply isn't the type of a person to actually call a kid, no matter how they behave, to be "frustrating".

(When the text said "readers" it's damn well obvious of Cale being the one to think so.)

Pondering for some time I can roughly guess why the wording was so unexpected for his character.

At the time of the assassination/kindaping in the village, Lock was only thirteen years old. He also hasn't had his first berserk transformation yet. Therefore it is not surprising that Lock's uncle hid him and told not to go out, saying that everything was fine and he should continue to hide.

Now let's look at the situation realistically.

Lock (in tcf) jumps out of his hiding to protect his younger siblings. The adrenaline and inner Blue Wolf Tribe's instincts to protect turned on his berserk transportation one year beforehand, however if not Rosalyn and Choi Han, who came earlier than in the actual novel, i don't think it would help much.

Lock would possibly be able to kill a few people or at least seriously injure them, but CMON. They killed an ENTIRE village full of berserk Blue Wolf's and with almost-Wolf King (Lock's uncle). Do you really believe that a thirteen years old boy jumping into his first berserk transformation would be able to fight properly against strong organization that had holy water or some sort of holy artefact on their hands?

Again, if not for Choi Han's and Rosalyn's arrival... it would have definitely ended pretty bad.

In TBOAH Lock for some reason didn't jump out. Different circumstances, wrong wroted part in the novel, idk, but the fact is stated: Lock stayed hidden. He also most likely survived only because of Choi Han's help. Just with much worse scenario where he was left alone from the whole village.

And it wasn't Lock's fault yet again. He was a child. No matter if a Beastman one or not, the boy was just an innocent, naive and weak child.

So why would Cale, Kim Rok Soo at the time, find him frustrating? Extremely so even!

The answer is much easier if you think about it.

Because it wasn't Kim Rok Soo blaming a kid for being weak and cowardly in a fearful situation, it was a man who saw his own past that he hated so much.

A coward, a weakling and kind of slow.

For Rok Soo, who blamed himself for half of his life for the deaths of team one members, Lock was like a salt for still open, but ignored wounds.

KRS greatly disliked and maybe even envied Lock for a bit. The boy got a new family, he got friends and some sort of guidance from them even after facing so much despair.

While he was all alone, trying to understand what to do on his own.

It sure is irritating for Rok Soo.

Yet Team Leader Kim Rok Soo was probably unable to fully hate Lock for his weakness, because while the latter was still a kid, the same forgiveness can't be used on him. At least in his own head.

So with conflicting feelings Cale settled on "Extremely frustrating" description.

#overall it is actually just my sleepy thoughts #KRS's self-hatred is so strong it is kind of amazing but mostly heart breaking #this man holds too much trauma #and with each novel update i fear that we still don't know all of it #i love Lock's and Cale's relationship so this is why i was really questioning this part #pls cry with me because of this realization #tcf #trash of the count's family #lcf #lout of the count’s family #cale henituse #tcf cale #lcf cale #tcf lock #lcf lark #tcf novel #lcf novel #kim rok soo

[thelastharbinger]

This Boy Was Made To Suffer.

#bruh why am i crying. this gifset wasn't supposed to hurt me #pls let him smile by the end of the show #my heart breaks for the trickster god #loki #loki series #loki laufeyson #lokius #tom hiddleston #anyways bravo to tom hiddleston for bringing so much heart & shakespeare to this little villain #loki finale

[shima-draws]

Actually genuinely started crying when Luffy almost said he wanted Usopp off the ship and then Sanji interrupted and yelled at him. What the hell. This shit is so sad what the FUCK bro

