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zxmbievxmit · 3 months

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Okay so because I’m bored and because I just want to talk about my favorite character, here are some Will Solace Headcanons. Some I will elaborate on some I just made up.

- Has the curliest hair (other than Leo)

- Has freckles EVERYWHERE

- Has scars mostly from Tartarus and training

- Sucks at archery (most training scars are from archery)

- Almost always wears flip flops, but on occasion wears sneakers

- The sneakers he does wear are absolutely destroyed / covered in doodles

- Loves dogs especially Golden Retrievers and Australian Shepherds

- Also loves fish and guinea pigs

- Never ever takes off the chain w/ Nico’s ring

- Pretty good at guitar, amazing singing voice

- Has bad ADHD, copes with it by constantly being busy

- Overworks himself a lot

- Gets reenergized from the sun (so do all Apollo kids), sometimes he just sits out in the sun

- Sometimes helps w/ camp plays / musicals

- Listens to Taylor Swift, Conan Gray, Olivia Rodrigo, Mitski?, Laufey, and musicals (not limited to these)

- Terrified of pigeons, but loves other birds. Especially crows, thinks they’re pretty (like Nico)

- Special interests are Star Wars and true crime

- Wear a lot of jewelry, especially earrings. He has a lot of piercings

- Can draw pretty well, especially autonomy but doesn’t draw a lot

- Cries every time he watches Frozen (sibling angst)

- Loves Tangled, loves when people compare him to Rapunzel

- Not picky, will eat anything

- Does kill bugs but Nico refuses to. Saves them every time

- Loves horror movies (especially slasher ones), analyzes the gore and how realistic it is

- Good friends with Leo, Percy, Clarisse, Cecil, Lou Ellen, and Nyssa

- Watches nature documentaries (gets sad when the animals die)

- Was really close to Lee Fletcher and Michael Yew, Michael taught him how to be a medic

- Looks like a surfer boy but sucks at surfing

- Had really blue eyes (blue eyed stare)

- Hair looks golden when the sun hits it

- Has bad nightmares

- All Apollo kids wake up with the sun

- Annotates every book. Has annotated a lot of Nico’s books (Nico loves it)

- Has dyslexia (like most demigods) but loves reading

- Has pretty bad anxiety, but his hands are pretty steady

- Stays calm under pressure most of the time

- Songs that make me think of him: Mirrorball, Summer Child, All American Bitch, Working for the Knife, and From the Start

- Hates hot pink (idk)

- Nico sometimes does his makeup and paints his nails

I have more for other characters (and some more of Will) but that’s all I’m doing rn

#will solace #percy jackson #percy jackson headcanon #percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson heroes of olympus #will solace headcanon

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dana-chan-the-control-brain · 4 months

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Thanks for your response. I was the anon who ended the ask with 'the fandom can suck it'. When I saw that anon who you and twinanimatronics had assumed to be the one that keeps you know starting shit with you, I really hated that they labeled us as shipbrain or whatever they said. I am aroace who finds comfort in shipping characters and that doesn't make me any less aroace. Can't people like them just let us have this, let us share it and stop taping our mouths? God. We are not even hurting anyone. I posted a solarxmoon and solarxearth mini comic thing yesterday and behold, I believe that same anon found it and is looking adamantly through the solarxmoon and even solarxearth because I didn't use the tsams tag for my comic. I took the comic down fast and turned off anon messages so quick because God that anon was quick to leave nasty messages, six in total and that was panic attack inducing. I'm sorry for rambling about this. I don't know anyone else who got that same anon on their back. It looks like they are persistent for lack of better term and it annoys me+scares me. Can't even share things I like about here anymore. Hoping solarxmoon becomes canon so that anon can shut up already

If Solar Moon became canon, they don't even need to change anything.

The actors don't even need to pretend to kiss or be romanically involved at all.

It's literally as simple as "Oh yeah, we were dating for months, anyway..."

OH AND... FUCK THAT ANON. I know the user you are talking about, I think there's around two or three of them... and it seems like they're dead set on hunting down people who use that Solarmoon or Solar x Moon tag.

Going into popular users in the tsams fandom that I personally don't know... and spreading bad lies and rumors about me.

Like, they typically try to keep it as vague as possible, like "oh I am not talking about dana-chan-the-control-brain specifically....." but they often steal the exact wording and turn of phrase I use.

Cause I have an overly wordy way of talking on the internet.

I've always been this way since I was 15, so I feel my style of speaking is pretty overly wordy, rambly and long compared to most people just because I don't have a lot to share with my opinions with in real life. And I also misspell things a lot cus spellcheck has gotten worse since it became AI trained and it doesn't help my dyslexia.

But how sad is that? That someone is searching out the tag for a ship that they don't like, claim that "it's everywhere" and I'm "poisoning the fanbase" when I'm just.... here... playing with my own dolls, doing my own thing.... and not bothering anyone... Not even putting the ship in the tags publicly because I have Such respect and love for the silly little youtube show, who also plays with fnaf characters like they're dolls.

(just saying.. "bio-organic" and interdimensional travel did NOT come from fnaf I can tell you that much. )

And yeah, if they're really stumbling across Solarmoon or these ships on accident.......Blacklist the tags and move on? Don't come to my messages... Don't harass my friends...

And don't harass other people I DON'T EVEN KNOW because someone just said "hehe but what if they kissed" on the internet?

Like blocklist the tag, and move on.

I know the blocklisting tagging system sucks sometimes, so maybe it's picking up "Solar" like in that case? Just scroll super fast and don't look at it?

And yeah. You don't deserve those nasty messages sent your way at all!

Oh, and if you feel brave enough to reupload your art to tumblr and DM me, I will gladly reblog it here. <3

#danachan's rants #danachan's replies #danachan's asks

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flodaya · 4 months

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i’m not that anon from the ask but i’ve seen some people making fun of him mostly because sometimes there’s a few spelling mistakes in his captions and the worst one was from the “my mj” day when he typed “your” instead of “you’re” so yeah there’s a few people with this conception that he’s dumb and not good enough for her just because he has a diagnosis they don’t understand shit about. as a dyslexic person seeing him getting mocked because of it makes me sad because i know what that feels like and not everyone is going to understand or at least try to but anyways

oh i make countless spelling mistakes because of my adhd and lack of attention to those small errors so i get it

but interesting, yeah fair point, so it's less because of his dyslexia directly but because his dyslexia causes him to make mistakes which leads ignorant people to assume he is stupid

meanwhile he clearly is incredibly interested to learn and cultured and loves the same stuff Z loves, it's seriously so upsetting to see literal fans of Z not realize that they both literally work so well together because so many of their interests and most importantly their values align, like too many amazing famous women date some miserable insecure man........ yet they somehow are mad Z isnt dating one of those good for nothing fuckboys

#ask

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stupidsexpotflanders · 5 months

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Thaluke! And clarisse x chris !

