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skinimini80 · 7 months
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Ok ok I wasn’t gonna post but I feel like a fraud if I only show my best (even my best is pure misery but that’s ed life for you)
I was so hungry when I woke up incredibly early yesterday. I ate my omad.
I was able to sleep after the omad, but I had class so I took a nap.
I went to class, came back and ate more food.
Basically I b/ped all my safe food for the week.
I got creative with it too. I was so down bad for a binge I found some old ass brown rice and a jar of tomatoes and some sauce packets and made a bowl of rice-tomato-bbq bullshit.
It tasted good lowkey but it wasn’t even the point.
I ate it and threw it up. I wanted something good so I cracked open my meager savings and bought some pizza (and breadsticks and brownies, and a second pizza).
I b/ped that too. I had a meeting to go to so I ended the session. I cleaned up and drank water as usual. I felt proud I only spent 60$. Do I have that kind of money in the first place? No. Do I have any food for the rest of the week? No. Am I literally forced to fast for like 5 days? Yeah!
Anyways I came home from the meeting, intending to go to bed because it would be my omad and a purge, which in my eyes is in my calorie limit because I purge very well and usually lose over time with like several of them mixed into my restriction.
Not great. But ok, salvageable.
But wait. There’s more.
I took a shower and in said shower decided I was very hungry and wanted to keep down a safe meal to sleep. Normally fine, but I had already eaten before this whole ordeal. It would knock me out of my deficit!
Still I did. I broke into my savings even more (I have none left so better hope nothing happens) and ordered dinner. It tasted ok. It honestly feels great in my system rn. I slept 11 hours. I actually had to force myself up for class.
Anyways minimum, I’m fasting the next 5 days cause I don’t have money. I’ll be in the clear calories wise after one day (today) but I’ll feel less guilty after two days. It’s fine. I wanna treat myself for an upcoming celebration. For said celebration I want to have around 4000 cals at my disposal that I don’t have to purge. That means 3-4 days of liquid fasting in the span of two weeks. Add the extra day and that’s 4-5. If I can knock these out right now I’ll feel better. Also ALSO i wanna get that fasting mindset again of the process itself is lowkey fun. It’s not fun most of it, but those moments when you feel the motivation surge in your body and you know ur gonna wake up lighter are the best.
Also i don’t know my weight rn cause… I’ll be fasting it doesn’t matter. All I need to know is my well fed, out of deficit weight is 114.6. It was that Monday morning after an unplanned metabolism day (no purging or anything like that).
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holyshit · 2 years
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How do you cope with really anxiety inducing fandom days? And not the good kind like the boys releasing new songs or anything but days where you're dreading the content?
i have a long post about this topic here if you're interested in reading it and haven't already, which i do think goes over a few different pieces of advice and the "lessons" i have learned through taking a multi year fandom break which have helped me learn to enjoy fandom more as a whole and not letting myself get too invested to the detriment of my mental wellbeing. some of that is more of a focus on the long term, so i think my best advice for the short term when there are specific events that are upcoming and making you anxious are:
take a short break. even just leaving for a day or two (especially if you're used to being involved in fandom every day) can give you a ton of perspective about the situation. when you're putting so much of your energy into it day-in-day-out, everything seems much more serious than it is when you even distance yourself a little bit. when i do get anxious these days, the immediate thing i do is take a day off, and i often feel much more detached and able to deal with it with a cooler head once i get back.
if you feel like you realistically cannot upkeep a break and will inevitably check tumblr, specifically schedule something else that is fun or productive on the same day (or if it's something that would span across a long time, for the day(s) that whatever topic/event would be most talked about). it should be something that would take up a good chunk of your day so you don't even have enough time to check tumblr for any lengthy period of time. this can be plans with friends, working on a hobby, binging a tv show, finishing something for school/work, organizing/cleaning your house, etc etc. when your mind is busy with something else, it essentially forces a break and a certain level of compartmentalization which can detach you enough to get a similar level of perspective that a break might give you.
if you don't want to take a break and do not have anything to fill your time with sufficiently, try to avoid your dashboard/feeds and instead go directly to a few blogs/accounts you know do not post things that make you anxious. it's a way to still engage in fandom while not needlessly stressing yourself out.
don't doomscroll!!!! it's hard to avoid sometimes, but there's something about continuously refreshing and refreshing and scrolling and scrolling when you're already anxious that makes everything feel infinitely worse.
be kind to yourself- your anxiety likely comes from a place of compassion and care, which is great, but at the end of the day, you have to take care of yourself. especially since everything here has to do with celebrities who do not know who we are. you don't have any obligation to tough out things in fandom that make you miserable or anxious, and you don't have to be "caught up" on everything to be a good fan. you are entitled to a fun and happy fandom experience, and if that includes removing yourself from certain situations, you can and should do that. back when i was anxious nearly constantly in this fandom, i felt like i had to be involved in everything and keep up with every aspect of this fandom, and once i freed myself from those expectations, that's when i was truly able to enjoy my time here.
hope you're ok and are able to find some relief <3
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dangermousie · 3 years
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Web novel reading updates
So, here is everything I am reading atm and what I think about it. As always, I am reading a billion things at once. The ones that are not danmei are marked with an asterisk.
*Chang’an’s First Beauty - I caught up with all the translated chapters and was kind of relieved there were no more because it’s an excellent novel and on point about misogynism but because of that it’s a hard read. I basically keep wanting to murder ML with a rusty nail and for heroine to become a wealthy widow.
*Ever Night - chapter I am too lazy too look up out of a 1000+ (!!!) I love it but it makes 2ha seem like a short story. I keep enjoying it when I read but it’s not a novel I can binge what with all the philosophical discussions. I mean I like them but I am here for Ning Que x Sang Sang and the kinky sex, not to think about the nature of the Universe. (OK, I am kidding, I love that part but I will probably still be reading this novel in 2030.)
Every Day the Protagonist Wants to Capture Me - I am on ch 40something? 50something? It’s an inferior version of SVSSS which doesn’t mean it’s bad (SVSSS is amazing after all) but I am enjoying it without being addicted. It’s kinda too fluffy for me and nowhere near sharply enough written for me to overlook that.
How to Survive as a Villain - I am on chapter 203 (the novel is being translated three chapters per week and I’ve caught up with all of them. There are only seven chapters left of the main novel.) I thought it would go into my top 10 in the beginning. It won’t but it’s still a great read and my annoyance at ML at one point in the story has dissipated and I am back to loving him. It’s the MC who makes the novel for me. If Xie Lian was a human, that’s who’d be.
I’ve Led the Villain Astray How Do I Fix It - I liked it but the new translation is hard to parse through and between that, the sheer length and the fact that a lot of it cultivation stuff, I am putting it aside. If there was a good translation which I could skim when it got to cultivation bits, I’d def finish but as is...
Mistakenly Saving the Villain - I am on chapter 59 (the novel is being translated four chapters per week and I’ve caught up with all of them.) I love this one enough to start making a MTL despite the insane translation speed (though I’ve stopped now since I decided to wait and read other things.) If you like fantasy settings but a story that deals with long-term damage and healing and trauma, this one is for you. It’s so hopeful and lovely despite a trigger warnings list the length of my arm. And the OTP is the source of all that hope and healing.
Nan Chan - I am on chapter 49 (the whole novel is translated) and I really really love the gorgeous writing style and the amazing translation (it’s by the author of the masterpiece that is Qiang Jin Jiu and shows; the two novels have little in common in terms of plot, genre, themes etc but the gorgeous intensity is the same.) It’s also the most ALIEN novel I’ve read in a long time - the two main characters are a demonic carp who gained sentience and human form and deity whose true form is a sword. They are not human and they do come across as very much other, not just humans with long life spans/magic powers. I love that. Because of that, and the fact that this is a novel who looked at TGCF and thought it was not picaresque, episodic and sprawling enough, this may not be everyone’s cup of tea but it’s very much mine.
Qiang Jin Jiu - caught up with all translated chapters (138.) This is a bona fide masterpiece and will likely end up in my top 3. So smart and intense and perfect. I keep telling myself to hoard the chapters and binge since the impact will be greater, but I do not have the willpower in the least since it’s so damn good.
*Rebirth of the Tyrant’s Pet - this novel is so long I will be still reading it when I am dandling my great grandchildren on my knee, but what gonzo delicious fun. Borgias Goes China is a delight and I ship our heroine with both of her unbrothers, tbh (though ML more since he’s more psycho.) I don’t normally enjoy het web novels as much as danmei but this is a rare exception.
To Rule In a Turbulent World - (I am on ch 62 which is where the translation is atm.) Still utterly solid and with complicated characters and complicated world. Also, I don’t care, Team Zhao Chao Was Right.
The Villain Is Outrageously Beautiful - yup, the tentacle sex one. I like it even though it’s def the most out there web novel I’ve ever read, but it’s slow going since the human translation has been abandoned and I’ve been making MTL and it’s slow reading since its plot and cast are confusing enough in human translation and with MTL requires more brain power than I often possess.
The Wife is First - whatever chapter the translation is on. I still like everything about it (except the way most women characters are but oh well) and it’s still a pleasant read that doesn’t make me rabid but makes my mood so sunny.
Wu Chang Jie - someone mentioned some of it made them think of 2ha and so I had to try! I am on chapter 5 and I am super duper obsessed with it though not really seeing the 2ha thing yet. The author mentioned their love of dog blood angst in the prologue notes and OH BABY YEAH!!!!
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aziraphales-library · 4 years
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Hey!!! I’m kinda new, and I’d like to know if you can recommend me some good GO fics? My only request it’s that they should mostly be Teen Up or Gen s fics... and maybe some good AUs (I’m in love with those)
Okay, here we go!! I went a little all out on this post because it’s more about personal preference, but I still stand by it :D
An Angel who did not so much Fall In Love as Settle Into It Gradually by TheLadyZephyr - 7.5k - Rated T
Crowley was standing in the middle of the room, hands in his pockets, looking a little lost. Aziraphale eyed the distance between them. Five steps. Five steps, and six thousand years, and a battlefield spanning an eternity.
