#sorry for the rant fellas

[writer-loogi2]

I find it kinda funny that I'm always like "Ooh, I'm gonna write a drabble" and then I end up writing something much longer than intended-

It's like my brain suddenly gets ideas out of nowhere and then I just keep writing more and more-

But at the same time I don't want to write that much, like it's a called drabble for a reason y'know- and besides I know most people don't give a fuck so they just skip ahead anyway.

I know y'all won't read everything I write so why bother? Geez.

#sorry for the rant fellas #i don't mean to #but i dunno #i just get upset at stupid shit #lmao don't mind me #/// #by neko loogi #do not repost #neko loogi rants😔

[gojoed]

This scene with Legato, I have never really been able to understand if it meant anything beyond the scenario that was unfolding in the episode (Nicholas fighting Livio). But I think I have now.

Legato’s words somehow feels targeted to Knives specifically. “It has long been time to give up on your little brother. You must finally learn to accept reality.”

Those words just struck me. Knives is portrayed as the twin who’s more “mature” and not as soft-hearted as his little brother Vash. But if you really think about it he was the one who was the most childish between the two.

He never wanted to see beyond what humans had done to Tesla in fear of being betrayed again. He idealized humans far more than Vash did, Vash already accepted that humans aren’t perfect and there is good and bad but Knives had gotten his fear of humans from Rem. She was always worried about what would happen to them.

Knives also very childishly held onto the idea that all humans are bad, that they’re all the same and selfish and that they never look beyond their own nose. Up until he was killed, Knives wanted Vash’s gate. He died for it. The fight that ensued after Vash broke free from the tank was literally a fight between siblings, brothers. 

Knives was the one who was letting his emotional turmoil unleash and it portrays in how he desperately wanted that cube. His expressions during that fight looks down right like a child throwing a tantrum.

Vash bit him, like siblings do when they fight.

Knives also stubbornly never let Vash go, not truly. Sure they went separate ways for 150 years, but not really. Only distance wise. They’re on the same planet, Knives knew he had nowhere to go, he’ll always be within his reach. He learned Vash’s part to the duet, he plays it with such rigor it’s as if the song is the embodiment of how Knives just completely longs for Vash to be by his side again. He longs for Vash but refuses to accept that they will never see eye to eye.

It has long been time to give up on your little brother. You must finally learn to accept reality.

#sorry for the rant it’s just #GOD THOSE WORDS #they feel so targeted to the twins it makes me stomach go WOOP #trigun stampede #meta #video #trigun #tristamp #vash tristamp #knives tristamp #millions knives #vash the stampede #vash trigun stampede #knives trigun stampede #and now to dip and peace out #love and peace fellas #trigun meta #blegh

[sailorblossoms]

There's much going on in the scene where Simon basically expresses his disinterest in labeling himself (outside of "baz-sexual" lol which sounds funny but that's Simon genuinely communicating something with the vocabulary he has available). I think the funniest thing though is that he's basically like "I don't know shit but let me tell you nothing about my relationship with Agatha can be used to say I'm bisexual, especially not sex". And by funny I mean kinda sad and a bit concerning actually.

On a more serious note, I think it's really interesting to see how Simon reacts to different labels. He never really wonders whether he's bisexual, his struggles with attempting to define identity are entirely centered on his feelings for Baz. He even finds a way to, I kid you not, make female boobs about Baz. Gay and Baz-sexual are the only labels he wrestles with, and even gay is something he considers because Baz is a man. It's also interesting that this doesn't change even when presented with the possibility that bisexuality could be a word that describes his experiences.

I think so much is encapsulated here. First of all, Simon does struggle with internalized homophobia (that hesitation before the whole man and boy exchange), and we see him trying to move past that in the third book (Baz noting he gets off with public displays of affection despite "worrying about looking gay" and how that's probably connected, the "gay at ikea" scene). But I don't think he struggles with internalized biphobia–it's just not even on his radar at all. Simon can be very quick at solving things once he has enough information, and I doubt he needed any time to realize why his boyfriend, who knows he has an ex-girlfriend, might think he's bisexual. And he's put off by the idea. Look at that No being italicized for emphasis. He has such a strong rejection of being labeled as bisexual, and I think this is all about him rejecting the idea of his past relationship with Agatha being understood as romantic love and sexual attraction, even before he finally processes and voices that "it was all just going through the motions, I'm not sure I even felt anything at all".