Thaluke:

when I started shipping it if I did: When I first read the PJO books,perhaps. I've shipped them almost a decade and half,lol.

my thoughts: I love the canon tragedy of Luke and Thalia,but I also find myself reading cute fics of Thalia and Luke as adults sometimes,lol.

What makes me happy about them: How long-lived the fandom is.

What makes me sad about them: "He's dead,she's immortal".

things done in fanfic that annoys me: Whenever Luke is treated as a punching bag and just takes it. I can see him understand he massively fucked up and accepting people ressenting him,but this is Luke Castellan we're talking about. The guy would at least try to defend himself and/or flee the place.

things I look for in fanfic: Fics where Thalia leaves the Hunt,Luke somehow is alive and they gradually get together,canon be damned.

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: I only ship Thalia with Luke. And age-appropriate Luke/Piper(either a-year-after-the-pinetree Luke/TLH-Piper because they're both 15,or Post-TLO Luke with 19+yo Piper. The latter one seems more possible because Underworld shenanigans).

My happily ever after for them: The thing I look on fics,plus them living a domestic life - slice-of-life,but with all the weirdness seen on the books. The best of both canon and non-canon,if I might.

who is the big spoon/little spoon: They alternate,depending on the mood.

what is their favorite non-sexual activity: Either karaoke or reading. Luke gets books in any language but English(Hermes is the god of language and travelers,so Luke got insta-fluency powers. It takes a bit of a toll on him,tho),Thalia has to settle for audiobooks because her dyslexia is particularly severe. Also,they're both avid ficwriters and get very passionate about their interpretations.

Clarisse x Chris

when I started shipping it if I did: Soon after reading BOTL,lol.

my thoughts: I love how it showed Clarisse's soft side and started her friendship with Silena(and maybe Beckendorf).

What makes me happy about them: How long-lived and dedicated the fandom is.

What makes me sad about them: Nothing really,lol.

things done in fanfic that annoys me: Whenever Silena is inserted as a romantic option for Clarisse. I never liked that pairing,lol.

things I look for in fanfic: Follow up to what happened in later PJO books.

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: No one,lol.

who is the big spoon/little spoon: Clarisse is the little spoon.

what is their favorite non-sexual activity: Watching American Pie-style comedies and practicing competitive sports - both individual and collective. They're both athletic and competitive people.

#pjo #luke castellan #thalia grace #thaluke #clarisse la rue #chris rodriguez #chrisse #clarisse x chris

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candycryptids · 14 days

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■ - Bedroom/house/living quarters headcanon

✿ - Sex headcanon

∇ -. old age/aging headcanon

♒ - cooking/food headcanon

Tangy, all Tangy, give me Tangy Lore

■ - Tangy makes her long-term stay wherever the Scions have settled- the Waking Sands, the Rising Stones, unfortunately missed out on most of The Falling Snow.. while she’s still a much smaller Miqo’te staying in the Waking Sands she insists she doesn’t need much space to sleep, and just has a bunk with a leather bag hanging off one of the posts. Granted, that bunk is piled with blankets and pillows, and she doesn’t even sleep under them; it’s all just lumpy padding for curling up on top of and snoring. (After meeting with Chuu and finding out 1) there was a way to avoid getting arrested after the Banquet fiasco and 2) she could totally be stronger. Totally. And subsequently getting… let’s call it Off-Brand-Fantasia’d, she needs a bit more space.. she stops snoring most of the time, though. Having more snout apparently makes it easier to not snore!) She doesn’t ever keep an apartment of her own, but she does sometimes trek from Revenant’s Toll to Vesper Bay to check in on the old haunt, since Urianger seems keen to Never Leave. lmao.

This gets real long so here’s a cut for the sake of the dashboards lol (good lort there’s images down there…)

✿ - She’s Asexual! In that she doesn’t feel sexual attraction towards people, but she does enjoy the act? It’s a good way to relieve stress and it’s fun exercise and it’s a nice way to bond with others.

She does, however, struggle with the ‘Oops’ part of Chuu’s ‘Fantasia’ which was giving her a body with a dick :T There’s a learning curve. (Among other curves. Wink? Sorry dndndndnfke) Also, not necessarily sex, but she probably kisses her friends. Because she cares about them! Cheek kisses, lip kisses, forehead and top of head kisses… hand kisses… Kisses :)

Yda and Tangy pose is [Glomp Tackle] with fresh expressions but the rest are all custom done ;w; oh also shader is Neneko’s Love… I think.. 🫢 it’s all the same one 🤦 I just forgot to write it down

∇- I genuinely think Tangy gets a handle on Accounting by hanging out with Tataru so much over the years. It keeps Tataru’s mind off worrying about everybody as much while they’re away on business, and Tangy gets to wrinkle her brain (this takes. Such a long time though. She’s still not reliable for it, either, but she’s passable :3) .. for a proper aging headcanon tho I think as she gets older she becomes an anchor point for the Scions like Tataru is. Sets up shop and trains young adventurers in combat and cooking and camping. Her whiskers twitch when thunderstorms are brewing. She still sometimes needs nudging from her own students on things, but it’s usually in things relating to Reading. I feel like she has pretty bad dyslexia and maybe even dyscalculia that she’s just learned to deal with.

♒- LOVES food. Loves to eat. Loves to help with cooking. Measuring ingredients for recipes is actually pretty easy since it’s not demanded exactness, it’s just “half of this cup, level this cup, just enough to cover the bottom of this pan,” like, not exact. You feel cooking with your heart. And kneading bread is an excellent and fun work out to her. Can not bake.. Kinda wishes she could. She’s just not precise enough, and she gets the order in which things have to be done mixed up, so she ends up with some pretty…. Not exactly inedible but…. 🫢 It’s not appetizing looking.. and it doesn’t taste great… She’s not a picky eater, but she hesitates to eat snails. It just makes her a little sad, cos they’re cute to her. And then she eats them anyways =w=; the chef worked hard to make this delicious meal and she’s gonna eat it! (And not eating the snails would waste their life so. Honor their sacrifice and eat them.) Her favorite food is whatever she can eat with her hands/whatever’s in front of her at the time, and any of F’lahminn’s cooking. Even if it’s burnt.

[shout out to Elio for their Dango Props they’re so cute]

Oh shit I forgot to link the [Ask Meme]

#ffxiv Tangy #Tangy Tangeroos #ffxiv Miqo’te #ffxiv Hrothgar #ffxiv Minfilia #ffxiv Urianger #ffxiv Thancred #ffxiv Tataru #ffxiv Yda #ffxiv Papalymo #ffxiv F’lahminn #I ran out of bone juice to pose more than stuff for this ask but it was so fun FR #you can feel the steam running down with F’lahminn I had to fight Urianger for half an hour don’t ask me why #she/her the whole time tho.#gender like a steel trap.#I have been rotating this ask all day like a super sparkly marble and being like :3 :3 :3 #I didn’t want to pose FemHroth tangy cos… I kno it’s comin. would rather just wait for the official thing to come out lol.#she got darker brown because I had to rebuild miqo tangy from scratch. I couldn’t quite color pick the right shade but I don’t think #it’s bad >_>;

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thebestofoneshots · 24 days

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I'm honestly so exited for the next chapter of GC!!!

