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starylust · 3 years

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❝prologue❞

masterlist ∤ next

➙ pairings - tsukishima x fem!reader ; suna x fem!reader

➙ genre - heavy angst, fluff, slice of life

➙ warnings - depression, verbal arguments, mentions of smut, suicide, death, mentions of self harm (i hope i didn’t forget any)

➙ word count - 912

taglist - open

You sighed once more as you turned your head to look at the clock. He was supposed to be home at 7pm and the clock had now shown it was 10:30pm. All you wanted today was to have dinner together, but he couldn’t even make it home in time.

There you sat at the empty apartment, at an empty table with plates full of food. Food that was probably cold by now. This feeling, this feeling of loneliness was eating you up. Why was it that he came home so late every single day?

You couldn’t even remember the last time you two spent quality time together. You missed him, you really did. Although you guys live together it sure didn’t feel like.

He always came home when you were already asleep and left before you even woke up. You knew he was having a hard time at work, but not seeing him days on end was starting to really stress you out.

Bad thoughts started clouding your head as this routine continued. ‘Was he cheating? Did he even love you anymore? Where even was he anyway?’

But you never questioned him, no you just left yourself alone with these horrible thoughts. You thought as time went by this would stop. Now it’s almost been a month.

Almost one month where the two of you could spend quality time together. Or even the fact that you didn’t know if he was even sleeping in the same bed as you. How would you know?

Your eyes started closing as your head rested in your hand. You tried your hardest not to fall asleep as he promised he’d be home tonight in time for dinner. It took you almost 2 hours to prepare dinner.

You thought since it had been a long time since the two of you had a meal together, you tried making it special. But all you were left with was a silent empty apartment and cold food getting colder every second.

You sighed to yourself as you lazily got up and grabbed both of the plates. Your appetite was no longer there and all you wanted to do was lay in bed. You wrapped plastic wrap over the plates and placed them into the fridge.

The bed wallowed down as you sunk into the mattress. You stared at the ceiling looking at the moonlight that shined through your windows. Tonight would’ve been a good night to spend together like you were supposed to.

Another sad sigh left your lips as you turned over onto your left side. The moonlight was now gleaming onto your back. You didn’t know why but your pillow felt wet.

Your head rose up a bit to see some tear marks on your pillow. This wasn’t a surprise to you, this happened almost every night. ‘If he knew I was crying myself to sleep, would he even care?’

With that last thought in your mind your eyes shut close as the tiredness took over you.

Your nerves rose as you watched him approach the front gate. You took a deep breathe in and drew it out. ‘Okay you got this!’ you told yourself. The letter that your hands held were shaking a bit.

You were really hoping this was going to go well, after all you’ve been crushing on him ever since your 1st year. Every second that passed by he got closer and closer.

“H-hi,” you stuttered.

He looked down at you with his eyebrows raised. ‘Wow he’s kind of scary up close.’ Your eyes shut tightly before carefully shoving the letter towards his face.

Still not moving a muscle he looked down at the letter. Your head was facing down while your eyes remained shut. You did not want to see his reaction at all as it frightened you.

“Please read my letter!” You said firmly. He now brought his hand up to take the letter from your hands. As you felt the letter pull away you looked up to see him opening it. However you did not expect for him to be reading it right now in front of you.

Your eyes widened as he started tearing the letter open slowly and carefully. He took the piece of paper located in the envelope out and unfolded it. You watched as his eyes moved from word to word.

He finished reading the letter and looked at you. You sighed in defeat already expecting him to decline your confession.

“Hey why are you sighing?” He asked.

“Oh I just know you don’t feel the same way. I just thought I should let you know how I feel.” You said smiling softly.

A soft chuckle left his mouth before he spoke once more.

“I’m not declining your confession but maybe we should get to know each other more first.”

Your hand rose up and slapped against your mouth. This is definitely not what you expected. ‘Was he really not going to decline your confession? Holy crap. Omg wait what now?’

His voice brought you out of your thoughts.

“Should we exchange phone numbers so we can get to know each other?”

You nodded your head yes before digging into your bag for your phone. Finally finding your phone you brought it towards him as you smiled so brightly.

He typed for a minute before handing it back to you. You stared down at the screen to see a new contact in your phone.

Tsukishima Kei.

next part:)

#tsukishima #tsukishima x reader #tsukishima kei #tsukishima kei x reader #tsuki #tsukishima angst #tsukishima kei angst #haikyuu angst #haikyuu x reader #tsuki angst #tsukishima x female reader #haikyuu tsukishima #haikyuu tskuishima x reader #suna x reader #suna fluff #suna angst #suna rintaro x reader #suna rintarō #suna x you

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anonymous0writer · 4 years

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Dial Tones II JJ Maybank

Author: @anonymous0writer

Warnings: Alcohol use. Some bad self image. All characters have been made 18+ and for this, I imagined them in college and living on their own.

Requested: Yes!

“Omg I would love it if you wrote for the obx cast! You are such a talented writer! And you are definitely not annoying anyone with the spamming. You are filling the void during this quarantine ❤️ could I also request a songfic for JJ x reader based off 3 AM by Halsey?”

A/N: I love Halsey, and these songfics are giving me life. Ugh, I love writing based off songs sm. Also, anon, you are an angel! <3

This is really sad, like super sad I was like shit, girl you need help when writing, and the reader has kinda a lot of issues, but I was going off the lyrics.

Song lyrics look like this

Darling, I just left the bar And I've misplaced all my credit cards My self preservation and all of my reservations Are sitting and contemplatin' what to do with me, do with me

You stumble, blinded by the alcohol surging in your veins. Your hands dart out, catching your fall as you lean against the brick wall of the bar. The rough building material scratches at your hands. You take a deep breath, smiling like a fool due the one thing and one thing only. The heavy intake of sharp alcohol. Tomorrow you’d be in a world of hurt, but your brain was too muddled and everything seemed too light for you to worry about it.

At the back of your mind hung the memories and words you tried to push away so desperately. The words that made you tip the shot back a little farther. There was nothing in particular, but every relationship, every emotion hinged onto them were enough to make you want to pass out drunk.

A sob rises in your throat, but you swallow it down, your vision going blurry. The shapes of cars speeding past and the silhouettes of people blur, the edges bleeding like water to ink.

The pads of your fingers scrape against the brick, making them go raw as you stumble along the wall, fighting the sobs and the storm of feelings catching up to you. This was the exact thing you tried to hold back, but the laughs turned into cries so easily it was hard to tell which one was which.

Think I took it way too far And I'm stumbling drunk, getting in a car

You fumbled for the keys to your car, tears burning at the back of your eyes. Swallowing the lump in your throat, you wince as the car’s light flashes and cut into the fog of your brain, searing through your thoughts. You took it too far this time. Drunk too much, drowned your storm of thoughts and feelings in the deeper pit. You had fallen off the edge too many times and here you were, fumbling to get the car door open just to sit in it and cry.

Of course you took it too far. Isn’t that what you always did?

My insecurities are hurting me Someone, please come and flirt with me I really need a mirror that'll come along and tell me that I'm fine

You glared, eyebrows slanting over your eyes. Nasty thoughts relating to your body or personality attacked, burning your skin as they hit. They were like mosquitoes, nasty and just there to feed. And of course, you could only stop a few until you gave up, waking up the next morning with the aftermath marring your skin.

The mirror stared back at you, your twin glittering in the light. The girl was glaring back, equally mad about the way you looked. About the way your hips curved in the dress, and the way your stomach popped out, dress doing nothing to smooth over it.

You closed your eyes, feet curling into the carpet as you twisted around, refusing to continue searching for imperfections. You just needed to get to the club, see your friends and find a half drunk man to flirt with to forget the girl in the mirror.

I do it every time I keep on hanging on the line Ignoring every warning sign Come on and make me feel alright again

“No, don’t do it,” Kiara shook her head, watching you with saddened eyes as your phone was clutched in your hand. His familiar name and face was waiting to be summoned as your finger hovered over the call button.

Your jaw flickered as you debated. The few shots in your system said hell yes, the broken part of yourself asked to hear his words in a small voice as the sober you screamed not to. It wasn’t smart, that was sure, but you couldn't help the need to hear the gruffness of his voice when he woke up, or the softness of his voice when he was tired, or the smirk in his words as he eyed you. You felt the need to hear his voice and picture him as he talked to you, only for him to hang up too soon and a hollow feeling pooling in the cavity of your chest.

You didn’t even process it as your finger pressed on the screen and the call was dialing, waiting on the edge of your seat to see if he’d even pick up.

You ignored Kiara’s cry of protest and Sarah’s huff of pity. You didn’t want to see the look on their faces as he hung up and left you worse than before. You didn’t want to feel the way Sarah slid her arm over your shoulders and pulled you close. You didn’t want to hear the soft words from Kie’s mouth, telling you to move on and find another one. Because if you found someone else, they’d just do what every other man did. Love and leave. Love and leave. It was a vicious circle, but it was easier to fall back into the routine of drunk calling him instead of having your hope rise as you found another. So you ignored the warning signs.