Worth noting that he's in agreement with Agatha on this. She was there, and in hindsight, she doesn't think the guy was ever into her (a feeling she already manifest when breaking up with him, when she's describing their relationship as feeling non-existent, and still feeling unwanted after being together for 3 years)

She equates this to the way Baz, known homosexual, was never into her either.

Worth noting too that the label conversation is at the beginning of the chapter that has Simon dragging himself kicking and screaming (literally) through the realization that he was never really into Agatha in that way, he just assumed that must be it while they were dating, ignoring anything that indicated otherwise. But Simon really had to be aware of this on some level that he just wasn't acknowledging for him to be able to reach some answers when Baz's questions make him look back. Again, the rejection of seeing his past relationship with Agatha as romantic love/attraction had to be there on a subconscious level for him to have the instinct to be put off by being labeled in this way because of it.

In comparison, he's much more nuanced and complicated about gay as a label. He's not prepared to think about it at the beginning, but it's something he keeps coming back to. He says he's not gay "immediately" here but at the end of the chapter he goes "maybe this makes me gay, or maybe this just makes me yours". And this is all because of his feelings for Baz. He's not ever like "I'm into dudes in general so I reckon that makes me gay". The questioning is always in the line of "the love of my life is a man, does that make me gay?" and he brings up the possibility of only being into Baz more than once... which takes me to Baz going "if he's not gay or bi what does that leave? straight is certainly not an option" and well! It leaves the ace spectrum, for instance, my good guy.

I also think Simon going "I never thought I was straight, I never thought about my sexuality at all" is interesting, because even though it aligns with how he lived for so long not really thinking, part of being allosexual is knowing instinctively when you're experiencing attraction too, and it's an acespec experience to need forever to decide if you're feeling attracted to strangers. And Simon really can't offer examples of him feeling attraction that doesn't involve Baz! In fact, he says it to himself: he has only ever wanted Baz, and he's thinking this in the context of thinking about sex.

In short: everything about Simon rejecting bisexuality is about him rejecting the idea that he felt romantic love/attraction for Agatha, and everything about him wrestling with the gay label is centered on his feelings for Baz.

#sorry fellas i heard someone said agatha and simon were really in love and physically attracted to each other and i have to rant a bit #i'm incapable of saying ´what the fuck' and moving on with my day like a normal person apparently #i have to open my blog like that cow and chicken scene #y'all remember that late 90s cartoon? #like 'Dear Diary you ain't never gonna believe what I am about to write down on yous' #anyway #unlabeled simon rights! #simon snow #baz grimm pitch #snowbaz

[casual-ushanka]

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY

Ah yes, the day of love...I'm stupid with love :[

I usually have trouble when it comes to love as I don't connect with people's feelings but instead of partners, I just celebrate with others (and be a wingwomen to others).

Ladies, gentlemen, and all others, have a wonderful VALENTINES.

Also, to all my aro/ace fellas, I GIVE YOU A DIGITAL GIANT BOX OF CHOCOLATES (just like how I got a giant box of chocolate for myself!)

#pizza tower #the noise #noisette #valentines day #I'm not exactly aro/ace but its hard to share my own feelings with others #sorry if this was a tiny rant #HAVE A VERY HAPPY VALENTINES TO ALL MAH FELLAS

[nobitchesformissquinn]

HEY, STEF COBURN! COME AND TAKE IT, YOU BIGOTED MOTHERFUCKER!!

YOUR DADDY WOULD BE ASHAMED!!!