If you had any advice for anyone wanting to write a maurauders fic what would it be?

THE INTERLUDE PT. 2

Hey Darling! I think my advice to anyone who wants to write, not just fanfiction for the Marauders, but anything in general, is that you must do three things:

Pay attention to your surroundings

This one is important because there are stories developing around us at all times, and these stories can be both inspiring and insightful. You have to look at people. But to really look at them. How does sadness look? How does desperation? What about happiness and excitement? What about love?

Paying close atention to the way people react to things, to the way their faces move and to the way they try to stop them from it, is what gives you a real outlook on all these things and helps you with the classic "show don't tell" aspect of writing. (You can also fo this by watching movies, it doesn't have to be just real people).

Sometimes what I do, is very much like method acting. What I mean by this is that I try to feel my character's emotions in my own body so I can write their reactions, did they furrow their brows? Did they shed a tear or two? Sometimes it takes a heavy toll, but personally. I like living the story as I write it.

Read a LOT

Now, I've got dyslexia and I'm a slow as fuck when reading, but still, I try to read as much as I can, especially now, I've been reading a lot of old classics, the likes of Frankenstein, Dracula, The Picture of Dorian Grey, Midsummer Night's Dream, and even some other not so classics like The Secret History.

I'm currently reading The Brothers Karamazov and I especially pay attention to new vocabulary (English is not my first language but feels like it at this point) and yet, sometimes when we read we skip past words that we allude a meaning due to context but we don't actually pay atention to them.

I mean did you know the black suit with white neckline that priests use is actually called a "cassock"? I had no idea, so thank you Dostoyevsky for teaching me that. (Comes in handy for that Priest!Remus fic I'm working on, if you know what I mean).

But yes, read a lot. You know Virginia Wolf once said:

"Read a thousand books and your words will flow like a river"

And trust me, she was onto something, nowadays I find myself using words that just in 2023 I wouldn't have even thought of, and that's just like a 6 books difference. And I know some of you all are incredibly fast readers! (Someone literally read the 300K words of GC in two days, not even in my dreams would I be able to do that).

So use that to your advantage and take out your books. Or read on ePub on your phone, that works just as well. Instead of scrolling, go to your books app!

My screen time does not look like this out of coincidence.

I've made a conscious decision to stop scrolling Instagram and Pinterest so much and start reading instead. Whenever I'm waiting in the car, whenever I have a free moment, I OPEN that app and get READING. (It also helped that The Secret History is damn engaging).

Also, since the Marauders don't have much official material, I'd recommend reading more fanfiction on them, it's the only way you can get a grasp of the personality we have collectively created for them.

Start typing

And finally, all that reading, all that looking and all that feeling is going to we worth for nothing if you don't actually sit down and write. Be it on a notebook while you're in school (I used to do this a lot, I don't even know how I got such good grades), or type on your computer while you're at work and have some free time.

It's silly when writers say this, but you have to make time to write, it really is the only way to do it. Sit down, write a word, and then another, and then just keep going. You don't like the result? It doesn't matter you can write it again, scratch and restart, but you must get writing.

And finally, don't be afraid to show your work, sometimes feedback is the way to get better. I mean, beats me I didn't know "tight" and "thigh" wasn't the same thing due to dyslexia for years! And it was thanks to one of you, that I took a closer look and realised what a pitiful mistake I'd been making.

So yeah, WRITE, show your work, and get feedback from friends, family or people on the internet. That's the secret ໒꒰ྀིᵔ ᵕ ᵔ ꒱ྀི১

I might have gotten carried away with this answer lol, this is why it always takes me so much to go through my asks.

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hamcakevaletguy · 1 month

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RPF Angela headcanons/scenarios with a pinch of angst because I’m procrastinating on my actual fics

(Feel free to use any of these as prompts)

(Also, sorry in advance for over explaining)

Platonic/General

Angela found out her love language is being known and being roasted for things that are unique to her (Tiny Car mukbang). She loves when people make fun of her and actively tries to make it easy for everyone to recognize her (ex: continuing to give Anthony chances to guess her on his “guess who slapped me” even after he felt her cast and didn’t know it was her, most of her top threes in Shayne guesses having joke answers to make it obvious that it’s her) because she’s not confident that any of them actually know her enough

Angela gets annoyed at how unoriginal some comments can be (in Pit Theater videos only referring to her voice or verbal typos that she makes because of her natural lack of filter/dyslexia) but still making jokes in the same strain because she knows everyone will laugh at it (ex: making typos on purpose in Patently Stupid, but also sometimes doing it on accident because she’s dyslexic) putting other people’s enjoyment over her own discomfort

Angela always laughs/apologizes after she “insults” anyone no matter how obvious it is that it’s a joke because she doesn’t want to be thought of as mean. She also spirals/immediately takes it back when she thinks she hurt someone (ex: Ian’s style in the Hot Ones: Truth or Dab video & telling Shayne he dances like a towel in the Black Beopardy stream)

Angela immediately refusing to “yes, and” bits about her not liking her coworkers (ex: staring contest stream, Shayne “she doesn’t laugh at my jokes” “omg, no! that’s so sad” & April fools smoshcast “it’s not funny to joke about” when Chanse says Amanda doesn’t like Angela) because even the idea of it makes her sick

Angela doesn’t want to just be herself on camera sometimes (her episode of Perfect Person Podcast) because it’s fine if people don’t like her characters, she can change those at the drop of a hat, but if people don’t like her as a person…

Angela’s busy all the time working on Smosh, Starkid, several sketch/improv teams, producing and starring in short films, making time to still see her friends, and has almost no time for self care. She’s constantly loading herself with caffeine to stay up because people need her (she’s a people pleaser, she can’t help it). One particularly busy month, she gets more and more tired as the days go on and no one notices until she passes out mid shoot

Romantic

(Anyone) Angela falls in love with one of her close friends/co-workers, but decides not to pursue it/speak about it at all because she wants to keep their friendship above all else (from the infamous Agree to Disagree video: friendship breakups are hard for her; she’d rather have them stay in her life as a friend than risk losing them for a chance at something more)

(Anyone) Angela’s not good at recognizing when someone’s flirting with her. She’s also not aware of when she’s flirting most times (she says a lot of things before her brain can process and fully catch up) She’s the type to not realize her feelings before it’s too late and the other person has already moved on

Sub-headcanon: At some point, most people she’s come in contact with (that’s attracted to women) have had a tiny crush on her. Her winning prom queen in high school (1, 2 Switch) wasn’t just because she was the one who organized prom; it’s because 90% of the student body was in love with her. (She was in a performing arts middle school and high school. Most of them were probably bi theater kids. You’re telling me that the most popular kid at that school wouldn’t be Angela? The same Angela who was part of the student council, is an incredible performer, very friendly and enthusiastic about everything, and attractive to boot?)

