#we are trapped in what other people see

[murderonthedullexpress]

“Trapped”

Stone Butch Blues - Leslie Feinberg

@/lilboyblueish on Instagram

Poem by Keaton St. James (@boykeats)

I/Me/Myself - Will Wood

We Both Laughed In Pleasure by Lou Sullivan

cis people asking cis questions by Silas Denver Melvin (@sweatermuppet)

Tomboy Survival Guide by Ivan Coyote

#we are trapped in what other people see #trans #transgender #transsexual #nonbinary #butch #femme #stone butch blues #leslie feinberg #boykeats #poetry #trans poetry #will wood #lou sullivan #we both laughed in pleasure #silas denver melvin #sweatermuppet #ivan coyote #queer #gay #lgbt #lgbtq #web weaving #parallels

[badolmen]

I can fix him*

*bad writing, underutilized gameplay mechanics, characters with unfulfilled potential, funded by bootlickers

#ra speaks #personal #sorry I made dr phone calls and have like. ten minutes til I gotta get ready for first class of the semester. let me have this. #I think I should get every COD game ever for free. it’s MY tax dollars at work after all (actually anything produced w us military funding #should be free I think I can trap even my bootlicker tax hating dad into getting onboard w this one) #anyways. ghosts was…decent. but jfc if you give me a silent protag I expect SOME self awareness in the writing. #why are characters calling to him on comms when they know he won’t respond? why doesn’t he have an AAC device or something more futuristic? #I’m just saying if you explicitly limit a character you need to respect those limits in te writing. it’s not that hard. #like non of the characters even acknowledge that Logan never talks. esp weird when he first meets the ghosts #also. obv not a big fan of ‘all of South America has United into evil space terrorists’ but it was 2013 so ¯\ _(ツ)_/¯ #wish we got to see some SDC civis y’know? get a bear on the average attitudes abt the whole. invading the US thing. #(jfc do not get me started on The Wall like this is a 2016 trump voter’s power fantasy) #also Riley was such an interesting mechanic why couldn’t they have at least substituted him w drones or something on the other missions?? #you get him for like. two missions. and then he gets shot and you have to protect him (gosh I actually loved that section) #just. it was clear Logan was The Dog Guy with an aptitude for tech. honestly Hesh felt more like the MC than Logan. #and while Logan doesn’t have a ton of personality we can glean as a result of non speaking + ZERO communication at all ever #seriously he doesn’t even like. wave or give thumbs up to people wtf dude do ppl just assume he’s psychic or something??? #I do LOVE the few scenes we get with him acting outside of player control/where he actually has agency (Elias’ death. the final cutscene) #and like it’s not much but it’s enough that I WANT to see what happens next #but alas. a decade old game without a true sequel (I think??? haven’t actually looked into it.) #my brother is making fun of me for being a COD gamer now like boy. I have no defense pls be nice to me T-T

[caterpillarinacave]

For the yes/no ask game: If you were interested in picking berries and learned all the good spots in your area to collect from, of which there happened to be many, and you found yourself falling into a little community of berry pickers, where you trade locations, recipes, and knowledge of berries, and one day you heard of a little local legend about a lost grove that's supposed to have some of the most delicious berries but no one remembers the path since the markers for it were washed away one particularly strong storm, only a general area of where it might be is recalled, but you're intrigued, so armed with what little information you have and boatload of determination, you pack yourself a little picnic and decide to make a day of it, hiking out to the spot, and it takes the better part of a morning, mostly because you keep stopping to check for berries, but by noon you've reached a place you're pretty sure must be it because the bushes are so high and thick they seem to be trying to drown out the sky itself and the berries (which you one hundred and ten percent recognize 'cause you're cool like that) are plentiful as expected, so you get to work filling your basket and while you're collecting you stumble across a couple little neat trinkets you decide to pocket as well (a spinning top, a key, a dog tag, and an old useless walkie-talkie) and before long you've filled your basket and you start your trek back following your markers, only to see a door halfway back, standing in a frame in the middle of a clearing of a thicket, so, obviously intrigued, you wander over to give a closer look, it's old, vines climbing the brick around the frame, it's closed and the door is painted black, when you try the handle you see it is locked, when you go to the other side you see the door is white, and when you try the handle the same applies, even when you rattle it nothing happens and while you chew on a berry and think on this problem you remember the key you found earlier, and having nothing better to do you dig it out and try it, to find to your delight that it does indeed open, you take the key back out and step through the doorway, closing the door behind you, you try the key on the black side, but it doesn't work, so you shrug and pocket the key once more, returning to your journey out of the woods, only...where are the path markers you tied on the way in?