WAY TO SPIT INTO THE FACES OF EVERYONE WHO WORKED HARD ON THE FIRST EVER DOCTOR WHO STORY AND AN IMPORTANT PART OF TV HISTORY, YOU SORRY SACK OF SHIT

#doctor who #first doctor #an unearthly child #ranting variety hour #i'm sorry fellas but i'm absolutely furious about the current rights dispute

[mivajava]

IM SORRY TO ALL MY MUTUALS- 😭🙏

Cuz I wanna interact with them SO BADLY it’s just idk how to really approach someone- cause I admire all my mutuals 😅💕 ALL THEIR ART IS SO YUMMY AND DELICIOUS-

So I just like their posts bc I’m a scaredy cat 😔😔😔😔 idk how else to explain and stuffies-

Also, I might not be so much into welcome home- moving back to my routes of fnf but I’ll still do wh stuff 😋 trust 🙏

#sorry mutuals #i want more mutuals #IDK HOW TO DO THISSSS #IM GONNA CRY #RUN IN CIRCLES #LOSE MY MIND #I’m so dry 😿 #I’m especially sorry to Your Happy Fella #they’re so silly #Hammy is so silly and I love him sm #might be a simp fr #who said that #that’s crazy #sorry friendssss 😔😭 #quick rant #quick post #hello world #i love u #goodbye #bye bye

[aria0fgold]

One thing bout our house is that cats love to enter it but the moment they see a person, they'd immediately run back out. Like the other day there was this cat (I think her name was Lena? A neighbour's cat! With a cute lil pink collar), and she was very slowly walking inside and when I noticed her, she quickly turned around and left. (Didn't even get to pet her too boo... she saw me looking and just went nope).

And then today, when I woke up and was prepping stuff for my bath, just as I walk by the front door, a cat was also walking inside and we looked at each other and it also immediately left (I dunno whose cat this one is but it has a collar too! And I think it's a boy, with a cute lil black collar). I decided to follow it out the door thinking that maybe it's still nearby for me to pet! But nope! It was already halfway across the path! I called over to it in a low voice like: "Cat!" and it just made a loud and loooong meow. Like okay, sorry for interrupting your intrusion. It laid on the floor and I kept calling over to it "cat!" and it kept meowing back at me in increasingly exasperated tones. It's so adorable!

#aria rants #after awhile it decided to fall asleep and ignore me. 10/10 experience at the start of the day #i think it was trying to tell me that ''no! my name is not ''cat''!'' sorry lil fella i dont understand cat language #i think cats just sees our house as a safe space until they notice that oh shit there are ppl here and decides to just leave #another cat thatd enter our house is also a neighbor's cat (no collar. is an orange cat!) she's easily scared and sometimes #whenever she accidentally gets locked out. she'd run over to our house and hide under the bed until the owner comes pick her up #theres also two stray cats that kept coming back tryna enter too (unfortunately we cant take in any animals rn boooooo)

[madwickedawesome]

im bitchless FOR A CAUSE ok 😤

#going on a tangent below #i think i would not work well in a romantic relationship #i think i come on too strong tee bee aich #like if i meet someone i rlly like i immediately feel like i fall in love w them #and suddenly all my thoughts revolve around them for like . a week #but im still super mood swingy so it goes away periodically and its Weird #i think thats too much unreliability for someone #i know like ‘but u can find someone who accepts u for that’ but like . id feel too bad #i fall in love at the drop of a hat then i grow too clingy and attached and its WEIRD LMFAO #im always all like ‘haha confess ur love to me😂’ bc it is nice to pretend someone wants me like that #like i would love to be loved and to receive as much as i give . does that make sense #this whole thing is weird i just wanna like say it somewhere #i am also just a Strange Fella so that probably adds an element to it #i guarantee there r very few people on this earth who would be like ‘i wanna kiss that guy’ after i get distracted n go on a rant abt like #flowers LMFAO or like some breed of cow or smth #im charming but not in the ‘oh id like to kiss him’ way i think #i am just too clingy and weird and strange to be in a relationship but honestly im ok w that #i love to give to the world either way yk #SORRY i just wanted to say this somewhere #u can ignore all of that its just me ranting

[robots-on-film]

the Batman/Batfam fan/enthusiast experience really is just going "it's canon but i do not agree nor care" 24/7, huh