You snapped back as the dial tone rang into your ear, stark and buzzing. He let it run through.

'Cause it's 3am And I'm calling everybody that I know And here we go again While I'm running through the numbers in my phone

You were seated in your bed, hair messy and clothes in disarray from the constant tossing and turning as your brain wouldn’t turn off. So you restored into what you always did. Call. Phone in front of you, screen glaring its ugly light to illuminate your face. Hands shaking as they reached for the next number. Which you paid attention to. You’d always call, still in your thoughts or exhausted when you ran through the list of numbers. But you were always alert when your finger passed over his number.

Your eyes stared so hard at the ten digits they swum across the screen. You blinked, eyelashes brushing against your pale cheeks. Your fingers reached for the call button, hands trembling like they always did this late.

The pad of your finger touched the number. Your room swelled with the ring of the dial tone, and you held your breath. Hoping.

I need it digital 'Cause, baby, when it's physical I end up alone, end up alone

“Hello?” His voice broke through the calm of your room, making your eyes dart to the screen. He had picked up.

“Hi,” Your voice rose and broke, the quiver of your hands seeping into your voice.

“Y/N.”

His voice sounded tired and disappointed. He wasn’t happy to see you calling- not like the way your heart rose when it showed he picked up. Your face fell, heart crashing into your stomach, the remainder of your barely intact heart falling to pieces, joining the graveyard of the others. You swallowed, emotions bubbling in you so fast it made you dizzy.

“I’m sorry,” You words were whispered, barely carrying through the phone meeting his ear. “I’m so sorry.”

By now you didn’t even know what you were apologizing for. Forcing him away? Calling him repeatedly? When you were drunk? When you were plagued with your own mind? For begin so easy to break? For giving him a broken heart? For not being able to love yourself no matter what anyone thought? For letting your thoughts kill you slowly? For scaring him off? No matter what it was, you were sorry.

“Stop.” He begged, and your glassy eyes snapped to the phone. Your trembling hands clenched the sheets. “Please stop. Don’t do this again.”

Another ‘sorry’ escaped your lips.

“Stop crying, Y/N. Pick yourself up. Move on. Take care of yourself and get help.” The familiar soothe of his words easing your mind and heart. Your thoughts dropped, recoiling away into the corners of your mind. Your lips parted but no words came spilling.

“You need to help yourself. You have to stop throwing yourself into relationships when you’re so broken. Y/N, please.”

Your eyes fluttered closed and you took in his words, letting them soak into your skin, soothing the burns of your destructive thoughts, holding up the broken parts of your heart and making you warm. The power of his voice was enough to allow you to sleep. But his voice faded and he hung up. The call ended, leaving you laying on your back, blankets surrounding you in a halo, eyes staring at your ceiling blankly. Breathes pulling and exiting your chest, making a soft hum in the dead quiet of your darkened room.

Loving someone in the real light. Physically, mentally- that was hard. Digitally was easier, allowing you to have some distance. Phone calls and texts allowed you to not throw your shit on them. No matter what you did. No matter the calls or the hugs- you always ended up in your room, breathing shallow and wall the only thing entertaining. You always ended up alone.

Every night I wanna live in color through a white-blue screen I got a technicolor vision going vivid in my white-blue jeans I know it's complicated 'cause everyone that I've dated Says they hate it 'cause they don't know what to do with me, do with me

Nights were the best and worst. Early nights, where you danced your feet sore, sang your throat raw and drank your brain fuzzy. But late nights were the opposite. Staring the ceiling until your eyes unfocused, listening to the stuffy silence, the dial tone ringing in your ears along with the countless calls not taken.

But tonight was a good night. Kie and Sarah were with you, laughter and fun in higher doses than the alcohol. You three were crammed into the dance floor, the music so loud it was practically pulsing through the floor, making the vibrations shiver in your bones.

The lights of the club were alive and bright, the colors flashing and moving to the beat of the music, casting shadows and lights across your skin. Red and blue and then purple danced across your body, chased by the slashes of orange and the dots of yellow.

You loved living like this, the beat of the music in your bones, the colors of the lights flashing across your skin in wild patterns. When you danced with your best friends, laughter loud and smiles true bright.

But you usually weren’t like this. You liked the calm of the take out sitting on your balcony and staring at the city. You were complicated and what you liked changed all the time. You would want to stay out all night for a second, and the next you’d want to curl up in bed and watch movies. Your mind flipped and switched constantly, confusing the boys in your life. You were complicated. And they hated it. Hated the way you changed your mind and were so broken. And they made sure you knew it. They didn’t know what to do with your changing mind and dark thoughts and broken heart. So they did what the last one did. Left.

I need it digital 'Cause baby when it's physical I end up alone

You smiled softly, your tears drying and the edges of your mouth tilting up. You sniffle and listen to the video over, hands easing in their constant shaking. You closed your eyes, listening to the hum of his laugh and the crinkle of his eyes as he grinned. You opened your eyes again, watching the clip with a bittersweet taste on your tongue.

The camera flipped and dropped as his arms encircled your waist, pulling you into his lap as you giggled.

“JJ!” Your voice was high and bursting with joy. His face was lost into the crook of your neck, and when he looked up, his eyes found the camera.

Your breath shortened at the light hitting his eyes and lighting up the cerulean color. His eyes were beautiful.

The boy reached forward, “Are you taping me, baby?” You giggled and tried to wiggle out of his grip.

You jumped up, and the boy pouted. “Where you goin’, pretty girl?”

“I have your gift!” You grinned, and the camera showed off JJ, his hair somewhat tamed and his lips tugging into a grin.

The camera flashed as you quickly got the small, gray box. You shoved the small gift into his hands and urged him to open it.

“Open it, J!” You urged, the camera still focused on him and his anticipated reaction. You held your breath as his quick hands worked on the ribbon. It came undone, falling to the floor as the boy eased the box open.

In it lay a shark tooth necklace, carefully coiled. JJ’s grin widens, splitting across his face and you clap your hands, the camera shaking.

“Do you like it?” You ask as his fingers undo the tight coil and play with the beads. His eyes flicker up to meet yours.

“Of course. I love it.” He grins and loops the necklace around his neck.

You close your eyes as the video continues, loud laughter and admiration from the blue eyed boy playing loudly. You soak in the loud laughter of a happier time. You wonder briefly if he still wears the necklace, or if he even still has it. You’d given it to him after he admitted how ‘badass a shark tooth would look’ around his neck.

You open your eyes, a small tear trickling from your eye and making a small river down the plain of your cheek. Your eyes find the video, where it stops on JJ’s face, grin wide and teeth flashing, eyes lit by the sunlight and a new necklace worn proudly around his throat.

You stare at it, marveling over that time.

He really was everything.

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sweetpeachjones · 6 years

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YMUB pt. 7

Episode 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 , 6

A/N: Thank you for putting up with me

For my anon n @pupyluv247 xoxoxo

"Ugh, why is it so damn hot in Oakland?" You lie in your silk sheets tossing and turning desperately trying to find some comfort. It wasn't the temperature that had you going crazy like, your hormones were raging. It has been 3 weeks since you moved out and got your own place. Three weeks since you and Erik spoke. He would call and you ignored his calls you ended up changing your number altogether. He would come by the office and your secretary would block him. If he got belligerent security was called and he would leave but Erik was persistent and it was a matter of time before you had to face him. You decided on taking a cold shower before drifting off to sleep, however, your cell phone was almost begging you to call Erik. He didn't know where you lived and tonight wasn't the time to found out. The glow of the phone irritated you so much that you took the battery out and put it in ur drawer. Only then you were able to get some rest. The next morning after finishing your first appointment, you were waiting for your second when you received a call from the University. "Hello Mrs. Stevens" "Yes" "Oh hello this is Shelia from the Black Excellence committee and I wanted to inform you that you and your husband are going to be nominated with humanitarian of the year award." "Oh wow well I'm honored." "I'm glad you are you guys have done so much work for our city and beyond it's time you have been recognized. So the ceremony is Aug 11 a month from now and I will email you further details okay." "Okay, thanks so much." "No thank you and have a wonderful day." As soon as you hung up your secretary buzzed in about Erik calling. You told your secretary to say you were in a meeting. As your second appointment walked in. At 5 pm you prepared to leave as you walked out the door you smelled some familiar cologne you knew immediately who it was, you reached into your pocket and grabbed hold of your switchblade just in case. You stalking me now." You said flatly and kept walking. You didn't have to look back to know he was following you. "You can't keep ignoring me Y/N" "Wanna bet, what do you want" "You of course" "Oh thought I was unless to you." You turned as you walked in the parking deck Erik quickly follow seeing you walked to an unfamiliar car.