The story of the little moments over the millennia that shape an angel’s regard for a demon, and the way he slowly, with great reluctance but inevitable surety, falls in love.
I simply adore this fic. It’s one of those fics that follows them through the ages and its just done so well. I don’t even know what else to say, just that you should go read it, and the fanart is also gorgeous!
Something So Magic by apliddell - 3.9k - Rated G
Crowley gets stuck in his serpent form, and Aziraphale tries his best to help.
This fic is simple, yet adorable, and I cannot get enough of it. 
How Much To Give, How Much To Take by thechemicalgirl - 3k - Rated G
“It’s like…’ he paused, trying to calm down. ‘It’s like after I came back from Heaven and we switched our bodies back, something has happened. I can’t use my power anymore, not even to start the Bentley.”
Crowley loses his demonic abilities and Aziraphale tries to help him cope with it, but things get much more complicated than that.
Angsty, but also soft, and just a great execution of a favourite premise.
In Peace I Will Both Lie Down and Sleep by fizzybiscuits - 5.6k - Rated G
Aziraphale starts having nightmares. For some reason, he doesn’t talk to Crowley about this right away.
Title is from Psalms 4:8. “In peace I will both lie down and sleep; for you alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety.”
This fic just has everything. It’s a stellar example of an established relationship fic and is cavity-inducingly fluffy.
Be All My Sins Remembered by CloversDreams - 43.4k - Rated T
“The trial,” Beelzebub continued loudly, “will consist of seven tests.”
“Seven…” Aziraphale muttered under his breath. He had a bad feeling about this and it showed. He twiddled his thumbs nervously as he waited for more details.
Crowley scrunched his face and shook his head. “Oh you don’t mean–”
“Correct. The Sins have been charged with the task,” Beelzebub interjected.
“Crap.” Crowley groaned. He slapped his hands onto his face and dragged them downward slowly. This was just what they didn’t need.
Gabriel nodded. He had a rather unpleasant grin on his face as he said, “Don’t know much about them, myself, but they can be a pretty gnarly group of high-class demons from what I’ve heard. On par with the archangels back home. Wouldn’t want to… what’s that delightful human phrase? Oh, right. Wouldn’t want to cock this up.”
Listen, in my opinion, this fic is massively underrated. I unintentionally binged it all in one go because it was so gripping. The angst in some chapters had me practically screaming, and the whole idea is a brilliant take on the seven deadly sins. The pining is magnificent, and I live for the Husbands drama. 
Let Sleeping Snakes Lie by Blue_Sparkle - 2.6k - Rated G
Aziraphale confesses his love for Crowley when he can contain it no longer. Oh, not to the demon himself of course. To a sleeping snake.
Another fic featuring Snake!Crowley, this one is magnificently soft, and I adore the scene in Stardust it’s inspired by. Just can’t stop coming back to read, 10/10 recommend!
Serpent of Eden, Original Tempter by noodlefrog - 33.4k - Rated T
During Crowley’s trial, the agents of Hell present evidence that the demon has been fraternizing with the enemy. Careful to protect Crowley’s pride (and his own concealed feelings), Aziraphale turns on the saunter and leans into his friend’s reputation as a tempter to spin their relationship into something that looks more demonic than lunch dates and feeding the ducks.
This fic combines Pining, Misunderstandings, and a fantastic ‘what if?’ for the execution scenes, and I am here for it. The Original Characters are written fantastically well, and I loved the bonus chapter!
What They Say About Assumptions by DragonGirl - 7.9k - Rated T
While it’s true that God bestowed upon the angels the divine power to sense love of all kinds, that does not mean they were given the ability to sense exactly who or what that love is directed at. A minor design flaw that hasn’t been much of an issue. Until now.
Or:
Aziraphale has known that Crowley loved someone since the beginning. He’s also spent most of that time believing that someone was a demon.
Aziraphale’s obliviousness in this fic was so ridiculous it felt plausible. It was hilarious but also heartwarming, and has one of my fave love confessions. It was angsty as hell in the best way, and I just implore that you read it!
Futile Devices by ticketybye - 3.2k - Rated G
Crowley pretends to sleep. Aziraphale talks.
Just adorable. Cavity inducing fluff and love confessions are my favourite things and god does this deliver on that.
Foolish Principality by seashadows and WikdSushi - 6.6k - Rated M
Upon moving into a South Downs cottage, Crowley gets left alone while Aziraphale rushes to help the new proprietors of his bookshop. Thanks to a miracle gone wrong, Crowley discovers Aziraphale's greatest material secret, and a few things neither of them could ever fully face.
Is rated M but in my opinion there’s nothing too bad in here, though you should judge for yourself. The poetry is beautiful, horrifying masterpieces, and it is honestly fantastically funny and sweet.
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Y’all know by now that I adore anything by Arinia, but this fic is one of my faves:
Just This Once by Arinia - 2.7k - Rated T
An idea came, slowly at first, before filling up his heart, setting every nerve alight. It might be another decade, another century even, before he saw Crowley again. No one had come to rescue him from Above. No one had chastised Crowley for wasting a miracle from Below. Perhaps, just this once…
The streets of Paris are soaked with blood, and Aziraphale realizes just how much he owes Crowley for saving his life.
It’s freaking adorable, the kissing is fantastic, and I have a secret love of the French Revolution that made me love the fic all the more. Read it, I beg you.
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As for AUs, I don’t read loads, but I do have some faves!
Neighborly Affection by Thestarlitrose - 4.6k - Rated T - Human AU
Anthony J Crowley was four years old the first time he met the tiny Ezra A Fell; he wasn’t impressed.
He was forty-six when he found him again in a bookshop in Soho.
The Childhood Friends, Flower Shop, Christmas, Friends to Lovers fic nobody asked for in the middle of October.
This fic is a complete tangle of tropes, and it’s also incredibly sweet. Perfect for the fast approaching holiday season!
a book elegantly bound by AwkwardPotatoChild - 6.5k - Rated G - Library AU
Two idiots. One book series.
or alternatively, Aziraphale and Crowley are united over their common love of books and the scheming of one Miss Anathema Device
This fic manages to be both very funny and incredibly endearing at the same time. The book names were hilarious, and I adored Anathema’s matchmaking.
A Jaunt Or Two by sonicsora - 3.1k - Rated T - Human AU
They meet by happenstance twice over, only to end up quite woven into one anothers lives. It’s all quite accidental, but sticks.
Crowley realizes a bit belated he’s quite attached to this man who freely uses the word jaunt and wears cream-colored suits.
This fic is just adorable. It’s sweet, fluffy, and exactly my kind of thing. Also Gabriel’s a dick in the comedic way, which is fun to see.
Restoration by arealshitwizard (gaiusgallus) - 2.6k - Rated G - Human AU
Ok I had this idea in my head and it wouldn’t go away so here is Aziraphale as a painting restorer and Crowley as a flash stock broker… There’s just one chapter sorry for my sins
This is a really unique fic (I know I keep saying that, but it’s true!), and featured such fun interpretations of their characters!
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I’m aware that 90% of this list is very specific to my preferences, and that it got a little out of hand, but I hope y’all enjoy the recs anyway! XD
Does the blog have any favourites they’d like to share?
~ Mod B
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2seokfan · 4 years
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Scarlet & Hazel | Ch. 3
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pairings: hoseok x reader x yoongi
genre: fluff, very light angst, smut (future)
word count: 6k
chapters: ch.1, ch.2, ch.3. ch.4
summary: 
Just cause you’re living paycheck to paycheck in a tiny apartment even after graduating college doesn’t mean you’re not happy. So what if your best friend is working her dream job making close to six figures every year?  So what if she’s in a loving, committed relationship with her perfect boyfriend that you’re 99% sure is going to propose to her sometime next year? It doesn’t matter that your idea of a perfect relationship is a $9.99 bottle of wine on Friday nights while you binge watch Netflix specials.
Ok so maybe you’re a teensy bit miserable. Maybe you have no idea what you’re doing with your life. Maybe all you need to do is accidentally cross paths with two hybrids who will drastically change that.
Meet “Scarlet” and “Hazel”, two of the most gorgeous hybrid men you have ever laid eyes on. With their help, you learn that life is an adventure, a roller-coaster with ups and downs, and you were too preoccupied with yourself to climb out of your own predicament. And hey, you’re not much of a romantic, but with these two, you just might change your mind.
a/n: Hello, Jun here! Whew this took a while to write but thank you for your patience!! (poor Y/N still doesn’t know their real names but maybe she’ll find out soon?) Any feedback is appreciated <3 
tag list: @wilhelminalucinda​ @ghostkat23​ @ayoo-bangtan​ @sadgurllayha
2 months later.
August is relentless. You’re sweaty all the time and you have no choice but the crank up the a/c every single day. This heat wave is incredibly brutal because all you want to do is stay at home eating ice cream in your underwear but instead you’re stuck working overtime to pay for what you assume will be a record-high electricity bill. Fuck you global warming. 
It’s currently Tuesday. You’re on lunch break at work, chowing down on a falafel wrap and scrolling through your phone, when a text pops up from Karli.
Karli: Don’t forget!
You: ???
Karli: This friday?
You scratch your head. Wtf?
You: What’s on friday?
Karli: Umm the date? Remember?
No you didn’t. Your dumbass actually forgot about a whole date. You can’t believe yourself. Karli finally set you up with that accountant guy from her job. What’s his name again? Brad? Brandon?
You: oh yeah! my bad haha
Karli: You forgot his name didn’t you?
You: …maybe
Karli: Lol it’s Bryce sweetie
Karli: He’s really sweet! Just give it a shot
You: of course i will
You: i’ll turn up my maximum charm
Karli: Dats my girlllll
Karli: Ugh gtg it’s my boss
Karli: Bye!