#angela giarratana #smosh rpf #rpf #might do another one of these instead of actually working on my 90% complete fics

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moa-broke-me · 1 year

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Valdangelo ficlet

Leo's done with the repairs for tonight, but he can't sleep. He climbs up into the crow's next, hoping to watch the sun rise, only to find Nico curled up inside. He tenses up, naturally. The guy just... Gives him the shivers.

But... He's sleeping now. It should be fine, right?

He leans over the edge, watching the sea, when his foot brushes against Nico's sleeping body.

He starts awake, and there's yelling, screaming, and Leo curls in on himself, covering his ears. The memories were out to get him, tearing at his mind. Any moment now, there would be glass shattered, belt strikes and boiling water.

All of a sudden, it's quiet.

Leo looks over to find the tip of Nico's sword slowly being lowered from its spot aimed at Leo's face. Tear tracks run down Nico's cheeks, and there's this moment of understanding as they lock eyes. 'oh... you're just as scared as I am.'

Leo relaxes a little, letting out a shaky sigh and tinkering with his hands.

How could he have chosen to let this boy die? A boy that's... So much like him it's scary?

"I... I'm sorry."

Nico sits up. "... For what?"

Should he tell him about the vote?

No.

"I haven't been... Very kind to you. Even though I know you've been through a lot." He could say that much. "And I'm sorry. I'm not... Good with people. But even I should've known better."

Nico stayed quiet for a moment. "... It's ok. I don't blame you, I'm not... Easy, y'know what I mean?"

Leo feels a pang of sympathy, thinking back to when he snuck a glance at his own chart, and somehow, through his dyslexia, he could make out 'difficult child'. "I know exactly what you mean."

Nico looks down at his own hands, slender and graceful. "... Yeah. Well, thanks for waking me up, I guess. I should've been keeping watch."

Leo thought for a minute. "... We could take turns, y'know. I'm not busy. Maybe if you get some sleep tonight, you won't be such a sourpuss in the morning."

Nico puffs a laugh, which surprises Leo. With how sad he had been, Leo hadn't been sure he was still able to laugh. "Ok. Should I stay up for now, or...?"

"No, no, I've got it." He insists. He watches Nico lay down and curl up into a shivering ball, and feels his heart clench.

He heats his body up before stripping off his army jacket and lays it over Nico, on top of his aviator jacket. He's met a lot of skinny kids in his time, and they were always so cold. The younger ones, or ones who had trouble with personal space, would curl up next to him sometimes, glomming onto him for warmth.

Nico would've fit right in.

#valdangelo

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holocene-sims · 1 year

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next // previous

july 7, 2021 1:15 p.m. grant's house

[colm] wait, how do you have this recipe then?

[grant] i literally don't know. i found the note with it when i moved to los angeles before and, uh, it just said "xoxo, your boyfriend" at the bottom. like i know vaguely where it came from but my memory stops there.

[grant] now stop deflecting!

[colm] you first.

[colm] but alright, alright. you know the basic shit about my life, right? single mom, dad out of the picture, three siblings all with different baby daddies, and no other family because they disowned my mother for getting pregnant with me as a teen. the white trash experience. but wait, it gets worse.

[colm] my mom’s oldest brother was kind of still there, but not in any real fashion. more like: “sure, ellen, i suppose your son can sit at the back table at my pub and watch hurley on the television until his sisters are done with their after school activities and can walk them home.”

[colm] bastard. hey, ellen, i know you’re nearly homeless and your nine year old son is reading on the internet at the library how to make macaroni and cheese for dinner for all of you while you're busy waiting tables, but i won’t come over to babysit or nothing.

[colm] still, he let me over in the afternoons and was nice enough to teach me how to pour beers and such when i was the right age to do it, so here i am.

[colm] it’s really the only skill i have. despite my degree in philosophy, i was always a terrible student. i have the worst dyslexia known to man and my other jobs in the past were doing security at an airport and moving furniture. real impressive. so, this is miles better in pay and for my sanity.

[colm] besides, if we’re getting real emotionally squishy here, i was so lonely all the time growing up. nothing’s better for your social life than your mom always out working, no other family around, and having to turn down your friends’ invitations to hang out most of the time because you have to look after your siblings.

[colm] going to my uncle’s place was the least lonely place i ever was because all the old men who came as regulars felt bad for me and would talk to me. mostly about sports, but i like sports, so that was fine. i suppose you could say this place i own makes me feel a little less lonely as well.

[grant] i'm sorry things were so–

[colm] ahh, cut that shit out, it’s fine! i'd rather the man with a mammy who beat him not apologize to me about my childhood. i'm over it. fucking sucks but whatever. at least my guardian wasn’t my biological father. that piece of shit’s in prison for life for murder.

[grant] mur–

[colm] he got in with organized crime because he was broke and out of work. oh, and he was way older than my mom. surprise, surprise. classic stab city in the 90s. he actually tried to murder my mother once after she broke up with him, too. that day's hard to forget.

[grant] man, that sounds pretty bad. like egregiously bad. major childhood trauma bad.

[colm] old ellen’s alive.

[grant] uhhhhh, well, some person out there isn’t.

[colm] people.

[grant] oh.

[grant] oh my god.

[grant] anyway, uh, i was just going to say that i'm sorry you suffered. you deserved to have your needs met and you deserved stability and safety. i know nothing can be done about the past but that’s not a fair way for a child to grow up, even if your mother has reasons and explanations for it. and you don’t have to minimize it on grounds of other people’s experiences. bad is just that: bad. it’s not the sad childhood olympics here.

[colm] i really don’t care. i left all of that behind when i came here to live with shannon. you all are very nice to me. you’re my replacement family. you all mean a lot to me.

[colm] maybe replacement sounds bad...but, ah, well...

[colm] i can't believe i'm telling anyone other than shannon any of this bullshit. i feel absolutely disgusting.

[colm] sometimes when i was younger i'd look at other families and wish i had that. i used to wonder what it was like to have a family, and i suppose i finally understand. and it's nice.

[grant] i'm glad that you know we love you. you are a part of us. you are family. hell, i love you dearly. you're a great friend and a great person and you make shannon happy, which is important.

[grant] do you ever talk to your family? like your biological family?

[colm] yes and no. i invited them to the wedding and clearly you know they came. you were there. the only one i talk to often is molly but it’s because they’re the youngest and, well, the most like me, so i try to steer them away from making the same mistakes as me. that is, please don’t become a delinquent and please tell someone you think something’s wrong with your brain when you think there is.

[colm] my mother just pisses me off. i know she loves me and always has but she tries so much harder to show it now that i'm an adult and i can’t stand it. it’s overbearing. it's like, where was all this affection twenty years ago, ellen? and my other siblings...one’s fine, the other i don’t get along with.

[colm] don’t go apologizing about that either.

[grant] i won’t. but i get it. family relationships are complicated. siblings are difficult sometimes.

