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I think the "Gabriel was looking forward to falling if it meant he was going to be with Beelzebub unlike Aziraphale (derogatory)" crowd are missing a vital point. They don't care about anything but themselves and each other. I'm completely sure Gabriel was expecting to be a Duke of hell if he fell, I have zero doubts, and even if he was not made one, Beelzebub is a lord there, he would have been fine as a demon. If God decides to destroy absolutely everything in the universe they will die, and they know this, but until then they can go to a different place and live happy together no matter what happens to anyone else. If God is set on destroying earth and only earth, then that is of no relevance to Beelzebub and Gabriel because they don't give a fuck about it. Gabriel would happily torture humans, he has been doing so as an angel for millennia. One of the reasons Crowley couldn't go back to heaven is because he loves earth. The reason why Aziraphale gave up everything in order to try to change heaven is because he loves earth. As per usual, the couple that has all the possibilities is the one that was in a position of power to begin with.

#good omens 2 #go2 #good omens #good omens season 2 #good omens spoilers #crowley #aziraphale #good omens s2 #Gabriel #Beelzebub #innefable husbands #innefable bureaucracy

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sneak peek at good omens season 3

#good omens #good omens 2 #crowley #aziraphale #gos2 #gos2 spoilers #good omens spoilers #good omens s2 #good omens season 2 #go2

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I'm not against people's headcanons in general but I don't like the coffee theory tbh. From my perspective it erases all the instances we have been shown in which Aziraphale was afraid of disobeying heaven and so certain that it is the side of true good that he simply chooses to ignore anything that contradicts his believes.

We've been shown several times that he has the cognitive dissonance commonly found in good people who sadly find themselves being raised in cults. To him, weapons are fine "in the right hands", and the right hands are decided by heaven. Being poor gives you opportunities, heaven says so. Jesus dying must be for the greater good. Everyone but one family drowning must be for the greater good.

He is shown time and time again by Crowley something that he already knows deep inside of him and that scares him. Heaven is wrong, everything he believed since before the beginning of time is wrong. And how scary must be.

He was horrified by the idea of falling and becoming a demon after the whole deal with Job. He was terrified of turning into someone like Crowley (even tho he already is like that).

He always realizes this after some time, he admitted to being wrong in several instances through history, but what he did after Crowley's confession is not out of character at all and I don't think spiked coffee needs to be involved for him to do exactly what he did. It fits his character perfectly.

I mean, he had to hug a kid's tumor and watch Morag die before he accepted that he was wrong about that issue. He is flawed like that and I love him for it (I also hate him right now, but don't we all).

#good omens 2 #go2 #good omens #good omens season 2 #good omens spoilers #crowley #aziraphale #good omens s2

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Lord Beelzebub offers everything they can to Crowley if he finds Gabriel for them because he's their little boyfriend (!?) but Crowley thinks they want the Archangel for hell's purposes and can't tell them that Aziraphale is hiding him because he needs to protect his angel from everything because that's his little boyfriend and I want to scream because Aziraphale is standing there in a corner being confidently wrong about everything and spewing bullshit about heaven being the side of good and love and whatever the fuck and "of course you rejected hell Crowley you are the bad guys" while you have tHe bAd gUyS melting down and hanging by a thread trying to protect the love of their lives and the most powerful Archangels having a bitch fight in heaven about who can sit on the "I give the orders" desk, I'm going insane

#Good Omens #good omens s2 #good omens season 2 #good omens spoilers #good omens 2 #Crowley #Beelzebub #beelzebub good omens #lord beelzebub #Gabriel #innefable bureaucracy #innefable husbands #go2

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endlessly delicious and also fucking devastating to me that aziraphale and crowley's insatiable all-consuming need to protect each other at all costs is the exact thing that is tearing them apart

#good omens #good omens spoilers #good omens season 2 #go2 #good omens s2 #good omens 2 #Crowley #Aziraphale