"What's this?, Where's your car?"

"None of your business but I bought this baby as soon as I moved out. I figured you would have some sort of tracker and found out where I am." You fiddled with the keys as you dropped them in water the other day, it has been malfunctioning since then. You pressed the unlock button only to have the car alarm go off. Frustrated u bang the keys on the roof, Erik silently watched you throw a temper tantrum. He calmly grabbed the keys from you pressed on some buttons, silenced the alarm and unlock your car door. He opened the door for you and waited til u got in. You said nothing as u got in and he slammed the door. You wanted to wipe that stupid smirk off his face as he waited for you to say something. You didn't you just started the car. "Is there something else you need." "Yeah, did u get the call from the school,?" "I did, and?" "Sooo we need to make arrangements to pick up" "No I'll meet you a block from the venue and we will ride up together so no one is suspicious." "Why can't I pick u up" "You seriously need to ask me that question, move out my damn way." You put the car in drive and pulled off unnecessarily hard. He jumped back just in time before you ran over his toes. The night of the ceremony You spent all day with your stylist and glam squad aka your sister and boy cousin and they primped and prepped for tonight evening. You settled on a rose gold evening gown with diamond accessories. Once done you looked like an Aphrodite herself. You had an Uber XL bring you to the designated spot you and Erik agreed upon. Erik was leaning against the car looking up and down the street apprehensively waiting on your vehicle. Once the driver pulled up he open your car door and you stepped out. Erik's jaw dropped as you walked towards him. He was looking extra delicious in his black tux and gold accessories. His gold slugs gleamed at you when his smiled and held out his arms awaited a hug. You hesitated but he wasn't having that as he pulled you in a tight bear hug. You almost melted being in those strong arms and he had the nerve to wear your favorite cologne you bought him. He was making it damn near making possible to have an orgasm off sight and smell alone. His hands were dangerously close to your ass as you pulled away. Any fondling and you would just have to have him. "Erik we have to go" We have time, he said as he leaned in closer to kiss your neck "Uh huh I ain't here for all of that." Girl bring your sexy ass here, grabbing ur waist, we need to get in character. Finally kissing his way on your neck and earlobe. You were minutes from giving in. "Erik", you whispered "Yea baby", he answered as his hands were creeping under ur skirt. If he went any further it would have been game over. "If you don't get your fucking hands from under my skirt, I swear your eyes gonna match your outfit." And with that, you pushed him away. He sucked his teeth, knowing u want it just trying to fight but let you win this round. He Chuckled and said "okay princess off to the ball" holding the car door open. You glared at him for his little smart ass comment as you climb in the vehicle. He still managed to slap your ass HARD. One pulling up to the venue, the site was immaculate, you couldn't wait to get out the car. You almost felt intoxicated breathing the same air as Erik. You needed a drink fast. As you stepped people were calling you to take pics, you felt like a star because this was your nite, well yours and Erik. Y'all pose for several pictures but looking like the happiest couple in the world. If they only knew. Inside were pictures of you two at various points of your humanitarian work. Pictures of y'all with kids from Sudan, Nigeria, South Africa you working alongside women making dinner, pics of Erik building with hospitals and schools with the locals. Relief efforts after earthquakes and flooding both of y'all dirty from hard work but happier as ever. You almost felt nostalgic about how good you felt working and those happy faces of the people you help and the long steamy showers with Erik after a days work. It was too much emotion at once and you couldn't get to the open bar faster. As you made your way to the open bar Erik followed you like a hawk. “What would you like to drink ma'am?” “I'll have a whiskey.” “She will have apple cider” You looked at Erik with a fake smile. “Oh, honey, you are sweet but I got this”, adding venom in your voice. “I'm sure you do buttercup, just pace your self”, also adding base in his voice. The bartender looked confused feeling the conversation was deeper than face value. " I'll have a red wine please" Erik glared at you. "What doctors recommend at least one cup of red wine a day." Someone tapped you on your shoulder and turned to see a group of students that wanted to congratulate you personally. Among the crowd was Davida standing there looking bashful. You saw her and you attitude immediately went sour. Erik look shocked and nervous as he to was surprised she was here. He told her about but didn't think she would show up. You downed your first drink fast. "What the fuck are you doing here?", you whisper angrily. "Look Y/N, I didn't come here to fight or cause drama, I want to make amends with you and whether you like it not we're gonna be family." You stood in silence looking at her like she done lost her damn mind. Erik started to say something but you interrupted him you looked at her stepped closer so she can hear you. "I am not Erik so you can't-fool me. I know that baby is not his and your just looking for a meal ticket, if that's how you eat then fine but I'd be damn you ain't eating off MY plate." And you walked off leaving Erik confused about the conversation and Davida dumbfounded. The ceremony went lovely, you had just the kick in the ass you need to focus on the event and not think boning your sexy yet unfaithful husband. When it was time for you and Erik to accept your awards he spoke first. You kind of zoned out until he mentioned of opening a center for women's empowerment in your name. You were shocked to say the least and was speechless. Everyone clapped and cheered whispering amongst themselves. " Wow, such a beautiful couple. " Oh wish I had a marriage like that" Sadly the only ones who weren't fooled by the hype didn't clapped which was you, Erik, and Davida. You stepped outside to get some fresh air as took a sip of your drink a deep voice stirred you out your thoughts. You look to the sound and almost choked on your drink, It was your old mentor from grad school Ellis Watts. He was 6 years older and you guys had a hot sex fling for while Erik was back home and you were away at school. After all these years he still looked good. “OMG, what are you doing here?” “Well, I was in town and heard you were being honored so here I am.” Y'all embrace for what seemed longer than needed. You realized lots of people was around so you decided to go to this secluded spot in the gazebo in the backyard. "I'm so glad you came to support me, I figured we left things kinda weird." "Well I know you were just homesick and missing your boyfriend. But we did have some great times together., He sighed you it was hard to let you go, I thought about almost every day" "Hmm imagined if I didn't leave, where could we have been." "Are you having some kind of doubts about your marriage, are you happy?" You didn't answer as you tried to fight back tears. You wept silently as Ellis hugged you and let you cry. He rubbed your back to soothe you. You looked up at him as he was at least 5 inches taller than and pecked his lips as a thank you, the kiss got more intense as your arms moved to around his neck. The kiss ended abruptly when you heard a pounding thud and you open your eyes quick enough to see Ellis on the ground holding his jaw. Confused you see Erik in complete rage. He gave Ellis no time to recover as he pounces on him punching him in the face. Somehow Ellis overturned Erik and both were giving and taking blows. STOP IT, PLEASE STOP ERIK GET OFF HIM! you yelled. Erik stopped and look at you. Leave Erik! I'm not going nowhere until you come with me! You noticed a crowd was drawing and assume the cops were next. Fine just go I'll follow. He quickly left and you pulled some napkins out of your purse. I'm so sorry about that, you said as you cleaned Ellis's lips. That's fine really if I'd have you as my wife I'd be fighting anyone who looks your way. You laughed to yourself and finished cleaning him. Y/N!!!!! you heard Erik yell. "You better go, I'll take it from here." "Okay here's my card call me ok" You left just as quick to catch up with Erik. Both got into the car y'all came in and left. "Driver our house" "You mean your place, I don't live there anymore." "STFU, and why the fuck was you kissing on that nigga?" "You seriously asking me that while your baby mama pregnant AF at our event." "That's beside the point though, no knows the issue with her however you kissing another nigga who ain't your husband's at an event for us!" He had point but fuck him "Fuck u Erik I ain't gotta explain shit!" The rest of the drive was silent. Once the car pulled up, you quickly hopped out and stormed towards the door. Erik was right behind with you with the keys. When he opened the door, you started for the stairs but Erik grabbed your arm and swung you back to him and pinned you to the wall. He was still pissed. "So you fucking that nigga?" "Fuck u, Erik" "I'm not asking you again!" "Unlike the piece of shit, you are I don't have to fuck every dick that walks by." "That's cause you know that my pussy and can't no nigga fuck you like I can. How long as it been a month maybe two I know that pussy is wet AF right now begging to eaten and fuck properly.” You just turned your head cause he was absolutely right. Then he went for the kill sucking on your earlobe as his hands went under your dress. "Just as I thought", he picked you and found a better way to release his emotions. The next morning The sunlight plus the urge to pee woke you up. Erik has arm tightly around your ribcage keeping you snugly against him. You look down and you were completely naked. You subtle movement woke up the sleeping beast behind you "Where you going?" "I have to pee" "Mhmm well come back" He moved his arms like granted access. After you did your thing you looked in the mirror while you washed your hands. You noticed the passion marks and slight bruises over your neck and chest. Last night was everything you needed and more but you couldn't continue this cycle. You needed to leave. You snuck out the bathroom and went towards the dresser, you quietly got some casual clothes and almost melted how neat your drawers were. You kept your clothes in a certain way while Erik just threw his in the drawer. The fact he took the time to fix it how you like making you all warm and fuzzy inside. But damn that! You gather some more clothes shut the drawer quietly. The sound you heard almost made your heart stopped. “Where you going” “Huh” “I said where are you going, getting out of bed walking towards you.”