You wouldn't say you're lost quite yet, but you hurry along the path you're sure you took anyway and you make it out, but your way home is missing, you let out a noise of frustration, you've been robbed, but you have no cell service here so you start walking, luckily home isn't too far, but it is tiring, and by the time you make it to town it's mid-afternoon, you're tired, yet satisfied with your haul, but as you walk into town you make a very disturbing observation, this is not your town, the streets are strange, the architecture too, you make it to where your house should be and there is no building, instead the place is a garden, there are people, tall with long dark hair, and you wave to them to ask where you are, obviously you've made a wrong turn somewhere, but as they come close they seem confused by you and your words, when they speak the language is harsh and punctuated by chirps, like nothing you've ever heard, you can't understand them, so you politely apologize as best you can and try to speak to the next person walking down the road, but with the same results, you try again and again, each time you fail to communicate a sense of unease quickly turning to dread fills you, you can't even find common words in any language you know or gestures with those who try to communicate with you, eventually you find yourself sitting alone outside of town, evening will be here soon, you put away your phone, which you noticed earlier hasn't had service all day, and your fingers brush against the key from the Door, despite how bizarre it sounds, you are struck with the hypothesis that it may be the source of your current mishap, after a long bout of debate, deliberating your options, you decide to try going back to the Door, while it might be a waste of time, it couldn't hurt and maybe you'd solve this problem while walking anyway, so you head back, much more direct than the first time, but it's still dusk by the time you make it, the doorway is just as you left it, you try the key in the lock on the black side of the door again, to no avail, you bang on the door, kick it, try to pick the lock, eventually you circle around to the white side, this time when you try the key, it opens, but when you look through you are certain that is not your world, do you walk through?

No.

#This is the sort of thing I’d end up in on some Thursday. Might as well happen I suppose. Step one is searching for another key. #We found several object in the brambles right? We should take a look at all of them. Explore the bushes see what else we might find. #Also: the walkie was useless in the my world. But maybe it’ll do something in this world? #Maybe it will connect us to someone who speaks our tongue or translate for us or explain something #Stepping potentially farther and farther away from my world right away in not necessarily the best move though it might be later #Take note of any other difference visible in the world. Are the only differences in the “man” made buildings? Is anything mirrored? #Do the berries still taste the same? Do they look the same? Are the plants the same? Sun? Sky? Clouds? Sunset? Is there anything new? #If the berries appear the same one course of action could be to bring them down to the “people” of the village to try and connect with them #I however do not have the nerves for that. At all. Becoming a berry witch might be in my future #Also: are there any animals around? Birds chirping? #Also I’m keeping the cell phone off to conserve power- also keeping the basket with me #Thanks for the ask #I love this game<3<3<3 #And I love anon #Let’s go get trapped in a berry world together

[musical-chick-13]

Fandom be normal about bi women challenge (impossible. apparently.)

#look. I too am tired of (white) men getting praised for the bare minimum #but you all do realize that sometimes women do genuinely fall in love with men right #that women are capable of making their own decisions about who they date right #this is one of the reasons that I hate the 'genuinely I hate every single individual man' rhetoric #because so many times it goes hand in hand with this infantilization of women who are attracted to men #it's like 'oh these poor girls trapped in their attraction to men' and then like...treating them as if they are incapable of making informe #choices? like they're just inherently doomed to gravitate toward awful men because they Don't Know Any Better and are #Brainwashed By Society??? please tell me you understand why treating women as if they are too stupid to make their own decisions #is just misogyny again. you understand that right. RIGHT. #'why would you CHOOSE to date a man instead of doing the RESPONSIBLE and PROGRESSIVE and REVOLUTIONARY thing and date a woman!' #because sometimes. women fall in love with men. you can't. you can't will love into existence. you can't control who you fall in love with. #and people-if it's feasible-tend to want to commit to someone they have actual feelings for. what's not clicking here. #(and yes obviously this is a niche-queer-spaces-specific problem people don't have discourse about this in this way irl like the #general population isn't telling me I should only ever be attracted to women and date one solely For The Cause they don't want me #to be interested in women at all. that doesn't stop me from being annoyed every time I see said niche-space-specific ''''take'''') #it's especially confusing to me when BISEXUAL PEOPLE are like this about other bisexual people. like you of all people. should know #how maligned we are from multiple conflicting angles #In the Vents #biphobia #like I know I talk SO much about women and how I want to marry one but that genuinely is just because historically I have been more #attracted to women than men. if I meet a man I click with and fall in love with then hell yeah I'm gonna date him and be happy about it. #I'm not opposed to that outcome at all. but heaven forbid I ever say that lmao

