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hqhunybuns · 4 years

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hiiii can u plz do a kuroo first time blowjob?? thanks i love your blog!!!!!

hi sorry i was too busy playing animal crossing but im back

First Time Head with Kuroo

It was a bad idea that popped into your head, a terribly devilish thought that you were sure would get you in trouble-- but it was worth a shot, wasn't it?

You were the Nekoma volleyball team manager, and also the captain's girlfriend. What a wonderful world you live in; the team adored you, your boyfriend thought you were as sweet as sugar. The truth be told, you and Tetsurou had only gotten to first base the entirety of your eight month relationship. You were shy when it came to physical affection, and you had a bad habit of getting too nervous when your boyfriend's hands started wandering further than your shoulders. He was always the perfect gentleman when you had to stop due to your erratic heartbeat, and while you profusely apologized every time, he took it in stride and never pressured you to do anything you weren't comfortable with.

It wasn't that you didn't think he was attractive, it was quite the opposite. He was Adonis-- tall, lean muscle, abs, strong jaw line, hair that you wanted to run your hands through. He was too perfect and it intimidated you. Other than the physical limitations you had set, it was a great relationship. The two of you could talk for hours, joking and laughing. His personality fit yours, he didn't get upset at your sarcastic quips, he actually enjoyed then and retorted back with just as much sass.

"Y/n, what's the problem? Why do you look so nervous?" your friend Aimee asked once class had been released for lunch.

"Yeah, and you look really sweaty..." your other friend Sayori mentioned, motioning to your red face.

Fanning your face with your hands, you admitted, "I'm going to do the deed today, that's why I look like a hot mess."

The two girls grinned and squealed, gaining the attention of the few stragglers in the classroom. You hushed then quickly, hiding your head in your arms. "Guys, please! This is already a stressful day! I don't need you all screaming and making a big deal of it." you mumbled into your arms.

Someone patted your head and ruffled your hair. "You really must be nervous if you're scolding us instead of screaming too."

"You may be right, Sayori-chan, normally Y/n is the first one of us to scream about something exciting."

You lifted your head and glared at your friends while trying to hide your growing smile. Aimee grabbed your cheeks and squished them together while Sayori hoped with excitement, "You're finally growing up! You put on your big girl thong today!"

"Oh my God, please don't ever say that again!" you groaned, trying to push the brown haired girls hands away from your hurting cheeks.

Sayori stopped her jumping and put her hands on small hips. "But it's true, you're going to be be the first one of us to actually put one of those things in your mouth."

Aimee stopped her assault on your poor face and rebutted, "Hey! I almost did!"

"Yeah, but then you woke up from your dream and realized Morisuke wasn't actually there." you teased light heartily.

The three of you laughed and you finally stood from your desk, stepping out of the classroom with your two best friends. Your trio hiked up the steps to the roof, opening the door and scoping it out, making sure no one had claimed your lunch spot for themselves. The warn sun caressed your face and the breeze carried the scent of the freshly bloomed flowers with it, pollen included. It was a gorgeous day, barely any clouds in the sky and birds happily perched on the edge of the roof, singing songs in hopes of finding a mate.

Plopping down on one of the benches, you confessed, "I've never seen his... you know what in person, what if I hurt him?"

Sayori tied her red hair in a messy bun before responding. "I've given a hand job before, they're surprisingly durable; you're only going to hurt him if you bite him or something like that."

Before you could respond with a smart ass comment, the devil named Tetsurou texted you.

Volleybitch (4) unread messages

Hey doll face (Ф∀Ф)

im bored Kenma wont stop playing fire emblem to talk to me

he keeps talking about defeating the death knight but idk who that is

we still on for tonight? you get to pick the movie as long as its good

You rolled your eyes as you responded.

tell him to recruit lysithea and he can one shot him with her lol

yeah we're still on!! the fams gone for the weekend so we can actually use the big tv in the living room

just promise to take a shower before we leave bc i dont want u sweating up my couch you stink

literally all the time

nasty sweaty man

Putting your phone away, you focused on your friends who were still more excited about your nights rendezvous than you were. It was true that you didn't want your boyfriend making your house smelling like a gym, but you didn't want to put your mouth on him when he was just running around getting sweaty. You had standards, and smelling and tasting sweat was not apart of those standards

"You ready to ditch this popsicle stand?" Kuroo asked, tossing his water bottle in his gym bag. His hair was slightly damp from the quick shower he had just had.