You: bye babe
You set your phone down, trying to envision this upcoming Friday. Karli mentioned she gave Bryce your phone number, and he’ll text you sometime this week about your date, so at least you don’t have to make any moves first. She did show you his picture though, being the wingman that she is by stalking all his social media just for you. You’ve gotta admit he is cute, the profile picture showed him sporting a casual smile, with blonde hair and blue eyes. The classic boy-next-door look.
“And he’s most likely not a serial killer!” You remember her declaring a few weeks ago, after scrolling through all his tweets. And when you say all his tweets you mean EVERY Single tweet from when he created his account in high school till now. Your best friend does not fuck around. 
“Thanks I appreciate that. Glad he’ll ‘most likely’ not kill me.” You rolled your eyes and grinned at her.
While you munch away the rest of your lunch, you think about how you just aren’t acting like yourself lately. In any other circumstance, you would’ve found yourself more excited for the date. Hell, in any other circumstance you would’ve at LEAst remembered his name, or thought about what to wear by now, or even stalked his social media along with Karli. There’s just a teensy problem though. See, in the past few months you happen to have met two boys who completely changed your standards in men. And you may have maybe developed the tiniest crush on both of them, at the same time. Like how?? You didn’t think you were physically capable of doing that?
You sigh, staring at the rest of your falafel wrap, and force yourself to accept reality. As much as you adore them, you know that your little crush will be completely unreciprocated. This you found out through your group chat, now named ‘Hazel’s Nuts’ (courtesy of Scarlet). It’s not that you confessed to them or anything, they just happened to let slip to you one day that they’re a mated pair. And hybrids mate for life, so they take that shit very seriously. Although this news stung a little, it didn’t cause you to be envious in any way. At the end of the day, crush or not, you’re just glad you have two more people in your life you can confidently call your close friends.
For the past two months you’ve actively kept up with them. Sometimes you’ll send memes back and forth all night, sometimes you’ll group call each other after work. Every once in a while, when they’re not busy doing whatever it is they’re doing, they facetime you. These are your favorite moments because you get to see them in all their attractive glory. Just because they don’t like you that way doesn’t mean a girl can’t deny herself some eye candy. 
You guys never run out of things to talk about. Each day you check the group chat and it’ll be popping. Your topics range from the movie that just came out, restaurants they discovered, to even discussing new criminal cases (you got Hazel into watching true crime Youtube videos and now he’s entirely hooked). Sometimes you just sit back and watch the two boys bicker back and forth. It’s hysterical how they decide to argue through text since you’re sure both of them are probably in the same room together, but you appreciate them keeping you in the loop. 
At this point they’ve already virtually met Karli. She’s been in the background of one or two of your facetimes. You’re glad she approves of them instantly and you wonder if it has a little something to do with their, especially Scarlet’s, boyish charms. She does keep you grounded though, never failing to mention how it’s suspicious that you don’t know their real names yet.
“I don’t think they mean any harm and they seem genuinely nice,” she had reassured, “But you gotta admit not telling you their names is a little sketch.”
You just shrugged. “They have their reasons.”
Internally you do believe she has a point. Even though you don’t want to force information out of the boys, you’re a naturally curious person. Your mind has already compiled a list of all the unusual facts you’ve discovered about them. 
A couple of things have become clear to you over the span of the last few months. The most important fact is that although they share tons of content with you, you still have no idea what they do for a living. You’re also 90% sure they don’t have an owner since there’s never anyone else around them. Another, more interesting fact is that you suspect they’re actually pretty wealthy. Every time you facetime, they’re in some sort of lavish looking hotel penthouse, with fancy furniture and artwork hanging in the background. They also dress designer, occasionally flashing their Balenciaga hats, or little Gucci necklaces, or other fancy logos your peasant-ass is unfamiliar with. You actually googled one of Hazel’s t-shirts from your most recent facetime, having no idea what the FG logo stood for. You remember your eyes bulging out of your head after discovering his plain white shirt with two black letters cost more than $200. TWO HUNDred dollars?!!! Do you know how much food and gas you could buy with $200? Why in the fuck would he spend that much on a shirt??
If only you knew how much their watches cost.
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Friday rolls around faster than you can blink and before you know it, you’re rushing home from work to get ready. Bryce texted you for the first time on Wednesday to see if you wanted sushi (hell yeah you did) and you were fortunate enough to notify your boss so you could be let out early. You’ve been such a work horse the last few months that they had no choice but to let you leave in advance. 
So far Bryce seems nice enough but you can’t get a proper gauge of his character through text. Oh well, guess you’ll find out tonight.
The sushi place you’re meeting at is on the fancier side, and includes a bar. Knowing yourself, if there’s a bar, there’s no car, which means you won’t be driving. The last thing you want is to leave your car parked somewhere sketchy overnight cause you accidentally got too tipsy to drive. You like to think you have some semblance of control but it’s always better to be safe than sorry.
You were let out at 4, which means you have only 2 hours to get ready. As soon as you get home you sprint to your closet at lightning speed. You rummage through your drawers, hoping to find something, ANYthing, that’s appropriate for this occasion. For one quick second, your eyes dart to your forbidden drawer, aka the ho drawer. It contains the remains of your slutty party dresses and tops from college. Being the hoarder that you are, you never like throwing away things, even if you have no need for them anymore. Wait, what the hell am I thinking? You snap your eyes back to the rest of your closet. You’re going for sushi, not to dance at some club. Besides, you have no intention of sleeping with anyone tonight.
After an hour of deciding on a suitable outfit you finally start on your makeup. Your work makeup has dried up, and now feels gross and cakey on your face, so you remove it all and start anew. At least you had the decency to shower this morning so your hair isn’t too gross.
The place is around a 10 minute Uber ride away but you took your sweet ass time getting ready so now you’re in a frenzy. When your phone buzzes, signaling your driver is here, you swipe on some lipstick last minute, grab some chunky heels, and practically fly out the door. 
You stare out the window of your ride, wondering why you’re lowkey wishing you could spend Friday night at home watching tv instead, or even just spending the evening facetiming two hot hybrids. This all feels a little too rushed. But no, you shake your head and attempt to hype yourself up. C’mon Y/N this is the first real date you’ve been on in ages. At least TRy and be a little more motivated. 
The car pulls up and you thank the driver, stepping out into the warm night air. August is still hot, even in the evenings, and you’re glad you didn’t bring a cardigan. Bryce has already texted you, letting you know he was inside, sitting at your reserved spot. You take a deep breath. Ok, time to put on your game face. You strut in, trying your very best to push the faces of two very good-looking friends out of your mind.
You spot Bryce in a corner, head buried in his phone, his wavy blonde hair not easy to miss. You slide in the seat across from him, prompting him to quickly look up and flash you an easygoing smile.
“Hello there!”
“Hi!” You chuckle nervously. “I hope I’m not too late.”
“Not all all!” He slides his phone back in his pocket, smile still on his face. “You’re just in time.”
A waiter comes by and you both take your orders. You make sure to order a drink because you have a feeling you’ll need the liquid courage to strike up more conversation. Maybe some sake will help ease you.
The first couple minutes are kinda awkward, not gonna lie. Bryce tries to get you to talk about work and you do answer him, but honestly work is the last thing you want to discuss right now. You try to shift the conversation to his job, but that only ends up being worse as he quickly launches into the ins and outs of life as an accountant. Maybe your two hybrids friends have spoiled you because you barely remember the last time you had to fill empty space with small talk.
When the food comes you quietly sigh a breath of relief, hoping the sushi in front of you will help you both get settled and give you time to think of more interesting topics to talk about.
“So,” you wrack your brain, “let’s get to know each other more! Like, what’s your favorite ice cream flavor?” That’s got to be a safe enough question.
“Hm, I’m actually more of a yogurt kinda guy, ice cream’s not really my thing.”
You freeze, California roll halfway to your mouth. Ok, ok, cool, cool. So he doesn’t like ice cream, that’s fine. You sweat a little. Hurry Y/N think of something else to ask.
“Yeah, I guess that’s not everybody’s thing.” You grimace. “Then what about, i don’t know, cookies? What’s your favorite kinda cookie?”
“Actually I prefer crackers, you know, like the saltine ones? Cookies can be too sweet sometimes.” He’s devouring his dragon roll, not noticing the panic in your eyes. He’s caught you off guard twice today.
This isn’t going well and you’re genuinely surprised because you know Karli has done her research, certain that you two would get along. Guess life really likes to throw you some curveballs. 
Who the fuck prefers crackers over cookies anyway?? Ok. Code red! Change the fucking subject before the silence becomes unbearable. Your dessert-related ice breakers had never failed you before but there’s always a first for everything, you guess.
You take a generous swig of sake. “Right, crackers are... good.” You’re mumbling at this point. “Ok, um, what about hobbies? Got any?” Please throw me a fucking bone here! Your mind is reeling but externally you try to act calm and composed, dabbing at the corner or you mouth delicately with a napkin.
“Oh yeah!” His face lights up. Oh thank god. “Do you like football? Me and my buddies at the office sorta formed this team, and we play against other departments. It’s really fun! You should come by and watch sometime!”
“Uh, sure!” Football. Huh. The last time you were anywhere near a football was when you met someone from your college team at a bar. Well he wasn’t holding a football per se, but that counts right? You only remember how much of a douche he was, trying to hit on one of the girls from your group after getting entirely too wasted.
“Awesome! I’ll hit you up when the next game is set!” It’s almost impressive how he doesn’t notice all the tension emitting from your body. In fact, you have a feeling he’s actually enjoying himself and your company.
The rest of the dinner goes by in the same manner. With him happily answering all your questions and you slowly discovering just how little you both have in common.
He is a gentleman though, that you can’t deny. When all the food has been cleared away he immediately swoops in to pay the bill, ignoring your insistence at paying for your half at least. He really isn’t a bad person, just the opposite. Besides your difference in interests, he is a sweet guy overall, and you do find him to be physically attractive. There’s just no spark, no silver lining that keeps you wanting more. When you both get out of your seats he offers to drive you back to your place but you politely decline. You say it’s because you don’t want to trouble him but in reality you need space for yourself to think.
