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daenqyu · 3 years

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— love language (2) kirishima eijirou

pairing: kirishima x fem!reader

warnings: suggestive (?

a/n: i don’t really like how this turned out, felt like i could’ve done better but oh well :/ also it’s a little longer because i got carried away hehe. anyways, i hope you guys had a good time during the holidays and that you’re staying safe!!

love language masterlist

kirishima’s love language is: words of affirmation

do i even need to explain this?

we all know this baby is very insecure even tho he has absolutely no reason to be:( and he doubts himself way too much

so it’s not much a surprise that he loves compliments

especially when he doesn’t even have to ask for them

like when you’re at the gym working out together (he insisted you made him some company bc bakugou had refused to) and you can’t stop looking at him because GOD DAYUM👴🏾

“why are you looking at me like that, babe?” he asks after he puts down the weights he was just lifting

you swallow hard, realizing just how shamelessly you were checking out your boyfriend

“hm you’re handsome” you’re so straightforward and it takes kirishima aback, making him stop in his tracks to look at you with a faint blush on his cheeks

“you hate when i’m sweaty tho”

you shrug while walking over to him, “yeah because you smell but i never said you didn’t look good”

let’s just say you ended up leaving the gym way earlier than expected 🏃‍♀️

kirishima also loves when you call him manly

it makes him feel all warm inside

probably one of the best compliments you can give him, if not the best one

but he doesn’t only like compliments

he also likes when you show him you care about him

like when you remember something he said a long time ago or you ask him about his day

“hey kiri, isn’t there going to be a new festival in town tomorrow? the one you wanted to go to?”

“yeah, how’d you know?”

“you told me about it a few months ago”

it’s something so small and meaningless, yet it makes kirishima’s heart melt

“you remember that?”

you look up at him from your phone, your brows furrowing at his question

“of course i do”

please you just have to do the bare minimum and you have the boy wrapped around your finger

it’s so cute because he always says ‘i love you’ whenever he has to leave you or even just to hang up the phone

he just wants you to know that he loves and appreciates you with every fiber in his body and that no one could ever change that

so that’s why he’s constantly showering you in his love

for example, whenever you feel insecure about your body and you voice out your concerns to him, he’s quick to look you dead in the eye and point out every little thing about you that he loves,

even the ones you hate so much

“baby, you’re absolutely mesmerizing and i’m not letting you think otherwise. i love every part of you and if you need me to remind you every day until you love yourself too then so be it”

he’s so romantic too oh my God don’t even get me started

whenever he has the chance, he writes you little notes and leaves them in your locker

once, you opened it to take out your science book and a sticky note fell out

‘hey princess! i hope you have a good day today, i love you. also we’re having dinner tonight so get dressed up ;) - kiri’

a smile takes over your face as you keep reading your boyfriend’s sweet words a few more times

he likes giving more than receiving so expect LOTS of reassurance and random compliments

the room is quiet as you lay down in your bed while reading a book, the only sound filling the room being the faint music coming out of your phone and the laughter of your roomates from next door. you indulge yourself in the novel on your hands, concentrating on the vivid descriptions so you can maybe picture exactly what the writer was trying to convey, but a knock on your door interrupts your train of thought.

you ignore it, thinking it must be one of your friends doing some stupid prank again (aka denki and mina), but the person knocks a few more times, enough to annoy you, and so you end up standing up to open it. however, the frown on your face quickly goes away as soon as you see who’s the person who kept on insistently knocking. kirishima stands in front of you with a big smile on his face and you can’t help but copy his actions; just seeing him was enough to make your whole day perfect.

“hey, babe!” his tone is cheerful, as always, and he leans down to give you a kiss, one that ends up way too fast for your liking.

“hey, kiri. what are you doing here? weren’t you gonna hang out with bakugou and sero?” you close the door behind you once he enters. he sits down on your bed as if it was his own, stretching his arms out in the process and you lick your lips when his shirt rides up a bit, showing off his v-line and the outline of his abs. kirishima smirks when he notices your gaze, but doesn’t say anything about it.

“yeah, but sero is feeling sick and bakugou didn’t feel like going out so.” he shrugs, and you pout at him, feeling bad his friends basically ditched him.

“i’m sorry baby, i know how much you were looking forward to today.” you walk towards him and take a seat on his lap, your legs loosely wrapping themselves around his waist and his hands holding your hips steadily. he smiles at you one more time, completely ignoring the feeling of his heart hammering against his chest.

“it’s okay. besides, that just means i get to spend more time with you.” he says before kissing your neck softly, making you erupt in a fit of giggles as his lips tickled your sensitive skin. you wrap your hands around his neck and tilt your head to the side to give him more acces, biting down on your lower lip when he sucks on a certain spot. but before things can get too heated, kirishima pulls away and you whine at the loss of contact, which makes him chuckle.

for a few minutes neither of you say anything, simply enjoying each other. you rest your head on one of his shoulders while your hands play with his own, touching his fingers gently and kissing his knuckles from time to time. he smiles down at you, asking himself what the hell did he ever do to deserve someone as precious as you.

you’re so good to him; always making sure he’s eating well and that he isn’t overworking himself, helping him with homework whenever he doesn’t understand something, taking care of him when he gets sick, hyping him up when he starts a new hobby, and so much more. you do so much for him and sometimes he wonders if he’s doing enough for you, because he doesn’t ever want you to doubt his love for you.

with that though in mind he takes your face in his hands, forcing you to look at him while squeezing your cheeks slightly. you send him a questioning look, wondering what the hell is he doing, but he just kisses your forehead before speaking up.

“you’re so gorgeous.” the compliment takes you by surprise and your eyes widen slightly.

“where is this coming from?”

“well you are. and i love you so much.” you know kirishima likes to compliment you and let you know how he feels about you, but this time feels different.

“babe what are you-”

“thank you for taking care of me and loving me, for making my days better and for believing in me,” his thumb caresses your cheek and you instantly lean in to his touch, your eyes focused on his. “you mean everything to me and i genuinely don’t know what i’d do without you. so i promise to never leave your side, to love you until my last breath and possibly even after that.” your breath hitches in your throat when you notice how serious he is, not missing the passion that drips from his words.

you can feel tears forming in your eyes so you distract yourself by kissing kirishima roughly, pulling at the ends of his red hair and bringing your body impossibly close to his. he groans against your mouth when you press down on his lap, pulling away to give you a few more kisses before flipping you over so you’re laying under him. a smirk grazes your lips at the change of positions and before he can continue with whatever it is he wants to do, you kiss his cheek gently. kirishima blushes and looks away from you, but you just smile.

“i love you, eijirou.” the way his heart flutters when he hears his first name leaving your lips it’s actually embarrassing and he wastes no time before connecting your lips again and pouring all of his emotions into it.

if there was one thing both of you were 100% certain about was your love for each other, because you knew that no matter what happened, whether you broke up in the future or not, you would always consider him your soulmate.

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that-little-zebunny · 4 years

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can you do a bucky x reader social media ay where reader is all happy go lucky and smiley and bucky is all stoic and “emo” for lack of a better word, and they’re secretly dating and the other avengers find out through social media?

Hi! I love this request 😍 thank you so much for sending it. I'm so sorry for the wait and hope you'll like this. Kisses, Zephy.

Warning: Emotional mess (Bucky hating himself) T.T, Cursing, Angst and some fluff.

Not a Secret anymore (Bucky x Reader Social media AU)

You had been working at the Stark tower for years now. A lot had happened, you've witness lots of fighting and almost end of the world stuff but what you're not prepared for was getting promoted as Tony's Tech Apprentice. He had seen your potential and took you in to teach you the ups and down in his company.

You also started working closely with the team and you got to know all of them nicely and being an energy ball that you are they accepted you with open arms.

But what took your interests the most is the new member, Bucky. He's a very quiet person and would always choose to be alone. You've observed him a lot and one day youve decided that you'll fill his life with life.

And that you did, after months of annoying him, he end up liking you and you started dating. (Coz who will say no to that hot stuff?), Sadly tho Bucky still have problems opening up to others and that's where you've decided that as for now you'll keep your relationship privately.

But sometimes you just want to brag about him to the world.

Hence you posting some lowkey photos with him.

You were walking at the tower to go to the lab when Nat came and walked beside you.

"So, I saw your post. I didn't know you're dating someone now, do you want me to do a background check on him?" She smirked your way. Eyes serious. You gulp nervously and scratched your nape.

"Thanks for the offer and concern Nat. But we're good." You made a thumbs up sign. "I know him very well." You laugh awkwardly walking fast waving her goodbye.

Well that was scary, you thought. Knowing Natasha and her spy-ness even Bucky won't be able to hide from her. Yaykss!! Lost in your own thought you didn't see the person in front of you bumping to his hard chest.

“Oopf-” before you fell down to the floor two strong-arm scooped you up back to a very familiar chest.