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oh i am absolutely obsessed with the way crowley assumes everyone falls in love exactly the way he did. what if a sudden rainstorm forces them beneath a canopy indeed, like oh, did you get caught in the rain once and fall head over heels in love with the angel giving you shelter, crowley? is that what happened? i love this show

#good omens #go2 spoilers #good omens spoilers #go2 #good omens season 2 #good omens 2 #Crowley #aziraphale

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aziraphale and crowley try to perform the tiniest most unobservable fraction of a miracle together and they end up producing a massive burst of power so astonishing in scope that it sets off alarm bells in heaven where it can be seen as an enormous purple beam and radiates with a force twenty-five times the energy needed to raise someone from the dead. we’re told only an archangel could perform an act of such earth-shaking consequence which again is the result of them trying to exert their abilities in the subtlest way possible so can you imagine what they’re going to be like in bed? talk about the second coming. in this essay i will

#LMAO THAT ENDING TOOK ME OUT #THIS WENT IN THE MOST UNEXPECTED AND BEST DIRECTION POSSIBLE HSHSHASHAJ #good omens #good omens 2 #good omens spoilers #go2 #good omens season 2

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Something something the way that Crowley introduced himself to Aziraphale the first time they met in the garden and reacted as if they had never met before. Something about him later behaving as if he did actually have those memories of their time in Heaven together and trying to pass it off as being someone different now. Something about Heaven's way of punishing angels that go against the plan by erasing their memories. Something about Crowley seeing Gabriel without his memory and saying "ask him properly." Something about "remember it now" "it hurts, to remember. my head isn't built for that" "I know. Do it anyway"

Something about "I know. Looking at where the furniture isn't"

Something about I know

#good omens #good omens 2 #good omens s2 #good omens spoilers #all i'm saying #go2

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I've been trying to figure out the best way to word this and I think I have so bear with me

Aziraphale loves Crowley. That's plain as day, he loves seeing Crowley happy, he loves receiving affection from Crowley. But I don't think he particularly likes making sacrifices or pushing himself out of his comfort zone, when Crowley has shown time and time again that he's willing to do the same for him.

I hope I'm not alone in thinking that this season has been showing us all the ways that Aziraphale and Crowley's relationship is sort of... inequal--Aziraphale doesn't respect Crowley's wishes about making changes to the Bentley and only stops once Crowley threatens to treat his belongings the same way, he's dismissive of his concerns about Gabriel, he's too distracted with his ball to listen to Crowley's warning about the actual small army of demons outside their door--all the while Crowley's TOP priority has been Aziraphale and making sure that he won't be harmed, by Gabriel, Heaven, or otherwise.

I mean this in the nicest way possible, because it makes perfect sense for his character, but I think that Aziraphale has always been portrayed as kind of selfish and hypocritical, and I think that's on purpose and it's something that he needs to work through before he'd ever be ready to take his relationship with Crowley to another level. I think he's started to take for granted that Crowley will always be there for him, and that what makes him happy will always make Crowley happy, when that's not the case. He said it himself: Crowley goes too fast for him. Despite all the progress he's made, he's still stuck in his desire to go back to a fantasy of "the good old days" that never existed.

#good omens #go s2 #good omens 2 #I love Aziraphale #But man he does need to do some work #I know he's facing religious trauma #and I'm never going to underplay that #but he really does take Crowley for granted

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Seeing Good Omens 2 from the perspective of an abuse victim (of any kind) is even more heartbreaking. I'm in awe of how well this series was crafted.

I haven't seen actual hate against Aziraphale but I understand the frustration of the fandom, I myself want to kill him for being a fucking moron BUT, at the very start, Crowley was happy. He had pure, childlike, unapologetic joy. Aziraphale may not remember Crowley specifically, but he was smitten with him then, with this happy, gentle face among a vast emptiness of harsh people who are told not to question anything.