[colm] do you have–

[grant] i have two sisters. and yes, i don’t talk about them, like, ever. now continue what you were saying!

[colm] don’t get me wrong, i love all of them. i'd die for them. i might not want to talk to them much but i'm not disloyal or nothing. but because i love them, i reserve the right to admit when they’re obnoxious or what they’ve done wrong. it’s a disservice to all of us to lie and say i'm so happy with them and that we get along swimmingly.

[grant] so...you’re admitting things weren’t great.

[colm] i'm alive and not all the way fucked up. that’s good enough.

[colm] but thank you. i know you mean it. you’re like shannon and you say it because you care, not because you pity me, which is what a lot of others do. i do appreciate it.

#ts4 #the sims 4 #sims 4 #sims 4 story #sims 4 storytelling #simblr #hlcn: everything the stars promised #spoiler alert: colm definitely cares and he definitely does not like to feel sad lmfao #the chronic lying for silliness/to protect himself strikes again!#he can't take anything seriously #but not grant enabling that a little bit by laughing about literal memory loss and trauma jdsfjkdsfkld #also yes i know this was quite a long post just for a side character but i promise you this has a LOT to do with grant #not to spoiler things a bit fjdsfdskfds but grant and colm are very much supposed to be similar to each other #it's the wholeeeeeee point that they have shitty lives but turned out so differently in personality #holocene.docx #holocene.png #hlcn: grant #hlcn: colm

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cutejk123 · 11 days

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Blossom's Friends

So I have thinking about giving Blossom (my Luigi and Daisy's youngest daughter) some friends. I used this picrew for the designs of her friends as a prototype of what I would imagine they would look like and I have their aus and headcanons for them.

Here the links:

TOON ME! ⟪ A ⟫｜Picrew

TOON ME! ⟪ B ⟫｜Picrew

So here they are:

Himari

Age 12

Female

Straight, ''Cis''

She/her

Birthday: May 24th

Asian- Japanese

Dad- Hideki, Mum- Yumiko

Has a 6-year old little brother named Nobita

Has 1 pet: A Norwegian Forest cat (Female, colour: beige and white) named Bibi

Born in Osaka, Japan, but then moved to Brooklyn, New York State, USA at the age of 9 years old.

Speaks Japanese fluently, as this is her first language, English is her second. So she has a Japanese accent.

Himari first met Blossom at primary school, when she first came to Brooklyn from Japan. Himari was a bit shy as she didn't know much English, but soon, she made really good friends with Blossom and also learned English too.

Personality: friendly, spiritual, fun, helpful, hardworking, amazing, slightly strict.

Loves: Maths, comic books (especially shoujo manga), anime and tokusatsu like Doraemon, Tokyo Mew Mew, Super Sentai series, Showa-era anime and tokusatsu shows, drawing, hanging out with friends, ramen, computer games, her family, martial arts.

Dislikes: people making fun at her accent, dirty rooms, most modern new music.

Himari often teaches Blossom about Japanese culture, especially kawaii culture.

Clothing aesthetic style: Indie and Normcore.

Jada

Age 12

Female

Straight, ''Cis''

She/her

Birthday: November 9th

Black

Dad- Michael, Mum- Olivia

She is the only child

Has 2 pets: A Bird (Male, colour: white) named Mr Sparkles, and a hamster (Female, colour: ginger) named Robin

She wears glasses due to poor eyesight

An Animal lover and wants to help animals.

She is a Baptist Christian

She takes swimming lessons once every 2 weeks on Friday evenings.

Jada first met Blossom on the first day of secondary school, in Science class. Since Blossom is also an animal lover, she really connected to Jada and they started talking about different animals and breeds after class.

Bird enthusiast and often carries the book about birds in her school bag.

Personality: smart, intelligent, thoughtful, kind, sweet, helpful, brave, brainy.

Loves: animals, birds, science (especially biology), sports, family and friends, her pets, geography, the beach, swimming, gospel music, zoology.

Dislikes: Maths, sad songs, being late for important things, rude people, people hating on her love for birds.

Clothing aesthetic style: VSCO.

River

Birthname: Rachael

Age 12

Female

Nonbinary, Pansexual

They/them

Birthday: October 20th

White

Has ADHD and Anxiety.

Dad- Brandon, Mum- Abby

Has an older sister (sibling) named Sam, who is 17 years old and is genderfluid and uses she/he/they pronouns.

Has 1 pet: A Dog (Male, colour: brown and white) named Sparky

Gothic music lover

River first met Blossom during break time at school before River came out as nonbinary and pansexual. River commented on Blossom's clothing style, saying that Blossom was very adorable and fluffy, which made Blossom smile.

Personality: moody, cool, a little bossy, nice, sometimes calm, wild, loyal.

Loves: Gothic music, their dog, their best mate, anime such as My Hero Academia, Jujutsu Kaisen and Pokémon, art, drawing, chocolate cake, Hazbin Hotel, gory stuff like spiders, Halloween, Tim Burton films, videogames.

Dislikes: people using the wrong pronouns, their anxiety, pastel colours, cute things, Harry Potter, the colour pink.

Clothing aesthetic style: Grunge.

Darcy

Age 12

Female

Straight, ''Cis''

She/her

Birthday: January 25th

White- Canadian

Has Dyslexia

Dad- Richard, Mum- Elizabeth

Has a younger 9 year old sister named Ann and a younger 5 year old sister named Lucy.

No pets

Food lover (sweets)

Born in Ottawa, Canada, but then moved to Brooklyn, when her dad got a new job at the age of 6 years old.

Speaks in a Canadian accent

A Great Singer

She is proud to be a little larger than her friends despite comments by other people.

Darcy first met Blossom at Reading help centre in their local area, when they were 10 years old. Blossom also struggled with reading despite not having dyslexia, so they started to play dollies together in the play area of the centre, and the friendship grew over time.

Personality: cheeky, funny, giggly, lovable, pouty, a little stubborn, greedy, bubbly, a little quiet.

Loves: cake, lots of fun, her little sisters, ball games like catch, biscuits, food, her Canadian culture, her friends, music, singing, sleeping.

Dislikes: getting sick, overeating, reading too much, being tired, annoyance, fat shaming, people making fun of her appearance.

Clothing aesthetic style: Art Hoe.

Fannie

Age 12

Female

Straight, ''Cis''

She/her

Birthday: June 30th

White- of Irish decent

Has Autism, Dyslexia, Anxiety.

She wears glasses.

Dad- Danial, Mum- Bertha

Has twin 7 year old younger brothers named Peter and Luca, and a baby 2 year old little sister named Penny. (all of them has Autism).

Refers to her parents as Mummy and Daddy.

Has 3 pets: 2 guinea pigs (both Female) named Pearl and Sweetie and a Lionhead rabbit (Female, colour- beige) named Creamy.

Always carries her yellow dog plushie named Caramel with her, just like Blossom does with her Bubbles the bunny plushie.