[semercury]

once again trying to research LAYOUTS of buildings and stuff so i have a visual, and since i decided on slaughterhouse/meat packing plant as the location, i got to read articles that reminded me on why i became vegan...

#stuff sarah says #it's a very nasty and gross industry. for a lot of reasons #but you know that stun gun they use to make the animal braindead before bleeding it out? #probably very effective against zombies so like... you know #i didn't know it literally put a metal rod in the skull between the eyes #probably a lot more humane than a sledge hammer DESPITE what hitchhiker said in tcm #also yes i am imagining the slaughterhouse map from the tcm game for visuals so if you get those vibes... yes you did #anyway. i'm not sure why i'm so worried about making it so realistic and accurate #again. it's not like the games are accurate #cable car from sewers to evil fucking lab is very based in reality i'm sure #at least in 4r they were like ''yeah the mazes and traps? it's bc one of the castellons was paranoid. so yeah. weird architecture'' #still forever laughing at ''we turned a museum into a police station. and we kept the doors and keys labeled as cart suits.'' #bc carlos was right. that's a weird fucking door. #and don't get me wrong. i love these locations. they're just not realistic. nor should they be. in my fucking zombie game. #and that's why i'm not sure why i'm so worried about accuracy with this #no one's going to read this for the layout accuracy. #they're going to read it bc they want to see two people half flirt in a life or death situation #and also bc i'm going to break one of them so they can be taken care of by the other #like??????

[neonbuck]

i can understand engaging in LGBT+ discourse if you're under the age of say, 22-ish. but if you're 25+ and still doing it, i gotta be honest. i do look down on you for it lmao

#.txt #i got caught in that trap in my early 20s too #so i dont really take it too seriously when i see people who are in their early 20s and sheltered getting into it #there comes a point in time where theres no excuse anymore though . #and honestly? same with 'fandom' discourse #you have to understand what this stuff does. 1 it alienates you from people in the community when we should be supporting each other #2 it distracts from actually important issues like racism and ableism in online communities #i have seen this happen over the years. hence my disgust for people who should know better engaging with many types of online 'discourse'.

[shieldwife]

also worth saying that this is driving me to writing thg fanfic bc I'm genuinely pissed off, but my favourite way of engaging with thg isn't even with canon characters at this point. it's through thinking about two ocs I've had for years that I mentally refer to as "toxic fishermen yuri", and I'm incapable of writing extensively abt anything related to thg that doesn't involve them lol

#toxic fishermen yuri is like: #what if we were childhood friends who grew up together in our working class neighbourhood and knew each other in a way no one else ever wil #but you were being indoctrinated into thinking that our evil fascist government and their child murder competition were actually cool #and that you should totally volunteer for them one day. and even though I unlike you am immune to propaganda I can't abandon you #I'll never abandon you. you're the only person who has ever truly known me and I'm the only person who has ever really known you #so even after you volunteer and I watch you become twisted into something I KNOW you're not and you come back as ghost of your former self #with blood on your hands and a dead look in your eyes I'm still here. I'll always be here. I promise. #even when I become more and more deeply involved in a plot against our government and you become more and more entertwined with it #and I watch you be used and abused by it even as you claim you owe everything to them. and so many ppl I know claim you're a collaborator #a capitol loyalist and a traitor I know you're not. I know you. you had good intentions and did what you thought was right #I know you're just scared. I know you just want to protect people and you're just trapped in a web of you're own making #and given the opportunity? I know you'd take a way out. I know you'd do the right thing. I dont care what you or anyone else thinks. #I'm still here. I can't abandon you even if I wanted to. and I know you won't abandon me #and also we were both girls #anyway. they make me unwell </3 I love toxic homoerotic friendships. I literally can't talk about them or I just. do what you see above #I go completely insane and I know literally no one else will care lol #op