#batman #batfam #reading the batman comics is either finding the most jaw dropping stories ever (shout out to batman black and white) #or wasting 5 minutes reading the intro to comic only to be kicked the stomach by a panel of bruce punching one of his kids and the writer #writing the most deranged strings of words. + darkness without any hint of lightness to make u both give a damn n root for the characters #sorry for the rant fellas. just going through it atm #martin rants #<- new tag

[woahajimes]

i hate tumblr new format. alsooo whatd i miss

#listen my tumblr writing voice is disappearing since all i post are instagram CFs. #alas whats #errr i went to ecuador over the summer and holy i love cocktails #i got drunk for the first time and the next date went hungover to a diff date and then got into a relationship but i broke up with him like #two days ago #IB Y2 is effectively killing me and the last thing i needed was someoen that drained me #also i found an argentine show called rebelde way from the 2000 s #go di need to rant about it i feel so strongly like i just im so frustrated school is so much and i am bf-less (for the better) and #i turn 18 soon and i start college next sept and im gonna major in math and OH BUT i dont want to be alone i hate being alone oh oh oh #bu the show is so good but my deadlines are so heavy but the show but pablo and marizza #IB took over sm of my life like yeah i let it consume me but oh god oh oh oh #i hadnt had a legit interest or show i liked bc i know i get deranged about them #godd im also one of the only 2 girls left in the program #and i need to hit the gym bc like. grad is soon and why are boys in my school so mean #in ecuador this isnt a thing like friendships are sm closer in ecuador and dynamics are so different and oh i yearn to be with tehm i reall #do but the country is like not okay and i had a kidnapping scare but oh oh oh to feel loved by the people around you #anyways what else #sorry i disappeared fellas

[thisghosts-obsessions-again]

Yeah uhm... I don't care? 😅

#poor fella 😔 #personal rant #spoiler #screenshots #screenshots spoiler #screenshot #mechat gal lacqua #me chat gal lacqua #mechat #me chat #me chat app #mechat app #was that what gal meant when they said they were sorry? 😔

[i-am-thevoid]

genuinely uncomfortable with people being attracted to me lately esp when I KNOW they arent seeing me in the way I want like please fuck off and leave me alone

#that one person who kept messaging me after i said i was goin thru shit a d couldnt talk and they proceeded to CONTINUOUSLY FUCKING message #being all like ohhhh youre ao my type shut up and fuck off I said i cant do this and another who makes it so awkward but afterwards will #text tge same thing everyday im sorry but im too tired to deal with conversations rn #and im atarting to tgink hey maybe im not interested in relationships at all!! #im just a manwhore in theory but i cannot deal with commitment #idk im so bad at tgis stuff #but like cmon cant i just live my life theyre projecting shit onto me and assuming my gender/sexuality like FUCK OFF let me BE MYSELF #please #rant cause ig this is actually pissing me off? #i wish i knew how to deal with this shit man. help #IM LOSING MY MIND AND ITS NOT FUN. PEOPLE IN MY LIFE PLEASE SEE THAT I AM 2S AND STOP ASSUMING #doesnt help that ive never really been hit on before genuinely and am kinda new at this and very confused (fellas got a touch of the tism)

[anthonyed]

The fact that ppl from singapore comes up saying tau fu fa from normal store is so sweet and the franchise ones are better cause they can adjust sweetness makes me laugh cause ive been consuming tau fu fa since forever and ive always ever bought them from street stalls cause they damn good AND get this! The sweetness level has ALWAYS been adjustable. Ive had mine with no syrup, just ginger essense to half sweet to normal sweetness. AND the franchise ones are weird cause the real tau fu fa is so soft, just unbelievably soft but those esp the franchise ones form this weird thick skin over top that needs more effort to break through like a pudding almost. Tau fu fa ain't no pudding yo