You looked like a deer in headlights didn't know your next move. “We're you leaving me?” “I can't stay here Erik” “Who said you can't your my wife this is your house.” He was getting loud almost frightening. He snatched the clothes out of hands and threw them across the room. "Oh you were gonna leave me and go with that nigga wasn't you. After I gave you something special something near and dear you gonna fuck a nigga and leave you got me FUCKED UP" he grabbed a glass vase of flowers and threw them across the room. You watched the water and flowers go everywhere but you couldn't let him intimidate you. "Oh save your bullshit Erik, we both know you bought that center out of guilt. And as much as you have been fucking around you should have no reason to question what I do." You stormed towards the door finding your courage but he blocked the door and got on his knees. He wrapped his arms around your waist. Okay, baby, I'm sorry. You're right, I'm trying to do better, I'd want to make this right. Please stay." His sniffing made your heart broke and you just wanted to lay in bed and cuddle and forget this ever happen. But it did and these are the consequences. "The only reason you want to make this right is that you got her pregnant. Now I looked past the other times but you are making a fool of me. And I can't be here for that now move I need to go." Erik stood up but his demeanor was deadly. "Fine you wanna take your ass to him then go." He reached behind him and locked both doors. "But you gotta find another way to leave other than this front door" "What negro move" Erik's was stiff as a boulder. He instead grabbed your arm and led you towards the balcony. Your first thought was he gonna throw you over so you kicked and screamed making it difficult. He pushed you on the balcony and locked the sliding glass door leaving you out by yourself. Erik, Erik open this damn door! You banged but to no avail, he didn't answer. He climbed back in bed and turned the TV up loud to drown you out. Frustrated you stop knocking and looked for a solution. You looked over and saw the pool, if you jumped you could make it, since you're on the third floor the deep end would have to be your target. But you wasn't much of a swimmer. You had no other option. And hitting the ground wasn't one of them. You looked behind you and Erik was facing you but looked at tv. You climbed over holding on the balcony as you made your jump. All Erik saw was your red shirt floating past the balcony rails. "I know this bitch didn't!" He ran downstairs as he saw your body enter the water in a weird way. Since you didn't bob back up he knew something was wrong and the blue liquid was starting to turn red. Oh, shit y/n! He yelled once he got to the patio. He dove in and retrieve your unconscious body. He gave you CPR as you weren't responding. "Come on baby breathe dammit" He blew one more time and pumped your chest until you spit up water. He was so happy he cradled your head in his arms and noticed the cut on your forehead. He carried you bridal style in the house as he went and got the first aid kit. You started to protest but he wasn’t having it. He just took care of cleaning you and laid in bed as the painkillers took effect. He didn't want it to happen this way but as far as you and he was concerned his wife was back.

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text symbols is very easy to understand the SMS symbols. This is how you discover the meaning of the SMS symbols or emoticons as they are called that you receive. However, if you encounter problems, you can consult the following list of SMS symbols. There are many people who are new to texting and chatting online. These people find it very daunting when they receive a text message with smiley faces. They cannot decipher the meanings, especially when typing in: ^ {or: (#).

text symbols

This is a new form of communication that is also called Short Text Messages (SMS). We must use our cell phone to send chat messages to our friends. In addition to texting, we are also addicted to online chats.

Text Symbols History

Smiley Face Symbol The idea and the first use of a smiley with text is credited to Scott Elliott Fahlman, a computer scientist at Carnegie Mellon University. He thought that using smile and frown text symbols would help notice board users to distinguish between serious messages and jokes. The message with details about the use of smiley emoticons was posted in September 1982. In this article, Smiley Lore :-), Fahlman describes why he felt it was necessary to mark messages that contributors did not want to take seriously by others who read it Bulletin board:

Common Text Message Emoticon Symbols

Emoticons are images or faces made of characters on the keyboard of a mobile phone. You can choose to send emoticons to express your mood or add some humor or personality to a message instead of typing a full message.

Other text message Symbol Meaning Sources

The popular symbols and emoticons change daily and new ones are constantly being made. If you don't find any symbols and emoticons on these lists that meet your needs or get confused by a message you've received, look at some online databases with a more extensive list of text symbols, emoticons and other fun text message ideas.

It even becomes embarrassing to ask about their meanings, because it implies that you are not aware of the latest developments in technologically cool languages. You don't have to worry anymore. This Techspirited article covers some of the most commonly used symbols used for texting and chatting. You can refer to the following list of SMS symbols as a dictionary to help resolve your confusion behind the various acronyms and abbreviations.

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When you receive a message with the alphabet 'Y', this simply stands for the word 'why'. If someone says "U8?" Sends, do they actually mean that you ate? The 'U' stands for you and '8' stands for eaten. If you get a text symbol in massage from someone like: "(it simply means that sender is crying. The symbol <3 stands for heart. Vowels in the spelling are usually omitted because it helps to minimize the number of keystrokes. For example," btwn "is in between because and "hndsm" stands for handsome.

With these symbols you not only save time, but you can also send longer texts that contain more personality and emotion. You can also use these text symbols when sending messages on popular social networking sites. If you can't find a symbol or emoticon that meets your needs, create one yourself and teach it to your friends. Who knows? Your symbol or emoticon can become the next trend.

Texting Symbol

Meaning

Texting Symbol

Meaning

:<>

Amazed

((@))-((@))

the Demon Headmaster

o:-)

Angel smiley

:-P

Tongue in cheek

:-ll

Angry

:-amp;

Tongue-tied

(-.-) Zzzz . . .

asleep

: [

unfriendly

:-X

Big Kiss

: - (

unhappy

I - O

bored/yawning

: C

v. unhappy/incredulous

((((((((((O>>>>>>o

cannon firing

:-))

Very Happy

*$gt;) / :O)

clown

:-*

Kiss

%-)

Confused

^_^

"kiki"

d8:)

Cool

Squint

X-(

cross

O.o

Confused

:'-(

Crying

<:O

Upset

Disappointed

Heart

:-&

Disgusted

Pacman

o-&->

Doing nothing

:|]

Robot

:-).....

Drooling face

Happy

:*)

Drunk smiling face

Sad

<:-O

eek!

Tongue

>=-O

frightened

Grin

&:-)

From a person with curly hair

Gasp

#:-)

From a person with matted hair

;)

Wink

\=o-o=/

glasses

Glasses

:-D

very happy, laughing

Sunglasses

:-,

Hmmmm..., smirking

Cute/Cat-like

:- I

hypnotized!

<:(

Grumpy

O-S->

In a hurry

Unsure

ITD

in the dark

:'(

Cry

:-*

Kiss

3:)

Devil

knight

O:)

Angel

: ))

laughing

:putnam:

Chris Putnam (Facebook Engineer)

:-D

Laughing

Symbol for Facebook

Meaning

Love Heart

o:-)

Angel smiley

:-S

makes no sense

:-X

Big Kiss

O-Z->

man running (whole body figure)

d8:)

Cool

Ooooh!!shocked

:-).....

Drooling face

8->

person in glasses grinning evilly

:-*

Kiss

O-G->

Pointing to self

Love Heart

: - \

puzzled

@>-->--

red rose

@<--<--

red rose

:-))

Very Happy

:-(

Sad

( '}{' )

Boy and girl kissing

: - O

saying 'Oh!'

:")

Blush

:-@

Screaming

;)

Cheeky wink

: v

shouting

;-)

Flirty

(O->

something fishy here

:-x or :o*

Kiss

SITD

still in the dark

Wink

8-)

Sunglasses face

*^_^*

Huge Wide Grin

:-O

Surprised/shocked

})i({

Butterfly

:-. ssshhh

talking very quietly

:-p

Naughty

<[]I

television/video screen

Text Abbreviation

Meaning

Text Abbreviation

Meaning

?4U

Question for you

IMO

in my opinion

2bctnd

to be continued

J4F

just for fun

2g4u

too good for you

J4K

just for kisses

2l8

Too late

Just Kidding

2MORO

Tomorrow

keep cool

2NITE

Tonight

KIT

keep in touch

2WIMC

too whom it may concern

L8R

Later

Forever

LOL

Laugh Out Loud

4yeo

for your eyes only

LTG

Like to go

AAM

as a matter of fact

LTK

like to come

AB!

Ah Bless!