“Careful, Bab- I...I mean Y/N...I’m sorry, are you alright?” Bucky cleared his throat, eyes wide as he nervously look up at Steve. You giggled at the flushed look on Bucky’s face from almost spilling one of his tons of endearment for you. Having a weird grin in your face you nodded and step back from his hold but not before stealthily rubbing your hands on his hard abs. Those are your babies!!

“I should be asking you that Buck, are you okay? you look bothered?” Steve asked with a questioning look in his face.

“I-I...I’m-” Bucky stuttered. Not wanting your man to be in more hot seat as he is now you flexed your arms in front of the two super soldiers.

“Aw Capt, I’m very much fine, I’m strong, look! Must have startled Bucky boo a bit there. Sorry I wasn't looking where I’m walking.” you showed a peace sigh before you winked at Bucky and went on you way towards yours and Tony’s shared Lab.

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“Y/N, is such an energetic person. You should stick with her more. She might be able to help you loosen up a bit.” Steve jokes as they continue on their walk towards the tower’s Kitchen.

“Yeah, she’s like a bright light that envelopes everyone with warmth.” Bucky said with a small smile in his lips. His mind is now full of your beautiful face. How you always makes him smile and laugh so easily. Even getting frustrated because of you seems like one of the greatest experiences he had for a long while now.

He can’t help but be worried that anytime now you’ll see how unworthy he is and leave him. Because who is he really? a broken old man with so many dead bodies behind him. Even though you would always tell him that it's not his fault, it was still him who took those people’s lives. It was his hands that pulled the trigger. his face those people pleaded their lives with. It was all him. Sighing he stood up and told Steve he doesn't feel like eating breakfast and went back to his room.

He lay on his back tears flowing from his eyes metal arm stretch towards the ceiling. It was this hand...this weapon. He doesnt deserve to touch such pure and delicate person like you. He'll just put a stain on your beautiful heart. A sob went past his lips as he thinks of you, He loves you so much and would die if he loose you.

He was almost asleep when he heards a low buzzing sound near his window. He looked up and saw your red and green drone that you used to play around with. In it is a note.

"I went back to the kitchen to ask Steve something and he told me you didn't eat breakfast. There's an address behind this note go there. NOW!" -YN

Scratching the back of his head Bucky got up and went to change into a red henley and made sure he is wearing his gloves and cap.

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He went inside of a very cozy cafe looking for you ignoring the strange looks sent his way.

Is that the winter soldier?

Why is he here?

Is he really sane now?

I'm scared of him...

And so many words he choose to ignore and went back looking for you but you're not there? Where could you be and why did you made him go here? He let out a defeated sigh.

His phone vibrated and he pulled it out to see a text you sent.

Bucky smirked at his girl's tricks. What is she planning to do right now? Making sure that a genuine smile is plastered at his face he patiently waits for you.

That is until a server put down a slice of cake and a latte infront of him, before he got the chance to say he didn't order it he saw the note written in the cake.

For the best boyfriend ever!

It says in the most messy writing a cake ever experienced.

Tears forming in his eyes he slowly looked up at you with that silly server costume and a wide & proud grin that he loves so much.

"There's the smile." You said winking at him.

He cant believe how lucky he is that you choose to love him. Not being able to stop himself he pulled you near him and held your face.

"I'm so fucking lucky to have you, Sweet cheeks. I love you so much!" Bucky half growl shouted before he pulled your face down to give you an intense kiss. Sighing, you give in opening up your lips to taste more of him not caring about the crowds that are witnessing everything. Not even caring the flash sounds of camera. Nothing else matters but Bucky and your love for him.

This man that had been hurting for so long but still have so much love to give and offers. You can never see him as someone you should be scared off oven though you know deep inside thats what he feels because you see him, the real him and you love him so much.

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"So...." Nat said with a strict look in her face hands on her wait.

"A...ahm..." You stutter, you can feel everyone's eyes on your direction. Your forehead sweating from nervousness. "S-surprise?" You cringe while looking specially at Nat.

"Why the hell did you guys hide from us that you're dating!?" Sam said not being able to contain his excitement. "And here we are trying to plot a plan to get the two of you to date? Damn Barnes aren't you smooth man!" He said laughing so hard.

"Well, it happens and we just thought we we're not yet ready to announce it." Bucky said looking at you with a small smile and you smiled back at him.

"yeah..." You agree.

"Well, now you have no choice. The whole world now knows that the Winter soldier that people are scared of is smitten and is not scary at all. They even made a ship name for the two of you." Nat said shaking her head as she show a IG post with the two of you. Well...all the hiding only needed one stolen picture to end.

You lovingly squished Bucky's hand and he brought yours to his lips and whispers "I love you so much doll. I will never hide you ever again."

*Images are all grabbed from google, if one is yours feel free to DM me for proper removal or credit. Thank you so much 💗

Bonus part

#bucky x reader #bucky barnes imagine #james buchanan barnes #bucky x you #bucky x y/n #marvel social media au #social media au #fake social media #bucky barnes social media au #marvel fan fic #fan fic #fan fiction #Ask request #ask zephy

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snakesnack6 · 4 years

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Blueprints (2)

Parts: 1 2

AO3

OogieBoogie897 donated $20: "Are you going to be are Vidcon this year, I will literally buy 20 tickets right now if you say yes"

“ For the fifth time this stream, I will be at Vidcon this year. I will be a ‘women in the industry panel’ or with some other creators. Plus what are going to do with 20 tickets, I barely have enough friends to start a game of Mafia.”

Becoming a popular streamer/video creator wasn’t Anne Boleyn’s original career choice,but it's one she is not opposed to. When she first started,she was called , GreenSleevs, and then AB Gaming. When people started to recognize Anne, many of them started referring to her “That Boleyn Girl'' since it was easier to remember. This led to her current screenname for the past 2 years, Boleyn Girl,but many of her accounts and merch are still maintaining homage to her original name when she first started.

From paying off her own student loans to providing the necessities and saving up for her own cousin’s education,this is one of the better paths Anne could have taken.By currently having about 2.1 million subscribers on twitch and almost double that on youtube, Anne is considering this her best choice. At the moment Anne is playing Dead By Daylight with Anna, another popular youtuber, Bessie, and Maggie, two musicians of the Ladies in Waiting group. They currently are on a 4 game losing streak due to someone…

“Can we just agree that if you don’t have ‘borrowed time’, don’t even try to unhook people. I’m looking at you Maggie.” Anne pleaded, being the first one dead in the group gets tiring after a while.

“I’m a gen rusher, it's not my job,so I’m just gonna pass that down to Anna.” Maggie said, trying to dodge the bullet.

“If I’m running the killer half the time and I’m getting you, that means get ready to run, so don’t even try me.” There was a moment of silence, before Bessie spoke up.

“How about this? I will admit to unsafely unhooking,but you got to admit to not being about to run the killer, Anne. ” As Bessie says this, the chat started to go wild.

DogsstarNaos : did she lie tho?!?

OdelVental : drag her !!!

SkybraelTore : Bessie preaching tonight

Jambghost00 : rip BG

Sempiternum: bessie really did her like that

The rest of the comment feed seemed to be flooded with similar messages, some with just emotes, inciting a response from Anne

“I would be able to run the killer if they weren’t able to hit me every time I try to vault” Anne

“You're not wrong there”

“True, true”

“You only saying that because Katherine always grabs you from pallets when we play with her ”

At the mention of her name, in the door of Anne’s room creeks slight open for a figure with pink tips in her hair to appear from the darkness to yell out, “AND THATS ON PERIOD.”,and as suddenly as she enters the frame, Katherine leaves as Anne reaches to her bed to throw a pillow for it to only hit the door.

“Don’t you have some project to do?” Anne yells as loud footsteps can be heard through her mic, as the door opens once again.

“I was taking a break until I heard my name on your stream.” Katherine replied.

“You know what,” Anne turns back to the screen “We are going to end our… 4 hour stream here for today. Remember to check out my channel, and Ladies in Waiting, and Anna’s channels and stream for more content. See y'all next time.” Anna waves goodbye as she looks at her chat for the last before saying a farewell to the group and planning the next session before turning off her stream.

“You know this is your apartment,right?” Katherine is currently seated at her desk, currently going through some of her videos. Anne sits next to her on a bean bag.

“I know,but you deserve some privacy as well,but I mainly came here to talk to you about Vidcon”

Katherine turns off her monitor and spins her chain inorder to face Anne.

“Yeah I know, try to stay close to you, don’t cause a scene, blah, blah,blah…I know our rules,but the only difference is that we, mainly you though, but we are getting to go backstage as creators then contenders.”

“Doesn’t make a difference since the internet is such a weird place, with some weirdos on it. ”

“You shouldn’t talk about yourself that way Annie”

Anne chuckles in response, ”Well I’m one of the good weirdos, aren’t I?”

Anne ruffles some of Katherine’s hair before leaving, “I’m going to pick us up some food, text me what you want. Also remember that Anna, and her dogs are staying with us during the convention, so make sure to tape down the wires while I’m gone”

Before there is time to respond, Anne is already out the door.

