#thoughts and notions

[zaralovestaylor]

you put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray

#taylor swift #taylornation #taylurking #debut #fearless #speak now #red #1989 #reputation #lover #folklore #evermore #midnights #the tortured poets department #ts ttpd #cold as you #thoughts and notions #text #paralells #zara says things

[wisteriaandwafers]

i have a new tag: hubby!bobby on my other blog and it’s so cute!!!

😂

my sister said i tend to have crushes on loser types and she’s not wrong.

even the last real life guy i liked had certain loser tendencies- but his laugh was so cute that i didn’t mind

#hubby!bobby 😂 #bobby fan club #fanfiction things #thoughts and notions #bob floyd x reader #top gun posting

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Gaslight, Gatekeep, Girl found dead in a hidden room.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #lan xichen #jin guangyao #jiang cheng #wei wuxian #qin su #EDIT: Tumblr published an earlier draft with only half the notes I wrote so: late entry on my JGY thoughts. #Unlike the mystic powers of the stockmarket (what the OG meme is referring to) I think this situation calls for more active investigation. #qin su is such a deeply tragic character to me and I really wish we got a bit more from her. #Love everyone who sent me messages about her after the last time she appeared. #I think she needs a spin off of her being a transmigrator SO badly. #MDZS has so many interesting characters - but it sometimes fails to give them the proper room to really develop past a role in the plot. #That's just the consequence of writing a story like MDZS. Not every character in a book *needs* to have a rich inner life and backstory! #To do so would bog down the story and obliterate any notion of pacing. It's just not possible. #Jin Guangyao (nee Meng Yao) is unfortunately not free from this leeway rule. He is the culprit of this murder mystery plot #and thus NEEDS to encapsulate the themes of the book. And personally he's a 7 out of 10 at best on this front (in the AD). #MDZS is about rumours twisting reality and working towards truth. And about how people & situations are rarely ever black & white #JGY has his motivations. He's well written in regards to his actions making sense for his character. #What started as good traits (drive to succeed & improve his image) became twisted over time (do anything to maintain his image) #and it's a good parallel to WWX! He has the same arc (with different traits)! Bonus points for IGY in that regard. #but man....by the time we confront this guy for murder there's not a lot of grey morality. He's just...deep in the hole *he* dug. #There's a beautiful tragedy to it! More on JGY in later comics - this is getting pretty long already!

[theloverstomb]

shoutout to any girls/women who have ever unironically and maliciously been called weird, creepy, scary etc

#I got you <3 #i’ve also been called possessed and a vampire but thought they were a bit too specific for the wider post lol #I find it kind of funny being called these things now but these notions defined my high school experience in a really negative way #and have affected my mental health considerably #l

[turtleblogatlast]

[ cw: nightmares / trauma / ]

Post-invasion, Mikey sneaks into Leo’s room and when asked by Leo what the problem was, Mikey just smiles and says since he’s awake and knew Leo would be too, he didn’t want either of them alone. Leo laughs and lets Mikey stick around, both of them clumped together on Leo’s bed, watching grainy compilations of old Lou Jitsu commercials on Leo’s phone.

Technically, Mikey didn’t lie. He just didn’t explain everything that led him to Leo’s room. He didn’t explain the nightmare of his arms burning up too bright, too fast, destroyed before Raph and Donnie have a chance to help. He didn’t explain how he woke up with a wail caught in his throat, phantom pain in his arms and chest alike chasing away any semblance of exhaustion. He didn’t explain how his mind made sure he knew, vividly, that if one thing went wrong with his portal, then he would have never seen Leo again.

He didn’t explain, and he didn’t have to. Leo knows his brothers better than he knows himself, and Mikey has always been easy to read. So it’s no trouble to let Mikey know that he’s still with them, that Leo is here and alive with everyone else. And when Mikey finally regains his exhaustion and falls asleep leaning against Leo, Leo simply maneuvers him into a more comfortable position and stays by his side.

He doesn’t move, doesn’t go to sleep - not that he could, anyway. He just mindlessly scrolls on his phone, the soft snores of his little brother filling the room. He stays in place, awake, because he wants to be sure that when Mikey wakes up again it’s to the immediate sight that Leo is alive and well and home.

