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For someone with an eating disorder I sure do suck at having an eating disorder

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They say that you are not your mental illness, but I honestly don't know who I am without it.

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You wanna know what happens when you're starving?

Your hair gets thin and limp. Noticeably. You don’t have enough nutrients to help it stay healthy.

You get so. Fucking. Cold. All the time. People don’t want to touch you, because you’re so cold. You’ll be shivering under a blanket, in a hot tub, by a fire, wherever you are.

You’ve heard that seeing food will be upsetting? You have no idea. Even if it’s nowhere near you, or on a screen, or in the hands of a stranger, you’ll resent it because you want it. Some nights you’ll start crying because you miss it so much.

Everything will become numbers. You aren’t just walking your dog anymore, you’re counting the minutes and calories you’re burning. You aren’t enjoying a warm day, you’re trying to figure out if the higher temperatures are making your heart rate go up so you burn faster.

Your social life will die. You’ll be skittish and avoid people when they have food in case they offer some. You’ll say no to parties and dates and meet-ups because you think there might be food. You’ll grow paranoid, terrified of people finding out. You’ll start to despise people who love you solely because they want to help.

You’ll hurt. That pang in your chest? It’s probably because you’re not eating. Your stomach? Say goodbye to its silence. Your butt? It’ll hurt whenever you sit down. You’ll get headaches, heart pains, even breathing will eventually become exhausting.

And eventually, you’ll die. Maybe you ate more than usual and couldn’t handle the thought of gaining, and exercised so much that your heart overexerted itself. Maybe you actually did gain, and that enough was enough to make you swallow a handful of pills. Maybe your blood pressure lowered to fatal levels, or maybe you passed out and hit your head on a table.

It all ends the same.

Don’t let the “pro ana’s” fool you, this isn’t a glamorous lifestyle. This is a deadly and painful illness.

I feel like a lot of people need to remember that before they skip their meals.

Don’t do this to yourselves, you gorgeous humans. You deserve to live. You deserve friends. You deserve love.

You deserve to eat.

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my last three brain cells when i finally start losing weight again

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Me after I eat literally anything

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looking for new ed accounts to follow! like or reblog this for me to find you!✨

#pro ana #proana #pro ed #proed #thinspiration #ed memes #tw ed #tw ed behavior #tw ed mention #tw ed things #bulimyc #bulimiz #buliimix #thin #thinspo #ed

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me: *freaking out over the cals in a kiwi*

my ed: yeah that makes sense :)

also me: *binges on chocolate and ice cream*

my ed: wait no-

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I made a thing

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Idea:

I lose weight and don’t gain it back

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My Ed trying Me being

to count my bad at

calories maths

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*GIRLFRIEND

Getting so thin that my boyfriend can throw me over his shoulder like nothing.

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i came back home for the first time in a while because of the obvious virus and the first thing my mom said is that i got bigger and should consider dieting 😗✌🏻

did she just say that to medically diagnosed anorexic????

my brain rn:

STARVE

#pro ana #proed #pro ed #not pro just using tags #pro mia #tw ed #anamia #binge #ed memes #ed #anerxya #anerexa #thin #eating disoder things

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anyone wants to become ana buddies while in quarantine?🥺💜

#pro ana #pro ed #pro mia #anamia #anerxya #anerexa #diet #calories #ana buddies #ana #thin #eating disoder things #ed memes