Anne looks out to the distance as the sun sets on the way to her car. Everyday seems to be a reminder that Katherine will be starting college soon,so Anne wants to be able to prove enough to not worry about a loan later on. She knows she is getting up on the most watched creators,but how long with it lasts. Another day,month, or even year could pass before things could go down will. In the end, that is the future, and for now Anne will just keep playing games with her friends as an audience judges her actions, and as she silently debates whether to get In-n-Out or Smashburger for dinner.

#six fanfiction #six the musical #six the musical fanfic #six youtuber au #six the musical fanfiction

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melodiiousnocturne · 4 years

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( dylan wang , cismale , he / him , kingdom hearts ) * &. i know it must be scary for you , demyx , after surviving the takeover . to turn into someone like myde lu , a twenty-one year-old part time clerk at the hq and part time instructor at the record scratch , right here in castle town . just remember that you are as easygoing as you are indolent , and to be wary , be safe , be true to who you are : neutral through and through .

hi as i said in gc , this is one big tl;dr i’m a demyx stan !

BEFORE CASTLE TOWN.

where do i begin

demyx — number ix in organization xiii ( demyx vc : are we still gonna call ourselves organization xiii now that there’s 14 of us ? ) he is ... lazy . arguably the most cowardly of the bunch , doesn’t like fighting , and would rather nap or play music .

that being said ... despite his very emotional exterior in comparison , we have seen that he can get just as serious / dark like the rest of them if he really needs to ...

idk i have a lot of feelings .

he’s very ?? idk how to explain it bt like . “ what’s in it for me ? ” ( as we really see in kh3 ) & like . i wld say he is a mix of ravenclaw / slytherin just . minus the whole cutthroat ambition of slytherin etc bc tbh that isn’t him . he’s kinda just along for the ride . i am rejecting those MoM theories and i’m not sorry ab it idc if they say it’s true , i REFUSE .

i feel like since demyx allegedly never remembered his somebody life , he probably didn’t care as much ab the whole kingdom hearts thing because he didn’t drink the kool-aid because like why would he want a life that he doesn’t even remember you know ?? plus it’s — he already knew xemnas & saïx were fucken lying when they said the nobodies didn’t have hearts JKDWJHSNS why did he need to be a somebody to regain a heart when he believed he already had one !!!

whatever .... lmao

anyway demyx in the manga was honestly a mood and a half i adore him

when he was brought back to the organization for kh3 , he was made into a seeker of darkness — meaning baby water boy got NORTED . his ears didn’t appear to be pointed in some way ( like the others ) so it’s safe to say he didn’t get as much of xehanort’s heart placed inside of him . bt it was enough to turn his pretty blue eyes into that ominous gold .

regardless , he was benched despite going through that whole process which like i HIGHLY doubt is an easy one to even do ( so good on demyx for being strong enough to withstand it ,,, ) bt it’s ! to be noted ! because he felt bitter ab being demoted after , and ofc with a mystery incentive from vexen , demyx finally took the offer of backstabbing the organization ( read : it goes back to what i said ab him being like well what’s in it for me ..... since before he got apparently satisfied enough , he’s like uhhhh sorry bt have u seen what happens to idiots who betray these guys lol like idk ab all that )

so basically self-preservation of a slytherin . there i said it ! plot twist he isn’t a coward , he’s just smart enough to not throw himself head first into danger . go figure , right ? like look alright he may be comedic relief bt ... he is also more than that !

in the organization he was known to kinda be a bully / play pranks / manipulate others into doing his work for him bt at the end of the day he ?? isn’t like . REALLY a bad guy or whatever . saying it was the pressure of the organization is dulling everything down , because he still actively chose to do what he did and didn’t do and i will hold him responsible for it , bt . u know . shit happens !

like we have canon evidence he wld join in xigbar when it comes to the more like . idk i guess harsher teasing ? and all ? and like again demyx made the conscious choice to go along w it so he isn’t innocent bt , i firmly stand by saying demyx unintentionally looked up to xigbar despite even ‘ fighting ’ with him , bc .. well . i stan them being a That duo . because to me , he’s just a prankster who wants a laugh .. even at the expense of another .. which yea idk still yikes ... bt it isn’t like , malicious .. when he is on his own .. imo . i mean take the days manga , he puts a whoopee cushion on axel’s chair ? bitch pls ..

( also quick going back to him being strong enough to accept getting norted — please just remember .... nobodies aren’t even supposed to exist ! they only technically form when the person who lost their heart is strong-willed & tbh ? i think it speaks volumes for demyx bc despite the show he puts on ,..... he is there . )

alright so look i know i sound like i am in denial of the MoM stuff and that mayhaps be so . however there’s definitely smthin off . like we KNOW he can be uhhhh a pos like the remark he has in days ab how the castle that never was is quieter without everyone who was eliminated at castle oblivion , bt — it was always a really weird line to me because he’s always been branded as the most emotional of the organization / the one who adamantly believed they had hearts the whole time ? which . inch resting ! i wld like to formally say ONE OF THESE is a fucken coping mechanism of sorts or smthin bc it’s really ... a lot and nothing makes sense and like that’s the entirety of kh lore in a nutshell bt ya . like i think it ties into the whole self-preservation thing bc it’s like , wow they really went and got themselves fucken murked ... how dumb ... bt at the same time bc like again the biggest pusher for #nobodieshavehearts , it’s like “ oh that’s depressing ” & like . a mess .

idk what else to say for this besides he was really great at recon & apparently was a keyblade wielder in the past ! which subsequently makes me emo on main bc he’s really out here like lmao nah that’s ... it’s cool bt like hm idk sounds like kinda fake u know

again fuck canon if it does u know what

AFTER CASTLE TOWN.

where do i begin , chapter 2

now myde is actually my hc somebody name for demyx so like going off that it technically is his real first name .... he just doesn’t know that bc although he survived this , he didn’t uh really remember his old somebody life so like lmao fuck all honestly this life could be his real life for all he knows

except he does know it isn’t

so like he’s ?? more of a somebody in castle town opposed to a nobody meaning he ! has a whole fucken heart now ! although because his eyes are still indeed gold , he’s kinda like well shit is old man xehanort still in there too

anyway myde lu .. my son ... the memories of castle town life are . something else . he grew up with a single mother who worked odd jobs here and there struggling to make money to provide . so while demyx is like ah fuck working i don’t wanna fucken do this , he got two part time jobs the moment he could to help her out . because even if she isn’t his real mother , it’s ??? really nice to have someone caring ab him :/

he rooms with neko / noriko now because an ad on craigslist bt he still sends some of his paychecks & like whatever money cut he gets from the troubvdours ( also , ironically from a fucken craigslist ad ! ) etc to castle town mom bc honestly life in castle town has kinda uh . made him like . wow wait fuck haha oh man i actually ???? i can’t just nap and play music and do whatever i want ?????? like i mean he still does bt castle town memories / the life he was forced into here made him arguably more responsible even though he is still a little shit and completely at the same time not that responsible in the slightest

it’s like . fake getting ur life together

idk he doesn’t like all the work like he’s exhausted bt it’s paired simultaneously with he ? kinda also doesn’t mind it solely bc there’s like ,, a benefit from it ? like with the two part time jobs ( which one is being a music instructor like i feel as if he doesn’t consider that one much of a job bc he gets to play music !! ) it’s being able to help the poor soul who got stuck as his ‘ caretaker ’ KKDKWJSJSJ and with the band it’s . bc he is passionate ab music and again although exhausting he loves to do it

boy’s chaotic neutral as always bt i suppose castle town is bringing out those hidden good tendencies

hmm he is forever bitter ab the fact he didn’t get his sitar tho .... what the fuck is he gonna do w his stupid organization cloak huh ? my god

so he picked up rhythm guitar bc it’s like . the closest thing without getting an ACTUAL sitar , because ! arpeggios is actually a rhythm technique & that’s what his sitar is named so .... food for thought i suppose . plus this world’s sitar isn’t the same anyway :/

despite being natural blond in game etc i’m making the executive decision to say he was given naturally dark hair in CT & now has to keep bleaching / dying his hair blond bc .... he does not think he suits black hair . nor does he want to . it reminds him too much of like idk xigbar or vanitas or whatever with the dark hair + gold eye combo u feel JDWJJSJSNS

he dated isolde in CT & honestly i suggested it to bloom as a crackship bc haha different bt then it got really soft and really emo so here we are . they close tho now still & she’s the only person he’s opened up to ab his real life / the organization so far !!

he is bi :/ and sad :/ bt honestly mood , i say as i’m pan not bi bt whatever :/

anyway part 500000 , he sleeps at the library sometimes bc big gay still for ienzo and likes to really just hang around them bc he wants them to remember being zexion .... & well . more selfishly he wants them to remember him bt like y a h

+ for the fact i have not really mentioned it : he still loves water iskaksns catch him like . chillin in his bathtub for hours like bitch stop wasting water and the water is FREEZING by the time he does decide he is finished . he misses his water abilities ok . he can probably like move stuff a little bit here and there bt it’s Nothing like before :/ yeah .

idk what else this is a mess !! please plot with me tho uwu xoxo

#castletown.intro #uhhhhh i dont ?? think ?? i need any tws lmao #bt it's also very late rn so i dont know what im doing sorry

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smallblanketfort · 5 years

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I totally agree about burnout, why do people focus on covering up the symptoms when there must be something fundamentally wrong to cause a bunch of us to constantly be scared, worried, exhausted? I want to live not just survive. Would you say your practices with yoga and meditation help you live? Do you have any other thoughts? I love your posts and you xo

everything about this message, yes, completely.