And, if Leo’s bring honest, that’s a reminder not just for Mikey’s sake.

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt mikey #rottmnt leo #rise mikey #rise leo #portal pals #one of my favorite things about Mikey is how self assured he really is not only in his skills but in his sense of self #but no matter how confident you are how much faith in yourself and others you have anyone can be struck by what ifs #and trauma isn’t so easily brushed over #so I can easily see Mikey struggling occasionally with the notion that ah. I did it. but what if I didn’t. #bros the worlds best mystic warrior in part because he can do real miracles #but miracles are only thought to be so because they’re near impossible feats #and with the knowledge that he is capable of opening timelines…I wonder if a part of Mikey fears falling into one where he failed #now - Mikey is not one to get wrapped up in insecurity he really isn’t #but for something so important and such a possible fear? at the very least I can see his subconscious manifesting a nightmare or two #most likely more - he’s a kid after all #they all are #ANYWAY love this duo lol #almost positive I wrote something similar to this wayyyyyy long ago but bleh I’ll write it again idc idc

[krikidilly]

Yours is a life worth living.

#Rui isnt an optimist but after spending time with Senjuro he does become more willing to believe good people exist and for a reason #so. he becomes sickened by any notion he would allow death or harm to befall Senjuro. #to a sorta overbearing degree he is still an arrogant little dude who thinks he can just tell people what to do but. yknow #thought that counts #senrui #rengoku senjuro #rui ayaki #demon slayer #kimetsu no yaiba #kny #my art #senrui kakushi au

[system-architect]

i desperately wish gw2 had more food-centric lore. i think about asura food more than is probably particularly reasonable. they're sort of implied to like molecular gastronomy in the lvl500 chef quests which is fitting and makes sense, but surely not every asura is eating bespoke Pea Spheres day in and day out right? i think my favorite angle on them is a sort of 50s-80s american-esque food style where there's a huge emphasis on things being Convenient and Scientific, so you'd get a lot of absolute slop tv dinners and canned items that have labels boasting how they were nutritionally fortified and contained your day's complete vitamin intakes and so on. a lot of jellied things. i do also fully believe they would have + eat soylent.

#my stuff #gw2 asura #asura #plex getting through his day on 2 cups of coffee 1 cup of liquid IV and a Breakfast Bar #goes home and has a kid cuisine. #idk how to explain but asura and like 50s-80s design and culture notions just go hand in hand to me #i want to see them working in little wood paneled cubicles ok #just brazenly smoking at work while typing on an unnecessarily clunky interface #inquest superior calls you into her office. every wall is a mirror. its triangle shaped for no reason. she is wearing shoulder pads. #i just want that 'lower levels of portal 2' energy maybe #(i think this thought started when i was replaying a bug in the system and noticed their offices have SO many potted palm trees) #(i was looking at those plus the neon lights and going like Hmmmm...Miami while being chased by 9458309 plague beetles) #these tags are really rambling on sorry LOLLL

[hotcinnamonsunset]

rabbit heart (raise it up) but make it fashion❣️🐇

#knitting #knitblr #wip #florence and the machine #pattern is called lion hearted on ravelry❣️ #if you thought I used up all my sweater symbolism designing Melville. well. I’ve got news for you. #(this gal was an english and lit class suck up. the symbolism never stops.) #admittedly it’s a bit heavy handed and on the nose. alas. but the designs just hit better that way! #the raglan shaping is meant to replicate an EKG with heartbeats. the notion of wearing your heart on your sleeve…and the song being about #a rabbit hearted girl. hence. rabbits and hearts on the cuffs. #the most vulnerable part of these lyrics (i wish that i could just be brave) on the most vulnerable part of the sweater (the back) #(because anyone can see it but you don’t realize who’s looking and reading your deepest desires) #anyways. I wanted to knit a lot of words in different fonts and sizes and I listened to florence on repeat and this happened.