LYLAS

Love you like a sister

Adctd2uv

addicted to love

Anytime anywhere anyplace

AFAIK

as far as I know

mate

AFK

away from keyboard

MGB

may God bless

AML

all my love

MYOB

mind your own business

AMOF

As a matter of fact

NMH

Not much here

ASAP

as soon as possible

NO1

no one

ASFAIC

As far as I am concerned

No Problem or Nosy Parents

ASL

age, sex, location

NSA

No strings attached

ATW

at the weekend

NVM

Never mind

AYDY

Are you done yet

O4U

only for you

AYS

Are you serious

OIC

Oh I see

B4N

Bye for now

OMG

Oh my God

BCNU

Be Seeing You

OXOX

Hugs and kisses

BFF

Best Friends Forever

PCM

please call me

BRB

Be right back

PLMK

Please let me know

BTW

By The Way

POV

Point of view

C&G

Chuckle and grin

PPL

people

call me

RBTL

Read between the lines

COS

Because

RMB

ring my bell

see you

ROFL

Rolling on floor laughing

CUL

see you later

SRY

sorry

DQMOT

Don't quote me on this

STATS

your sex and age

DUR?

don't you remember?

STBY

Sucks to be you

EOD

end of discussion

T+

think positive

EOL

end of lecture

T2ul

talk to you later

F2F

face to face

TMB

Text me back

F2T

free to talk

TMI

Too much information

fingers crossed

TTYL

Talk to you later

FYEO

for your eyes only

TYVM

Thank you very much

FYI

for your information

U4E

yours forever

genius

UFB

Unfreakingly believable

Girlfriend

URH

You are hot

Boyfriend

URTO

you are the one

good game

W4U

waiting for you

GMTA

great minds think alike

WAN2

want to

GR8

Great

WEG

Wicked Evil Grin

GTG

Got to go

WRT

with respect to

GTSY

great to see you

WTG

way to go

H&K

hugs and kisses

WUF

where are you from

hate

WWYC

Write when you can

HAGN

have a good night

WYWH

Wish you were here

HAND

have a nice day

Y2K

You are too kind

I see

YBS

you will be sorry

IDK

I don't know

You there

ILY

I love you

ZZZZ

Sleeping or bored

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Survey #72

hey ya’ll, kinda conflicting moods in this survey; the earlier, dreary-sounding answers, please do not worry about them, as i took this over the course of longer than a week. i was hospitalized this past week and am currently home safe again. i just don’t feel like going back changing answers, lol.