[aroaessidhe]

2023 reads // twitter thread

If I See You Again Tomorrow

YA contemporary/light sci-fi

follows a boy almost a year into a time loop, who has almost given up on finding a way out

until a new boy shows up at his school - which has never happened before - and he’s motivated to step out of his monotony and maybe find a way out

exploring loneliness and social isolation

#If I See You Again Tomorrow #aroaessidhe 2023 reads #ok i enjoyed some aspects of this like the MCs personal journey and mental health stuff i guess. friendships. #but the romance was annoying and unnecesary. not just my bitter aro ass saying this a lot of other reviews do too lol #the love interest is convinced that you have to find your soulmate to get out of the time loop for no logical reason??? & the MC (and me) is #like what the fuck man that’s stupid. #but then also he’s like we can’t hang out; you just think you Like me because we’re both in this time loop; focus on finding your soulmate!! #LIKE WHO CARES ABOUT CRUSHES? #YOU’RE THE ONLY TWO PEOPLE IN THIS TIME LOOP WHY WOULD YOU NOT WORK TOGETHER TO FIGURE IT OUT………. #this is more me being frustrated at the character than the author but i feel like. the author could have thought of some better reasons for #him to avoid the mc i guess lol. or at least lampshade the stupidity #it……sort of ends up being soulmatey anyway #or at least he decides they in love anyway but lol u guys spent one day together then didn't see each other for 2 months or whatever??? #so the end was definitely disappointing #I think it would have been way better if he did all his friend and family goodbyes then went to the place #and nothing happened and it turned out that after 365 days you just. pop out of it; problem never ‘’solved’’. #but then he goes to find beau anyway and they start something on their own terms #(bc like getting ‘trapped forever’ after a year would mean there’s instances of two people disappearing forever at the same time - they have #no proof for that either? I guess they would also have instances of people saying they did just get out of it after a year too but. well may #be if that happens you have amnesia. which wouldn’t work for this book. but anyway) #idk #also him hating his mum made me cringe because that was Obvious. i feel like a little more time could have been spent on that #and like i did enjoy it overall for the majority of it that wasn't the romantic thing! it could have been so good if it removed that #and gave everything else its full focus

[frodo-of-the-nine-fingers]

getting whiplash from writers switching pov's every few paragraphs

#like im usually a live and let live kind of guy re fanfic writing because i know it's hard and i deeply respect my fellow fic writers #and im not gonna complain about this to them because its their fic and their choice #HOWEVER #i am an old man and i cannot keep up #like i know its difficult to not be able to see what everyones thinking all the time and its hard not to give in to the urge #and like if thats what you wanna do by all means #but!! that's life baby! you don't always get to know what other people are thinking and we are often only trapped in one head #and that challenging yourself with that limitation irl and in writing i think can be really rewarding #but i digress

[bbqhooligan]

i shouldnt be stuggling with misfit outcast feelings at fucking 22 but here we fcuking are

#mypost #i always had but ive never been this outgoing my whole life. and boy when you go out you dont liek what you find #im always a bad 3 three sentences away from saying ''i dont respect literally any of you people'' out loud #it doesnt ease the more i get to know people. everyone is trapped tied down on their own tracks waiting for their trolley #and no one can see you from where they are they cant look at you they cant turn theyre tied down #oops im becoming a fucking. soliticism or stoicism dude. or whatever thats fuckin called #look im also tied down on tracks mine are just rainbow colored #i need someone facing my own tracks where we can see each other and speak and ease each others pain waiting for hte train #is that too much to ask #we're not in the matrix i just need to meet more people who society hurt in ways thats similar to mine come ON dude

[opens-up-4-nobody]

No hate at all ( I wish you the best) but it is so funny that your blog is called opens up 4 no one but you have all those ... journal entry things. You open up for everyone all the time (again it's very interesting), but the irony is just so funny.