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As soon as you arrive home you take off your shoes and plop yourself down on the couch, running your hands through your hair. You check your phone, a few notifications from ‘Hazel’s Nuts’ popping up.
Scarlet: Do you think she’s done with her date yet??
Hazel: Hey Y/N how was it?
You had told them about this date beforehand and they were excited to root for you, which did bruise your ego a bit since it reaffirmed your unreturned attraction to them, but also prompted you to go through with it. This last notification was from 45 minutes ago but you couldn’t reply since you were still at dinner.
You: hi I just got back!
You don’t expect them to respond right away but to your surprise:
Scarlet: And???
You: it was meh
Hazel: That bad huh?
You: no nothing like that!
You: he’s really cute and all, it’s just we basically have nothing in common
Scarlet: Aww poor Y/N (sad emojis)
Hazel: Hey happens to the best of us
Hazel: Actually I wouldn’t know cause I’ve only been with fox boy
You: thanks anyway, i appreciate it Hazel
Maybe it’s cause you’re a little tipsy, or maybe you just feel so open and vulnerable around them tonight, but the next text you send is especially honest.
You: ughhh idk guys i’m just so lonely!!! why can’t things just work out for me for once! Like the first real date I go on in years and this happens :(
They don’t respond for a long time. So long in fact you start to get worried that you exposed too much about yourself.
15 minutes pass by but to you it feels like hours. You’ve already removed all your makeup and changed into your pajama shirt. You relocate to your bed, checking your phone again, thinking of a way to play off your last text as a joke when:
Hazel: If you’re so lonely maybe you could adopt?
You grin to yourself, glad that they’re not being judgmental. Their concern for you resets your mood.
You: ha ha you know my apartment doesn’t allow pets
You: but honestly if i could i would, cause i’d definitely get a little kitty
Hazel: I’m flattered
You: thanks but i meant a real cat
Hazel: Either way i’m flattered
Scarlet: HEY what about foxes??
You: pretty sure owning a pet fox is illegal here Scar
Scarlet: (angry emojis)
Hazel: You heard what the lady said
You: anyways i’m going to bed
You: thanks for making me feel better guys <3
Hazel: Anytime
Scarlet: But hypothetically if foxes weren’t illegal you’d get a pet fox right??
You: of course i would sweetie
Scarlet: (happy emojis)
Scarlet: Yay!!! Goodnight Y/N!
Hazel: Night Y/N
You: night boys
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You wake up next morning on your own time, checking your phone to see that you slept in till 11am. Wow, you haven’t slept that well in a while. Maybe it’s the stress from the previous weeks of non stop working, or the pressure to maintain your composure last night, but either way you knocked out like a rock. You sit up, lean back, and stretch your arms as far as they can go.
Today you’re meeting Karli at her place up north. She couldn’t ask you about last night since she was occupied, her seven year anniversary with her boyfriend Sunny coinciding with your date. But she assured you a couple days ago over facetime that today was going to be a girl’s day, no boyfriend included.
“Hey!” Sunny had popped out of nowhere in the video when he heard the news, a look of mock shock on his face. “I live here too! So what, you're just gonna kick me out of the house and leave me on the streets to starve?”
“My god stop being dramatic!” Karli had shoved him playfully off the screen. “I need girl time with Y/N and it’s not girl time if you’re in the house.”
“I can be one of the girls! Right Y/N?” He sounded betrayed.
“I know you can but I’m not the one who makes the rules.” You pointed out.
He sighed. “You got me there.”
Since you’re just spending time at Karli’s and getting takeout, you felt zero need to dress up. You washed your face, threw on an oversized t-shirt some old hookup left at your place (hey it was cute) and some tights, and tied your hair out of your face. This entire process took less than 30 minutes and next thing you know you’re ready to head out.
You sent Karli a quick text, letting her know you’re on the way. You grab a bottle of prosecco, your purse, and keys, saying a quick goodbye to your roommate Ayah on your way out. She gives you a small wave, reminding you that she, yet again, has to leave today for a whole week. You backtrack to give her a quick goodbye hug, telling her to drive safe, before you take off.
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Karli’s place isn’t as far as the beach coffeehouse you frequent, but it’s still located in the wealthier side of town. The drive lasts a good 20 minutes but it feels a lot faster since you spend the whole time singing along to your favorite songs.
You pull up to Karli’s apartment complex, driving yourself to the guest parking space. Her apartment building is pretty tall, with a distant, but gorgeous view of the beach. 
Karli squeals when she opens the door, immediately giving you a big hug. When you break apart you hold up the bottle of prosecco in your hand, waving it in front of her face.
“I know you have the ingredients here so let’s make some spritz!”
“Yay!”
Aperol spritz is your favorite at-home drink to make with Karli. She had gone on a short trip to Italy in the summer between her two years at grad school and tried the drink there, completely falling in love. She googled the recipe, made it for you one day, you had said “Oh FUck that’s good!”, and the rest is history.
She grabs the bottle and quickly relocates it to her kitchen. Her energy levels are sky high today and you wonder what’s got her so elated. She’s skipping everywhere she goes, there’s a permanent smile etched on her face, and she’s humming non stop as she pulls you away from the front entrance.
Sunny emerges from the hallway, two hands in the air in surrender.
“I’m heading out, I swear!”
Sunny is a big teddy bear of a man, with tattoos splayed across his arms and a well-kept beard. There’s a term you learned online called ‘lumbersexual’ and that’s exactly the word to describe Sunny. He almost reminds you of Jason Momoa, the actor who played Aquaman. Those who just meet him think he looks intimidating at first but once you get past his height and size, you see just how much of a softie he is. He’s also extremely intelligent, working somewhere in the computer industry developing software.
Karli bounds over to him and gives him a big snuggly hug and tiptoes all the way up to give a quick kiss to his lips.
“Have fun babe! Love you!”
“Love you too! Also bye Y/N!”
“Bye Sunny have fun!” You smile as he treads out the door.
You both head to the kitchen and start making your drinks.
“Aren’t you extra chipper today!” You mention as you pour a splash of club soda into your glass.
“Am I?” She doesn’t look at you, wearing a mysterious grin, stirring her mixture with a straw.
After you both finish making your drinks, you head to her living room and settle onto her plush sofa.
Karli yawns, almost too dramatically, covering her left hand over her mouth. You quirk your eyebrow at her, wondering why she’s acting so weird until you spot it. There’s something large, something shiny, on her left ring finger.
“Oh my god….” Your entire mouth hangs open. “Oh my GOD!!! Is THAT…?”
“Yep!”
“Did HE -?”
“Yep!!”
“AND YOU - ?
“YEP I DID!!”
“YOU’RE ENGAGED?!?!?!”
“I KNOW!!!!”
What happens after is a shriek rivaling that of a pterodactyl taking flight after spotting prey, except the sound is just the two of you screaming and jumping up and down in Karli’s living room.
You bring her into a tight hug, so emotional that you’re about to tear up. And you’re not one to cry that easily.
“I’m so happy for you!” You pull apart and wipe a stray tear from your cheek.
“Thank you! I’m so happy too!” Her smile is also a little watery. “Like I knew he was gonna do it soon since we’ve been together so long but I’m still shocked you know?”
“I know!” 
“And I’m sorry. Today was supposed to be me asking about your date last night.” She dabs at her eyes. “Bryce really likes you too. He even texted me thanking me for introducing you!!”
“Oh shit...” You take this chance to drink your Aperol spritz. “I’m gonna be completely honest with you. It’s true he’s cute but there was no spark.” You give her an apologetic grin, knowing she really wanted this to work out for you. “Like don’t get me wrong he’s super nice and stuff but I just couldn’t find anything we have in common. I can’t believe he’s still into me?!” 
“Aw I’m sorry babe.” She pouts. “I really did think you would be a good match.”
“It’s ok. Anyways,” you wave her off, bringing up the more important subject at hand. “I’d much rather talk about your engagement! Like, hello?? You’re getting married, girl!!
Another squeal. You really hope her neighbors don’t complain.
“I know!! I literally don’t know what to think!” She smiles wistfully, like she’s on cloud nine, then brings her attention back to you. “Also you’re the maid of honor and you can’t back out of that.”
“I would never!” You gasp dramatically, one hand clutching your chest.
“But don’t worry!” She sets her drink down. “The wedding’s not happening till next year at least. We don’t have to start planning till way later.”
The rest of the day you spend chatting to Karli, prompting her to spill every single detail about the proposal. Even though you have no need to help her plan a wedding just yet, you can’t hold back from offering some ideas that spring to mind.
“I got it!!” You shout.
“You got what?”
“Hear me out,” you may or may not be a little tipsy at this point. “Goth wedding!” You say with jazz hands. Then you reach down to take another sip of your drink.
“Hmm…” She pretends to think about the idea, then giggles. “And that’s enough prosecco for you.” Plucking the glass out of your hand, she transfers it to her kitchen sink.
A couple more hours roll by. You both decide to watch a cheesy Netflix horror movie to sober up, paired with the Mexican takeout you ordered. By the time the credits roll, the sun has long since set, along with your alcohol buzz. You check the time on your phone, deciding it’s best to head home since poor Sunny has been respectfully out and about all day, giving you your girl time.
You give Karli one last big hug, murmuring into her hair how happy you are for her situation. She walks you to the apartment elevator, where you proceed to blow her a swift kiss right before the doors close in your face.
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Reality sets in the moment you’re alone. Your head swims with thoughts as you drive back. Most of them are happy about your best friend’s engagement but you can’t discount the little ugly bubble of jealousy that wells down deep in your gut, reminding you of your own current situation. It’s not until you reach home that you realize you didn’t even play music in the car.
Ayah has long since gone on her business trip by the time you arrive at your apartment. The whole place looks dark and unwelcome, only highlighting the emptiness you feel inside. You trudge to your room and slump onto your bed. You try to scroll through social media as a way to distract yourself but you’re met, instead, by all the pictures and posts of happy people, showing off their achievements or bragging about their seemingly perfect lives.