She is Blossom's best friend, she is always there to protect and help Blossom.

Fannie first met Blossom on the first day of primary school, when they were 4 years old. Blossom fell over and hurt herself and Fannie came over and patted Blossom's head gently.

Fannie's interests are similar to Blossom's.

Her hyper fixations are True and the Rainbow Kingdom, Sanrio and Play-Doh.

Personality: extremely shy, sensitive, cry-baby, kind, sweet, protective, quiet, prone to tears quickly, helpful, gentle, childlike, clumsy, humble.

Loves: colouring, watching cartoons, Play-Doh, drawing, art, her pets, family and friends, her plushies, making cute bracelets, painting, Blossom's Dad; Luigi (because he's the most sweetest, understanding and caring person with a very BIG heart), shows like True and the Rainbow Kingdom, MLP, Care Bears, playing card games, dress-up games, Sanrio, hugs and kisses, playing with Blossom, her Nintendo Switch.

Dislikes: messy rooms, untidy things, people making her uncomfortable, horrible people, others making fun for her childlike interests, anyone hurting poor Blossom, tall heights.

Clothing aesthetic style: Soft girl.

Camila

Age 12

Female

Demisexual (with male preference), ''Cis''

She/her

Birthday: April 2nd

Hispanic- Mexican

Dad- Miguel, Mum- Selena. Also her grandma Valentina lives with her family.

She was born in Brooklyn to parents who were from Mexico and moved to the USA.

She is the only child

No pets

She is the best baker in Blossom's year. Everyone LOVES her baking and her sweets.

She often bakes Mexican sweets like: Concha (sweet bread roll), churros, etc.

Usually bakes with her grandma, who taught her many Mexican baking skills and the cuisine.

If something goes wrong her baking, she becomes resilient and try it again.

She also speaks Spanish fluently.

She bakes special treats at the end for each term (Christmas, Spring, Summer).

Camila first met Blossom during Art class in secondary school and they sat next to each other. Camila positively commented on Blossom's OC drawings on her sketchbook, this made Blossom really happy.

Personality: resilient, strong, kind, creative, mature, loyal, reliable, trustworthy, patient, a little bit cheeky.

Loves: baking, cooking, friends and family, Mexican cuisine, family gatherings, cleaning, playing the guitar, helping her friends, volleyball, cakes, sweets, making people happy, learning new things and skills, watching Spanish movies.

Dislikes: getting things wrong, bullying, rainy days, rock climbing, trains.

Clothing aesthetic style: Cottagecore and Bakerycore.

Mars

Birthname: Martha

Age 12

Female

Trans guy, Bisexual, (also experimenting with pupgender).

He/him and They/them

Birthday: March 17th

White

Has Autism, ADHD, Anxiety, Gender Dysphoria.

Getting therapy for his GD and his severe anxiety to help him cope with the mental health issues.

Dad- Eddie, Mum- Pauline

Has 1 older 15 year old brother named Roy, who is gay.

Has 1 pet, a British shorthair cat (Male, colour- greyish blue) named Bandit.

A huge rabid Bluey fan.

He has a (furry) pupsona called Bobo.

Has severe anxiety, which he is prone to temper tantrums and mental breakdowns.

Only socially transitioned.

He has Bluey merchandise everywhere, including social media pfps and such.

His hyper fixations are: Bluey, Paw Patrol, Blue's Clues, My Hero Academia, Y2K children's shows.

He is best mates with River.

Mars first met Blossom during Art class in secondary school just like Camila, before Mars came out as trans (he was only bisexual then). Blossom was amazed by the Bluey stuff on Mars' books and his bag. So they started talking about Bluey and their favourite characters.

Personality: sensitive, strong, kind, moody, sad, open, anger issues, obsessive, friendly, creative.

Loves: Bluey (obviously), art, drawing, his comfort characters, Paw Patrol, Y2K style, rock music like The Beatles, furry art, being accepted for his identity, LGBT+ memes, Tumblr, children's shows, dogs, friends and family, skateboarding, his plushies, Hazbin Hotel, cats, seeing Bluey memes, Jammidodger (a trans guy Youtuber; his parents wants him to stop watching that person because they believe that he could bring a bad influence on their child), videogames.

Dislikes: people misgendering him (it makes him flip into rage), used the wrong pronouns on him, his parents not accepting his trans and pup identity (but they are fine with the bisexual identity), Blossom's Dad; Luigi (unfortunately), his anxiety, being bullied, being misunderstood.

Clothing aesthetic style: Goth and Kidcore.

Well, that's all of Blossom's friends, I hope you'll like them. :)

Violet's (Blossom's older sister) friends are coming soon.

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I actually did this drawing a while ago but when I finished I didnt like it so I didnt end up posting it but now looking back, I still don't like it but I spent a long time on it soooo, here's Thomas as a Siren and below is some Info dump about this Au I made

Since I am also a sleepy bois inc fan, I got inspired by dark sbi mermaid fanfics and decided to test it out on the Maze Runner and see what it leads me to. So, just a heads up, the Maze Runner characters in this Au are more morally gray because they follow their animalistic side more than their human side.

In this Au, they in a hierarchy and every mermaid lives in their own pod (a community)

Hierarchy goes like; Leaders, Sirens, Children, Protectors, and Hunters/Gatherers

It is not a requirement to have a Siren in the Pod but it does make the pod seem stronger if they do have one

There tends to be only one siren in each pod because in this AU they are cannibals and are not afraid of eating another siren from their own pod or a different one

The color of a siren represents what types of power their voice holds, Thomas in particular has the ability to manipulate people’s sadness and grief, he can make others see hallucinations of loved dead ones or intensify someone's state of sadness/depression/loneliness. The jewelry around his neck is a symbol of his status and showing how important his voice is.

Short plotline; Thomas is a lone siren who does not have a pod. He gets invited to join the Gladers pod by Alby but problems arise when Thomas realizes that they already have a siren in their pod, Ben. At first they would stay far away from each other, with Ben always hanging in the front of the Pod and Thomas in the back but one day Ben does end up attacking Thomas and Thomas ends up killing him.

Since they run more on instincts and animalistic feelings, Thomas did not really feel bad at first because he did it in order to survive but he soon realizes how sad the pod is since he can feel their sadness. He decides to permanently stay in their pod and promises to protect them as a way to make amends

In the beginning, Thomas does not have a good relationship with anyone in the Pod except for Chuck and Alby. With him and Chuck having a brotherly relationship and him and Alby having more of a stable one. Gally and him absolutely hated each other but over time they warmed up to each other. Newt, Minho, and Thomas had a distant relationship until Thomas ended up saving Minho from mermaid hunters, which caused him to earn trust from Minho, Newt, Frypan, and Winston.