[butterflysonnets]

yes i'm rooting for m*leven breakup because byler is neat but mostly? i'm rooting for m*leven breakup for the sake of el and mike.

to me, their romance was always a puppy love born out of a combination of social pressures, naïve curiosity, and a lack of true understanding regarding intimacy and romantic love and what it really is. it was real in that they do truly, deeply care about each other and they are close friends, maybe even shared an attraction, but a maturing romance is so much more than that. they've grown up and out of being boyfriend/girlfriend, and that's okay! i think television/film needs to show more often that most of us don't have definite "soulmates" or first childhood loves that we spend our whole lives with. it doesn't mean these relationships meant nothing and didn't impact us, it just means they've run their course and that something else is in the cards, and this is part of life!

i've always felt el was at her best and most confident self when broken up with mike, discovering who she was and what she liked alongside another girl her age instead of just relying on mike for mentorship on how to live in the real world. she deserves more of an opportunity to find herself, her autonomy, and her independence, and to love who she is, and she's made it clear she's felt insecure in the relationship with mike because she isn't being loved and understood the way she wants, needs, and deserves from someone who is her partner.

also, it's okay if mike doesn't love her in "the way he should". he is not obligated to love her romantically and stay in a relationship with her just because she's a girl, because she "needed someone", or because he cares about her a lot. he shouldn't be pressured into a romance if it's not truly coming from his heart. he deserves freedom to find out and honour who he is, too, instead of just staying in his non-functional first relationship — one he got into as a child, essentially — and defining himself that way because it's what's expected when a boy and a girl are close. he loves her in some way, yes, but it's okay if he doesn't feel comfortable or secure being her boyfriend anymore, for whatever reason that is. he's felt insecure too, and that's valid and it matters.

they are their own people and are steadily growing and changing every day. they need time to figure out who those people are, and it's become clear (at least in my opinion) that those people aren't meant to be a couple at this stage.

they deserve freedom. they deserve to grow up and be authentic to themselves and not feel like they need to lie for the sake of a relationship. they deserve to move on from this version of their relationship that isn't making them happy and rekindle the best part of their bond: their strong, beautiful friendship. they don't have to be a couple if it doesn't make them stronger and better and happier people.

i think it would be healthy and wonderful for a show, especially one consumed frequently by young adults, to show a relationship starting, progressing, and ending on good terms in this way. sometimes things don't work out, and that is okay.

#eve text #elmike #stranger things #byler #only tagging byler because i feel like yall will like this take lol #tagging tagging tagging WHAT ARE EVERYONE ELSE'S THOUGHTS #god i can't believe i'm making a post about stranger things. this feels like poking a bear #i'm not particularly anti m*leven but like... they'd have to do something pretty special at this point for me to feel like it's viable #i'm seeing the bts of s5 and it's got me Having Thoughts #elmike friendship is something i am so passionate about #even before i ever liked byler (didn't ship at all until s4 even though i knew it was a thing before) i've felt this way about elmike #i always believed they were close friends at heart and needed to break up #the romance part of them felt very distinctly young and very much “he was a boy she was a girl” to me #and it hasn't deepened into anything more mature and i don't see how it could based on the current state of the writing... #the fact that lumax exists — a young relationship that is actively maturing and is healthy — makes that clear to me #and the “love confession” in s4 and how disingenuous and miserable it felt was just the nail in the coffin #also the fact that will (who is IN LOVE with mike) was instrumental in making it happen? ... uh... okay... interesting choice… #fucked up and reductive if they make it another queer unrequited love sacrifice for the sake of pushing the heterosexual agenda YUCK #so i really hope the speculation about a m*leven breakup is real!! i think it just makes sense for their characters but who knows #i don't believe in the notion of love at first sight or one true love and i think the writers don't too??? #love to me is an accumulation of experiences and we inevitably choose it at some point rather than fall into it... but idk #tv is so fixated on keeping couples together... sometimes it's just not reality guys especially with young people... LET IT GO... #like i said though i'm not 100% sold that they're going to give up their “golden couple” LMAO #stranger things hasn't historically subverted too many tropes if i'm being honest #anyway i seriously need this season to come out quickly... i'm so bored and getting my master's is crushing my soul #i need frivolity #ALSO btw i won't respond to hateful messages about this so please don't bother. it's not that serious. this is a netflix show

[solmesia]