You rolled your eyes and replied sardonically, "With you? Never."

"You're right, look at that eligible bachelor over there waiting to watch a shitty movie with you tonight." He walked over to you and flipped you, pointing at volleyball pole that was being put away. "That handsome man wants to take you to dinner, but he can only afford McDonalds. So sad, Y/n, you can only get something off of the dollar menu."

You raised your eyebrows in fake consideration. "Perhaps, but he doesn't have any muscles, so it's a hard pass. Sorry, mister pole, but you're still single."

Your tall boyfriend laughed and guided you towards the gym doors, his hand on your back. You bit back a blush when he rubbed your back slightly. You're about to give this man a blowjob and you wanna blush when he touches your back? You were hopeless.

"So what movie have you decided on? It better not be anything related to Minions or Legos, or I promise you I will cry." Tetsurou deadpanned.

Humming, you grinned. "It's a surprise."

The ten minute walk to your house felt like an hour. You and Kuroo talked about the tournament coming up, but all you think of was the fact that you were going to suck this hot man's cock. The thought made you blush and salivate. Ideally his shirt would be off, letting you see how his work out regime gave him a delicious torso. You wondered how big he was, how thick it would be; would he taste good, would he be shaved? What if he didn't want you to suck him off? Would he find it repulsive?

"Y/n? Hey, dollface, we're at your house, stop walking or you're going to end up at your neighbors front door," Tetsurou's voice brought you back from your daze.

"Oh, sorry, I was just thinking of a strategy for the team and I guess I got lost in thought." you chuckled nervously, forcing your blush to evade.

Unlocking the door and stepping inside, your heart officially started to race. How was this going to start?

Right, start a movie!

"I'll start a movie if you wanna go get us something to drink from the kitchen," you suggested as you made your way towards the living room.

You shut the blinds in fear your neighbors would end up looking into them and seeing your lewd actions and quickly double checked to see if you locked the front door. Call yourself paranoid, but you didn't need anything interrupting.

Tetsurou returned with two glasses of water and a smirk. Once he placed the two glasses on the coffee table, he sink into the couch and gazed at the TV. "So, I see the decision is The Breakfast Club. Again."

"You know it's one of my favorite movies!" you argued, sitting beside him.

The movie started, and twenty minutes into the movie, it was time to start your plan.

You took a deep breath, exhaling through your nose. With a shaky hand, you ran it down Tetsurou's arm idly, gaining his attention. You could see his eyebrows raise in question as he gazed at your fingers brushing against his bicep. You wet your lips and kissed his cheek, traveling to his mouth.

This caught him completely off guard.

He didn't complain, though, shifting his body to make it more comfortable for the both of you. Feeling confident in yourself, your tongue brushed against his lips, asking permission to enter. He happily obliged, opening his mouth and letting your tongue graze his. His hands wandered to your shoulders, rubbing them as your tongues battled for dominance-- in the end, Tetsurou was victorious.

Your lower stomach was getting hot, you could feel your panties begin to dampen with arousal. His hands trailed down your shoulders to your arms, rubbing them softly. Your hands went to his hair, running your fingers through the tresses. The black haired boy groaned in your mouth, making you clamp your thighs shut. Feeling a burst of confidence, you broke the kiss and climbed into his lap, shocking him.

His eyes were dark with lust as he panted, "This is a nice surprise."

"Hush, or I'll stop." you murmured, going back to his lips with newly found gusto.

You've never been this aroused, your panties were soaked and threatening to spill onto your inner thighs. You knew your face was flushed brightly, but kissing Kuroo and feeling him harden beneath you was making your brain numb. It buzzed with lust and you could only focus on how his hands moved to your sides and how they felt like hot fire, his finger tips leaving warmth.

Experimenting was never something you thought you'd do, but you swiveled your hips in his lap, earning a heartfelt groan from the man beneath you. Breaking the kiss once more, you gazed at him with glossy eyes. Remembering your research, you stepped off of his lap and kneeled in front of his sitting form, peering at him through your lashes.

You'd never seen Kuroo blush, but seeing you on your knees, flustered, hair tousled, and lips plump from kissing, you'd think he'd passed out.

The tent in his shorts were impressive, no matter how baggy the shorts were. Licking your lips once more, your shaking hands tentatively rubbed up his thighs, nearing his growing cock. He stuttered and swallowed harshly. "What do you think you're doing, doll face?"

