Packs of sharks all staring at me...
Unblinkingly.
The dark eyes glare in disapproval,
And I'm just trapped there, unmovable.
They circle around me with no effort,
All while I flounder, I gasp, I panic;
I try to fix my mistake.
They know of my weakness
And they take bites of my brain.
"You're an idiot! You're a clutz!
"We're ashamed to call you one of us!"
My own feelings shut me down.
My body won't listen to me.
While the sharks all just go to town,
And then leave me to the mercy of the sea.
Finally they swim away from me; a job well done
Hundreds of sharks swimming as one.
I try to follow because I'm desperate,
So desperate to not be alone.
The sharks swim so fast just to breathe,
And I'm left behind;
Left to sink into the darkness of the open sea.
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Simmer
(( A short fic based on this fun test animation of Tamora cooking by Shawn Lee! Hope you enjoy! ))
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Everything was going wrong.
She was trying to pull her weight by cooking a warm meal but faced adversity at every turn. Water boiled over on the stove, and uncooked pasta covered the floor. The instructions made it seem simple, so why did this feel like the most grueling battle she’d faced today? Why couldn’t she just do it?
With a shout, she reached for her firearm, targeting the recipe book with a barrage of plasma bullets. As she just about unloaded her clip, the kitchen door swung open.
“Tammy Jean, cease fire!” a voice commanded, cutting through her rage and ending the bombardment. The sergeant lowered her weapon, tucking it back into her inventory as she turned towards the person she’d effectively been “fighting” for.
His small frame stood in the doorway, breathing heavily as he surveyed the room, the distress deepening on his face as he observed the smoking bullet holes peppering his cabinetry.
“Fix-It…” Tamora whispered as the weight of her actions settled in. As it turned out, adjusting to domestic life was more difficult than any boot camp, and she’d just failed miserably.
And like any other humbled private, she stood awaiting her reprimands.
“Tamora,” the handyman said after quietly drinking in the scene. “Were you…trying to make dinner?”
Eyes cast downward, she gave him a sullen nod in response.
The 8-bit removed his cap to scratch his head, recontextualizing her baffling behavior.
“Well, I can understand how that can be stressful…But Tammy, you can’t just shoot up the place when things don’t go your way.”
Somehow, the calmness of Felix’s reaction stung worse than the anger she’d expect from anyone else in his shoes. Was this that “killing with kindness” business she’d heard about? If so, she had to admit it was an effective tactic.
“Did you take a calming breath?”
“I did…” Tamora swallowed. “Right before pumping the recipe book full of holes.”
Felix looked down, picking up the Swiss-cheese-like silhouette of his cookbook off the floor.
“You probably should have taken a second breath then, honeybadger,” he chuckled.
The boiling pot of water caught his attention, and he stepped over to the burner to shut it off. His boot connected with the pot lid on the floor, and he felt its toasty temperature through his gloves as he picked it up.
“Did you burn yourself?” the handyman looked up at her with concern.
“It’s fine,” Tamora wrote it off, keeping her arms behind her back.
“Tam,” Felix replied with a measure of annoyance. He held out his hand, and she reluctantly offered hers.
His eyes went wide as he inspected her palm and fingers.
“Well it’s no wonder you got so upset,” he said, gesturing to the red blisters on her delicate skin. “This is not fine.”
With a flick of his wrist, he wielded his hammer and lightly tapped it against her wound. A warm glow washed over her, and the stinging ceased.
“Thank you…” this was the first time she’d experienced his reparative magic first-hand. She moved her fingers as a soft tingling sensation lingered; so that’s what it felt like. “But that doesn’t excuse what I did. I’m sorry.”
Wincing at the bits of pasta that crunched under her, Tamora knelt to match the handyman’s height.
“You do so much, and I wanted to contribute. But it all blew up in my face.”
Felix smiled, and stepping over to the far pantry cabinet, pulled out the dustpan and broom.
“Then let's pick up the pieces together,” he said.
While Tamora worked to sweep up the floor, Felix used his hammer to fix the cabinets and erase every bullet hole he could find. Last, but not least, he tapped the cookbook and flipped through its pages.
“Okay; spaghetti…” he hummed, placing the book on its stand atop the kitchen island. He did a double take at the frayed edges of a page still missing. “Honey? Where is the—”
“Hmm?” Tamora moved quickly, standing straight as an arrow in front of the corner by the stove. “I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
“Tammy…” Felix moved his hands to his hips with an incredulous look.
The sergeant sighed, stepping aside to reveal the book's missing page pinned to the wall with a chef’s knife.
For a moment, the handyman’s mouth hung open, and he closed it in a flat line across his face as he looked up at her. Unfortunately, there was no way around this one. She had very deliberately ripped out a page from his book and stabbed it.
“Sorry,” she said quickly.
The handyman’s brows furrowed a bit, and he bubbled over with laughter. After a few moments, he gathered himself back up, shaking his head. Goodness, he loved her.
“We’re going to need that knife, sweetheart,” he tittered, gesturing for her to hand it over.
With one last guilty look, Tamora grabbed the handle and pulled back roughly. The knife came loose, and she handed it and the page over.
Felix set the knife down and repaired the torn page. Putting his hammer away, he smoothed his fingers over the book’s surface with a contented sigh.
“Alright, let's get started…”
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at the barn today I was thinking about arranged-marriage Jean/Kaeya (either a full royalty AU or the Gunnhildr heir marrying the ‘prince’ of Khaenri’ah, and part of the plot is related to the fact that, whoops, the Alberich family are misrepresenting themselves to Mondstadt) but also thinking about how there are certain elements of Kaeya’s personality and Jean/Kaeya in general I like that feel to me like they rely on him spending at least some time with Crepus and Diluc
and the resolution my brain arrived at was that Kaeya did come to Mondstadt and live with Crepus and Diluc, undercover, then vanished at some point. Possibly after the fight with Diluc? Love the idea of his divided loyalties meaning he goes home and talks people into a new plan or something
and as far as Jean knows she married some mystery person who always hides their face, or an Abyss monster or what have you, and this borrows the plot element from East of the Sun and West of the Moon where he shows up in human form in her bed every night but refuses to let her look at her face, except I’m pretty sure Jean would abide by The Rules there and thank goodness because I actually hate the questing part of East of the Sun and West of the Moon (it’s so tediously long!) and don’t want to rewrite that particular fairytale. XD;;
But anyway this obviously would hinge to a certain extent on the Khaenri’ahan ‘prince’ she married (I still like the idea of the political plot turning in part on the misrepresentation) turning out to be Diluc’s long-lost adopted little brother whom she! was friends with! Probably there is a curse element here--actually I just thought of this but okay he is in a monster form and this is the only way the curse of Khaenri’ah can be broken for an Alberich or something, I need to ponder that a bit more--and someone tries to trick her into failing it as part of the overall politics here
(this goes a bit Beauty-and-the-Beast-ish if you take the failure-and-quest bit out of EotSaWotM and god that name is tedious even abbreviated. as tedious as the actual fairytale. I hate it so much it has the ONE GOOD BIT and then the rest is a drag, but imagine Kaeya, forced by the curse-breaking formula not to reveal himself to her, leaning on every scrap of knowledge he remembers from their teenage years to try and impress his reluctant, if grimly dutiful, bride)
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