Love you!! Thank you for being here.

Not at first. I remember resisting the spiritual element of yoga, simply because I didn’t understand the benefits or the way it worked. The way I worked. I didn’t understand what was keeping me from living. I remember being about 17, sitting on my great grandma’s colorful quilt on the lawn in front of the museum and telling my mom that I felt free, having quite dance, but that I still couldn’t hear my thoughts.Years later, I found that if I went for walks and talked on the phone, the words didn’t get trapped and lost between my brain and my mouth. I think I knew this, having needed to move my legs to give speeches.I was told it was a display of nerves, but now I believe I simply think better when my body can move at the same pace as my head. Perhaps this is why I love writing so much. I speak with my body.This was confirmed when I took a training on different types of learners, and I got visual and kinesthetic learning. I learn by moving.

This is a long way of telling you that my yoga practice enables me my speaking and thinking brain to sink down into my physical being. Yoga asana, the movements, are imperative to me. Physically, yoga makes my body feel okay. Inhabitable. If I don’t practice yoga for an x amount of time, my spine and hips goes tight. I don’t feel free. I literally feel wound up and trapped…. and this feeling seeps into my emotional and speaking brain. I stutter when I speak. I become restless, judgmental, and frustrated. I have not melted, or loosened.

Part of this is probably just a lack of endorphins generated by movement, but yoga is also about creating space. With every inhale, we lengthen, and with every exhale, we sink deeper into a twist or stretch. We create this upwards and out feeling, bending to literally let gravity create space in our spine. We undo compression.

In the same way, we let our bodies move as they ask us to. We go as far as we can, and push a little further. We also do exercises such as deep breathing, allowing our tummies to expand. We stretch our arms. We exercise the practice of taking up space and allowing our bodies to be completely our own. We refuse to hold tight and in. We refuse to make ourselves smaller. We practice existing as we naturally are, and undo the compression of society and our negative thoughts.

In doing so, we are confronted with our thoughts. When I loosen my body, I loosen my thoughts, and I hear more clearly. I can hear my frustration when I cannot do something correctly, but I can also witness how my negative energy will literally throw off my balance, or prevent me from loosening in a pose, because my shoulders rise, or my gaze shakes. It’s a practice in talking to myself, too:How do I speak to myself when I am uncomfortable?How do I speak to myself when I fail?How do I see others, when someone else wobbles beside me?How do I hold my gaze where it matters, instead of wandering uselessly to others?When do I seek validation and hope someone is watching me? Why so?Do I go deeper, even when it burns a little?Do I remember that I am equipped to let out built up heat, instead of letting myself overheat because I’m simply not present enough to notice and intentionally find release?The interesting thing is that all of this is two-fold, physically and emotionally:Yes, I can exhale through my mouth to release built up heat, literally, to avoid passing out of heat.But also, when my mind harbors pent up negativity, will I keep it all inside until I can’t function, or will I release it intentionally, in healthy ways?

I guess it all comes down to intention. In yoga, there’s a massive difference between standing idly and standing intentionally, careful with the way energy and engagement is dispersed throughout your body. It changes the way you feel. Try it. Stand up, and work your way up your body. Make sure your weight is even through your feet. Engage your legs, your hips, your abs. Are your hands facing forward, and gently open? Are your shoulders raised and tense, or down your rib cage? Relax your jaw. And your forehead. Look straight ahead, chin up. Breathe.Also in yoga, arm balances are only successful when you are present inside your body, not drifting to think about this shitty thing someone told you once, or about your guilt about xyz. It’s a practice in deciding what matters right now, and how to succeed right now, while taking care of yourself and listening to what your body tells you not to do. It’s a lesson out of preoccupation and anxiety.

To trust it. Your body knows you better than you do. Listen to your body.

As for meditation, I view yoga as its own meditation. Sometimes I meditate, holding a stone, listening to a song, and closing my eyes. I like to gain control of where I feel my heartbeat, and shift it around my body. It’s wild.

This also, tho, is a mind-body connection. I’ll be the first one to say that Meditation™, the total emptying, gives me mad anxiety. I hate it.

My spiritual discipline this month was meditation, and while I failed miserably, I do love how Richard Foster’s views meditation from Celebration of Discipline. I’ll leave you with his thoughts on meditation, for you to do with as you wish…

“Eastern meditation is an attempt to empty the mind; Christian meditation is an attempt to fill the mind” (25).

“Detachment is not enough; we must go on to attachment. The detachment from the confusion all around us in order to have a richer attachment to God” (25).

“Meditation is that we create the emotional and spiritual space which allows Christ to construct an inner sanctuary in the heart… It is a portable sanctuary that i brought into all we are and do” (24).

“We are sinking down into the light and life of Christ and becoming comfortable in that posture” (23).

“Set aside all tendencies toward arrogance… Dietrich Bonhoeffer says, ‘just as you do not analyze the words of someone you love, but accept them as they are said to you, accept the Word of Scripture and ponder it in your heart, as Mary did'” (33).

namaste,m

this post also exists on my blog,,,

#burnout #yoga #anon #self care

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motheatenscarf · 5 years

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I didn’t get to answer all of the Tallia and Theron questions I wanted to so I’m gonna cheat and just answer them here BECAUSE I WANT TO. I never talk about them but they’re cute and I love the disaster bi masquerading as functional dating the functional ace desperately trying to keep up a distinguished facade.

1. Who is the most affectionate?

I think they each are, in their own way? I mean, like.... everything I’ve described before this and after is them being affectionate in their own way? I don’t really know what else to say about it unprompted. I guess if you’re talking classical physical PDA, maybe Tallia? If your’e talking taking care of the other one and looking after them and cheering them up and trying to make them feel good or better, then... both of them?

3. Most common argument?

The endless argument on how many pets are considered to be too many and whether or not they should just retire and open a zoo

Arguing which animals could stay with them and which had to go to the zoo they opened and how big does an animal have to be before we legally have to stop calling it a pet

“A KELL DRAGON IS NOT A PET.”

“YES SHE IS BECAUSE I LOVE HER.”

The struggle of earning rights for Warbles, mainly the right for him and his swarm of babies to sleep on the bed

The inevitable and spirited debate of how MANY lizards could sleep on the bed with them at any given point

“SEVEN LIZARDS IS TOO MANY LIZARDS TO LET SLEEP ON THE BED AT ONCE.”

“BUT THEY’LL GET COLD AND LONELY IF WE LEAVE SOME OF THEM OFF :((( “

T H E H A I R C U T

4. Favorite non-sexual activity?

They really don’t share any hobbies but MAN do they just.... shoot the shit a lot. Tallia will be dropping stitches in her latest attempt to learn space knitting, Theron will be scamming people in online pazaak out of boredom and they’ll both be talking to each other about “When and why do you think it became evolutionary advantageous for monkey lizards to laugh like that and is it immoral to Just Kill Them All??”

5. Who is most likely to carry the other?

Tallia’s not very big but she can literally toss him around with her mind and also has a lot of core/back/thigh strength so she can and probably does carry him just for funzees. Theron can carry her, probably, he just tends not to because I don’t think Tallia would appreciate being manhandled. Unless of course Tallia got herself stabbed again (she gets stabbed a lot.... marauder problems, I guess) which is more just her leaning her weight on him than actually carrying. He probably wouldn’t have to carry her unless she was knocked the fuck out... which does tend to happen. And Tallia would of course carry him if he got injured.... shit which also happens a lot. God, this is why dps shouldn’t marry other dps. This is basically them:

7. What’s the first thing that changes when they realize they have feelings for the other?

Other than getting bummed the fuck out (Tallia) and probably having a mild panic attack (Theron) they definitely get a lot less guarded with one another. They’ve both got kind of a lot of layers to them so it wasn’t like, complete vulnerability right off the bat but Tallia let Theron start seeing the more compassionate side of her, Theron let Tallia see some of the more uncertain side of him.

8. Nicknames? & if so, how did they originate?

They’re not big on nicknames, and since Tallia is a nickname for Eschatallia, technically, that’s all they really have. Theron tried to call her “Esch” exactly one time just to see if it could be their thing but the horrified look she gave him while just slowly shaking her head ‘No,’ was all he needed to know that it was A Bad One. Tallia found out about “Technoplague” after Theron hears she also had a run-in with the Shroud and uses it when she wants to win an argument, aka, this is how we wound up with seven lizards asleep on the bed with them.