are you currently distressed about anything? yes, quite a bit. i found the gem to the ring jason gave me, but i can't find the ring itself... i really wanna fix it and wear it. i'm pretty damn upset about the situation, considering how much i cherish anything i've ever had from him. do you like your pop tarts toasted or cold? i like them how they are in the package. do you like sitting in the front, back, or middle of the classroom? i prefer the front, 'cuz i can see better and i feel more obligated to engage. what’s your least favorite flavor of candy? orange do you know anyone who has been struck by lightning before? no. which is worse: living where there’s lots of tornadoes or lots of hurricanes? tornadoes, definitely. i live where there are plenty of hurricanes, and the last one we had that was truly devastating was floyd, and that occurred when i was a very young child. tornadoes, meanwhile, are more immediately dangerous. have you ever seen a black rose? no, but i would loooove to... do you like pie? no, actually. if you died right now, how would you feel about your life? it was a nightmare. do you have any morbid interests? gore and guts. bones. death itself, kinda. if someone were to ask you if you were okay right now, are you? no. i'm currently waiting for the suicide hotline's online chat room to open up. i've been a wreck all evening and google searched something i shouldn't have; google gave me the number to the hotline as well as the option to chat online. i broke the fuck down. i've been waiting for a spot to open for like ten minutes... have you ever thrown up from working out? no, but i know i've been close. do you have any gay family members? i think i have an uncle who is? would you be upset if you caught your boyfriend looking at porn? fuck yes i would be. (new day.) would you date someone who still lived with their parents? uhhh, why wouldn't i...? would you have to sleep with someone before marrying them? nope. would you enjoy a night of playing video games? very much so. would you watch a porno with your partner? absolutely not. would you be okay with your partner hanging with their ex as friends? errr... i hate admitting this, but no. it's suspicious. coffee or tea? i have a strong dislike of both, really. when was the last time you climbed a tree?  never; nc doesn't really have climbable trees, just pines. what clubs do/did you participate in at school?  i was in the art club and shit, what was it called... it was for honors students... what is something you and your best friend say/do that seems strange to an outsider?  act gay as hecke do you like to sleep near the wall, the middle, or the open side of the bed?  open side. what’s the strangest rumor that has ever been spread about you?  a rumor started in high school that jason and i had had a baby. a rachel is who told the person who told me, soooo i'm not stupid. i know which rachel started it. how involved were you in the drama of your high school? not at all. do you like to cuddle while you are sleeping? all night, no. when jason and i were dating, i would usually begin sleeping cuddled with him, but would pull away during the night because i got hot. what are you favorite places to be touched?  i'm guessing you mean sexually? personally my breasts are very sensitive to touch. do you like lip biting? again, in a sexual context? sure. describe your first date. jason took mom and me to see "ghost rider 2." i personally thought it was very cute that he wanted mom to come, too. what really goes on in your head? memories, poisoned with remorse. i'm always looking back and missing how things used to be. death and decay goes on in my head. passions pass away, and the darkness that i try so hard to keep in the back of mind envelops its entirety more and more each time i weaken. i don't mean to sound all dark or poetic, it's just... how i describe things. i wish just one person would understand exactly what's happening up there. do other people’s opinions mean anything to you? sometimes. have you ever just wanted to run away to see who would follow? i have run away, and nearly got the police on my ass. have you ever had a hamster as a pet? multiple times. all were assholes. who do you really need in your life? jason. yet he's not here. way down in there’s any part of you sad at all? all parts of me are sad. what’s your favorite type of insect? i really love butterflies, moths, dragonflies, ladybugs... is there anything worrying you right now? if so, have you talked to anyone about it? when am i not worried... i'm so scared jason won't come back. the last person i talked to about it was virginia, his mom. i was suicidal last night and was very, very sincerely contemplating killing myself, and i wanted to talk to him, because i feel like he's the only one who can talk me out of it. so i found their number and called their house past midnight. i talked to virginia; jason had just gone to bed, and she didn't want to wake him up. she's such a sweet woman... she tried so hard to help, but it was all in vain. apart from sleeping, what do you plan to do tonight? cry, i'm sure. does anyone see you as a role model? i'm certain that's a no. what is something that you’ve recently learned? it's very likely i have bpd. what is your most expensive possession? the laptop jason gave me... but it's broken right now. what’s the worst sickness you’ve ever had? aside from mental illness, the worst physical illness was just a REALLY bad stomach virus. i've never even had the flu. are you excited to pick out your wedding dress one day?  if i ever get married... then yeah. it's one of my fairytales. what kind of music do you tend to like? heavy metal, some harder rock. do you have any mental disorders? and they're going to kill me. do you believe everything happens for a reason? fuck that. do you know anyone who married their high school sweetheart? yes. do you live in the moment? i live in the past. how many more minutes until you will next eat? i should've eaten an hour ago. but i'm too upset to be hungry. what do/did you normally get detentions for? i only ever got detention for too many tardies. what do you currently hear? "i don't love you" by my chemical romance, my typing, my sniffling, and my heart pounding in my head. do you ever worry about what the world will be like when you have kids? i won't have kids anyway. i don't even know why i'm spending my time doing this survey. i'm procrastinating on looking for any sleeping pills in the house. i'm done. do you like the band a skylit drive? i like their cover of "love the way you lie" who’s someone you want to see right now? jason. he could stop this. i know he could. have you ever been stung by anything? no, i haven't. have you ever parked in a handicapped spot when you weren’t supposed to? no, i fucking hate people who do that. are you paranoid? only always. (next week) are you currently learning from anyone how to play any instruments? nope. would you rather be able to teleport or freeze time? which one seems best? hmmm. teleport, i guess. do you like soda pop? if so, which is your favorite and least favorite? i sadly do. i loooove mountain dew, and i really hate pepsi. does it annoy you when surveys ask questions about controversial topics, or do you like arguing your point? i like controversial questions, honestly. i like making a point. are there any specific piercings you would never, ever get done? the only piercing i would never get, even for a ludicrous amount of money, is around my private area. nope. assuming you had sufficient funds, would you be capable of living alone, paying bills and looking after yourself properly? honestly, no. probably not. do you know anyone who had to have tubes put in their ears as a baby? meeee! were either of your parents baptized? idk the last concert that you were at, was there a mosh pit? ha ha omg, a mosh pit at an alice cooper concert in north carolina... that'd be a sight to see. does your bathroom have a theme to it? nope. when you are eating fast food, do you tend to get burgers or chicken? burgers, almost always. are you self-conscious of your smile? yes, because my eyes squint. what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings? writing. sometimes drawing. what color do you really want to dye your hair? GRAY. mom won't let me. :( sunrise or sunset? sunset is prettier, imo. what’s something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing? i love some of the petnames colleen calls me, honestly. it's just sweet. what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks. socks suck. period. i avoid them at all costs. have you ever shaved in the kitchen sink? how flexible you think i am, fam? do you play the wii? very rarely. be honest, did fifty shades of grey arouse you in any way? i didn't read/watch it, and i have no plans to. do have faith in yourself? lmao did you parents know what gender you were before you were born? i'm not sure, actually. i do know, however, everyone first thought i was a boy; i always had my legs crossed in the ultrasound. mom, however, "knew" i was a girl. does your mother still take care of you if you get ill? not really. like i guess if i called her to get me some ginger ale or something, she'd do it, but i kinda just take care of myself. is there a certain topic that you struggle to talk about, because it makes you feel uncomfortable? not really. if you’re not in college, why? because i mentally cannot handle the stress it causes. do you try to avoid burping in public, or are you open about it? after all, it is a normal bodily function. i'm very discreet about it normally, just because of social standards. around family and very close friends, i don't give a shit. do you like regular peppermint candy canes, or do you prefer different flavored ones [fruits, bubble gum, cinnamon, etc.]? i like the fruity flavors. what do you think is the dumbest / tackiest piercing? i don't really know. have you ever requested a song on the radio? no. would you ever dye your hair black? i have before and i loved it. when did you last see the person you love/like? when will you next see them? i saw him yesterday... and i probably never will again... is there a member of the opposite sex on your mind atm? do you think that person will be thinking about you too? he always is, and i can absolutely guarantee he's not thinking about me. do you know the star sign of the last person you kissed? he's an aquarius, like me. what’s the naughtiest thing you’ve ever done, and you got away with it? got sexual on my parents' bed, i guess. who was the last person of the opposite sex to make you smile? are you attracted to that person? jason, and yeah... do you currently have any medicine in your bag / purse / etc? if so, what kind? no, i'm not allowed to. i overdosed the other day. what do you like on your pasta / noodles? sauce, butter, grated cheese, etc.? sauce, always. are you weary of displaying signs of affection for your significant other around adults? why or why not? no, because love should be very openly celebrated. do you think teenagers can be in love? absolutely. i was and still am now from the same relationship as an adult. how fast does your mood change? 0-100 real quick, boo. at this moment in time if you HAD to have someone’s name tattooed on you who’s would it be? uhhh... literally no one's. i just wouldn't. well uh, i guess if it was life or death, uhhh... probably jason's, honestly?? but realistically, i never would get anyone's?? what’s your all-time favorite COMEDY movie? hm. maybe "white chicks" or "rush hour 2" how old is your most recent ex? he's 23. how many keys are on your key chain? two how does your hair look right now? it's all big and suuuuper curly!!! chelsea did it. :D does your house have a white picket fence? nope. do you wear bracelets? no, never. when was the last time you had sex? never. #regret do you have a wild side? only j's seen it, honestly... heh. what is your favorite thing about going to your grandma’s house? literally. nothing. who did you last have an alcoholic drink with? chelsea. good day. where do you plan on living within the next few years? probably the same 'ole north carolina. do you have an addiction? debatably the internet, but i honestly consider it more of a dependence. if you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be? 2016, absolutely. do you believe you should change who you are for the person you love? to a degree, sure. when you’re home alone, do you still keep the door closed when you shower? the bathroom door is open, my room door is closed. do you currently have a hickey? i wish ha ha. now your cell phone, what color is it? black. how many times have you gotten into a argument with the last person you kissed? plenty of times. what color is your hair? ruby red, with redder highlights and brown roots coming in. your parents are divorced/married/separated? divorced have you ever let someone be your everything? and i'm a broken person because of it. do you think that you’re good enough for the one you like? no. he made it clear i deserve to suffer for giving up. have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms? ahhh, yes. (: have you ever had a boyfriend/girlfriend who was depressed? no. do you like sitting on the inside or outside of a restaurant booth? inside. feel safer/cozier. have you ever had sex or something like it? something like it, sure, but not actual sex. have you ever worn fishnets? i don't think so... but maybe for dance? do you always wear your seat belt? yep. have you ever liked someone much older than you? not seriously. are there any diseases/health problems that run in your family? oh god. heart disease, high cholesterol, high blood pressure, asthma, cancer, depression, bipolarity, more shit i'm forgetting... do you have asthma? no. are tongue piercings slutty? ... no? last person to take off your pants, besides you? jason. when you get colds, do you use nasal spray to help get your nose unstuffy? yep. what’s your second favorite color? pink, probably. how many times have you been so drunk you didn’t remember the night before? never. what sexual kinks do you personally enjoy, if any? i actually had to look up some kinks bc idk if some things are considered kinks or not? evidently even something as common as spanking is, and i'm into that very mildly. anr (i think that's be abbreviation, probably wrong...) is something that's like guaranteed to turn me on. i also like feeling/acting sexually submissive in general, but i deeefinitely wouldn't consider it to the point of the dom/sub kink. ever faked an orgasm? no. own some type of work out machine? not anymore. ever wanted to be a vet? i did as a child, yes. ever flashed someone you liked? i maybe have to jason, while alone with him, but even then i'm not certain i ever have. ever had a job? if so, what and for how long? first job i had for a month or two. second, like, four days. do you have a favorite sexual position, even if you’re a virgin? missionary is all i've ever tried and i'm fine with that. ever done oral? with how many people? yes, one. what condom brand do you use? i don't use them because i don't have sex. on the one occasion jason bought condoms just to be safe in case we chose to, i'm not sure what brand he got... do you use flavored/scented/glow-in-the-dark/neon/ribbed condoms? again, i don't use them, but also once more, on the one occasion jason bought some, they were just normal. what about facebook - do your grandparents use facebook? my maternal grandmother does. do you have any text messages from your ex, or have you deleted them all? no. the phone i've had i got after the breakup, so. tell me 3 facts about the first person you had a relationship with. i've "dated" three people, but i've definitely only had a romantic relationship with one, so i'm using him in this question. he loves games of all kinds, he's a huge joker (particularly heath ledger's) fan, and he's studying computer engineering/he's in his last semester. think about your last ex. do you still find him/her attractive? he's very handsome, yes. do you regret kissing the last person you kissed? i never will. have you ever wanted to be a teacher? nope. if someone were to ask you out right now, would you say yes? the only person i'd say yes to would be jason. what was the last thing you took medication for? my tremors. if someone offered you sex right now, how would you respond? again, i'd only yes to jason. do you think you’ve found the person you want to spend the rest of your life with? i don't think i found the person, i know i did. yet i can't. be honest, what do you want more than anything at this moment in time? i just want to cuddle with jason. have you had any conversations recently that made you feel uncomfortable or upset? i talked to jason, face-to-face, two days ago to assist me in gaining closure. very long story short, i was quiiite upset after he left. what’s the farthest away from home you have ever been? michigan the last person you had a thing with calls wanting to hang out. what do you do? say "of course!" in probably the most excited voice ever. what is your favorite shade of blue? hmm. navy, i assume. what ozzy lyric describes you best? a suRVEY QUESTION REGARDING MY FAVORITE ARTIST??? HELL YEAH!! anyway, i've felt a resonance with "you don't have to leave the lights on; i'm so used to being blind" from "tomorrow" for many years. what was the most important decision you made that screwed up your life the most? giving up on just that: life. what is love really about? it's science, but also something inexplicable. it's the perfect combination of your brain's "happy hormones," and only that one person can achieve that certain mixture. granted, there are different kinds of love, and each one is unique. what metallica lyric most describes your life? wHO FUCKING WROTE THIS, ANOTHER QUESTION W/ ANOTHER FAVORITE ARTIST??? I WANNA MARRY THE SURVEY MAKER PLS. um anyway let's see, i could really list a few. first, i wanna say i feel a VERY strong connection to "the unforgiven ii" as a whole; all the lyrics mean very much to me. but if you want a particular lyric, these couple mean the world: "how can i be lost, if i've got nowhere to go? / and how can i blame you, when it's me i can't forgive?" from "the unforgiven iii" omgggg i could keep going on ;-; ever been to ozzfest? girl, I WISH. what's the most illegal thing you've done? just downloading music. wait actually, probably downloading an expensive program illegally. ever have a tornado in your town? i don't think so. what percentile of your class were you in? idk about numbers, but the very top. i got an award for it. idk what ever happened... can you name every place you've ever had sex? i've never had sex, but i've gotten sexual on my bed, his bed, the floor, the couch, the chaise... what forms of birth control have you used? abstinence is... pretty flawless. handcuffs or rope :D? errr, i'm guessing you're addressing being tied up sexually? i'm... kinda into the idea of being handcuffed to something, maybe. *shrugs* ever grown any plants before? what were they? habaneros, zinnias, sunflowers... how many times did you intentionally start to commit suicide? three. i was going to slit my throat on two occasions, and on the last, i overdosed. what is your favorite cover song? "hurt" by johnny cash. "another brick in the wall" by korn is a close second. ever raise a child that wasn't your own for more than 3 months? nope. strangest medical procedure ever performed on you? idk, i guess just getting tubes put in my ears. if you ever got a tattoo, where would you get it? i already have three and want loads more like... everywhere. most specifically though, i think sternum tattoos are drop-dead gorgeous. could you ever go vegetarian? no. i enjoy meat too much. how do you fall asleep? [i.e, listening to music, reading, daydreaming…] just thinking... have you ever been chased by bees? omg no. what is your opinion on homosexuality? it's a mutation, but that does not make it wrong. what is your biggest fear in life? being alone in life. not being able to function properly in the "real world" is a close second. when was the last time you kissed someone? 2015 are you sick quite often or hardly at all? hardly at all. proud of that 'ole immune system. has anyone suspected you of being a different sexuality? apparently. do you like chocolate or vanilla cake more? chocolate, definitely. does it bother you to have blood drawn or not so much? no, but i actually have noticed something: it began to bother me ever so slightly more after jason passed out from me getting my blood taken that one time. i think it's because of how i look up to and see him in general, seeing him react to something like that, a part of my brain wants to believe "omg that has to be dangerous then." but in general, i don't really have issue with getting my blood drawn. who would you say is your best friend at the moment? colleen. always. how long have you two been best friends? over two years. do you sometimes think you aren’t as fortunate as others? it's not something i dwell on, but i know i'm not. have you ever tried opening your eyes under water? i have, and i'm bad at it. have you ever been admitted to the hospital? only six times. what would you say is your favorite type of flower? tiger lilies, i think. how old is your pet? teddy is ten, cali isss... three, i think, bentley's not even a year, and lexi is around two, probs. do you listen to artists who consist more of guys, girls, or both? i seem to prefer male artists. what’s your first tattoo? a semicolon butterfly on my right wrist. what song do you listen to when you’re sad? "perfectly flawed" by otep is common. hence my tattoo. <3 is there a person in your life that can always make you smile? not anymore. are you scared about the end of the world? not really, because i don't think i'll be around to see it. will you ever get a tattoo? i have three and want more. my next tattoo will be an adaptation of "denialism" by deviantart's tatchit. look it up, it is honestly a phenomenal work of art. when you get yelled at, do you yell back or let it go? well first, i get triggered. yelling triggers memories of my parents fighting so much. odds are, i'll yell back, but it really depends. do you share a computer with your siblings? nooo. do you have mood swings? badly. do you have any bruises on you? yes, from getting my blood drawn so much recently. the iv left a good one. have you had sex today? girl, i wish. has the last person you kissed ever made you cry? plenty of times. be honest with yourself, are you proud of your actions? some yes, some no. it just. varies. for the most part, i guess so, like i can't deny i'm a fighter, but i just feel weak sometimes. if you had to get a tattoo on your face to save your life, what would it be? honestly, i would get a tiny heart on the side of my face if it wasn't for societal standards and the strong odds of unemployment for having a tat on my face. what is something you find romantic? flowers, picnics, walks in the park, oh man, i could go on for HOURS. you can make SO many things romantic. what makes you attracted to the person you like right now? his personality. what, if anything, is too serious to be joked about? rape is #1 for me. just don't. would you rather live in a castle or a spaceship? castle, hell yeah!! has someone ever made you a build-a-bear? OMG NO I WOULD DIE THAT'D BE PRECIOUS what are your initials? bmd, or bmcd if you want my catholic name. what is your definition of “having sex”? penal-vaginal penetration. who was the last person you were “in a relationship with” on facebook (including anyone you may have put “in a relationship with” for a joke)? jason. do you think a relationship with a 16-year-old girl and a 35-year-old man would work out? do you think age differences like that (when they’re under 18) should be legal? they should absolutely not be legal. just... no. i don't support big age gaps like that. what do you think of open relationships? if your partner suggested it, what would you say? HA. no. and if he suggested it, i'd leave his ass. would you ever date out of your race? mhmm. have you ever had a reptile for a pet? i've had one lizard, two snakes. what kinds of alcohol do you like? only ever tried mike's hard lemonade and smirnoff, and both are fine. did you have a swing set when you were a kid? yup. state you most want to visit? utah. fucking gorgeous. were you popular in high school? definitely not. would you rather be blind or deaf? blind, definitely. i once asked jason this and he said blind, too, "because i have to be able to hear your voice." ;;;-;;; where do you want to live when you are old? in the mountains, in the woods, in the chilly weather, pls. have you ever been in love? absolutely. with reckless abandon. have you ever caught a fish? many many times. what was your most recent ex’s middle name? alex. do you put anything weird on your scrambled eggs? (like syrup) just hot sauce. what is your states minimum wage? $7.25, save us.