"I'm going to suck you off, Tetsurou," You swore you heard him groan. "Unless you have a problem with that?"

He shook his head. "Not at all."

Swallowing the sudden nerves, you helped him pull his shorts and underwear down, releasing his cock. Your eyes widened once you saw how impressive it was. Would that fit in your mouth? Licking your lips, you stuck your tongue out and grazed the head of his swollen member, enticing a hiss from your boyfriend.

"Fuck, Y/n..." he muttered, bringing one of his clenched fists to his mouth, biting it.

Gaining the confidence back you had originally, you popped the head into your mouth, sucking it lightly. Tetsurou stuttered out a moan, whispering your name. You went down his shaft a bit further, gripping one of his thighs for leverage. Kuroo was very vocal, giving you praises and groaning every time you sucked your cheeks in. Your other hand went to grip the rest of his cock that you couldn't fit into your sore mouth. He was girthy, your jaw was beginning to hurt from the unusual strain. You bobbed your head with more speed, glancing up at Tetsurou who had his head thrown back in pure bliss. Your neglected, throbbing sex was growing more aroused with slick, this boy was going to be the death of you.

His hips started thrusting shallowly to meet your mouth, one of his hands going to your hair. His moans were becoming louder and the grip in your hair was growing tighter.

"That's it, Y/n, don't stop. God, who knew you had such a good mouth," he praised.

Kuroo Tetsurou was coming undone before you and it was sexiest thing you've ever seen.

All because of you.

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buckyswheezes · 3 years

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Perfectly Fine (Pt. 5)

Premise: “You know why I don’t like you? It’s because you’re a natural. You’re naturally kind, naturally good-looking; you can wear trash bags and still look perfectly fine. You’re naturally intelligent and excellent in everything you do. It’s like you naturally get what you want, you don’t have to work hard for it. You don’t have to pretend because people naturally like you.”

Or Bucky found out that the new oh-so-perfect Junior Accountant of Stark Industries isn’t as perfect as everyone thinks.

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4

It was only eight in the morning, but you found yourself busy as a bee. You woke up early that Saturday to somewhat clean up your apartment because Wanda would drop William off before her flight to DC. You promised her you’d look after the boy while she was gone, and you meant it.

An hour and a half later, the doorbell rang, and you wasted no time opening the door, knowing who it was.

“Hey, co-“

“Mornin’ doll.”

Your smile immediately vanished at the person in front of you, turning into a scowl. “The fuck are you doing here, you peasant?”

Never mind that he looked hot as hell in that black shirt. You loathed it when he shows up unannounced.

“Can’t I visit my girlfriend on weekends?” James retorted with a smirk and pushed past you to get inside. You did not miss the way his eyes widened in surprise. “Wow, this place is pristine.”

“Shut up, James.” You said as your trailed behind him towards the living room, annoyed at the apparent jab at your moment of cleanliness. “First, I am not your girlfriend, and second, I don’t have time for your blackmail shitshow today because Wanda and William will be here soon.”

“I’m gonna let that first one slide, doll since I know how grumpy you can be in the morning.”

You decided to ignore his statement, content with shooting eye daggers towards the back of his head. He went straight to the kitchen to make coffee, you knew, because that’s what he always does when he shows up unannounced and pesters you in your house.

Minutes later, the doorbell rang again, and you briefly hoped that this time, it’s Wanda and William behind the door. You got up from where you were seated on the couch, but James beat you to the door.

“I’ll get it.”

Alarmed, you ran towards him before he could open it. “No!” You lowly hissed. “I don’t want Wanda to know you’re here. Go hide in the kitchen.”

He raised a brow at you. “Wanda already knows we’re dating. What I got to hide for?”

“Yes, but I don’t want her to think that we’re… you know.” You flushed at the thought. You’ve always known that couples who go to their partner’s houses are doing it -not that you think you and James are couples. You just didn’t want Wanda to have the impression that you two are having sex as well.

You dropped your gaze from his face, and it fell on his chest. You didn’t miss the way how the dark fabric clung to him. He was well-built, no doubt; it was the first time you’ve seen him wearing clothing other than his suit and tie. His usually sleek brunette hair is tousled, but he still looked handsome as hell. The image will be etched in your mind for a while, you know it.

Bucky saw your face heat up and instantly knew what you were referring to. “We’re what, doll?” He smirked as he leans closer to your face.