My username comes from my favorite song when I was in like 8th grade (little house by the fray (one of the most emo cringe songs ever lol)). But yea the irony is not lost on me, it's bc I don't talk to anyone irl 🙃

#also im just a very open person. like if u ask me something irl ill probably just tell u #i dont really give a fuck. but also im just so unhappy currently that im just anxiety shrapnel everytime i open my mouth #but like im very self isolated and i talk to other ppl and i cant tell if what i do deviates from the norm #bc everyone is like oh yea i dont see ppl enough #but like. i only talk to ppl at work and i avoid coming in when ppl r around. the most i talk in a week is probably when i meet with my #boss for like an hr every week and we have to cancel all the time bc shes busy #i dont even text people. like my parents might text me once a week and we'll go back and forth like 2 texts and thats it. then maybe they #call once every month or 2? so idk that seems unusal to me but its my life so its hard to tell #but thats y i vent on the internet so much bc i literally never talk to anyone in my daily life when im not trapped on long car rides #its not as bad as when i was an undergrad tho. then i would go week long stretchs only uttering thr words please and thank u #bc then i was truely not talking to anyone and hadnt developed socal skills lol #unrelated #my dad Said i was only hermit spectrum lol bc i dont really get lonely #on the hermit spectrum*

[palestinalibre]

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#I'm all about criticising and problematising shit but sometimes you just gotta enjoy #especially when it's queer art made by a queer person. if you look at it from the het/gp lenses it's probably gonna be frustrating #i think we can problematise the situation also analysing. enjoying and acknowledging the effort he's put into saying something yk? #and yes saldy that something isn't what a casual fan or the gp is gonna catch. but that's what the situation is right now #but I can't stay trapped in there bc there's nothing I can do about other than #interpreting harry's art for what I see. and luckily that pov will reach more and more people #but HarryStylesTM is too big rn to expect that everyone will see those things. and I imo he doesn't even want the whole world to see them #he is very very protective of his truth his privacy. his story #you do you but for me. I can't have a bad time every time he (they) puts something out and #my expectations (however well intentioned) arent met #I (try to) understand the situation and reality he is in. I problematise that situation whenever it's necessary #while still enjoying what he's creating and trying to communicate #because that's the way it best works for me. that's the way I can have a healthy relationship with the fandom #and discuss and learn while I'm here but still enjoy it #so of course you do you. I'm just trying to say it's not a sin to wany to enjoy things even when the situation behind them is shit #each chooses which things they're gonna enjoy. which things they're gonna criticise and which things they're gonna ignore #want* im ignoring all the other typos bye #yes it's still a fight. but it's not sustainable to live in hell all the time. I'm sure THEY don't and they don't want that for us either

[watchmakermori]

every single episode of attack on titan season 4 is basically saying in bright flashing neon letters ‘do not demonise people who seem different to you. you are the same in all the ways that matter. painting others as evil only leads to senseless violence, which causes more violence in turn until you are trapped in an endless cycle of it’ and yet somehow all the crunchyroll comments are full of people like ‘eren did nothing wrong’ ‘i hope someone kills gabi’ ‘marleyans deserve to die because they struck first’ like oh my godd oh my god oh my fucking god. did the wind part your hair when the point sailed over your head

#attack on titan #attack on titan season 4 #attack on titan fans and breaking bad fans fighting over who can miss the themes of the show the hardest #this always happens in shows where the protagonist becomes somebody to be feared #and just like walt #eren's personality is seeded from very early on #if you look back you can ABSOLUTELY see it coming #he doesn't change so much as the context changes and other people start getting hurt because of them #eren is striving towards titan genocide in the final season but like. that is quite literally what he has always strived for #right back in like episode 2 he was vowing to kill every last titan #his approach has changed somewhat but he still fundamentally believes that killing is the answer #that's been consistent all through the show #but the audience's perspective changes because we learn more about what titans are. about how eren and everybody else is an eldian #blows my mind that people can look at gabi who basically IS EREN. she IS EREN and it is NOT subtle at all #and be like 'damn I hate that girl I want her dead' #she is eren as he was ten years ago watching his hometown and family destroyed #and she is raging with blind hate just like eren was #the problem with this show is people think you're supposed to pick a side. but you aren't #basically nobody in this whole series a good person and /that is the point/ #it's so hard to BE a good person when you are trapped in a cycle of violence