I don't think we have seen Crowley this happy and "pure" after the fall and I think he will never be like that again, which is something Aziraphale doesn't understand. He may not remember Crowley in particular (maybe), but he sees what happened to the fallen, he knows that they are not full of wonder and childlike happiness.

I'm not saying Crowley (or victims of abuse) can't be happy ever again, he can achieve happiness, be excited, but I don't think he will ever have the childlike happiness that comes with innocence again. What heaven did to him can't be erased.

Wanting to make everything "perfect" like it used to be (before trust was broken and damage inflicted) is literally like expecting a victim of abuse not to have changed fundamentally after what has been done to them. What happened can't be fixed, and that's what is so heartbreaking about the whole confession and Aziraphale's response.

Crowley has always being kind (not good or nice, just kind), as an angel AND a demon, which is at odds with an institution that told him that killing and doing horrible things is good because that is what God wants, no questions asked. He went to God with suggestions because he has a moral compass and he was punished for not blindly doing awful things.

No matter what anyone does, that can't be changed and the innocence heaven took away from him can't just be restored by "making heaven better now". Aziraphale is too kind of heart too, but he is still caught in a war between what he knows is right and what he thinks he has to do to protect them both.

He didn't fall and he was not there when Gabriel told him to shut his mouth and die. In a way, he has been protected from the full truth of what heaven is like. He is not stupid, he just had the fortune of keeping his innocence more or less intact till now.

He still thinks "demons are inherently bad and angels are inherently good" because he has been conditioned to think that. He knows how badly going against heaven ends for angels. He thinks he can make heaven better with Crowley at his side, not because he wants to change Crowley into someone good (he knows Crowley is kind), but because he wants to see him filled with Innocent joy again. He knows demons are kinda miserable to be honest.

He is doing this out of love for Crowley who, in his mind, must have been his happiest during his time as an angel. He just wants them to be together without the constant fear of "when is heaven going to try to destroy us again?". When the realization of what heaven really is and has always been hits him it's going to be very painful, and it should be. He needs to realize that he made the love of his life think that he turned him down for the THIRD TIME, to chose a side who wanted them both dead, because he is not enough.

Because, after 6000 years of properly knowing each other, and of Crowley showing all the time that he is kind, at times even more than Aziraphale himself, he is still not enough. He is a demon who needs to be "fixed" before he can be loved. He basically put his heart on display and got told that everything would be better and they could be together if he went back to the place were the most traumatic event of his life took place and changed who he is because, you know, he is kind, but he is a demon.

This is why my heart actually broke when he put the sunglasses back. They hid not only that he was crying, but his most obvious demonic feature, which he has always been confortable showing to Aziraphale because he thought they were partners, together, that they always had each others back. But it turns out, at least in Crowley's mind, that Aziraphale was holding up the hope of changing him, of stopping him from being a demon, so he distances himself with the glasses, and even with that distance, he still tried, he was still trying desperately to keep Aziraphale with him because he loves him, he gave all he had in that kiss but it was still not enough.

We have the miscommunication of the century here. An angel that is giving up his freedom to try to restore the innocent joy of the love of his life -something impossible because you can be happy and live your best life after trauma but it changes you permanently and that can't be undone- and in the process, he made his partner think that he doesn't love him for who he is but for who he was or could be; and a demon who is so kind that he is giving up the being he loves the most because going back to a rotten institution like heaven would go against everything he believes in, but who is also so bad at communicating, he failed to tell Aziraphale that everyone up there cheerfully wanted him to die, that Gabriel quit because heaven wanted to destroy earth again, and that they are still planning to do so.

I'm pretty sure Crowley actually remembers Aziraphale from before The Beginning. He keeps saying that he doesn't remember all the people from the fall or from when he was an Angel but I think he's lying. He was the only one who recognized The Metatron, something not even Michael did, and he remembers his rank and the "password" for confidential stuff. It must be so painful for him to see Aziraphale choosing a side Crowley deeply knows to be rotten instead of their relationship because of a lack of understanding on Aziraphale's part.