10. Who remembers what the other one always orders at a restaurant?

They don’t get to go out that often but if it’s just something from the cantina, Tallia remembers what Theron orders because he’s a bit more a creature of habit and has kind of bland taste buds (modest Jedi upbringing, remember?) but Tallia usually tries to order something different every time unless there’s something she’s just absolutely craving (Vette opened her eyes to MANY new cultures of food from her transient years). So Theron can thankfully usually just point at something he’s pretty sure Tallia’s never had or whatever special they have that week from a new shipment and she’ll be happy with it, he knows she likes savory stuff with lots of spices.

11. Who tops?

Honestly I think they’re both switches? Tallia’s more dom/top leaning and Theron more sub/bottom but it’s not strict, it’s more circumstantial/depending on who’s feeling what that day.

12. Who initiates kisses?

Depends, tbh? It’s probably 50/50?

13. Who reaches for the other’s hand first?

Theron. Tallia’s more a “cuddler” in the sense that cats understand the term with like, “I’m just gonna lean my entire body weight on you for a while, if you wanna wrap an arm around me that’s cool but mostly I just wanna be a pancake and you can be the grill.” Theron’s definitely a “hold hands under the table” kind of PDA fan though.

14. Who kisses the hardest?

Tallia, definitely. Sith. Passion. It’s a thing.

19. Who tells their family/friends about their relationship first?

Friends goes to Tallia, Vette immediately knew because she Knows Tallia and can read her like a book and oh man of course Tallia had a crush on the ENEMY SPY, she’s combined her worst habits, terrible taste in dates and a death wish! Then Jaesa found out approximately 5 minutes later when Vette went running to her to tell her about it.

Family unfortunately went to Theron who eventually had to tell Jace about Tallia (like.... 4 years after the fact, but he told him all the same) when he went to go help start up the Alliance. It... did not go over well. I don’t think Satele ever heard from Theron herself that he and Tallia were a thing but probably figured it out because force sensitive, same as Echidna whom Tallia also never told.

Man, these guys are bad at actually telling their family/friends anything... they probably haven’t even announced their engagement? Does anyone actually know for sure that Theron is Rowan’s father or do they just think the Commander must really trust him to let him walk around with her child in a papoose like that all day?

God when they do get married they’re gonna invite like maybe 3 people, hand out earplugs, and exchange their vows by handing them over on paper for the other to read and then instructing them to eat the paper once it’s been read so no one will ever know except them.

21. Who is more likely to start dancing with the other?

Oh, Tallia, for sure. For Theron to dance of his own volition, he needs to already be too drunk to dance and it usually ends poorly. They don’t really dance that often because Tallia doesn’t want to make him uncomfortable but she can goad him into it sometimes.

22. Who cooks more/who is better at cooking?

Uhhh, the droid.

...

I’m not kidding.

Theron “Caf is a meal” Shan and Eschatallia “Just Put The Heat On Maximum So It Cooks Faster” Soranus are terrible cooks and should not be allowed to OWN a kitchen, much less set foot in one.

24. Who whispers inappropriate things in the other’s ear during inappropriate times?

Mostly Tallia probably? They’re not TERRIBLE about this because they are fairly private people and both take their jobs pretty seriously but I can see either of them watching and waiting until no one’s paying attention to lean over to the other one to whisper sexy nothings. If they’re just out at some function neither of them wants to be at, tho, you can guarantee this happens. You know the party crashing chapter on Zakuul? Yeah, Tallia kept forgetting that Lana was patched into their comms. She paid for a vacation for Lana after that mission.

25. Who needs more assurance?

Both of them, god. Look at their fucked up families and all the emotional neglect and outright abuse inflicted on them as wee lil nubbins that permanently scarred their psyches.

Tallia’s got a multi-layered personality, the outermost layer being the “I Am Your Nightmare, Grr” facade, the layer under that being “Oh no, I’m soft, please be nice to me,” and the layer under THAT which is “I’m feral and scared and full of hate.” So she’s worried that Theron fell for Personality Layer number 2 and will one day realize how pervasive and overbearing the deep layer 3 personality is and will be disgusted after realizing she’s a living horror of the dark side and he can’t love that because how could he? No one could.

Theron, however, is an amalgamation of abandonment issues wearing the skin of a man and is worried that something will go wrong, someday Tallia’s gonna realize he’s not that interesting, or funny, or kind, or something, anything. She’ll find him lacking, he won’t be enough somewhere in someway that she’ll realize she doesn’t need him at all and will cast him aside because everyone else has, why not her?

28. What do they do when they’re away from each other?

Well both of them have a criminal twi’lek bff so they can hang out with them and get into trouble, Theron’s always got a huge backlog of work he should be doing, Aerasuni likes to visit them both and hang out (she spars with Tallia and has tea and pleasant conversation LIKE A NORMAL PERSON with Theron), Jaesa’s back now and she’s trying to help Tallia figure out why she’s so bad at knitting, Koth is deeply worried about both of their eating habbits and keeps dragging one of them off to lunch without warning, Warbles always needs to go on walkies, Pargal drops by and likes to hand Theron his ass on a dejarik board, and now there’s like, A BABY who needs to be taken care of and nurtured so they’re not lacking for things to do out of necessity or for fun when the other’s busy. They’ve got surprisingly healthy social lives.

29. one headcanon about this OTP that breaks your heart

Cross-faction ANGST and their deepest insecurities making it take so fucking long for them to just be honest and open with each other despite their emotional investment in one another being obvious.

30. one headcanon about this OTP that mends it

They’re both desperately lonely people who come from deeply fucked up families/upbringings and have been forsaken by the people who were supposed to look out for them but they found each other and made their own dumb little family with all of their friends and now their surprisingly well adjusted child and it was hard but their earned their happy ending goddamit.

#Caitlin Plays SWTOR #Eschatallia Soranus #Tallia 'n Theron

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Ok so let me just report here as well my experience at the 181013 Love Yourself Tour show in Amsterdam. You can find all about it also here and here; if you already read what I wrote there, this is basically the same thing so don’t even bother lol.

First of all I have to tell you that the night before the concert me and my friend @hforhoseok went out of town to spend the night with some of my dutch friends and we came back at 4AM, so we actually slept 4 hours and arrived at the Ziggo Dome at 11 basically still hangover.. do NOT recommend lmao. Once there, the line was soo long, but pretty nice.. the weather was so good and the people around me were mostly chill! It looked like a festival, also because so many of us were wearing yellow clothes and flower crowns. I didn't even bother to go in line for the BTS studio since I would've had to stand in that line for about 3 hours, and the line for the ot7 picture was also too long, so I just gave up.. I wanted to keep my strenght for the actual show! I already kinda expected it so it was fine. Of course when they opened the gates at 5PM it was a bit chaotic, but nothing too extreme; the only problem was that when we were almost there they put us in three parallels lines so they didn't really respect a first comes first serves rule.. also the ground near the entrance was disgusting!! I really don’t get the whole camping thing, but if you wanna do it at least clean after yourself.. but whatever. Once inside, I kinda sprinted towards the spot I wanted to be in, so near the extended stage on the right, and I was pretty close considering I came there not so early!! Also once again I was surrounded by the chillest and nicest people ever. While waiting for the actual show to start they played the usual mvs, and I know we say this every time but it really felt like a cult because everyone knew all the songs and fanchants!! It’s just something I'll never get used to.

Now, talking about the actual concert!! I’m not gonna talk about every song they did or this would be an endless post lol. But let me just start by saying that when they came out it was CRAZY!! They looked so small to me since I was by the extended stage, but still I could not believe I was actually seeing them with my own two eyes. When they introduced themselves I finally saw them a little bit better and WTF they looked like gods, it's honestly unfair. Hearing Hoseok doing his “I’m your hope..” bit was also unreal!! I’ll post everything I recorded later on, but it’s not that much as I was either jumping and dancing like crazy, or in total shock and basically paralyzed.

It took me the entire Hobi’s and Jk’s vcr to realize... I was about to see Hoseok dancing and singing to Just Dance. Needless to say it was an otherworldly experience. I love that song so much and when he came to the extended stage I went batshit crazy. He’s born to be a performer. I love him so much!

Then it was Jungkook’s turn. Baby! He couldn't dance to Euphoria, even if for the rest of the concert he danced and walked around quite a bit. He sang so quietly yet so perfectly.. he eats cds for breakfast but we been knew. He took off his earpeace to hear us sing and it was so beautiful. I was in total awe.

With I NEED U (which was epic, everyone was singing every word of it) they all came on the extended stage, and let me tell you once again, they look unreal. They look so good, and as everbody always says, even better than what you see in pictures and videos. They try to look at us and have some kind of contact so much too! I'm pretty tall and I had shorter people before me, so I had so many eye contacts with them. I can’t believe I lived to tell the tale lol. When Hoseok first came to our side me and the girl beside me jumped so high waving and shaking our army bombs and he gave us the biggest brightest smile, like you know the one he does from one ear to the other, and istg I've seen the sun with my own to eyes and will never recover from it. But NEVER IN MY LIFE I would have thought that the person I was about to have the most interactions with was the one and only MIN YOONGI. Crazy!!! I guess they were all mostly looking at the very first rows or far away, while Yoongi was looking right in our area a lot more? And I guess as I was a bit taller we met eyes quite often!! Or at least that was my impression, but you can never tell for sure. Anyways I tried to sing my heart out every time he came close but idk if he noticed it lol. In any case I can’t believe I survived it.