Your breath hitched. “Nothing, just get to the god damned kitchen, please.”

“As you wish, sweetheart.” He conceded, which actually surprised you.

When James finally disappeared into the kitchen, you tried to calm yourself down before opening the door, greeting Wanda with a sweet smile.

“Thanks again, y/n. I owe you.”

“You’re welcome, Wanda. And don’t worry, Will’s in good hands.” You assured her.

The redhead turned to her son, who now stood beside you, your arm draped over his shoulder. “Now, you be good, okay. Don’t give y/n a hard time.” She reminded before giving him a peck on the cheek. She bid the both of you goodbye, and you both watched as she hailed a cab and climbed as soon as she got one.

You led the boy inside, noting how he got excited at the sight of James. You weren’t aware that they know each other.

“Hey, Will. Wanna go biking today?” James asked as he walked towards you two.

Your jaw dropped. No, that wasn’t what you planned to do today. You and Will were gonna binge watch Paw Patrol on Netflix, maybe munch on some sweet snacks, play a little, then hit the sack when night came.

“I don’t think tha-“

“YES!” William yelled enthusiastically, then looked at you, eyes pleading. “Can we go biking, y/n?”

“Oh, sure, Will. If that’s what you want.”

“Yay! Thank you y/n!”

Once again, you turned to James with a scowl, but he only grinned at you. If looks could kill, this man would be dead. “Go and get dressed, doll. We’re gonna have so much fun today.”

———

Bucky cast a worried glance at you. “You okay, doll?” He asked. You’ve been unusually quiet since you got in the car. You weren’t blessing him with your curses, and he thought it was because you’re censoring your words because of William, but he noticed that you weren’t even shooting him your virtual daggers.

You just sat there on the passenger seat with a blank face, and it got him concerned.

“Doll?” He called again when you didn’t respond the first time, and you finally looked at him as if broken from a trance.

“Huh?”

“You good?”

You bit your lip in trepidation as you recalled what James said earlier.

“We’re just like a family, bonding over the weekend. It’s gonna be fun.”

Family? Bonding? You sat there staring at his side profile but not really seeing him. You were lost in your thoughts. How do you bond with your family?

You were in second grade when you noticed that you were different from the other kids. You didn’t have a mother, and they did. And that’s what a family is, your teacher said. There’s a mother, a father, and their child or children. And the family has fun on the weekends, and they call it bonding.

You were shocked, scared, and you panicked. You didn’t have a family, and you certainly didn’t bond during weekends. No, what you did since you were six was helping around your father’s small repair shop after school. When the weekend came, he would spend the entire day drinking while you listen as he rants on about all his life’s problems.

You remembered asking yourself why? Why were you different? Maybe there’s something wrong with you? Maybe you didn’t really have a family, you didn’t have a mother, and you didn’t bond during weekends.

“I’m fine.” You finally said.

“You sure?”

“Yeah,” You squeaked. You know James wasn’t buying it, so you decided to change the subject instead. You turned to William, who sat in the back, seatbelt strapped on.

“What do you wanna do after biking, Will? Wanna go to the arcades?”

The boy’s eyes lit up at your suggestion. “Can we?”

“Of course! Then after that, we’ll grab pizza and ice cream. How’s that sound?”

“Can I have cotton candy too?”

You chuckled, a genuine smile finally gracing your lips. “Sure!”

True enough, the three of you went cycling by the park with rented bikes, after that, you rented rollerblades and went skating (you, failing miserably so while the two boys laughed at the way you fell on your butt cheeks but James was always there to help you out). Then you went and grabbed pizza and ice cream and cotton candy, and when you’re all full, you beelined for the arcades.

The night rolled in, Will is asleep on the back seat while you and James sat in front.

“Is this what you did with your family when you were a child?”

“Yes, my dad taught me how to ride a bike. Sometimes we’ll go to the movies, swimming, hiking. How about you?”

You shifted in your seat, heart beating loudly. You thought you’ve gotten over it, for fuck’s sake, it was a very long time ago! “No, we don’t… we didn’t do any of those things.” You glanced away.

You felt something warm envelope your hand. You turned and saw James leaning close. “It doesn’t really matter what you do, doll. It doesn’t matter if what you did was different; what’s important is you had a connection.”

You nodded at his comforting words.

“Now, let’s go home. I bet you’re tired.