You immediately lock your phone and throw it onto the blanket, the stress and anxiety from the last few months building to a boiling point in your mind. Your biggest concern is you still haven’t figured out your lease situation, and you only have two more months to move out or find someone new. Ayah has tried her best to help you but she’s bombarded by business trips so no luck so far. You let out a small groan and bury your head in the pillow, deciding to sleep it off and worry about your problems tomorrow, even though it’s not even that late.
Right as you’re about to drift off into dreamland, your phone rings. You fumble around the covers until it’s in your hands and check that you have a facetime call from your two favorite boys.
Immediately your body jerks awake and you sit up, swiping the answer button.
“Hey guys!”
“Hi Y/N!!” Scarlet’s heart-shaped smile is taking up most of the screen but you can see a sliver of white and grey hair behind him.
Hazel elbows him out of the way. “Sorry were you sleeping?” He tilts his head, ears twitching. “Wait, it’s only 10 pm where you’re at. You never sleep this early.”
“No I wasn’t... I mean, yeah I was trying to sleep but…”
You sigh. It’s their faces. Just seeing them through a screen, their wide, innocent eyes blinking up at you, makes you want to spill everything.
You nibble on your bottom lip for a moment. “I was just kinda having an existential crisis so I decided to sleep it off. No biggie.”
Scarlet’s eyebrows furrow in concern. After only two months, he can already tell when something is off with your tone of voice.
“Y/N what’s wrong?” He looks up for a bit, pausing to think. “Was it the date last night?”
“The date?” Oh yeah the date. Yet another thing that didn’t go well. You totally forgot about that can of worms. “Not really… or actually kinda?”
You try to reorganize your jumbled mess of a brain and put your thoughts into words.
“So you know how I said I was going to Karli’s today?”
“Mhm,” they nod at you to continue.
“Well turns out she got engaged last night.”
“That’s awesome! I’m so happy for her!” Scarlet bounces a little, then quickly returns to a more serious tone. “But that doesn’t really answer my question.”
“Yeah I’m happy for her too.” And you genuinely are.
You pause for another moment, teetering on the edge of playing your emotions off like it’s no big deal or exposing all of your concerns yet again. Your need for an outlet to vent to wins in the end. For the first time you find yourself unable to confide in Karli because you want her to be happy and focus on the engagement rather than to be preoccupied with you. Before you know it, the words flow from your mouth like running water.
“It’s just that her announcement really brought me back to earth, and I started thinking a little too much about my own life.” You purse your lips. “I don’t know… I feel pretty selfish right now because she’s doing so well and I just can’t help comparing my life to hers. I’m so proud of her but it’s like everything in her life is coming together and I just want that for me also.” You throw your hands up in frustration, almost knocking the phone off from where it leans on your pillow. “I mean we’re the same age for god's sake! Why can’t I get my shit together??”
“Well you should be proud of yourself though,” Hazel cuts in. “Cause we are.” He gestures to Scarlet and himself.
“Yeah!” Scarlet chimes. “I mean you’ve got a full time job and a place to stay. I know you don’t feel like it’s the most ideal situation right now but please don’t discredit yourself.”
“Thanks guys.” You calm down a bit, but then you remember the whole issue with your apartment. Scratching the back of your neck, a habit you’ve picked up whenever you’re nervous, you say in a much smaller voice, “although my ‘place to stay’ might not last much longer.”
“What do you mean?” Both boys’ eyebrows are raised in confusion.
You realize you never mentioned your living situation to them, the topic always pushed to the back of your mind whenever they initiated conversation.
“Yeah.” A dry chuckle leaves your lips. “My lease ends soon and Ayah wants to move to a place of her own. And I have two months to figure out where to live or find another roommate.” You let out a frustrated huff. “She’s been so helpful but still no luck I guess.” You shrug in defeat.
You feel like a balloon that’s lost all its air, brain exhausted from running through all the problems in your life.
“Actually that’s pretty convenient for- ” Scarlet starts, but is elbowed again in the ribs by Hazel. “Ow!”
“Not yet!” The cat hisses quietly to him.
“Huh?” Now you’re confused. What in the world are they talking about?
Hazel turns back to you. “I’m really sorry about everything Y/N. If there’s anything we can do to help please let us know.” 
“Thanks buddy.” You offer him a small smile, choosing to ignore what just happened since they clearly don’t want to reveal anything just yet. 
Hazel then shifts to a more nervous stance, ears slightly flattening and both hands grabbing his floofy grey tail for comfort. It’s the cutest goddamn thing you’ve ever seen in your life.
“So Y/N, um, there’s a reason we called you tonight.”
You’re glad for a change in subject, a much needed distraction away from your downward spiraling thoughts.
“Oh right! Yeah. What’s up guys?”
Scarlet steps in front of him again, blocking most of the screen.
“We have a surprise for you!” He’s so close to the camera that you can only see half of his unblemished face but from the way his eyes crinkle, you can tell he’s giddy with anticipation.
“A surprise- ?”
“Yeah!!”
Hazel nudges himself into view again. “Quit hogging the whole screen fox! I swear to god next time we’re using the tv. I can’t see anything! Anyways,” he turns to you and smooths his shirt, expression back to stoic, “are you free next weekend?”
“I should be. Why?” You’re still a little lost on what the surprise is.
“Cause we’re coming back to town!” Scarlet blurts out.
“You are?!” Suddenly all your negativity melts away, replaced by excitement. Hard to believe just five simple words can shift your mood a complete 180°.
“But wait, there’s more!” You snort at how much Scarlet sounded like an infomercial just now.
“We’d like to invite you to dinner next Saturday night. If that’s ok with you?” Hazel isn’t as physically expressive as Scarlet but the hopeful shine in his eyes gives himself away.
You melt at his expression, heart rate speeding up. “Of course that’s ok! I’d love to!”
“Great!” He flashes one of his rare gummy smiles. “Saturday night. 7 pm. We’ll text you the details.”
“Yep!” Scarlet pipes in. “There’s something important we gotta ask- !” He lets out a small gasp, tail bristling, and clamps a hand over his mouth as if he just said something he shouldn’t have.
“What’s important?” You’ve gotta admit, your curiosity is at its peak right now, and it doesn’t help that they’re acting a little weird today.
Hazel rubs his temples in exasperation, groaning at Scarlet. “What part of ‘not yet’ did you not understand?” He then addresses you. “Sorry Y/N I promise we’ll tell you when we see you in person.” 
“Ok.” Cool. That’s fine. You’re a little nervous about what they have to say and it’ll be torture to wait but you’re a big girl and you can handle not knowing for a week. “I can’t wait to see you guys!!” you added.
“Me too!” Scarlet’s personality is so bubbly and contagious that you can’t help but smile back at him.
“Same.” Hazel lets out a small yawn. “Well we’re in a different time zone than you and it’s really late here so I gotta hit the hay.”
“Mk, go get your beauty sleep.” You give them a little wave. “And thanks for everything. I mean it.”
“No problem Y/N.” Scarlet also gives off a yawn, stretching his tired limbs. “Goodnight.”
“Night.”
After ending the facetime call, you lie on your back, staring at the ceiling. Your mind is active once again, but this time it’s not clouded with self-deprecating thoughts. Instead, you spend the remainder of the evening theorizing about the ‘important’ things the boys have to tell you. Maybe you’ll finally find out their real names. Or maybe they’ll reveal something else about themselves, like why they’re constantly travelling, or what they actually do for a living. Either way you can’t wait for next Saturday to come around.
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SFW Alphabet: Vincturi
A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?) Considering the two live in completely different continents Peter and Aro are very affectionate with each other when they are alone together and spend as much time as they can, getting as much physical contact they can from the other, though Peter tends to act like this isn’t what he’s doing.
B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?) I can’t really see these two developing any type of relationship outside of a romantic one and if by some miracle they do it would be a strictly platonic business type one.
C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?) Being an orphan Peter is a bit touch starved and desperate for any type of physical contact and despite the fact that he’ll never ask for them aloud Aro has gotten very good at reading his human so, even without touching him, he can tell whenever Peter wants to cuddle and finds a way to subtly, or not, pull his human into his embrace.
D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?) Peter is kind of a slob and tends to leave his house a mess, but it’s nothing too major. Aro on the other hand, while not exactly a neat freak, likes to keep things tidy so there will be some times that he cleans up a bit for Peter while he’s asleep.
E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?) I can’t see these two permanently ending their relationship, I can, however, see them going through spans of time were they separate but always end back up together. During these times though Peter would be determined to get as drunk as he possibly could and continue his alcohol binge until he no longer has any access to it as he attempted to keep himself from breaking down completely. Aro also tends to shut down in a way as well but, his change is more subtle as he spends a lot of time not exactly moping around but he definitely does spend more time staring into space than he normally would until they make up.
F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?) The thing about Peter is that he wants to be in a serious long-term relationship but because of what happened with his parents he has trouble and, to a degree, is afraid to let anyone in. So it’s a good thing that Aro has a lot of patience when it comes to his human because he also wants the same thing and is better able to visualize the end game.
G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?) Aro is very gentle with Peter, despite how hostile the hunter can be towards him, because he knows the emotional and mental turmoil he’s going through as he comes to terms with the fact that he’s falling in love with the same type of creature that was responsible for murdering his parents.
H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?) Hugs are just like cuddling where Peter wants them but Aro has to be the one to initiate them, most of the time.
I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?) Peter might say if he’s drunk but both him and Aro prefer to take more of a show don’t tell approach with this subject.
J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?) They can both be jealous little babies sometimes, Peter over the fact that Aro is technically married and even though Aro has assured him multiple times that they are no longer together she still lives in the Volturi's castle with him and Aro gets jealous when someone else appears to be showing interest in his human or, you know, he sees Peter kissing Charlie regardless of its context.
K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?) Ironically enough, Peter really loves kissing along his partners necks, enjoying leaving behind as many marks as his partner will allow, despite the fact that Aro’s skin doesn’t mark up. While Aro prefers placing kisses on Peters forehead, cheek, and the tip of his nose.