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A Fusion Of A Cold Love pt.7 (Jungkook ) M

“BTS member : jungkook x reader

:Jungkook ft.Namjoon

genre: angst/smut/ mature contents / rough sex

summary : it’s killing for a little girl to grow up poor after being a rich spoiled kid ,and it’s more killing when you lost your dad for this reason but being a pretty independent woman who will take what was hers again will be something really hard to get specially when the man who has every thing was jeon jungkook the ice prince …

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Namjoon petted the pretty blond bangs with his hand ,his fingers ran down to the sleepy girl in his lap he didn’t even know who was she ! his lips twitched into a devilish smirk when he heard the man’s in the other side news

“great i’ll be waiting for the next step

he hung up and put the phone in the night stand thoughts of you being jungkook’s girl got the best of him, he never forgot about you , it will seem really weird for him to fall this way into a girl’s filet but he just did blaming his self , his stupid self to fall for you this much but he couldn’t do any thing he needed to fucking ending the young man named jeon jungkook

Namjoon considered his meeting with you as a destiny! two young friends who shared the same obsession who shared the same plans and the same bed

he knew you hated jeon family as much as he did but you finally being near the enemy wasn’t something he was really convinced by , it was your idea any way an he didn’t had a chance

get it all or leave it all that was what he wanted a fucking selfish desire ate him alive to get you back with all what the heir had

patience ..he needed patience to got it and it seemed to be the great moments now to move on

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we will visit my family tonight jungkook let out without stop eating he also didn’t look into your choked eyes

“why shall we “?

“you didn’t visit them since we got married or even call them i thought i was clear with what asked you to do for me as wife wasn’t i ?

you couldn’t protest a flattered feeling sent waves into your body and you immediately dropped the chopsticks

“is there any thing happening with you ? jungkook asked quietly he know it was but he didn’t want to make any kind of pressure

“i’m fine i will go to beauty center with your cousin now see you later “

“Noona,? he chuckled

“yeah she invited me and i can’t say no she is kind

“don’t be late we will leave at six o’clock

“ok

jungkook implanted a kiss in your cheek before going out and you just stood there like a dumb

the whole day was really busy you tried your best to relax when the physiotherapist moved her fingers on your back like a butterfly sending relaxation in all your nerves...

“ Relin ssi ? The sweet voice penetrated in your mind and you opened your eyes

"Ah Hana unnie you grinned moving to sit on the massage chair "are you feeling better you slept for two hours are you alright?

" omg did i i don’t have so much time jungkook will take me at 6 o’clock ! you jumped on your feet and put on the bath robe

Hana giggled and followed you “don’t run girl you still have time to get ready

what about you go now and fix your hair ?

“what about my hair!! you stopped looking behind

“why don’t you try to change your hair color ?

“i’m ok with my black hair you shrugged sitting in front of the big mirror legs crossed you pouted looking into the mirror again and again then you looked to Hana beautiful hair

“do you think it will suit me you finally let out asking her for her opinion and she grinned leaving her seat

“sure sweetie you have a beautiful face and a white skin trust me you will be prettier ..