Sirens are very different from normal mermaids. They age the same but mature mentally faster than Mermaids. Their diets are very different with them being mostly carnivores while mermaids are omnivores. Mermaids are sort of okay with humans, they especially have soft spots for the human kids but Sirens won’t hesitate to kill one. They are more private about their species and do not let any humans near them unless a human somehow manages to earn their trust. Aris, Teresa, and Rachel are humans that Thomas tolerates but he doesn’t like it when they get too close. Mermaids can not survive without a Pod but Sirens can and they choose willily to join one if they want to, they just tend to do things on their own in the Pod and sometimes listen to the leader which is why it’s important they have a great relationship

The characters do all act the same as they do in the book and movies, but with just a slight readjustment with their bio instincts. Thomas is still curious and oblivious but now he just has a little bit of animal instincts added to him, this applies to the rest of the characters

Free fee to add in your own headcanons or even make your own story of this. I probably won’t talk about this Au again unless someone asks me too and don’t mind the big ass among us, I just like adding them in my drawings sometimes.

(p.s. Sorry for any spelling errors or if I just straight up don't make sense. I have dyslexia and I try my best to correct my errors)

#art #my art #the maze runner #fanart #the maze runner thomas #the maze runner fanart #thomas the maze runner #tmr thomas #Tmr #The maze runner Au #Am so tired #theokapuco #Alternate universe #digital art

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mysmorgasbordoffantabulosa · 9 months

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Damn u lack reading comprehension don’t you. Listen honey, i’ll spell it out again very clearly so ur lil brain doesn’t miss it again this time. JUNGKOOK WILL PROBABLY SING TAE’s SONGS on his LIVE too but DON’T EXPECT HIM TO DO ALL THE SAME THINGS HE DID FOR JIMIN! That my dear is the point i am trying to make. Everyone knows he has sang all the members songs on his Lives. I am talking about how much more he did for Jimin than anyone else. He basically kept track of JM’s releases and sang the songs as they came out. And hun, I don’t know how terrible u are at math but Vibe was released in January and Jk sang it in on February 1st. The emphasis here isn’t that he sang the song, it is that, that was the very first things he could think of doing after his littel chitchat with Army! See what i’m saying? Kinda the same way he went Live not long after Angel pt 1 was released and sang the song too without anyone spamming his comments asking for it. Or kinda the same way he watched Jimin’s Suchwita on Live the same day it was aired.

Also, isn’t it kinda sad that Tae is Jk’s “boyfriend” according to y’all but he doesn’t even make an effort to do anything……i dunno different for Tae? Well it’s kinda too early to tell. I might be proven wrong. I guess we all wait and see what happens. But if Jk has the time to scroll on tiktok liking and commenting on random videos of pple and Jimin who debuted months ago, i think he should be able to squeeze in sometime to just….i dunno pop on Live even for 5 mins to play Tae’s songs but maybe that’s just me.

You can read my sort of respond to this lovely prose after the cut...

"Damn u lack reading comprehension don’t you."

Actually, I scored really well for reading comprehension in school… must be why I work in education.

"Listen honey…"

I'm no-one's honey and you don't have the privilege to call me that…

"…i’ll spell it out again…"

Oh no here we go another condescending diatribe…

"…very clearly so ur lil brain"

"According to to a dyslexia specialist I have an above average intelligence… must be why I tolerate nonsense like this…

"…doesn’t miss it again this time."

Ok I'll try…

"JUNGKOOK WILL PROBABLY SING TAE’s SONGS on his LIVE too but DON’T EXPECT HIM TO DO ALL THE SAME THINGS HE DID FOR JIMIN! That my dear is the point i am trying to make."

WOW… DeJa'Vu… Yep got it the first time…

"Everyone knows he has sang all the members songs on his Lives. I am talking about how much more he did for Jimin than anyone else. He basically kept track of JM’s releases and sang the songs as they came out. And hun, I don’t know how terrible u are at math..."

It's called MATHS because it's short for MATHEMATICS…. PLURAL, but yes please do carry on…

"...but Vibe was released in January and Jk sang it in on February 1st. The emphasis here isn’t that he sang the song, it is that, that was the very first things he could think of doing after his littel chitchat with Army! See what i’m saying?"

Yes… but you're still not convincing me… and JK has sung songs from other artists that were release the day before or month before… without being prompted to do so in the comments.

"Kinda the same way he went Live not long after Angel pt 1 was released and sang the song too without anyone spamming his comments asking for it. Or kinda the same way he watched Jimin’s Suchwita on Live the same day it was aired."

And he's watched stuff from other members on the same day, or shortly after they were released, sometimes performing them verbatim others not… but please continue with your selective amnesia…

"Also, isn’t it kinda sad that Tae is Jk’s “boyfriend” according to y’all but he doesn’t even make an effort to do anything…… i dunno different for Tae?"

So according to you (all), all the support Brian is getting, is only the occasional sing-song from JK of Brian's songs on a Live…

"Well it’s kinda too early to tell."

I guess we'll find out in less than 3 weeks time…

"I might be proven wrong."

Yes, you might…

"I guess we all wait and see what happens."

I already said that didn't I…

"But if Jk has the time to scroll on tiktok liking and commenting on random videos of pple and Jimin who debuted months ago, i think he should be able to squeeze in sometime to just….i dunno pop on Live even for 5 mins to play Tae’s songs but maybe that’s just me."

Great it's over… I'm sure you'll come back with more waffle in another equally scintillating ask…

#my asks

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I got a low score on my exam 😞 and I dropped my grade down like it's not my fault I'm dyslexic this is why I like math more it's easier. Also, I got a new doctor for now cause my doctor is on holiday and I don't like them I felt very off. Also is it weird that I'm scared to shave like I've always been big on hygiene and grooming is sort of big for me I'm more on the hairy side but I do trim not too much but enough but I'm scared to go anywhere near my private parts cause I'm scared I will get botched. Also, I kinda miss my dog Pongo it's very close to his death anniversary I miss the little pup. Sometimes I feel like I'm doing something wrong but I don't know what. I feel like I'm gonna be single forever sometimes I love both aspects of a relationship romantic and sexual but it is very hard for me to feel relief from the sexual aspect like I'm never satisfied which sucks I've never had many partners cause I'm more of an in it for the long run type of guy so I only ever had 2 partners and one of them was non-sexual cause we never reached that part. Not only that but I get sad cause I want to have a family of my own someday but I can't cause I like guys and guys can't get pregnant I also want to live on a nice farm or modern cabin someday while having an apartment or house in the city. But I have been going to the gym mainly to build muscle cause I used to be a twig.

- ❤️‍🔥

Sugar I am so sorry your grade dropped but please don’t beat yourself up! Dealing with dyslexia isn’t easy. I’ve always known what dyslexia is but it wasn’t until I was peer grading another classmates paper that I realized that y’all have it fucking hard.

When it comes to doctors I know it isn’t easy to pick and choose your health care professionals but I’d be like ok does this doctor listen to my needs does this doctor help me as long as those boxes are ticked that’s all it matters bc I assume you’ll only meet them limited amount of times? Either way just make sure the doc is doing their job

In terms of shaving there are tutorials on tiktok on how to shave down there I unfortunately didn’t save the video bc this was months ago but I know there’s a YouTuber who does shaving tutorials !!