L = Little ones (How are they around children?) Peter isn’t great with kids, especially young ones, but because Aro is basically Jane and Alec's adoptive father he has learned how to interact with children around their age. When it comes to the twins Alec has no problem admitting that Peter is basically his human dad while Jane, even though she really likes Peter, won’t admit it out loud, even though the two seem to have the closest bond. Peter feels the same about them and if it gets to the point he sees them as his children then maybe, just maybe, it’ll be enough to get him to tip over the edge of agreeing to be turned since he knows how hard it is to lose a parent.
M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?) Peter is nowhere near being a morning person and normally doesn’t wake up until roughly noon each day and even though the sunlight doesn’t have that same effect that it does for other vampires Aro also doesn’t care much for being up and about in the early hours; prefering to either lounge around in bed with Peter or stay planted in whatever item of furniture he’d settled himself into to read in.
N = Night (How are nights spent with them?) Peter is a night owl plain and simple, if he could stay up until the sun rose the next morning he would (this habit having partially been created by his fear that the vampire who killed his parents would come back for him) and Aro generally doesn’t have a problem with it, enjoying the extra time with his human, until he tries to stay up past three in the morning. Then Aro forces him to go to bed.
O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?) Aro is the first one to open up since Peter has spent so many years building walls around himself.
P = Patience (How easily angered are they?) Normally Aro doesn’t have much patience to spare for most humans, but he always manages to find more than enough when if comes to Peter because he knows that he’s lost a lot in his life and just needs some time.
Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?) Peter is actually pretty good at remembering things Aro has told him, like if he’s out and sees a piece of art or something that Aro has mentioned liking he’ll buy it, if he knows there’s room for it in his house, but won’t mention it to the vampire and Aro won’t say a word about it, just savors the joy he feels upon seeing the small things Peter does to make him happy.
R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?) Peters favorite memory is the first time he had a nightmare around Aro. He’d fully expected the vampire to see his almost panic attack as a sign of weakness and would be disgusted by it and leave, but he didn’t; Aro stuck around to comfort him and help him through it where he’d normally be left dealing with it for the rest of the night and maybe even for the next few days. Aro’s favorite is the first time he saw Peters smile, his truly genuine smile that rarely ever sees the light of day.
S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?) Both Peter and Aro are very protective of each other and because of that there have been a handful of times where Peter has gotten hurt in his reckless attempts to be the ‘hero’; forcing Aro to have no choice but to call Carlisle for advice on how to treat an injury.
T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?) Peter tends to put a lot of effort into their dates but he makes sure to make it look like he just threw something together last minute, while Aro wants to do everything he can to make Peter feel like he’s loved after he lived so many years feeling like he wasn’t.
U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?) Peters is obviously his drinking and swearing and Aro is the passive aggressive approach he takes when he’s upset with his human.
V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?) While Aro does put a good amount of effort into his appearance and likes to be well groomed. With Peter it depends on where he and Aro are in their relationship, if they’re taking a break he lets himself go a bit, not shaving, not bathing as frequently as normal but doesn’t let it get to the point that he looks and smells gross. When they aren’t on a break he still doesn’t care much about his appearance but he does make sure that he’s clean and well shaven, but he keeps his hair a bit messy, just like Aro likes.
W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?) Neither one would feel whole if they were to lose the other as the vampire gives Peter the feeling of stability that he’s been missing for most of his life and Aro would have a large empty spot in his life that his human had once filled.
X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.) Ok, so, I kept forgetting that Aro is married and therefore that Sulpicia existed so when I saw a picture that someone had drawn of Davina giving Aro kisses that’s the only way I can picture her looking now. Because of that I can’t help but picture her as being their number one supporter regardless of the fact that she and Aro are technically married. So, if Peter ever does get turned, either by his own will or, most likely, of someone else's design, she’d be the one helping him acclimate, maybe even mothering him a bit, if Aro happened to be unavailable for any amount of time.
Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?) Aro wishes Peter wouldn’t drink as much alcohol as he does and Peter wishes Aro didn’t have to feed on human blood in order to survive.
Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?) Depending on how Aro is feeling he could spend the night doing a couple different things while Peter is sleeping but most nights he’s sitting in bed next to his human reading but there are some nights where he’s up and moving about the house, probably tidying up, or holding Peter as he sleeps.
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birthclod · 4 years
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okokok i need a place to dump ndrv3 thoughts for chapters 5-6 because i haven’t said anything
- should preface this by saying this spans across the whole game, but i didn’t think anyone would surpass hajime as my favorite protagonist but shuichi grew on me a lot (and i imagine i would’ve liked kaede just as much were she the actual protagonist all the way through)
- okaaaay fine after chapter 5 i see why people like ouma so much. yeah i suppose he’s right up there with komaeda in the “your writing is actually pretty interesting and i respect that but i can’t stand you and i can stand your stans even less” corner
- more importantly i did NOT think kaito was gonna stick around for so long and be as important as he was and he was one of the characters when i saw ndrv3′s cast that i went “oh i think i like him already”. and can i please talk about his execution because it’s probably the best in my humble onion. like there’s a lot of reasons i think he’s really good but that’s one of them. dude fuckin DIES in the middle of his execution before he’s actually executed and it’s the biggest middle finger to the killing game. what a chad ass move that was
- i knew tsumugi was the mastermind but i didn’t know how far it went oh my god. i think her cosplaying as all the members of the dr1 and sdr2 cast was the closest mix of impressed and disgusted ive ever gotten. i was almost expecting her to turn into the dead v3 members to especially fuck with them because according to her just about everything about them is fictional. that would have really stung though, can you imagine her cosplaying as kaede or tenko or... literally just anyone and saying the things she did? that would’ve broke them right then and there that’d be awful
- clair de lune usage still continues to kill me
- “the final boss is against something fueled by the outside world’s demands” what is this, persona 5? is this fucking yaldabaoth’s reality tv show? ok but for real it is cool but i was still definitely getting those vibes
- goddamn that voice acting was really good on everyone’s part. yeah sure the whole game has at least somewhat solid voice acting but goddamn
- this was an... unexpectedly meta ending to the series (if it is actually ending, which it. probably should but yknow) but i really like the message of you cannot fabricate feelings; no matter how much something is fictional the feelings you feel are real and that cannot be changed. there’s probably more to be said but i cannot think about this without my mind going tangled or blank.
final thoughts: better than dr1, maybe(???) just as good as sdr2 for me. it’s got its sore spots in writing and characterization just like any old danganronpa and even though i said many times before hand that i had little interest or just didn’t care about v3 i don’t... really regret binging it for 5-6 days. i mean i can’t hate a game that actually made me cry harder than the end of guardians of the galaxy vol. 2. that was one hell of a ride
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Ok, I am addicted to the 'Street Dance of China' and not just because of YiBo, but also because I support enthusiasts and everyone who has a passion for something. Also, YiBo is an awesome dancer and everyone should go on youtube and look it up. This fanfic is based on watching the audition and because I had been listening to Zhan`s songs and watching him dancing I thought how cute would that be if he showed up. BUT because I don`t like writing fanfics about real living people, please forgive me but I hate to change the names to Lan Zhan and Wei Ying {but you get the vibe, right? I just respect them too much :D}. This is silly and is meant to be written with as a comic relief. Please, do not take it too seriously. Have fun :).  ----- Everyone wanted to be a part of the show, everyone was telling him to give it a try. Ying had been dancing since he was little and while he had never thought about entering any competitions unless he was almost physically pushed to do so, he had to admit that one of most-binge-watched shows was indeed ‘Street Dance of China’.He had never been too good at that particular style, too much twisting, too much strength. He wasn`t a bboy {a breakdancer}, he wasn`t a locker, he wasn`t a popper. Not particularly at least, but since he was ageing {28 and they had already called him a veteran}, still he was considered to be good and his dance crew persuaded him to go. Actually, it was easy to persuade him once they made him drunk and made him lose a bet. After that, all was a desperate, embarrassing mystery... from a long journey to Beijing, to sightseeing with his best friend Nie Huaisang and his brother Jiang Cheng {who was constantly angry and annoyed at everything and everyone, but secretly fanboying because that is who he was}. Panic attacks were mixed with excitement.  The thing was, he didn`t know how to feel. The Lan Sect, as the dance crew was called, was the one he really want to get into. Sure he could try the Jin, Wen or Ouyang, but who wouldn`t want to be in the team with Lan Zhan? He was ubertalented - an actor, a rapper, a motorcycle rider and an excellent dancer. Ying was classically trained, a musician with a soul, his main career to be met in amateur singing, dancing, theatre and having fun. He had never wanted to be famous, but a bet was a bet. So when he was writing his name in a form and he was given a number...it all happened in a bit of an oblivion. He had taken a bit of a drink before, just to soothe his nerves and joked with other contestants. The cameras, the whole artificial town that they had managed to create was odd. Time passed quickly with Ying scrolling through WeeChat, TikTok and whatever gossip news he could find just to find himself strangely attracted to Lan Zhan. Did it really matter to him? He was about to answer after the stuff called his number. First he wasn`t sure it was him, but Cheng`s locket reminded he to get up and go. ‘Oh’ sweat was coming from every pour of his body, suddenly there were too many people, too many eyes staring at him. He was used to performing, but when he looked around himself. He had to compose himself for the sake of cameras and then....he looked at him and for a second, their eyes met. Shit, Ying mumbled but he knew he had to bow and greet the laoshi. He hoped he was able to hide his nervousness. ‘I am going to ....’ What was he going to do? ‘freestyle’ he said in the end. Why? Why was he doing that to himself? He had seen this guy dance, he was nowhere near Lan Zhan, nowhere near his level. That guy was an idol, he was born without bones, but once the music started and Wei Ying made his first moves, his mind was clouded, he was in the world of dance. He span around, twisted his body, he even managed a couple of tricks he had learnt from kruping and now he was standing there, breathless. He knew he did good, his confidence was back. A smirk on his back, the crowd was cheering and then he could face him. He looked him, was a smile on Lan Zhan`s face appearing? Wei Ying bowed, thanked and waited. There was a moment of tension. Was he good enough? The other one smiled and handed him the towel. First, it seemed that he was going to just ...hand it to him but eventually he tied it around his neck, their eyes met again, but it was hard to read in Lan Zhan`s eyes. Lacking an expression, while he agreed to take him into his team, it almost seemed like that boyish smirk that for there for a nanosecond was gone. ‘You need to work harder.’ was all that he said. Wei Ying nodded ‘Yes.’ But his eyebrows raised a little. This was going to be fun. 