Not enough Halstarion out there with an unashamed breeding kink 😳

Time to be the change I want see in world 😩

#I’m not asleep #Stuff I say #i mean for real #i go insane at the idea of astarion begging to be bred??????? #I mean obviously it’s not like he can be but damn the notion of it makes Halsins brain short circuit #Viciously chewing more drywall as I place this thought next to the biting kink #Hhhhhhhh #nsft

[sarmaril]

Thinking about the Durante/Zenos WoL/Golbez parallels right now and the one that sticks out the absolute MOST is that Durante is what Zenos would have been if he had his "good reason." If he and the WoL had been on the same team to begin with, if they were fighting the same fight.

Durante doesn't know how to cope with Golbez gone, he was who he was because of Golbez, what was he *without* Golbez, so instead of finding that out, he BECAME Golbez. Just as Zenos needed to know the WoL so badly that he hijacked their body, Durante needed to keep Golbez as close as possible and followed his friend's ambition to it's most destructive extreme, his way of keeping Golbez alive. Like Zenos tore the world apart to keep HIS connection with WoL alive.

#if they didnt want me to draw these connections they wouldnt have peppered the zenos imagrey through this #the fact that zero was zeno's avatar and her first notion of friendship was Zeno's feelings toward thr WoL #and the fact that Zero was the one to pull Durante back from the brink #many thoughts #and zenis blinders babyyyy #ffxiv #zenos yae galvus #zenos viator galvus #zenoswol #6.5 spoilers #endwalker spoilers #chewing on them like a dog

[madamemiz]

Drawing prompts... how about Sun's reaction to seeing a real rainbow for the first time?

what do you mean they're kind of transparent?? and don't always go across the sky? why aren't they more vibrant???? :(

#listen i know the obvious answer is awe and amazement but tbh this as my first thought and it's funnier so it won out #not all natural phenomena will be winners. rainbows are everywhere in the daycare #they have preconceived notions u_u #fnaf sb #fnaf daycare attendant #fnaf sun #ventura highway #my art #this is going in a future chapter btw

[enagismos]

what's happening in makhachkala is sickening. an angry mob of people congregated in an airport to search for jews among those who took the tel aviv-makhachkala flight. a series of antisemitic violent events has gone across north caucasus and it pains me to see this. our support of palestine shouldn't mean antisemitism and what's happening now is misplaced anger at best and violent lynching at worst. this is all so so wrong and i wish calm and safety to all jewish people in caucasus rn

#free palestine #antisemitism #disclaimer: i support palestinians. i think israel is a fascist apartheid state and it shouldn't exist #i also think antisemitism is wrong and not what we should be fucking doing #a simple thought really. these two notions can and should coexist

[nanoa1foryou]

Hey, Nace girlies, quick question. How do you feel about the fact that Nace's hands look that big around Bojan?

(x)

#joker out #alternate title. Pictures that make Bojan look so so tiny #nace jordan #bojan cvjetićanin #sorry my brain has been melting for a week so I have no smart thoughts left #only indicent notions or whatever the fuck this band called their first album

[ancientgoddessofegypt]

Black Moon Lilith Astro Observations <3

Strong lilith holders know that they are complex, and must go through the shadow to uncover what they find. When people are not sure of them they can be stalkers in trying to figure out who they really are. Some people will project on to them while studying their every move. Wondering about who they truly are to the core, most find themselves falling in love with them and dont realize it. Jealousy is a stronger experience they have with others because they live so freely and this bursts peoples bubble about the reality they live in.

Most do desire a passionate connection with others, but they notice how sexual there looked at & tend to hide there desires from other people. They could be used for their internal discoveries meaning they can be picked apart so that people can see them as some sort of science experiment. Kind of how like scorpios are picked apart when people are around them trying to 'perceive' them.

Black moon lilith conjunct venus may put these people in a lot of situations they do not want to be in. Polyamory might be something they just walk into. Could end up a side chick or hidden from there lovers for feeling 'ashamed'. Could be fetishized.

Black moon lilith conjunct mercury babes have a desire to speak truth and allow their minds to uncover the darkness that surrounds their community. The voices of reason for taboo scenarios and subjects people would rather stick under the rug. Will go the extra mile for individuals who do not have a voice.