He went viral for shaving his ass on camera but he genuinely gives good shaving / hygiene advice !

Is it okay to ask when pongo passed away? You see my moms death anniversary is March 28 and I’m sure she’ll happily arrange a party for him 😌

But the loss of a pet isn’t always easy and I know it’s not like losing a relative so I’m giving you all the kisses and hugs and wishing you sm strength and love!!!

The feeling about doing something wrong but not knowing what it is, it’s a very common feeling!! It can be that we have a lot of expectations and goals bubbling under the surface and it feels like we could be doing so much more but I’m genuinely not being cheesy when I say that being alive is enough like I promise you with everything in me

In terms of relationships,a tip I do have is to wait with the sex, yes you’re in it for the long haul but meet as many people as possible without trying to make it sexual

One day you’ll meet someone you click with and whatever you do will become so much more elevated because you’ve spent time getting to know each others likes and dislikes etc

Also sugar it’s very much possible nowadays for gay men to have a family! You can have surrogate you can adopt! There are so many ways!

Also you sound just like my dad his dream is to retire and live on the country side!

Also hello let’s go!! I’ve started going to the gym as well I even have a personal trainer to keep me accountable 😭

#alec answers #❤️‍🔥 anon

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xaviersfanboy · 1 year

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"You fucking love me admit it"

AN: Hello everyone, I am kind of new to this kind of stuff but don't worry I will try my best to make these stories or maybe your favorite Xavier Thorpe stories :) Sorry if there is bad grammar I have been suffering with dyslexia for a while but enjoy my loves!

I groan as the sound of my alarm goes off while trying to turn it off with my free hand. Nothing really has been interesting here in nevermore other than the stuff everyone gossips about once in a while. I moved here when everyone here is their second year in Nevermore, so nobody talks to me other than this guy Xavier Thorpe. He is the guy that is chill but won’t call you a friend. We worked on a lot of projects together (or by myself for him) since he didn't want to work with Bianca or he just didn’t want to work with anyone, but our teacher would put us together.

We talk sometimes but most of the time about school and what we should do for a passing grade. I never really had the idea of “Friends” since people would push me away or just didn’t like me at all, which sounds sad, but I take it as a gift.

The only friend I ever had was this girl Seti… she died last year because of Cancer and heart failure and right after she left I never believed in friends, Seti was the person I would open up to and smile while going to small places like the park, but everyone dies sadly and truthfully.

As I finish the project, Xavier and I are working on by myself. I hear a small knock on my door. I stand up and open the door when the one and only person, Xavier. “Hey” he walked past me and sat in the chair I was sitting in. I slam the door, causing him to jump. “Don’t hey me Xavier when you treat me like your maid” I roll my eyes and sit on my bed, “When are you not a bitch Y/n all I ask is for you to do my fucking work because I’m tired” he yelled back . I look at him at in disbelief along with standing up “Oh so when you are tired its “okay” but when im tired of working on the stuff, you should work on its not. Fuck you, Xavier” I open the door waiting for him to exit, he rushes pass me with a Nasty look on his face.

3AM

I can’t sleep at all. I keep tossing and turning like it would help me sleep at all. Do I have feelings for the guy that I hate? Why him out of all people, the way he smiles, his laugh, the way he looks down to see what I'm doing or stares at me explaining to him about work in class, gosh those fucking eyes I could get lost in. Am I falling in love with Xavier Thorpe?..

#xavier smut #xavier thorpe #xavier thrope imagine #xavier thrope x reader #xavier x you #xavier x y/n #xavier thorpe angst #xavier x reader #xavier wednesday

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Re: the post about bullying people on misspellings and reading comprehension and such.

no real, I’m the person people talk about when they say dyslexia

(I have all the other ones too, dysgraphia, dyscalclia, dyspraxia too)

And so my reading comprehension and also spelling is kinda trash, not in a bad faith way but in a “I genuinely completely missed like a whole paragraph” way.

which just sucks, I’m still extremely new to the whole “writing” thing.

genuinely if you saw something from a couple years ago vs now you’d be flabbergasted at how much we’ve improved.

but I always thought it was extremely rude to bully and or be mean about people who don’t understand or read things right or write things right.

you just genuinely do not know who they are and why they do it, whenever I try to correct someone I say it kindly and give constructive feedback.

Like genuinely it’s not hard to be kind, some people are still learning, sometimes it’s someone’s second language, sometimes they use speech to text and text to speech.

it’s just such a deeply ingrained belief that anyone who misspells or misspeaks or misunderstands is dumb or stupid.

I can’t even count on my fingers how many times I’ve misheard, worded something trash, or misunderstood or misinterpreted something.

but that’s just how I am and I can’t change it, but I can change my reaction and outcome and make friendships even after fucking up.

it’s just a sad feeling that even if you have the best intentions you still fail horribly, subtext and tone are hard to parse through, so much meaning and context gets a bit screwy when you write it down.

and sometimes life is filled with mistakes and failures and there’s nothing wrong with that, I can’t know everything and I probably never will.

I love the quote

“a jack of all trades is a master of none, but oftentimes better than a master of one.”

because yeah, I’ll never be a master at English or talking or anything.

but I can be a jack of all trades, I can try to learn and be better.

more skills even though I’m not a master at any, helps so much.

We beat ourselves up and others for things we can’t control rather than lift ourselves and others up.

that’s just my thoughts on it, I just didn’t want to add it on the main post it’s pretty unrelated to the original lol.

-pop

You are so very nice to write all this pop. Sorry I take a bit to respond. The system has been super busy.

The "trouble" that I mentioned in the tags that I got into was when I said I unfollowed someone for being rude about reading comprehension and had a complete stranger come out of nowhere and correct me like I was talking about them when I wasn't and then when I said I wasn't and was frustrated that people apparently do this enough to assume unrelated call outs about it are vagues about them, they acted like I was "rude" and like...

I'm an alter that has slammed doors hard enough to crack walls. I've said such utterly fucked things. I am trying my hardest, my best, to be nice when I'm upset. I have come so far and it hurts. I use all my energy when I do it. Tumblr is almost like a kind of language thinking therapy for me. It's a good place to practice being as polite as I can, because it's safer to fail online as opposed to IRL, where backspace and walk away are not options.

To try as hard as I did and still be called rude is... Ugh. It's just awful. Especially when it was an otherwise cool blog that said that about me. They even said on their blog separately if another alter apologized on my behalf that they'd be friends with them and just avoid me.

And that's actually trauma for me! That kind of thing seriously destabilizes my system. I've had people literally abuse my system by manipulating us like that and talking about me, calling me an asshole like I can't hear. But I get that that's just a mistake too.

It's all mistakes!

I think the world would be a better place if more mistakes were seen as harmless.

Also I vibe with the jack of all trades bit. We definitely as a system feel that.

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