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creativityworks-sx · 4 years
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5 fandoms that are totally overrated! by Aaron Charles
I want to share with you all these 5 fandoms that I’ve at some point in time, tried to get into but lost interest for various reasons and can’t be asked to get involved with them. Now that’s not to say that people can’t like what’s in this list and if you enjoy these franchises, then more power to you, we can talk about why you like them so much. Here’s the 5 things that most people like that I find meh.
1. HARRY POTTER
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Growing up, I used to play the Harry Potter theme song on my piano and watch the Philosophers Stone on DVD, my mum even has the first 4 books on a shelf and don’t judge me for this, but I used to have a crush of Hermione, though I got over it once I wrongfully guessed that Harry would turn her into Mrs Potter.
It’s one of those things where you grow out of liking something, at least that’s how I felt about it. Even with them making those Fantastic Beast films, it was one of those things where I just shrugged it of, despite the fact that I was intrigued with the premise of hunting down lost mythical animals. To add insult to injury, the original author, J.K. Rowling constantly aggravates her fan base by retroactively changing the lore, such as the history of the Dumbledore family or the fact that the wizard school didn’t have toilets (what kind of disgusting school wouldn’t let their students & staff members take a dump?). So as someone who’s outside the fanbase, I looked at some of the changes and only had this to say: SOZ.
2. FOOTBALL
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It’s always fun going to the park with your friends, using your coats and bags as goal posts, and doing cross bar challenges on an actual goal post. However, watching Crystal Palace FC score against [insert random football team here] rarely ever got me interested. I’ll watch an Arsenal or Man United match with my family if it’s on and occasionally watch Arsenal TV on YouTube to check in on them; other than that I’m more interested in watching UFC highlights than flick through Sky Sports to see 11 guys on each team kick a ball at each other, unless there was an anime about it or someone got kicked in between the legs.
3. LORD OF THE RINGS
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As successful as this trilogy is, these flipping movies are just too damn long. I mean 3 hours, 3 HOURS, that double the amount of a normal film. I get that this current generation of millennial’s/gen Z types are used to binging a whole season of a TV show in half a day but at least those TV shows don’t have little men riding on a talking tree and some old man with a stick fighting a dragon (OK that last one sounded pretty cool).
I get most of what the plot is about; Frodo and his merry men travelling to a volcano where the ring of Saulron was made and destroy it, anyone that wears the ring becomes corrupted by it’s power and can turn invisible, at the cost of some phantoms coming after you to collect your soul; there’s a bunch of other plot threads that are going on with it and I finished the 1st movie (Fellowship of the Ring), though I’ll admit to this, I sometimes watch them to help me fall asleep.
4. DOCTOR WHO
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There’s a reason that there’s over 13 people over the span of 40+ years that played the time travelling alien, I just can’t seem to find out why. I knew about the series during the days of David Tennant and I even vaguely remember some spin-off series with some journalist lady and another one with a robot dog.
Then there was the episode where David Tennant’s version goes RIP and gets reincarnated as the Matt Smith version and that’s when I stopped watching. Although to be fair, I wasn’t as big of a fan as most people were even when he was popping. Someone I knew showed me a clip where he reincarnates AGAIN and I thought “why the hell has he turned into some crusty old man?” (I didn’t realise at the time that the other Doctors from the 70′s & 80′s were also old me). After the crusty old man version turned into that woman from one of the early episodes of Black Mirror, I shrugged it of and though “hey, at least all the fangirls that like this show have someone to look up to that isn’t the doctors sidekick” so all’s well that ends well.
5. STAR TREK
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Despite the fact that I’ve seen the JJ Abrams movies, that wasn’t enough to turn your boy into a trekkie. There’s a bunch of different versions and universes and incarnations of Star Trek that I couldn’t be asked to dip my toe into anymore than I already did. That’s why it’s easier to get into Star Wars; all you need to do is watch the trilogy movies and your basically up to speed.
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dangermousie · 6 years
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All the Turkish shows I have not finished so far and why
(I am excluding currently airing shows because duh and also Icerde, which I am currently actively watching.)
But yes, I have a short attention span and my ratio of finished to started is pretty small so I wanted to list all the ones I’ve started but have not finished (yet.) Some of these I plan to get to (after all, I finished Cesur ve Guzel even if it took a year) and some no way. Ones I plan to go back to have an asterisk.
1001 Nights - Love the OTP, hate everything else. If someone gave me a cut of just their scenes (which take 10 minutes per ep ugh), I’d be much happier. As it is, I do not have the patience for this tbh.
*Adini Feriha Koydum - OK, confession time, I made it through a few eps and was bored. And now that I know the ending, my desire to check it out is not great. But since watching this for the first time, I realized I liked the leading pair elsewhere and the writer is the writer for my current obsession Fazilet, so I plan on giving it another chance. 
*Ask-i Memnu - I really loved it and binged but, 80 eps OMG. I had to take a break for my sanity, got sidetracked and never went back. I definitely plan to because I haven’t even gotten to the OTP smooches yet. 
Ask ve Ceza - on netflix! Pretty people! Cool set-up! Story that is slower than molasses in January! Aside from one fateful meeting, the OTP doesn’t meet again forever and ever and ever!!! Instead I have to watch business dealings of hero and issues of heroine, both of which are so exciting, I want a nap! I actually, despite my ranting, may go back to it at some point with extreme forwarding thus not on netflix, but not any time soon. 
*Bizim Hikaye - I actually really liked this, even if it was a little OTT for me. But I can only have so many airing shows and one had to be temporarily dropped so it was this one. I promise to get back to you!
Bu Sehit Arkandan Gelecek - I was so excited to watch this because it starred Kerem Bursin whom I’ve adored in Gunesi Beklerken and the first ep and the love story set in it were so delicious. But then the show really lost the plot and put the love story beyond the back burner and just wasn’t my thing any more. I still considered maybe going back to it some day with some fast forwarding but then I checked out the ending, and nope nope nope.  
Calikusu - the 1980s version was my very first Turkish show when I was a teeny kid. The new version has good actors, much better budget but it’s like pulling teeth. They basically left very little of the novel in the story, problem n1. Problem n2 is that it’s slow and problem n3 is that Feride’s sharper, less cool edges are demonstrated more in romantic relationships and less when she’s being an amazing rural teacher. By not allowing her the latter, the show leaves her bad qualities and not allows her, her best ones. I finally gave up when I realized I was ffing whole eps and checking out. 
*Fatmagul’un Sucu Ne? - I do plan to get back to this one! In fact, it’s one of the best shows I’ve seen from any country. It’s just it’s 80 eps and with my attention span, I cannot binge an 80 ep show in one sitting. I got to 50-something through an insane binge and then wandered off to something else. But I really must go back because I remember loving it so. 
Filinta - I checked this out because it was on netflix, and it looks like a million bucks, but I almost never like mystery shows and this was yet another one that failed for me. I just find police procedurals, even ones set in Ottoman Turkey, BORING. Also the hero didn’t interest me and I think fez hats are up there with Qing hairstyles as some of the ugliest men’s fashions out there.
*Gecenin Kralicesi - I checked it out when it aired and liked the dysfunctional set up (heroine is ditched by hero who wanted a divorce from his insane wife to be with heroine but his mob FIL said he’d kill heroine if that happened, so hero lied and dumped her awfully. Heroine marries the FIL. Hahahahahaha) but didn’t have the energy to keep up with it airing. I keep meaning to go back and watch it properly though because it’s not very long and has a happy ending. 
*Kara Para Ask - OK, it should probably not be on this list because I just started it, but whatever, it’s my list and I will do what I want. And what I want is to watch another ep tonight!
Kurt Seyit ve Sura - I was here for Kurt Seyit and Sura so when it switched to Kurt Seyit and Murka, I bailed. I don’t care if it’s historical, don’t switch my OTPs on me in the middle of the show, show!
*Kuzey Guney - I think it was my first Turkish show when I got back into them as an adult! And I really liked it a lot! (Obviously, since I sought out more.) But one of the things I loved the most was Kuzey’s hopeless love for his bro’s girlfriend Cemre so when the show suddenly started showing him having an angsty thing for the redhead girl, I got super annoyed and bailed. Like! How can he love the redhead, he’s supposed to love Cemre! I was fine with him having a wife since there was no love there but a genuine love interest! I felt betrayed. And I walked. I’ve since been informed that Kuzey realizes he wasn’t really in love with redhead but using her to deflect his forbidden feelings, so I am gonna go back to it. 80 eps doesn’t seem so scary any more, unlike when I first discovered Turkish shows. I do think the bulk of s1 he chases the redhead so extreme ffing will be implemented. 
Magnificent Century Kosem: Murad - I liked the original MC and MCK. However when MCK got into its second season and reigns of Kosem’s children Murad and Ibrahim - ooooh boy. I liked it at the start but the more the season went on, the more I lost interest - they never were able to explain how Murad went from an A+ bro/ruler/person to a homicidal and fratricidal lunatic and Kosem herself went from a fascinating character to a very pretty cypher. 
Mehmetcik Kutul Amara - I love period things but this one did not work for me. It was hard enough to get used to seeing WWI as a glorious enterprise, but the characters didn’t talk, they declaimed! Nor could I tell most of them apart from the other. It’s like Vatanim Sensin but without people for me to care about, thus not like Vatanim Sensin at all!