#In TEARS rn. Esp bc they’re really driving it in hard how MUCH the entire crew cares about Usopp #Even Sanji and Zoro who aren’t overly affectionate with him #My heart is BREAKING my kokoro is brokoro!! THAT SHIT HURTED!!!! #When Luffy and Usopp started arguing that’s when the waterworks started. I was sitting there like 🥺😭 my sweet darling boys pls don’t fight #The boys are fighting 😔 #Also it’s understandable why Usopp’s in denial and doesn’t want to let the Merry go but it’s also SO frustrating #Bc he’s clearly making it out to be that Luffy doesn’t care about the Merry #When in fact Luffy was probably the MOST upset at having to let her go #And he fucking AGONIZED over the decision to get a new ship #It’s a burden as the captain and he accepted everything that came with it #But Usopp just. Doesn’t get that. Bc he’s got too much of his own personal shit going on #And Luffy is upset that Usopp would even think he didn’t take the time and consideration to think over what to do with the Merry…… #ZERO trust there. Usopp’s majorly disrespecting Luffy. I bet Zoro in particular is Not happy about that #God this arc is written so well. I’m so upset. I’m SO upset #Lies down #One Piece #Shima speaks

[adharastarlight]

when you see a cute trans post but then half the replies are transphobic and that brief moment where it was just you and your mutuals in your lil corner of decent humanity is gone :(

#like it breaks my heart #why cant people just be nice :( #how does someone choosing to go by different pronouns actually affect you!? #like seriously #if you're that bloody bothered go to therapy man #it sounds like a you problem #but sadly youve made it everyones problem #i hate transphobes #theres like ten minutes a day when i forget how many people are actively against me #its just me and my delusional (desperate) ignorance (denial) against the world #its like so disconnected from actual society and lasts an entire few minutes but its so nice #why cant we live in peace man pls #anywayssss #trans #transgender #lgbtq #lgbtq community #i hate the world #i hate society

[willowser]

one of those crazy girls by paramore except it's gojo

#now when you say you wanna slow down #does that mean you wanna slow dance? #maybe you just want a little extra time to focus on our romance #what do you mean i've got it backwards? you know we're gonna be forever #why are you telling me goodbye? arent you gonna stay the night? #are we really over now? maybe i can change your mind #as soon as you walk out my door i'm gonna call 100 times #i pour my heart out to your voicemal let you know i caught a bus to your side of town #now i'm standing at your doorstep #if you dont answer i'll just use the key i copied 'cause i really need to see you #if you're not here when i break in i'm gonna go through your closet just so i can smell your skin #i know i'll never love again i swear i'll never love again #IT'S SO HIM PLS #✿ thoughts: gojo

[sweetbrier2908]

im not crying you are

#cant belive they DID this again #i want to go back pls let me go back solmare pleaseeeee #okay so now after the vampire event i dont think the brothers will let us go back #they clearly said that we stuck with them forever or sth like that #no but why have to be luke #my baby boy breaks my heart #huhuhu i cant handle this anymore #of course you felt familiar #obey me #obey me nightbringer #obey me spoilers #obey me daily chat #obey me luke #purgatory hall #purgatory trio

[mizukiko-kun]

Productions of Hamlet where Hamlet downs Horatio’s poisoned wine himself, my beloved. Drinking the poison meant for your best friend to save their life must have felt so intimate…

#bonus points if horatio realises how decisive hamlet is being and just watches him do it with a very broken-hearted look on his face #i prefer that to the struggling and very visibly sobbing horatio. he’s more suited for silent tears. to me. #the rational stoic guy breaks down on the inside and you can see it #ALRIGHT ILL CONFESS that’s just my fav production of hamlet #it’s a musical and it’s in japanese so i don’t think the shakespeare girlies know about it but one day ill write up a post #and in that post ill be so obsessed with it. as i constantly am. #hamlet #also hamlet drinking the poisoned wine also means to me that he gets to kill himself even if he’s going to die from the poisoned blade first #and that makes him as many times killed as claudius. i haven’t thought deep enough about this part #on the other hand it also enables him to die for the purpose of saving someone instead of the purpose of avenging the already dead #(if someone’s trying to produce hamlet with the main message being it’s better to die to save someone than to die for revenge #this would be the chance) #(although why on earth would you want to undermine hamlet’s grief… don’t make his entire story pointless c’mon #if anyone has a better way to fit this point into the story than i do pls tell me) #the amount of times i think about the final scene of hamlet is just the amount of times normal teenage girls do the ending of r&j i guess #also look at this bitch describing what happens in hamlet like it's a real historical event