“honey color” you finally said and the stylist nodded and with his magical hands he started to work on your long hair

actually you tried a red color before but you didn’t like it and since years you were pretty familiar with your look because actually you didn’t need any thing to prove how pretty you were

“Min y/N is the prettiest you remembered you mom words and suddenly a wave of emotions hit you

i’m done Miss you can turn now the young man said with a hyper voice he looked excited ,you looked up to jungkook’s cousin and her eyes were really chocked

“what ? is it that bad! oh no! what can i do now? is there any way to fix it before 6 o’clock you looked to the man and he busted of laughing his hands just turn the chair and you were face to face with your new self now

“you gulped eyes like balls looking into the mirror admiring the new look you got the smirk in your lips when you think about jungkook reaction was obvious in your face

“i’m not sure if you will stay too much in my uncle house sweetie “Hana teased you cutely and you blushed

thank you

jungkook finished showering and he decided to wear a pair of black jeans a timberland and a maxi khaki coat

he just starting lacing up his shoes when he heard your steps coming closer the opened door

“sorry did you wait for so long ? you asked standing in your heels in front of him

“no it’s ok we’re not..la..te... jungkook’s voice became a rustling as he looked up

you could easily feel his twitched breath and his eagle eyes

“shall we go now ? you hissed and he grabbed the coat “sure let’s go

you felt uneasy coming again to the house but jungkook was circling your waist it looked like he felt that

“it’s ok if you weren’t comfortable you can just tell me but please don’t get sick “

you nodded avoiding his look you didn’t want him to see the weak part of you

well for some one feeling stressed and scared like you now it was weird that you were having a good time listening to your mother in law sweet talk she looked happy , she seemed a good woman even jungkook was a good guy the fucking mistake here was his dad’s presence

actually he didn’t look that much focusing as he was reading a newspaper but he looked like a strong statue and for some reason you started to doubt your self

listen dears tonight both of you will stay here and please don’t even try to protest

she said before you even get a chance to protest and suddenly a wave of emotions hit you again you could know you were sweating and jungkook was hugging his mom’s back the way he didn’t look at you

you begged him to notice

gulping some water you saw his father going out the living room after he just say his greeting

“sweetheart take your wife to your bed room i need to go check you dad he had medicines to get “Mrs Jeon explained and hugged your frozen body gently

“i’m happy because you are making my son’s life better “

you hugged her back trying not to faint in front of the man who were looking at both of you and his mother

jungkook chuckled and took your hand he noticed how cold it was actually he was right ,his mom request was the reason and this was an other reason making him eager to know why are you trying to avoid this place

he wasn’t a dumb..

y/N he whispered “come here you will be ok he reassured you and you nodded

both walking towards the stairs you remembered when your mother ran after you trying to chase you and you just made it to your room up there you gulped feeling dizzy

“jungkook you hissed feeling scared ‘it’s not late to run away Min y/N you thought backing up

“you promised me to be okay , why don’t you tell me about the problem why are you feeling uneasy here what’s the matter just tell me !!

you pitied him his eyes full of worries and concern were all you wanted to lock your self in that black ocean of his orbs

“i’m sorry you whispered before every thing went black

two hours passed and you woke up in the unfamiliar bad the only thing you noticed was jungkook smell in the pillow you were hugging you turned your head looking into the new details the room was really the same style in your other house

it was jungkook’s style the colors and furniture you touched your forehead and trying to sit

looking at your bare legs and the over sized shirt you know it was him

where is him? a sudden feeling of loneliness hit you and you just wanted to sleep into his arms you wanted to broke into him hugging him and crying into his lap you wanted to feel his kisses in all your face you wanted him

a hot tear skipped your lashes looking like a dumb when you heard jungkook coming closer he was shirtless and his pants was dangerously low

you noticed his frowned forehead as he looked at you

you gulped thinking to run and threw your stupid self into his arms but you felt paralyzed

“ are you ok now enough sleeping !come here you need to relax a little bit he said and took you bridal style heading to the bathroom

your eyes widened gripping into his neck you couldn’t believe what your eyes dropped on

the bath tub was full of rose petals while the scented candles were making the place nicer the smell of lavender calmed your stressed soul and for an other time you wanted to forget your self and live the moment

jungkook sat on the edge and took of his shirt off your body then he kissed your temple feeling exciting your body shivered because of his gaze that tender one burning your skin

“i.. you tried to talk

“shhhh don’t say any thing just try to relax he let out and moved to tied up your hair into a bun “you look beautiful.. i mean prettier

you nodded continuing looking to the bath tub when u felt jungkook unhooked your bra you looked into his eyes nose barely brushing his

“are you ok?”he asked wanting youto confirm hisnext step

“yeah you said and he continued undressing you then placed you into the warm water

you rested your legs in the surface still holding jungkook’s hand

“don’t leave me “your begging voice made him grin

“i’m not he said and unbelt his pants and dragged them off along with his briefs

placing his naked form behind you , jungkook made you rest into his lap and started to create bubbles of soap to wash your body

you closed your eyes feeling quiet the calming smells around you ,jungkook’s arms his relaxed breath could only mean one thing to you

Peace..

“how are you feeling now ?” jungkook asked you wrapping the towel around your thin body he placed his hands into your hips waiting for your answer but you didn’t say any thing you ran out of words

“it’s alright babe he chuckled and dragged you to the room helping you to wear your lingerie and the shirt he gave to you you struggled hard to not let him do but he just said he wanted to take care of you

sighing you looked at your hot form into the mirror “who’s lingerie are this? you asked looking at him wearing his shirt

“yours i bought it for you when we were preparing for our wedding

“really you raised your brow

“yep really and there are more in the locker

you grinned feeling amused about how did he just did it ,

“come here you need to rest “ he said and you just followed him to bed

placing his frame in the bed, jungkook rested his head in the pillow looking to the ceiling, he blinked several times before he noticed the eyes looking to his face

moving his head to your direction he couldn’t resist that stare into your eyes he wanted to bite your lips

“why aren’t you sleeping ?” he whispered and gasped, eyes widened as you rolled in top of him resting your head in his neck you hugged him trying to pull him closer “thank you jungkook !

you heard him chuckling

i’ll be glad staring to your beautiful form , if you accepted to shower with me every day he joked and you raised your head to meet his eyes before you allowed your dry lips to rest into jungkook’s one

you kissed him so deeply grinning as he kissed you back with the same tension both needy for each other touch jungkook massaged your back and hips biting your lips for several time he knew you were horny for him as much as he was for you

turning you underneath him jungkook looked deeply into your eyes and got down to kiss you “fuck”..

you opened your eyes feeling better even you remembered where you were a happy smile twitched in your lips when you found out that jungkook was still sleeping soundly in the bed

looking to his manly face you gulped feeling the need to hug him hit you again

this was more than a pure sexual desire, going back to last night memory you covered your face trying not to giggle

you were going crazy

getting up and took a quick shower before jungkook woke up you drifted to the dressing section taking your clothes

your eyes widened at how much clothes he got for you

morning “ a raspy voice came from behind you and you looked at him

morning “

both got ready and you asked jungkook to go and have break fast outside , you wanted to leave as soon as you could and he nodded

come here he took your hand and you went out the room

looking to the familiar corridor your eyes dropped in your room’s door and your feet stopped

“jungkook who’s room is this?? you said pointing at the door

“i don’t know i never entered it it was closed since we moved here he explained and your eyes widened feeling needy for more explanation

“why?!! “

“i don’t know dad said we aren’t allowed to use or enter there he shrugged and took you downstairs

as your mother in law refused you going before eating you found your self getting forced to stay and eat with them but fortunately her husband wasn’t there she said he had some works to do

y/N do you want to walk outside with me? jungkook suggested and you nodded

both were walking in the huge garden

you know my parents never change any thing about this place even this roses you are seeing and i still don’t know why

jungkook said and you felt sorry for him but more angry

if it wasn’t you dad maybe we were happier now !!you wanted to cry out but you chocked in your throat

“it’s nice and nostalgic you answered him and he chuckled

you look different you said and continued “ who knows all this side of you too jungkook?

“which sides? he said trying to be more serious but it was late for him to act

you waited for him to answer focusing with his chest that exchanged air you didn’t notice how much close you were to him

“which side you like the most?? he said brushing his nose into yours , breathing the same breath looking to your pink lips he waited for you to tell him

you liked jungkook’s dick , jungkook’s eyes,jungkook’s laugh,jungkook’s frown,seriousness,iced personality,you liked his hand in your hips you liked his lips kissing yours like a hungry wolf you liked his hugs , his smell ,you next to him,you sleeping with him gosh!! you liked all that ... his everything !

you fell in love with the enemy!!

trying to back up and ran away jungkook hands gripped you

“don’t run away and don’t be scared you can just say no”

with a bitter look you wished you would die right now god!! it’s too much “come here” he said and your barely moved your feet to follow him to an other section and it was actually another familiar place

it never change the swing your dad made to you still there a hot tears skipped your eyes and ran in your cheeks but you managed to wipe it before your husband could really notice

“come here

feeling your soul left your body you walked towards him and he placed you in the swing

well try to stay still ,let’s play jungkook pushed the swing back and forth and you giggled remembering how much you played here with your parents

crying out like a child jungkook laughed more seeing your gripping the chains more trying not to fall

“you look like a five years girl right now !!

“and you look like my daddy

“don’t worry if you want to fall ! fall into my lap i ‘ll catch you daddy will catch you.. well he said spreading his arms wide and you giggled,

seconds passed and noticing man pulling into the trigger of the gun straight where jungkook was standing

jungkook !! watch out “ you cried out throwing your self into his lap as he was still spreading his hand for you but jungkook was faster than you to turn around again both rolling in the grass

you sighed the shot was messed as you didn’t feel any pain but

“Jeon jungkook!! you cried again trying to move the man who was on top of you when you felt the warm liquid in your palm

NO!NO! jungkook !!

omg i’m a bitch -_- !!

i’m sorry guys kkk

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