Later on, Serendipity was so good. Jimin sang it so perfectly, and the way he dances is just so enchanting.. we were all singing it with him and he looked so happy. I hope he spent the best birthday ever. He deserve it all!!!

Right after that it was Namjoon’s turn, and WHEN I TELL YOU WE SCREAMED SO MUCH FOR LOVE. The people who said the crowd didn’t really cheered for him were clearly not there because everybody just sang it from start to finish! It was so loud and Joon looked so happy. I'm so damn proud!!!

When they came again to the extended stage though I got so mad because there were a couple of girls who held these damn banners for the entire time.. like that was SO smart.. I really couldn't see anything. So please just DON'T DO THIS.

But ps: yes I'VE SEEN JIN'S ABS AND WILL NEVER RECOVER FROM IT. The girl beside me was Jin biased and almost started crying lol.

The medley was so good and once again the crowd sang like crazy. We maybe didn't know all the fanchants, but we were singing along the entire songs so imo it was even better. In the words of Jeon Jungkook: it was LIT! I can’t even say anything about Baepsae because if you know me you know I’ve yet to recover from it. SHE’S MEDITATING (SHE’S DIED).

WELL then the next part of the concert is when I really ascended to another dimension. As I already said over and over I don’t know WHO THOUGHT THAT PUTTING SINGULARITY SEESAW EPIPHANY TTU AND TEAR one after the other was gonna be ok.. like it was a full on personal attack!! I knew I wasn't going to survive it and I didn't!!!

Singularity was insane. We screamed so much before it started and when it ended, but during the performance we were just in shock and total awe. Taehyung is truly a smooth motherfucker, he put a spell on the entire crowd and we were totally hypnotized by it. I still have chills thinking about it.. it’s one of my all time favourite songs so I still can’t believe I saw it live.

And YES I know there’s supposed to be Fake Love at this point BUT I unfortunately saw just the first seconds of it because one of the girls near me fainted and dropped her head on the ground! As I told you my area was pretty chill so she probably was too tired or dehydrated. Please be careful!! I hope she's ok. Anyways I saw the very first part of the choreography and the part in which Jimin “pulls” Hoseok up so I’m happy with it.

After that, it was Yoongi’s turn. Seesaw was so good!! He had so much fun with it. When he appeared on the couch the crowd went OFF. Can't believe I saw him doing his lil dance with my own two eyes! (sorry I’m probably repeating this every time but it’s just how I feel, I don’t mean to brag at all). I sang along to it as loud as possible and almost already lost my voice.

OOF then Epiphany started... and I still have chills!!! Jin is a damn vocal king, I love him so much. We sang along the entire song and it was so emotional!! Hearing so many people singing I'M THE ONE I SHOULD LOVE at once is just so powerful.

The Truth Untold right after was so so emotional as well. They sang it so beautifully and with so much passion, and we all sang along with them and cried. I just love them so much.

NOW, I don't even know how I can describe Tear but I’ll try. This is my friggin song. I was already crying after TTU and knowing Tear was coming I started bawling my eyes out.. then I saw the green lights and started shaking so much!! I had to take off my necklace, I dropped both my hair tie and my fan, I mean I was really going THRU IT. Tear means so much to me.. it was so good.. I met eyes with Yoongi once again while singing it and crying my eyes out and it meant the world. I just wanna thank them so much.

Ok then idk who thought of putting MIC Drop right after Tear because I was still in total shock and I had to start the fanchants while still shaking lmao!! But it was so cool. The crowd sang all the fanchants and they were all so hyped!! The choreo is so good too and dancing along to it was so fun. Insane!

When they came back after a little break it was kinda bittersweet, because I knew the concert was about to end. Still, So What was soo fun!! We went crazy and everybody was singing and jumping. So many of them came near us and it was the craziest experience!! Once again I had Yoongi right in front of me.. seriously don't know how I survived the night. OH also Jin sprinting to reach Taehyung for their usual bit was the funniest thing ever!! I didn’t see Jk doing the shoot dance tho :( , but I’m so glad he did!!

Then Anpanman was so nice!! They have so much fun with it and seeing so many people in the crowd making the superhero pose was the cutest thing ever. Also the Namjoon bit with Jimin was so sweet!

After that they started the ending ment and LMAO I mean I know we were in Amsterdam, but I think at least 50% of us if not more came from abroad, so I still don't know half of what they said because the translator was speaking in dutch. I still haven’t found translations if not for Jk’s ment, so please if you found some send them to me.. Anyways I kinda got something as dutch can be similar to english sometimes, and ofc I understood their english speeches BLESS THEM. They were so funny and cute. I may have written this already a thousand times but I friggin love them so much. Wen Jimin started his ment I wore the happy birthday glasses I brought and I think both he and Namjoon saw it and smiled!! ;____;

The last song was ofc Answer: Love Myself.. but I can’t really say anything about it if not that I was an emotional trainwreck. I didn't record anything because I wanted to enjoy every last moment to the fullest. I miss them already.

BUT! Let me tell you that when Namjoon came near us singing I basically serenade him the you've shown me I have reason I should love myself bit and told him thank you as many times as I could and sent him a couple of flying kisses and he looked so happy and proud :( . Istg it's so difficult to meet eyes with him but I’d like to think we at least got that moment.

And that sneaky motherfucker JUNG HOSEOK. He came near us and I jumped so much and sent him a thousand flying kisses and he frigging smirked at me and made the smuggest face I've ever seen in my life!!! Like HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO SURVIVE AFTER SOMETHING LIKE THIS. If anyone finds a video of him smirking like crazy while staying on the right side of the stage and wearing the white tshirt please send it to me!! I couldn’t find it anywhere.

Unfortunately I didn't make eye contact with either Taehyung or Jungkook, but they came close to us pretty often so this is more than enough!! Seokjin was one of the last of them who came nearby to say goodbye but he was just looking far away.. so I screamed the loudest KIM SEOKJIN!!! I could and he finally looked in our direction! He's truly worldwide handsome AND worldwide cutie guy.

And I guess that's it lol. I miss them. I'll never forget this. I hope I'll see them soon. They deserve everything and more. I love them so much!!!!!

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bixgirl1 · 7 years

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The Sexual Awakening of an Innocent Pureblood, Dating the Randy Prat Who Lived - Chapt. 5

*trumpets blaring*

And now, @l0vegl0wsinthedark and I bring you the delightfully awkward continuing saga of inexperienced Draco’s foray into the world of dating very experienced Harry. And Draco needs some advice.

Previous chapters can be found on either one of our pages under #virgin draco.

Yay! Let the discomfort begin!

(Also, these are getting long–forgive us in advance, please. lol)

Chapter Five: Lunch With Pansy–Who Wishes Draco Would Read The Goddamned Book

Pansy, rolling eyes: –So I was shocked when she actually wore the green robes. I mean, it was a joke, of course, green washes her out entirely–

Draco, poking a fork into his salmon, clearly distracted: Mhmm…

Pansy, slyly:–which is not my problem, and did take care of Marcus from accounting always staring at her. Besides which, the robes were from three seasons ago! It’s her own damned fault if she’s so hopeless as to not bother buying new ones.

Draco, staring into his glass of water with glazed eyes: Yes, you’re right.

Pansy, exasperated: Draco!

Draco, starting slightly: What?

Pansy, scowling: I did not agree to a Monday lunch with you out of nowhere just so you could ignore me! What is wrong with you?

Draco, guiltily chewing on his lip: Nothing… Nothing is wrong with me, as such… It’s just… I just– *visibly struggling to form words*

Pansy, suspicious: What does that mean? *observing him; concerned* …Draco. What happened?

Draco, breathing hitched slightly: I– I– Today, this morning I– *abandons fork and grabs his glass, gulping down the water desperately*

Pansy, frowning: Goddamn it Draco, you know I prefer not to do genuine human emotions like worry, just tell me what the fuck is going on!

Draco, wild eyed: I– ItastedPotter’stongue!

Pansy: *drops fork with a clatter* *reaches for wand, casts shaky Silencing Spell* *knocks over water glass with wand* *numbly casts cleaning spell*

Pansy: You did what?!

Draco, white lipped and trembling lightly: I– He– We… mouth pressed. And– and we… tongue licked! *looks slightly stricken*

Pansy, shocked: When? I didn’t even know you were– When did he– Did he just… *angry; titillated* assault you out of nowhere?

Draco, anxiously: What– No! God, no! I– I asked him to, alright?! I asked him to mouth press me! *pauses; waves a shaky hand* A couple of hours ago.