[artheresy]

Playing Jingliu’s story quest at 3 am is a severe mistake, I just got to the part of Blade thinking about the past after Jingliu killed him for that brief point and it brought me to tears, not even like single tear type stuff, like I haven’t stopped actively crying since I got to that part

I can’t tell if I would have cried this much at a more reasonable time because Blade’s my favorite and his VA’s performance like severely impacted me or if its just because I am very tired and fragile at this time of day

EITHER WAY, W O W OUCH, I am in so much pain, I am in infinite pain and seeing people talking about this pointing out stuff is not making it any better. I am so going to be annoying about this quest maybe tomorrow and talk about it because OH MY GOD it was so good jessuusss

#my thoughts are all over the place #im so sad for blade #and for jingliu all she lost and must remember 😭 #I WANT THEM BOTH TO BE HAPPY FUCK #also I have been feeling sick #since i learned a more accurate translation of Dan Heng’s I’ll see it through line to Blade #would actually be smth along the lines of I’ll accompany you to the end #THEY BREAK MY FUCKING HEART #They hurt me so bad #and speaking of ships also #JINGLIU SAYING CLOUDS FADE AND THEN BOOM BAIHENG LIKE #UGH #HOYOVERSE AND THEIR TRAGIC YURI #WHY MUST THE HYV LESBIANS ALWAYS SUFFER ANGUISH STTOOPPP (pls continue its so good) #im in pain #now my nose is all running bc of the cryi g wtf is this game DOING TO ME #jingliu #dan heng #hsr blade #high cloud quintet #hsr #honkai star rail #hsr spoilers

[oooohno]

When your comfort show turns sad

#small robin telling her mom she doesn’t understand when her mom is explaining to her why they have to separate #even though she’s probably the smartest kid ever breaks my heart :(((( #she is just a child after all 😭 #WHY MUST ALL THE BACKSTORIES BE SAD #PLS #nana’s one piece saga ☠️

[twistedappletree]

One of the reasons I can’t handle extreme zhuiling angst is because I start thinking of situations like Lan Sizhui learning empathy and using it to try and find out more about his family/parents/history etc. but being unable to get out and Jin Ling desperately trying to bring him back through any means possible (his voice, his bell, LSZ’s childhood toys) but nothing seems to work so he exhausts himself watching over LSZ day by day and protecting his body until he figures out a way to save him because he refuses to let him go

#I TOLD YOU I LIKE TO BREAK MY OWN HEART #why am I thinking about this at 7:30 in the morning I even had good coffee I should be having HAPPY THOUGHTS WTF #😭😭😭😭😭 #mdzs #the untamed #jin ling #lan sizhui #angst #mdzs empathy #mo dao zu shi #zhuiling #mdzs headcanons #fic musings #apple babble 🍎 #it makes me so goddamn sad thinking about them being sad I CANT HANDLE IT #someone else write this stuff for me idt I can do it tbh LOL #ofc JL would eventually consult WWX lbr #and WWX would lowkey be disappointed in LSZ for using empathy but he’d do anything to save his a-yuan #I can only handle something like this if it’s a good ending tho pls for the love of god ajdbakndka #fic ideas #unfortunately #like I feel like LSZ would get stuck in some sort of limbo instead of getting completely possessed #bc he would have a hard time leaving after seeing his family #hence the empathy lasting days #IF that’s possible I’m not sure #but in fanfiction anything is possible bc we are all ✨unhinged✨ lmaoooo

[harleytudinous]

Marc Spector everyone~

#moon knight #marc spector #ok im not even supposed to do this now #but i really love his demeanor right there #he's always tense but not here he's like #'i gotta soothe my lovely wife anger' mode #this is why i gonna keep wake up and break up #and cry my heart out for him orz #for my future self #pls be better lol orzz