@neil-gaiman sir, I'm screaming internally from all the pain, thank you.

#Good Omens #Good Omens 2 #GO2 #go2 spoilers #Good Omens Spoilers #Good Omens Season 2 #Aziraphale #Crowley #Good Omens Meta

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The absolute epic highs and lows Steve experiences in the thirty full seconds he gets to Jonathan’s house. Mope onto a front porch ready to apologize and get yelled at. See your girlfriend. Mopily tell her you’re just there to apologize to a guy because you’re an asshole and in the wrong. Realize she’s bleeding. Wonder if maybe you were right about him being bad news when she too quickly says it was an accident. Force your way in. Get yelled at by your girlfriend and the guy she’s cheating on you with who is also a freak who also beat you up who you are there to mopily apologize to. Girlfriend very seriously threatens to shoot you for your own good and comes within one second of fulfilling her threat before the guy notices the wall is haunted and said haunted wall immediately tries to fucking get you

#Steve Harrington #stranger things #series #Nancy Wheeler #jonathan byers

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cinematographers need to stop being so afraid of lighting. like i get it your movie is grim and serious, but i promise it would be even more grim and serious if i could actually see what was happening

#movies #series

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everything klaus does is so intricately and vitally intertwined with every single major plot point in the show and yet he is always on some bizarre side quest. simultaneously the most and least plot involved character.

#klaus hargreeves #the umbrella academy #tua #series

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my favourite consistent plot point in the umbrella academy is when a sibling is lost and confused about what to do next, so out of hopelessness decide to have a drink with their out of control, junkie, alcoholic brother, who just fucked over death itself, only for said brother to go on a wild rant about some story in his past, casually telling them the exact information they need to know without batting an eyelash

#the umbrella academy #tua #klaus hargreeves #series

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what my life is like on adhd meds

“it’ll be like night and day.” that’s what my doctor told me. this scared me to my core. what if I don’t notice much of a difference? what if i don’t have adhd, and all this time i’ve spent on trying to get a diagnosis was all for nothing? what if i’m just like this? what if i’m just a lazy person, not living up to my potential, and it’s my fault?

or, maybe just as bad, what if they do work? what if it is like night and day? what if something fundamental about myself changes, what if it turns me into a different person? what if my passion for my hyperfixations, my ability to speak at length about whatever is on my mind, my drive and excitement, all fades away into plainness? what if adhd is all that made me special? made me myself?

In the end, it was like night and day. Sometimes moonlight doesn’t illuminate all that the daylight can.

Keep reading

#ADHD #ADHD meds #ADHD medication

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I’m having one of those days were I don’t wanna do anything and I have no motivation for stuff but since I started my new medication I’ve been able to do things anyway and it’s the weirdest thing. Is this how neurotypical people feel?

Like I was thinking ”I don’t wanna make breakfast or eat it takes so much energy” but instead of having to fight against my body like I normally do I just...did it anyway?

Even though I’m lying on the couch and feeling lazy, it’s not the same fatigue or extreme inhabition keeping me here.

Like I could actually get up and do something if I wanted to right now but I don’t need to so instead I’m playing video games and not feeling bad about it for once.

If this is what neurotypical people feel like all the time I’m calling hacks. If I felt half as energized every day I’d consider myself living on easy mode!

You mean to tell me this is how it’s supposed to feel?!

#ADHD #ADHD meds #ADHD medication

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Me, before ADHD medication: WOW I just love sweets! I have a sweet tooth? More like multiple ahahaha! I can consume 5 chocolate bars, a bag of family skittles and every drop of ice cream in the fridge easily! Sickly sweet? You’re just weak

Me, now medicated: This lettuce is too sweet, I do not want it.

#ADHD #ADHD meds #ADHD medication