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my--moon · 3 days

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My story.

I have never told anyone this ever. None of my friends know, so this is the first time I've spoken about it. So here it goes I guess.

To the anons in my asks, threatening to slit my throat or rape me or asking to be my sugar daddy. I'd like to tell you a little something.

I am a rape victim as of age six.

Age six.

Six years old.

It was an older cousin, he said we should play truth or dare. It started as me being dared to do a cartwheel (I couldn't).

Then it started to get less innocent. He started to ask me to take a photo of him. When I said yes, he tried to slip his pants off.

He didn't go through with this idea though.

Later, he asks me to play a special game. Where I'd take my clothes off and he'd draw pictures on me with his finger

He started at my shoulder and went down to my clit.

I eventually screamed out to my aunt, who was out smoking at the time. She saw the scene and my cousin tried to run away.

He packed his stuff and threatened to kill himself while walking away. At 10:34pm at night.

I, was crying because I thought I did something wrong. I tried to fall asleep and when I wake up my mother's right there, taking me back to the car.

I haven't seen my cousin since then and I never plan to.

I don't fucking care if it was a game or a joke. What he did was wrong and it has affected me deeply, now every time I see a older boy even close to resembling his appearance or mannerisms—

I get hateful, I become rude to them. Calling them bitches before they can get close to me.

Now, I get scared anytime I see an older boy comes close to 5 meters near me. I'm scared it'll happen again.

I'm afraid to go on school camps without someone I know constantly with me because what if it happens again?

These what ifs drown my mind constantly. It shouldn't be like this.

I wish I wasn't like this, but it's not my fault for acting like this anyway.

So to those bitches in my asks or 12 people in my messages asking to send nudes, please fuck off and never interact with me or my mutuals.

— signed @my--moon.

#TW rape #tw sa #tw abuse #vent post #anti rape #sa mention #tw #trauma #sa vent #sa survivor #sa tw #women shouldn't be afraid of you.

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it-never-gets-better · 7 months

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MY BODY TURNED INTO A CORPSE WHEN YOU TOUCHED IT VIOLENTLY.

#actuallymentallyill #actuallytraumatized #sa vent #complex ptsd #sa awareness #actually ptsd #physical abuse #sa survivor #tw csa #csa implied

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dying-weeds · 1 year

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I feel like it's not talked enough about how SA really strips you of your identity. Like someone violates your basic humanity and you're left to deal with the aftermath of having everything you are as a person taken away from you. It makes you feel subhuman.

#tw sa #tw sa implied #sa vent #vent #trauma #sa survivor #tw ptsd #actuallyabused #actually cptsd #actually ptsd #actuallytraumatized #trauma vent

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sickmuseum · 1 year

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I am sitting down in the shower It is this dirty type of clean That keeps me trapped in here for hours Still, I scrub and scrub until my body bleeds Convince myself I am coming clean Forget and ignore who I used to be That kid is never coming back

Bathtub - The Front Bottoms.

#cocsa survivor #sa survivor #csa survivor #sa awareness #cocsa vent #sa vent #cocsa victim #sa victim #sad writing #vent

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imtheworst-imsorry · 3 months

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I think part of me is still trapped on that couch...

#vent #vent art #actuallytraumatized #trauma #trauma vent #tw sa #sa vent #ventcore #ptsd #my art #my edit #(yes this is the actual couch yes it took me forever to find a photo of that room yes it was awful looking at it to make this)

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unstablemotions · 2 months

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Being simultaneously sex repulsed AND hypersexual in the same moment is painful. I feel gross and want to puke but also I just need to get off and I want someone to use me

#sa vent #csa vent #tw sa #tw csa #my posts #personal #actually hypersexual

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cantthinkstraightcuzimnot · 9 months

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I'd rather rot in hell for the eternity instead of lowering my head for a god that allowed all of this

#religious trauma #csa vent #sa trauma #sa vent #trauma #vent tag #trauma core #ventcore

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victim4life · 8 months

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factumnihil2 · 1 year

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to anyone feeling depersonalization, uh, i have a sentiment. even though it doesn't feel like it's yours, your body is gonna protect you.

#csa vent #csa victim #csa recovery #csa survivor #sa recovery #sa vent #trauma #trauma vent #said this to a friend in discord and they said it was comforting #and my goal with this blog is to help ppl recover.#and comfort is part of that.#if you Are said friend in discord. pls dont leak my blog where i post explicitly abt my trauma #pls n ty

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flowersbark · 3 months

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having a complicated relationship with sex/sexual things after sa is so weird because like . it'll be 1 am and ill be switching through apps and ill be thirsting over a character and then ill open tumblr and i remember everything bad shes ever done to me

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yuricin · 6 months

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"they're a minor" "they're just a kid" being a minor isn't an excuse to abuse and traumatize people, dumbass. you're too focused on the fact that they're a kid and not holding them accountable instead of paying attention to the person who they hurt.

minors are just as capable of abusing other minors and even adults like anyone else. but this shit is always glossed over because "they're just a kid"

and just because someone is older doesn't mean that they're not capable of being abused by someone younger.