Olene Kadar - the premise! Engin in the lead role! I was so happy. And I was so happy with the first few eps. But then they switched writers and did weird things and I drifted away. And then I found out about the ending. I am used to Turkish tragic endings but this seemed so patently unjust and horrible, I am never watching this unless someone pays me serious $$$ for pain and suffering. 
*Sila - Loved this insane mess of a show, loved it! Short attention span won again after 40 eps and I wandered off. But I am about to restart this crazy, delicious, guilty (only I refuse to be guilty) pleasure. 
*Soz - watched first ep, rolled my eyes at the fridging of hero’s unfortunate fiancee, decided I had no room for another airing show. I will probably go back with some major ff because the OTP looks delicious and ff will allow me to skip military bits that bore me.
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10 easy ways to get organised for 2017!
Hi everyone! Another year has gone by (too quickly if you ask me), and it’s time to make this one a better year than the last. I think this is my first massive text post about study and my personal tips so here goes!
Write down the things you wish to accomplish this year. This is so important to ensure that you don’t lose track and go on the wrong path throughout the year. Discover what YOU really want to have done this year, and that you will feel proud of at the end of the year when reflecting on 2017. Set goals for things that you can go “omg I can’t believe I actually did that this year, now I can do anything I set my mind to!” Even if it’s binge watching your favourite show I’m not complaining hehehe…
Get a goddamn 2017 planner or bullet journal OR BOTH! It is so so so very important to develop amazing organisational skills, especially whilst we are still studying in schools or university. It is up to you as to what method you want to use to attack everything the year throws at you. This year, I personally have opted for BOTH a 2017 planner and bullet journal. The bullet journal I use is this one, with the dotted pages inside. I cannot express how much I love my bullet journal. It is a great way to procrastinate doing work lol, but it makes you feel good when you step back and look at the spread you made for the week. Plus, showing it off to your friends doesn’t hurt ;) My bullet journal is also fantastic because in 2016, I only used half of it! So now I don’t have to go and buy a new one for 2017! And it will hold ALL of the stuff I had to do in my final two senior years of high school - what a memory :’) Now for the 2017 planner. I was very grateful to receive this 2017 planner for Christmas! IT. IS. HOLOGRAPHIC. LIKE WHAAAAAAAAT ?! It is so beautiful and unlike what the website shows you, it is actually a week to a double page spread. So I use this for any events I have on e.g. outings, driving lessons, important due dates, birthdays.  It allows me to plan ahead! Something that you can’t really do with bullet journals. So I highly recommend using both!!!
Get a 2017 wall planner!!! This is another great way to plan ahead with future events, and see it all laid out in front of you. Unfortunately I don’t have a link for this as I don’t purchase any wall planners since my tutor gives them to me (gotta love freebies). I  recommend printing out these FREE monthly calendars (made by the kind Ariadne), as they have enough space for your basic events, but I still prefer 2017 as a whole year wall planner as I usually highlight my exam periods in a bright green highlighter, and usually exam periods do go across months. So all in all, its just easier to see :)
Try to start detaching yourself from social media. I know I know, you’re probably thinking “WTF TIFF I CAN’T GET RID OF ALL MY SOCIAL MEDIA ACCOUNTS!! I LIVE AND BREATHE ON THEM!” That’s even more reason to get rid of it!!! I am the kind of person who is DEFINITELY attached to the ‘going-ons’ of the world and more importantly - my social circle. Last year during my first assessment period for my last year of schooling, I made the decision to delete my snapchat account and temporarily disable my instagram account. It was such a good decision. I was able to focus more and not get distracted as easily, and based on all the results I have received thus far, it was worth it. I am slowly learning that I don’t need to snapchat everyone about what I am currently doing, and that I need to learn to live in the moment more instead of just being on my phone. For the past half a year (?) I have also turned off all notifications for my social media (except tumblr of course haha) so that I only go on the apps/sites when I absolutely NEED to. No notifications allows me to focus more on the task at hand. So no, you don’t need to stop using social media ENTIRELY, because I know that I can’t. Just try becoming less reliant upon it. Unfollow people who are unhealthy role models to you. Delete irrelevant photos and posts. It feels so good - trust me. If all else fails, try use a blocker for social media/sites you visit often! I don’t use one, but here is one that I found on google.
Download this bomb ass Google Chrome extension. If you have not heard of ‘Momentum’ yet, are are not using it, drop everything and download it right now. Firstly, the background photographs are just breathtaking and make me (and hopefully you) feel so happy. Secondly, you can type up all the tasks you have to do. So that’s one point to organisation! Thirdly, it has really nice quotes daily which may inspire you to do something great, or y’know… to use in your bullet journal spread ;) Finally, IT IS AESTHETIC AS HECK OK SHOW OFF YOUR LAPTOP TO YOUR FRIENDS they will be all ooOOoOOOOOO
Drink lots of water. It is a fact. We are made of water. Our brains require water. No water? Brain doesn’t work properly. That ain’t good for our studying!!!  Please always bring water with you everywhere you go. If you are one of those people who are conscious of peeing lots, please don’t be! It is a healthy sign that toxins are being flushed out of your body. Water can also help keep your skin looking bright and clear, and not dull and dead from the lack of sleep we get from late night studying.
Reflect daily. Reflecting upon each day is really important and encourages mindful thinking. We often do so many things without thinking and appreciating it. So to help me with this, in 2016 I invested in two beautiful journals by kikki-k. I got this ‘The Highlight Of My Day’ book (which I don’t think is sold anymore sorry!). I also bought this ‘A Sentence A Day’ journal from their minimalistic range (this is also not sold anymore, but I’ve linked an alternative from their current range). They run over the span of 3 years, and I think it’s really cute how I get to see what I was thinking/doing the previous year!
Find some good tunes to get you in the mood for studying. I find that I really really really need music to get me pumping and in the right mindset to smash through all the work set out for me. If you want to find out what music I’m into, feel free to follow my spotify here.
Surround yourself with positive people. By doing so, you’ll be creating a positive environment for yourself, putting you in the right mood and mindset to carry on with your studies.  It took me 3-4 of my high school years to finally find where I fit in, and surround myself with people who are supportive of me. I admit that my friend group has changed from 15 people to around 3 (incl. me). But things happen, and it was just a process of each of us finding our way and to what groups we truly belong to.  The two best friends I primarily hang out with at school I also study with, and we support each other with our problems when we rant or math problems! In addition to these two people, there are another two best friends I hang out with and talk to often, but we don’t sit with each other at school. And then there are a few 5 other people I talk to with other issues.  I know it took a while, but I am truly content with the relationships I have.
Try your hardest. This is the most important of all. In our schooling years, there is inevitably pressure from peers and family as to what we have to achieve. This can have negative impacts upon mental health, and that obviously isn’t good for our studies.  So PLEASE listen to me when I say that it is okay if you don’t achieve what you set out to do, as long as you know that you’ve tried your hardest. We spend so much time proving ourselves to others by the things we do, it is important that we also prove how absolutely amazing individuals we are to ourselves - please don’t ever forget that.
Okay! I’m finally done! I hope that these tips + links + personal stories will inspire you all to do great things this year. Yes, there will be setbacks, but we are all very strong individuals who will pull ourselves together and try again. I wish you all the best for your studies this year! We can do this!
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Hello, book-dragons! My constantly stressed state is very excited to tell you about all the things I’m looking forward to in the near and upcoming future! From books, movies, music, anime and manga and whatever strikes my fancy. So without further ado let’s begin with the movies I’m looking forward to…
Movies/TV Shows
Thor: Ragnarok – It’s coming out soon but exams are coming up and I have an essay due! NOOOOooooooooooooooooo
Simon vs the Homo Sapiens Agenda – or should I say ‘Love, Simon’ . Amazing title, amazing and now I need a trailer. ooor just the whole movie….. please?
Ferdinand – Ferdinand is an adorkable bull.
WONDER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! – ‘nuff said
Voltron: Legendary Defenders Season 5 – Season 4 just came out, I binge-watched it in a day, my feelings and emotions got wrecked and now I NEED SEASON 5!!!!!
Anime & Manga
Feast your eyes on the amazing animation of Violet Evergarden It is an upcoming animation project from Kyoto Animation and if that stellar and top notch animation doesn’t convince you that A) it’s going to be visually stunning and B) amazing overall, I don’t know what will.
Volume 5 of Behind the Scenes!!! – I still need Volume 4 though but don’t you fret I’ll have it in my hands very, very soon *evil laughter*
Volume 4 of The Seven Princes in the Thousand Year Labyrinth – This series is literally just so beautifully drawn, filled with beautiful characters and a touch of crazy, murder and suspense
Cardcaptor Sakura: Clear Card Arc – I loved Cardcaptor Sakura and now there is not only a new ARC but new cards and everything. SIGN ME UP!!!!
Books
We’ve reached the part that you are probably here for: books. Here are the upcoming releases that I am really, really, REALLY looking forward to:
Dark in Death – It’s Lieutenant Eve Dallas and another crime. Of course I’m looking forward to this…
Whichwood – Admittedly the cover is beautiful and makes me want to read it but the premise is also very promising.
Fracture Me (also Shatter Me #5 & #6) – OK probably shouldn’t be to hyped about this because that may lead to disappointment but I DON’T CARE! Reread this series recently and just remembered why I loved it. Needs no further explanation, me thinks…
Long Way Down – I was scrolling through the upcoming releases on Goodreads and came across this one. It is not something that I would pick up normally however it sounds like something that will make me think and mess up my emotions. What more could you want in a book?
Year One – an end of the world type of series which is very, very different to Nora Robert’s previous trilogies so I am very excited!
Saga Vol 1 & 2– This is actually not an upcoming release but I borrowed it recently and it is coming. I’ve seen it around and I recently just got back into graphic novels so I thought I would give it a try! (Actually, I think by the time this post is up I may have already read these…. But I’ll put it in any way)
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Looking Forward To Hello, book-dragons! My constantly stressed state is very excited to tell you about all the things I’m looking forward to in the near and upcoming future!
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