[fionnaskyborn]

current mood:

#it's about people who have gone through events that are uncannily similar but have dealt it both the events and the aftermath in #drastically different ways. one of them was surrounded by people who didn't look and sometimes didn't act the part but ultimately meant #only well and the other only had one person who cared about him near him and not even that person was in a good enough place to give him #that sort of empowerment‚ the strength to try and fight against impossible odds and an inescapable situation #and i've seen takes (don't remember where) that state that rai is ultimately so much stronger than v because he managed to free himself #from the shackles of his assigned fate whereas v 'failed' to do so but like... i believe that v is equally as strong for just... existing. #and maybe the world would've been better off if he had died as soon as he learned the truth but he lived because he wanted to see a better #world and believed that him being stripped of his identity was a small price to pay for a better world but what makes him even stronger in #my eyes is the fact that he KEPT LIVING even when he realized that there was no way to make things better from his position as much as he #wanted to and when he saw that everything was going to hell and that he was doomed to just... stay there and be trapped and be forced to #work for ideas that directly oppose his own #and DESPITE ALL OF IT‚ HE KEPT HIMSELF ALIVE (until nato called and said ''hey bibo if you don't respond to the allegations we will nuke #your house'' (referring to V's OH) and bibo just. did not answer. and threw v under the bus and let him die like he was nothing #like i need you to understand this man has the mental resolve of joy herself but you aren't ready for that talk #look point is i think that if they were to ever meet rai would initially not like v at all and couldn't exactly pinpoint why he doesn't #like him - he's polite‚ relatively kind‚ a bit sassy at times‚ and really quiet‚ which in a way mirrors his own mannerisms - so he has no #clue as to why he /doesn't like him at all/ (and of course rai being rai would be polite in turn but he'd never be earnestly amiable) #UNTIL one of them tries to start a conversation about more mundane topics like music or movies and as they exchange opinions rai realizes #that he really doesn't have to bother with the whole thing about resolve and determination to pursue your own goals and differences in #ideologies and that he can just talk to this guy as if he were one of his friends from nyc from back when life was relatively normal #(aka before big shell and when the memories of his past were artificially surpressed HMM PARALLELS YES) #in conclusion v is less anti-raiden and more the second coming of joy and also the two of them would (eventually) be friends and talk about #film and music. rai would absolutely DIG some of the 80's stuff v listens to. thank you for joining me on yet another episode of 'insanity #with fionna' #zeta gear tag #i wrote a lot here and i've made some good points so in the tag it goes

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

having thoughts about nine, and i think one of the biggest things i would personally do to fix him and his role in the story (without making him a flat out villain) is to change the core theme of his character from 'missing stair will not and should not ever be held accountable for their actions,' to:

cruelty and defiance are not the same thing. existing out of spite is not an evil thing; refusing to lay down your weapons under the guise of being small and soft and palatable is not evil; defending yourself and others from being wiped out or made less than you are is not evil. it is not cruel. making good on 'fuck around and find out' can be one of the most important things you will ever do.

and because it's not cruel, it does not excuse cruelty. 'kind does not mean nice' doesn't mean 'cruelty is acceptable as long as it's for a Good Cause'; it also doesn't mean that cruelty in some instances and kindness in others balance each other out. if anything, the latter just ends up becoming part of the former with a different face. it doesn't matter how soft or palatable or loud and rough-edged you are: either your worldview is built on kindness or it isn't, and that will show in how you act on it no matter how hard you try to quarantine one philosophy from the other.

there are lots of other things i'd change; a major one being to pull the fuck up on said cruelty by a LOT, holy shit. as well, don't make him abusive, whether as a) a tactical abuser who pretends his trauma took out the filter he absolutely still has, or b) someone whose trauma has taken out their filter, and left them a disoriented, barely functioning wreck with no idea what the hell is going on inside or outside their own head; whose confused flailing manifests as lashing out in abusive ways, and who wants to do better, and would actually improve with both help and accountability for their actions. that last one has worth as a narrative, but it requires pulling on the sensitivity gloves so far up your arms that it's just a whole spandex suit, and these writers have well and truly proven they are just not fucking capable of that lmao

but in the end, one of the things that does absolutely have to change is that his character has to have a point other than getting away with being a missing stair. there might be other ways to write him as a static character and still a good one; they do have their place! but given that the conventions of the genre would generally involve a growth arc for a character like him, i feel like this interpretation is one that probably falls closest to what they were actually going for.