[litwhorees]

mini rant time !

okay so sometimes I find myself annoyed when Joe burrow comes across my tl/explore page and that had me confused because he’s part of the reason why I started watching the NFL and I like him. so I’m like wth is causing this !? then it hit me. besides the obvious d-riding that the media does with the cringy nicknames and whatnot, it’s also bc certain things he does/says get positive reactions yet if Jalen Lamar or Justin said/did them the general reaction would be a lil… different

#in conclusion burrow didn’t actually do anything … it’s a combination of the media and my overprotectiveness of black qbs #sorry Joey b ! pls forgive me ! #this behavior would never get me brownie points with tee 😔 and especially not with jamarr 💀 #unrelated but I watched a football game at any level for the first time in two weeks today and now I wanna cry 😀👍🏾 #Miami why must you break my heart

[purplejan]

stop stop stop jaida and shea and yvie are gonna be here in january i am literally in tears !!!

#also?? so fucking anxious #cause 1) i don't think i can get meet and greets and it's currently breaking my heart #2) jinkx sold out in like 10 minutes (i couldn't get tickets actually) and i am so damn scared the same happens with them #like am i elated that they're coming? 100% am i also riddling with anxiety and will be until the day they start selling the tickets #i feel insane in this moment fr fr like i am vibrating and so happy but so anxious and aaa #no cause why did i even consider getting a credit card?? HUH?? i am insane pls someone stop me from doing dumb shit because of them

[judyalvqrez]

the way people are once again removing all the nuance and moral greyness and complexity out of the last of us, but especially joel miller’s character is kinda concerning lol

#i told myself i wasn't gonna get into the discourse but i was reading through some of the posts and comments in the tlou tag and... oof #like i get it i could write whole essays about my feelings on this story and its characters and the ending ect. #but a lot of people are already getting annoyingly defensive of every single one of joel’s actions #literally stripping him of all of the flaws and complexities and moral greyness that make him such a great character #why are yall turning him into a clean cut selfless hero that did everything right like that's so boring #what’s most frustrating is how people are completely ignoring ellie’s perspective in all of this #some even just pushing her entire character aside in favor of joel #only bringing her or her trauma up when they’re trying to justify something joel did #and treating her like an accessory to his character when you should be reflecting how his actions are gonna affect HER #i hate to break it to yall but if you bring this highly romanticized version of joel into the next season #yall are NOT gonna have a good time #it happened once and it will happen again and i know the inevitable backlash is gonna be twice as bad this time that’s why im concerned #anyway those are just my two cents that no one asked for if you see me posting any type of discourse again pls shoot me lol #and please don't think i'm a joel hater either those people are just as annoying they're just in the minority i think especially on tumblr #why can't we just enjoy joel for the morally grey complex and honestly fucked up and tragic man that he is #it's like joel defender this joel hater that let's just be joel enjoyers #or joel lovers that'd be me because i love him with all my heart 🥺 #especially hbo joel like his characterization was so good he just hits different and honestly i prefer him over game joel #and i do enjoy the occasional ''joel is innocent/did nothing wrong' memes/jokes i think they're hilarious and ultimately harmless #(also the joel/abby memes but that's another story sjafhksaf) #this was more about the people writing almost whole ass dissertations or actively starting arguments in their fervent need to defend joel #okay im done lol #lucy rants #i tried to keep this little rant as spoiler free as possible because there's no way in hell im tagging this asjfknsa this was more for me #if you read this whole thing through the end: hi i hope your day was good and if it wasn't i hope it's great tomorrow :)

[stuckinakillingjar]

me seeing literally anything related to trish and bruno's relationship

#i mean this in a purely father daughter relationship way so don't tag as ship pls #they're so ugh they're breaking my heart like omg why aren't there more fanfics focused on those two #jjba #golden wind #i literally need a tag for stuff about the two of them i talk about them pretty often #bruno & trish