Part 6

author's notes: This story's ending soon. Don't worry tho, if you want more AU Bucky, I have a couple stories lined up. I got you, fam.

Taglist: @crowleyqueenofhell

#bucky #bucky barnes #bucky fanfic #bucky barnes fanfic #bucky x you #bucky x reader #bucky barnes x you #bucky barnes x reader #james buchanan barnes

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that-soccer-guru · 3 years

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anon from the last ask, i do have to say, when foudy talked about colombia not being a top team i immediately went 😬 yikes. commentary was awkward asf between the both of them too.

i also applaud you for your lack of favouritism bias, as i’m sure all of us here have experienced, and putting everyone on the same field so to speak. not easy seeing people you’re a fan of be a part of this.

Dude I can fully admit that Colombia is not a top team, and that's not a secret. The federation looks at a team full of talent and gives them a single penny and hopes for a million in return. These girls are hiking up a mountain fam! They literally came in without a complete staff, just recently hired a goalkeeping coach, the federation didn't even pay their flights!

But bro..... Foudy can bite my ass. We had a literal 15yr old take the field. Our replacement goalkeeper is 17yrs old. This team is composed of, essentially, the U20 Colombia Squad. Let's see if the tables were turned how the US would've done. All due respect but fuck that.

Colombia may not be ready to break the uswnt winning streak right now, but give me a FIFA date so we can come in guns blazing with ALL the senior players who are abroad right now and the "dominant" us playing against a lowly team looks WAY different. It's unbecoming to say your rival isn't worthy of the game and Foudy is welcomed to bite me.

It sucks to watch my girls lose but I'm ALWAYS here to give credit where credit is due. All the women who took this field today put their heart and soul into their profession and absolutely deserve to get huge kudos for everything they do. WE CAN LOVE A TEAM AND STILL ADMIT WHEN THE OTHER TEAM IS BETTER. IT DOESN'T MAKE YOU ANY LESS OF A FAN! IT JUST MEANS YOU RESPECT THE SPORT!!!

Also if that last part is about Sonnett? She can get fucked. I said it when I was getting shit on for defending her when the tweet thing happen, I'll say it now that she's being an idiot, and I'll say it every fucking time I need to say it.

NOW I want to make something perfectly clear. I'm never gonna stand for attacking anyone for something unrelated. I'm not gonna jump on this "yeah fuck everything about her" or on attacking her looks or her person or whatever like Twitter likes to do. I still think she's worked her ass off to get here, I still think she's improved massively, I still think she has potential for more. But from here on everything to me is colored in disappointment because she's a coward, and nothing but true introspection and change from her is gonna change my mind.

And that is true for every player I love as it is for every player I don't. You get judged on your best here, and get told the truth the way it is, I won't have it any other way.

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summer-ville · 3 years

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I like that my hair matches my skirt. :)

Fam and I went to a Christmas tree farm today and my overalls and hiking boots were putting in WORK. Cut the tree down myself⚡️

#me #fashion #thrifting #body positive #aesthetic #grunge #leo #flowercore

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julietcushingsvibes · 3 years

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Hours slept: 9

Days plan: more time today than usual! Wake up, class, walk, meet with friends, dinner, homework, give a presentation, sleep!

Days reflection: I had free time today and I didn’t know what to do with myself lmaoo like, it felt so weird to not have a midterm or some other deadline hanging over me. Welp, I can take solace in knowing that tomorrow my schedg is gonna be filled back to back 😅 on another note I went on a really great hike today and got a lil sunburn :’) it’s starting to feel like summer :’)))) I didn’t do as much homework as I should’ve and ended up spending more time FaceTiming friends and hanging with my fam. Ya win some and ya lose some! But this kinda felt like a win <3 oh I also got potatoes from the store for cooking chronicles with Ranen tomorrow and I’m very excited !

Meals: toast with pb+banana, yogurt and fruit, dried mango, chicken with veggies and rice, tjs snack from Sab 😅 it’s high key too tempting having all that food

Feeling snacky: 😋🍬🧋🍿🍫

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blackcoffeeandblankpagess · 4 years

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An accumulation of thoughts ft. today’s turkey content

This afternoon we went around our neighborhood (largely to try to find some cats to say hi to (don’t worry we are not tryna pet any rn)) and we found my beloved turkeys and this cat! was so! freaking adorable! we watched him/her for like 15 minutes sneaking around the turkeys, he kept crouching like he was gonna pounce but then would just step back. The woman living in the house whose lawn this was all happening on came out at one point and we were like uh hi sry we just like watching the turkeys and she was like you’re good (lol)

Honestly seeing how much the neighborhood cats brighten my mood when I take a walk has me thinking about adopting a cat... I was looking into fostering requirements the other day out of curiosity. Not in the cards rn with our current housing/moving soon but maybe in a little bit...

in other news-

I did a lot of reaching out to people this week (and recently) and it feels good!