#Getcho tau fu fa right fellas #And nobody calls tau fu fa soybean pudding unless you're not native to this. So.. #Sorry not sorry but im just getting irked by food things that i grew up with #Soybean pudding my ass. The absolute hypocrissy that followed that name to suggest a franchise version in the same sentence #- bragging about growing up with them #or #Is just how singapore is #Aksjsksjskss s ksksjsksjs this is a fine line im tredding but i just find that bullshit. If it is how it is in Singapore then im sorry but #malaysia does it better 🙊 #Not to offend but honestly if you gotta look for franchise to adjust your tau fu fa sweetness im so fucking sorry pal #kinnporsche #gotta tag the source that started this rant

[chibelial]

Not me reminiscing on lost relationships again this is so old, damn near all my friends are gone. Few who aren’t are feeling more and more distant. My ex says she still feels just as strongly for me but with how things ended idk. History is just repeating itself yet again. Every time I reach a breaking point and people see how much of a mess I am, it’s awful. They just bail. I’ve basically just surrounded myself with fake people unintentionally, either that or I’m really just that overwhelming. It’s all happening again, for like the fourth time. She left me, and most of my friends did to. Got fucking Bakeracted and since then, fucking nobody is talking to me. Why am I so easy to throw away

#sorry for posting this fellas #idk how to meet new people anymore #I’m so used to having a fuckton of people around #now almost everybody is gone #personal #rant #sorry for whoever sees this #my mental health is plummeting yet again #why am I so expendable and replaceable #what don’t I have what am I doing wrong #there’s this profound loneliness around me #which is dumb I’ve got my family who are amazing #couple friends I still have are great #but they’ve been silent too nobody is answering me #mental illness #depression #anxiety #I want to end it all #tw #mental health tw #I can’t handle it like I just feel like I’m gasping for air #idk sorry for posting this

[the-passer-outer]

oc lore drop time but might have the total drama tag depending on how much i talk about them :3 (adding this one at the end, the tag is not being added)

okay so this is focused on mainly Titanium rn cuz uhhh.... that reset was wild af. basically okay i need to give the info about the guardian angel shit so heres that rq, Titanium used to be the guardian angel for both alejandro and tyler but at some point has gotten his guardian angel role like half revoked and is now only tyler's guardian angel. also the guardian angel role doesnt make them like an actual angel it just makes them their protector. Titanium is also one of the many to fall to the guardian angel effect which causes the person to fall in love (even if they dont want to be) with the person they are protecting.) so in this past reset Titanium and [REDACTED] got into a fight and for some reason [REDACTED] decided to taunt Titanium which isnt a good idea based off of the robot incident and the card incident, and just like those incidents it triggered something but it wasnt some violent freak out like i was expecting from Titanium.. instead it summoned a figure known as The Account, which I originally thought was some sort of representation of me cuz of certain reasons but turns out The Account is their own character. although this character is one of the ones who will glitch out when outside of their world (roblox for The Account) which leads to small issues and the fight never actually includes Titanium due to when The Account appeared, it sent Titanium to his original state, a horse with no thoughts or free choice, thats right Titanium is from the roblox game Wild Horse Islands (the herd is a very odd group sorry) Im a bit worried that Titanium will have a more then one reset snap and finally kill [REDACTED]

#ocs #my ocs #i got too silly #sorry for the random rant tbh #poor Titanium tbh.. #he was just some fella at the start of the td group :(

[player-tag]

i hate the fact that, for some people, you have to make something beneficial for them to get them to actually believe it. "consent is sexy" & "be kind to people because you'll get good luck" & "[conventionally unattractive thing] is actually super hot" etc etc. like, no, most of that isn't true most of the time. consent can be a bit awkward if you're shy and its your first time. complimenting people most of the time wont get you something grand in life. stretch marks and burns and scars aren't always pretty or pleasing to look at. but thats okay, and it should still be done. you do these things not for your benefit, but for other people. because the only reason we as a species have survived is because we are a community, we work together, we live for each other. and thats the benefit for us all.

#i dont know if im phrasing this correctly #but its important to me that people understand that most things arent meant there for your benefit #theyre there because we are human and we arent ever ever perfect #i hate the fact that we have to make everything beneficial for it to be good because that cant be right #bit of a rant fellas sorry about that