(or at least, what they wanted to trick the audience into thinking they were going for. lol)

anyway yeah, i have a piggy bank full of cents about this and that is two of them. tl;dr justice for nine, we could have had it all

#lorien legacies #LL number nine #LL crit tag #LL tag #the crit files #take a hammer and FIX the canon #which i think is going to start being my tag for that to differentiate it from just Screaming #bc the other half of the awfulness of recognizing Bullshit is the joy and satisfaction of using that knowledge to create something better #also re: the 'two types of abuser' thing i am planning on going into that in its own post; but the tl;dr is that abuse is a learned skill #the inclination to do it isn't; but the process of putting it into practice /is/ #sometimes people are looking to meet a need and find an easy button to mash to fill it; because unskilled or not #Abuse Works :') #but the patterns of control and manipulation that nine use are ones that require practice; observation of people; and gathering a toolset #even if they haven't had a victim they've managed to Trap yet; they've spent a lifetime developing that skill passively #testing what they can get away with; how people react to things and the effects they have on them; taking notes from other abusers #fine-tuning What Works #post-escape nine is both inclined to be abusive /and skilled at it;/ the first in a way we don't see him at all inclined toward beforehand #and the second in a way he absolutely /could not have learned/ in the circumstances of his life pre-capture; he was completely isolated his #entire teenagerhood; a 30 second exchange about climbing safety was 'one of the longest conversations he'd had with a kid' before maddy #the only place he'd have been able to pick up a toolset like that from would be to lift it wholesale from sandor; and as abusive as sandor #was; & much as you can see some seeds in there of nine's later BS; it's not anything like as much or as blatant as nine would need to copy #and like. tactical abuse vs button-mash abuse is very much a spectrum #but if nine came out of captivity inclined to abuse people it would /absolutely/ not look what we ended up with #it would be HARD on the button-mash side of that spectrum #and what we got was on the same level as him being a bullshit unbeatable charming-and-debonair death machine #and fck y'all writers for portraying trauma and mental illness as magic wands to turn someone into an abuser #to try and force people to like your godawful edgy obnoxious creator's pet; by pretending it makes him sympathetic and complex 😒 #lmao anyway. will probably repeat a lot of this tag rant when i type up The Post about it but yeah

[chiefguideandcentre]

PSA: Just because you think your dogs are your precious little babies doesn’t mean everyone else does too. Keep them out of restaurants and public places where animals should not be especially if your dogs cannot even handle being in public which btw includes being around other dogs. I don’t want your dog around me, barking/growling at other dogs trying to get to them especially when I’m in an enclosed space. You can survive without your dog for an hour or two, it won’t kill you, leave them at home. This obviously excludes REAL service dogs who serve an important purpose (and I emphasized real bc everyone and their brother can tell that your clearly untrained, barking demon dog isn’t a service dog)

#service dogs are good love them #happy to see them if I’m even aware they are there in the first place #which you shouldnt be aware bc they are fucking trained #but I don’t appreciate your untrained out I’ll being inside a fucking restaurant with me fighting to get to other huge dogs also present #I swear to god in this place was a pit bull then another couple pops in with their two damn dogs #dogs clearly are preparing for a showdown #all dog owners present are just standing around watching not a care in the damn world #like oh I wonder what’s going to happen oh gee #while my mother and I are trapped in the corner of this place #my mother is scared of big dogs btw #she got panicky and asked me if we could leave #I shot out of there and I swear to his as we were walking out ANOTHER damn couple was walking in with their two damn dogs! #like really?? #6 obviously untrained dogs in a very small space. #that pit bull was somehow associated with someone that worked there too #she didn’t give the slightest fuck her damn dog was ready to throw down #I mean come on #dogs to belong in restaurants #keep your stupid dog at home #all those people present watched us walk out of the place #they knew why too #but people like that are selfish and rude and think their dogs are just the cutest most precious little babies ever #we shot out of there and I swear another couple came in with their two damn dogs #we’ll most people don’t think that and don’t appreciate being surrounded by your untrained growling dogs #ruins it for people that actually need their service dogs #it’s a shame