Pansy, mouth hanging open: I– I’m not even– *shakes head vaguely, wide-eyed; blinks* It’s called kissing, Draco. You kissed Potter. You asked Potter to kiss you. *disbelievingly* Is that what you’re telling me?

Draco, scoffing, finally looking like himself again: Kissing is for children, Pansy. Adults mouth press. I’ve seen Mother and Father mouth press on occasion - such as mouth pressing for goodnight– *suddenly uncertain* I’m not sure they’re aware of the… the tongue licking though. *turns pink at once*

Pansy, distracted: It’s called kissing! French kissing, for the tongue thing, snogging if you’re base. Fucking hell, Draco, if you would just read that book I got you back in fourth year–

Draco, sneering a little: French kissing? French?! Why is called that? Why do the French get to have it named after themselves?!

Pansy, smirking: Because the French are delightfully filthy creatures, darling, they’re going to claim all the best things, if they can–wait. *irritated* I didn’t even know you and Potter– Why would you ask him to kiss you? How did this come about and why didn’t you tell me?

Draco, apologetically: I’m sorry, alright? I really am. He– I was taken by surprise when he asked me to dinner and– and we didn’t even have a chaperone so I wasn’t even sure if we were officially courting or not and– and Potter… *suddenly upset* Potter thinks I’m insisting on a chaperone because I don’t like being alone with him which is absolutely untrue, Pansy, because I– *hesitantly* I really like him, Pans. I don’t know if you think that’s mental or– He says he likes me too and– *sighs* Chaperones are sort of mandatory, right? When people court?

Pansy, brows knitting; pursing lips: *gently* Draco, I know you have– certain ideas about the way things are supposed to go, but… *sighs* Darling, it’s not like that most of the time. I suppose some people require chaperones, but it’s more a matter of tradition at this point– archaic, pointless traditions that don’t even really count as such because no one abides by them anymore and were, anway, created by some snotty pureblood ancestor who was worried that his child would get up the duff with some muggle-born wizard’s baby and dilute the line. In my exceedingly expert opinion, they can shove those traditions up their dead arses, love.

Draco, smiling wryly: Alright, so I regret coming to you with this now, seeing as you don’t possess a shred of respect for Pureblood traditions.

Pansy, snorting delicately: Well, no, then I’d have to give up the loads of men I take home every night, wouldn’t I? *quirking a grin at him* It’s not as bad as all that, Draco. But what did you mean about Potter thinking you don’t want to be alone with him? Just because you mentioned a chaperone? Does he not know how you are ab– Oh. *blinking, murmuring* He wouldn’t know about all that, would he.

Draco, biting his lip and nodding: He doesn’t and– and he doesn’t really get any of it. He– *purses lips in embarrassment* He tried several times to… initiate physical– to mouth pr– I didn’t permit it… I mean– *weary sigh* I think I gave him the impression that I’m not serious about this? That– *swallows* That I’m not attracted to him or some such nonsense…

Pansy, trying to keep a straight face; eyes begin to water for not blinking: *strained* I can assure you that no one has ever thought that. *pause; conceding* Well, alright, maybe Potter. But did you ever bother to actually explain your thoughts on the subject? Talk to him about kissing and the like?

Draco, fiddling with his fork again: No, we haven’t talked yet. The mouth press today was completely spontaneous and I mean, I didn’t know– *blushing hard* –I didn’t know it would be so… *lamely* nice.

Pansy, amused: I believe I tried to tell you that in fifth year. *curiously* What precipitated it, though? What made you ask him? I rather thought it’d be the other way around; I mean if I’d let myself think it could ever happen at all…

Draco, quietly: He was upset… He thought I was playing with his feelings and wanted to call the whole thing off despite openly admitting that he likes me. And well– *bashful, but determinedly thrusting his chin up* I like him too and didn’t want lose hi– this, before it’s even begun properly and– *slightly desperate* He looked so… sad, and I don’t know where it came from but I really, really wanted to– to mouth press him…

Pansy, looking at him kindly: Well, it’s not as if there isn’t precedent for him thinking that. Though it’s been a long time… *mischievous* So then he kissed you. And you, of course, got flustered and ran away, right? Did you need my help figuring out what to owl him so he knows you’re still interested?

Draco, scowling: For your information, I reciprocated. *haughty* And our next meeting has already been arranged.

Pansy, faintly: You reciprocated? …How? *leaning in, wide-eyed, speaking fast* Draco, did you Fre–lick his tongue back? When is your next meeting? What are you going to do?

Draco, flustered: Merlin, Pans! *fidgeting with his napkin* I– I didn’t know how to but I sort of– went along with it? And don’t be nosy! *frowning even as he relents* It’s tonight, at– *nervous blushing* –at his place.

Pansy, insistent: But you liked it, right? *giggling* Did you get funny feelings in your bits, Draco? You can tell me–

Draco, snapping irritably: For heaven’s sake, Pansy, stop being so crass, it’s highly unbecoming of a well-bred Pureblood witch such as yourself! *scowling at her amusement* Now be of some use for once and tell me what to do while I’m at Potter’s tonight. Do I need to behave differently now that we’ve mouth pressed? Should I pretend it never happened? What if– *panicked* What if we– we end up mouth pressing some more?!

Pansy, visibly reigning herself in: I’m sorry, I’m sorry. *more seriously* Did you really like the kissing, Draco? Tell me that, and then I’ll tell you what to do.

Draco, not looking up, chewing on his lip: …Yes. Very much. I didn’t think anyone could– *colouring once more* He was very– *raising one hand to his forehead* He’s very skilled at it and– *weakly* God, I’ve barely been aware of myself since it happened, Pans, and– *under his breath* Merlin.

Pansy, carefully: All right, then. *touches his hand* You do what you want. You don’t need to act differently; Potter obviously likes you as you are. If you don’t want to kiss him again, just tell him. If you do... *pausing* I think you should trust yourself more than those rules you’ve always held close. And I think you should– *tiny grimace* –trust Potter, too. I don’t think he’ll take advantage; just be open with him and do what feels good and right. I can’t help you more than that, love.

Draco, listening intently: *slowly nods* …Right. It’s not– I’m not the only one breaking the rules, so… And– *smiles crookedly* Call me mad but I do trust him. There’s something about the man– it’s impossible not to put your faith in the bastard… *biting his lip over a small smile as he looks down at his hands*

Pansy, smiling: Might have to do with the whole vanquishing of the Dark Lord. …Might just have to do with the way you’ve always looked at him, even when you couldn’t admit it to yourself. Go, and have a good time tonight. Try not to think too much about the rules, for once. *light laugh* Although I’m not sure Potter will even give you the chance to.

Draco, shaking his head while blushing: No, he said he wouldn’t try anything and– *frowns lightly* Aggravating Gryffindor that he is– he’s bound to keep his word. *looks slightly disappointed at the prospect*

Pansy, delighted: You want to kiss him again! *thoughtfully* You know, I’ve often wondered what it would be like to kiss Potter, myself. Nothing serious, of course; a single shag would suffice. All that intensity… *eyes go distant*

Draco, snapping sharply: Pansy! *glares dangerously* Do keep in mind it’s me he likes? Ask your current boy-toy to service you better if you can’t keep it in your knickers for one afternoon and instead spend lunch daydreaming about other people’s romantic interests!

Pansy, raising eyebrows and mouthing the word ‘knickers’: Of course, love. It was just a thought. *trying not to laugh* That I promise never to think again, alright?

Draco, sullenly: Whatever. *checks his watch* Merlin, is that the time?! I’m sorry, love, I’m running terribly late for a meeting. *pushes his plate away and fishes out some Galleons* We’re meeting for drinks on Wednesday, yes? *leans over and pecks her cheek*

Pansy, archly: Are you sure you won’t be with Potter?

Draco, trying to scowl but grinning sheepishly instead: That’s a fair point; I’ll let you know. *laughs lightly at her dark frown* Alright, then. Floo you later? *leaves with a final wave*

Pansy, rolling eyes and waving him off with a shooing gesture: *watches him go* *mouth slowly spreads into a devious smirk* *fumbles in her bag and pulls out phone; dials* Pansy: Blaise? *dissolving into laughter* You are not going to believe what Draco just told me!

#virgin draco #innocent pureblood #the randy prat who lived #but what on earth should they discuss at potter's place?#i mean #harry did seem to have reasons #privacy and what not #but harry love #you just mouth pressed draco for the first time #ohhhh #the next chapter should be *interesting*#well at least l0vegl0wsinthedark and i think is is #probably because we can't stop laughing #poor harry #whoops was that a spoiler?#maybe #maybe not #guess you'll have to keep reading to see...