Black moon conjunct uranus individuals have a knack for anything new and different. They will most definitely do that wild fetish if it means it'll give them that rush of ecstacy they crave. Yes they'll join that wild orgy lmfao cause why not???? lmao I kid.

Black moon lilith conjunct neptune can be alluring and people want to be around them. its just something about them. obsessions around their character and actually not being seen as a real person. this could be terrifying for them cause most people will just look at them as a piece of meat.

#black moon lilith astrology #black moon lilith rising #black moon lilith #black moon lilith placements #black moon lilith 5th house #black moon lilith observations #astro observations #lilith conjunct mercury #lilith conjunct venus #astrology thoughts #astrology notions #tropical astrology #deja's astro observations #lilith theories

[inficetegodwottery]

So. Werewolf 5th Edition.

Werewolf 5th edition sucks. A lot.

Edit- I made some errors in my initial edit of this post that were fuelled entirely by being underinformed and almost insensible with anger, disappointment, and anxiety.

Some very informative responses have been made that I intend to incorporate into a much better and less rambling post with those updates and corrections. I'll probably delete this one soon as I type that one together, so folks only see the updated version.

Sorry for any mistakes I made on this old version, again, I was in an extremely poor place mentally and thoroughly dispirited by the total butchering of what was supposed to be a less shitty and mean-spirited version of a setting I care deeply for despite its foundational flaws and 30+ year history of exactly this thing happening.

I'm still very, very angry. But it's important to be angry and correct. This post was not made by someone informed of all the facts, and I intend to correct that.

Paradox Interactive has made the brave decision to reboot the controversial Werewolf the Apocalypse setting entirely rather than try and fix it, and have somehow done a worse job than the games studio that released an RPG book titled an ethnic slur.

It's taken me almost a month since this came out to be anywhere near mentally prepared enough to even collect my thoughts on it.

Man, it is rare to see an edition of ANYTHING that pisses off old players, new players, players who want to keep the lore the same, players who want to change the lore, conservative players, radical players, and even powergamers.

How do you set out with the intention of making an infamously dated and poorly researched/outreached setting LESS uncomfortable and racist from a modern perspective.... and end up with something EVEN MORE racist and uncomfortable, but also suffocatingly tonedeaf, insincere, and deeply sinister and corporate in its erasure of existing issues rather than addressing them whatsoever.

We made the Get of Fenris irredeemably evil because some of them in the past were nazis and also nazis like Germanic mythology, so the viking werewolves are all nazis now.

Okay, I understand why you did that from a modern political perspective even if its kind of heavy hand-

The Native American werewolf tribes have been removed entirely and replaced with American Murican werewolf tribes. Renaming and rewriting them to be more respectful was just too much work! Now they're more inclusive. :)

The Irish werewolf tribe is now the Nature Werewolves tribe, like every other tribe of Werewolves also is, but also stripped completely of celtic origins.

The Red Talons are openly genocidal ecofascist malthusians and somehow NOT IRREDEEMABLY EVIL like the Get of Fenris are.

Also the feminist all women werewolves are no longer all women or even feminist. AND ALSO SOME OF THEM ARE SOCIAL DARWINISTS AND THATS SUPPOSED TO BE A GOOD THING!?!

Also we entirely dropped the themes about how forcing children to be a part of a war they barely understand while also lying to them about the crimes their ancestors committed that led to the current crisis is fucked up and evil.

Now its actually awesome to be a child soldier born into a repressive apocalyptic death cult with a siege mentality and everything is cool about that actually, you're the Good Guys, and no amount of covered-up historic genocides or internal/external bigotry will ever change that! :)

Also we solved the way people were uncomfortable with the idea that werewolf society is transitioning messily from being horrible ableist assholes that discriminated for centuries against those they view as deformed, disabled, or sexual deviants to new generations that don't care about that stuff, by removing disabled werewolves entirely! Problem solved! No more discomfort or moral conundrums! We are the liberal-est!

There's just something so unbelievably fucked up and suspicious about erasing entire minorities from a fictional universe because they were handled poorly in the first edition, rather than talking to writers and outreach specialists FROM the real world equivalents to those minorities to try and rewrite them.