A few weeks ago before all hell broke loose I facetimed my highschool bff for awhile and caught up on like....5 years of life basically, last weekend I facetimed one of my best friends/the closest person I have to a sister from home, this week I talked with @runninglaur (hi ily) and tomorrow I’m talking to my college bff who I honestly have barely spoken with since graduation because life was hectic and I think we both just needed a lil space

also! a friend of mine set out to hike the AT like 2 weeks ago and it became pretty clear last week that it wasn’t looking very doable given everything happening re: corona virus. I talked with her on the phone for a long time last weekend about her decision to get off the trail after having this plan for the longest time and not knowing when she would get another chance, it honestly meant SO much to me that she wanted to talk to ME about such a huge thing in her life, and she specifically said she thought I would understand more than anyone because I’m the only person she knows who she could see actually doing it (for background, I have thought a little about the idea of hiking the AT over the years and have read a shit ton of books about it which I have since shared with her), ANYWAY, I think she might train for a half to channel that physical energy into another new challenge, she’s also going to school in oregon and I am thinking of a fall marathon (but literally whO KNOWS anymore) and I sent her the info for the half that goes with it so! exciting!

We are outta here may 1st and it feels really weird that our last month here is going to be so anti-climactic in terms of doing CA things, we had a lot scheduled which is now irrelevant so that’s kinda sad. My mom was supposed to be here this weekend which is clearly not happening :// Also we were originally planning on taking a long fun roadtrip back to the east coast and hanging in NJ with my fam but uh NJ is noooot doing so hot so it’s looking more like a sprint to NC

But I love jared’s family so not complaining

I finished reading where the crawdads sing and LOVED it!!! As I was told by everyone, it is a slow start but once I committed to it I breezed through like 300 pages this week after barely reading anything for months

Also want to read more, as I have said (doesn’t everyone say that?), and am trying to use this at home time as a reason to read the books I have here

knee is feeling okay! upped the leg pt the past two days and will probably continue to emphasize it in the coming days. going to take it for a spin tomorrow on a run and go from there. honestly feeling really lit up by the idea of training hard for a fall marathon. when I crossed the finish line in february with a 20 min PR I felt so so so excited to see what I could do if I reaaaaally put my all into it since my training this winter was less than ideal in 30000 ways. I am someone who thrives on routine so, think this will be good for me (ironically I had finally nailed down a plan for myself last weekend after weeks of not knowing and then BAM, hurt myself)

on friday nights I usually spend some time to myself decompressing and watching the week’s grey’s anatomy episode and can I just say I love that show? I know it’s been on since like....the dawn of time but I cry every. single. epsiode. and it is good!

tomorrow we are making waffles and it is supposed to rain and I am excited

#personalposts #berk

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a92vm · 4 years

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Today it was the first time in over 3 years I went to a family friend's house. It was the first time I was there since they lost their little boy, a boy I considered family. He was the sweetest and happiest boy, but you see bullying and some mental health issues became too much for him.

Today was a really good day with his fam, we laughed and had a nice meal and a hike... yet, everywhere I looked I kept waiting for him. I wish we could just see him one more time, tell him how much we love him, we miss him. Tell him he's one of the reasons I dedicated my masters to mental health. Tell him, despite how much it hurts, he still inspires me to move forward.

Today everything just hurts a little bit more and it makes me second guess everything. Today more than other days, I wish there was more done to help people fight these issues so there's less suffering... maybe one day...

#personal #trigger warning #today it just hurts #mental health

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cals-sunflower · 5 years

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Fantasy (B.A)

A/n: Based on Ruel’s new song that I fell in love with in just a day!!

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I’m so sick of thinking, staying up at night.

Last year you were the new addition to the friend group of the 360 fam. You’ve grown close to everyone but more so Izzy. Brandon was interested in you since you guys met at a party they threw at their house. You weren’t gonna lie and say you didn’t think about him because you did. It seemed like you both stayed up late at night thinking about the other.