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i dont have an ao3 but shout out to my homeboys

once upon there was a gay on th e moon bc of a really lovng alternate au idea where elc turened BAD and klaus had a 1000 year nap and it'd take too long to fucking explain this so just roll with it ok. this gay--its elcrest btw hes also a Bad Boy now; he rly likes hot topic and thinks those t shirts with sarcastic sayings are actually rly funny but we all know they aren't--was feleing emo bc he couldn't see his bf xen o bc he betrayed him. so he stayed in his room whining abt how fgay he was until eve showed up

"hey whats wrong elc mother is here for u" even tho shes like 5000 years old and looks like shes 2 and also a rock (but im not rockist guys i promise). elc looked at her with his optics shining in the pale argentate light. good thing hes the seme here bc otherwise he'd start crying. in reality he rly wanted to fucking bone xeno bc obviously they had a lot of gay sex b4 they tried to kkill his mom once nad staring at rocks all day kinda sucks.

a;so burnign alive but hes kind of over that phase.

"im sad my bf left me for 1000 years can i pls go back to earth my raging hard on can't be satisfied bc rocks. my dicks not a jack hammer even tho im jacking it all the time (thats what guys do right bitch i dont know)" eve was so offended she put her hands on her giant rock self thats not just herself. its rly fucking complicated shut up u came here for the gay sex not instructibles on how physical forms manifest.

"we dont say ROCKS in this household young man!!!!"

"ＢＵＴＭＯＯＯＭＭＭＭＭ sorry i forgot to turn off my seme voice lemme adjust my mic it happens when my dick is hard" elcrest coughed twice "ok sounds good, BUT MOM I RLY NEED TO NUT. YOU KNOW NUT I'M SAYING... ITS ALL OR NUTTING BUT MOSTLY NUTTING IN XENO'S SWEET HOT BUNS"

"stop talking abt nuts u disgusting boy fine, god, if u leave me alone u gaylord"

and then eve punched him so hard in the dick that elcrest landed on earth in a giatn crater. how hes still alive is bc he still had some continues left like in mario even though this is a srpg game. once elc recovered he struck a pose and laughed evilly while twirling his mustache.

"finally...... I have RETURNED for xeno's hot man breasts! the world cannot stop me now!!" he cackly cackkled and quickly ripped off the fake mustache he put on just for this one scene. then elc went on a quest to find where klaus was and bc the author is too lazy to write any tansitional scenes.

elc found him chilling in his bed reading a book that was called Sweets and You: Do sweets make u inherantly Gay? elcrest made the PFFT noise. ofc they make u gay, fuckiing idiot book. he could write better than that author. in fact, elcrest was gonna do that when he got home bc obviously if this trash is published any shit elc wrote would be good.

NO! he had to focus! but he couldnt stop staring at xenos man boobs and felt his dick get hard again. elc got a nose bleed too bc thats what happens in anime right. i played persona 4 i know what im about

"damn u xeno." elc said thru his nosebleed and klaus looked up bc the author cant fucking rmemeber who is klaus and who is xeno and was surprised i remmebred his name but could not remember remember the 5th of novemember

"what"

"XENO IT IS I" since h e was caught red handed he just kickflipped through the window anyway. he did a sick flip then stood in the middle of klauses room. klaus made a gay gaspp

"alto! what are u doing hre!?" klaus said, bc in this AU that was his codename. elc wanted to be currently doing that but eve said no. fuck his mom. except please dont bc i know you sick fucks are thinking abt it.

"I HAVE COME TO BRING YOU BACK TO THE GAY SIDE, XENO WE HAVE COOKIES. bc i really miss that bammin slammin bootilicious sex we used 2 have and you are in fact bammin slammin bootilicious. also have u heard the word and gospel of our savior mother" elc said gayly

"dude no please stop preaching in my house im a changed man now" xeno pirouetted out of bed

"cmon man im ur seme u cant refuse we made like a yaoi blood oath u cant go back on ur word" elc pushed him back on thebed bc he'd have his ass yet anyway so no real use getting up. bc what is consent anyway hes Bad

"o shit really huh" klaus paused in thougt and bad elc laughed evilly. his plan was working!! all he had 2 do was the final touches! i mean besides touching xenos dick or whatever we're not yet. sorry u have to suffer for ten more paragraphs for sweat boy on boy. elc then turned around an produced a kitty keyboard from the recesses of his coat tails. xeno made the :O face and elc sat down bc playing while standing rly fuckin g sucks

"i wrote this for u on the moon so you'll be hypnotized by my sick beats" then he pulled the mic out of the keyboard and made a sick beatbox noise. No i dont know what the fuck it sounds like just google it. klaus blushued and made another gay gasp and elc made the >:3 face

then be started to play the piano keyboard. he was playing cruel angel thesis, their theme song that they had decided at 1am while xeno was drunk af. it was their theme song despite none of them speaking fucking japanese but they just felt it in their SOULS. it was rly gay. elc was going so fucking hARD that his hard on was getting 40 hard ons. and thats four tens the hard ons. and its rad.

except the ebst part was it was all in meows so it spoke 2 klaus' furry soul.

klaus nyaed softly in surprise and suddenly all his memories of being xneo were restored!!! he gave into the desire that he craved in his soul and opened his big man arms bc for some reaon everyone thinks dudes are thirsty af. dont ask me why

"elc1!1 pls take me!! but be gentle my ass hasnt been ravaged in 1000 years (sick reference to hilda and altos magical wedding night by sorunort like, comment, subscribe for more sick referneces like this one)" xeno mewled like afucking furry and elc nodded once. xeno walked up to elc an touched his man boob sensually even tho xeno is like 60 feet taller than elc just imagine it ok

elc now has sunglasses just bc i think its a funny image

"xeno...... lets do it" elc said softly

"o h elc senpai......." xeno meowed

"and i'll keep my sunglasses on bc i hate the sun #moonlifeforever" and xeno gayzed into his emotion shields sensuallyier. then elc kissed him passionately and their tongues battled for dominance but we all know klaus is a fucking bottom bitch as stated in hilda and altos magical wedding night by sorunort paragraph 17 and 18 bc it was a dialogue.

then elc ripped off his clothes bc hes fucking JACKED and jACKED OFF and xeno gay gasped forlike the third time in this fic. elc was fuckign shredded. legends told of his abs but this time it was real. almost like the fact that shaved ice flavors dont actually exists the syrup is just food coloring. his dong dangled in the breeze and xeno was turned tf on so he took off his clothes too bc hes not a god damn animal god whats wrong with u elc.

except elc didnt take off the sunglasses like he promised so those were still on dont worry readers i got you covered.

"get on ur knees dude and give me a wet willy but like on my dick" elc demanded

"wtf no"

"dude u cant say no its a smutfic"

"ok yeah i guess i kinda do like sucking dick or somethign"

"PREPARE TO EAT YOUR LAST DICK, XENO" elc cackcled and then xeno succed his dick like no tomorrow. elc practically creamed right there bc he couldnt get his rocks off on the moon for 1000 years (hahaha no im not gonna stop makign rock jokes). also xeno has no gagreflex bc he succed dick like a thousand times. once that was over elc just punched his dick in xenos hot cross buns and xeno meowed again

"why are u still a furry after 1000 years" elc asked but continued to Ravage The Promised Ass

"do u nyat like it erucu-kun???" xeno purred and elc shook his head

"no ur still banging its ok"

NUT THEN (i wanted to write but but i typoed and decided to keep it its funnier this way) xenos ass started 2 glow with a new holy light

"WHAT tHE FUCK" elc yelled

"my ass was actually the only way we could turn u good again! the more u fuck me the gooder u are!" and elc gasped gayily! no! his plan was working against him! he could alredy feel the goodness (haha get it bc fucking is hot i guess) turning him good! he had 2 pull out but found he couldnt. xeno was just too bammin slammin bootlicious

"HOW DARE YOU TRICK, I, ELCREST THE CONDICKTOR" he roared and xeno was tuned on again bc roaring is prolly a furry thign im not a furry im sorry

"it was for ur own good elc bc i love you!" xeno dokied so hard there were shoujo sparkles and even elc got shoujo sparkles. his azure optics glew like stella glow and u could almost see constellations in them. except there were sunglasses so u couldnt actually see it but the reader can. xneo was right. he was his tru love..... not the Mother..... his mom was lame anyway all she did was talk to rocks

"xeno.............." elc said wiwstfully before bangin xeno harder. their bangin was so intense everyone could hear it in the kngihts barraks. it was so loud that even ana in her coma woke up for like a second to be like The Gays are At It Again. soon enough the banging was sucessful. elc glew in a beautiful magical girl ligtht and he was become good again. xeno shed a single tear but licked it away

"im cured! xeno ur ass did it! plus that was hot" elc smiled and im pretty sure xeno cried bc look at that man. hes so beautiful. please take the $2 from my purse. they embraced in a gay way. it was cute and xeno did a thumbs up and ana's face appeared at 20% opacity in the bg and she was also winking

"elc i am so glad u are back and i love u" then they made out. for a rly long time too bc theyre so fucking GAY good lord how could stella glow keep this under wraps. then they decidd they had to punch eve in the rock bc she was a dickw hile elc was being emo and stuff. BUT FIRST, xeno got porked lke 80 more times b4 then bc 1000 years does a lot do u.

the end remember to like, comment, subscribe for more fics like this one, seeya

#choo choo motherfucker #im sorry

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