Don't worry, we removed the group the setting was bigoted against! Problem solved! Just remove the minority!

I've written my own post on why the Metis/Crinos-born should be renamed and probably rewritten, but as a severely disabled individual with multiple hereditary disabilities that severely impact my QoL, outright removing disabled characters in a work of fiction because the prejudice other characters showed them in-universe made people uncomfortable makes me want to tear out someone's throat with my teeth.

Sure, completely remove my ability to play disabled a character fighting back against prejudice and bigotry, rather than rewrite the most uncomfortable aspects of YOUR FUCKING PORTRAYAL OF THOSE CHARACTERS to make it more clear who the sympathetic one is supposed to be.

It's just so unbelievably cowardly and whinging and wretched.

So fuck it, I guess!

Fuck the deeply applicable themes of being born into a well-intentioned but deeply flawed and bigoted society, and trying to create the better world your parents always told you your ancestors fought for, while dealing with the fact that your world is built on mass graves those ancestors helped fill.

Fuck a game that deals with intergenerational trauma and the ethical hellscape that is a highly religious society devoted to the very same ideals it often violates just to win fights against the enemies it created through its own arrogance and prejudice.

Fuck a game that lets you play someone born different, born strange and sickly, bouncing constantly between people who pity you and people who view you as subhuman, before finally finding the people, the family who love and accept and fight alongside you for a world that has never accepted you, but WILL FUCKING KNOW YOUR NAME.

That's not relevant to the real world at all!

There are no kids born in deeply flawed and hypocritical societies, who grew up on stories of the glorious future their society would create, forced then to reconcile the hopeful dreams of a better world with the comprehensive list of horrific things done in the name of that future.

There are no children born confused and alone in their navigation of the maze that is past atrocities, ethnic conflicts, religious prejudice and dogma, or modern propaganda attempting to erase the histories of all of those things.

There are no disabled teens who spent their lives believing they didn't belong in the world, kept going only by the connections they forged with other outsiders and people who fought back against the kind of wretched bigotry that suffocates children to death, who found homes and families they could trust outside the pissant communities they were born into.

Apparently those people don't need a game! They don't need to explore those feelings!

Just throw some more nazis in, so we can pretend we care about social issues or understand the redeeming threads of a deeply flawed gameline, ostensibly so we market it to leftist youngsters, but while we also erase the entire point of a game WHICH IS ALL ABOUT BEING PUNKASS YOUNGSTERS DESPERATELY TRYING TO FIND THE REDEEMING THREADS OF A DEEPLY FLAWED AND PREJUDICED SOCIETY THAT CONSTRAINS THEM, FINDING A WAY TO REBEL AGAINST BOTH THE EVILS OF THE RACIST BASTARDS WHO RAISED THEM AND THE POMPOUS SHITHEADS WHO WANT TO DESTROY THE WORLD OUT OF GREED.

No! We want a squeaky clean, sterile white game that AmericanTM parents can be proud of their kids for playing! A marketable game, that advertisers will gladly pay Revenue to put their products in! Play the good guys, everyone! You're the good guys! Be a big werewolf UwU!

Don't worry about historical atrocities or the flaws of the society that raised you! That's Pentex propaganda!

Fighting bad guys means you can't do anything bad yourself! The Emperor told me so! Deus Gaia Vult!

A hollow, performative, offensive jizzstain that should've been scrapped in its crib. I have no idea how this edition got past a quality assurance team.

Hell I have no idea how it got past a legal team, given the number of real peoples' likenesses they used without permission.

Devoid of artistic integrity or merit.

#werewolf the apocalypse #W5 #wta #owod #world of darkness #I'm just so tired man #putting most of this under a TLDR so I don't flashbang people with tabletop rpg drama #I genuinely thought the new writers would be better at this stuff than the old White Wolf #Nope. #turns out they're just as bad #I shouldn't have expected anything more from them after the V5 Chechnya bullshit #but I guess I just had the dumb notion of hoping they'd gotten better #how the fuck do you do worse than a company that wrote a sourcebook about the Holocaust???!?