I moved into Baby's First House last year and I'd been saving for quite a while to have a down payment and some money for accessibility modifications, but what with the housing boom and COVID-era price increases for renovations, I ended up only having enough money for a few of the changes I needed to make.
(Don't worry, I managed to get a stair lift!! That was the biggest one.)
And I gotta tell you, it's amazing how many soul-sucking work situations I've managed to get through in the last six months by going "SARAH, DON'T YOU WANT TO BE ABLE TO SHOWER SAFELY?"
Every time I have to take a shower in that house I end up standing there in immense pain like "and this is why you gotta finish that copyedit on your desk" and it is actually a wildly successful carrot. Or is it the stick? lmao
So uhhh LET'S JUST SAY I've been open to more forms of work lately than I otherwise would be. It's why I gathered up the bravery to enter that writing contest last year, and I mean. Obviously that one paid off. Winning that put a solid chunk into the bathroom fund... even if I had to deal with some weird harassment...
That said, my recent health issues have also made writing/editing a lot more difficult lately... So it's kind of a catch-22, huh... My accessibility needs have made it so I'm willing to work more, but my accessibility needs also prevent me from working as much as I'd like. :|
being disabled kind of sucks lmao
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Serai: Showing Emotion
Carrying Emotion.
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ANGER: jaw clenching, hands balling into fists, teeth grinding, yelling, going nonverbal, stuttering speech, rushed speech, slow concise speech, rambling, quiet, arms crossing, shaking head, tearing up, animated, expressionless, projects, internalizes, vents, withdraws, passive aggressive, direct, physical outbursts, verbal outbursts, foot stompies
JOY: easy smiles, fighting back grins, suppressed laughter, loud laughter, giggles, chuckling, smirks, whole body laughs, covers mouth when laughing/giggling, throws head back when laughing, slaps leg, touches people around them when laughing, looks down when laughing, looks for eye contact when laughing, sparkling eyes, bubbly happiness, quiet subtle happiness, obnoxious happiness, wants to spread joy, quietly savors joy
SADNESS: crying, bottling it up, seeks distractions, wallows, meditates and processes, avoidance, seeks out comfort, withdraws, talks it out, internalizes it, sad smiles, depression naps, uses alcohol, uses drugs, seeks out sources of joy, fidgets with sentimental item, sits in silence, broods, gets moody, wants someone to share the misery, tries to hide negative emotions, nurtures others to make themselves feel better
EMBARRASSMENT/SHAME: blushing, looking away, rubbing at back of head, covering face, laughing nervously, laughs it off, overthinks, lets it go, self deprecating humor, deflects, gets irritated, smiles, withdraws, crossing arms over stomach, crossing arms over chest, hands in pockets, shoulders sinking, shrugs, falling into silence until comfortable again, talking a lot to compensate
GUILT: avoiding eye contact, shoulders sinking low, head hanging down, crying, chest aches, lashes out, internalizes, apologizes, deflects, communicates, withdraws, grand gestures for forgiveness, accepts fault easily, punishes themselves, martyrdom, victim complex, guilt complex, healthy conscience, internalizes even after forgiveness, seeking redemption, moves on easily, denial, lack of guilt/conscience, sorry they got caught more than caused harm, can’t handle knowing they hurt others
FEAR/ANXIETY: trembling, crying, sarcasm/sass to cope, rambles, goes silent, gets angry, fidgeting, clenching jaw, picking at nails, chewing at lip, pulling at clothes, adjusting jewelry/clothing, swallowing thickly, eyes widening, over-reacts, under-reacts, calm, logical, panic, irrational, overthinks, carefully analyses, talks to themselves, breathing exercises, flight, fight, freeze, withdraw, fawn
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