When I think about her face, these problems don’t exist.

Brandon finds himself looking at something in a store or outside that reminds him of you and instantly he pictures your face. He tends to smile throughout the days when you guys don’t get to hangout because you text or FaceTime daily.

“I miss you Brandon”, you said over the phone with a pout. Brandon smiled at your face.

“I miss you too mamas. Even though we just saw each other last week”, he laughed.

“B that was last week!! I’m talking about this week”, you said.

“I’m sorry we’ve been busy at the studio”, he honestly says.

“It’s okay, as long as I get to hear what’s coming up”, you smiled.

“I’m sorry to bother you guys but yo Brandon we gotta get back to work”, Nick said.

“That’s fine! Umm call me later bubba”, you said.

“Okay I will ma”, Brandon said. You guys say your final goodbyes and get off the phone.

I want all the conversations, tell me all your fears.

You guys both put in a 120% all the time into your relationship. Though you weren’t dating. Late night cuddles and deep talks were Brandon’s favorite. Except one night it took a turn for the worse.

“I know we both have feelings for each other yet we are still playing this game. We do everything a couple does but why can’t we put a label on us”, Brandon asked you with his arms around you waist.

“B, I thought i explained that I wasn’t ready for the label yet. I like what we have going on”, you frowned.

“But i want more Y/n. Do you not get how I feel?”, he said removing his arms from around you and turning where his back is facing you. You wanted to cry because as badly as you wanted Brandon to be your boyfriend, you had a problem because of how many heart breaks you’ve had. You got up out of the bed and left the house to go to your house.

Cause I know that it’s hard for you to trust, no one’s ever given you enough. I might need to stop and give it up.

Brandon didn’t want to just give up this thing you guys have going on. You guys haven’t talked in days and that killed him. He was just really tired of the back and forth between you guys.

“Do you honestly love her?”, Edwin questioned his band mate. Brandon looks down and smiles.

“Yeah I really do”, he states.

“Then go and get your woman stupid”, Edwin said. And with that Brandon got into the car and drove to your house. After 30 minutes, he gets out and knocks on the door. Izzy opens the door.

“Hey B, what’s up?”, Izzy said.

“Where’s Y/n?”, the paniced boy asked.

“She’s in the kitchen”, Izzy said and opened the door wider. Brandon comes in and sees you in shorts and his shirt.

“Who’s at the door Iz?”, you asked while still cooking breakfast.

“Look up and see for your self”, she smiled. You looked up at Brandon.

“I’m sorry for trying to push a label on us”, he says.

“Brandon I’m sorry for even not thinking about your feelings”, you say. You move towards him while Izzy moved to the oven to continue the food.

“I missed you so much”, he said and hugged you. You instantly hug back missing the feeling of his arms around you.

“I know it’s hard you to trust but you have to let me in please ma”, he whispered in your ear.

“Okay I will”, you said.

Need to leave this sanctuary for something true.

I just want the real thing.

It’s been days since you guys made up and you were finally being more open for him. Hand holding in public, small kisses around the friend group. Today was the night you tell Brandon you love him. You were so happy to do it and it was time. You took him to a little hiking trail and sat down with blankets and some snacks.

“So i decide i could take you on a date”, you started. He smiled at your nervousness.

“You okay?”, he asked and touched your hand.

“If I don’t tell you now then I might not ever do it”, you said. He looked at you with a concerned look. He wasn’t sure what you were gonna say.

“You always said you wanted the real thing between us and so do I. Brandon I’m completely in love with you and I want you to be my boyfriend”, you smiled. He looked at you and brought you in for a kiss.

“Boyfriend and girlfriend”, Brandon said.

“Boyfriend and girlfriend”, you repeated.

After sitting and enjoying the sun set you guys got back in the car and went to the house. He drove with his hand on your thigh rubbing small circles. You guys make it to the house and get out the car.

“How was your date kids”, Zion joked.

“He’s my boyfriend now”, you smiled.

“Finally!!!”, Austin exclaimed. Everyone in the room laughed. You and B walked to his room and layed down once getting in.

“I finally have you all to myself”, he said and grabbed you to put you in his lap while he continued laying down.

“Yeah that means no breaking my heart Arreaga”, you said. He laughed.

“Never that honey but you look good sitting on my lap”, he rubbed your waist and thighs.

“Oh knock it off”, you smiled and leaned down to kiss him.

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